Love Me Anyway (2018)

[bunniefuu]

(slow music)

- Did I tell you my brother-in-law

is coming into town?

- [Jack] You did not.

- [Esme] Yeah, Eddie's brother, Danny.

He's coming to visit Eddie

who's in San Fran

and he misses me I believe
you too, I don't know.

Ah, I don't really know, I don't know.

- [Jack] What does he do?

- He's a filmmaker.

It's weird, I mean Eddie
and I have been together

for so long but I really
just don't know his brother.

- [Jack] You guys don't get along?

- No, we're just not that
interested in each other

and I wish we were

but we're just not.

It's just our personalities don't,

connect

but yeah, he makes films,

sometimes porn.

- Okay.

- I know.

That's about all I know.

- [Jack] I guess someone's gotta make 'em.

- [Esme] Yeah, yup, and he does I guess.

Never watched them.

(chuckles)

- [Jack] Well this'll
be good, it'll be time

for you guys to bond.

- Yeah, yeah I think so.

I think, yeah, I think you're right.

It'll be good.

I guess I'm just thinking,

I'm thinking about it too much

and it's weird.

- He's your husbands brother.

- [Esme] Mmhmm.

- [Eddie] Are they better now

because of it would you say?

Are they stronger now?

- I don't know maybe.

- Like dad went through a time

and it was tough right

and I remember you whinning
about it a little bit

but do you think they're better now?

- Probably.

- Is it because maybe dad came back to

his relationship with a new perspective

having done that?

- Maybe but I'm sure he just realized

"This is dumb, why am I doing this?"

- Sure, but I mean he wouldn't have come

to that realization without
having done that, right?

I mean you have to...

- Yeah, perhaps.

- [Eddie] I get it.
- [Danny] You have it.

As much as you hated dad at that time

like I get that now.

I'm at a point where I'm
sitting across from Esme

and I love her to death
and I cherish her...

- [Danny] Mmmhmm.

- But I can feel that and at the same time

feel like I kinda wanna k*ll her as well.

- That's wonderful.

I would love to stick with somebody

and look at across and

want to k*ll them.

(chuckles)

That would be the best thing in the world.

- You don't know what
you're talking about.

- No, what you have is good.

It's great.

- You have the single life man.

You have the, you can
do whatever you want.

- I have the lonely single life.

At some point, it's just a sad lonely...

- [Eddie] You're a cliche.

- [Danny] Single man,
that's just out there.

- [Eddie] You love it,
you love it, just own it.

Just embrace it, you love it.

Don't be one of those...

- [Danny] I did, I loved it.

- [Eddie] Whiny male contents that's like

"Oh I wanna find the right one", oh.

- [Danny] But I do.

- [Eddie] But you don't.
- [Danny] As corny as it sounds

I do.
- [Eddie] You like the strange a*s.

- [Danny] The strange a*s.
(laughs)

Who doesn't like strange a*s.

But at some point, I
do want a familiar a*s.

- And when you get that

and you put that through a few years

you're gonna wonder what the next step is.

Which is why I like right now I feel like

a baby would be the next step.

- A baby?

- A baby.

- So you wanna have a baby now.

- I do, yeah.

- That'd be great.

I think you should have a baby.

- Yeah, I'd be a great dad.

- I'm surprised you
haven't had a baby yet.

You would be a good dad.

- Yeah.

Thanks brother.

- You're a horrible brother
but you'll be a good...

- f*ck you man.

- But you'll probably be a better dad.

- You had to ruin it.

(chuckling)

It was so nice.

I almost loved you for a minute.

- Almost.

Well you'll love this baby forever.

- Yeah.

- I think it'll be great

and I'll come and visit

and spoil it

and then go away,

with my sad lonely life...

- You're gonna hang out with my son,

he's gonna end up thinking
you're cooler than me.

I don't wanna have a baby
to fix my problems though,

I need to fix my relationship.

Does that make sense?

Like I have this fear
of like continuing on

with the same mundane routine with Esme

and I love her but like
everyday the same thing

and I'm afraid like later on,

having built up just so
many regrets and like,

you know what I mean?

And then I end up having some
kind of meltdown or whatever.

However that manifests
itself, it's gonna be some,

I don't know.

- So go ahead, have the meltdown

and then come back to her.

(chuckles)

- [Esme] Hey!
- [Danny] How are you?

- Look at you!

Wow so good to see you.

- [Danny] You look good.
- [Esme] Wow.

- What a sweet display of affection.

So sweet, he didn't say
"hi" like this to me.

Devon, Danny, Danny, Devon.

- Very nice to meet you.

- Yes.

I promised my men here food.

- Yes, let's eat, yup.
- [Eddie] Thank you so much.

- Alright, just grab some beers, okay?

- [Devon] Wonderful.

- This guys hotel,

I went to pick him up
and of course you know

there's a bunch of regular
hotels down the street,

around there, just even across the street

and he has to stay at the avant garde

weird looking, lamps,

lamp looks broken like this.

(laughing)

Lamp shade is like this.

Like it's just a f*ck'
Andy Warhol nightmare.

And he wants to stay there

because it's the interesting place right.

- [Danny] He loved it.

He wanted to stay there so bad.

Hey, it's been a long time.

I'm glad to see you both.

- [Esme] I know it's really
really good to see you.

- I was expecting to walk on in

and see you holding a baby.

- Oh.

- [Danny] I'm sure mom has been

begging for a grandchild.

- [Eddie] How does that feel?

- Ahh, baby.

- [Eddie] How does that
feel? Look at that.

- [Esme] Yeah, no baby right now.

- No.
- [Esme] No baby, no, no.

- Look how weirded out she is?

She's weirded out.

- [Esme] Lately too, it's
been like, it's been a while.

- It's a weekly question

but you've never been this nice about it.

It bothered you right now.

- No, it's just that
it's a personal question.

- [Eddie] It is a personal question.

- And you know...
- [Danny] It is.

- Yeah, yeah and you know

it's just not the right time right now.

- She's been busy man.

She's going doing a lot...

- No I'm sorry if this is...

- [Eddie] She's too busy with
her work and her projects

and her, right?

- [Esme] Yeah, yup I've been...

- [Eddie] Are we still calling it work?

- No, I have been really
busy at work actually

so that does play a part in it.

I've been doing a lot of freelancing

with fashion, photography...

- [Danny] Great, wonderful!

- Yeah, just a lot of stuff

but my main focus is graphic design.

So I've been doing lots of...

- [Eddie] How long have you been doing it?

- Unpaid internships and stuff like that

and have been working on it
for a like almost two years.

So, and it's going really well.

I'm just trying to build my portfolio

and get a lot of stuff in there.

- [Danny] Yeah, it's exciting.

- Yeah it does but
sometimes you have to do

a few favors too, you know.

- [Eddie] And a lot of
unpaid internships, right?

- I mean I wouldn't say a lot,

I mean there's been some.

There are some that pay
and some that don't.

- [Eddie] Which, how would you...

- [Esme] It's pretty like even split.

- [Eddie] Is it really?

Would you say it's even split?

- [Esme] Well, I remember
a time when little Eddie

was starting off in his career and...

- Don't bring that up,
it's not the same thing.

It does not, it doesn't even compare.

- [Esme] It sounds like the same thing.

- It does not compare, it does not.

It's not the same thing,

because I stuck at it.

I stuck with it and
then it ended up paying.

- [Esme] That's what I'm
doing though as well.

- [Eddie] No it's not, it's
like the key phrase here

was "stick with it".

When you "stick with it"
then good things happen.

- Sticking with something
for almost two year...

- [Eddie] I respect that
your artistic integrity

that you'll do work for free.

You know, obviously I get that,

you guys are artistic or
whatever I don't know, but...

- [Esme] So what is, what is the...

- The problem is that some of it like...

- [Esme] For the past two years...

- Let's say, I mean
they ask you a question,

how was, well he didn't
ask how does it work is

but let's tell him about work.

Let's see how it's going.

She takes on some work that pays,

most work doesn't pay,

meanwhile we have bills and got stuff.

- [Esme] The work that doesn't pay

is what I'm working towards
for having my career.

- Sure but you have to work at
it for a while though right?

I mean let's just, let's say it.

- I don't think I need
to go into my entire

financial situation with your brother

who I haven't seen in, I
don't even know how long.

- [Eddie] Okay but I'm saying, okay,

all I'm saying, okay like so,
let's paint the full picture.

- Eddie let it go, just let it go.

- [Eddie] No let's paint
the full picture there.

It's not like you've never
seen us talk about this.

Let's talk about it.

- [Esme] Yeah let's paint the picture.

I'm working at...

- [Eddie] Right now you're
doing in graphic design right?

And you've been doing that
for a little bit, yeah?

- Okay...
- [Eddie] And then you were...

- [Esme] Two years, yes.

- [Eddie] Okay good.
- [Esme] Two years yes,

not a little bit.
- [Eddie] Okay.

- [Esme] You make it sound
like it's been five months.

- [Eddie] But if you don't
start seeing some money

within two years don't you think

it's that's it, kind of?

- But I have, I have...

- [Eddie] Maybe you should
just find a regular job

or do you have to be...

- I have been seeing money though,

that's what you're missing.

- Okay but enough, enough to be...

- You're just not paying...

- So I don't feel like I'm carrying you?

- You're focusing on the unpaid work

and not the paid work

because that's what
you would prefer to do.

- I pick the f*ck' thing,

I pick the thing that pays

and that's like, it's bringing money back

and it's comfortable

and we could live comfortably...

- Sure I would love it.

- So you could explore your,

you know, your weekly
fevers or your dogmanship.

- [Esme] I do recall it,

I do recall a time when
you were starting out...

- [Eddie] So yeah in my video game,

when I started off in that

there was a transitional period, sure.

I was doing some stuff for free

because I also needed to
kind of build a reputation

and whatever and then
I started getting gigs

and then I started getting paid

and now I'm getting paid more money

and now like, the only changes then are...

- Yeah, yeah, you did that

and that's exactly what
I'm doing right now.

- [Eddie] Okay, but you
have to stick to it.

Yeah but you go from one
thing to another thing.

Before this it was fashion, yeah?

- It's not that I'm...

- [Eddie] So it's graphic design now,

fashion before...

- I'm picking that up so I
can have money coming in.

- I think you were a f*ck'
mime before that, right?

- I'm not...

- [Eddie] Okay, yeah

and then what was it before?

Then she was a street performer

and then you were doing other things.

Obviously I was joking
about the mime thing

but you guys know that she wasn't a mime.

(sighs)

I'll fixate on some small,
ridiculously small issue,

semantics, the way she says something.

Sometimes, I don't
know, I don't know just,

escalate and then one of us loses it.

- That's been happening a lot.

That's it?

- I honestly don't know
what's gonna happen.

- Yeah.

- Well I don't know how much
I'm trying to (mumbles).

- [Danny] I'm hoping for
the best but you're good.

Don't beat yourself over it.

- Alright.

(chuckles)

I'm sorry, so anyway, yeah.

- And I see, look who's awkward now.

- [Eddie] Yeah.
- [Danny] Yeah.

- [Eddie] I'm alright,
(mumbles) is not gonna judge me.

Okay, now that,

so let me make it up to you
by asking you for a favor.

- Oh yeah.

- Can you take this Mexican home?

- Oh yeah.
- [Eddie] Yeah?

- He'll fit nicely in the truck.

(laughing)

(slow music)

- [Danny] You should be out there surfing.

I don't know why you're not doing this.

- [Eddie] It's just too manly for me.

(chuckles)

I can't do that, it's too cool for me.

- [Danny] You'd rather
just sit here and watch.

- I'd rather just sit her
and f*ck' punch you.

(laughing)

Don't f*ck' question my manhood.

- [Danny] Ah you got me.

- Shut the f*ck up.

- I'm just f*ck' around.

- Don't, don't, I don't
wanna get all full of sand.

(screams and laughs)

Son of a f*ck'...

This is my turf, this is my turf.

Dude don't f*ck...

- This is your turf?

- Dude don't f*ck' do it.

I will not f*ck',

I will g*y bash you.

Oh my gosh my gum!

(laughing)

I lost my...

(laughing)

Damn it, f*ck'!

- [Danny] Uncle, uncle.

- He's not here dude.

And it's Thio.

- [Danny] Gimme my hat.

- [Eddie] Here.

- [Danny] Now I got sand in my mouth.

- I'm done watching this
f*ck' as*h*le surf.

- [Danny] Oh my God.

- [Eddie] Oh f*ck.

- [Danny] So what's his deal?

What can you tell me about him?

- He's a surfer.

I think he's what Europeans think

they're gonna see more of
when they come over here.

- Really?

- Yeah.

Instead they see us.

- Is he on Tinder or Grindr?

- Yeah, I don't know what that means.

(laughs)

- That's right, you shouldn't.

- [Eddie] What is that?

- [Danny] You're an old married man.

(chuckles)

- [Eddie] How do we call...

This is ridiculous, how do we call him in?

- [Danny] I don't know.

- [Eddie] And does he
have any consideration?

Like are we, you know...

- No, he's in his...

- Cowabunga bullshit.

- He is.

It's part of his charm.

- I'm done.
- [Danny] Part of his allure.

- I'm gonna go.

He's not experiencing this.

Dude, we're not out there.

We're getting sand in
our f*ck' stupid faces

and he's surfing.

Every chic here wants to f*ck him.

(laughs)

And I'm here hanging out with you.

- [Danny] That's right.

(slow music)

("Flying Forver" by Ben Scott-Brandt)

- You need help?

- I think I got it, thank you though.

- [Eddie] So what do
you do, just ride that?

- Yeah.

- [Eddie] Okay.

- That's pretty much it.

- [Danny] Listen I'm good.

I'm gonna go with him.

- Yeah?

- [Devon] Yeah, I'll take him home.

- Alright, okay, bye.

- [Danny] So what now?

- Get in the car.

I'll finish this.

For real, I got it.

("Flying Forever" by Ben Scott-Brandt)

(attempting to make a sexy sound)

- So you don't like it?

Just let yourself look, just look.

Look at that.

God if I were you I'd
wanna bang me all the time.

Look at this.

Someone overcooked this.

Look at that, how about that?

Is that sexy?

No?

(chuckles)

How's this?

You come home from work one day

and I'm standing like this.

Hey.

Whatever.

I'm turning myself on.

The way I did, like the
way girls put on their...

Do you like it?

You didn't like it.

(sighs)

You don't think I'm funny.

You want me now because of the dancing.

- [Esme] Mmhmm.

- [Eddie] You do, you're
damn right you do.

I want me.

(laughing)

- [Esme] That's just too much.

- So a friend of mine was
watching one of my films

and she was like "Danny I'm noticing that

"all these guys in your films are,

"is very hyper masculine
type of guys you know.

"Take charge, kind of heroic type of men."

- [Esme] Kind of like your dad?

- Like, wow nobody's ever said,

wow that's like nice...

- Right though?

- [Danny] Observation.

- I've gotten that before man.

I've gotten that a couple of times.

- [Danny] Have you?

- That I'm kind of like dad, yeah.

I'm not, I totally sound like

"Well I got that a couple of times".

(laughing)

But I have, I have.

'Cause he's a masculine dude.

He's a sexy guy, debonair...

- [Danny] But no, no
one has ever said that.

- Very masculine, masculine is good.

- I don't know, I don't really see that.

I see more as macho.

- [Danny] A macho?

- Yeah, don't you?

- What do you mean?

What's the, what do you mean?

Isn't that a bad thing?

A macho?

- Oh my God, no it's not a bad thing.

I just see you more as like a macho guy

and your dad is more masculine,

just very like shoulders back, confident.

Oh my God.

It's not a bad thing.
- [Eddie] No, no no.

- [Esme] I was just making an observation.

- Eddie, is this not you?

Are you not this...

- [Eddie] No, I don't know,
I thought I was kind of...

- That was always the
problem though with your mom

and your dad though, that
he was too masculine, right?

- I have work, I'm gonna
go work in the other room.

(Danny humming)

- Or am I wrong?

I don't know, maybe.

- [Danny] There's a lot...

- I thought I heard that, maybe that

he was just too much, or is, no?

- I'm sorry, I feel like
I'm always catching you guys

at a bad time.

- [Esme] No everything,
everything is fine.

I was just asking, I
thought that was maybe

one of the things

that your mom and dad had problems with.

Or not.

- Umm, here you go.

- [Esme] Oh thanks.

- No, thank you, that was great.

It was a great meal.

I don't know if...

You probably know,

I'm sure Eddie told you
about the whole you know,

our parents were going
through a tough time

and they were fighting

and I wasn't dealing with it really well.

I mean, I don't know how Eddie really was

but I know for me it was really hard.

I was happy when they got back together.

- [Esme] Do you wanna have a beer?

- A beer?

I think women are more
fluid in their sexuality

and it's a shame that
men, more men are not

open to those experiences.

- Yeah.

Yeah, I mean I know it's
like a bold statement but

I just don't,

like when guys say they're bi-sexual

I just don't think that they are.

- [Danny] No.

- I think they're just, they say it

because they're not comfortable
being completely out

but they're just g*y.

And they say "Oh I'm bi-sexual"

so it's easier for, you
know, for me to tell my mom.

(laughing)

- Yeah, that's true.

So tell me this,

even though I know it's gonna be personal

and you are my brothers wife,

but have you, Esme,

had a fluid sexual
experience with a woman?

- Not a relationship but I've...

- But have you been intimate with a woman?

- Mmhmm.

- Wow, does Eddie know about this?

- Yeah, I mean, it's one of those things

when you're young and you're drunk.

- So when you were younger?

You never think in your adulthood,

before you met Eddie,

you never, there was never a moment where

you met some woman

and you had a sexual intimate experience?

Where you were just there, laying in bed,

just intimate, cuddling,
kissing, holding hands?

- I mean, it's just been that,

but it hasn't gone into a relationship.

- Wow.

- But I think...

- And you never thought that you were g*y?

You never thought "Oh
maybe I'm a l*sbian!"?

- No.

- [Danny] Why?

- I think I'm, I'm straight.

I've had that experience but I'm straight

because it's not consistent.

It's not a consistent feeling that I have.

- [Danny] Why?

Why, do you feel like
you have stopped yourself

from exploring that more?

- [Esme] No I didn't stop
myself from anything.

- [Danny] Eddie was just that good.

(laughing)

He was the end all, be all.

He say you know what, you have the,

the magic d*ck.

(laughing)

And no p*ssy can compete.

(laughing)

(slow dramatic music)

- Hey, it's me.

Just calling to say "hi"
and see how you are.

I can't wait to see you.

It's just, I can't go this long

without being with you.

I can't wait to be in
our little home together.

We're gonna be so happy together.

And I want you to know that.

That I just need you to know

how excited I am to be with you.

Okay.

I'll see you soon.

- [Jack] So we're really
gonna do this again?

- Whatever.

- It's not true.

- I know.

I don't like doing this to you.

- It's okay.

- No, it's not okay.

- You got things to do.

Things to take care of.

- No, I don't really.

- Yes you do.

- [Esme] I don't know
what you're talking about.

- Let's not talk about it.

(slow music)

- Hey Eddie, it's me Danny.

I'm outside your house so,

hopefully you'll be here soon or whatever.

But yeah, don't worry about it.

Hey, how's it going?

- [Devon] Hey.

- I was suppose to meet Eddie but...

- [Devon] Yeah, he texted me.

- Oh nice.

(chuckles)

I'm guessing he's not gonna be here.

- [Devon] No he's not but I am, so...

- Nice.

- I thought we could go out.

- [Danny] I don't think I ever had any boy

take me to the beach.

There's only one,

only one beach memory I have.

- [Devon] Yeah?

- [Danny] And I was
thinking about it today

when we were walking around.

I think I was like 10.

And I was with my friend Ben

and it was summer

and we were walking on the beach

and it was at night time

so there was like no light out.

It was just dark and we were
just falling over each other,

trying to find the ocean.

And we did, and once we did

we were too afraid to go inside

because it was dark and loud

and we both didn't know how to swim.

But he held my hand
and we went in anyways.

And we didn't drown.

- [Devon] That's good.

- [Danny] Is that where
you take your dates?

To the beach?

- [Devon] Sometimes.

Yeah sometimes.

- [Danny] And what do you guys do?

- Same things, walk around

and see the sights.

Should we go back to your hotel?

- Yeah, if you want to?

- Yeah I think so.

- So I have these models, so they come in,

I'm looking outside the room,

I'm seeing all these models and I'm like

"Great, I don't even know
which one of these models

"can really act or perform on camera

"and not be dumb."

But I guess that's the gamble you take

when you're making these types of films.

- [Devon] I would imagine so.

- Yeah, definitely.

- So, any projects lately?

Have you found any models?

- [Danny] Yes.

I have not.

- So you're looking?

- It's something I'm avoiding to do

because it's very taxing.

- Looking for models is taxing?

- [Danny] Yes, it's a lot of hard work.

Not everybody can do this you know.

It's not just...

You can't call your
grandpa over and say "Hey".

- Well I would hope not.

My grandpa is 90 years old

so I don't he would be
modeling for you any time soon.

(laughing)

- [Danny] No.

- [Devon] What?

If you're looking I mean...

- What are you saying?

You're one of these models?

- I mean, paycheck sounds pretty good.

- [Danny] I don't know.

You really, I don't know, I'm
not getting the vibe from you.

I'm not getting that big
personality, seductive...

- You're not getting that vibe?

- [Danny] Type of, you know

sex craved maniac.

- [Devon] Sex craved maniac?

That's what you need?

- That's what it takes you know.

I need the real deal.

- [Devon] The real deal.

- And sometimes actors have that in them.

Maybe a model or two but...

For the most part I think if you're just

that person already, it
makes it much easier.

- Okay.

- [Danny] Uh-oh, oh no.

Is this how you're auditioning for me?

- [Devon] I don't know.

- Because you know right
now I should have a camera,

if I'm gonna have you
audition I should record you.

I should have you on film.

- [Devon] Get the camera.

- No.

- [Devon] Why not?

- I don't know if I wanna record this.

- [Devon] Why not?

- [Danny] Why don't I, I mean

let's do a screening first.

So who, what...

Hello, nice to meet you, how are you sir?

- [Devon] I'm good, how are you?

- I'm good, this is quite funny.

(laughing)

This is,

but I don't know, look at you, you're...

- [Devon] What?

- You've maybe got
something, I don't know.

I don't know yet.

You're kinda hard to read.

- [Devon] Oh am I?

You're pretty easy to read right now.

- [Danny] Oh am I?

- You're losing your hat, you nervous?

- [Danny] Well yeah.

You're making me a little nervous

but no, in all seriousness.

If you were to be one of
these guys, let's see.

First of all I would have, you know,

a couple of buttons undone,

'cause they're trying
to show a little skin,

trying to grab my attention,
showing off the chest.

Look at that, nice.

You know, they kinda, the
hair has a little toss,

tousled to the side,
you know looking crazy.

- [Devon] Mmhmm.

- I don't know.

You might be a little
too clean cut for me.

- Too clean cut?

- Yes.

- [Devon] Mmm.

- Well definitely don't wear glasses

'cause you know, eye
contact is always good.

Gotta have that.

It's what makes it sexy.

(chuckles)

So yeah, that's pretty much it.

They come on in and show their stuff

and kind of try to impress me in some way.

- What happens after that?

- Well,

I give them a piece of paper

with a couple of instructions

and a little scene to read.

- Mmhmm.

What happens then?

- What happens next is...

I get ready for bed because it's been,

it's been a really long
night and I'm quite tired.

But thank you for
spending the time with me

and having fun.

(slow music)

- Jack, what if I told
you I wasn't bi-sexual?

- That's fine.

- Really?

Why, that's not weird at all?

- No.

I don't think so.

I just don't, I don't think I am.

I think I feel a certain way about you

but I think that's it.

I don't think I feel that
way about any other woman,

which I know is a good thing for you.

(laughs)

But...

- [Jack] I appreciate that, I think.

- Yeah.

But is that weird?

That I don't think I could see myself

falling in love with another woman?

I am un-attracted to women.

- Well, what made you notice me?

- A lot of things but I
was just drawn to you.

The way you are, it had very
little to do with the fact

that you're a woman.

It probably had nothing to do

with the fact that you're a woman.

- So then you're not.

I think you're thinking about it too much.

You like who you like and that's it.

- Yeah.

There was a camp counselor once.

(chuckles)

But that was the only other person.

- Tell me about the camp counselor.

- It was the same thing.

I didn't, it wasn't like,
"Oh she's a hot girl",

she wasn't really.

She was just like fleece wearing,

birkenstock, kind of like bad short hair,

just wasn't,

she wasn't like really
physically attractive

but I just was so drawn to her.

I even secretly took a picture of her

when we got on the bus to leave.

I took a picture of her
on my disposable camera.

I made it seem like I was taking a picture

of a group of people but I
really was just taking it

so I could have a picture of her.

So weird.

But that was the last time I
felt that way about a woman.

- So am I a step up?

- Yes, you have good short hair.

- Thank you.

- And you don't wear fleece.

Well as long as you
don't think it's weird.

- I don't.
(clears throat)

Let me try that again, I don't.

(laughing)

(message alert)

(water running)

(phone ringing)

- Hello.

Hey.

Oh I'm sorry.

No I'm just working late.

Oh.

(mumbles)

Oh I'm sorry.

Well how about (mumbles) when I get home.

It will still be just as nice.

Okay, that sounds good.

Yup, yup, I'll text you when I'm leaving.

Alright.

Love you too.

Bye.

- If you love him, I
want you to be with him.

I can't keep doing this

and neither can you.

Say something.

("Five Miles Long (There's A
Place)" by Ben Scott-Brandt)

- Do you remember when
our bunny got really sick

when we were driving from New York to LA?

I think it was when you were
driving through Colorado

and it was the altitude that did it

and she just could not handle it.

And she was so so frail

and I just remember looking at you

and you looked so worried.

And I've never loved you more.

Eddie I need you to go.

- Hey, it's me Danny.

(knocking)

- It's been hard.

The city is, it can be lonely.

And you know, what's weird about it is

when I first moved here, it was

a lonely place, obviously
I didn't know anyone.

But you know, there was a pain
that went with the loneliness

'cause you miss everyone from back home.

You're out here long enough

and it just goes away.

There's no more pain anymore,

it's just you

and you just kinda get
use to the loneliness.

So, if anything I miss the pain.

(light chuckle)

- It sounds very sad, very depressing.

- Well there's always Tinder.

(sighs)

(slow music)

- Hey, hello.

I really, I would love to see you.

I would love to come home.

I would love to dance for you.

We've gone through a lot of stuff man,

I'm tired and I love you.

We're married and that's grown up sh*t

and you should let me
come home and talk to you.

I think we're jumping the g*n
too quickly on this thing,

this calling it quits thing.

That's what losers do,
that's what quitters do

and I'm not a quitter,
and you're not a quitter.

And, I love you Esme

and please listen to,

I'm so afraid you're gonna
listen to this voicemail

and you're just gonna cut
it off halfway through

'cause then you won't
be hearing this stuff

and this is the good stuff.

Alright, I love you and please,

please let me come home.

I'm really, really tired.

And let's fix things, bye.

(sighs)

I had a buddy that use to come over

when we were small.

I mean, I don't know, 12, 13 or something.

I know my dad had like three VHS pornos

and I know where they had them stashed

and he'd come over, everyone was gone,

we'd go in and there was just
the one VCR in the house.

So we'd pop in the, you know, one of them.

Our favorite was the chameleon.

(chuckles)

- The chameleon?

- Shut up.

(laughs)

And then we would watch it

and then we'd start getting horny

in like 10 seconds

and we had to find some way to like,

it was weird.

That was like the first
time that like there was

a little bit of this.

Like I feel like there's
something we have to discuss.

Like who's gonna,

I need to jerk off righ now

and I know you do too, so who's gonna,

are you gonna go to the bathroom

or are you gonna leave me
in here for a little bit

and then we can switch or something.

Eventually we did this so many times,

he kept on coming over
and we'd watch the movie

that we just agreed that you know,

I don't care man, you lay there,

I'll sit over here and we'll just,

we'll watch the video and we'll
jerk off in the same room.

And it was weird, it was like sex,

it was so sexual

and I was doing something
sexual in a room with a friend

but it wasn't you know,
contact or anything, so.

Yeah.

Are you g*y dude or what?

(light chuckle)

(sighs heavily)

- f*ck.

- Too blunt?

- No.

I just don't know how to answer you.

- Danny's a great guy.

- Yeah.

- I'm a better guy but he's a
pretty f*ck' good guy man.

(laughs)

And I love him and you're a good guy.

- [Devon] Yeah.

- And it wouldn't be the
worst thing in the world.

- [Devon] I know.

I don't know.

I don't really know what I'm feeling.

If I had an answer, I would,

I would love to have an answer.

This isn't easy, I don't know.

I don't know what to tell you.

I don't really know,

I can't even get along with
the voices in my own head.

So to give you an answer
right now would be ridiculous

because I don't know what I'm feeling.

Confused as f*ck.

This city has just worn me out man.

Your brother's been great.

Part of me thinks that maybe I'm just

reaching for someone so
I'm not lonely anymore.

Part of me thinks maybe, maybe I am.

I don't, I don't know.

- [Eddie] Relationships
are complex, I get it.

- [Devon] They are.

- [Eddie] I totally get it, yeah.

- [Devon] They are, they are.

- [Eddie] I've seen dudes
that I'm sometimes like

"Hey, that guy is..."

- Yup.
- [Eddie] You know?

- I know.

(slow music)

(sighs)

- I don't know where it happened.

You know I can,

I can remember that time

when we were both in love with each other.

And I remember how it felt

and then it just seemed
really really far away.

I can even remember
feeling in love with him

but him not.

I could tell he wasn't in love with me

and then vice versa.

But I don't,

I don't think any one
thing happened, it just...

- Are you having an affair?

Who is he?

- [Esme] Hey boys.

- [Danny] Hello.
- [Devon] Hello.

- [Esme] Welcome to my film set.

- Awesome, wow.

Is this your first time doing this?

- Yeah, camera.

Ah, you know, a dabble here and there.

(laughing)

- [Danny] Oh I don't
wanna see those videos.

(laughing)

- No you don't.

(laughing)0

You guys look really
nice together on camera.

- Yeah?

- [Esme] Yeah, very nice.

Danny is it weird being
in front of the camera?

- It is, I don't like it at all.

- Would you like it more if
Devon took his shirt off?

- [Danny] Would I like it more,

would that what make me more comfortable?

- Yeah, would that make
you more comfortable?

- [Danny] Maybe if he had his shirt off?

(chuckles)

- [Esme] Knowing...

- Or seeing that he has a shirt off.

- [Esme] Seeing and
knowing and everythign.

(laughing)

- Ah no, I don't know, I don't know.

- [Esme] Devon jump in
here, what do you think?

- I can take the shirt off.

- [Esme] Yeah.

- [Devon] I can do it.
- [Danny] Wow.

- [Esme] Yeah, you've seen
me take a shirt off before.

- I can (mumbles) for this.

I can do that.

- I haven't prepared for this.

He's ready, well I could do this.

(laughing)

- [Esme] There he goes.

- This is the actual
we're dealing with here.

- [Esme] Yup.

Oh yeah, that's good.

Perfect and the hair is
tousled and beautiful.

- Dude, I'm ready.

- Gosh, nice body.

That's not professional.

Sorry, I'm the director, I
should not be saying that.

I'm sorry.

- [Danny] Yes, you have
to separate your feelings.

- Yup, separate.

- [Danny] From the actor.

- Okay.

My next direction, on your knees.

Up.

- Up!
- [Devon] I'm ready.

- Both of you.

- [Danny] Alright.
- [Devon] Alright.

- Okay?

- So we're on the...

- [Esme] Okay.

- Whoa, do not spill.

- [Esme] Okay, let's calm down now.

Okay, okay, I thought
there was water in there.

(laughing)

Alright, okay, so

now guys when I said on your knees

I didn't mean facing me.

- Not facing you?

- [Esme] Face each other.

Yeah, no, what are you talking about?

- Oh, just be more specific.

- [Esme] This is a film,
why would you be looking...

Yeah, no, face each other.

- On the ol' knees, facing each other.

- Come on, let's move it along.

Time is money, time is money.

- [Danny] I don't know
if I've done this before,

this pose into any of my films.

- Oh okay, well now I'm doing it.

This is my idea, my vision Danny.

- [Danny] You're the boss.

(chuckles)

- Alright, now I think to
move forward with the story,

I think we need you to kiss on the lips.

- Kiss, oh my, wow.

Those are strong demands.

- Yeah.

- Right.

- Those are my demands.

Yup, do we need to...

- Um, yeah I don't, I don't...

Can you stop for a second?

Just stop.

- [Esme] Okay, we're not...

Okay.

- Sorry, I'm just, I'm not.

(laughing)

- We're not, no?

- [Devon] Yeah I'm sorry guys.

- Okay.

(slow music)

- Well, you've over stayed your welcome.

You've emasculated me with your beard.

I never got to hang out with you.

- No, you're horrible.

- I know, yeah.

- You're a horrible host.

- Yeah, we didn't go play
catch in the park or anything.

- You don't know how to play catch.

- So I lob it like a girl.

(chuckles)

Can I give you a piece of advice man?

- No.

- I am your older brother,
it's an obligation.

- Go ahead.

- Okay, and I don't
mean any offense by it,

I just wanna give you,
I wanna tell you that,

you know you said before that you,

I don't know, that you've always
wanted to have what I have

like a committed relationship,
a comfortable relationship.

I don't know if you
meant it but it's work,

you know what I mean?

You know the falling in
love is the easy part

but then you have to work at it, yeah.

There's gonna be the,

eventually you're gonna feel much more

of the difficulty of like two
heads budding in a close space,

you know?

And it becomes very un-sexy.

But if you stick with it, I mean

it can also be a very beautiful thing.

- Yeah.

- But you gotta commit to it.

- I do.

- Go into it wholeheartedly.

- Yes, I need to start doing that more.

- Yeah.

- See, you taught me something.

- There you go.

- Who would've thought.

- (mumbles) for it to actually go through

your thick f*ck' head.

I have something else.

Look at mom and dad, they were able to,

they did it, they stuck to it

and you liked that.

When they got back together,
that was great, yeah.

We stopped talking for a little bit

but they got back together and that was...

They did that because you
stick to it, you just gotta...

- Yeah.

Well hopefully it will happen to me.

- Okay.

- I'm open to it.

(Danny mumbling)

Hold on to the table once.

- [Eddie] What are you doing?

You don't know anything.

Just give me your hand.

- But look,

if I do this, in my arms, look how it's...

How am I gonna pin you
when my arm is not...

- [Eddie] No, in over the top

they do, it's like this and then

you plant your elbow.

- [Danny] It is.

- [Eddie] Okay, when we go this way,

if I lose, (light
bangin), you'll hear that.

(Danny mumbles)

I know this.

Here we go.

- Are you ready?

And...

(Eddie mumbles)

- [Danny] I still have a...

Uncle, uncle.

- [Eddie] sh*t.

- [Danny] f*ck it, brother, brother.

(groans)

Okay.

Hey!

- [Eddie] Listen to me, listen to me,

are you listening to me?

- [Danny] No.

- [Eddie] Listen to me.

- [Danny] What?

- [Eddie] Don't be an as*h*le man.

The next time there's drama,

mom and dad, or with you,

we don't lose touch, we
don't lose communication.

- [Danny] Or what?

- [Eddie] I'm gonna slap your g*y face.

- [Danny] Okay.

(laughing)

(groans)

- [Eddie] Do you hear me?

Do you hear me? Do you agree or not?

Yes or no?

- [Danny] Do I agree?

- [Eddie] Is this...

- I don't know.

- 'Cause then you're gonna be missing out

a lot more of this.

- [Danny] I don't care.

- This is gayer than any of your films.

- [Danny] Is it?

Listen, I agree.

- [Eddie] You promise?

I'm glad you were,

I'm glad you came over man.

I'm sorry I didn't spend
a lot of time with you.

- [Danny] It's alright,
don't let it happen again.

Come on get up.

- [Eddie} Oh f*ck'.

Pulled me around like a f*ck' dog.

- You're good, you're good.

I love you brother.

- [Eddie] I love you.

- Take care of each other, okay?

- Yeah, okay.

- Don't f*ck up.

Hey.

What's up?

- [Devon] Hey.

- How's it going?

- It's alright.

- Get some sleep?

- Yeah, not really.

(chuckles nervously)

- Look, I'm sorry about last night.

- No, don't, please don't you apologize.

I, that's me, I don't
know what I was doing.

It was fine, I should've just...

- I can see you better.

Thank you.

I'll see you around.

("Flying Forever" by Ben Scott-Brandt)

- So what do you think,
we should just move in?

- Yeah.

I was thinking tomorrow

that you would go to the front desk

and just explain to them.

- Right I will, I will do that.

- Cool.

- Just tell them that we've decided

that we approve of their
sheets and everything in...

- Keep the detergent.

- Keep the detergent and we'll be here,

and we'll be here for good.

- Yup.

- And um...

- We're not gonna pay anything.

- We're not gonna pay anything, no.

We have specific demands
that have to be met.

- Yup.

This side, we have to be
on this side for the view.

- Right, right, right, but
we won't be giving them

any sort of money for any of it.

- No, no.

- I can't see any problems
with that, I think.

- No, I think that's great

but you have to be the one to talk to them

because you're really good with them.

- Yes, yes, no I will.

- I'll stand behind you and smile.

- First thing in the morning,

we'll go down and take care of it.

- First thing in the morning

and then we'll be all set.

- [Jack] This feels good.

(slow music)

("Salty Sweet" by Ben Scott-Brandt)