01x04 - Episode 4

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Fire And Water
by Let's Play Dead

So... why investigate
a cold case?

Why open an old wound
and cause more suffering?

Because these wounds
have closed dirty.

That's why.

And there can be no true healing

unless we're willing
to tear them open

and confront what festers inside.

You know, Ember isn't very happy

that you're going to miss her 17th.

Well, I'm on a night shift.

T'boat hut not making you enough?

Not enough for the gift
I'm getting her, no.

Don't like parties anyway.

It's just the pub.

I'm going.

Really?

Designated driver.

Mm.

I've got a feeling I'll be at
all of Ember's birthdays

from now on anyway.

You're very taken with her.

Well, she's the real thing.

Bet you say that to all the girls.

No, Ember's special.

I'm not sure I can allow her
to be with a man who doesn't know

to slice a bap away from his hand.

Ah...

Is it bad?

You sliced me hand open, Amy.

It's gone all the way to the bone.

You're lying.

It's quite confronting,
seeing your own bone.

It's like a little look
into the future.

I want to see your wound.

Wait...

I want to BE your wound.

Right.

Look at it, Ember.

Look at it.

You put this sample
in the evidence locker.

Do you know what it is?

It's Amy Knightly.

What's left of her.

Everything she was.

Everything she could have been.

All reduced to charcoal.

We were hoping to find
the rest of her underneath

the basement of the boat hut,

but she's not there.

Help us find her, Ember.

Help us give her back
to her mother.

I can't help you,
because I don't know anything.

You know he k*lled her.
No. I don't.

I don't know that.

When you sit opposite a suspect,

and they refuse to engage like
an innocent person would...

..what do you feel towards 'em,
DC Manning?

Contempt.

Cos you're a detective,

and we are never not
servants of justice.

Am I right?

I've told you
everything I know.

Now, charge me or release me.

That's supposed to be your line,
by the way.

Ember! What happened?

I'm out on bail. Suspended.

Well, you're just in time
for breakfast.

Waffles and beers -
in memory of her dad.

OK. Great.

Oh! What was that for?

For believing in him.

To Dad!

To Mack.

To Mack.

Er, easy.

Dad could do one of these in,
like, five seconds.

Yeah, when he was 20,
and probably not for breakfast.

Hannah, y-you've probably
got some questions

about why I was arrested.

Yeah, cos the police are
stupid f*cking idiots

who have no idea what they're doing.

They have some evidence.
Evidence can be wrong.

It can...

Hannah, the police...

I don't want to talk about this.

Just... not today.

Not on the anniversary.

I just want us to go to the lake
and remember him.

The ashes.

No, Hannah, no, we-we're not going
to be able to scatter them

from the jetty. Why not?

Why not? We have to!
That is what he wanted us to do.

It's not going to happen!

Not today.

Hey.

What's so urgent?

I wanted to give you this.

A list of therapists.

All people I know and recommend.

OK...

I think you came to me because you
wanted some questions answered

about your relationship with Mack.

I came to you because
I wanted my insomnia sorted.

They're not easy questions
to ask verbally.

So, you flirt with me

in the hope that my reaction
will answer them.

OK, you've lost me now.

Ember, your text?

Oh, my God.

You want to know if
the power imbalance mattered.

You want to know whose job
it was to hold the line.

Under normal circumstances,

I would happily model the answer.

Oh, would you?
Right, that's very nice

But here, I can't.

Because I have feelings for you.

Are you asking me out, Casey?

There are some lines
that can't be crossed.

However much we might like to.

Well, so what...
so what is this, then?

Y-You're making a point?

I'm making a judgment.

That I am a serial f*ck-up,
but that you are better than Mack?

You are not a f*ck-up.

You know, the grey areas outside
of the psychology textbooks -

that's where real
life takes place, Casey.

Me and Malachy want
to go all the way.

All the way?

So, my mum's going away,

which means my dad will, too.

It's the perfect opportunity.

We're going to stay at
the lake all night, you know,

watch the sun come up.

Make it special.

Come on.

You could... do it, too.

With Joe.

Have... sex with him?

Yeah. I mean... he likes you.

Don't you like him?

Well, I don't... not... like him.

I just, I just, er...

Amy, I don't know if you should
have sex with Malachy.

Why not? Well, he says himself,
he doesn't love you.[/fo

No, he says he doesn't
believe in love.

That's not the same thing.

Yeah, but does he make you happy?

You know what would make me happy?

You...

..and me...

..losing our virginity

at the exact same moment.

Them inside us, but...

..us really with each other.

Would you like that?

Would you, Kitty?

You and me...

..linked forever?

Yeah.

What is it?

Joan? Hmm?

Er, it's just the cat.

How are you doing, Hannah?

We're not going to scatter 'em.

Not until we can do it right.

Oh.

Well, we'll just raise a glass
to him, then, shall we?

I miss Mack. He was a total dilf.

Jules!
He was, though!

Could've left those in
for another five, Mum.

Your oven is an inferno, Ember.

It cremates everything.

Drinks.

Are you going to say a few words?

I wasn't planning on, no.

Oh, please, Mum.

Yeah, you definitely
should, Ember.

You were like Michelle Obama
when you came to school!

Well...

Mack was...

He...

Mack...

I'm sorry, I ca...

Come on,
just say what he meant to you.

I'm trying, Hannah.
Just say something!

Hannah, maybe I could say
something instead.

Because if I'm feeling even a tenth

of what your mum's feeling
right now, then...

..I understand why she's overcome.

She's not overcome.

Not in the way that you mean.
Hannah...

The police think Dad
k*lled Amy Knightly.

f*ck!

No...

No, that's not right, is it, Em?

Er, th-they have some evidence.

Like what? Arj, please.

No, come on, Mum.

Why don't you explain?

Explain to everyone
why you're doubting him.

We'll talk about it later. No!

We'll f*cking talk about it now!

Well?!

We're waiting.

They have found
a fragment of Amy's bone

in the basement of the boat hut.

No.

Oh, God...

Hannah. Hannah.

Hannah!

There we go.

He's scattered.

I don't want to hear it.

I wasn't going to say anything.

Really?

I am literally washing
my dead husband off my hands.

I mean, surely you've spotted
a learning opportunity here.

Some things defy feedback, Ember.

I'm sorry, Mum.

No, I'm sorry.

It shouldn't have come out
in the way that it did.

You need to show everyone
that Dad's innocent.

I can't get involved.

Why not? Because I'm too close.

And because you think he did it.
No!

I don't know, Hannah,
I really don't.

Well, I do, and I...

He didn't do it, Mum.

He was the kindest person,

and you know that.

So, I am begging you,
please, you have to prove it.

You're not allowed to be in here.

I'm a good detective with
good instincts,

and they are telling me
this is not a done deal.

You have to keep looking elsewhere.

Instinct is poor man's policing.

I build cases on evidence.

It's all circumstantial,

which you could call
poor man's evidence.

And what about Riz's m*rder*r?

It doesn't give you
an answer to that.

We're pursuing several
unrelated leads.

Which are? Which are...

..for the ears of serving
police officers only.

Now, if you don't mind,
we have work to do.

Joan?

Joan, I'm so sorry to disturb...

Joan.

What are you doing here?

What's wrong with her? Nothing.

You've drugged her?!

She was very agitated after
your last visit.

The doctor gave her something.

The nurse said
she was asking for me.

Not that I'm aware of.

I need to speak to Joan.

Which, I think you can see,
isn't possible right now.

When might it be possible?

You want to wake up
a sick and confused woman,

so you can t*rture her about
things that no longer matter?

I won't let you do that.

Joan mentioned someone called Kitty.
Did you hear what I said?

Who is she? She's nobody.

It was a nickname.

For Caitlin. A very nasty one.

If you harm her, in any way,
I will f*cking k*ll you.

Yeah?

Mum! Can you knock?

You need to get rid of her.

Amy?

Kitty.

It isn't safe, Caitlin.

People will tell you there's
a life in it, but there isn't.

Not really. Not a proper one.

Was your life proper...

..Mum?

Separate beds and dry little kisses.

Get rid of her.

She is not so disingenuous

as to suggest the slaying is
the work of one woman alone,

because she knows first hand
the strength and barbarity of men.

This is Gentileschi's own
imagined revenge upon her r*pist.

This is beautiful retribution.

Kit Owen?

Yes?

I'm DC Manning.

I was hoping that you might
answer some questions.

About?

Amy Knightly.

I don't know who that is.
I think you do.

You were friends with her.

I think you're mistaking me
for someone else.

I don't think I am, Caitlin.

I barely knew Amy Knightly,
so I don't think I can help you.

Someone took this photo
the night that she disappeared.

Was it you?

No.

So, you don't know what
happened to her that night?

She ran away.

She said she was going to,
and she did.

I hope she healed and grew.

I hope she's somewhere living
a very happy life.

I'm very sorry to tell you
that she isn't.

I'm sorry.

I need you to tell me
what happened that night.

She was fine when I left her.

Then, why did you lie to
the police about being with her?

The night they asked me about,
I hadn't been with her.

But you knew they were asking
about the wrong night.

My mum warned me
not to get involved.

She said if something
had happened to Amy,

if the police found out I had
feelings for her,

they might accuse me.

And I was that ashamed of
who I was back then,

that it made sense.

When Amy looked at you...

..it could feel like
the worst punishment

or the greatest gift.

Was she looking at someone
in this photo?

Was she looking at you?

Hey!

Who took this photo, Caitlin?

Who else was there that night?

Please, I am, I am...

..I am begging you to help me.

Joe took it.

Joe?

Malachy's brother.

You should get
the date tattooed.

Malachy's late.

Hope he's still coming.

For his sake.

He'll come. I'm not so sure.

You see, he went out earlier.

You know, with his h*m* perfume on.

You know, the one
he thinks girls like.

But he didn't come and
see you, did he?

Maybe your spell's wearing off.

Get f*cked, Joe. Or what?

You know, one of these days,

you're not going to have him
to protect you.

Just a little prick.

What's going on?
Where were you?

I thought you weren't going to show.

Lost our lunch money, didn't I?
Had to go and get some more.

Lost it? How?
Don't worry about it.

Smile, Malachy.

At least pretend you want
to be here.

Right, what do you want, Ember?

I'll get in a lot of trouble
if we get caught.

Save it. I don't care.

You know, you have
this look sometimes, Ember.

Makes me feel like a little kid.

Cos I rate you as a person,

then I see you sneaking around
and lying to everyone.

Malachy had a brother...

..who was with him and Amy
on the lake the night

that she went missing.

Did you hear what I just said?
Yes, Hitch, I did!

But if I don't keep swimming here,

I am going to sink.

OK? Can you understand that?

You think the brother might
have k*lled Amy?

He's got a rap sheet you could
paper a living room with,

and he's currently in HMP for
wounding with a weapon.

So, he can't have k*lled Riz, then.
Well, that's what I thought, too,

but, according to
his girlfriend's Facebook,

he's been going out on day release,

including the day Riz was m*rder*d.

Go and tell Morgan, then.

I want to go to the prison myself.

You're suspended.

Which is... why I need your help.

No, you mean you need
my warrant card, to get you in.

It's not happening, Ember.
I'm not doing it.

I... Just... don't.

I'm DC Manning,
and this is DC Hitchin.

We'd like to ask you some
questions about your brother,

Malachy Granger.

Half-brother.

I haven't seen him in years.

Why's that?

We're not close.

You haven't had
a falling-out, then?

Nope.

Do you know who the girl
in this photo is?

No.

So, you didn't take this photo?

Hey!

Let's have some evidence of
this beautiful moment, shall we?

No.

I think you did.

I think you know the girl
in this photo is Amy Knightly,

and I also think you know
that she went missing

the night this photo was taken.

And I think you also know
that she's dead,

and that her body is lying
under the boat hut.

Is this why you had a
falling-out, Joe?

I didn't know that.

I didn't know she was dead.

How do you think it happened?

Well, he must've k*lled her,
then, mustn't he?

He must've actually done it.

Everyone said she'd just
gone off, and I just...

..I hoped.

Christ...

Amy was... switched on.

Old for her age.

But looking back...

..she was lost.

There was another girl.

Did you know that?

Yes.

That's why he was late that night.

It was meant to be the last time...

Lost our lunch money,
didn't I?

We got pissed and took roofies.

Malachy thought
everything was fine,

as long as everyone was getting
what they wanted.

Stop.

What? I want you to stop.

I'm almost there. I said stop!

Was it hurting?

Not really.

Well, what, then?

Can we try again?

Maybe.

You wait for this.

She doesn't do it quietly.

It's their first time having sex.

It's their first time
having sex today.

You're a funny girl, you, Kitty.

Both clever and dumb all
at the same time.

I thought we were trying again.

I'm going. Why?

Stupid d*ke!

Kitty!

What happened?

You said you hadn't slept
with him before.

Yeah, I haven't.

That's not what Joe said.

OK, well, Joe's a sh*t-stirrer.

Well, don't walk away from me,
Kitty.

Then stop lying to me!

OK!

OK, it wasn't our first time.

I thought if I said that,

then you'd be more likely
to sleep with Joe.

Why do you even care
if I sleep with Joe?

Because he's basically
blackmailing us.

He's threatening to report
Malachy to the police.

He's f*cking evil, Kitty.

So, what, you gave me to him?

No.

Is that why we're friends... Amy?

Is that what you needed me for?

Right.

I mean, my life is better
with you in it.

That bit isn't a lie.

So, does it really matter
why it started?

You need to finish with
Malachy, Amy.

You shouldn't be with him.
It's wrong.

What, because he's older?

You can't put rules
on this stuff, Kitty.

I mean, you should know that
more than anyone.

That is not the same thing.

No.

It's worse.

Who do you think my mum
and dad would rather I walk

through the door with? You...

..or him?

Finish with him, Amy.

Or I'll tell the police about it.

You wouldn't.

I would.

I would never speak to you again.

I would tell everyone what you are.

And what am I, Amy?

What am I that is so bad?

I've never hurt anyone.

I've never taken the thing

that someone hates the most
about themselves,

and used it against them.
I've never done that!

Are... are you jealous?

It doesn't matter.

Cos you don't need to be.

No.

I want you to touch me.

No, I can't.

B... Because you don't love me?

No, Amy.

Because I do.

If you go,
you will never see me again.

I will run from here, Kitty!

I will never come back!

Ember, look, I need, erm...

The other night in the pub,
I should've stuck up for you.

I don't know why I didn't.

You have a water p*stol
in your desk drawer, Hitch.

You still hang around at
the Faucet with the same idiots

you did when you were 16,
and like it or not,

those are the guys that
you're going to be arresting.

You have to pick a side.

I know.

You know, you have, erm...
you have a look too, Hitch.

It's a bit like...

..like a puppy trying to do maths.

But also, it's, erm...

..devastating.

I didn't shut you out because
I don't care what you think.

I shut you out because
I knew what you'd think,

and I didn't want to hear it.

That's not how a partnership works.

C-Team.

Yeah.

Definitely a couple of Cs.

This had better be good.

Inside.

What's this?

Er, witness statements.

One from Caitlin Owen,

and one from Malachy's brother,
Joe Foster.

Both of them were at the
lake that night.

I wanted Joe to be the k*ller,
but... he isn't.

Are you sure?

His shock, his disgust, they were...
they were genuine.

Oh, you've found out something.

Is she upset?

I knew we shouldn't have
done that to her.

Yeah, what choice
did he give us?

You know, I thought she'd like it,

but I should have known there was
nothing to like about you.

All right, I'm going home.

I can't do this any more.
Lock up when you're done.

Well, can I come? No.

Please? I said no.
But you're not leaving me here.[/font

You need to go and find Kitty.

Why would I do that?

Because I'm pretty sure
she's in love with you, Amy.

You said that love doesn't exist.

Yeah, well, I'm starting
to think that maybe it does.

But not between us?

I'm sorry.

I won't let you leave me.

Amy, stop!

I won't let you love... All right...

..anyone but me, Malachy!
Calm down. Calm down!

Malachy! Amy, please!

Just calm down! I love you!

Shut up!

Where are you going?

Oi! Don't take my car!

I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

Oh, by the way, I have found which
necklace I'm going to get you.

I just have to wait to be paid.

You wrote me a song.
I don't need anything else.

Yeah, well, you're getting both.

Every year, in fact.

You'll have more songs and necklaces
than Beyonce at this rate.

I just want to make sure you've got
everything you need, Ember.

I want to spend the rest of my life
making sure of it, so...

I want you to come tonight.

And then, I want to come tonight.

I would love nothing more.

But I can't let the lads down -

not at this late notice.

It's just a factory shift, Mack.

No, I know. I don't want to,
but I have to.

After tonight, I'm all yours,
I promise.

What's this? What?

Ah, a bit of fun.

To take to work?

All right, well, you got me.
It's a present for you.

Another one? Yeah.

I thought we could take
some tomorrow night.

Or maybe I could take them tonight.

If they're really for me.

You could, yeah.

And you have.

OK. Go easy, though, all right?

What are you doing here?

You said that I was hungover
after my 17th birthday.

You were.
Because Mack gave me pills.

Yeah. Roofies.

I had one.

You know that they're Rohypnol,
right? Mm.

Why would he have those?

Same reason as lots of
people, Ember.

To get high.

Would you like a cup of tea?

Was my vomit blue?

Is that why it stained the carpet?

Believe it or not, Ember,
I have no idea what the colour of

your vomit from 17 years ago was.

You remember everything else.

It has a blue dye in it,

to stop it being used as a...

..date-r*pe drug.

Well, he wasn't using it
as a date-r*pe drug, was he?

No. He shouldn't have been
using it at all.

You got high,
it didn't agree with you,

and you were sick. No big deal.

Just be thankful Mack
had gone by that point.

I think it might've been
a bit early in the relationship

for holding back your hair.

Mack wasn't with us that night.
He was... working.

He came over after the pub.

What time?

I don't know. He left before me.

I got back, and the pair
of you were here.

Just me, him,
and the date-r*pe drug.

Respectfully, Ember, he did not need
a drug to get what he wanted.

So, why didn't he stay over?

I don't know.

He said they had to do something.

In the middle of the same night
Amy went missing?

I didn't know it was that night.

What the hell were you thinking?

Me? Yeah. You.

You know, not just that night.

Cos you're always pissed.

Or high.

Or off being batshit while
I wandered around...

..lost.

Your friends thought
I was marvellous.

They'd have loved a mother like me.

Yeah, yeah, they did think
you were marvellous.

You know, but nobody would
want a mother like you,

because some people
shouldn't have kids.

Not everybody gets a choice
about it, Ember.

I was a housewife
in the arse end of nowhere.

I got married and had a baby,
because that's what you did.

It was all written for you
long before you were spat out

the fifth form, clutching your
certificate in secretarial skills.

You see, that's the
difference between us.

You might have squandered
your choices,

but at least you had some.
What choices?!

A mother with her out-of-office on,

or a guy ready to make me
his entire world

as soon as he's disposed of
his last girlfriend?

I don't know what you want from me.

I want you to have kept me safe!

I want you to have done
your f*cking job!

I'm sorry.

"Sorry" doesn't fix this.

"They"?

What? You said,
"They had to do something."

Ember!

I know you were with Mack
the night that he k*lled Amy.

Do you think we could've
ever been together, Em?

You and me?

Did you hear what I just said?

Mack wasn't one for staying
with girls too long.

So, I did have a hope
that when he was done with you,

that we might...

Well, it turns out that you're
the one worth changing for.

He becomes gold-star family man,

and I... become...

..this.

No-one's idea of heaven.

I keep wondering
if I've just had bad breaks.

Or if there's something rotten...

..about me.

Hey! You want to tell me
why you stole my laptop?

Cos I tracked it here.

Riz was here.

Ember...

I need to go. No! No, no! No.

Don't walk away.

OK, just, just...

I-It's not like you think.

I would never, never...

She came looking for me...

..recording me and...

..laughing.

We got in a fight.

Wait, wait, what are you doing?

She had this photo of a bone

that was in the basement
of the hut.

The stupid thing was,
it was only there cos of me!

I heard Rob was pulling up
the floor for the refurb, so...

..I broke in...

..and I dug up the body,

and then, I set the fire
to cover my tracks.

Part of it must've got left behind.

Part of her.

Part of Amy.

I had to do something,
Ember, you can see that, yeah?

No, I can't.

You could've let the body be found.

You could have let Mack
be exposed as the k*ller.

You... you could have let Riz live.

Mack...

..didn't k*ll Amy.

f*cked-up Midas strikes again.

Look, just... just sit down.

And just listen, OK?

It was your birthday,
and we were all at the pub.

And we'd only just recently met,
but... I liked you.

And I felt bad for you,
because Mack wasn't there,

and I knew where he was.

You were handing out pills.

Do you remember?

And we were all having a good time.

And then, at some point,

I realise that Mack had been
leaving me messages.

And he's begging me
to go and pick him up.

Look, I wouldn't ask
if it wasn't important.

If you care about me at all...

So I go.

Would you stop going on at me?!
Will you just stop?!

I honestly took my eyes off the
road for a split second.

What was that?

It was just a log.

A log?

It was just a f*cking log.
Now put your foot down.

I don't even remember it,

thanks to the roofies.

First thing I know, I'm in bed,

a-and M-Mack's calling me,
an-and he's telling me that...

..that I've hit Amy in the car.

Just a glancing blow,

but he's been trying
to call her ever since,

and she... she's not answering.

Where did you find her?

Amy... Amy!

She'd fallen down the embankment.

She busted her head open on a rock.

We were going to put her
in the lake...

..but Mack said
the basement was kinder.

"Kinder"?

Don't be angry with him, OK?

H-He did it for me.

No.

What?

He didn't do it for you.

What was that?
It was just a log.

A log? It was just a f*cking log.

Now put your foot down.

You weren't driving, Arj.

It was me.

No.

Yeah.

Ember! Where are you going?

Got to go, Arj.

I've got to pick up Mack.

Look, you can't drive alone.

You're still learning.
Come with me, then.

Stop going on at me!
Will you just stop?!

What's going on?
You said you were at work.

What was that?

It was just a log. A log?

It was just a f*cking log.
Now put your foot down.

Why would he lie?

To protect me.

Arj...

..I swear I didn't know.

It's f*cking
ruined me, Ember!

Arj... Arj.

We're going to go now. OK?

Me and you.

We're going to go tell them
the truth. Oh, f*ck!

We're going to get in trouble,

but we'll get through it.

OK? Together.

We're going to go. OK?

Th-This is our chance, Ember.

You and me.

A-And Hannah.

We have to do this, OK?

We've got to go now.

OK?

Arj...

Arj!

Arj!

Arj!

No! Stop!

Arj!

Arj!

Don't!

Stop! Stop!

Arj...

Arj, what are you doing?!

I want to go home!

Arj, please. I want to go
home to my daughter.

I did it for you, Ember.

Arj, please.

People do f*cked-up things for love.

No, people do f*cked-up things
and call it love.

But love isn't ugly!

Love doesn't hurt!

Love does hurt, Ember.

It just does.

Arj! No!

Arj!

If they don't already know,

I-I don't see why you have
to say anything at all, Mum.

Hannah's right, Ember.

You could lose your job.

Or worse.

Mum,
why are you doing this?

Mum!

Because I'm the spider.

You should've told me
that Malachy was your husband.

Yeah. Yeah, I know. I'm sorry.

I spent years learning
to forgive myself

for leaving Amy that night.

Playing out the scenarios -

Malachy k*lled her...
Joe k*lled her...

Now, it might have been
a different man completely.

Is there no man that
Amy was safe from?

You can't think like that.

Why not?

Because it's not right.
Yes, it is.

And we have to be willing to say it.

Or nothing will ever change.

It was me...

..that Amy wasn't safe from.

She wasn't safe from me.

I am so sorry.

I am so, so sorry.

I'm so sorry!

I have this terrible blind spot
when it comes to myself.

I can see other people's
lies and weaknesses.

I can... deliver justice to them.

I'm going to hand myself in.
I'm going to tell the truth.

Do you think truth and justice
are always the same thing?

This is DI Morgan and DS Henderson,

interviewing DC Ember Manning.

23rd of October, 11am.

Now, let's start with
the death of Amy Knightly.

Tell us everything you know.

I was there.

On the night that
David Argent k*lled Amy?

I was there...

..on the night that
David Argent k*lled Amy.

I chase the darkness
for a living.

So, I know how heavy
and endless it can feel.

Mum.

But I also know that darkness
doesn't really exist.

Kitty.

It's just the absence of light.

She's not really here is she?

She's here.

Has she got a name yet?

Miranda, I'm going to need you
to write down a list

of all of the names of the men

who had sex with you underage...

..so I can put them and Liam
in a prison cell.

Because one day, she is going
to be a young woman

navigating this world
that we are creating for her.

You know, I think...

..Hope is a nice name.

Your dad was complicated.

Did some things that
he doesn't deserve to be...

..forgiven for.

And I wish I could make that
not true, but I can't.

But also, he was funny...

..smart, loyal...

..generous beyond belief.

And he gave me you, Hannah.

The greatest gift imaginable.

I'm not going to stop loving him.

No.

We don't have to feel
guilty for that.

We're just going to keep on
feeling what we feel.

And keep putting one foot
in front of the other.

Yeah.

Bye, Daddy.

It's OK.

If I had £1 for every time
I said to Mack,

"If only you had a brother..."

And he never once let on
that he did.

Well, sorry that your memories
of flirting with my husband

have been sullied.

I've always known that
I wasn't the best mother, Ember.

I think I tried to make amends
through Hannah...

..when I should've been
making it up to you.

I hope it's not too late.

What are you guys talking about?

Oh, just about the fact
that you're never so old

that you don't need your mum.

We are all walking
in the dark,

but with a handful of candles

that is in our power to ignite

with every choice we make.

I chase the darkness...

..but I choose to believe
in the light.