02x20 - Mistakes Were Made

[bunniefuu]

Previously on The Secret Life
of the American Teenager...

Are you upset with me
for some reason?

- You kissed Amy?
- You kissed Amy?

There's been something going
on all week between you two,

so what don't I know
about now?

I think Ricky is in love
with you, too,

so you should just
forget about Amy

and who she's with
or not with.

If Amy's having sex
with Ricky,

I'm having sex with Ben.

It was just a kiss.
We weren't having sex.

It was like
kissing my sister.

Is that what you're
going to tell Adrian?

If you like me so much,

do you have to be such
good friends with Grace?

You don't really care about Grace.
You're still in love with Amy.

I was afraid, because Amy got pregnant
before, that she'd get pregnant again.

Mom said she and Dad
are getting married again.

I said it because
I'm a little bit overwhelmed

by all the responsibility
right now.

If you heard that I kissed Ricky,
it was just a kiss, all right?

I don't know why
Jimmy hasn't called me,

but it's not because
I'm a bad kisser.

Just don't do it,
Adrian, okay?

Hi, this is Adrian.
You know what to do.

[rings]

What do you want?

Somebody told you?
Told me what?

Don't play games. Let's just get this
over with. I'm going to be late for work.

Get what over with? I don't
know what you're talking about.

I tried to call you
to tell you.

I didn'tet the message.

You didn't get
my text message?

The one where I said I love you?
You didn't get that?

Oh, that.
Mm-hmm. Yeah.

So?

You didn't text me back,

the whole weekend.

I was busy.

Busy doing what?

Busy having sex with Ben
in his car, on the street.

'Cause you're right...
Someone did tell me.

So now the score is even.

You slept with Amy,
and I slept with Ben.

I hope you and Amy
can live with that,

the way Ben and I have had to
live with that for the past year.

Yep. I slept with Ben.

And I'm not going
to apologize for it.

Ever.

I didn't sleep with Amy.

I haven't slept with Amy
since band camp,

and that was before I knew you.

I kissed her.
I only kissed her,

and I only kissed her
because she asked me to.

Ask your dad.

You look sad,
little Benjamin.

Mrs. Morelli,
I was feeling sad,

and then you called me
little Benjamin.

That makes me feel happy.

I'm glad if I could
make you happy,

but you don't look happy.

But if you say you are happy,

you want to give me a discount
on the pork chops?

No, he doesn't.

He can't. Only I can.

I am the queen
and granter of discounts.

Me, and only me.

Bunny, where have you
been, dear?

Having some work done?
You look thinner, younger,

and you've done something
with your hair.

Give them to her.

You're a mood lifter,
you know that?

I do what I can.

Thanks. Bye.

Bye.

Ricky's never been late.
Where is he?

He's waiting for Adrian.

He wants to apologize to her
for kissing Amy.

That's why you're walking around,
looking the way you're looking?

Because Ricky kissed Amy?

No, I'm walking around
looking the way I'm looking

because I have a feeling Ricky and
I aren't going to be friends anymore.

Because he kissed Amy.

No, that isn't it.

Something else happened.
[door opens]

Hi, Bunny.

Hello. Good to see you, Mr. Nealy.

You left a message.
I couldn't hear you,

so I came over.

We got that pastrami you like.

I just wanted
to let you know.

Do you want a sample?
You sad about the pastrami?

I look sad to you, too, huh?

You look sad.

You got good pastrami
and a sad face.

What's that all about?

[dials cell phone]

I'm on my way.

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

I'm sorry. I'll be there
in ten minutes.

Do me a favor.
I don't know what's going on

between you and the sad sack
that did show up,

but things are slow here.

Busy morning, slow afternoon.

So if you need time,

we'll be all right here.

Look, kid,
I'm going to tell you

what I would tell my own
genetic treasures...

Don't let anything come
between you and a friend.

Ben is your friend.

Real friends are tough to find.

Ben had sex with Adrian.

You didn't feel anything?

No, I didn't.

I was very happy about it.
It was very freeing.

Come on. You kissed Ricky
and felt nothing?

No one kisses him
and feels nothing.

Maybe you are a bad kisser.

Ricky doesn't think there's
anything wrong with the way I kiss.

And he is the expert.

Well, you kissed him. Did you
feel anything when you kissed him?

Thanks for rubbing in
that wound.

So you still care
that I kissed him?

I had a baby with him.

I care if you kissed him.

But how can you care
if he kisses someone else,

when you didn't feel anything
when you kissed him yourself?

I mean, you don't
still want him, right?

Right.

I don't have feelings
for Ricky.

Maybe I did. Maybe I liked him at
band camp, but I don't love him.

Which doesn't mean
I wouldn't care

if he was with either
of my best friends. Okay?

And if I ever did feel
anything for Ricky, I'm over it.

This guy right here
is the only guy I love.

Right, John?

I'm telling you the truth.

All right.

But are you gonna call Jimmy?

Find out why
he hasn't called you,

after you read to John.
I might.

But not Ben?
No, not Ben.

I am over him, too.
Look, Ben's a nice guy,

but maybe too nice, you
know? He's not that nice.

Yeah, he is.

No, he's not.

Ben?

Ben.

I heard he slept with Adrian.

Adrian?

Ricky must have told her
that I kissed him,

and she went after Ben.

But Ben didn't have to say yes.

But he did.

What happened, happened.

I'm going to have
to get John to bed.

You two have to go home.
All right.

Or we could stay with John,

if you want to go over
and talk to Ben.

Or Adrian.

I wouldn't get
to read with him.

I love reading to John.

It's my favorite part
of the day.

We could read to him.

Yeah. Let us read to John.

We can put him to bed.
We can do it.

I'm supposed to watch
Robbie, too.

Well, right now,
Ashley's watching Robbie.

Well, where are your parents?

They're...

Not home.

Yeah, I know that.

How old are you, again?

15.

I just turned 15
over the holidays.

And how old was Amy
when she got pregnant?

15.

Your parents probably don't want
you around any guys, I would think.

Did you ask
if I can come over?

No.

Wow.

You say that a lot.

I know. I'm wowed a lot.

This time, by your
rebellious nature.

Your parents
don't know I'm here?

Nope. They're not home.

It's like something
I would do...

Have you over to my house
and hide you in my room,

like a Christmas present
stolen from under the tree.

A good present.

You know, something
you really wanted,

and you finally got.

I love sneaking around.

I don't know if it's
sneaking around.

I just didn't ask them.

I didn't want to set
any precedent

for asking permission
to see you or anything.

Oh, yeah. Well, that's good.

Until it actually comes up whether
or not you can go out with me...

Then, I don't know, the parents
may want to have some say in it.

They may or they may not.

They may notven notice
you're around.

You could fall under
my cloak of invisibility.

I'm invisible
much of the time here.

Well, with no baby and all...

So if they don't know
I'm here, I could...

We could have
kind of a sleepover.

Yeah, I guess.

That would be funny, huh,
if I slept over.

Yeah.

Then again, what if
we're not so invisible,

and we get caught and
they never let me see you?

Then we get caught. You're
saying I can sleep over?

You're willing
to take the risk?

There can't be
any physical contact.

You'd have to sleep on the floor
or on the couch, like Griffin does.

Griffin sleeps over?
Yes.

What about physical contact
if we're vertical?

Don't ask me
if you can kiss me, okay?

I don't want a guy to ask me
if he can kiss me,

because if a guy asks me
and I think about it,

then the answer
is going to be...

[camera shutter snaps]

When the baby wakes up, I want
you to take a picture of us

so I can send it to Jack.

Yeah, and then I'll hold him. I
want to send a picture to Jesse.

Why do we want our boyfriends
to see us holding a baby?

I don't know. Maybe because we want to
get married and have babies with them.

That's a scary thing
to say out loud.

Don't tell me
you weren't thinking it.

Oh, no, I was thinking it.

I just wouldn't want Jack
to know I was thinking it.

I don't think he'd like it.

No guy in high school
wants to have a baby.

Yeah, you're right.

It is way too young to
start thinking about babies

and stuff like that.

Yeah. Stuff like that.

Like marriage and babies.

Yeah. Way too soon.

- But I think about it.
- I do, too.

But just because
I'm thinking about it,

it doesn't mean I want to do
it any time in the near future.

Me, either. I also want to move
to France and live by myself,

but I'm not ready
to do that, either.

Besides, if Jack or Jesse knew we were
thinking about marriage or babies...

They'd break up with us.

[cell phone rings]

It's him. Hello.

Hey, Lauren.

Hey, Jesse.

Are you still at Amy's?

Yeah. She stuck me and Madison
with the baby so she could go out.

You know, personally,
I never want to have a baby,

or get married or anything.

No. Me, neither.

Not for a long, long time.

Long time.

I'm going to call Jack
and tell him the same thing.

Wow.

Wow, back.

This is a good feeling.

Really good feeling.

Think it'll last?

Forever.

Not possible.

Totally possible.

Slight chance
that it's possible.

I'll take that.

I'm tired of making
the same mistakes,

and I'm tired of living
with your mistakes and Amy's.

I just don't want to make
another mistake.

I'm a mistake?
The children are a mistake?

What's a mistake?

A mistake is making
the wrong decision.

It's... You know
what a mistake is.

Yeah, I do. Like when you told everyone at the mother
- daughter dance

we're getting remarried, just because
you felt pressured by a bunch of girls.

She told everyone
we're getting remarried.

So you want to get remarried?

How many times
do I have to say it?

I want to get remarried.

I want to be married
to the mother of my children.

But you know what? I've had it.

I want a commitment,
right here and now.

I came to therapy with you. Are
you going to remarry me or not?

Thanks a lot.

You were a big help.

Mr. Famous Family Therapist.
You stink.

He amuses you?
Yeah, he does.

And what about George
amuses you?

He's just so honest.

Honest?

He cheated on me.

He had an affair
with another woman.

That's not honest.

Yeah, but his feelings
about it are honest.

George is very honest
about his feelings.

Well, he just told you
that you stink.

I know. Most of the time, it
takes patients months, even years,

to question my authority,
but George...

George what? Look, we do not
have the money to come here,

so why don't you just
cut to the chase

and tell me what you
want to say, oh wise ass?

How's that for honesty?

Not exactly what
I was talking about.

That's not honesty.
That's anger.

But all right.

All right. I don't usually
say what I think,

because that's not really the
purpose of people coming here,

to hear what I think,
but that's what you want.

Fine. But let me do it

as a friend of the family.

There's no charge for this.

Great.

The issue of control keeps coming
up over and over again for you.

You can't control life.

You can only live your life.

And you can live it
in any way you want,

in that you can choose your
feelings about the people around you,

and what's going on
around you,

so live it like that.

Give up trying to control it,
and live it.

Live it to the fullest.

Life is good,
whether you're happy or not.

Personally, I think the pursuit of
happiness is just a waste of time,

so forget about being happy.

What is happiness anyway, other than
being surrounded by people who love you?

And you can't choose
how they love you.

You can only choose
to feel the love.

Feel the love. This is a
wonderful time in your life,

if you choose
to see it that way.

And as far as
all the mistakes go,

is anything really a mistake?

Or are mistakes just lessons?

Everyone makes mistakes.

Life is a school,

a learning process,

and some lessons are
more painful than others,

but that's just how it is.

That's just how it is, Anne.

The sum total
of our experiences

is what makes us
who we are.

All good experiences would not result
in becoming the strong, interesting,

beautiful woman that you are.

So give yourself a break, huh?

As well as George and Amy.

Mistakes happen.

It was a mistake.

A stupid, stupid mistake.

It's okay, Adrian.

It's okay. Everything's
going to be fine.

I thought they slept together.

I know, but truthfully,

I think you would have been just as angry
if you thought they just kissed each other.

Why did I do that? Why?

To get back at them.

I know, but in
getting back at them,

I screwed up everything
for myself.

And me.

And Ben.

And Amy, and Ricky,

and really, even Jack.

I came over here
for help and comfort.

I'm sorry.

I am really, really
sorry, Adrian,

but you did the wrong thing.

Again.

Excuse me?

The trouble really started
when you had sex with Jack.

If you hadn't
had sex with Jack,

I don't think I would have
had sex with Jack.

And then your father
wouldn't have d*ed.

Are we back to that?

No. That was just
a terrible thought I had

when I was consumed with guilt
because I had sex with Jack.

You know,
I don't understand that.

The guilt you had about
having sex with Jack.

You love Jack.
Jack loves you.

You both wanted to have sex. You
weren't cheating on each other.

So where does the guilt
fit in? I don't understand.

I think you do understand.

I think everything
you've been saying tonight

indicates that you
fully understand.

You're consumed with guilt,

guilt that you have
because you had sex.

Okay. It wasn't wrong to have
sex with Ben, in and of itself.

It was just wrong
that I did it

to get back at Amy and Ricky,

and because it isn't
going to get me what I wanted.

It isn't going to get me
anything at all.

No, it isn't, but that's
not why it's a mistake.

It's a mistake because sex
outside of marriage is a mistake,

in and of itself,
and I think you know that,

whether you want
to admit it or not.

You know, I don't know why I
ever became friends with you.

Oh, no, wait. I do.

I became friends with you because
it used to make me feel good

that the smart and beautiful
and popular Grace Bowman

would be friends with me.
But you know what?

You're really
no better than I am,

and being friends with you
doesn't make me feel good anymore.

I'm not responsible for your bad
feelings about yourself. You are.

Maybe if you didn't have
sex with every guy you know,

you'd like yourself
a little better.

Adrian, she doesn't know
what she's saying.

She's a crazy woman.

Even if you hate yourself,
I love you.

As a friend, of course.

Thanks, Tom, but I don't want
any friends right now.

Have you lost your mind?

Were you eavesdropping again?
Yes.

I don't want to discuss it.

I'm here to point out that you
are supposed to be Christian.

You put her down
and made her feel terrible.

Either you messed up big time,
or you're the devil.

Are you sure?

Well, I wasn't there,

but they both told me.

I'm telling you,
I'm going to...

Talk to him?

Why would he
do something like that?

Opportunity
presented herself.

Oh, hello. I didn't know
we had company.

Oh, hi, Betty.
I was just leaving.

Please don't leave,
because Leo and I

have something
we want to ask you.

Maybe we should ask her
some other time.

Is the wedding still on?

Of course it is.

It's just a bad thing, you
know? A little problem at work.

Good to see you, Betty.

Hang on a second, Bunny.

I don't want to mess things up
for my bride here.

Go ahead, Betty. Ask her.

I never slept with him. We
were never romantically linked.

Well, of course not.

No, Leo's first wife
was his high school sweetheart,

so he wouldn't have had time
to link up with you.

It's just that Bunny,
I wanted to ask you in person,

and I was going to come by
the butcher shop,

but it's just so...
so meaty down there.

I was just wondering if you
would care to be my maid of honor.

I'd be honored, Betty.

Thank you for asking.

But is Ben going to be
your best man?

'Cause tonight's conversation

might make for some awkward
social circumstances for a while,

if you know what I mean.

No. No, I don't know
what you mean.

Is that a yes or a no?

That's a "we'll see how
things go when I talk to Ben."

Have you ever been beaten up?

Really pummeled to the ground?

Yes, I have,

by the guy
who called Amy a slut.

Ironic.

Now you're the slut.

I'm in a state of shock.

I don't know what to say.

How could you make
that kind of mistake?

I don't know.
I really don't know.

Okay, I do know,

but if I try to say
how or why it happened,

it just comes off
as an excuse,

and there's not an excuse.

Ricky has a violent past. This
could trigger something really bad.

I think the sooner you talk to him,
the better. I don't think he'd hit me.

Even if he hadn't had a violent
past, I think he'd hit you.

I hope he does.

I hope he does hit me.

I'd feel better if he did.

I think we better
be going.

Now?
Yes, Hank. I have to get home.

And so do you.

All right. Bye.

We have to get him
some help, now.

I'll take Robbie now.
Thanks for watching him.

No problem.

Oh, yeah.

Dad?

Did you want to meet Grant?

He's Griffin's cousin.

Oh. Hey. Nice to meet you.

I'm going
to assume you're gay,

because that would be
easiest right now.

Thank you, sir.

Nice meeting you.

Good night.

What did I tell you?

Wow.

Hi, girls.

Oh, hi, Mr. and Mrs. Juergens...
Ms. Juergens.

Is it Juergens?

Where's Amy?

Is she in the house?

She's in the house, right?

No, she's not in the house.

That's why we're in the house.
We're babysitting.

Why isn't Ricky
babysitting?

- I don't know.
- I don't know.

And you don't know
where Amy is?

Or where Ricky is?

It's okay. I'll call her.

I'll find out where she is.

[cell phone rings]

That's your phone.

Yes, I know.

[ringing continues]

Is that why
you didn't call me?

You couldn't just tell me
that you found the condom?

Why would I? I didn't
want to see you again.

Because I had a condom?

Because you lied.

I thought you lied.

I wasn't lying.

I have no intention
of having sex again,

at least not in high school.

And yet.

And yet I had a condom,
because everyone has condoms.

Not everyone.

I don't. You know why?

Because I wasn't lying when I said
I wasn't having sex in high school.

I wasn't, either.

I see.

Is this because I did
have sex in high school.

No, it's not.
How did that happen?

How did I get pregnant?

The usual way.

We were making out and...

I don't know. We were
just more than making out.

I didn't mean to.
It was a mistake.

So the condom was just in
case you made another mistake.

No.

Does anyone really know when
they're about to make a mistake?

If they knew they were
going to make the mistake,

then they wouldn't make
the mistake.

Yeah, they would.

People know they're making
mistakes all the time.

They just go ahead
and make the mistake.

They can't seem to help it.

[sighs]
Look, I'm sorry, Amy.

I'm really determined
not to complicate my life

with sex right now.

It was a decision I made
ahead of time.

Why... Why did you drive
up here tonight?

Why? Why tonight?

Because I found out that Ben
had sex with Adrian.

Okay, I felt betrayed
by him and by her.

You know it's been driving me
crazy that you haven't called me?

Because I really do like you.

There was, um,
the short amount of time

that I thought you didn't call
me because I was a bad kisser

or something.

Can I just...
I mean, I forgot.

Route.

Oh, hey, Betty.
Do you know where my dad is?

I just need to talk to him.

Oh, yeah, he's not home. Oh.

You want to talk to me?

Actually, no, Betty,
not about this.

Can you think
of a three-letter word

for a guy that sleeps with
his best friend's girlfriend?

Because I have B-E-N... Ben.

Eh... Do you know
where my dad is?

I know he's not home,
but where is he?

I'm going to have to have
him tell you.

Why would you sleep
with Adrian?

How did you find that out?
What, does it matter?

It might. Who told you?

I can't say. Do you want
to talk to me about it?

Do I want to talk about a mistake
I made with sex to a hooker?

Good night.

Wait, Betty...

Heard you need some help.
Some guy let me in.

Henry and Alice called. They said you
might be getting b*at up or something.

Hit me. No, they didn't
call me to b*at you up.

They said someone else
was going to b*at you up.

I know, I know,
but just please...

just hit me
as hard as you can.

I don't do that. I don't
hit people, get into fights.

I don't have any desire
to hit anyone.

I had sex with Adrian.
Me, too.

I had sex with Adrian, and now
Ricky is going to pummel me,

and I hope he pummels me

because I deserve
to get pummeled.

It's a little extreme,
don't you think?

[sighs]
No.

[whistles]
Nice place.

Thanks.

Hey, he'll get over it.

She'll get over it.

Just don't go do
anything stupid, all right?

I already did
something stupid.

I just told you.

I betrayed a friend,

and I used another friend
for sex,

and I've crossed a line that is
personally demoralizing, and that...

And that?

And that means Amy is never, ever
going to consider going back with me.

I've lost her... forever

just because
of one stupid mistake.

Yeah, funny how that happens,

how one stupid mistake
can change your life,

or create life,
like Ricky and Amy.

Right... Right.

They made the same mistake,
kind of.

Do you think there's a chance
that she'll ever understand... Amy?

No, I doubt it.

Girls don't understand
those kind of mistakes.

They don't want to understand
those kind of mistakes.

Grace said she forgave me for
the mistake I made with Adrian,

and all the other mistakes
I made,

but I don't think she did.

Hey, look at it this way.

Up until now, you didn't
have any understanding

on how that kind of mistake
could happen, did you?

Thanks, and thanks for coming
over, Jack. It's really nice of you.

Not like I had
anything else to do.

You have enough problems
of your own.

You don't need to hear
about my problems.

No, no, I'm more than willing
to hear about your problems.

I mean, you just came over to help
the guy who's seeing the girl you love.

Loved. I loved Grace.

I wanted Grace to be the first
and only girl I ever had sex with.

I wanted to marry her,
have babies with her.

I loved her,

but having sex with her

messed up everything.

That relationship totally
revolved around either having sex

or not having sex.

It was the issue that brought
us together and split us up.

Then I hooked up with Madison.
I tried not to like her. I did.

I tried to keep it to sex,
but I actually like her,

and I think I was falling
in love with her,

and then she calls me tonight

and tells me
she's babysitting John

and that she decided that she never
wants to have children or get married.

And?

And what's the point

in being in a relationship
if at some point in the future

there's no chance of having
babies or getting married,

so I don't know if I feel
the same way about her

if just having sex is really
going to be just having sex.

But maybe if she knew that,
then...

No. I'm just going to let it go
before letting it go hurts.

You know what I mean?

- Yeah.
- Hey, good luck.

Let me know if there's anything
I can do other than hit you.

Oh, go ahead and go
out the front door.

Oh, thanks.
I wasn't sure.

Oh, jeez, Betty.
What about Betty?

Whoa, you startled me.

You don't normally come
in the front door.

Your friend was parked
out in the driveway.

Ah.
I wanted to talk to you,

but first I wanted to talk
to Ricky

because Bunny's
worried about him,

so I went over to the
apartment, and guess what?

He's not there. None of his
things are there. He's gone.

She's not answering.

Oh, I just got
a text from her.

She's okay.

She went out to see...
Jimmy?

She drove all the way to Palm
Springs on a school night?

Apparently.

Hey, did you know that Amy
was driving out to see Jimmy?

I know. Good night.

Wait a minute. Why do
you have two ginger ales?

Who's the other one for?

Good eye.
She's got a visitor...

gay guy, friend of Griffin's.
I met him.

Well, regardless,
I'd like to know

when we have visitors here
or in your room.

All right, Ashley?
Got it.

Good night.

Why would Amy go all the
way up there to see this guy

when he hasn't called her
and won't answer her calls?

I think that question
is the answer, isn't it?

What's the answer
to the question I asked you?

You going to marry me or not?

What did you
and your shrink decide?

We decided
that you're not funny.

No. I know he thinks I'm funny.

You know how?
I am funny.

[baby crying]

Did he tell you I'm funny?

Huh? You ignored him because
he said I was funny, didn't he?

[laughs]

If you ever want this
to work out,

don't pressure me about sex,
funny man.

All right.

And if I want to have sex,

I'll let you know.

He hasn't called.

Why hasn't he called?

Jesse hasn't
called me back either.

Maybe there's no service,

or maybe there's a big power
outage or something.

[baby crying]

[groans]
Is he crying again?

What is wrong with him?

You go.
Uh, it's your turn.

You go. I went
the last two times.

I changed his dirty diaper.

Well, I'm tired, and I
want to go home, and...

Oh, we have to go home.

We can't drive past 11.
Let's go.

Hey, we're very sorry,
but we don't want to be late

and miss curfew and get
in trouble, so could you...

Anne got him.
Oh, thank you.

Did you guys find Amy?
Went to see Jimmy.

Ooh, that's good.

Really good.

[Madison]
Yeah, she needs to move on.

Ben slept with Adrian,
you know.

[knock on door]
[sniffles]

Good night.

Adrian, it's me,
Tom Bowman.

I don't want to see
anyone right now, Tom.

I walked over here.
I'm tired.

Hi.
Hi.

You walked
all the way over here?

I want to talk to you.
Your dad said I could.

Tom, I can't believe you
walked all the way over here,

but if you're just here
because...

I'm back with Tammy.
[sighs]

I'm here because my sister
is not kind to you,

and I see you are hurting.

Okay, come in,
but you can't stay.

I don't feel like having
anyone around right now.

Not even me?
Tom.

Just want to make you smile.

Yeah, like that.

I love Ricky.

I really love him, and I
was just so angry with him

that he was with Amy,

that I wanted to get
back at them.

I have an anger problem, too.

That's how Jack
got me going this week.

Then I probably
should've called you.

Next time?

No, there isn't
going to be a next time.

You don't know that.

Yeah, I'm afraid I do.

You should have called me.
You should have talked to me

before you did
something stupid.

And what would you have told me

if I told you I was
going to have sex with Ben

to get back at Amy and Ricky?

I would have told you that
that's not what sex is for.

Don't feel bad.

People make mistakes.

I make mistakes
all the time,

and people still love me.

No one is perfect.

No one.

Hi.

Tom, Mom's in the car. We've
been looking everywhere for you.

I was here.
Yeah, we figured that out.

I really want to talk
to Adrian alone, please.

Thanks for coming over, Tom.

Good night. Sweet dreams.

I just wanted to say that I'm really
sorry that I wasn't nicer to you

when you came over earlier,

but really as a friend

I told you not to do
what you did,

and you did it anyway,

so it's kind of hard
to be sympathetic,

but really we all
seem to do something

that stops us
from getting what we want.

We always keep sabotaging
ourselves.

Maybe we just need to...
[phone ringing]

It's Ben.

Hi, Ben.
Hi, Grace.

Uh, we should talk
about things.

Right now I'm with Adrian.

Oh, great.

I need to talk to her, too,
but I was wondering.

Have you seen Ricky tonight?
Has anyone seen Ricky tonight?

You haven't seen
Ricky tonight, have you?

No, I definitely haven't.

And you, Grace,
you haven't seen Ricky?

No, is something wrong?

Is it? Something wrong?

He moved out of his apartment
without telling anyone.

He didn't leave a note. He's not
returning calls or texts or emails.

I called his old house,
his parents' house.

They haven't seen him, and he
wasn't over at Amy's tonight.

Oh, wait. He moved out of his
apartment. What do you mean?

Hi, Adrian.
Hi, Ben.

How are you?

Miserable.

Yeah, I am, too,

but we're still speaking
to each other?

I hope so.

Me, too,
and we should talk,

but I think that for right now
we should try to find Ricky.

He moved out?

Apparently, yeah.

[sighs]

When she does get home, I
don't care what her mother says.

I'm taking the keys.

Here. Take the keys.

Going to drive me
to school tomorrow?

Pick me up and take me to work

and pick me up after work
and take me by the market

to get diapers or food
or whatever else John needs.

You're not going to punish me
by driving me.

I never get out of the house
by myself for myself,

so tonight I did.

Give me the keys.

Sit down.

I'm going to go tell Madison
and Lauren they can go home.

They left an hour ago. They
both have to be home at 11,

and so do you, young lady.

Oh, yeah, I forgot.

Did you see Ricky
on your travels tonight?

No.
Did he call you tonight?

No.
You have any idea where he is?

No, I don't.
What's going on?

Ben called here looking
for him.

Ben's looking for Ricky?

Hmm. I'm surprised Ricky's
not looking for Ben.

He slept with Adrian.

What?

Yeah, apparently to get back
at Ricky for kissing me.

She thought we did
something more than that.

I don't know why everyone
thinks I'm having sex.

Well, you did ask Ashley
for a condom.

What? That's the first
I'm hearing about this.

It's righteous indignation,
one of my favorites.

All right, Ashley told me.

I left my purse
in Jimmy's car,

and when he went out
to get it for me,

it slid off the seat
and fell onto the driveway.

Everything
scattered everywhere,

and he saw the condom.

When he saw the condom,

he thought I was lying
about when I had told him

that I didn't want to have sex
again in high school

and maybe not even
until I was married,

so he didn't call me and he
didn't answer any of my calls

because he didn't want
anything to do with me.

Maybe like Ashley's friend,
Griffin's cousin.

He's a really good-looking guy.
What's he talking about?

Ashley's been hanging out
with Griffin's cousin.

Oh, Grant?
Guy about, like, this tall,

longish hair on top,
totally smitten with her?

He's not gay.

Who told you he was gay?

So you went out to see Jimmy

because you know you're not going
to see Ben again, didn't you?

That's why you got up
the nerve to go track him down.

Am I right?

Yeah. I'm sorry,
I just decided to do it.

And? And I know it was a school night,

and I know
I should've asked first,

but, Mom, I think we got
everything straightened out,

like, I think he likes me,

and I like him,

but I know I'm 16,

and I don't have time
for a boyfriend,

but I really do like this guy,
Mom,

and I hope he likes me

because, oh, he's just funny.

He makes me laugh,

and I han't laughed
in a long, long time.

[phone buzzing]

[chuckles]

You lied to me.

I didn't lie.
You just assumed he was gay.

You let me think he was gay.

Dad, please don't be angry.
You'd really like this guy.

I don't like any guy
who likes you.

I know, and I love you
for that, but, Dad, I'm 15,

and I'm going
into 10th grade next year.

You're 14.
I just turned 15, Dad.

No.
Yeah.

Well, it's still
too young to date.

Amy had a baby at 15.

Which is why
you cannot date at 15.

I'm not dating.

I was just having Grant over,
getting to know him.

Yeah, I'd like
to get to know him.

Oh, would you?

I could introduce you. He's
standing right in my closet.

Wow.

Hello, sir.

I'm at fault for not speaking
up when you thought I was gay.

You sure you're not gay? Maybe
you're just in the closet.

Sir, I'm in a closet,
not the closet.

I'm not gay.

I'm in love with Ashley.

We haven't discussed that yet.

Yes, we have.

I told her upon meeting her that I think
she's the most beautiful girl in the world

and that I love her.

You know how it is.

Yeah, I know how it is.

Say good night and then...

It's late.
How old are you?

I'm 16.

I have a provisional license
with a curfew.

[sighs]

All right, well,
I trust her completely,

so if you want to sleep
on the couch over there,

you're welcome to stay
on the couch.

Thank you, sir, and I
won't abuse the privilege.

Good night, Ash.

Well.

I have to go now.
Good night.

But he said you could stay.

Yeah, it was a test.

He said I could stay.
That means I can't stay.

Good man.
See you next week.

Remember when we first met
and everything was fun,

and I made you laugh,
and you made me laugh,

and we couldn't wait to be
with each other?

That was
the best time of my life.

Remember how that felt?
Yeah, I do.

Not being sure
of what would happen

was exciting back then,
remember?

Yeah, I remember.

Come on, Anne.

What was it they used to say? The
flipside of fear is excitement?

I'd be really excited
to be with you again.

I really would.

Hey, go to bed.

I've got people
who can find him.

We'll find him.

Did you talk to his parents?

Yeah, his mom had a few
suggestions as to where he might be.

Said he used to do this
when he was a kid.

In foster care
he used to run away,

so he knows
how to take care of himself.

He'll come around,

and when he does come around,
you're going to talk to him.

He was your friend, Ben.

He's probably not going to want
to be your friend now,

but you owe it to him
to talk to him

and hear
what he has to say to you.

He kissed Amy.

You're not with Amy anymore.

Nor will I ever be again.

Yeah, well, you're just going to have
to accept responsibility for this,

and get ready to learn some
of life's toughest lessons.

It's hard enough to lose someone
when they pass away, like your mother,

but that was
out of our control.

I mean, losing a friend

by doing something
dishonorable, like you did,

well, that's plenty painful,
too,

especially when you know
that didn't have to happen.

You made it happen.

It was under your control.
You knew it was wrong.

You did it anyway, and those are
the worst mistakes you can make.

I'd like to know
what your thinking was,

and don't blame it on Adrian.

I can't stand
when people make mistakes

and blame it on someone else.

I thought I could ignore
that Amy had sex with Ricky

even though she was pregnant.

I thought I could ignore
that it was his baby

because I really loved her,

and I thought that,
as time went by,

she and I
would love each other

more and more,

and the fact
that she was ever with him

would bother me less and less,
and that just didn't happen.

In fact the opposite happened.

I couldn't understand

how the woman I loved

would ever be with him.

He was with her,
so I wanted to be with her.

I mean, after all,
I'm the one who loved her.

I'm the one who held her hand

and supported her
every day until John was born.

Amy was my girlfriend,

and yet there was no way she
was ever going to be with me,

not in the next decade
anyway,

so I wanted
what I didn't have with Amy.

I wanted an uncomplicated
relationship

that was fun,

and that
had some sex involved,

and that was Maria.

I like Maria.

I like her a lot,

and just for the record,

we fooled around a little,

but we never had sex,

and even if we did,

she's not here.

Even if she was,
she's not Amy,

and neither is Grace,

and neither
is any other girl.

I want Amy.
I want her back.

So you went
and had sex with Adrian.

I didn't do anything
that Amy didn't do.

I didn't plan on having sex
with Adrian.

It just happened.

I went to go talk to Amy,

and she didn't want anything
to do with me,

so I was just sitting
in my car

lost in my own painful thoughts

when Adrian came
out to the car.

And made you feel better.

- For a while, yes.
- And how are you feeling now?

Like hell, Dad, like hell.
You satisfied?

No. No, Ben, I'm not.

You had sex
for the first time...

I mean,
this was your first time...

in a car with Adrian?

I didn't mean
for it to happen.

I just... I keep doing things
and saying things

without thinking.

There's more?
What else would you do?

Hey, Leo?

Why don't you two boys
take a break

before something's said
between the two of you

that you wish you hadn't said.
It's late.

Smart man knows
when to take advice.

Let's take Betty's advice, huh?

Because I don't think I could hear
much more of what I heard tonight

without doing or saying
something stupid myself.

Thanks, Dad, and...

thanks, Betty.

Sure, kid.

I love you, Ben.
Good night.

Wait, Betty.

I'm sor...

Thank you.

Good night.
Love you.