- [BIRDS SINGING]
- [HEELS CLACKING]
["LA VITA NUOVA" BY
CHRISTINE AND THE QUEENS]
[WOMAN SINGING IN ITALIAN]
[ROOSTER CROWS]
♪
♪ Hey ♪
♪ Oh, yeah, uh ♪
♪ Oh, yeah ♪
♪ Oh, yeah, uh, oh, yeah... ♪
♪ Oh, yeah, uh ♪
♪ Oh, yeah... ♪
[GIA] When my mother was a young woman,
a man used to follow her to work
every morning,
- and masturbate...
- [MAN PANTING SOFTLY]
... in step behind her.
♪ Oh, you're a heartbreaker ♪
♪ I never take your answer for sure ♪
[KEYS CLACKING]
- [DOOR OPENS]
- [BELL TINKLES]
Hey, you want to hear something funny?
What...
No. No.
Oh, my God.
You don't seem too...
surprised to see me.
Well, I'm not.
'Cause this is, like,
not surprising at all.
You have no f*cking boundaries, man.
You know, you're weird.
You're weird and you're
creepy, like this store.
Did I do something to you?
What are you doing here?
You know what I'm doing here.
I came here for an apology.
Oh. All right.
Well, I am
- dialed in on my book...
- Yeah. Uh-huh.
... and I don't need any distractions.
- [BELL TINKLES]
- But we're in love!
Dude, don't make me say something stupid
and, like, faux-existential
like "I don't believe in love."
You can't write a book on love if
you don't believe in it yourself.
I do. I just don't trust it, okay?
Something bad is gonna
happen. Something else.
[GROANS] Nothing bad is gonna happen!
Nothing bad ever happens to idiots!
You are the idiot!
You are such an idiot.
[SIGHS]
Come over here, you
stupid f*cking idiot.
[SIGHS]
[SHOUTS]
[GROANS LOUDLY]
[GIA LAUGHS]
[GIA GRUNTS LOUDLY]
[CHUCKLING]
Look, we're gonna try this, okay?
[EXHALES]
All you got to do is trust me.
So, will you?
I don't...
I don't know. [CHUCKLES]
[BIRDS SINGING]
[GIA INHALES DEEPLY]
[SIGHS]
I really like our
place. It's really nice.
- Shut up.
- [CHUCKLES]
You did not move here.
It was time to leave L.A.
- And I can stay at a motel, too.
- No.
I already applied for a dead-end job.
[STAMMERS] Look, man...
Don't f*cking "look, man" me.
I'm not some random
dude you met on eharmony.
We had a f*cking baby together.
And the baby's gone.
No.
She's just waiting.
She wanted her parents
to be in the same place.
She knew her mom was a little nuts,
and she needed her dad
there for emotional support.
Mm.
Why do you like me?
[EXHALES]
Hmm?
[LAUGHING]
- Tell me.
- [JACK CHUCKLES]
Clearly, I-I've got
some issues of my own.
If I didn't, then I wouldn't be chasing
a sociopath around America.
- [SCOFFS SOFTLY]
- When there
are plenty of other girls out there
willing to look the other
way over an unsavory text.
- How do you know that?
- [CHUCKLES]
That I would, like...
I would literally gut you
if you sent a flirty
text to someone else.
[CLEARS THROAT] Because
you're a sociopath.
- Like, I would, I would...
- I don't use that term lightly.
... spatchcock your d*ck.
[CHUCKLES]
- What?
- I would.
Oh, you're scared?
- No.
- Yes.
[LAUGHS] No.
I just realized that you're a foodie.
- Spatchcock.
- [PHONE CHIMES]
_
[GROANS]
Hey, Ryan.
What do you think about, um,
watching your little brother
by yourself while Mommy runs an errand?
Would you be a big kid and do tha...
- Do I have to?
- No, no, no.
Okay. How 'bout we go to Aunt Missy's?
No, I don't want to.
Well, what if, um...
Hey. Oh!
Um, we c... I, uh...
Easter's early this year.
Be good and you can have
all the chocolate you want.
Really?
Okay.
[LAUGHING] Come on, let's go!
[SQUEALS]
[KNOCKING]
Hey, Miss, will you just watch
the boys for, like, two hours?
Please, it's an emergency.
I know why you need
me to watch these kids,
and it's no durn emergency.
What? What do you know?
- Randy heard from Ed.
- You're just talking to Ed now?
What, did you forget I'm your sister?
You made him family
when you said "I do."
While you're here, uh, Mom's
gift came out to $47 each.
Fine. Each? What the heck kind
of bracelet costs that much?
Real diamonds aren't cheap, Lina.
Diamonds? Mom is not gonna
wear something that fancy.
- Okay, whatever.
- It's her 60th.
We're not doing cubic "zachonium."
Fine, fine, fine.
I mean, look, I got to
go. Will you or won't you?
No.
I won't enable your sinful behavior.
- Fine. Thanks so much.
- What do you suppose
God feels about you?
And I need you to bring your
folding chairs to the party!
[SMOOTH, JAZZY MUSIC]
♪
♪
All right. All right.
- Oh, gosh!
- Oh, my God.
- Hi. Hi.
- I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.
- Jesus.
- Oh, Gia. Sorry.
- Hi.
- Um, can...
Can you watch them?
- [GIA] Oh.
- Just... Aidan's waiting for me
in Bardstown. He only
has, like, a teeny window.
Um, this... Uh, Lina,
this place is, like,
not childproofed at all or anything...
- Oh. Lina!
- Oh, gosh! Sorry! Okay.
- Hey. I'm Jack.
- Sorry.
This is the guy? The guy?
This is the... the guy.
- That's what I'm told.
- Oh, my God.
Hi. You didn't tell me he found you.
- He sure did.
- Uh, for the record,
it-it was magic, how I found her.
Definitely wasn't Internet stalking
and, you know, Whitepages and sh*t.
- [LAUGHING]
- Whitepages?
- Yeah.
- Well, I...
I don't know, I think it's magic.
So do I.
- [CHUCKLES]
- All right. Um...
Well, I'm so sorry to
intrude, but I, uh...
Gosh, I'm kind of desperate,
and I was hoping you
guys could watch my kids.
I just... I have an appointment.
You know, actually, we were, uh,
just talking about how we need
some babysitting experience,
so you'd actually be doing us the favor.
- Oh, my gosh. Okay. All right.
- [CHUCKLES]
- This is Elliott.
- What's your name?
All right, Elliott. How's it going, bud?
- Hey, hey.
- And this is Ryan.
- Hey, Ryan. Yeah, it is cold.
- [CHUCKLES]
Um, all right, I'm
gonna be, uh, an hour.
I might be two hours. But
I'll be right back, all right?
Love you, love you, love you.
You be good and help take
care of your brother, okay?
- Okay.
- [CHUCKLES]
[LAUGHS]
[SOFT, SOMBER MUSIC]
♪
♪
[CAR DOOR SHUTS IN DISTANCE]
[CHUCKLES]
[THE SHIVERS' "BEAUTY" PLAYING]
[BREATHING HEAVILY]
[CAR DOOR OPENS]
[GRUNTS SOFTLY]
[EXHALES SHARPLY]
Heya.
Hey, Kid.
Now, I'm really out of time.
No, well, I only need
a little bit of time.
You said you had a surprise?
Is it worth me being late?
Get in the back.
Right now.
♪ I live off love ♪
Take off your pants and your shoes.
♪ I breathe off love ♪
Go.
♪ I think of love ♪
♪ I drink of love ♪
♪ I sink in love ♪
♪ And in the middle of the night ♪
♪ I need my love ♪
♪ I need to grieve and need to need ♪
♪ And be in love ♪
♪ My love is gonna come to me ♪
♪ Tonight... ♪
I got so hungry, I almost ate it.
[AIDAN CHUCKLES]
[LAUGHS]
♪ I give my love and all
my love to you, my love ♪
[CHUCKLES]
♪ I feast on love ♪
- ♪ A beast for love, release my love ♪
- Oh...
♪ You're scared and
unprepared for love ♪
- ♪ Don't care, my love ♪
- Holy sh*t, woman.
♪ 'Cause you're the only woman ♪
♪ I've been dreaming of ♪
♪ I swear to God, I'm
loving you for that ♪
[MOANING HEAVILY]
♪ I swear to God, I'm
making you my wife ♪
[BOTH PANTING]
Mmm, salty and sweet all together.
♪ And if you ever leave me... ♪
- What are you...
- ♪ I never will be sore ♪
- Oh, God.
- Take this off.
[LAUGHS] Oh, my God.
♪ I'll love you till you're lonely... ♪
Oh, I f*cking love
eating your g*dd*mn p*ssy.
[MOANING, BREATHING HEAVILY]
♪ Oh... ♪
Wait, wait, wait, wait. I
don't want that gunk in me.
[BREATHING HEAVILY, MOANING]
♪ There's nobody near me ♪
♪ There never was ♪
Oh!
[CHUCKLES]
- Did you come?
- Yeah.
[LAUGHS]
- Oh, my gosh. Are you close?
- Yeah.
Stop, stop.
I want it in my mouth this time.
Ooh.
Ah... Oh!
Oh, f*ck.
[BREATHING HEAVILY]
Lina. f*ck! Ah!
[MOANING]
♪ I give my love and all my love ♪
♪ To you, my love ♪
- ♪ I feast on love... ♪
- Oh, my God...
I never liked that, you know.
Like, I only like that with you.
Like, I love you in my mouth.
I love me in your mouth, too.
[CHUCKLES]
Aidan.
I missed you these past couple weeks.
Yeah. Yeah, I've been busy.
[BOTH PANTING]
Oh, I see. You can go now. [DRY CHUCKLE]
♪ I never will be sore... ♪
Kid...
I missed you, too.
♪ Till you're lonely ♪
You know that this is
more than just sex for me.
I-I'm not some... I'm not some player.
♪ Beauty, beauty, beauty... ♪
But, all the same, Mrs. Parrish,
we got to stop meeting
and making out like this.
Uh, Aidan, I'd hardly call what
we've been doing "makin' out."
[LAUGHS]
I guess you're right,
but I just meant that
- we gotta...
- And, plus, Aidan...
I am not gonna be "Mrs." much longer,
'cause, uh...
I'm separated now. Like, legally.
Aidan?
Yeah. Yeah, Kid.
Look, listen, I don't want to hurt you.
You could not hurt me.
You silly man. [LAUGHS]
- "I don't want to hurt you."
- Well, I just mean that I...
Shh, buddy.
[SIGHS]
I got to go, Kid.
- Get your ass back in the car.
- [LAUGHS]
- Bye, bud.
- All right, bud.
We'll do it again soon.
- Help me get them in the car.
- Is she asleep?
- Oh, yeah.
- Wow. Chivalry's not dead.
[LAUGHS]
- How was it?
- It was real good.
- Good.
- [CAR DOOR SLIDES OPEN]
Why, why is it so easy to say, like,
"I love you inside me,"
but so hard to say, like,
"I love you," like, period?
[CAR DOOR SLIDES SHUT]
- [GIA] I mean, I...
- They're all set.
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
- [CLEARS THROAT]
- Uh...
[LINA] Thank you.
- Bye-bye. Night.
- Good night.
- Drive safe.
- Okay.
- Thank you.
- [JACK] Yeah.
[COUNTRY-ROCK MUSIC
PLAYING IN BACKGROUND]
Are you, uh...
sure about this?
You know it's not a choice.
♪ Rain or shine, we walk the line... ♪
[LAUGHS]
My mother did say to me once
that if I ever sold her jewelry,
she'd come back from the
grave and bite my toes.
Hmm. So you're sure.
Yeah.
Four seventy-three, cash.
Four hundred and seventy-three dollars?
I can give you 500 on
this Visa gift card.
Let's take a look at this.
Oh, this is not for sale.
Looks heavy.
♪ Nothing but the open highway... ♪
[PHONE CHIMES]
[CLEARS THROAT]
- Lina.
- Oh, you're kidding.
[CLERK] So, cash or card for this?
[SIGHS]
♪ Wild and free, wild and... ♪
Whoa, whoa, whoa, what are you doing?
You don't have to do that.
[GIA] I do.
♪ Wild and free... ♪
♪ Nothing but the open highway ♪
[BUBBLING]
[PLASTIC RIPS OFF]
- Hey. Hi.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- [BOTH LAUGH]
Well, well, well.
Oh, I thought you were done
with this coven of witches.
Well, I came to see you.
Oh, God, sorry. I've been so busy.
- Yeah, I...
- I'm sure you have, too.
- Yeah.
- [AWKWARD LAUGHTER]
Um, I was thinking what about tonight,
you and me, mai tais, Lennie's.
We pretend we're in Hawaii.
Ooh, that sounds really,
really, really fun. Um...
Oh, come on, come out.
I gotta tell you about
the last time with Aidan.
Gia, it's like I don't even under...
Like, I gave him the
best gosh darn blow job
- in the history of the world.
- Oh, yeah? [CHUCKLES]
I want to know everything.
- Like, I don't even, like...
- Hi, ladies.
... recognize myself at this point.
[LAUGHTER]
- You look amazing.
- Oh, thank you.
- Hi, gals.
- [QUIETLY] We'll talk later.
- Lina.
- Hi.
- How you been?
- Good. Really good.
Like, crazy good.
How's, uh, Aidan? Are
you still seeing him?
Am I still see... Yeah.
Oh, my goodness, yeah.
- In fact...
- In fact what?
Is he leaving his wife for you?
[WEAK LAUGHTER]
Something burns that bright,
it's bound to burn out.
- Uh-huh.
- No offense.
- Yeah. It's true.
- Thank you. Hi.
Oh, can I have one?
Gia, you will not believe the latest.
[GIA] Tell me everything.
Did you like it, what-whatever it was?
[LIZZIE] Okay. Have you ever
heard of a "butter churner"?
You know, like the sex kind?
[GIA] Butter churner?
Uh, like the...
[VOICES FADE]
[INTENSE MUSIC]
♪
♪
♪
[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING]
[GIA] Wow.
What's all this?
[SINGER SINGING INDISTINCTLY]
Isn't today your mother's birthday?
[JACK CLEARS THROAT]
Oh, my God.
♪
What...
[JACK CLEARS THROAT]
[CHUCKLES]
- Oh, my God.
- What?
- Oh, yeah, um...
- What?!
The pawn guy felt bad, so
he sold it back at a loss.
How-how did you buy this back?
[EXHALES SHARPLY] Doesn't really matter.
But, uh, you know, walking to work is
really gonna get me back in shape.
♪
You sold your car to buy
my mother's necklace back?
[SIGHS]
I did.
Jack, that's, like, the stupidest thing
- in the f*cking world.
- I know.
No, look, we live in the
middle of nowhere, dude.
- We have to have a f*cking car.
- I know.
It's like the most idiotic
thing in the f*cking world!
Believe me, I know.
[LAUGHS]
Wha...
It's also, like...
You're...
- great.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]
You know that?
Look, I just thought that maybe tonight
you could tell me about her.
Stay right there.
Over one of these.
- Her beer.
- Her beer.
Oh, you listen so much.
So do you.
Thank you.
Don't do that.
[BOTH CHUCKLE]
[JACK CLEARS THROAT]
[SNIFFS]
- Whoa.
- Okay, all right, sure,
so it's not up to foodie standards,
but it's, you know, it's not like
sit-on-the-ground bad.
Hey, you all right?
[JACK] Triplets.
- Well, that's her. She's back.
- Stop.
I'm not kidding.
I mean, that's what I
believe, you know. Like...
Kids that disappear,
miscarriages and stuff,
they're just waiting.
And eventually they come.
That's sweet.
So...
So?
[GIA SIGHS]
What, you-you really
want to do this again?
It's not again.
And yes.
- Really? Because...
- Yeah. Yeah, I do.
... we live in Indiana.
Okay? We have no money.
You work at Kmart, my book
is going f*cking nowhere.
We don't even have a f*cking car!
I really hope that our baby
doesn't inherit your pessimism.
[SCOFFS]
You know what? I have
some good news of my own.
Mm-hmm?
I got a bonus of 28 bucks
for being the top seller of the deluxe
combo photo package at Kmart this month.
That's a sign.
Oh, my God.
It's a f*cking sign that
everything is gonna be okay.
Look at this.
- Ew. Ew!
- Look at this. Come on.
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
["MY MONA LISA" BY TERRY BLACKWELL]
♪ Come, little darlin' ♪
♪ Won't you tell me of your sins ♪
♪ Open up your secrets ♪
♪ Let me in, let me in... ♪
[GIA] Where had he first seen her?
Her legs, even in her old age,
were absurdly feminine.
I can imagine being
inside this man's head
and seeing my mother's
legs and following them.
One inheritance of living under
the male gaze for centuries
is that heterosexual women
often look at other women
the way a man would.
[GASPS]
My mother is dead now,
so I can't ask her why she
allowed it, day after day.
She was not the type of woman
to take pleasure in this.
But I can't know for sure.
♪ In my dreams forever ♪
♪ My chanteuse... ♪
[MOANS SOFTLY]
[GIA] My mother never spoke
about what she wanted.
♪
- ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
- [LAUGHTER]
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
♪ Happy birthday, dear Mom ♪
♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]
[PHONE CHIMING]
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
[SIGHS] No cake, Lina?
What? I did have some. It was real good.
Hey, um...
Y'all were right about the bracelet.
It was... the right thing to do.
[CHUCKLES]
Uh, can you help and
load the dishwasher, Lina?
I'm gonna check that Mom's all set.
Yep.
[EXHALES SHARPLY]
Okay, this is why I was saying it'd
be easier if y'all used plastic.
This isn't a picnic.
She wanted real plates.
- Okay.
- [PLATES CLATTERING]
[PHONE CHIMING]
Ooh.
_
[CLEARS THROAT] Uh, okay.
- Okay.
- [DOORBELL RINGS]
- [RANDY] What are you looking for?
- I'm looking for, um, the gloves.
I just got my nails done.
[ROSEMARY] Ed, you made it.
- Glad you made it.
- Daddy!
- Happy birthday.
- Oh, thank you.
- Daddy!
- Oh, hello...
What is wrong with you? Inviting Ed?
Mom wanted him here,
so you can deal with it.
[RANDY] It's her day.
Where you going?
- Where are you going?
- Lina!
[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]
You know, having a baby
is one thing, but...
[EXHALES] ... buying furniture together?
There ain't no escape now.
This sh*t was, like, $35, dude.
I can survive losing
this in the breakup.
Ew! We are not gonna break up.
- [PHONE VIBRATES, CHIMES]
- You say that now.
I'll say it every day, all day.
Oh, my God, f*ckin' Lina. Again. Jesus.
[SIGHS] You know, she's
a real, uh, sweet lady,
but there are, like,
no boundaries there.
Yeah, well, what Lina and
I are doing is not, like,
cut and dry.
You know, I'm not the one who gets
to say what the boundaries are.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
No f*ckin' way.
- Hey. What's going on?
- Hi.
Are you, like, getting my, my texts?
Yeah, but we're... I...
Hey, Jack. Sorry.
I'm gonna... There's something...
Hi.
You can't drop me like this.
Huh? I-I would never...
It's like Aidan is just totally,
he's, like, drifting away,
so you, like, cannot do this, too.
- Like, freezing me out.
- I'm not. I promise.
Like, I thought I was
more than a subject.
- Dude.
- Like, what am I supposed to...
You are, you are. I'm sorry.
It's... You... I-I-I'm so
sorry, I've just been...
Well, tell me.
Want to make a plan? Tomorrow, maybe?
Yeah, um, I'm tanning
tomorrow, and then, um...
What if... Will you come,
uh, come tan with me?
Yeah, sure. Tan. Yeah.
- Awesome.
- Great.
Um, I need a ride.
Okay. I'll pick you up, 1:30.
- Yeah.
- Okay, okay, I don't want to intrude, so...
- Okay, 1:30, though.
- Yeah.
- You promise?
- Yes!
Okay.
[THUNDER RUMBLING]
[WIND WHOOSHING]
[LINA] I don't even think it's me,
'cause, like, he... It's not...
He wouldn't even look at me. [SCOFFS]
[GIA] Well, he's probably
just tired from work.
No, that's not... I'm saying, like,
I feel like I'm losing him
even when I'm with him now.
Like, whenever he is not in me,
I have no idea where he is.
I'm sure that's not true.
You're sure, huh? [CHUCKLES]
- [ALARM POWERING UP]
- What the f*ck is that?!
- Oh, my gosh!
- What are you doing?
- Nina, what is happening?
- [ALARM WAILING]
- Basement, ladies!
- It's a tornado warning. Come on.
[THUNDER RUMBLING OUTSIDE]
If you didn't want to come tan with me,
you could have just told me.
Sorry.
You have snacks? [CHUCKLES]
You pregnant?
- How...
- Oh, my gosh.
- How do you know?
- Wait. How long have you known?
- Like, five minutes.
- Why didn't you tell me?
Because it's, like, like, so early,
and after last time,
I'm not telling anyone
- until it loses its first tooth.
- No, no.
- It'll be okay.
- Oh, will it?
'Cause, um, I'm actually pretty scared.
I just want it to...
I mean, even if this thing sticks, like,
I hardly know Jack, you know.
He could turn out to
be a total psychopath.
Oh, yeah, I'm sure
that angel will be a psychopath.
You're crazy.
You're one of the lucky ones.
- Nothing bad is gonna happen.
- No, I'm not.
Gia, even when you try to
wreck it, it still works out.
You act like a jerk and run away,
and he follows you and wants
to have a baby with you.
So. Whereas, I wasn't even
trying to make a mistake.
I was doing everything I
could to make it work out,
and I still ruined things with
Aidan in high school. So...
He blew you off. I mean,
what could you have done?
Yeah, well, with the
stories going around,
- I could not blame him for that.
- Stories?
About the other guys
and the whole thing.
What other guys?
At the party. I told you that.
No. Nope. Pretty sure you didn't.
Well, there's not much to tell.
I was very stupid and hurt Aidan,
and that was that.
Okay. So what happened?
[BOTH LAUGH]
We're really gonna talk
about this right now?
Yeah.
Um, so this is sophomore
year of high school.
Uh, Aidan and I had been
dating for, like, three months.
- Uh-huh.
- Eighty-seven days.
I mean, I've always been a counter.
- Oh, my God.
- I wasn't cool, like you.
Um, so, um, yeah, we were dating,
and one day, just suddenly,
Aidan just started backing off
like he is now. Um...
And just not calling me as much.
And, uh...
He didn't make plans
with me one weekend.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I-I...
I mean, you know, back
then, one Saturday night
without plans with your guy,
it's like the end of the world.
Yeah.
And I just...
I just loved him so much.
- And I didn't know what to do.
- Ah.
And um, so, that Friday,
this guy, Jeff, asks
me to a party, right?
- Mm-hmm.
- I say "yes,"
'cause I'm just hoping
it'll make Aidan jealous.
But I should've just talked to him first
and trusted he'd come around.
I don't know why I can't,
like, just talk to him.
- [INHALES SHARPLY]
- But you were a kid.
Yeah, and I was very stupid.
Because... So, basically, Jeff
picks me up, it's not a party.
It's four guys drinking
in someone's basement.
- Oh.
- Yeah.
- [CHUCKLES] See, even you know.
- Oh.
I was like, "Hi, guys!"
Um, yeah, it was so stupid.
And I should've known
better. Should've known better
than to drink what
they gave me, and, um...
These were boys that you knew,
- boys from your high school?
- Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
but still.
Anyway, it's not like
it hurt... your face...
- even though, um, it was, uh...
- Oh, my God.
'Cause, no, what they gave me,
like, really, I mean, it works.
- It knocked me out.
- Lina.
You know, I did not feel anything,
and, um, really too out of it
to be scared, and I
really only remember, like,
two of them... doing it.
- Um... yeah.
- Oh, my God.
Uh, and then, so, afterwards,
Jeff drove me home,
and I'm like, silent,
like, do not say anything
'cause I don't want
to give them a reason
to call me a bitch at school.
I do say, "Please don't tell
anyone." They, of course, do.
It gets back to Aidan.
"Lina went with four guys in one night."
And that was the whole, like...
Just like that, turned
his back on me, and...
- I just, I'm...
- Like...
- [EXHALES] I'm so sorry...
- Mm-hmm.
- ... that that happened to you.
- Yeah.
You have been dealing with
that trauma this whole time.
Yeah. Uh, the... Oh, no.
Like, it makes complete sense
why you would marry a
guy who wouldn't kiss you.
- Because of the...
- Like, it probably allowed you
to feel some kind of sense
of control over what...
Wait, no. No, no. Um, the, what, the...
Are you talking about what
happened with the guys?
- Yes.
- That's not... No, no.
That's not why I... The-the problem was
I lost confidence after I
lost Aidan. Like, I would've...
Gosh, I would've
married someone different
if someone else had been interested.
- Well...
- But I didn't have the confidence
to attract anyone but Ed.
- Yeah, of course.
- Because of the...
Because it, like, ripples
through the rest of your life.
Dude, the trauma of as*ault,
that, like, it can affect
- all of your choices...
- Wait. Can you stop saying that?
- Losing Aidan was the trauma.
- No, that's not true.
Huh? [SCOFFS]
It's... I just, I just think,
there's, like, there's no way...
It's my fault that I went
with those guys, right?
- If I had trusted Aidan...
- It is not your fault. Lina.
- It... literally is.
- Dude.
It is not, and you're sticking
to this story so that
he stays blameless,
but Lina, Aidan is a f*cking assh*le.
Stop! What...
- [CHUCKLES]
- You were r*ped.
- You were, you were r*ped...
- Uh...
... and he just, like,
turned his back on you?
- Aidan knew me.
- Oh, he knew you?
- Lina, he knew you. Really?
- Our connection even then was crazy.
- Yes.
- Because you hadn't had sex with him, right?
- Yeah.
- And it was just, like, kissing and
touching, all very PG-13,
and then, like, what?
Out of the blue one day,
he hears a rumor that
you f*cked four guys,
while you're still his
girlfriend, in one night,
and he believes that sh*t?
Like, he thinks that that's true,
that you would just do that willingly?
If he knew you, if he
really f*cking knew you,
why would he ever, ever believe that?
- I don't know. We were...
- Because he didn't see you.
Like, not as a human, a human being.
Where was his kindness
and his, like, compassion
and-and his humanity?
- Quantum of solace, man!
- Mm.
Like, you were, you were, like, dying,
- and he turned his back on you.
- Oh, my God. I was not dying.
Gia, calm down. I was fine. He...
- You were not fine!
- Aidan was hurt
because he felt cheated on. If you look
- at the brass tacks of it, he was!
- You have to stop defending him.
You're the one obsessing all
the time about your trauma.
You're the one that can't
get over what happened to you.
- Not me. It's, like, your whole personality!
- Whoa. Wow.
- I'm s...
- Wow.
It is not like I chose to lose
both of my f*cking
parents before I turned 24.
But you choose how you
get to live with it.
- Yeah.
- I should get to do that, too.
[LOUD BEEPING]
[SLOW, MELANCHOLY MUSIC]
♪
[GIA] We are, each of us,
afraid of something dark,
something in the
shadows we cannot admit.
A woman tried to tell
me she was more broken
over unrequited love than a group r*pe,
and it was hard for me to believe her.
But why?
Why did I want to read
my experience onto hers?
Who the f*ck did I
think I was to do that?
Who the f*ck do any of us think we are,
to understand another
woman's whole life?
[KEYS CLACKING]
♪
[INHALES DEEPLY]
[VEHICLE ENGINE APPROACHING]
[EXHALES]
- [TRUCK DOOR OPENS]
- [DOOR SENSOR DINGING]
- Hey, Kid.
- [LAUGHS]
[AIDAN LAUGHS]
Ah, I had to move a
mountain, but... I got here.
Hey, Kid, I don't got a lot of time.
[LINA CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
Hey, wait.
What's up?
Why...
did you believe that story
about me in high school?
About the, um...
that I slept with those guys?
Because... you knew how
I felt about you, right?
And that I would never,
ever have done that
with anyone before you, anyone but you.
Not willingly, anyway.
What story?
You don't remember?
No.
- Wha... ?
- [GROANS]
That's so much worse.
That's worse than what happened,
that you don't remember.
Well...
we're old as f*ck now, Kid.
I-I can't remember what...
what happened back in the Stone Age.
I...
Forgive me?
Uh...
[AIDAN] Mmm.
[LINA INHALES SHARPLY]
[MURMURS]
[UNZIPS]
- [GASPS LOUDLY]
- [JACK] Hey.
[GASPING, GROANING]
[MUTTERING] What's
happening? What's wrong?
My lungs.
- Huh?
- [GASPING]
All right, all right, I'm
gonna call the doctor, okay?
No, I need a hospital.
- Okay, all right, all right.
- Jack!
- All right, hold-hold on.
- [HYPERVENTILATING]
[SIRENS WAILING IN DISTANCE]
[DOCTOR] How are you feeling?
Better, yeah. Fine.
Okay, good.
- So...
- Yeah?
The issue is that the
ultrasound is showing a lesion
in the left lower lung lobe.
f*ck. My bad, sorry. Hey. Hey, Doc.
Uh, what is it?
- I have cancer.
- What?
[DOCTOR] Let's... let's
hold on a second, that's...
that's not what I'm saying. Uh...
Just say it, for f*ck's sake, please.
My mother d*ed of lung cancer,
now I'm gonna f*cking
die of lung cancer.
[DOCTOR] We need to do a contrast MRI
and ultimately a biopsy,
but there's risk to the baby,
exposure to radiation and chemicals.
S-So... what, I...
You have to wait until
after my baby is born
to tell me that I'm dying?
Well, we'll just do it again, right?
- We can do it again?
- No, they did it eight times.
Like, 25 f*cking angles.
I saw the look on the
woman's face the minute
that she put the thing on my chest.
We can do the tests now, if you like.
You just need to know
the risk to the baby.
We are waiting.
Don't look at him! Look
at me. We're waiting!
[DOCTOR] Understood.
So, if there's no further
treatment at this time,
we will get you checked out.
[WHISPERING] I knew that
this was gonna happen.
- I knew it.
- Hey.
- I f*cking knew it.
- Hey.
- Don't-don't touch me.
- Gia...
- Jack.
- Gia.
Don't touch me. I told
you. I f*cking told you.
[CRYING]
[SIGHS]
- [FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]
- [JACK HUMMING]
- What...
- [JACK] Hey, hey.
- You're f*cking back early.
- [DOOR CLOSES]
What? Oh, yeah, yeah. Uh...
Kmart has this new, um...
paternity leave deal. It's pretty sweet.
Uh, what's going on?
Um... uh,
I found a-a maternal fetal health guy.
Oh, okay.
Uh, he's, uh, a specialist
in, um... you know.
Where?
It's a-a place. Um...
Yeah, a place. I-I-I
want to do some research,
and-and there's a woman
that... [CLEARS THROAT]
that I want to meet there, too, so...
Where?
I will call you when it's...
- born. I...
- Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, uh...
You're not...
you're not gonna say where you're going?
No.
What, you were just
gonna leave me a note...
and just not be here when I got back?
Look, I just need to...
I need to, like, leave it. Something.
You know, the-the book.
I-I have to finish the book.
I-I get it. I do,
but I-I... what I
don't get is what-what
this has to do with you and me.
I don't need to love you any more
than I already do, and you
don't need to love me any more.
[SCOFFS]
So, what are you saying,
you want to stop seeing me?
You want to stop seeing me?
'Cause you're not seeing me, Gia.
You know, you're... you're-you're my...
I'll always be your...
[SIGHS] Oh...
All right. Uh... All
right, this is insane.
This is insane, I'm in f*cking Indiana,
- and this is insane.
- I know, and I'm sorry, but, like...
What am I supposed to do? I'm
just supposed to let you...
you both go?
Yes.
No. No. No way.
[SIGHS] Jack.
f*ck.
Like, please.
This has been the most
f*cked-up experience of my life.
[GROANS]
And you're right, you are bad news,
just not in the way you think you are.
I'll call you when...
she is born.
Thank you again for driving me.
Yeah.
I would have understood if you didn't,
after how I talked to you. [CHUCKLES]
Yeah. That wasn't great.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]
- No, it wasn't.
- I'm sorry.
- Oh.
I am really sorry.
I don't know, I think
you said those things
'cause you care about me.
I did.
I do, like so f*cking much.
Good.
I'm sorry, too.
Plus, I don't think you have
anyone else to call for a ride.
- Wow.
- [BOTH LAUGHING]
I had to, sorry.
I mean, you're not wrong.
[BOTH LAUGH]
[WHISPERING] Gia, what are you doing?
You don't want to give
him one more chance?
Just considering the baby? Like,
why do you have to leave town?
Why not see if it can work, you know?
It's just so rare, what you have.
Yeah, I...
We're just not right
for each other, yeah.
Time's not gonna change that,
and I have to do some
interviews, you know,
to finish the book. [SNIFFLES]
- Oh, right, the book.
- Yeah.
- What about Aidan?
- Um...
I don't know. Maybe group's right.
Maybe chasing after him's
a little pathetic, and...
Eh.
Maybe we're all a little pathetic
and just don't want
to admit it. [CHUCKLES]
Yeah.
I don't know, maybe-maybe
none of us are.
Yeah.
Just wish it didn't hurt so much.
Yeah.
I wanted to say, um...
I may be in pain, but
I am choosing this pain.
- Like, this time it's my choice.
- Yeah.
You know?
Because being hurt by him,
I know it's crazy, Gia,
but at least it's a feeling.
I know.
Yeah.
A lot of times, that
feeling makes me happy.
I promise to honor that, you know.
To tell your story how you see it.
Okay.
You better, or I'm gonna come haunt you
- like your mom said she would.
- [BOTH LAUGH]
- Jesus.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]
["LA VITA NUOVA" BY
CHRISTINE AND THE QUEENS]
- No, don't go.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]
[GROANS]
You're the strongest
woman I've ever met.
- Really?
- Yeah.
I mean, maybe...
maybe my mother beats
you, but... only her.
♪ Oh... ♪
Bye.
♪ Hey, hey ♪
- ♪ I don't give a damn ♪
- ♪ Damn ♪
♪ Until you don't give a hand ♪
- ♪ Ah... ♪
- Love you.
[LAUGHS]
I do. I f*cking love you.
- ♪ I don't give a damn ♪
- ♪ Don't give a damn ♪
[CHUCKLES]
[LAUGHS]
[GIA] I come from a woman
who let a man masturbate
to her body on her walk to work,
on her walk home.
I can no longer ask
her why she allowed it,
but I know that, for her,
poverty was worse.
♪ Give a hand ♪
♪ Ah, you're a heartbreaker... ♪
Our particular pains
come from wound sites
we can't see on one another.
The thing we can do to understand
is to listen,
to really f*cking listen.
♪ Yeah ♪
- ♪ Oh, oh ♪
- ♪ Oh, yeah, ah ♪
♪ Oh, yeah, oh, yeah ♪
- ♪ Ah, oh, yeah ♪
- ♪ Answer for sure ♪
♪ Oh, yeah ♪
Gia?
- Hi.
- Hi.
Thank you for meeting me, finally.
[BOTH CHUCKLE]
[SIGHS]
Hmm.
Are you a bad person?
Oof. I mean, I don't
think so, but... [CHUCKLES]
- You look like you are.
- Oh, okay.
I mean that as a compliment.
All right.
I did a bad thing.
And I feel absolutely awful about it.
I betrayed the person I
love most in the world.
But...
it's also the best damn thing ever.
So, if that makes me a bad person,
even if it makes me the worst person,
I still want what I want.
That same thing
every single night,
for the rest of my life.
And who can I tell
such a terrible thing?
["REASON OR RHYME" BY BRYAN FERRY]
Hmm.
Tell me.
♪ Why must you shed ♪
♪ Such tender tears ♪
♪ In the evening of your years? ♪
♪ Open your heart ♪
♪ And let me live ♪
♪ All the promises ♪
♪ I could give ♪
♪ The sun ♪
♪ And moon and all the stars ♪
♪ They bow down to you ♪
♪ Whenever you pass ♪
♪ No reason or rhyme ♪
♪ No presence of mind ♪
♪ Just a dance ♪
♪ To the music ♪
♪ Of time ♪