10x04 - Lake of Thieves

[bunniefuu]

[dramatic music]

♪

- I'm gonna do this, man.

I'm gonna do this.

I'm gonna fight this thing
out until the last breath.

♪

- Okay, game on.

♪

- I got him!

- In "Alone's" most
remote location yet...

- Yes!

- Ten participants set out
to survive at all costs.

- I'm going to stay alive.

- [inhales sharply] Ah!

- Battling extreme isolation...

- There is no camera crews.

You are really alone.

- It'll eat at you, tear you up.

- God, why?

- It's a battle.

Nobody ever comes out the same.

- Oh, man.

- It would be impossible to.

- And fierce predators.

- It's a big bear.

It's right outside my shelter.

- Predators like that damn
sure are gonna k*ll you.

- Please don't rip my face off.

[animal screeching]

- He bit the hell out of me.

- They'll endure
merciless wind...

- It's been over 60 hours,
and it has not let up.

- I can hear the trees
falling down around me.

- And bitter cold.

- This whole place has
turned into a frozen hell.

- The last one standing...

- It's a moose. Wow.

- Whoo-hoo-hoo!

- No, no.

- Wins.

♪

- Being so close to the Arctic,

if my shelter is not built
impenetrable from the wind,

I'm kind of screwed.

- This is absolutely crazy.

There's trees blowing
down everywhere.

♪

- No, no, no, no, no.

♪

My quiver came off my bow.

[bleep]

There's big-game trails.

So my overwintering shelter
will increase my chances.

sh**t a moose from up here.

- I want to increase
my odds to catch fish,

so I decide I really
want to make a canoe

to fish in deeper water.

Holy cow, it works.

- The expenditure of
calories that it's taken

to put up this log
cabin is extreme.

I will need protein
at some point.

- I worked as hard as I've
ever worked on no food.

I'm not gonna subject
my body to any more.

I am officially tapping out.

- I feel extreme dizziness.

My heart rate is skyrocketing.

I'm officially tapping out.

[sniffs]

♪

♪

- I'm out looking for
anything this morning.

I'm hoping for a grouse,

but I'll take
whatever I can get.

♪

Losing those arrows,
for me, was potentially

a journey-ending moment,

but I'm not someone who is ever

gonna give up at anything.

So at the end of the day,
when my journey is over here,

I want to walk away knowing
that I did everything that

I could do to succeed out here.

I just have to
continue to get food.

Back into the good berries.

There are hardly any
left anywhere else.

I'm doing my best.

So I'm gonna keep doing my best.

Look at that.

I got a little bear scat.

♪

See how fresh that
bear [bleep] it is?

♪

That was last night.

♪

He's in here somewhere.

♪

I've just got to find him.

I don't have to accept failure
like I have to accept loss,

because there are some
things in this world

that you can change,

and you just have to want to.

I think he's eating his
way into this patch.

This is a sign, and I'm gonna
see my way through this.

♪

I need that bear.

♪

- This is gonna be a good one.

I can feel it.

I believe I'll heat
treat this arrow,

these that I build today.

I'm gonna treat them right.

I made a couple of
sharp broadhead arrows

out of some beer
cans that I found.

I'm really hoping that
I can get the arrows

sharp enough to k*ll a bear.

Hold it just like that.

Put it around the end.

Put some snare wire around that.

I'm gonna go all in on this.

It's worth a shot.

♪

Nice and sharp.

Let's roast this bad boy.

Winning this thing would
put me in a position

where I could do
something outdoors

and maybe not have to
be gone from my family,

because my wife isn't
crazy about that,

especially with the little one.

Neither am I, to be honest.

Just got to put
some fletching down.

I find that bear,
this is my ticket.

So I'm giving it my best shot.

And if my best is the
best, I win $500,000.

I think that's a finished arrow.

I'm pretty content
with it, really.

I think that is my end game.

I just keep hunting that
bear until I starve.

I got to start
crafting some more.

♪

- Well, that's done.

I need to reset my gillnet.

Wow.

Otters... some of the
best fishermen going.

You know where the
fish are, don't ya?

They're not coming up for
much air, they're not.

Now, catch me a fish, please.

♪

That's that.

I want to get fishing.

♪

We need to eat.

♪

I have found absolutely
no fresh moose sign,

no fresh bear sign.

But we have been catching fish.

Still got two left.

The way things are
going, fishing is key.

I'm gonna tie on our new lure.

The Reindeer Lake gold hellfire.

She's a thing of beauty.

Good knot.

And there we have it,

our homemade rod and
our homemade lure.

Fingers crossed.

That's acceptable.

The rod's working good.

♪

I can remember my
first fishing rod was

given to me as an
Easter present.

That day, my dad
and Uncle David took

my brother and I
down to the pond

at the local gravel pits...

Come on.

Catching small chub
and small trout.

You know, it's one of
my oldest memories.

Let's go try a couple casts
out off this other point.

It was the roots
of something that

would stay with me forever.

Every time I catch a fish,

it kind of brings
out that little kid.

♪

[tense music]

Oh, we got something.

All right.

No, no.

Oh!

What a terrible spot to be.

Come on.

Get up here.

♪

All right!

Can you see it?

Oh.

Rah, rah, rawr.

Oh, yeah.

I am happy.

Put this here.

I can start my pool.

I'm gonna continue fishing.

Well, well, well.

♪

Every time we catch a fish,

it adds another day,
two, three, four,

depending on the
size of the fish.

♪

We got a fish, boys and girls.

♪

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

♪

Yes!

Trout number two on
the gold hellfire.

Oh, yeah.

I'm gonna throw
this in over here.

What a game-changer.

♪ We got two fish,
two fish, two fish ♪

It's getting dark.

I don't have time
to smoke fish today.

I got my livewell here.

I'll just leave them
here for the night.

And I think they'll
be all right.

I'm taking a chance on it.

I'll clean them in the morning.

♪

The only thing I
have to worry about

is one of those otters
or something coming

and stealing them on me.

And that'll create
such a ruckus.

It's not far away.

So I'm sure I'll hear it.

And we'll go put a stop
to that really quickly.

♪

I don't know what I'm
hearing out there.

Just thinking about
it got me nervous.

But anyway, they're
not gonna get them.

♪

- The wind blew up.

I'm gonna go check on my fish.

♪

There it is.

♪

How the [bleep]?

Oh, my God.

Ah.

Wow.

[dramatic music]

- How the [bleep]?

♪

Oh, no.

I don't see any fish.

Oh, no.

They're gone.

Ah.

I had two nice fish.

I put them in what I
thought was gonna be

a very safe reservoir
for the night.

And obviously, it
[bleep] wasn't.

I'm sick about it.

That is a mistake that
won't be made again.

[bleep] damn it.

♪

That was four days' worth
of food minimum, gone.

I can't believe
what I've just done.

I made every excuse not to
clean those fish last night,

and now I got nothing.

I know better, and I went
against my own judgment,

and it cost me.

How [bleep] depressing.

I can't afford mistakes.

Only one idiot to blame,
and you're looking at him.

♪

- Okay, flies, for real.

Stay out of there!

I'm liking the way the
shelter is coming together.

It's time to go fishing.

♪ I know I'm only here
'cause of my family tree ♪

♪ I know I'm only here
'cause of my family tree ♪

♪ The impact I'm having's
so much bigger than me ♪

♪ But it's not a stress

♪ All I'm feeling is love

♪ And I know my son will see
the situation is humbling ♪

♪ Reach out to his papa when
he feels like he's stumbling ♪

♪ Like I do,
Daddy, I miss you ♪

♪ I'm walking in
your footsteps ♪

♪ And man, you got big shoes

♪ So I'm doing the work
and digging the dirt ♪

♪ To make my bear den

♪ So when it gets
cold, I'm underground ♪

♪ Like my bear friends

♪ And when I need a break, I
pick some blueberry magic ♪

♪ It's one of my tactics to
filling my belly basket ♪

♪

♪

Trout! Sweet.

Actually, I lost count.

I think that's 16 fish so far.

Wow, like as soon as
that hit the water.

♪

Another trout.

Awesome.

♪ I feel like I'm thriving
and not just surviving ♪

It's so crazy.

My problems are, I have
too much food to cook.

♪

I got a lot of
smoked fish hanging

in beach house and
three-day-old pike.

I'm fit for this
challenge because

of my really unique childhood.

Going to school
was a daily choice.

I didn't struggle
in school at all,

but it was quite boring.

So I opted into school
until fifth grade,

and then my parents let
me do my own version

of homeschooling,
which was basically

I take my goats up
our canyon every day.

My dad gave me a big stack
of literature to read.

And being alone
and being outside,

I was way more fulfilled
discovering things

in the wilderness than
I was in the classroom.

Call that dinner.

♪

- Great.

♪

Working on my fireplace.

Starting to work on the
comforts of bear den.

This feels nice.

♪

I've been married for 18 years
to my amazing wife, Delia.

And 10 years ago, we
had our son, Osiris.

He's in an outdoor school now

that skills and
survival influence.

So it was a really
good time for me

to come do this and
reconnect with my roots

and start to share
that with my son more.

Don't think that'll cave in.

I'm gonna go get
a piece of fire.

Being alone here is definitely
a lot different than the rest

of the times I've spent
away from my family,

especially my son.

There's a lot of work
that I do in Oregon,

but we still talk every
day, and I still tell him

bedtime stories every night.

Yeah!

So that's pulling
on me a little bit,

but the whole time
prepping to come out here,

he was like, "Just
don't tap out, Dad,"

and, "Be strong," and,
"Me and Mom will be okay.

Don't worry about us."

He is such a brave kid.

And definitely, he's keeping
me motivated out here.

♪

I'm really stoked how
that's drafting like that.

Success.

♪

Oh, yeah.

It's definitely cold tonight,
but the fireplace is amazing.

I don't want to brag...

but I think this would
definitely win "Alone" cribs.

Ah, it's big, and it's comfy.

[stomach rumbles]

Ugh, my gut feels weird, though.

Definitely got bubble gut.

♪

Hoping it's just food poisoning,

something simple like that.

There has been a couple
of times that I've eaten,

like, two-day-old fish.

So it could have
something to do with it.

But it doesn't feel
like food poisoning.

Like, I usually just puke.

[burps]

I guess there's a lot of other
things it could be, though.

Oh, I feel like I gotta poop.

♪

[tense music]

♪

- It's so good.

All right.

[laughs]

Get to work.

♪

Now, we're gonna
check the gillnets.

♪

I feel that the land is
really providing for me,

and I feel set up.

I think there's a fish.

[laughs]

All right, let's
bring this net out.

♪

I have a gillnet.

I have snare for a squirrel.

I have set line in
the middle of my cove.

And eventually, I want to
take advantage of the canoe

when the water's a
little more calm.

Whoo!

We're flowing here.
We are moving.

We got a fish!

Big trout.

That's what I live for.

Sharp teeth, though.

Not sharper as mine.

[laughs]

♪

I have food for, like,
the next ten days.

I think that's a good feeling.

♪

Here we are.

I think the smoker
is smokin' cool.

And the...

First, we have to start a fire.

You know, we have to get
our food, hunt for it.

♪

But even the bigger challenge
is to keep your food

from other creatures.

There we go.

♪

Lunch.

Here we go.

It will be delicious.

♪

Oh, I like this.

This is beautiful.

I think I'm setting
myself up for success

and having some fun.

And that's how I
like it, you know?

♪

- What's going on?

You are a bald little bugger.

♪

That's one brave little mink.

[laughs]

Yeah, I see ya.

Did you steal my fish?

Look at you.

You're pretty comical.

Not very afraid of
nothing, are ya?

You know, if I go get my
bow, you're one dead rat.

But what a pain in the a*s.

You need to stick to yours,
and I'll stick to mine.

How is that? Fair deal?

♪

Let's go try a couple casts.

It's prime time.

We need some food.

Hopefully find a fish.

All right, gold
hellfire back in action.

♪

Let's hope the
fish want to bite.

If I am so fortunate
to catch one,

there won't be any mistakes
like the other night

and try and keep me a livewell.

I'd still be eating fish today.

Instead, I'm hungry.

Got him.

We got a fish.

♪

All right, keep the line tight.

Come on.

Come on.

No, no, no, no, don't flop.

Don't flop. Come on.

Yeah.

[laughs]

Nice 3-to 4-pound lake trout.

Now, that is a
beautiful feeling.

Oh, yeah.

It's just an
overwhelming feeling

to build a rod that
I've never built,

build a lure that
I've never built,

and have them all work.

And the reward is here.

♪

It is that final
statement to me that

I deserve to be here.

♪

Look at that beautiful,
beautiful fish.

Oh.

Mmm.

♪

I can't even describe how
badly my body needed it.

A couple of days
with no protein.

Nothing more than a couple of
handfuls of berries, really.

♪

Oh.

♪

Perfect.

I'm like a kid at Christmas.

♪

Oh.

Mmm, mmm, mmm.

[dramatic music]

♪

- My house is a mess.

I'm so busy working, I'm
not keeping it tidy anymore.

Look at my nice, little
stack of firewood I got.

And there's my moss
ready for ch*nk.

Not too long, and
I'll be moving in.

Home sweet home.

It's time to get to work.

♪

I got to get my shelter done.

I want to have this done within
the next three to four days.

I am pushing for time.

I really have to get
the roof on today.

I'm using all of my
time on this cabin.

But winter is coming,
and it's coming fast.

Snow is gonna be on the ground,

and I'm gonna be sorry if
I don't have this cabin up.

And then I can go to
fishin' and huntin'.

I can go catch fish any time,

but I cannot live here if
my shelter is not finished.

♪

One more.

I'm earning every bit of that
$500,000 building this cabin.

[laughs]

♪

Whoo!

Whoo!

Yes!

[laughs]

Wow.

That feels good.

Now, I just need to
cover it with moss

and throw my tarp
on there later.

I'm so excited.

How about you?

Whoo!

Yes!

I can't wait to see
my family's faces

when they see the
cabin that I built.

♪

It's not physically tough.

I could do this
forever if I had to.

But it sure is mentally tough.

The only thing I
wasn't prepared for was

how much I was gonna
miss my family.


away from any of my family

for more than a couple
of weeks at a time.

♪

I'm gonna have to see
if I can get up on this

and spread this moss out.

Coming out here, it
was really bad timing

with my dad having a
heart attack recently,

and my mom doesn't get around.

So she can't take
care of my dad.

That responsibility was
mine, and I left that

to my kids and my husband.

All right, I brought
my ax up here

because there was a couple of
knots that will be too bad.

Hopefully, none of these
buggers break on me, huh?

♪

Whoa.

But before I left, he said,

"Don't you ever let
anything that I do

stop you from living."

And so because of
my father, I'm here.

♪

All right.

My dad was a cowboy, and he used

to ride cows in the
mountains all summer long.

He'd be up there about
five months out of the year

without speaking to anybody,
seeing anyone, nothing.

He was so immersed in making
sure that his family was

well taken care of
and well fed that

my dad gave himself to his work.

♪

It's magical out here.

It truly is.

I draw a lot of
strength from him.

I feel him here with me,

and I know he'd
be so proud of me.

Okay, I got all the
way across the top.

I get to move in today.

♪

- Ugh.

It's gross.

Still got total bubble gut...

burpy and poopy feelings.

I've felt super bloated,

super gassy for a few days now.

And then last night really
felt like I needed to fart.

And when I went to
let that fart out,

it turned into a waterfall
of liquid diarrhea.

I was naked in my sleeping bag,

and it really made quite a mess.

Did not sleep at all last night.

♪

I don't think it was the fish.

But sanitation out
here is difficult.

♪

I know I've been risking it,

drinking water straight
out of the lake,

especially right at the beach.

Could have been a mistake.

♪

My stomach's just gurgling.

[burps]

Hopefully, a nap will help.

♪

So I'm back at the beach house.

I just can't shake
this rotten gut.

♪

Oh.

[groans]

Yeah, it's getting worse.

♪

Last time... it could be
something besides giardia,

but last time I had
giardia, it started out

with pooping and
pooping and pooping,

and then it started
puking and pooping

and puking and pooping.

♪

So that could be
what's ahead of me.

♪

[burping, groaning]

♪

It's hitting me
that this could be

the beginning of the end for me.

♪

There's definitely
a lot of pressure

to do well here

because my dad is so legendary.

There's nowhere I go that
people don't want to tell me

their story of when they met him

or when they found his book.

♪

I got to spend the least
amount of time with him

because I was the youngest.

So when he passed, it was
definitely an eye-opener

about how short life really is

and what we're able
to accomplish in life.

Hard to think right now.

♪

I feel delirious.

♪

There are so many more things
that I want to accomplish.

But also, I feel like
I've really been able

to carve out my own place here.

♪

And maybe it's enough.

♪

I'm gonna do it.

It's time to get out of here.

Whoa.

♪

There's a bear.

Man, that's a big
decision right now.

Right here at camp, a bear.

♪

♪

I could be winning this thing

if I can get over this sickness.

♪

[dramatic music]

- There's a bear.

♪

[bleep]

♪

[bleep]

♪

And I missed it.

Okay, wait.

I don't think I can
sh**t this bear.

One there.

You see him?

That's obviously
a sow with cubs.

♪

She's just chilling there.

She's definitely got a
younger one with her.

I even took a shot at
it, like, not thinking.

♪

And not only is that
against the rules,

it just feels wrong.

♪

Mama and a baby.

♪

[sighs]

♪

What a beautiful sign.

That cub showed me what
was really going on.

Time to go home to my
mama bear and my cub.

[sniffs]

I'm so thankful that
I didn't make contact

with one of those arrows.

Had I hit and still had
to leave from illness,

which was a very
real possibility,

what a shame that would be

to have that effect on this
place and on that family.

♪

Hi. This is Luke,

and I'm officially tapping out.

♪

That feels so right.

♪

So I've been
debating all morning

'cause of a really sleepless
night with diarrhea

and stomach cramps.

And then I
encountered two bears,

a mom and a cub.

And it just, like,
overwhelmed me

with that feeling of...

Of parenthood.

And...

yeah, it was just, like, a
really solidifying moment

for me to just respect
myself, respect this place.

♪

I promised myself that
I would leave here

stronger than when I came.

And all this time alone
in an environment that's

really conducive to
connecting with my dad

has given me ample opportunity
to finish mourning him.

And I've realized that,
yes, he's got big shoes.

But my shoes have also
seen some incredible miles

and been some amazing places.

So I am a lot more proud
of who I am as myself

and not just as an Olsen.

And I'm really
appreciative of my life

and incredibly excited
to dive into a lot

of this lifestyle with my son.

♪ I've done what I came to do

♪ I said what I needed to say

♪ Staying alive,
staying alive ♪

♪

♪

- Well, I woke up
to Christmas today.

It's a good thing I got
the roof done when I did.

Everything was
completely dry inside.

It was perfect.

Winter wonderland out there.

And this is just the beginning.

♪

Go get water.

Out here, nature doesn't
hold back for you.

You have to be ready
for that and prepared.

I feel extremely
protected in my cabin,

knowing that I'm gonna be dry,

and I'm gonna be warm.

And I could stay out here the
whole winter, if I needed to.

♪

There's my cabin,
the Lost Cabin.

Good place get lost
and go find yourself.

Here we go, fresh water.

♪

I feel like I'm accepted here.

It's magical, and
it's provided me

with nourishment, medicine,

and spiritual energy and love.

I have everything
I need up here.

♪

I miss my family,

but I'm getting around
it by staying busy.

I'm gonna finish my cabin today.

I'm gonna do the door.

♪

I think I've got a lot
done for just one person.

I have a lot more in me
than I thought I did.

One of the reasons why I
came here was to test myself.

♪

My entire life,

I have fought to be superwoman,

to take care of everyone.

After I had my
accident, I changed.

The snow is starting to melt.

Out here, by losing
myself to this wilderness

and letting go of the fear,

I have found that I am strong,

I am resilient,

and I've come into
my own self again.

I can move on with my life
and not be stuck in the past.

♪

Oh, it's heavier than heck.

♪

My family... they're
all who got me here.

They were carrying
the torch then.

This is my turn,

and I'm gonna carry
that torch to the end.

There's the door.

[laughs]

Now I just have to ch*nk.

I'm kind of worried when I get
done with the cabin, though.

I'm gonna have to
find a lot of projects

to be able to keep my
mind busy during the days,

because I'm really worried
about my mom and my dad.

I talked to my
mom before I left,

and she said she would be okay

and that she would get through.

But I'm still feeling guilty.

But my stubbornness
in me says that

you've got to stay,

because I know I can
get the $500,000.

It's a solid door, and I don't
feel any air coming out of it.

I think having a full
belly will help a lot.

I just need to get some protein.

♪

I've got to check my snares.

I seen a lot of
sign of squirrels.

They have little trails that
they run from tree to tree.

That would be nice.

♪

Right on.

[laughs]

Yay!

♪

♪

Okay.

I remember my first
bird that I caught

on the trap that I made.

My stepfather said, "Okay,
now you have to k*ll it.

"You know, we need food,

"and nobody's gonna
do that for you.

You have to do
it for yourself."

And I k*lled it. I cried.

But then after that, I got
very good at catching birds.

Put you up there.

My whole childhood
and teenagerhood

was hunting and fishing.

That was how we managed
to feed ourselves.

♪

♪

What the [bleep]?

♪

Whoa.

[bleep]

♪

Oh, my God.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Yeah, yeah.

♪

He destroyed the feathers
that are left here.

And he grabbed it and left.

He came this way.

It could have been, like, a fox.

It could have been a bear too.

Oh, man.

But half of my trout.

[bleep] This is bad.

That's food for
two days or more.

And the fight begins.

One of my battles here
is to protect my food,

because it's not gonna
serve me to catch trout

so the animals can just eat.

♪

Oh, okay, here we go.

He stopped here and
plucked all the feathers.

I don't see big footprint.

So that means that it
was probably a marten.

Holy cow, a half.

How could he carry that?

Now I'm, like, paranoid.

I don't want to
leave my food alone.

♪

Man, I worked so
hard for that fish.

♪

I hope you enjoy,
little creature.

But now I have to protect this.

I know what that project is...

Box.

♪

I'm scraping so the
animals cannot climb.

♪

Start making a ladder to go up.

I need to build a food cache.

And I suspect that
this was a marten.

But the marten, you know, it
could just strip the bark,

put across a piece of wood,
and put my meat right there.

♪

But another camp
robber is the gray jay.

Not just one gray jay...
There's a whole g*ng.

They're gonna just sit there,
eating the whole thing.

Okay, I'm gonna cut the top now.

So I decide to make a box

and suspend it 16
feet in the air

because bear can come as well.

It's a challenging project...

because it's tricky
and dangerous.

But it's a risk worth taking

to protect the catch that I got.

Maybe?

Okay, there we go.

♪

Thank you for not cutting
down together with you.

Oh.

We're not done yet.

If I have enough food,
I could go 80 days.

I could go 100 days.

But the bigger challenge
is to keep your food

from the other critters.

The winter is setting
in, and everyone wants

to survive just like us.

Got the ladder.

♪

Losing my trout was a mistake.

Okay.

But I know that the
path of learning

is also a path full of
mistakes and missteps.

Bow, bow, go.

And the desire to
overcome the challenges,

it's what keep me here.

[grunts]

Perfect.

♪

Good stash.

Whoo! Done.

That was a lot of work.

♪

- Now the real fun begins.

♪

So I have picked these four...

as my trees.

That's not too far
away from home.

It's facing the sun.

So now I'm gonna
think of a height

where I don't have to bend down.

Oh, hell yes.

I've decided to
build a woodshed.

So this is one of the
arms of my sweater.

It's given me so much cordage.

Well, on the mantra of
"fire, shelter, water,"

the most important thing
is having dry tinder.

And for the most part,
you're gonna want

to make a fire first
thing in the morning.

And the other thing that happens

first thing in the
morning is morning dew.

And so this is gonna
help me move forward

through the winter to have

a successful
breakfast and dinner.

It can snow as much as it wants.

My wood is gonna be up here.

Next step, I need
those back walls.

All right.

Oh, an old Band-Aid.

That's pretty fun.

I'm enjoying being out
here by myself very much.

I am carpe diem-ing.

I am a huge, huge
proponent of carpe diem.

My mom, when she hit 50,

decided that she was gonna
go off and have an adventure.

And I'm 55,

so I guess this is what
I'm doing, my thing.

Anyway, she eventually
ended up in Bali

and settled there
for, like, 15 years,

very happily teaching English
as a foreign language,

had an amazing place.

♪

And that's when she got
diagnosed with cancer

for the first time.

♪

She came back to England,
went into treatment,

and went into remission for
eight months, I think it was.

And then it came back again
into her soft tissues.

And she basically
said, nah, I'm done.

I'm not gonna do any more.

I'm not gonna fight it.

So she kind of died gracefully.

♪

But I would visit
her in the hospice,

and we would talk a
lot about facing fears.

And she really taught
me to understand

what it was that I might be
holding myself back from,

even silly things.

Like, I was scared of heights.

And after she passed,
I went and did a course

at a stunt school and
taught myself to jump

out of a three-story window.

Almost done.

But also big challenges,
big leaps of faith,

such as this opportunity
to come on the show.

Watching my mom,

understanding her as
I became older myself

gave me the impetus
to not just sit back,

but to grab life by the
hair and just live it.

It's one of the best things
she could ever teach me.

That makes me happy.

All right, then, I'm
going to drink some water

and then let us see if
I can catch me a fishy.

I am definitely not the fish
whisperer at the moment.

I'm doing a bit of
fishing every day,

not catching anything.

I've done a new lure.

But just got to keep
on plugging away.

I'll get there in the end.

♪

Like a fish telegraph.

Watch out.

There's a hook.

Stay away.

Mommy is hungry.

[gasps]

♪

Ahh! [bleep]

He took my lure.

These fish are feisty.

Ahh!

I've spent the last
ten years fishing,

both in New York and in Ontario.

All right, let's get a
slightly different shaped hook.

You ready for it?

♪ Dun, dun, dun

This is what I keep
my hooks in, here.

And I am in a lake that
is famous for its fish.

So it is gonna drive
me fricking crazy

if I can't catch them.

It's partly because of my ego,

because I know what
I'm capable of,

but also because I really
want to bring fish in

and add it to my diet.

I'm not gonna do my wool.

Those fats, those
oils, and the variation

are something that I'm gonna
want to have for my foodstuffs

for when it gets cold.

Ah. Got a Band-Aid wrapper.

Why don't I try that?

And I have my pink
from my underwear.

They'll be like, what
the heck is this?

[grunts]

Let's see how it goes.

♪

Bring it on, [bleep].

♪

I heard my raven.

[bird call]

Wow.

For me, a raven is special.

♪

[raven calling]

[imitating call]

I am being watched over.

I love that.

Thank you.

♪

Oh, my God.

♪

Oh, my God.

[dramatic music]

Oh, my God.

♪

I have a fish.

[laughs] I have a pike.

Turns out pikes like
Band-Aid wrappers.

So if ever you are
caught short of a lure,

Band-Aid wrappers and a
pink pair of underwear

is gonna do the trick.

That's all I can
say. Signing out.

Gonna have dinner.

Mel.

♪

What a fantastic
way to end a day.

I couldn't believe it.

It's like, yes!

But hey, if it works,
I'm gonna carry it.

[laughs]

Oh, lordy.

My main skill is to
adapt and survive.

Give me a problem,
I'll find a solution

and I'll move forward and
I'll be stronger for it.

But it's not just your
skills and your talents.

It's your head game.

People don't tap
out because of food.

They tap out because
their head gets to them.

It's really nice, clean
meat on a pike too.

Happy Mel.

And I will tell you
this from experience

of working with children,
that some children are happy.

Some are angry.

Some are withdrawn.

It's their own personal spirit.

And so I've never known a
time when I was not smiling.

I've never known a
time when I wasn't

trying to find the positive.

And that could be because I have

a large amount of serotonin.

But it also could be
a coping mechanism

to find the positive
out of every experience

that I went through.

And it stuck with me, because
I know from experience

that life can get really bad.

So if you find the
positives, then you have

something to look forward to

and you release those endorphins

and you feel good
about the world again.

However, the spell
is now broken.

I shall be a fish maniac.

Success is a wonderful feeling,

and it's gonna
taste even better.

♪

- There was strong
winds last night.

So I'm gonna go
check on it again,

see my gillnet.

Hope for the best.

Hard to even see, which
kind of worries me.

My net is not in the water.

[bleep]

I need some sunshine
so I can see through.

♪

How does the GoPro
see in the water?

♪

Let's see.

♪

I'm hopeful that I
can find my gillnet

because there is weight to it.

So it might be right
around there on the bottom.

♪

♪

That gillnet was one
of my main strategy.

So if I don't find it,
the cost is really huge,

because I need fish to
fuel me to get big game.

And if I want to fish, it will
have to be active fishing.

And that is gonna make
me work twice as hard,

and I'll lose energy
to continue hunting.

♪

[bleep]

It probably got washed out.

I didn't know how wild
the water was going to be,

because then I would
have tied my gillnet

to something onshore.

Today is a challenging day...

Not finding my
gillnet. I'm very cold.

My fingers are hurting.

So let's go back to the shelter

and check my food stash

because the winter is
coming in hard and fast.

♪

♪

I just lost that

main food recruitment tool,

and that is a big blow

because that was all
the monofilament line

that I brought with me.

I have some still to fish,
not to build another gillnet.

Small mistakes can
become big failures,

and I probably have
to start rationing.

So cache, thanks so much for
keeping everything safe, okay?

But the fear is that I
might need to brace myself

and starve for a while.

♪

Just trying to survive.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Oh.

♪

If I had one wish right now,
it would be for protein.

I just wanted to show
you my spruce bark.

It's kind of like celery
after you cook it.

It has a sweet flavor to it too.

Plus, I put some
cranberries in there.

They've all sunk to the bottom.

I'm moving slow today.

♪

Last night, I had a dream that

my mom was calling out for me.

It was like she was standing
outside of my cabin,

calling my name.

"Jodi, I need you.
I need your help.

Jodi, help me."

She said it over and over.

And when I woke up,
I couldn't shake it.

I think I'll go ahead
and do some ch*nk.

♪

God sure has blessed
me in my life...

Five beautiful, healthy,
smart, intelligent kids.

When I started this, I
was hopeful that the money

could take care of my children.

I wanted to give
them a good life.

But the most important
thing that I want is,

I want my kids to be proud of me

because everybody needs a hero.

But after my accident, I
became pretty self-centered,

and I stopped doing everything.

♪

All right, how are
you doing there?

So I built myself my
own little prison,

and it was built out of fear.

And out here, I
built this cabin.

And I did it in the
middle of nowhere

with my own two hands.

But what I've realized

is that this is also a prison,

and now that it's completed,

this pull to go home is just...

♪

Just so burning inside of me.

And it almost makes
it hard to breathe.

♪

It was a huge responsibility
that I left at home.

And I thought I would
be okay with that,

But it's been a constant
internal battle.

I can only equate it to gravity
holding us to this Earth.

The force is so strong
that I just feel like...

family... that's the
most important thing.

[beeping]

Hello. This is Jodi Rose.

I'm officially tapping out.

♪

I'm being pulled home.

I'm being called home.

And that force is so
strong that I just...

I have to answer, and
I have to go home.

I've... I've come
into my own up here.

I found myself again.

And I would stay, if
for no other reason

that my mom needs me
and my family needs me.

♪

It is sad to not be able to
bring home the prize money,

but the trophy
isn't the $500,000.

The trophy is myself.

I have a lot to be proud of.

I defied the odds with my leg,

and I was able to create
this amazing cabin.

I've had a
life-changing experience

in a very short amount of time.

I'm a new person now.

I've come to understand that

this is just part
of the journey.

This isn't the end.

I'm not quitting.

My finish line isn't here.

My finish line is at
home with my family

and going back to being a mom
as strong as I used to be.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- This bear has just
presented itself to me.

But then when I realized
that second bear was a cub

it just really hit me hard,

recognized the responsibility
that that mother had

to get that cub
through the winter.

And there's this little part
inside of you that's like,

whatever, delete that clip
or something, you know,

but I don't have it in me.

I'm gonna go call it in

and start my journey home.

♪ ♪

Everybody has their
boundary of, like,

their limit of suffering that
they're willing to go through.

I've had diarrhea for five days.

I've just been dealing with it.

And without a moose or a bear

for my time, it's not
gonna pay off out here.

And if I'm not here to

really go for the win here,

I'm not willing to gamble

my family's time away from me.

The longer I spend
away from them

the more selfish that becomes.

♪ ♪

I feel like I've
thrived in so many ways.

♪ ♪

I've fed myself really well...

♪ ♪

Had great wildlife encounters.

Like, I learned so much and...

To just do something
I'd never done before.

It was super-empowering for me.

I am really, really excited

to share my stories with
my son when I get home.

♪ ♪

- Hello, my friend.

- Aloha.
- Aloha.

♪ ♪

- Any lightheadedness,

any of your cognition
has decreased?

- No.

Well, yes.

Yeah, I didn't sleep
at all last night.

So, like, I was tripping
today all over the place.

When we were walking around
with the crew and everything,

I just didn't feel
like I was on my feet.

- Difficulty breathing?
Any shortness of breath?

- No, but I did have
some chest pain in, like,

the top right side here.

I don't know.
- Totally.

- Right there.
- Any pain on palpation,

Like, if I'm actually
pushing on it?

Does that feel any different?
- No. Uh-uh.

- Then right on the back
side right around here?

- Yeah, a little higher, yeah.

- So basically kind of more
right at the bottom of the neck

up here and this
one sitting right...

- In that spot.

- Basically it is a
sign of being elevated.

Considering what you've
just gone through

with your movements
and the stress level,

I'm worried that that might
be a small little sign

of dehydration as well.

I want to make sure...
- I've been drinking

so much water.

- More so worried about
electrolyte levels too,

so as you're hydrating,
this is an isotonic...

- Okay.
- Solution,

so you can start
sipping at it right now

to see if that helps

after a day of just
kind of re-adapting.


probiotics would be

a very beneficial thing
to put into your system.

♪ ♪

- I wish I could have
finished bear den

and then had some more
time in there, but...

The wilderness is

such an amazing playground

and teacher.

Super-grateful for all the
experience that I've had.

And life is so much
more meaningful

seeing things through that lens.

♪ ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

- It's the morning
that I'm going home.

It's time to do that.

Come here to do
what I meant to do,

and now I'm needed at
home, so I'm coming home.

♪ ♪

Hello. This is Jodi Rose.

I'm officially tapping out.

♪ ♪

I have never been so
torn in my life before

between the land
here that I love

and... and heeding
the call to go home.

I could stay up here forever,

but this... this force that's
calling me home is so strong,

and...

the end of my story is at home.

It's not here.

I... I feel a little guilty that
I'm letting some people down,

but the only people that matter
in my life are my family.

♪ ♪

No, I didn't eat
anything all day,

so I'm getting a little
hungry. [chuckles]

♪ ♪

Oh, that is a
blessing. [chuckles]

This land is so magical,

and I'm a part of this land now.

And I'm leaving a piece of
my heart here Lost Cabin,

and it will stay here
for the rest of my life.

♪ ♪

[somber music]

♪ ♪

- Up and at 'em.

♪ ♪

- We're gonna go back to the
clinic for a few minutes.

- I'm so tired that I feel like
I could just, like, fall over.

I think it's just from
the emotions of the day.

- I can imagine.

♪ ♪

And you can take a seat there.

How you feeling? Any
difficulties breathing?

Shortness of breath?

Chest pains? Heart fluttering?

Nothing like that?

- Well, my toes are
frozen. Does that count?

- When was the last
bowel movement you had?

- Before I left.

- Before you left, as in
before the competition started?

Copy.

- But I do feel like I'm
gonna pass out, though.

I'm so tired. [chuckles]

- Not gonna pass out
for a different reason?

- No, just from...
- Like mental exhaustion?

- Just, I'm gonna fall asleep
in this ti... in this chair...

[chuckles] While
you're talking to me.

- Okay. I'll try to be quick.

♪ ♪

Did you enjoy your
time out there?

- I did. I did.

Up until about five days
ago... Four days ago,

and then it just...

- Got hard? Got...

- It's just... something made
me feel like I needed to go home

to my family.

- So other than that, you
look pretty good to me.

- Thank you.
- Considering what you

went through up there.

Obviously, it does take a
very big toll on the body.

Your fatigue is not surprising.

Let's get you some food.
Let's get you some rest.

Then we'll just
take it from there

and start the
rehabilitation process.

- Okay.
- Any questions for me

that I can answer
for you at this time?

- No.
- Awesome.

- Honestly, the hardest part is

being separated from my family.

I could still be out there

Family, I miss you
guys. I love you guys,

and I'm needed there.

I'll see you soon.

♪ ♪