01x05 - Awake & Dreaming

[bunniefuu]

[unsettling music]

[breathing heavily]

[bird cawing]

[Liv] Hey!

Wait.

Hey! Stop!

Hey!

Hey! Stop!

Please!

- Please come back! I'm right here!

- [aircraft engine droning]

Please! Come back!

[grunts]

[thuds]

[ominous music]

[Liv groans]

[grunts]

[groans, heavy breathing]

[ominous music continues]

[pants]

Come on.

[panting]

[groans]

[grunts, panting]

[blows air]

Mom?

Hi, sunflower.

I missed you.

Where have you been?

[chuckles softly]

[Lucia] It's been so lonely

down here without you.

[Liv] I have to get out of here.

We're together again.

You found me.

[chuckles]

[exhales]

[grunts]

[exhales]

[young Liv] Mom?

Mom?

What?

[young Liv] I'm hungry.

Ask your father.

He's at work.

Mom.

- [Lucia] No!

- [screams]

[distant phone ringing]

Liv?

Been looking all over for you.

- Where've you been?

- [groans]

Were you sleeping in here?

Just closed my eyes for a second.

Will you turn that off?

Is everything okay?

Yeah. Yeah why why wouldn't it be?

You're late. Hearing's in 20 minutes.

The hearing. Yeah, right. Right.

You're still coming out tonight, right?

This underground music thing?

Right.

Right.

Right, that happens tonight.

[Danny] Yeah, that happens tonight.

I promise I won't try

to hold your hand or anything.

Are you sure you're all right? You

You look a little lost.

I'm fine. I I'll be right there. I just

I I I want to get something to eat.

- Eighteen minutes.

- [Liv] I'm starving.

[in a hoarse voice]

Danny! Stay out of my snack drawer!

- g*dd*mn it.

- [drawer shuts close]

[indistinct chatters]

[machine whirs, clicks]

[whimpers]

[in normal voice]

Danny?

[suspenseful music]

Hello?

Hey, do you know where everyone is?

Hey.

Hey! Wait!

Hey!

[light music]

[Liv] Ruth!

- What's going on?

- It's a f*cking fire drill.

I don't know how it snuck up on us.

Hopefully, the client still shows.

Are you ready? Are you nervous?

You're gonna do great.

Is that what you're wearing?

I can't read this.

Copier's broken, sorry.

- I'm just going to grab a glass of water

- [Ruth] Fifteen minutes!

Hey! What is it, like, take your kid

to work day or something?

Are you lost?

Do you know where your mother is?

Mom?

Mom!

Where'd you go, Mom?

Mom?

[Liv] Mom.

[Lucia] It's okay, girasol.

It was just a bad dream.

I'm here now.

[panting]

Please, help me.

[heavy breathing]

- [panting]

- [rustling]

[thuds]

[Lucia] You can chip away,

but you'll never get out from under it.

No matter how hard you try.

[grunts]

She's gone, Liv.

Where?

[Tomás] I don't know. She didn't say.

This is not your fault, Liv.

I'm hungry.

[puffs]

This has nothing to do with you.

I'm thirsty.

[tense music]

- [faucet creaks]

- [pipes gurgling]

- [clattering]

- [breathing heavily]

[tense music continues]

[grunts]

[rumbles, cracks]

[thuds]

[grunts]

Danny. f*ck.

- Will you get off my dress?

- Hearing's in 12 minutes.

You're not gonna flake

on me tonight, are you?

I don't know.

- Have you seen a little girl around?

- [Danny] A little girl? No.

What do you mean you don't know?

I mean, I don't know!

I'm kind of busy right now.

You said you were into this.

Why is there no food in this fridge?

Who took my f*cking lunch?

Why is it so hard to just say

you'll show up, and then show up?

I don't know. Because I am a human person

who works an 80-hour workweek.

I don't have time to go out every night.

Are you familiar with the song

"Cat's in the Cradle"?

Yes, I'm familiar with the song

"Cat's in the Cradle."

Well, you're the father and I'm the son.

And if you don't take time

to play catch with me right now,

I might not be around later

when you're retired.

Uh, I don't love this allegory for us.

Come out tonight.

I'm late. I have to go.

Eleven minutes.

If you don't show up,

I'm coming to find you.

Where are you going?

[tense music]

[ominous music]

[indistinct music plays]

comes easy ♪

With the one that you love ♪

Life comes easy ♪

It was written above ♪

Hey.

[young Liv] Sorry.

What did I tell you?

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to

What is the only thing more important

than not interrupting me when I'm working?

I'm I'm sorry.

Dancing. Dancing!

Having fun!

'Cause I loved you ♪

Right from the start ♪

Easy ♪

And it came easy ♪

- Come on.

- 'Cause you melted my heart ♪

Like this!

It's okay.

- Go ahead.

- And it's easy ♪

[sighs]

With the one that you love ♪

- [groans]

- [thuds]

[Lucia] Go ahead.

Yes!

More!

[Lucia] More!

Bigger!

- [Lucia] Yes!

- [thuds]

[laughing]

Yes!

Yes!

[in Spanish]

My daughter is a genius!

Oh ♪

Oh ♪

Oh ♪

Oh ♪

- Oh ♪

- [in English] Wait.

Oh ♪

Stop!

[pants]

I can't do it.

I can't get out.

You've always made everything

so hard on yourself.

Ever since you were a little girl.

I'm

so f*cking thirsty.

Everything the long way around.

[ominous music]

Even when the answer

was right in front of you.

There's always a way out.

No.

- [Tomás] Liv.

- No!

- You have to eat.

- Go f*ck yourself!

Liv. Liv!

[Tomás] Liv!

Liv.

Liv?

[in Spanish]

Stop!

- Liv!

- [young Liv in English] I hate you!

- Mom was right!

- [Tomás] Open this!

You just want to control everything!

Liv. No. You don't yell at me!

You don't slam the door at me,

you hear me?

You want me to leave too?

Is that what you want me to do? Huh!

Well, too bad!

'Cause I'm still here!

I'm not the one who left.

[Tomás] I'm still here!

You can hate me all you want,

and I'll be here!

You're stuck with me,

whether you like it or not, Liv!

Go away!

Just go away!

[sobs, sighs]

[pants, heavy breathing]

[in Spanish]

In this house,

we make our beds

[Tomás] every day, Liv.

[in English]

You understand me?

[thuds]

[thunder rumbles]

You know why

there's stars in the sky, Liv?

Why?

So, we can always find our way home.

[gentle music]

[young Liv] Dad?

Dad?

[Tomás mumbles]

[Tomás] It's okay, Liv.

I'm still here. I promise.

I think it's time for him

to start letting go.

[doctor] But he won't do it

unless you tell him to.

You have to tell him it's okay.

No.

I understand you're feeling a lot of pain.

Why don't you go f*ck yourself?

How about that?

Get out.

Miss Rivera.

Get the f*ck out.

[gentle music]

Liv. Liv!

[thuds]

[crowd cheering]

[dance music playing]

[dance music continues playing]

[somber music]

[grunts]

Hey.

- [drawer closes]

- You caught me.

That club was crazy, huh?

My ears are still ringing, are yours?

I thought you'd left.

Nope. Still here.

Where do you keep your salt and pepper?

What are you doing?

It's called breakfast.

Some people are pretty into it.

- [Liv] Danny.

- Hmm.

No.

Really?

Aah!

Here we go.

Weird place for them, but no judgment.

[food sizzles]

I have to work.

I have to file this motion by

Which is why I have to make you

this delicious meal.

'Cause otherwise, you won't eat.

I know you.

And food is actually quite high

in a man's desire to eat.

You don't have to do this.

And yet I am. How great am I, huh?

Also, your potatoes

were like growing other potatoes.

When's the last time you saw

a supermarket from the inside?

- Danny, we can't just

- [Danny] Wait. Taste, taste this.

Careful, it's hot.

[Danny] Good, right?

Stop distracting me. It's not done yet.

[sighs]

Why are you doing this?

I love you.

[Lucia] I love you.

[Lucia sobs]

[sniffles]

[Lucia] Be good.

I have to go.

[heavy breathing, grunts]

[grunts]

[groans]

[grunts, pants]

Did you hear what I just said?

I have to go, I'm late.

[thuds]

What are you talking about, Liv?

Look, you don't have to do this.

The the whole, like, cooking breakfast

and sticking around.

You don't have to do any of it.

[grunts]

We just got f*cked up

and made another dumb mistake.

- It's not gonna happen again.

- [Danny] Who says it was a mistake?

And you don't have to rush out.

Just lock the door when you're done.

Who says it was a mistake

or that I want to leave?

I'm not saying that.

[grunts]

[crackles]

[pants, grunts]

I like you. A lot.

And and I I think you like me,

so what's the problem?

[grunts]

[groans, panting]

You're just going to leave eventually,

so let's just get this over with.

No, I'm not.

[grunts]

[grunts, groans]

Oh, f*ck!

[pants]

You're allowed to be happy.

We both are.

[groans]

[grunts, panting]

[whispers]

I have to go.

[panting]

[pensive music]

[panting continues]

[light music]

[pants]

[grunts]

[panting]

[Danny] Why are you doing this?

What are you so scared of?

You know what? f*ck this.

I don't have to leave, you do.

Get out.

Get out! Get the f*ck out!

[exhales]

[heavy breathing, pants]

[judge] All right.

How much longer

are we expected to wait, Miss Rivera?

I

beg your pardon, Your Honor?

Miss Rivera, I think it's time

you cut your losses here.

You tried. You did your best.

There's no shame in that.

No one's gonna fault you

for calling it a day.

And I think your client

would agree with me.

[light music]

[Lucia] It's okay.

Why did you leave?

It's not your fault.

You did your best.

It's okay to let go.

[sighs]

Is that what you did?

Let go?

[Lucia sighs]

I know you think I abandoned you.

But I didn't.

I saved you.

I saved all of us.

I felt lost when I left you,

but it was the only way I knew

how to take care of you anymore.

And look at you.

[sobs]

Look how strong you are now.

It's too late for excuses.

[Liv sniffles]

[sobs]

- We're so much alike.

- [gasps]

You see things sometimes, don't you?

Things that aren't there.

f*ck you.

Go away.

You don't mean that.

You need me.

No! I don't.

I needed you then. Not now.

Where the f*ck were you?

I need you?

Because of you, I've spent my whole life

in f*cking armor,

making sure no one gets close

enough to hurt me!

Making sure I don't need anything

from anyone!

I'm done.

You be f*cking good.

[grunts, wincing]

I am nothing like you.

And you know why?

Because I don't give up!

[rattles]

[clicks]

[grunts, sniffles]

[upbeat music]

Bye, Mom.

[Lucia] Liv.

Come back here, querida!

I'm sorry.

[Lucia] Liv.

[in Spanish] Come on,

you're going to hurt yourself, silly.

[in English]

Come back here right now.

Do you hear me?

[in a hoarse voice]

Come back here!

Don't leave me down here by myself!

[Lucia screams]

Liv!

[upbeat music]

[hawk screams]

[tense music]

[rumbles]

[closing theme music]