01x05 - Episode 5

[bunniefuu]

[baby heartbeat beating]

[Ultrasound Nurse] There we are.

Lloyd, look.

[Lloyd] I'm looking, babe.

[Denise] It's our baby.

Yeah, I should hope so.

It's a real baby.

[Lloyd] Yeah.

And do you know something?

I bet you our baby's
gonna be ultra-sound.

[Denise laughing]

It's all getting so real.

Babe.

We got this, alright?

You got this.

I don't know if I do though.

Of course you do.

Doesn't she?

Oh, absolutely.

It'll be daunting
alright, sweetheart.

However I can confirm for you
guys that it is a real baby.

And all good there.

Great now.

All looks good to me, lads.

I feel so much
better, thank you.

So the big question of the day,

do you want to know the sex?

Um...

Well, I don't assume anything.

But it looks like
a he from here.

I'm so sorry, I told him
not to make p*nis jokes.

I've heard them all
before, don't worry.

[Denise laughing]

Sorry.

When I'm nervous,
I just make stupid-

You're nervous?

No, no.

It's just, you know,

like nurse just said,
it's just a bit...

Lloyd, don't start,

because if you're gonna start,

I'm gonna start and then just-

Okay, sorry.

Okay.

It's just that it's,

I mean, look at it.

It's just...

It's magic.

Life.

Life is beautiful, isn't it?

Yeah.

So is he right?

It's a boy?

You want to know?

Yes.

You sure?

No, I don't know.

[Denise laughing]

I don't know!

Yeah, you can tell
us because we're not,

you know, blue and popping,

gender reveal, surprise,

throw a party for
it type people.

Are we?

Hi!

Hey Julie, can you
see us alright?

All good, Julia?

Right, let's go.

You ready?

Here she is!

[family cheering]

[Denise] Okay.

Three.

[family cheering]

I don't know if I'm ready!

Okay.

Three.

[Family] [in unison] Two, one.

[balloon banging]

["From Eden"
- Hozier]

♪ Babe ♪

♪ There's something
tragic about you ♪

♪ Something so magic about you ♪

♪ Don't you agree ♪

♪ Babe ♪

♪ There's something
lonesome about you ♪

♪ Something so
wholesome about you ♪

♪ Get closer to me ♪

♪ No tired sighs,
no rolling eyes ♪

♪ No irony ♪

♪ No "who cares,"
no vacant stares ♪

♪ No time for me ♪

Why did you kiss me?

Hold on a second,
that was 50/50.

Yeah, no.

Why did you kiss me back?

That's what I'd be asking
myself if I was you.

Look, I haven't
done that before,

okay, kiss someone when
I'm with someone else.

I mean, no.

In general?

Yeah, I got that Lloyd.

What did you mean
earlier when you said

that you weren't sure
if you had a girlfriend?

I decided to go to Spain.

I'm going to clear my mind.

I'm going to try and
find some peace, Lloyd.

I think it's better
that you move back in.

Better not to leave
the house empty.

[emotional music]

Who are you?

Seriously?

Because I don't know
this person anymore.

You don't treat people you
love like this, Denise.

[door slamming]

[Denise crying]

Look, it's-

It's complicated.

Is that what you're gonna say?

She rang you
earlier, didn't she?

And she was in trouble,
that means something.

And the story of how
you got together,

and how you talk
about her like that,

you love each other.

[Lloyd] We'll always love
each other, it's not that.

Well, what is it then?

Beginnings always hide
themselves in ends.

[Aine] What does that mean?

It's a text that she sent me.

So what do you think that means?

I don't know, just ask her.

She wouldn't text back.

Well, I think you
need to ask her,

are we together, yes or no?

You're afraid of the answer.

Look, I think I just need
to go and get some sleep.

Are you?

I'm okay here.

Do you want me to set
this up for you or?

No, it's fine.

You sure?

Thanks.

[Lloyd] Do you want
the pillows or?

No, thanks.

Okay, well I'll leave you to,

okay, good night.

Good night.

Lloyd, can I say something else?

Maybe Denise is afraid as well.

Sometimes it's what people do,

like it's their actions
that are important,

not what they say.

[emotional music]

I'm sorry I kissed you.

Are you?

I don't know, are you?

No.

I don't know.

[melancholy music]

[phone ringing]

Baz, listen,

I'm making an absolute
pigs ear of this cot.

[Baz] [laughs] Jeez, Lloyd,

how hard can it be,
it's basic stuff?

Yeah, but you know I'm
brutal at this sort of thing.

[Baz] Just follow the
instructions thingy.

No, I have,

I don't know, there's
screws missing or something.

[Baz] I doubt there's
any screws missing.

Give Tony a bus.

No, I'm not ringing
a master builder

to come and put together
a simple cot for me.

What are you up to now?

[Tony humming]

Okay.

Now, that's the job.

[cot rattling]

Yeah, no,

I definitely wouldn't put
a small child in that.

[indistinct]

And now!

Jesus Christ, literally
took you two minutes.

Cheers.

Thanks.

Thanks T, this is
extremely embarrassing.

Look, you should just called
me in the first place.

Well, we both feel
sufficiently emasculated now,

Tone, so well done.

Cheers.

[bottles clinking]

She is a beat all the same.

Oh, decent bit of kit.

Yeah, it's nice,

isn't it?

And this is cool too, look.

Denise, she's mad about horses.

Oh yeah, has she any zips?

Lads...

I'm gonna be able
to do this, am I?

What do you mean?

Like I can't even put a
cot together by myself.

Well...

Speaking as someone
who's practically been

your surrogate son
for the past 16 years,

you're gonna be an amazing dad.

And look, you'll
always have us two

if you ever need a dig out.

I mean, Christ
knows I'm gonna need

all the help I can get
when my time comes.

And let's not even
imagine what I'd be like.

[Tony laughing]

Thanks, lads.

Look at us.

Being all supportive and
sentimental in our old age.

I just hope Denise
likes it, that's all.

I love it.

[Lloyd laughing]

[emotional music]

[phone beeping]

[birds tweeting]

[Denise breathing heavily]

Beautiful, isn't it?

Just beautiful.

[grunting]

Oh god.

Old hammies.

D.

You'll like this one, right?

Did you know that
babies have no kneecaps?

Now how mental is that, right?

They have cartilage that
resembles a kneecap,

but their actual kneecaps
don't fully develop

until they're about
six months old.

I don't need to know
every single baby fact.

Yeah, I know,

but that's interesting, no?

Yes, but I'm also
trying to do yoga.

Oh, sorry.

[doorbell ringing]

[Ashling] Hey!

Ashling!

[Ashling] Where's Denise?

She's inside, doing yoga.

Hey girl!

Hey, what are you doing?

Ooh, champagne!

Ooh, no-secco!

Are you?

I am!

[Ashling and Denise cheering]

Oh my God, no way!

Oh my God.

What's this?

Well, one of my little swimmers

finally made it to the shore.

Champers for the daddies,
no-secco for the mammies!

[Denise cheering]

No-secco for the ladies.

Thank you.

[Denise] Thank you.

Little toast, little toast.

[speaking in Gaelic]

You three may not know this,
but babies have accents.

Here we go again.

You are with an unusual man.

You do realise that, Denise?

It's getting more
clear every day.

If i can finish, please.

And these accents, Tony,

don't come from the daddies.

Oh really?

Oh no, no,

no, they come from the mammies.

[Denise and Ashling laughing]

So I just wanna say, if I can
speak on your behalf here.

Please, please do.

To our amazing
and lovely ladies.

Look at them.

[Tony] Yeah, I still don't know

how we managed to pull this off.

Neither do we!

[Denise and Ashling laughing]

We're all baffled, alright?

Alright, alright.

So let's just hope the
little babas get your looks,

your personalities, your warmth,

and your general deadliness,

'cause apparently
they're getting

your bogey accents as well.

Excuse me, we're
from the same as D-

Yeah, but I'm from
the posh part so-

The posh part?

Alright, alright.

Enough speeches.

To the little babas.

No, wait!

To our little babas.

To our little babas.

[Tony and Lloyd cheering]

[Ashling and Denise laughing]

[Lloyd singing in Gaelic]

[Denise laughing]

Did you know that your baby
knows your taste in music.

So from about four months
in, they can hear sounds,

and so the music that you play
or the songs that you sing

can help count them down
later on when they're,

you know, throwing a wobbler.

A wobbler?

Is that a technical term?

I believe it is, yeah.

[Denise laughing]

That was just...

[Lloyd] What?

I was just thinking that this is

the happiest I've ever been.

Did you hear that, baba?

This is the happiest
your mammy's ever been.

And it's all because of you.

Your ankles still hurt?

It's fine.

[Bill sighing]

Are you any closer?

What?

To finding the answers
you're looking for?

Yeah.

You don't have to talk about it.

You don't have to talk
about anything at all.

Do you have a picture of Monica?

That was taken a week
after she was diagnosed.

We were with friends.

I was devastated.

Sad.

Couldn't enjoy it
for a single second.

All I can remember is that

she was trying to cheer me up.

Her laughing.

She had the most
obnoxiously loud laugh.

[Denise laughing]

I miss it.

Look at her.

It looks like she's having
the time of her life.

Guess she was.

Maybe Karen's right and
everything happens for a reason.

Maybe you and her are spending
too much time together.

[Denise laughing]

Absolutely.

Who knows, butterfly effect.

You, me,

different parts of the
world, sitting here talking.

Maybe some poor
soul somewhere...

[emotional music]

Oh, I'm,

oh my God, I'm sorry.

My fault, I wasn't
looking where I was going.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'm fine.

You looks like...

Hey, wait,

are you sure you're okay?

Yeah.

It's just that I'm getting
really good at spotting them.

Spotting who?

People who are feeling
the same way as I am.

Aine?

Aine?

Aine!

Hey, morning.

[Aine] Morning.

- You alright?
- Yeah, my head is banging.

[Lloyd] Oh, do you want
me to get you something?

No.

Some breakfast or?

[Aine] No.

[Lloyd] Look, I'm
sorry to wake you.

I just couldn't sleep.

What has you so perky?

Yeah, well,

I just decided that today is
the start of a new beginning.

You just decided that, did you?

[Lloyd] I did, yeah.

And look, I spent
the night thinking.

Did it hurt?

[Lloyd laughing]

About the universe, you know?

Well, when you figure
that one out, let me know.

No, I was thinking
about me and you,

and just how we met,
and just the whole-

Lloyd, it's Dublin.

It's like one degree of
separation around here, if that.

Look where you live.

I know, but I
shouldn't have even

been here is what I'm saying.

And about what happened
last night, I just,

I felt, I feel like you've
done something to me.

I haven't done nothing to you.

I just mean you've
ignited something,

and you were right
about Denise as well.

No, what I was trying to say-

People's actions
speak louder than,

anyway, you were right
is what I'm saying.

And I know that you were
annoyed about the f*ck It list,

okay, but I wanted to do
something nice for you.

So...

What have you done?

Okay.

There you go.

There's six different sets
of dates to choose from,

so hopefully one will suit you.

And it's for two people as well.

I'm not saying me,
although I would happily

go with you if you
had nobody else.

I just really believe that
you have to go and see them.

I was reading some stuff,
things I didn't know,

like the waves themselves,

the green lights are supposed
to have healing properties,

and they say they're like
our guardian spirits,

and I thought that
was really cool.

Did you listen to a word I said?

Yeah, of course I have.

Do you have any idea how hard

this has been or how
hard it still is?

Yeah, I do.

Well, you obviously
don't have a clue.

[suspenseful music]

Look, I haven't done this to

upset you or to make you angry.

I know.

Look, you've been
very nice to me,

and I appreciate
you letting me stay.

But I told you that
when he booked that,

I felt like something was wrong.

So I don't really
understand why you'd think

that I would want to
go there without him

Aine-

No, let me talk.

And I'm still trying
to wrap my head around

the fact that this
stranger, you,

who I'm seemingly shacked up
with and wore the face off,

saw him the night that he died.

I know.

Just let me finish, please.

[emotional music]

Sean chose to k*ll himself.

It wasn't an accident,
wasn't a mistake,

wasn't a moment of madness.

It was a deliberate
decision that he made.

And going to see the
f*cking Northern Lights

is not gonna change anything.

It's not gonna suddenly heal me,

and I'm not gonna
forgive myself.

I told you that you've nothing
to forgive yourself for.

You know nothing about it.

Well, I know that he
loved you very much.

[Aine] No, you don't.

Yes, I do.

How?

[police siren ringing]

[Denise] Oh my God.

I know, I passed by
him and I didn't-

[Denise] Can you just
come over, please.

Because he said
that he loved you.

That's how.

What?

What did you just say to me?

Did you talk to him?

Look, he said that he
wanted to propose to you,

okay, the Northern Lights...

A proposal?

Well, he said if
someone proposed to you,

as in me on a holiday,

would you feel like
you had to say yes?

No, Lloyd,

stop, don't do this.

Don't make up something
just to make me feel better.

No, I'm not doing that.

I just didn't know
how to tell you.

He couldn't have done that,
he would never have done that.

[Lloyd] He did.

I just asked him if he
loved her and he nodded,

and he said, very much,

so I told him to go for it.

Not to be afraid.

Jesus.

Poor fella.

Poor girl.

[tense music]

[door banging]

[Lloyd] Aine, you okay?

Yeah, I'll be out in a sec.

[emotional music]

Now we're wrapped up.

Be as good as new
in a couple of days.

Thank you so much, Bill.

[Bill] Oh, my absolute pleasure.

[Denise] Thank you.

Denise Tillmans,
what's all this I hear?

Oh no!

My kameno buddy!

Yeah, it's okay.

I'm fine.

You get your stuff,
we have to go.

Right.

Karen, I'm really
sorry about yesterday.

I'm so sorry-

Stop it, forgotten.

Water, bridge,

under it.

You were just doing you,
and I love you for it.

And it happened for a reason?

Exactly.

[Denise laughing]

Now, you can absolutely
tell me to shut up,

but I saw this thing on
Instagram a while ago,

I know, but I remembered
it and I thought of you.

It was basically saying
that in the Irish language,

when we talk about emotion,
we don't say I'm sad.

We say "Ta bron orm,"

sadness is on me.

It's like, I'm not sad,

just sadness is
on me for a while.

Something else is gonna be
on me another time, you know?

Thanks.

It's really
beautiful, thank you.

[emotional music]

[Bill] All set, let's go!

Bring it in, big guy.

Yes.

You take care of
yourself, sweetheart.

[Denise] I will.

My money's on you catching
us up in two days.

I hope so.

Another one?

Alright.

[Denise laughing]

Ah, Julia!

A vision.

As brief as it was, it was
a pleasure to meet you.

You too, Bill.

And may I suggest
something for the future?

Sleeping on your
side for the snoring.

Perhaps some nose clips.

Oh, was I snoring?

Oh, come on mister.

See you, Julia.

Denise, I'll be in touch.

Peru, the offer still stands.

[Bill] Adios.

Bye!

[speaking in Belgian]

All done.

Our baby's room.

Yeah.

Oh look, the picture's
not straight.

You know, not everything
has to be perfect,

- right?
- [Lloyd] What do you mean?

You know what I mean.

I appreciate you trying, but
you don't have to try so hard.

Do you get me?

I just want everything
to be right.

That's right, it looks amazing.

It looks bleeding gorgeous.

You and the boys were
real cute earlier.

You think you could call Tony
and ask him to come back?

Why?

Well, maybe he could help you

put the toilet seat back down.

I left the toilet
seat up for you.

Oh, so considerate.

[Lloyd] That's me.

My considerate man.

Exactly.

[Denise sighing]

How you feeling, you alright?

You really wanna
know how I'm feeling?

What?

Of course I do.

Well, I have no control
over my bladder,

but I'm constipated.

I'm sweating like a
pig, day and night.

I had to take all the
laces off my shoes,

because my feet are so
swollen, look at them.

I have freaking cankles, Lloyd.

See?

You don't.

Yeah, I do.

I have itchy skin, heartburn.

We're out of
Rennies, by the way.

Haemorrhoids, leg cramps,

sore breasts, and I'm
the size of a baby hippo.

[Lloyd laughing]

But I do want some Jaffa Cakes.

It's a very wise decision.

I'll go get you
some Jaffa Cakes.

Where?

[Lloyd] From the kitchen.

No, wait!

I ate 'em all.

There was half a pack left?

I'll run around to
the shop for you.

[Denise] You'd do that for me?

I would do that for you.

'Cause we're a team, right?

You and I?

Yeah.

Don't forget the Rennies!

[Lloyd] Yep!

We're a team.

[emotional music]

[tense music]

[melancholy music]

[hopeful music]

Lloyd.

Look, Aine,

I shouldn't have
said that to you.

Okay, and it's dawning
on me how mental-

Your bedroom.

The door to your
bedroom was open.

Did you go in?

I saw a photograph.

Who is...

Is that your daughter?

Where is she?

Sorry, I just need
some fresh air.

[emotional music]

Now folks, we'll be taking
the customer on a journey.

Yes, it's a game changer,

a no brainer, we're gonna
get all our ducks in a row,

but no jargon, okay?

We can touch base
about it on Monday.

You like what I did there?

Heather gets it.

Good job, H-b*mb.

It really is as simple as A-B-C.

A, always,

B, be,

C, closing.

Always be closing.

Always be...

Closing.

What are you doing?

"Glengarry Glen Ross"?

No?

No.

How old are you two?

[phone ringing]

Watch it over the weekend, yeah?

Oh my God, Denise is calling
off our Belgian number.

[Worker] So?

That's like the bat signal,
you know what I mean?

Not really.

It means the baby's coming.

[phone ringing]

You might want to answer soon.

Huh?

Yeah.

Denise?

Lloyd, don't panic.

Did you just-

Hung up on her, yeah.

Having a baby!

Look, sorry.

Sorry, I'm having a baby!

Oh, hi.

Hi, excuse me.

I'm having a baby.

Thank you.

Hey!

Hi.

It's happening?

Yeah.

[emotional music]

[Denise crying]

Hey.

I followed you.

You don't mind, do you?

I'm so sorry, Lloyd.

I'd give anything
just to be able to...

When we first got together,
Denise had no intention of,

she told me I'd stray.

She didn't want to have kids.

[speaking in Belgian]

♪ I need you ♪

♪ I need you ♪

♪ More than anyone, darling ♪

♪ You know that I
have from the start ♪

♪ Build me up, butter cup ♪

♪ Don't break my heart ♪

[Denise and Lloyd laughing]

[Denise vocalising]

It gets longer
each time I do it.

[Denise sighing]

[speaking in Belgian]

She's beautiful.

Hi, baba.

[baby babbling]

[speaking in Belgian]

[Denise sobbing]

I've decided.

Happy?

Yeah.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

I just felt that in there.

Like a wave.

Who is she?

Saoirse.

Saoirse's a lovely name.

It was a Tuesday,

one of those two hot days
that Irish people moan about.

[Aine laughing]

And I was working,

and Denise was
gonna bring Saoirse

and they were gonna
meet me at lunchtime,

'cause there's a little
park near my office.

We were going to feed the
ducks, have a little picnic,

and Denise was talking
about bringing seeds,

because you're not supposed
to feed the ducks bread,

and I didn't know what
she was talking about.

Saoirse was in her cot,

and Denise went to wake
her up because it was

just past the time that she'd
get up from her morning nap.

Except she didn't.

[Lloyd crying]

Wake up.

She was just shy of
being four months old.

It'd be her birthday
in a few weeks.

Her first birthday.

[speaking in Belgian]

I'm so sorry, Lloyd.

[sighs] God.

I wish you would have
told be this soon.

I've been offloading on you.

Well, look,

you're the first
person that I've

been able to talk about it.

It's not that I don't
want to, I just can't.

Oh God.

God, I'm sorry.

[Aine] It's okay.

No, it's not.

No, I understand.

Thank you for trusting me.

Thank you for talking about her.

Aine, listen,

I didn't speak to Sean.

What?

It was Denise.

Denise talked to Sean about you.

They ran into each other,

they literally crashed
into each other in town,

and they started talking,

but she was really
worried about him.

And I saw them,

God, if I had of known,

I was so stupid because
I got really angry

because she was late and
because he was a stranger.

And anyway, about a
week later I saw him,

I was walking across
the bridge back

to the flat and he
was standing there,

and I recognised him and
I said something to him.

Mate,

you alright, yeah?

I don't think that
he even heard me.

I walked away.

He was there one minute,
and then the next...

[police sirens ringing]

I could have stopped him.

Why didn't you tell
me this sooner?

The past two days?

I know.

Like, what the f*ck?

[Lloyd] I know.

I don't understand.

It just,

it became harder
to tell you and...

I just really
wanted you to stay.

What did he say?

But even if you tell
me now, I can't believe

a word you say because
you've been lying to me.

I know.

Aine, listen to me.

I promise you what
I told you is true.

It's just that he
said it to Denise.

He said to her that he loved
you and that he wanted to...

I need to go.

[speaking in Belgian]

[seagulls squawking]

[emotional music]

[door knocking]

Hi.

Hey.

- [Denise] Hi!
- [Lloyd] who's the best girl.

[Denise] Hi Saoirse-

[Lloyd] Saoirse,
what's mama doing?

Look at Jack-

Okay guys, I'm gonna try and
get a look to camera there.

Big smile, baba and dada.

[Photographer] That's great,
can we get a big smile?

Oh, can we get a smile?

That's great.

Yeah!

Who's the best girl?

[Photographer] Lovely.

Perfect.

Gorgeous.

Yeah, thank you.

[Denise] Her first photo sh**t.

Smile for daddy!

[dramatic music]

♪ You said there was
something in between us ♪

♪ We're getting in our own way ♪

♪ And I think you're right ♪

♪ That don't mean that
it's a bad thing ♪

♪ We'll be ready
in our own time ♪

♪ We can give it up
if you really want ♪

♪ We can stay awake
till the early morning ♪

♪ And if nothing else,
if only for tonight ♪

♪ We'll live it up ♪

♪ We'll know where we
are when it's over ♪

♪ We can try to
decide if we want it ♪

♪ Cause a scene, make a mark ♪

♪ And you won't seem to care ♪

♪ So why should I ♪

♪ We're still young ♪

♪ We have everything
to live for ♪

♪ A lifetime to begin loving ♪

♪ I won't lie ♪

♪ I fear I'm falling
for an angel ♪

♪ Who's a devil
at the same time ♪

♪ And I don't need
another reason why ♪