01x04 - Because of Your Damn Love: Por Tu Maldito Amor

[bunniefuu]

[Tim Hockenberry
singing "Fresno"]

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ Oh I won't be back tonight

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I was blockin' all my life

♪ Don't try to find me

♪ I'm like a needle
in the stack ♪

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ And I'm never coming back

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ Oh I won't be back tonight

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I was blockin' all my life

♪ Don't try to find me

♪ I'm like a needle
in the stack ♪

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ I'm going to Fresno

♪ And I'm never coming back

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah

♪ Yeah yeah yeah yeah ♪

[thud]

So many things I don't remember.

And others..

...crystal clear
like yesterday.

The guy is a little rough
with him.

And how long
has this been going on.

[Sawyer]
It's funny
the way things happen.

We're all headed towards some..

'...you just never know
what's coming.'

Get off her.

It's 8:00 a.m.
you reek of tequila.

[Cesar]
'This is a matter of my house!'

[speaking Spanish]

My wife

and my free time
are my business.

Not when you're on my land
working for me.

Pack your bags.

[speaking Spanish]

He s never done this before

Mr. Clarkman! He s not himself.

He had too much to drink,
please.

Please. I beg you, please.

Please.

[crying]

Apologize.

[speaking Spanish]

You do this again

you're out of here.

[speaking Spanish]

[speaking Spanish]

It's okay.

I'm so embarrassed.

Oh, no, no. Don't be.

It's not your fault.

He ever does this again..

...you tell me.

Okay?

- I'm gonna catch you.
- You can't catch me.

Luke and Hunter, you guys..

[Sawyer growling]

Guys, sit and eat.

Sit up there, right now.

When I ask you to do something.
I need you to listen.

Eat your bacon.

Sorry.

[Susanna]
Oh, mommy is very busy.

'So, you two
don't wanna be grounded'

'for the rest of the day.'

'You're going to need
to follow the rules.'

"Cause rules
are really important.'

Aren't they, daddy?

Yeah. You listen to your mother.

- I-I-I just washed the flow.
- Oh, I'm sorry.

No, not...No. Not that towel.

Okay. Just trying to help.

Yeah, well,
you know what would help

is maybe getting
a little house staff.

Like a maid or a cook.

No. That wouldn't help the bank.

[sighs]

What about Rafael's wife?

You said he's the best manager
we've ever had.

And I know he's new but we could
pay for her to cross-over.

Well, she's pregnant

so it wouldn't be exactly
the easiest time

to walk across
the desert on foot.

'But...I'll let you know
when it's possible.'

Miller and Jenny
just bought a new house.

Okay, people are talking

It looks like our business
isn't doing as well.

I don't give a horse's a*s
what people think.

It's not what it looked like
at our last party.

Okay. When is it a crime
to have fun at a party?

Would you please
just give it a rest?

'We have what we have...'

Okay. I can't ever want
anything else?

You knew what you signed up for.

I didn't not sign up
to live in a box.

Every f*cking time
you make a f*cking decision.

Okay, you and I
wanna be appreciated

for what I f*cking
bring to the table.

You wanna go back to your maids,
and Mayor's ba*ls

and your lady city societies?

- Go ahead already.
- 'Stop.'

[Sawyer]
The truth is..

...you needed things from me

and I wanted things from you.

But those things..

...they never matched up.

Good evening.

Oh, uh..

...I-I didn't know anyone
would be here.

[Luke]
'Where is dad?'

That's right. Yeah.

Thank you.

Is it, uh..

...different
where you come from?

[chuckles]

I didn't grow up on a farm.

Um, my father is a lawyer

and my mother
is a school teacher.

Impressive

[cow mooing]

You're taking a picture
of a cow?

[chuckles]

Helps me remember.

[laughs]
She likes you.

Thinks you're gonna feed her.

So, why are you here?

Uh..

...after I married Cesar...

No. No, uh...tonight.

What brings you out
here tonight?

My mother used to say that..

...animals can sense
when a person is good or bad.

Just like the cow.

I ran into some bad people

get afraid, would panic.

And there was this neighbor
that had all these dogs.

[laughs]
Too many.

I used to just sit
with them and..

...they would make me
feel safe, calm.

I feel the same way here
with them.

Nice.

I should let you
get back to work, Mr. Clarkman.

Sawyer. It's fine.

Goodnight, Mr. Clarkman.

Goodnight.

[laughs]

[instrumental music]

[crying]

Hunter. Hunter.

Hunter, Hunter, wake up.

Wake up, it's okay.
Oh, it's okay.

- No, no, no. Don't wake her up.
- It's okay.

Don't wake her up
the doctor said.

Well, he's nuts.

Look at her. She's in hell.

It's okay, baby.

Baby, it's just a dream.

It's just a dream.

He said it would stop.

Once she feels safe.

If she feels safe.

I got you. I got you.

- It's okay. It's just a dream.
- Mommy.

[Sawyer]
'I got you.'

- 'I got you.'
- Yep.

[Susanna]
'Mommy's coming.'

I got you, yeah.

It's okay now. It's okay, baby.

[Susanna]
'I really think that we should
find somewhere to send her'

'where she can be around
other kids'

'who've been through
the same thing.'

She has PTSD.

We don't have the training
that we need to help her.

[sighs]

Family is what s best for her.

[scoffs]

[sighs]

f*ck me, man.

You say that but what keeps you
out every night?

Work, work, work.

I-I can't imagine what so
desperately needs to get done.

You wanna accuse me
of something? Go ahead.

Why are you so defensive?

I do what it takes
to keep this place going

and you don t appreciate
an ounce of it.

I care about this place
as much as you do.

Who got Thatcher
to sell you his fields?

Alright, so now
you're gonna take credit

for a negotiation
my father started?

Because I finished it.

'I threw the parties.'

'I got you in front
of politicians'

'and I got their boring
a*s wives to elect you.'

That's all about you, Sue.

It's all about
what you want, Sue.

Okay, you can continue..

...to stick your head
up a cow's a*s

and think that's
all that business is

but there is a reason why
this place was the same size

when you were born
as when your father died.

My father built this place
with his bare hands.

Your family is
a cluster of leeches

sucking blood
out of a dead man's fortune.

I didn't hear you complain

when that fortune
helped you upgrade.

How did we get here?
You and I?

[sighs]

[cow mooing]

She likes it.

You're doing really well.

Sometimes..

...when I'm feeling
I'm losing control

I get really, really scared.

Do you ever feel like that?

Maybe.

These ladies help me calm down.

How you like them cows?

- Huh?
- They're cool.

You know, they can't survive
without us.

We help them live better lives
and they do the same for us.

You like them?

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

[Sawyer]
'So, you come here
whenever you want.'

Okay. Thank you.

Did you keep your hand open
when you fed them?

Did your, did your hand
get swallowed by the cow?

[laughs]

There you go.

So, what do you think, huh?

Nothing like a big, fat cow.

Hey, look who it is.

- 'Come on over.'
- Mom.

[Hunter]
Did you come here to help?

Hunter, this isn't a place
for a young lady.

Luke should be here
learning this.

'You know what?
Well, you and I go into town.'

Let's go get you a nice dress.

- That's stupid.
- Hey!

Don't talk to your mom
like that, okay?

Hunter...let's go.

Alright. Later, honey.

[Hunter]
Okay. Fine.

[speaking Spanish]

[laughs]

Don Rafael?

Put that down.

I m giving you two weeks pay
and a job in Redding.

You're out.

- I'll tell my wife.
- She wants to stay.

Just like that, huh?

You get your a*s off
my property.

[speaking Spanish]

You think you can just throw
some money at me

and make me go away, huh?

You know what?
I'm done.

Bloody you're telling me
how to live my life.

That's enough, alright?

Putting money in your pocket
and giving you a job

so you can get
your sh*t together.

Otherwise, I'll call the cops.

You know how that ends.

Either way, you are out.

[speaking Spanish]

[Paula]
He had big dreams.

We were friends.

'One day he showed up
with some mariachis'

and a declaration of love.

[instrumental music]

It worked.

He said, he came here...for me.

- For the great American dream.
- Mm-hmm.

He thought things
would be different

across the border
a month after we got married.

And..

[sighs]

...slowly became a stranger
sending me money.

Life throws you curveballs.

And we all react differently.

By the time I came here..

[music continues]

...he's not the same man.

Some of the most painful moments
teaches the most.

Mmm.

People change.

Sometimes you both change and..

...who you become..

...doesn't fit anymore.

Is that how you feel too?

It's, um..

...different between me
and Sue now.

I don't know
if that's any better or worse.

We've always been an odd couple.

There must have been something
that brought you together.

[laughs]

Yeah, pride.

No, I chased her.

Oh, I chased her.

And her parents didn't approve.

that made me want her more.

It's all so obvious
in retrospect.

I hated that he blamed me
for coming here

'but I also told myself
I was here because of him.'

And Sue and I..

...get started
and go off the rails.

Neither one of us
ever wants to back down.

[music continues]

Plus you have the kids.

Plus we have the kids.

Yeah.

Starting to sound
like this music.

A little melancholy.

You're gonna be okay.

[cricket chirping]

[Sawyer]
Okay, come on. Serious. Okay.
I'll get it this time.

- Okay.
- Hundred percent.

- Are you ready for this?
- Yeah, yeah.

Okay, watch the feet.

Not my hips, okay?

- I'm not watching.
- You are.

- I'm not watching your hips.
- Okay.

[laughs]

- Okay. Yeah, I got it.
- Okay.

- One, two..
- And..

And one, two, three..

- Five, six..
- Seven.

- You're stiff.
- I am not stiff.

- I am pretty loose right now.
- You're so stiff.

Oh, no. Come on.

Holy smokes! Not another one.

I want to remember this moment
if I ever need to laugh.

Yeah, thank you very much.

- One, two, three.
- One, two, three.

- Five, six, seven.
- Five, six, seven.

[both laughing]

You're horrible.

Oh, come on.

People could get
the wrong impression.

What impression would that be?

[music continues]

- I should go.
- Yeah.

You should.

[singing in Spanish

[dramatic music]

I had suspected it for months.

I still couldn't believe it.

After everything
I gave up for you.

[Sawyer]
Of all people

why wouldn't you say anything?

[Susanna]
I was too angry.

I was just trying
to get some kind of control.

[Sawyer]
I never thought you'd leave.

Broke my heart.

[instrumental music]

The inspector just left.

I showed him the new pump
for the silo.

He's happy.

Signed off on everything.

Boss?

Uh...good. Okay.

I keep calling her.

She won't pick up.

So, I called her mother and..

...and she said that, uh..

...she's gone somewhere
with the kids.

Never thought I'd say this,
but I miss those rug rats.

Mmm.

I know what you mean.

[unintelligible]

[unintelligible]

Good. Be good for you.

Give it some time, jefe.

She'll come around.

[Sawyer]
Your good friend Rafael.

Don't have enough
of those in my life.

We built this life together

but we were never friends.

Just...business partners.

Feels like the devil's
off my back.

[Hunter]
'Mom said I could have it.'

- Knock if. Hunter, stop it.
- 'Mom!'

[sighs]
Oh my god!

[dramatic music

[sighs]

[music continues]

[Sawyer]
I keep wondering about my kids.

You'll see them soon.

I hope so.

[instrumental music]

Luke, he'll take it on the chin.
He'll get it.

Hunter. Oh, boy.

It won't be easy.

We'll have to adapt.

What is this music?

It s not Norteño

or... Son Huasteco.

- You know Mexican music?
- Yeah, sure.

I grew up here, remember?

Picked up a few things.

- Mm.
- What style is this?

It s from Tehuantepec.

- Mm.
- In the west of Oaxaca.

- Tehuantepec.
- Mm-hmm.

What attracts you to this music?

Stupid family stuff.
It's nothing.

Stupid family stuff.

Tell me.

- My aunt, Claudia Cassarubias.
- Uh-huh.

I always looked up to her
when I was little.

She did things her way.

Family had a big falling over
the man she married

Juancarlos Cassarubias.

She moved down to be with him.

And everyone cut her off
except me, of course.

Mmm.

We kept writing in secret.

[both chuckles]

Even though she was happy
with Juancarlos..

...a part of her..

...always felt lonely
without her family.

She s the one
who sent me this music.

Sometimes I lay down in bed..

...listen..

...wondering
if how I feel here is..

...how she felt when she left.

I love you.

[sighs]

[chuckles]

Slow down.

I haven't said that..

...to anyone but my kids

for a long time.

[chuckles]
No.

No more pictures, please.

- No more pictures.
- Just one more.

Only for you.

Oh.

Say it again.

- Mm.
- Hmm.

Say it.

I love you.

Again.

I love you. I love you.

[thud]

[thud]

[thud]

[knock on door]

[dramatic music]

[g*n c*ck]

[knock on door]

[clattering]

[groans]

[grunts]

[dramatic music]

[music continues]

[music continues]

[gasps]

[birds chirping]

[Paula]
'It's looking better.'

Good morning to you too.

I still can t believe
a bull got loose.

Oh, Raf and I fixed that fence.

That bull is going nowhere.

I'm just glad you're okay.

- No broken bones.
- Nope.

You shouldn't have stayed here.

Relax.

Neighbors are gonna talk.

Let them talk.
And I don't care.

Yeah, I'm not gonna let all
this good food go to waste.

It looks good.

Mmm.

Could be like this all the time.

Do you want this?

Of course, I want this.

But you said we were gonna
take it slow.

We are. We have.

I just never felt like this.

But what about Cesar?

What if he comes back?

Well...he's long gone.

Yeah.

[sighs]

What?

I love you too.

Say it again.

- I love you too.
- Say it again.

I love you too.

I. Love. You. Too.

[Luke]
Are we staying this time?

I hated that hotel.

[Hunter]
Luke, look he's here.

- Daddy.
- Daddy.

You're here.
I missed you daddy

Hey, what a surprise.

Come say hi to your old man.

[laughs]

Hiya. How are you doing?

- Uh, good.
- Yeah?

- What's going on?
- Breakfast.

Um, hey, kids, can you do me
a favor and head upstairs?

Mommy and daddy
need to have a little chat.

- Thank you.
- Play nice with your sister.

Alright, look Sue..

...it's too late to start over.

Tell me to go.

I'll take the kids.

Okay. You can go.

They stay.

[sighs]

I don't need your love.

Nor you mine.

So, I'll overlook
your little indiscretion

because our kids
need a family

and I can't do it myself.

Hunter needs a lot of support.

Luke needs a mother and a father

who will give them security

and everything they need
to survive in this savage world.

And she...disappears today.

Okay, we can work this out.

We do shared custody,
we split the finances...

Or I just take you to court

for the cheating prick
that you are.

And I parade your little wh*re
right in front of INS.

All of this goes up for sale.

I take everything.

Hunter goes to a psych ward

and you never
see your kids again.

[Susanna]
'Doc says
I'm about three' months.

Were you even gonna tell me?

I told you now.

[scoffs]

Were you planning
on keeping the child?

You choose.

[birds chirping]

[dramatic music]

[music continues]

["Sympatico" by Tom Bromley]

[knock on door]

Not now. Just...stay out.

Oh, honey.

Didn't know it was you.

Have a seat.

Where are we going?

Um..

I don t wanna go back
to the hotel!

We were there so long.

- We missed you.
- I missed you too, baby.

- Don't leave me.
- Oh, baby.

It's okay.

It's okay.

You'd be daddy strong girl,
okay?

[Sawyer]
My father used to say

family requires sacrifice.

He was right.

It's like you said.

The painful moments
teach us the most.

I hope that this..

...is that for both of us.

[Rafael]
I heard of this guy down south.

[Sawyer]
Don't tell me anymore.

- Less I know, the better.
- Mmm.

You sure
this is the right thing, jefe?

That's not the end of the story.

That is where the story ended.

We agreed no more lies,
you and me.

Yes...because of what you did.

Enough, Sue, enough!

How bad could it be?

Tell me.

[crow cawing]

Is the boss still here?

Uh, no. He's in court.

Ah, damn it.

Maybe, he'll get Luis back.
Have a good day.

Is there something
I can help you with?

It's just a stack of mail
from the office.

He hasn't come in
for a few days now.

Wanted to make sure that none
of it mattered for the hearing.

I can take that.

[Susanna]
It was such a small thing.

The handwriting,
it didn't feel like business.

And then the pit
of my stomach sank.

She said she wanted
to write you a 100 times

but never had...because of me.

She said,
she didn't want anything

except for you to know

to see him.

But I knew what would happen
if you ever found out.

[birds chirping]

[Hazan]
What do you mean
it s obvious, Todd.

It s not f*cking obvious.

You re telling me
it s clear to you

how US Immigration Services

'US Immigration
and Customs Enforcement'

and f*cking US Border Protection
are different things?

Hey!

- I told you to wait outside.
- I understand

what Americans think
a t*rror1st looks like.

I wanna show uncle my dragon!

Oh, you gotta be careful
with dragons.

If you wake them up

they swoop you in
and they eat you.

[growling]

Because less people
are buying from me!

And I keep losing workers.

'You know what, Todd?'

Look this up in Farsi.

[speaking Farsi]

Goodbye!

I didn't mean to interrupt.

Just wanted to bring you these.

Pick them myself.

I'm sorry.
You didn't need to hear that.

Should we be worried?

No. No.

Let's just talk.

How can I help you?

Oh, I just wanted to thank you

for taking care
of Noah's school.

He's settling in.

Seems to be making new friends.

He's reading.

That's great.
It's great to hear.

I'm glad you're having fun.

I didn't enjoy school
at his age, so..

- May I ask you a question?
- Mm-hmm.

Why no Spanish?

He s an American boy.

I want him to fit in.

Mmm.

[laughs]

Aw!

Ah!

Go get it.

[laughs]

Woo-h*!

What are we gonna do now?

Try to get the ball.
Try to get the ball.

[indistinct chatter]

[Paula]
'I'm gonna die
if you don't hug me.'

[Noah laughing]

[dramatic music]

[Susanna]
Yes, Hello.

I need to report
some undocumented immigrants.

Paula Uribe,
on the Carmen ranch.

Yes, we caught her
with ill*gal substances.

Yes.

[sighs]

Thank you.

[screaming]

[grunting]

What are you doing?
What is going on?

- These are my employees.
- Stay down, sir.

- No.
- What is it?

This is not right.

- They are not animals.
- Calm down, sir.

[sobbing]

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah..

It's me. Come on out.

Where is my mom?

Come on, buddy.
It's just me.

[Susanna]
We had agreed to do
what was best for our family.

I should have seen who you were.

You're an empty
f*cking black hole

'devouring everything
in its past'

'to get what it wants.'

[sighs]

[dramatic music]