01x09 - Episode 9

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Previously on
Secrets and Sisterhood...

Sisters in Sonoma!

Where have you been, Hamida?

- I was traveling Europe,
having a good time.

- Yes.

Shakur, everybody agrees you can get
your own room! - Let the dumb b*tch

have her own room, but guess what?

At this point, you don't need
to have the biggest room.

Chill the out.

Off.

Get the outta here,
fake-a*s apology.

All right, I'm done with this.

- Walk your a*s on off, elder.

- Yay, Shakur!
- Is Shakur back?

Yeah, now that the
bad vibe is away from me, I'm back.

- You know what I'd love to do
is renew our vows.

- We can have a renewal.

You're being rude.

- Just wanna attack me,
Jamila, 'cause my reaction

wasn't what you wanted.
- Stop barking.

- Why should I walk away?

We're 'bout to eat.

- You look so proper.
- My high tea, new look.

We look like the mafia.

I'm taking Jay to brunch today

'cause I have some news
I wanna share with him.

With everything goin' on
between my sisters and I,

the whole fiasco that happened in Sonoma,

I just really feel like I need
to postpone this vow renewal.

It's supposed to be togetherness,
and family, and love, and unity,

and I'm just not feeling
all of that with them right now.

I know how much
this vow renewal means to Jay,

and I don't know how he's gonna take it.

May I have a Shirley Temple?

And what do you want, babe?
- They have Bloody Marys here?

- We do.
- Do you?

You have Grey Goose or no?

- Yes, we can
make one with Grey Goose.
- Yeah.

- Shirley Temple for him too, please.

Wonderful, thank you.

- You don't think that's controlling?

- I gotta save you.

And if I don't do it this way,
you're dead. Literally.

- Okay.

- I'm just saying,
sometimes you're a little harsh about it.

I mean, the other night...
- I will work on it.

- the other night, I took
a Benadryl to help me sleep

'cause I'm so sore from the gym
and you got on my a*s.

- 'Cause you know what it is?
I live in a real fear.

- But a Benadryl?
- Any time I hear pills,

that correlates, to me,
as a issue when it comes to you.

Whatever it is, I'm like, ".

"Benadryl has diphenhydramine in it,
that makes you drowsy.

It can give you a sedated feeling."

I am gonna always be hyper-alert
when it comes to medications, pills,

or anything when it comes to you

because of...
I lost you to that demon before.

- All I'm trying to tell you is
the bottom line is you have to trust me,

and knowing that if I'm at the gym
for three hours a day,

you think I'm gonna go back?

- But here's the thing, babe.
Addiction is a lifelong battle.

You have to battle it

every single day of your life.
- And that's why I'm telling you...

- Every day of your life.
- That you'll know if I'm in a gym

that you don't have to worry about it.

- I'm generally very on high alert
when it comes to Josh.

And I feel responsible
for Josh's sobriety

'cause I'm his wife, he's my husband.

He's never had
that protection from anybody.

And I feel like that's just...

That's the responsibility
that I have to bear.

I'll be honest with you.

There's some days
that you're in such a bad mood,

or, like, fighting with someone,

and then you're takin'
that sh*t out on me,

'cause you have a bad problem

with takin' all your problems
out on other people

to where it affects me at the gym.

That's right. Now, that's a problem.
- Okay.

- So, I wouldn't be worryin' about pills.

Like, that's a problem,
like, when you're snappin',

in such a bad mood
to where I go to the gym

and I'm drained.

- I think I've earned
that right though now

because I feel like
I've been there for you

for the entire part of our marriage,

and I feel like it's time for you to be...

- I've been a rock for you.

- You are a rock and I'm your rock,

but at the end of the day,
I've put all my time into you,

and I will continue to pour into you.
- Babe, I have...

All I've done is pour into you.

Sonoma, who'd you call?

- I'm just saying, I really hope that...
- Support you.

- you return the favor
is what I'm saying.

- Everyone comes into your sisters,

you make everything too big of a deal.
- No, they make it big of a deal.

Then it comes on, it rains on me,
then I have to make it a big deal.

- No, you know what I think it is?
You like drama.

- Nah. No, it's not.
- Yeah, that's why you like

to skate over to this one.

- False.
- Skate over here.

Yeah, you like that hectic.
- Cap. No...

- But you're bitin' off
one sister's head to the other one.

- So you're goin' back and forth.
- Well, if she did some sh*t,

then she deserves
to get her head bitten off.

I know I need to make peace
with my sisters

so the family's on good terms
before my mom leaves out the country.

That's why I'm organizing
a family photo sh**t for everyone.

And I know it'll be
a nice treat for my mom,

and it's something she's never done.

Honestly, I'm thinking, maybe, possibly,

doing the vow renewal right now is just...

I think we should...
just punt it for a second.

- Why?

- I just feel like there's a lot going on.

Stuff with my sisters
isn't just all the way on,

and I just feel like there's a disconnect,

just with a lotta things in, in my world.

- So you give me fake promises
'cause you told me a while back

that I would do couples therapy,

you would do...
- I did, I did.

And I wanna continue to do it.
- So, now you're backpedaling.

- Just... It doesn't feel like
it's the right moment

to be planning a vow renewal.

I feel like no one's gonna be
really present in that moment.

When it's supposed to happen,
it's going to feel effortless.

- But is there ever a time like that?

You gotta stop sweepin' sh*t under the rug

'cause it boils up
and that's why you blow up.

- Are you mad at me?

- Hey, Jams.
- Hey, babe.

Aww. Are those for me?

- Yeah, they are for you.
- That's so sweet, babe.

I kissed your lips
with your red lipstick on.

- I know, no problem.

- Thanks, babe.

- My heart has been aching for Jamila

ever since she told me about her pregnancy
and miscarriage in Sonoma.

So, Khadija, Muzzie, and Sid,

I got pregnant earlier this year.

Um, but unfortunately,
I ended up having a miscarriage.

- It's an emotional and traumatic thing
for anybody to go through.

I've been there, I lived it.

I'm hoping that
with the fundraiser coming up,

and with my mom going to Pakistan,
that we can clear the air.

And I want her to know
that I'm here for her no matter what.

That's what older sisters do.

I didn't have a chance to talk to you.

That last day of Sonoma,
you mentioned something very important,

and I tried to understand,
and I was looking at you,

but there was just other elements that
was keeping us to have that conversation.

Initially, I was surprised,
the shock that you hadn't told me, right?

Because if anybody can understand
what you've gone through,

it's me because I had
a miscarriage before I had Serena.

I just want you to know that
if you need someone to lean on,

if you need someone to talk to about it,

or if it's anything that comes
to your heart or your mind,

that you can count on me for that.

Because... I know what it feels like,

and nobody else can say that.

- I appreciate that.

You know, when I broke
the news... of the pregnancy

to the girls in the house,
the first thing I got was,

"My God, what is Mom gonna think?"

It wasn't positive, right?
And it wasn't negative.

It was more like, "I fear for your future,

"because I don't know how
the family's gonna respond or...

To this whole... situation."

- And there's a lotta
stigmas when it comes to

having children, you know...

- Out of wedlock.
- Out of wedlock.

And just... sex before marriage.

At the end of the day,

I'm not going to judge you
the way others would.

- Maybe a part of me is like Mom.

You know, Mom holds
a lotta secrets, right?

She holds on to a lot
of her pain internally.

- She does.
- And it's maybe something that I've just

learned from her.

Why are you crying?

- Because it breaks my heart to know
that you had to go through that,

and you didn't come to me.

No matter what,

I want you guys to know that

I'm always there
without, without judgment.

If there's a way for me to lift you up,
I want to do that.

- It's very reassuring
to hear Khadija say that

she's there for me no matter what,
without judgment.

As kids, when you see your older sisters,

there's that level of respect and fear,
and you're afraid to tell them things

because you don't want to disappoint them.

But in this case, you know,
we're all grown adults here,

and Khadija is gonna be there for me.

So, the only people who don't,
who don't know are Mom and Shaista.

You're not gonna tell Mom, are you?

Well, no, you're, you're...
- No, I'm not.

- You're keepin' that in the vault.
- I'm, I'm gonna keep that in the vault.

- Okay.
- You know I'm here for you, babe.

- I know, babe.
- No matter what.

- I love you.
- I love you, too, sweetheart.

Okay, look.

- Those are cute.
- Okay, yeah.

- With this.
- All right.

- With a... with this, with this bralette

- and a white shirt overneath it.
- Where's the white shirt, babe?

- I was gonna say,
"What is Mom gonna say about that?"
- It's just a white button-up shirt.

Can I see it?

- Is Mom gonna be okay with that?
- I mean, is she gonna be okay

with this?
- I mean, I have two tops.

This is what I was gonna do for my solos.

The other one's
more revealing than that one, though.

In front of her, you need to be
a little bit more mindful, babe.

I set up an entire
photo sh**t for my family

because Mom is leaving
out of the country soon,

and we haven't had
a professional family portrait

since we were kids.

This is the first time most of us

have seen each other
since the girls' trip.

And I know we have unresolved issues,

but everyone has to keep it cool,
calm, and collected in front of Mom.

Whatever sisters are at odds today,

this is not the day, this is not the time.

- I haven't seen Sid
since her horrible reaction

in Sonoma to my pregnancy
and miscarriage news,

and it's a little awkward
being around her right now.

But because this is a family photo sh**t,

I'm just not gonna worry about it

because I know how important this is
to the family, especially Mom.

Let's just focus, get these shots done.

We'll get 20 minutes of your solos,
we'll get 20 minutes of Noor solos,

then we're gonna swap out,
we're gonna do the elders in it.

Let them, you know, get their solo shots.

Then we're gonna have Mom come in,

and then we're gonna finish
it off with... all 11 of us.

- Okay.

That's cute, Khadija.

- Thank you.
- Super cute.

Hi, love.
Hi, babe.

- Shakur and I haven't spoken since
we've gotten back from Sonoma.

Justifying that you want the biggest room.
- Khadija, why are you talkin', bro?!

- Why are you talkin'?!
Be happy to be here!

- Wasn't your deal!
- Girl.

- Girl, girl, girl.
- It is.

And I'm really sad because this is not us.

I'm used to talkin' to her,
like, on a daily basis.

The good thing is,
we're all wearing the same lipstick.

She still hasn't even apologized,

and to be honest with you, right now,
I'm okay with not receiving the apology.

I just want my sister back.

- When you pose, don't be so stiff.
We're not, we're not like...

- I'm not, I'm not good at posing.
- It's not picture day at school.

Chest out, chin up, relax.

- Love it.

Nice.

More in the eyes.

Fire.

Fire, yep, yep.

Mighty Morphin Power Rangers!

Boom! Yes! All right!

- Hold on. Hold on.
- Yeah!

Damn. All my sisters are beautiful.

So, it's nice to kinda see them
having fun and just coming into it.

Especially, some of them have never shot
behind a professional camera before.

So, them just gettin' out
and doin' their thing,

I'm just like,
"Yes, honey, gimme face."

Beautiful, Muzzie. Beautiful.

Playful. Be extra.

All you guys over there.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- All right, ladies.
- Woo-woo!

'Kay.

I know I have to tell my sisters
about my vow renewal postponement,

but my mom's on the way,

and I don't wanna make
a big stink about it,

and I just don't wanna hear their mouths.

It's my life.

But I do have to tell them.

First of all, thank you guys for coming.

I... just quick.

So I decided to cancel my vow renewals.

- So I decided to cancel my vow renewals.

I just felt like... everything
was just seeming very rushed.

It became very chaotic.

I felt, like, overwhelmed with the stress

of, like, planning
and things of that nature.

I was like, "You know what?

For sure gonna do it,
I just gotta find the right timing."

Let's just take a beat,
and just, you know,

let it happen when it happens,
and keep focusin' on us.

Keep doin' the marriage counseling
with Dr. Ally, and...

- I think that's the most important.
- That's it.

But everything, you know,

- just wanna let you guys know.
- You know when it feels right...

- Yeah.
- Yeah, go at your own pace.

- It's up to you, babe. We support you.
- Yeah.

I want to talk to Shakur
because I wanna see how she is.

She just said that she's going
to postpone her wedding vows,

and I wanna make sure she's okay.

I don't know if she'll receive it,

but I'm willing to extend
the olive branch first.

Got it?

- Yeah.
- Girl, you got some muscles.

And with those nails?
- Girl, right? It's a skill.

- Listen, I wanted to say something
before the girls return.

I didn't wanna make a big deal of it.

- Okay.
- I know that things aren't a hundred.

- No, girl, we're good.
It's water under the bridge.

We're good, babe.

- Girl, I'll always need you.
- For whatever.

- I'll always need you.
- Whenever you need to talk.

- I know, and I'm here, too.
- So, whatever that weirdness is...

- It's gone. Look it.
- It needs to go.

Crazy girl.
- It's gone.

- Crazy girl... I love you.
- I love you, too.

I know how upset I was with Khadija
and the rest of my sisters,

but in this moment,
I just can't help but just give in.

I mean, it's Khadija.

She's my elder, and I love Khadija.

So, it's like, "Okay, we're over this.

We're willing to be on the mend
and move forward."

And it's a great thing we're doin' it now

because there's a fundraiser
around the corner

and we should all be on the same page.

Cover your t*tties.
Cover them boobs, they're all out.

Hey, when Mom comes in,
you cannot have none of your t*tties

showin' in the family portrait.

Like none, Hamida.
- Girl, bye.

- Shakur, your tit's poppin' out.
- None.

She has under-titty showing.
- I think we all have t*ts popping out.

- We can't have a family portrait
with her bottom cleavage out.

Apparently, the wolf pack forgot to bring
their clothes to the photo sh**t.

You cannot dress like that
in front of Mom in a family portrait.

They brought their beauty,
but forgot their clothes.

Like, great. Now I gotta
Photoshop shirts on all of 'em.

- I think everyone should be
able to exude their personality.

- Okay, I understand this,
which is why we had our solo shots.

We also have the family photos with Mom.
- Yeah. Right.

- And we should be
a little bit more modest in those.

- I agree.
- Like, see with Mom, I can go woo-woo.

- Although, I doubt,
I doubt in the pictures

you're gonna button that up, though.

- But I think I'm not
showing that, that much.

- "I'm not showing that much."
You're not wearing underwear.

- Yes, I am.
- Well, it don't look like it.

- Hi, Mom!
- Mom!

My God, Mom!
I've never seen Mom in jeans in my life!

They're so nice!

My God.

- The scarf went from being on her head
to now it's on her shoulders.

She's wearing jeans, she has makeup on.

She's feelin' herself.

- She looks amazing. She looks good.

- Okay, Mama Sozahdah. I see you.

- Yeah, Noori, cover up, girl.

My button broke, that's crazy.

I need to show a little bit of this, Mom,
so you can see I don't look like a

off.

They knew better, and I'm like,
"Why would you wear that in front of Mom?"

You guys are sitting here runnin' like
little children tryna cover yourself,

so my mom doesn't see you guys.
Like dummies.

- Can we all lean in to Mom, please?

- Smile.
- Smile!

Beautiful.

All right, ladies.

Wolf pack, where you at?

- Elders, where you at?
- Okay, and then...

Rawr.

- Y'all did good.
- Good job, K.

- Hi.
- Hello.

- How are you?
- Good.

You're gonna have a seat
at station one and two.

- I was really upset at the way
Sid reacted to my news

of pregnancy and miscarriage,

but I also understand
why she reacted that way.

She doesn't like to feel left out.

I just didn't want to disappoint her

because I know that she looks up to me.

And at this point,
I just can't hold on to that anymore.

I need to let it go.

I have so much more to focus on
like the charity gala.

And so, I'm just ready to move past it.

- I'm gonna do French tip.

I think I'll do French tip, too.

- Okay.

- It's classy. I like that, Sid. Thanks.
- Yeah.

- I'm really glad that we're finally
at least getting our pedicures done.

I know. And we're having a meeting.

I don't think I've spoken
to you this much in my life.

Even this morning when I had woken up,

and you were, like, butt-crack naked,
and I was sitting on the toilet,

and you're like, "Let's have a meeting."
I'm like, "No, I need my alone time."

I'm like,
"I'll see you at the nail salon."

- Anyway... um,

when we were in Sonoma,

I felt like I wasn't even being myself

'cause I was so emotional

about certain things.
- Yeah.

When I think back to the sister trip,

I'm sorry that I hurt you.

And, um, I don't want you
to feel like you're alone.

I feel horrible
for my reaction in Sonoma.

My sister went through
a personal tragedy,

and I just really want
her to know I'm sorry.

And I don't ever want
her to feel like she can't

rely on me or trust me
with that type of information.

- Overall, I am feeling
at peace with it now.

- Yeah, we had our quarrels,

but we don't go to bed without saying
how proud we are of each other.

I'm really proud of you.
- Proud of you, babe.

So, let's keep
going down the list for the fundraiser.

Okay, so, Sabhi is setting up
the tents on Friday at 8 A.M.,

so everything is ready prior
to our walk-through at 6:15 that evening.

Security is gonna come about 4:45.

- Yeah, they should be there sooner.
- So, Tamara will be there at 3 P.M.

- Okay. I'm really happy
we were able to pull this off,

but, literally, doing this...

- It's so crazy.

- I mean, I've had
so many sleepless nights.

I think next year, Sid,

it has to be just the people
who are really involved.

I'm not gonna just get the rest
of the girls involved again.
- Yeah. Some of our tasks

for the girls did fall through.

- Um.
- Khadija didn't do anything.

It's so funny when, when they say,
"Well, we'll help at the event."

Like, why would I need
your help at the event?

- Dude.
- All the hard work

goes into the planning of the event.

- Yeah... exactly.

Um, Rabya...

- Rabya did drop the ball
even though we picked it up.

We were able to get,
um, some of the bags

delivered earlier to...
- I know, but because of her mistake,

they... the bags were three times as much

because they weren't
gonna produce them in time.

That's just coming out of our pocket.
- Yeah.

- We're in the ninth inning.
- Yeah, we are.

- Whatever...
- We're bottom of the ninth, actually.

- And yes, it was stressful,

but I'm really glad
that I did have you by my side.

- Thank you, babe.

- We're doin' good, kid.
- We are.

- I love you and, and I'm
proud of you, Sid, seriously.

The fundraiser's only
a couple days away,

and I'm just nervous
about everything,

just handing over control.

But, you know, I'm just really glad

that most of the drama
between the sisters is resolved,

and I think it's gonna be all right.

We're a dream team.

- I didn't put any sugar...

All right, let's do it.

- Hi.
- How you doin'?

Fine, thank you. Shakur.

- Turk, good to meet you.
- Turk, pleasure to meet you as well.

I invited the wolf pack today
to get matching tattoos.

I know my sisters and I
have been on rocky waters.

I wanted somethin'
to reunite the pack,

and somethin' to get us
back on the same page.

And we've always talked about
getting the same matching tattoos.

- Nobody has tattoos?
- No.

Exactly, 'cause I want it to be

a moment and a memory, you know?

- Yes.
- Like, the whole point
is to do it together.

- All right.
- But, like, in a very inconspicuous spot,

so my mama doesn't see it.

- Hey girl, hey. This is interesting.
- Hi.

- Was this your idea?
- Yup.

- Nice to meet you.
- Hello.

- Noor.
- Good to meet you.

- So, this is number 8, 9, and 10.

I'm just missing number 7.
Where is Jamila?

- Hello.
- Hey! Party's here.

Like a girl version of Tarzan.

- Wait, hold on.
- So, I've never had a tattoo.

I know you have a tattoo.

- On my fairy.

- That hasn't been verified.
- Hasn't been verified?

- You wanna see my twat?

- So, what we're thinkin' is this...
- Yes.

- Roman numerals, our birth order.

- Okay.

Are you kidding me?

I don't want Roman numerals.
That's so basic.

- Have y'all taken some time
and really thought about this?

- Yeah.
- No.

What if we had, look it, like,

mashallah written
right over here in Arabic.

That's so pretty.

- Girl.
- I'm really into that.

I would do the mashallah. Let's do it.

So, we're all doing mashallah then?

- Yeah.
- Yep.

- My God.
- Noor, are you kidding me?

- I'm a little nervous, okay?

- I'm so scared. I almost like...

- Why are you scared?
- I don't know.

I don't want you guys
to hate me if I back out.

- Yeah, we would.

My God, now everyone in the world's
gonna know I have a tattoo..

Whatever. Let's do it.

If she gets it, no one can
back out in, like, the 25th hour, okay?

That's wrong.

I still can't believe this is happening.

The whole wolf pack,

are all about to get
some ink on our body.

This is official.
Blow the whistle.

Woo-wee. She really doin' this.

- All right, you ready?
- Yeah.

My God, he started.

Yep.

This call is zaghrouta,

and it's typically done as a call
after a celebration.

Woo-wee!

My God.

No Sozahdah has ever gotten
a tattoo.

- My bad. Except for Shakur.
- Except for, except for Shakur.

- Off.
- But this is, like, real.

The first tattoo was corny and bullshit.

I never foresaw myself tatted.

It's something that we always
just, kind of, joked about.

We really are some rule-breakers here.

We're really tryna give my mom
a heart attack. I don't know.

- It looks nice.
- Yeah?

Noor, look at your face.
You're like. There you go, girl.

Wow-wowie-wow.

You're next, b*tch!

First one to kiss it.

My God, I'm laying down.

And she's committed!

- There, there it goes.
- I love it.

And she's punctured. She is officially in.

The are we doin'?

- Ooh-la-la.
- Ooh-wee.

Well, I'm part of the tattoo crew now.

Show me your ink, bro.

Ready? Mashallah.

- I don't know if I'm
gonna get a tattoo today.

- Really?
- Jamila.

Are you dead a*s?

- It looks so pretty on you.
- Okay, so then get it.

- It's sexy.
- You're in pack of the, the wolf,

and the strength of the wolf
is the pack.

I swear to God, you are not
in the wolf pack if you don't do it.

- I don't care if you guys
are mad at me, I'm not doing it.

What?

I don't care if you guys
are mad at me, I'm not doing it.

- What? Really?
- It's sexy.

- I swear to God, you are not
in the wolf pack if you don't do it.

Who agrees?
- Yeah... this your initiation.

She's getting it. That's it.

- Nooreya's gonna hold her down...
- All right, fine.

I am only getting a tattoo
because of my sisters.

- Take your arm out
of this Tarzan suit. Thank you.

- Okay. What the?
- Lay down, baby.

You got this. We all did it.
- You want me to rub your head for you?

- Yeah, Shakur. Jamila, you're fine.
- I'm freaking out!

- He's starting!
- Shh.

Don't move her.

You b*tches, you b*tches.

You guys,
this is crazy. Mom's gonna die.

No tattletaling.

I hate you b*tches,
but I love you.

She's crying.

b*tch is crying.

I am so shocked, actually.

There was a little bit
convincing with you,

but you still did it,

so... I'm glad that you did.
- b*tch.

You're done!

Girl, that's never comin' off.

- We are looking
for some beautiful clothing

to wear for a charity fundraiser event.

- Ta-da!

Nooreya, you look
too much like Cinderelly.

Rabya, you look like
one of the stepsisters.

Lowkey, I'm not gonna lie.

- Wow.

I don't see a ramen packet
or a noodle bowl.

What's goin' on?

- Brownies.
- Let me help you out.

- But not just any brownies.

- Aphrodisiac brownies.
- What does that mean?

- Um, it's just, basically,
has ingredients with, like, stuff

that's known to be aphrodisiacs,
like pomegranates for example.

Today, I'm going to be baking

because it's something
that I loved doing before,

and it's been a while.

So, I just wanna get back in the kitchen
and try out some new recipes.

And apparently,
there's a rumor that I'm a bad cook.

- So, then you bring
the two corners together.

- I have to wrap both the sides
like a flower or just one?

- What the hell is that?

- I mean, I don't know why.

- Okay, what do I set it to?
- Um... put it on 350, please.

- Okay.

My God, Nooreya.

- Hamida.
- You do not belong in the kitchen.

- Hamida... I don't see
you doing this. Shut up.

- Noor in the kitchen, sometimes,
can be very clumsy.

I definitely don't consider
what Nooreya does as cooking.

- How do I do three-fourths?

- Girl, simple math.

- Do I just put three of the one-fourths?

You know what? I'm gonna let you
this up all on your own.

- And when they come out so good,
you can't even have a single piece.

I'm gonna eat them all.

- Have all of it and be horny
in your bed all alone at night.

Who says I'm gonna be alone?

Okay, look. I got everything. Okay.

And then what number
do you want it to stir on?

'Kay, should we turn it up a little bit?

- Hamida, don't ruin it.
- One more notch?

- You're gonna...
- Another one? Woo!

Ooh, I'm tingly inside.

- Hamida and I haven't spent
much one-on-one time together

since she disappeared
before the girls' trip.

So it's nice to have her here
and help me bake,

so I can find out
more about her solo trip.

So, how was your trip, babe?
You seem, like, lighter.

Before you left,
you kinda seemed like, you know, like,

- "Hi, guys."
- Like Igor?

- Like Eeyore.
- I wasn't that bad.

I just feel like I'm, like,
in a good place, you know?

I just kinda did my thing.

I have, like,
a no given attitude now.

I'm just kinda doing whatever I wanna do.

Talk to whoever I wanna talk to.

Hang out with whoever
I wanna hang out with.

Like, I was so concerned
about, like, how the girls felt,

or just kind of, like, hurting them and...

- About what?
- You know, just, like,

if I do have feelings towards a female.

Or, like, is it bad, like,
to feel the way that I feel?

You know, and it's kinda like...

You know, I met, like,
a few people, cool people.

Like, both men and women on my trip.

I felt so free.
You know, there... I just...

Maybe 'cause I was so far from you guys,

I was just halfway across the world.

So, I felt like
no one sees it, no one knows it.

Like, I can do it, and be on the DL,

and... not have to feel bad
about what I'm doing.

I've had a huge self-realization.

It was truly something
that I needed to go on my own.

It was a spiritual journey,
and it was a healing journey.

And I know exactly what I should
be doing to keep myself happy.

And that's putting myself
before other people's happiness.

Whenever I wanna do my thing,

I'll just go overseas
and do whatever the I want,

and then come back.

I do what I want.
- But what's the difference

if you did it here
and chose not to share it,

or if you did it across the world,
and chose not to share it?

What's the difference?

- One of you guys hearing about it.
LA's a small city.

- But I thought you don't care what they,
what they say or think, though?

When Hamida runs off,

I feel like she's trying
to discover the part of herself

that she's keeping hidden from us.

I understand where Hamida's coming from,

but I think, eventually, the goal

is to be able to do that
around the people that you love,

and for them to accept
you for who you are,

so you're not always running off.

- I don't know.
This is a temporary solution for me.

So let me just enjoy my moment.

- It's a Band-Aid is what it sounds like.

- I do what makes me happy...
I'm starting to at least.

- So this is a rundown
of how the event's gonna go.

Okay, we've gone through this before.
Let's just finalize it.

- We let ourself in.
- Hi, Mama.

With the fundraiser around the corner,

we're all getting together to help
Jamila and Sid with the swag bags.

And my mom's comin' over to do
a blessing and do some espand

because we all need to clean out

this negative, evil energy
that's lurking over all of us.

Whatever ju-ju.

You might wanna pour
this whole entire thing into it.

- No, I don't think we need all that.

- That's more than enough.
- Just... Just dive in there.

Matter of fact, let me just
bathe in this sh*t.

- It's comin' up quick. I'm...

- It's too quick.
- I can only imagine how

Jamila's feeling right now.

- Okay, so we'll wait for the girls.
Jamila's gonna bring the gift bag stuff

for us to fill up for the fundraiser.

- Okay.
- So, we're gonna kinda
do, like, factory style.

And then fill up some of the bags
with all, like, the goodies and stuff.

- Awesome.
- Hi.

We got two of 'em.

- Hi. Hi.
- Hi, babe.

- It's a party!
- This is one of 20 boxes.

- I'm gonna need some help.
- Are you serious?

- Dad!
- I need help. Dad!

My goodness.

- It's so beautiful to see the family
together in a very peaceful environment.

Coming together for a greater cause
and working together on this charity gala.

Especially because we still
need help with the swag bags

because someone
in the family dropped the ball,

and forgot to order
the very bags that our products go into.

We'll have him do...
Let's do the espand first.

Let Mom... Stand in order of your birth.

Let's just do here,
and one by one, go over there.

Watch your clothes, babe.
Okay, okay, next.

- Yeah. Go, go, go.
Get your shirt, Josh. Get your shirt.

- Come on, queen.
- The queen bee.

- I'm doing a double take
'cause we got a fundraiser comin' up.

For real, though.

- Should we just leave it
burning the whole day?

You guys, let's grab the rest
of the boxes in front of the house.

- Please do that,
and then I'll give you guys direction.

Go ahead, my little working bees.

Girl, bye.

- She's lucky that we love her.

- Thank you, Josh.
Shakur, Hamida, please help.

Thank you. Muzlefa, grab the bags.
Thank you. Rabya, set them up.

- Are there more boxes?
- Yeah.

Okay, so, we're gonna
have a little assembly line.

Just one of everything in each bag.

- Got it.
- Muzzie, you do quality control

- check over there...
- Go on that end.

- I'm gonna double check
all of 'em have four in there, got it.

So, Mom, give me one.

Shaista... Just one?

- Thank you for helping
to do this, honestly.

Also, the day of,

everyone needs to be at the venue by 5:15.

5 P.M. No, 5 P.M.

- Sorry. 5 P.M. Okay?
- Like, you need to be red carpet ready.

And there's gonna be press there.

- Yes.
And it'd be nice
to have the whole family together.

So, Noor, get there at 11:00 A.M.

- I just ne... I just need
you guys to show up

- and that... and socialize. That's it.
- Yeah.

So... one thing
I wanted to mention is, um,

Khadija, Muzlefa, and I have been
working to develop a vitamin serum.

This is something that we've
been working on for a long time.

For the body.

- Just turn it off.
- What is going on, Siddiqa?

- What are you doing?

- So, Khadija, Muzlefa, and I have been
working to develop a vitamin serum.

- Jamila and I already started one.
- So, we are actually going to...

- The fact that Rabya comes out and says,

"I have a new business, and by the way,
it's about... it's a vitamin serum."

I'm just kinda like, ""

One, not only have you created a product,

you've created a vitamin product.

We're the vitamin sisters.

Jamila and I have been
in vitamins for eight years.

- Why wouldn't Rabya even, like, ask,

"Hey, Jamila, what vitamins do...
Would you recommend in a serum?"

- How is it that I have never
heard about this serum? Like, what?

- So, we're really excited.

And we're excited, obviously, to share
this with the rest of the sisters.

They shouldn't laugh
in her face like that. That's not right.

The disrespect is alive.

- We're actually going
to ra... bring raffle tickets,

and give everybody a raffle ticket,

and then we're gonna
raffle five bottles off.

Kinda just give us an opportunity
to put the name out there.

So, midway in the, towards your...
When you're doing your auction stuff,

if we can have
a few minutes to just, kind of,

- do the raffle.
- Um, so, we have an auctioneer.

So, our program is so tight

with performances and other things that

we can't go up on stage
and just auction off items.

- We're actually not auctioning
off the bottles. We're raffling.

- No one is going up on stage
to represent any product.

- I would've let you know sooner,

but we were trying to make sure we can get
the packaging and everything situated.

- Our, our goal was trying to do 10...
- That's why the goodie bags

didn't come in on time then.

I guess she was workin' on that.

- No, you can, you can
do two things at once.

Okay.
I think we'll do
the raffle a different day,

not the day of the event.
- No, we're gonna do
the raffle on the event.

- No, I... It's our event.
- She can swear to you,
it will not happen.

It is our event.
- What d... "Our"?

- No, no.
- It's ours...

- It's not your event.
- Jamila and I will not appr...

Jamila and I do not approve it,
it will not happen.

- It's a Sozahdah family event.
- This is not for anyone's products.

- This is a product of the Sozahdah...

- No.
- Of, of, of the sisters.

This is sisters!
What are you talking about?

I can use this as a platform...
- If we were sisters,

why didn't you tell us from the beginning?

I'm just finding out about it
two days before our charity event.

It will not happen.
It will not be announced.
How is that a sisters thing?

- You're not gonna use this event.
I'm sorry, you're not.

How convenient, elders.

You have a product you want us
to push at our fundraiser for you?

When they couldn't be bothered to help us.

And now you want us to help you?
I don't think so.

- We will not allow it.

I feel like they are jealous
that Muzlefa, Khadija, and I

have actually developed
a product without them.

Of course, we want everyone to win.

But this is an opportunity
for the name to go out there.

So, when the, so when the real live...
- I need you... I'm sorry...

Hold on, I'm speaking.

Rabya said she was going
to mention the moisturizing serum.

But what I didn't expect Rabya to say

was that she was expecting
more during the fundraiser.

I don't think that Rabya
should have done it like that.

But at the same time, I don't think
that the girls' reactions are warranted.

This is our... You used our story.

- To make you look good.
- You're not an immigrant!

- Who cares?
- You were using their story!

I knew you'd be a hater!
I knew you would!

- You're disgusting.
- You're wrong.

- You speak family,
but you act like a nemesis.
- No. Wrong. Wrong. Wrong.

- Shame on you. Shame on you.
- I started the charity.

You would've never done charity
if it wasn't... if I didn't do it.

- Get outta here. Bye.
- Why do you knock down the platform

that we're building together?

Or are you mad
because you put our name on it,

you stamped our story on it?

'Cause last I checked,
you were born and raised in America.

- Guess what?
The sister that was born in America

is the one that started
this whole charity thing.

- Isn't that sad? Yeah.
- Is that crazy? We did it together.

You're right. You're right. You're right.
She's saying it's so sad.
You're using my story.

- We all have the same story, by the way.

- We're sisters, FYI.
- We have the same story!

- I'm ashamed for you.
- You be ashamed of yourself.

- I'm ashamed for you.
- Bye.

- You're disgusting.
- No, you're disgusting.

- Don't ever speak family.
I knew it would be like this.
- Don't... You're useless!

You couldn't get the bags done!
You did nothing!

- They're coming Saturday!
- Stop.

You don't even have them!
Get outta my face!
- They're coming Saturday!

Stop, stop.

Put Sozahdah family, just put
"From Jamila and Siddiqa Sozahdah."

- Why did you ask me for your help?
- The ones who did all the work? Sure.

- Look at my phone records
and see how many calls I made.

And not a single person
who hasn't lifted a finger,

do not say a word. I'm about family.

- I don't care.
- Nobody has said anything.

- I'm just saying.
- No one has said anything.

- I'm all about Sozahdah family.
- You're about yourself!

You wanna be a philanthropist.
- I'm not. I'm not. Wrong.

- You're nobody.
- I am a philanthropist!

- Shame on all of you.

God.

- I'm ashamed of you guys, really.

This is sisterhood.

We listen to each other. We take advice.

We help one another, not put 'em down.

I can't believe this is happening,
especially with Mom and Shaista present.

Like, you just broke
the biggest rule of thumb.

- It's disgusting, really.
It's disgusting.

- Where do we go from here?

- I'm ashamed of you guys, really.
This is sisterhood.

We listen to each other. We take advice.

We help one another, not put 'em down.

- Sit down.

- You are not gonna raise your voice
with your older sister. You are not.

- Let it go.
- Really? Let it go?

You started, instigator.
- Stop. Siddiqa, stop.

- You started... I'm, I'm ashamed of you.
- I'm a hater. I'm such a hater.

- That's what jealously looks like, wow.
- I'm so jealous.

Jamila, why do you
keep comin' back and yelling?

- Good, you know what?
Shaista, Mom...

And now she's telling Mom, "Don't go."

- Walk away!

- You're telling Mom not to go.
Yeah, I'm telling you
to walk away!

How could you tell Mom not to go?

- She's a snake.

- You're nasty, go away.
- Bring it down.

- You're disgusting!
You don't want Mom to come?!

- You're embarrassing. I wish all the...
- This is for Mom!

- You're not doin' it
for no one but your damn self!

Who are you lyin' to?!

- You're telling Mom
not to go to a fundraiser?

The very thing that's in her name
and honor is the ultimate low blow.

You can't speak to evilness.

Darkness is darkness.
Only light can take that out.

I tell Mom not to go
because I'm feeling disappointed and hurt,

and I'm not getting any support
from my younger sisters.

I've always supported them
in whichever endeavor they wanna do.

But to see that they don't have
that same regard for me is disheartening.

Jamila wants to be the best sister,

and Jamila wants to be
the only successful sister.

And God forbid another sister
become an entrepreneur.

From birth, she was evil.
Tyrant!

- Siddiqa, stop. Siddiqa, stop.
- No.

- Siddiqa, you need to stop.
- I'm talkin' to Mom.

Who are you barking, you instigator?

- You evil.
- Listen. Listen.

- You were... you-you're evil.
Don't touch her.

She doesn't even want you near her.
- She came to me.

- Siddiqa.

The girls are out of line.

They know not to fight
in front of Mom.

I don't know what's going on
in their heads right now.

I can see both sides of the situation.

I think that it was premature
of Rabya to announce something

to try to piggyback off of an event that

Siddiqa and Jamila
have been working so hard on.

And I also think that Sid and Jamila
could have responded more graciously.

There was no need for all
of this fighting, and yelling, and drama.

It could've been handled much more calmly.

- Now she's stopping Mom from coming.
- I get it, but you have to...

- You know how she is.
- Pull her to the side,

not in front of Mom,
not in front of Shaista.

I'm sorry that you saw that.

- I didn't think they would
do that either in front of you.

I'm so disappointed in them.
I'm so disappointed in them.

- I never think that they do that.
- Yeah... I don't understand it.

- I just wish it would've happened
to where Shaista and Mom were not there

- and you guys would've...
- But you know how...

- Then why would she bring
it up in the conversation

- in front of Mom...
- I know...

- Because Rabya does that.

Okay... we will.

- Mom summons Siddiqa and I.

I'm freaking out
'cause I fear my mother so much.

What if Mom's like,
"I'm ashamed of you. You're this..."

- She might. She might.
But you're gonna have to eat it.

You're gonna have to eat that.

- It's very seldom that she'll call us
to have a conversation with us.

I don't know what she's gonna say.
I don't know what's been told to her.

I'm lowkey freaking out.

We thought doing a reality show
would strengthen our bond.

But honestly,
I don't know how we got here.

Damn.

Next time, on the season finale
of Secrets and Sisterhood.

- You know you go too far.

- I was like,
you guys are so disrespectful.

- They belittled not just this product,
but my efforts towards this fundraiser.

Like, I don't think I-I'm gonna go.
- Me neither. I'm not gonna go.

- We all know if Shaista doesn't go,
Mom's not gonna go.

- I would be devastated.

- But not just that, your older sisters
who are the actual refugees.

- Absolutely.
- If they don't come either,

that'd be embarrassing as.

- Today's the day. Fundraiser is here.

- I'm hoping they are.

I-I don't know how to hold it together.

I'm sort of having
this out-of-body experience.

Mom needs to be here.
- Well, I mean, she knows
this is all for her, so.