Darkness has a hunger
that's insatiable
Lightness has a call
that's hard to hear
Maybe I'm just scared to leave
and I, I need something to...
But the thought of being so
far away from... it kills me.
Maybe this is just crazy
and confusion talking,
but I need to get this out.
Meine dammen und herren,
mesdames y messieurs,
and variations on that theme,
including kiddos from
one to one thousand,
step right up!
Ha-ha.
Honk-honk!
Ha.
Ooh.
Huh?
Woo!
Ah.
Toss and turn!
Spin and learn!
Toss and turn!
Spin and learn!
Toss and turn!
Spin and learn!
Toss and turn!
Spin and learn!
Toss and turn!
Spin and learn!
Catch yourself
before you burn.
I don't know when I noticed
Life was life at my expense
The words of my heart lined
up like prisoners on a fence
The dreams came in like needy
children tugging at my sleeve
I said I have no way of
feeding you, so leave
That needed healing
I couldn't hear them
for the thunder
I was half
the naked distance
Between hell
and heaven's ceiling
And he almost pulled
me under
Someone's on the telephone
desperate in his pain
Someone's on the bathroom
floor doing her cocaine
Someone's got his finger
on the button in some room
No one can convince me
we aren't
Thank you.
Okay, so?
Yeah. No.
But I, I have other songs,
if you...
Got something lighter?
No one can convince me
We aren't gluttons
for our doom
I could use a busboy.
Gluttons for our doom
We are gluttons for our doom
But I tried to make
this place my place
I asked for providence
to smile upon me
With his sweet face
Yeah, but I tell you
Hey, everybody, look.
Una co-estrella!
Honk-honk!
My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
-By grace, my sight
-My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
-By grace, my sight
-My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I will not be a pawn
For the prince of darkness
Any longer
Finally.
Sorry.
I can work through lunch.
Is that
a love song I hear?
You know I never
touch the stuff.
Do you wanna
go to the city tonight?
You finish the application?
I--
don't--
think--
I--
have--
the discipline--
to--
train.
Please!
It's Holy Holy Heavens night
in Berlin.
Only to be abandoned the moment
you spot blue hoodie boy,
or whoever else catches
one of your twin eyes?
Blue who?
Remember last New Year' you said
it's time to let yourself fall?
Nobody has knocked me
off my feet.
You lack inertia, ami.
I'm buried deep.
Forget your problemas
and get your best space suit,
The Children are set to
rocket to the heavens!
Mi hijo,
The Children eat free.
Yes, Mother.
What if
something's wrong?
Something's
always wrong with her.
And then I think about
my fear of motion
Which I never could explain
Some other fool across
the ocean years ago
Must have crashed
his little airplane
How long till
my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever
reach that kind of light
I call on the resting soul
of Galileo
Dos tequilas.
King of insight
Look what I had to
overcome from my last life
I think I'll write a book
How long, how long,
how long, how long
How long, long, long, long,
long, long, long, long
Long, long, long, long
How long till
my soul gets it right
Can any human being ever
reach the highest light
Except for Galileo
God rest his soul
King of the night vision
King of insight
How long
What in the holy holy heavens
are you here as tonight?
First, "holy"
isn't heavenly.
From English to Latin
to Greek to Hebrew,
holy has a more tangled
origin than orange.
So you're a linguist?
Words are just a passion.
I'm gravity.
Noted. Well, Gravity,
I'm Levity.
Now I'm running
Gravity?
To the end of the earth
And I'm swimming
To the edge of the sea
-And I'm laughing
-Gravity?
I'm under a starry sky
This world was meant for me
Don't bury me
Gluttons for our doom
We are gluttons
for our doom
Come on over now
Come on over, baby
You tell me it's holy holy
I don't know what that is
Come on over now
They call it
the fullness of time
-I don't know what that is
-Come on over, baby
Hey, holy, console me
Some power controls me
Remorse it, I force it
Can't free it, so be it
Don't free it
Just be it
I asked for providence
To smile upon me
With his sweet face
Just be it
Just be it
Just be it, just be it
Touch me
I'm so beautiful
Rub your hands
Across my head
Just like this
Come with me
Now it's not worth it
if you don't
Oh
Are you crying
I am crying
Jump, jump, jump so high
Watch me let you down
If I stumble I will stumble
If I fall I will fall
Touch me, fall
I've been lookin'
to find you
But it's a little too late
Too soon
And I'm looking out and far
Spirits are your doom
-Gluttons for our doom
-In you
Gluttons for our doom
In you
-In you
-In you
-In you
-In you
Come on over now
Come on over now
Come on over, baby
You tell me it's holy holy
-I don't know what that is
-Come on over now
You call it
the fullness of time
I don't know what that is
Hey, holy, console me
Some power controls me
Remorse it, I force it
Don't free it
Just be it
Just be it
Just be it
Just be it, just be it
Just be it
Just be it
Just be it, just be it
Just be it
Just be it
Just be it, just be it
So, what do you wanna
be when you grow up
and all that small talk?
So we're doing that then?
Sorry.
We don't have to.
Finished college
year before last.
Barely. Now I'm in
historical preservation
to pay the rent.
And to feed the soul, you what?
Make music in the sorrow key?
You look like someone with
a lot of songs inside.
Sad songs
no one wants to hear.
I just graduated, and
you're two years out.
Is that scary?
I just keep the fire lit
under my focus.
What's your plan?
You mean,
what's my mother's plan?
Ah, one of those.
She got me a job at a...
And, uh, it would
feed the rent, but...
What would feed the soul?
Maybe you need
a roadie warrior.
Anything's possible.
Not everything.
Sorry, I, the time.
Nice to chat kid fears with
you and all that small talk,
but I gotta be up early for--
My plan is to run
away to the circus.
To feed the soul.
Honk-honk.
Every kid's dream.
Every mother's nightmare.
And day one of that foolish
plan starts in T-minus 29.
Apologies for my...
Who will be
the keeper of my heart
if I reveal all my darkness
as well as my light?
Themes better suited
to needy songs,
no one needs to hear.
Ah.
Ta-da!
Can I see you play sometime?
I'll try to get you on the list
when the next show comes up.
Okay, night.
Morning.
Doors closing.
If I fall I will fall
Touch me, fall
Birdie?
Tell me you made it home alive?
Some things
I hold too tightly
Some things I'll never
I'll never touch
Oh, but I'm wearing down
the stones in the river
You see, all my life
I've fed the rent with
I've filled the need with
All my life I've painted
with anger's brush
Here is my love and anger
You see now
These are my gods
These are my scars
Here is my love and anger
Oh, and my arms are burning
But they're open--
Decide your destruction.
Hola. Hello. Konnichiwa.
Ni Hao Ma.
Oh, and for you neophytes,
I'm Mama Bird.
Son, the Ivy Leagues
snatched you away
from the Ivy that hatched you,
but you're finally free to
return to my fabulous nest
for as long as you like.
Weeks. Months. Eternity.
And whenever you miss
your friends, invite them.
You're all welcome here,
day or night,
because I'm never letting
you out of my sight again.
To dodging panes of glass,
my heart,
my soul, my...
Birdie?
He flew the coop.
Here is my love
I've lifted me with
I've lifted me through
Lift me
And wishing I'm fine
Even though I know
You're not this time
I say love will come to you
Hoping just because I spoke
the words that they're true
As if I offered up a
crystal ball to look through
Where there's now one,
there will be two
Where there's now one
There will be two
Dodging your memories
In a field of knives
Always on the outside
looking in on others' lives
I say love will come to you
Hoping just because I spoke
the words that they're true
As if I offered up a
crystal ball to look through
Where there's now one
There will be two
Finding out if someone's
worthy of a fall requires more
than getting to know
the texture of their tongue.
Mother. Yuck.
What if what I'm looking
for doesn't even exist?
Uh-huh.
What if you're just afraid
of losing the freedom
to flit from one
possibility to another.
Will you lift me through
my love and anger
You see now
these are my gods
These are your scars
Could you lift me
through my love and anger
Oh, and my arms are burning
But they're open wide
You call that lighter, kid?
Still need that busboy.
I will be the reaper
But who will be the keeper
Who'll be the keeper
of this heart
Of my heart
Hey, hey, it's me.
You said you would put me on
the list next time you play.
Yeah, it was sold out, so...
Do, do you wanna chill,
like, tomorrow
or maybe the next day,
or, or even now.
We could get some Thai food,
watch a cinema or maybe...
Okay, how about this? Camping.
-I don't sleep on the ground.
-That's not a problem.
Ivy's got all the stuff
that we could--
Where would we go?
Anything's possible.
No, you need a destination.
I got a map.
I got a map.
It's in here somewhere.
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
Tonight I'll be sleeping
on a mountain top
I got a billion stars
for my witness
In the morning I'll go
down when the sun comes up
And I'll take a drink
from the Bitterroot River
Have you been lonely
Yes, I've been lonely
I've been lonely too
Sorry, just a low fever.
But if you really
need me to work...
Thanks, Wink.
I'll check in on Monday.
Have you been lonely
Yes, I've been lonely
I've been lonely too
Get out the map
Get out the map
And lay your finger
anywhere down
And leave the figuring
to those we pass
On our way out of town
Don't drink the water
There seems to be
Something ailing everyone
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
You're gonna love him
good and strong
While your love
is good and young
Get the good stuff,
Ivy's treat.
Nobody's mom is buying me
anything.
Tonight we'll be sleeping
on a mountain top
Below a billion stars
as your witness
In the morning we'll go
down when the sun comes up
And take a drink from
the Bitterroot River
Have you been lonely
Yes, I've been lonely
I've been lonely too
Have you been lonely
Yes, I've been lonely
I've been lonely too
Get out the map
Get out the map
And lay your finger
anywhere down
We'll leave the figuring
to those we pass
On our way out of town
Don't drink the water
There seems to be
Something ailing everyone
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
Could I love you
good and strong
While our love
is good and young
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
Could I love you
good and strong
While our love
is good and young
It'll pass.
Don't worry.
-You--
-I--
Sorry, sorry, you go.
I hate camping.
- Wha...
- This is, this is okay.
What, why in the world falls
are we here?
What were you gonna say?
You want S'mores,
or are you good with the agave?
I'm good.
More than--
Did you check the forecast?
No, did you?
This was your plan, so...
Oh, come on.
Ta-da.
Sorry, I, uh, I should have--
Yeah, welcome to my luck.
S'more?
All yours.
So, tell me about your love
life and all that small talk.
Mm. You first.
Love songs in my family
tend to be the angry kind
that end in scars.
So, I locked myself up
behind the promise
never to be lifted through.
Sorry, I've been told
I can be a lot to take.
Your turn.
In the companion department,
there was one I thought
I was falling for,
but mostly loneliness and, uh...
Hi.
Yeah, yeah, we're fine.
Yes, yes,
we have all the food
and drink we could
possibly need.
Yes, it's just rain.
Okay, love you too.
Bye.
Welcome to my luck.
Hey, the other night you said
circus was every
mother's nightmare.
Ivy's a doer,
not a dreamer.
Dreams are all
my mom ever had.
However small.
Is she happy
with all your success?
Even if I never sold
a record or a ticket,
she'd still think I made it.
Mm, just for trying.
It's supposed to be
waterproof.
Sorry, again.
Have you sold any?
Records?
Studios aren't really
in the current budget.
Do you let that stop you?
Do you think our
parents' expectations
-limit us?
-I'd say elevate.
I am glad we didn't go home
together the other night.
Me too.
This is better.
Now what?
I think it's time you
sang me a song in D minor.
I think it's time
you did me a circus trick.
Uh, step right up.
When are you leaving?
Must be, what,
T-minus 26 by now?
Except...
gotta finish that
application first.
But this is blank and--
Due tomorrow.
Qui est ton clown?
It's a big decision.
But we could
fill this out now.
Or...
we could set things on fire.
Come on.
There are certain things
you can't explain
You just accept like sun
Like rain
It's a force of nature
Push and pull
The two of us combustible
Don't be afraid
Just light the match
Burn the room
This is the sound
of a heart going boom
We light up the sky
Like the 4th of July
Baby, I'm ready to catch
You can try to hide
your fears from me
But can't deny
the chemistry
Come on
I know lonely
leaves an awful scar
A miracle
we got this far
Come on
Just light the match
Burn the room
This is the sound
of my heart going boom
We light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Baby, I'm ready to catch
A little corner of the world
where we can feel
totally at peace.
Untouchable.
Yeah, my gig
the other night wasn't...
There was no gig.
I know.
I, uh, saw you through the--
-Why am I telling you this?
-Hey, no worries.
I'll be front and center
as soon as you--
Being fed by some brawny acrobat
somewhere outside Paris.
He's saving me
I don't even think
he knows it
It's a strange way
to show it
As distant as last night's
dream unravels
He's saving me
I'm a very lost soul
I was born with a hole in my
heart
The size of
my landlocked travels
Excutez les comptences
latralement la camra.
Action.
Faire le pont.
Grand cart.
Hey.
Grand cart latral.
Ah, ooh.
-Oh, no, no, no, no.
-You're going down.
Moving on to l'artistique.
Qui est ton clown?
Just light the match
Burn the room
This is the sound of
our heart going boom
Light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Baby, I'm ready to catch
September 15th just opened up.
It's yours as long as
you can get a track out
-in time to promote it.
-Really?
Thank you, Boston.
You, you won't regret it.
Oh, yes, I will. Next.
Everything you
need to do instead of dream.
Except a bunch of cash.
Now, this is everything I need.
Qui est ton clown?
He gotta be
in here somewhere, right?
Mesdame and messieur,
and variations of kiddos
ranging from one to one
thousand, step right up.
If we can see it
We can be it just like that
I feel it coming
Why would I run when
All signs say you
Baby, if you want me too
Meet me at the end
of this fuse
The right thing happens
every time I stop and think
It blows my mind
It's like manifesting
destiny
The two of us
were meant to be
Come on, it's time to
This'll do.
For now.
Just light the match
Burn the room
This is the sound of
my heart going boom
We light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Light up the sky like the 4th
of July
Light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Light up the sky like the 4th
of July
We light up the sky
like the 4th of July
Let me know if you
think it's good enough to--
It's great.
Sorry.
I've been avoiding this
too long.
Hey, kid, I was
startin' to think
-that maybe you skipped town.
-Me?
No, that would be your...
I've just been busy and...
I'm coming home Wednesday.
This Wednesday?
Already?
Yeah, yeah.
The date got moved up, so...
Okay. Okay, yeah,
I'll figure something out.
You can help me burn
all the loose flack.
-You sound happy.
-Yeah, I woke up
in the middle of a dream, some
old woman telling me
to get out there
and plant some seeds
and watch 'em grow.
No more running, right?
The world was meant
for me, for all of us.
I met this guy and, uh,
the way he makes me feel
is nothing like I've ever...
I was looking for a body to
hold me when I need to be held
and leave when I need
to be left alone.
And I guess I thought
nobody exists like that.
Walls. Why do I have so many?
Bad news.
Vous tes invits?
-You actually applied.
-First day of class is--
-Trois Septembre. That's--
-Too soon.
Woo.
So, Mom, remember about
the, uh, uh, Paris
that I was talking about?
I...
I, um...
-I was--
-Spit it out.
-Ivy?
-Ah.
Ah, stunning isn't she?
The hand painting is,
and the 3D printing tech.
Ah, it's k*ller, huh?
I couldn't stop
the march of the mutant cells
and I refused to live
with any of the OG eyes.
So we chisel out the bad,
patch up what's left and...
What was it about Paris?
Later.
Now, I just have
to convince them
to let me be
my own test subject.
I'm gonna clear my head
Sorry, Wink.
Still feeling under the weather.
I'll check in again on Monday.
Everything okay?
Perfect.
Get out the map
Get out the map
And lay your finger
anywhere down
We'll leave the figuring
to those we pass
On our way out of town
Don't drink the water
There seems to be something
Ailing everyone
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
The saddest sight
my eyes can see
Is that big ball of orange
sinkin' slyly down the trees
Sittin' in a broken circle
while you rest upon my knee
This perfect moment
will soon be leavin' me
Last time you
said you didn't like camping,
but here we are again.
Oh and 5%, if that has
anything to do with it.
- What?
- Chance of rain.
I checked.
Seems like good odds.
I was 12, visiting Mom
and fianc number,
oh, who knows?
Lockwood, we called him.
Drove a sports car
Red leather seats.
Anyway, that fall I'm back
at Dad's when Mom calls.
"You watching the news?"
We didn't live in the same time
zone, let alone the same town.
So she just put the phone
to the TV
and, "Lockwood was arrested on
charges of first-degree m*rder
after confessing to slashing
the throat of a young woman
at the campground
with his father.
You know, they traced it back to
that weekend when I was there,
with him and Mom camping
in a tent, kinda like that one.
Oh. Holy...
Oh, here,
a trick Mom taught me.
You know, we can leave
if you...
No, no, I...
I, I like confronting it
with someone
that makes me feel safe.
Insert awkward segue
echoing, "Who will be
the keeper of my heart
if I reveal
all the darkness inside?"
There's more?
Well, if you haven't
already, that would make
-some kind of song.
-One more no one wants to hear.
I would.
I would.
How's that studio coming along?
Closets have their
limitations,
but I'll figure it out.
You must have something
we need to laugh about?
Some fatal darkness?
Does it have to be
a mother thing?
'Cause I can't top that.
Ivy, she's really strong,
while I...
Walls.
Ta plus grande
faiblesse?
My greatest weakness.
All my life I've been pretty
much lost in every aspect of...
I get overwhelmed
at all my goals
and confused when I'm supposed
to choose just one.
And when I do, I get frustrated
and just slip
into anything else.
That's in your stars.
You're lucky
your Leo moon is there
to organize
that Gemini sun.
What if my moon
is no match for my sun?
What if I just keep slipping
my entire...
What if I never get good enough
at any one thing for inertia?
Maybe you're good enough
faster than most people.
-That's why you slip.
-I have news.
Why don't you write down
a list of your goals
and just work
your way down it.
Vous tes invits.
I'm running away
to the circus.
-Every kid's dream.
-Every mother's nightmare.
I leave for Paris
trois Septembre.
11 days from today?
I'm supposed to come
ready with a clown,
which is another goal
for my list.
Qui est ton clown?
What does that even mean?
Do I have to find it?
Am I already it?
I did record one song
in my closet
inspired by my mom,
and by you.
-It's close, just needs some--
-No disclaimers.
I'm coming home with a stone
strapped onto my back
I'm coming home
with a burning hope
Turning all my blues
to black
I'm looking for
a sacred hand
To carve into my stone
A ghost of comfort
angel's breath
To keep this life
inside my chest
This world falls on me
With hopes of immortality
Everywhere I turn
All the beauty
just keeps shaking me
Now I'm running
To the end of the earth
And I'm swimming
To the edge of the sea
And I'm laughing
I'm under a starry sky
This world was meant for me
Don't bury me
Carry me
Now I woke up
in the middle of a dream
Scared the world
was too much for me
Sejarez said, don't let go
Just plant the seeds
and watch them grow
I've slept
in rainy canyon lands
Cold, drenched to my skin
I always wake
to find a face
To calm
these troubled lands
This world falls on me
With dreams of immortality
Everywhere I turn
All the beauty
just keeps shaking me
This world falls on me
With dreams of immortality
Everywhere I turn
All the beauty
just keeps shaking me
This world falls on me
With dreams of immortality
Everywhere I turn
All the beauty
just keeps shaking me
You see, my finger work is...
And it needs way more production
than I'm capable of
in my closet.
I'm still trying to like
get it perfect perfect.
Well, perfect's not possible--
He says to the Virgo.
That was amazing.
Do you ever wonder
why we, that night.
I didn't even want to go out.
Then it was dark and loud.
And crowded, and then...
And then...
And then...
Oh, 11 days.
That's crazy.
10 days now.
Judging by the moon.
I'm trying to be thankful
for the time
I've got to spend
with you, but I...
It's really hard.
It's not the only thing.
Could you lift me
through my love and anger
Yeah, I want to see your eyes.
You see now
these are my gods
These are your scars
Will you lift me through
my love and anger
Oh, and my arms are burning
But they're open wide
I will be the reaper
If you will be the keeper
You are the keeper
of this heart
Of my heart
This has all been too easy,
which makes me nervous.
But then I remember that
in a couple weeks I leave.
So, I mean, we're both
having fun, right?
Life is a constant slip
in and out of...
I love when I pretend
to be strong.
Real world's calling.
Do we have to answer?
Promise you'll tell her
about Paris.
Want reinforcement?
No, I need to go solo.
Okay.
Does it feel good,
coming home?
Feels like I got more of a life
in the inside than out.
Pretty much begged the judge
for any kind of help
before I got out.
They gave me
a useless appointment.
All they said
was stop and breathe.
When you said on that report
when she was choking you,
she said, "Aren't you dead yet?"
-What if next time you are?
-Pull in here.
One, two, three...
...four, five, six.
We own nothing
Nothing is ours
Not even love so fierce
It burns like baby stars
But this poverty
is our greatest gift
The weightlessness of us
As things around
begin to shift
Remember everything
I told you
Keep it in your heart
like a stone
And when the winds have
blown things round
And back again
What was once your pain
Will be your home
Everything in its own time
Everything
In its own time
-No, no. This is your song.
-It's yours now. Free.
Just, just play it
for me sometime.
The whole range. Yes.
Operation Ivy is a go.
That Italian blue.
Tres, tres.
It's nice, too nice.
Especially considering
I asked for a suitcase.
For why?
Where are you going?
Other than to go down
with me to production.
Wait, wait. So... Um...
Step right up, Mother, Ivy.
I know that your due
for me is, well...
but...
Ah.
As an assistant.
Can you...
Ivy,
the 3D printer is down.
Hold on, hold on, I have like
a... I have a whole, just...
Ho ho.
Whoop, woo.
Ah.
-Ta-da.
-Mm-mm.
But, to feed the soul.
Ta-da.
I've been accepted into
the next session.
So, lots of choices.
Luckily, you have
an easy decision.
Except that...
Forget production.
I'm taking you
to see your office.
The view isn't as fly as mine,
but you'll have an even
nicer one in no time.
Come on.
Got a boy so special
He makes the fall
turn spring
I say, everything is dying
He says, everything is free
He's a little revolution
in this heart of mine
And when everything
blows up
It's like a brand new rhyme
Bang, bang, bang goes the U
Bang, bang, bang, you and I
Someone called
"Robin" is here.
Good morning, kid.
It's actually nearly
dinnertime, Mom.
Oh.
This place is far out.
Oh, wow.
I didn't tell you this before
'cause I knew you'd think
it's too fast, but I'm gonna
get married again.
Don't worry, don't worry.
This one's gonna take
real good care of me.
He promises to take me back
east as soon as he gets out.
And, um, you're never gonna
guess his age.
Eight months older than you.
I know, it's wild.
So, like, I gotta
get a ring on my finger
before he finds out that, like,
I'm really an old lady, so...
Big favor to ask.
You'll walk your mom
down the aisle, right?
Come on, kid.
-I--
-Come on.
-I actually-- I booked a gig.
-Come on.
Yeah, I got a lot of work to do.
What? Oh, my God.
I'm finally gonna
get to hear my kid play.
That's so far out.
Ooh, maybe I can get married,
you know,
right there
as your grand finale,
like, right before you--
Right before I have to run
to the edge of the sea
to find you again?
One, two, three.
Four, five, six.
Last New Year's I resolutioned
to let someone
knock me off my feet and...
now I think I'm finally falling
and it scares me.
But he's beautiful,
inside and out
and he's definitely turned
my summer upside down, so...
You have no idea how
lucky you are.
Look how hard she's trying.
She's throwing you
a going away party.
She's throwing herself
a look what you'll be missing
if you leave
my fabulous nest party.
That you're late for.
Your father was...
And your siblings flew
as soon as a window opened.
But you,
you've always stuck by me.
It's decided.
I've, I've decided.
Why?
Whatever.
Growing up, all you ever
said was anything's possible.
It was you driving me.
Marching band, math club,
Spanish club,
ecology, drama club,
student council, debate team,
golf club, baseball,
whatever happened to
don't just dream, do?
You're not packing
in that trunk, are you?
Why not?
It's nomadic and fragile
and entirely impractical.
You'll be lucky if it even makes
it to Paris on one piece.
I'm only gone 148 days.
Who knew I'd ever look forward
to sleeping on the ground?
After one stop,
I got a surprise.
I have a surprise too.
No way.
Honk-honk.
New goal.
I wanna take pictures in front
of all the famous landmarks,
but I don't want the same
kind of boring pictures
that every tourist takes.
So I will bring my noses
from place to place
and get random people
to take portraits
in front of everything.
I'm excited for once.
Should I be excited or scared?
Since I will be
knee-deep in Paris
until summer gives up her fight.
Surprise, happy early birthday.
Bienvenido. Willkommen.
Come on in.
Doc.
Meet The Doctor,
a client of my father
who just so happens to be
a k*ller music producer.
-Yeah, I know who the... Hi.
-Hi.
So you're the one taking this
twisted, blind sided highway?
-Where's, uh...
-Oh, the Dream.
She's on tour.
But I, I gave you foam noses.
Which I absolutely
need and love.
Plus, this is kind of
for me too.
I've always wanted to learn
how to produce music, so...
-Oh, a classic slip.
-Yes.
So I hear you need a track to
compel the kids to The Fountain?
Have you ever recorded
in a studio before?
Yeah, yeah, of course.
It's just been a while and I,
I don't have a song ready
with lyrics and everything.
-Stop.
-He's a genius just like I said.
I don't know when I noticed
life was life at my expense
The words of my heart lined
up like prisoners on a fence
The dreams came in
like needy children
Tugging at my sleeve I said
I have no way of feeding you,
So leave
-Sorry.
-Well, that melody's magic.
But ever think about clicking
down the BPMs and, you know,
chilling the tone out
a little bit?
Unlucky darkness
is kind of my whole--
Hm, okay.
Let me show you
something.
Dreams came in
like needy children
Tugging at my sleeve
I said I have no way
of feeding you
So leave
You see, it makes you
wanna lean in.
You know, like, check what
you're trying to tell us
about your life.
Sorry, I...
One, two, three
Nothing's for free
Four, five, six
One, two, three
Nothing's for free
Four, five, six
One, two, three
Nothing's for free
Four, five, six
Pick up the sticks
Manic blood
runs thick my friend
Are you looking
for a clean escape
Here's a chance
to make a choice
Are you aware of the fire
beneath your feet
One, two, three
Nothing's for free
Four, five, six
Pick up the sticks
and go home
You better own up to me
I said you better own up
Go home
You should listen
to The Doctor.
Your melody is magic.
-One, two, three.
-And your words are hopeful.
-Four, five, six.
-But you must know that.
I know exactly what my song is.
It's all ready to be
laid down to rest.
Your gig is in a week.
You are not even gonna be here
for it, so why do you care?
What if I don't go?
Don't even think of not.
I won't be the reason you slip.
The basement lies within us
I scare myself
from time to time.
The fear comes
through the door
With how dark some of
my thoughts and feelings are.
-Okay.
-There's nothing
Left between us
-I got you fun noses.
-I just wanted--
As the fear becomes a roar
We're all born
in the devil's scorn
He wants to see you die
I'm asking you
Are you true
'Cause everything they say
is a lie
Is a lie now
One, two, three
Nothing's for free
Four, five, six
Pick up the sticks
and go home
Are you okay?
No, I, I saw her.
Uh, my mom, when I
picked her up from work.
Why do you always smile
when you talk about--
I don't.
She dreamed
of being a musician too.
Even has piles of lyrics
she wrote when she...
Most better than mine.
But dreams being the cancer
of the common class.
What if I'm doomed
to be like her?
Where are you right now?
Doing instead of dreaming.
Let's just, new energy,
no over-analyzing,
no pressure to talk about
some deep impossibility.
Forget The Doctor. Let's just,
let's just go to the mountains.
We'll clear our heads.
We'll go--
I really don't feel like
sleeping on the ground tonight.
Hey. Hey!
Hey!
It's our last weekend.
Let's just get
in the car and drive and...
Before summer gives up.
I crave inertia
every move made
So I can stop
Whatever this madness
is in me
Spinning like a top
On a bed of anxiety
Over a deep dark drop
Down into nothingness
Into without-you-ness
Wait.
Fine!
Sorry, I tried.
Good luck with being unlucky.
Luck is having a safety net
to catch you when you fall,
no matter how high you leap.
Or maybe luck is what you get
when you stop sabotaging
yourself.
I wanna clear my head
I wanna drink that sun
-I wanna love you
-One, two, three
-Nothing's for free
-I wanna love you
Four, five, six, pick up
the sticks and go
-Nothing's for free
-Good and strong
Nothing's for free
Pick up the sticks and go
One day I'll change
You'll be the first one
that I call
I owe you an apology
Too many thanks
and that's not all
I've been running long
before I learned to crawl
I've been running long before
I learned to crawl
I've been running long
before I learned to crawl
-I wanna clear my head
-Now I'm running
-I wanna drink that sun
-Now I'm running
I wanna love you
good and strong
While our love
is good and young
Now I'm running
To the end of the earth
And I'm swimming
To the edge of the sea
And I'm laughing
I'm under a starry sky
This world was meant for me
Don't bury me
Carry me
Laughing in a crown
of jewels
Numbness from
a scepter's wound
Toss and turn
I spin and learn
Catch yourself
before you burn
A joker's dance
before the king
Jangling beads
and silver rings
Close your eyes
and bare the sound
Jumping up, falling down
Falling, falling,
falling, falling down
Look yourself in the eye
before you drown
Falling, falling,
falling in...
Not just everything about you
but the fact that I can love
someone.
It's so strange how I went
from having nothing to...
I have crawled inside you
and I will not let go.
Falling, falling
Falling, falling down
Look yourself in the eye
before you drown
Your actions will follow you
full circle round
Your actions will
follow you full circle round
Your actions will follow you
full circle round
The higher the leap
I said
the harder the ground
Each time you'd pulled
down the driveway
I wasn't sure when
I would see you again
Yours was a twisted
blind sided highway
No matter which road
you took then
Oh, you set up your place
in my thoughts
Moved in and made
my thinking crowded
Now we're out in the back
with the barking dogs
My heart the red sun
Your heart the moon clouded
I could go crazy
on a night like tonight
When summer's beginning
to give up her fight
And every thought's
a possibility
And the voices are heard
but nothing is seen
Why do you spend
this time with me
May be an equal mystery
So what is love then
Is it dictated or chosen
Handed down
and made by hand
Does it sing like the hymns
of 1,000 years
Or is it just pop emotion
Handed down
and made by hand
And if it ever was there
and it left
Does it mean that
it was never true
-And to exist
-And to exist
-Is that why I
-Must I
Think these things of you
I could go crazy
on a night like tonight
When summer's beginning
to give up her fight
And every thought's
a possibility
And voices are heard
but nothing is seen
Why do you spend
this time with me
May be an equal mystery
Fly away little bird
Find the song in you
that no one's heard
Strengthen your wings
As you sing
your solo flight
Through this short life
Everyone's got a deep
regret
We try to ground ourselves
to forget
But all along
your chosen path
Are window panes
and sheets of glass
That you won't see
You fly too fast
One day it will be over
Fly away little bird
I could go crazy
on a night like tonight
When summer's beginning
to give up her fight
And every thought's
a possibility
The voices are heard
but nothing is seen
Why do you spend
this time with me
May be an equal mystery
Maybe that's all
that we need
-Is to meet in the middle
-Of impossibility
Handed down
and made by hand
We're standing
at opposite poles
Equal partners in a mystery
Handed down
and made by hand
Maybe that's
all that we need
Is to meet in the middle
Of impossibility
Standing at opposite poles
Equal partners in a mystery
It does seem
kind of unfair, timing.
I can't let you leave
without telling you some things.
Okay.
The other day, it was my first
time in a recording studio.
I'd been in one in my mind
and maybe convinced myself
it was true.
But I'm glad to say, like,
my first time was with you.
And when I saw Mom
the other day, it wasn't...
It was when I picked her up
from prison for the fifth time,
drinking and driving, selling
meds to pay for vodka,
as*ault, defending herself
against her brother,
her girlfriend, felony, battery,
fighting off husband two.
It's the reason so many
women are-- So I read.
Self-preservation.
I grew up a poor kid.
I, um,
made up a lot
to seem more important,
cool,
just not poor.
It's proven
a hard habit to break.
But you knowing the real me,
bringing me further away
from needing...
Is it possible
you might say something?
Like, anything.
You know, I talk, then you talk.
That's how conversations work.
Well, I don't know what to...
You just keep--
Yeah, I keep talking
'cause you never--
It's a lot to take in.
You can be a lot to take in.
No. I don't
deserve anything else.
You've given me plenty.
Darkness has a hunger
that's insatiable
Lightness has a call
that's hard to hear
I don't know when I noticed
life was life at my expense
The words of my heart lined
up like prisoners on a fence
The dreams came in
like needy children
Tugging at my sleeve
I said I have no way
of feeding you, so leave
The cries of passion
were like wounds
That needed healing
I couldn't hear them
for the thunder
I was half
the naked distance
Between hell
and heaven's ceiling
And he almost
pulled me under
Excuse me!
Oh, he almost pulled
me under
He almost pulled me under
The past few weeks
has been so...
I don't know whether to cry
or smile or laugh,
but I love you.
I love you too.
You're still
getting on that plane.
Are you sure?
As long as you promise
not to slip
and come back a better fool.
Why do we hurtle ourselves
Through every inch
of time and space
I must say
around some corner
I can sense a restin' place
With every lesson learned
A line upon
your beautiful face
We'll amuse ourselves
one day
With these memories
we'll trace
Get out the map
Get out the map and lay
your finger anywhere down
We'll leave the figuring
to those we pass
On our way out of town
I'm gonna clear my head
I'm gonna drink that sun
I'm gonna love you
good and strong
While our love
is good and young
No more walls.
My place is of the sun
This place is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
Is that on the radio?
This place is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
Maybe I'm scared to leave
and I, I need something to...
But the thought of being so
far away from you, it kills me.
And maybe this is just
crazy and confusion talking,
but I need to get this out.
Nobody has made me feel
as sexy or confident
or inspired or protected.
It feels like my desire
to be with you
is gonna be just as strong
in the next few...
Why am I so scared to lose you?
I've never felt
so full in my life.
One true clown is
born every half century.
So too bad for all of you.
You may try years and years
and never meet your clown.
No matter how many
costumes you may try.
My place is of the sun
And this place
is of the dark
And I do not
feel the romance
I do not catch the spark
No, I will not be a pawn
For the prince of darkness
any longer
One, two, three,
four, five, six.
You're up kid.
I'm tryin' to tell you
somethin' 'bout my life
Maybe give me insight
between black and white
And the best thing
you've ever done for me
Is to help me take
my life less seriously
It's only life after all,
yeah
I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains
I looked to the children
I drank from the fountains
There's more than one
answer to these questions
Pointing me
in a crooked line
And the less I seek my source
for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The challenge, be glamorous,
be elegant
and sell baked beans.
Less than zero.
You, your water on his head.
-Hi.
-Hi.
So, circus school
isn't what I--
You know, maybe
I'm weaker than I thought.
-What if lack of discipline--
-You promised not to slip.
Yeah. Your mom show up yet?
Robin only resurfaces
when she needs something.
You know what, I hate this.
Not being able to--
No slipping.
Well, darkness has
a hunger that's insatiable
And lightness has a call
it's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me
like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety
Till I sank it
I'm crawling on your shores
Cocentra! Cocentra!
I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains
I looked to the children
Concentreaz te, biete!
-Honk-honk!
-Now, that!
Slipping can be funny! It's only
life after all, mon imbecile.
And the less I seek my
source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
Yeah
Under the bigtop today.
The closer I am to fine
Yeah
For you,
magnifique.
Oh, one second.
- Okay.
- Nice.
Merci.
Final dress rehearsal for
my international debut.
Ta-da!
Remember everything
I told you
Keep it in your heart
like a stone
And when the winds
have blown things
Around and back again
What was once your pain
will be your home
Everything in its own time
Everything
In its own time
Everything
In its own time
I went to the doctor
I went to the mountains
I looked to the children
I drank from the fountains
We go to the doctor
We go to the mountains
We look to the children
We drink from the fountains
There's more than one
answer to these questions
Pointing me
in a crooked line
The less I seek my source
for some definitive
The closer
I am to fine, yeah
The closer I am
to fine, yeah
The closer
I am to fine, yeah
The closer I am
to fine, yeah
The closer
I am to fine, yeah
Thanks y'all!
So, I'm gonna close
with a cover of,
you know those songs
that just seem like
they were written just for you.
Well, here's hoping I do it
some justice. No, no, no.
A certain someone says
perfection's an impossibility.
So... no disclaimers.
Now the parking lot
is empty
Everyone's gone someplace
I pick you up
and in the trunk
I've packed a cooler
and a two-day suitcase
'Cause there's a place
we like to drive
Way out in the country
Five miles
out of the city limit
We're singing and
your hand's upon my knee
So we're okay, we're fine
Baby, I'm here
to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts
from your head
I'm stronger than the monster
beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks
played on your heart
We'll look at them together
Then we'll take them apart
Adding up the total
of a love that's true
Multiply life
by the power of
Ah, I should be on the list.
I don't wanna open it.
Why?
What if it's weird seeing
you in real moving life?
What if you're different
than before?
Pretty sure I am.
What if you're not as
good a kisser as I remember?
Lot of expectations.
Agreed?
You know the things
that I am afraid of
I'm not afraid to tell
And if we ever
leave a legacy
It's that we loved
each other well
The steel bars between me
and a promise
Suddenly bend with ease
The closer I'm bound
in love to you
The closer I am to free
So we're okay, we're fine
Baby, I'm here
to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts
from your head
I'm stronger than
the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks
played on your heart
We'll look at them together
Then we'll take them apart
Adding up the total
of a love that's true
Multiply life
by the power of
I say love will come to you
What now?
It may be rushing and we might
be fools for thinking, but--
This is a place for one.
Where there's now one
There will be two
So we're okay, we're fine
Baby, I'm here
to stop your crying
Chase all the ghosts
from your head
I'm stronger than
the monster beneath your bed
Smarter than the tricks
played on your heart
We'll look at them together
Then we'll take them apart
Adding up the total
of a love that's true
Multiply life
by the power of two
Adding up the total
of a love that's true
Multiply life
by the power of two
Oh!
Or three.
Okay, good.
-Thanks Pip, thanks Pip.
-Let's take a picture.
Thank you.
Glitter & Doom (2023)
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