[traffic sounds, horns honking]
♪♪
♪ When your day is long ♪
♪ And the night ♪
♪ The night is yours alone ♪
♪ When you're sure
you've had enough ♪
♪ Of this life ♪
♪ Well hang on ♪
♪ Don't let yourself go ♪
♪ 'Cause everybody
cries ♪
♪ And everybody hurts ♪
♪ Sometimes ♪
♪ Sometimes everything
is wrong ♪
♪ Now it's time to sing along ♪
♪ When your day is night
alone ♪
♪ Hold on ♪
♪ Hold on ♪
♪ If you feel like letting go ♪
♪ Hold on ♪
[siren passing]
[traffic sounds, horns honking]
I'm going to pick up somebody
on 19th Street.
What's the address?
I don't know.
It's my cousin.
It's right across
from the park,
and then I'm gonna go to 65th
and 1st Avenue in Manhattan.
I was waiting
a f*cking long time!
I'm gonna k*ll that
f*ck' dispatcher,
whoever he is.
Why you in such a rush?
'Cause I have to f*ck'
k*ll somebody tonight.
So, who's the unlucky person
you're k*lling?
My boyfriend.
[chuckles]
Ha-ha, he's dead.
What did he do
that was so bad?
Look...
[exhales sharply]
We have, like, a lot of problems
in our relationship.
We've been going out
for like two years.
And we have like...
he does a lot of f*ck'
f*cked up sh*t to me.
And tonight,
if I catch him out there
with another girl,
I'm gonna f*ck' k*ll him.
I'm gonna r*pe him.
Anyway, it's a long story,
but to make
a long story short...
he's done a lot of f*cked up
sh*t to me.
I hate f*cking men.
They all suck.
All men suck?
Relationships suck.
I shoulda broke up with that
f*ck a long time ago
after what he put me through.
Why are you with him if he's
driving you nuts like this?
You kidding me?
Oh, I love him.
That's why, but...
[laughs]
You love him.
[inhales deeply]
What was he doing,
was he cheating on you?
I know he is,
because he's been getting
these f*cking beeps
on his beeper,
"Let's go to bed, 69,"
all this f*cking sh*t.
And he's gonna tell me
he's not cheating on me?
All right, wait, wait, wait.
Stop, stop.
Beep.
Right here?
Yeah, beep, beep, beep.
[horn honking]
Beep, beep, beep, beep,
beep, beep, beep.
Yo.
Hey.
You just cut
my conversation so short.
Who were
you talking to?
No one.
I have to f*cking find him.
What are you gonna
do with him, girl?
Yeah, you'll see,
you'll see.
[humming]
I'll see?
I'm, like, turning
colors right now.
I can't even believe this.
Well, we're gonna go
pick up Maria right now.
I told her to have
a cheeseburger deluxe
ready for me,
'cause I'm f*cking starving.
I'm so revved after all this
sh*t he's put me through,
he's f*cking dead.
I'm gonna take him
and I'm-- I'm gonna f*cking--
if he's with that b*tch,
you don't understand.
Which b*tch?
I'm gonna r*pe her.
I'm gonna f*cking stick
a knife up her f*cking a*s.
Watch, watch.
Which one?
"Which one?"
I know, right?
I'm such an as*h*le, Becky,
why do I get myself involved
in these things?
I don't know.
I swear.
I don't know.
I f*cking love him to death,
but he puts me
through this sh*t and, oh!
All men are like that.
I know, I hate f*cking men,
that's it.
I'm gonna go in there
and I know he's gonna be there,
'cause he's always
upstairs at the bar.
Really?
Yeah, and I know
he's gonna be with her.
I f*cking know it,
and I'm gonna--
I'm gonna catch
him out there.
So lovely, I'm just
gonna take a glass
and I'm gonna f*cking
throw it in his face.
Okay.
I'm just so f*cking
pissed off, Becky.
All right.
Whoo!
Calm down,
you'll get there.
I'm gonna tell the cops
everything from A to Z,
everything, and then
I'm just gonna leave,
I'm gonna break out
of the country.
Where you gonna go?
I'm gonna go to Greece...
so he doesn't f*cking k*ll me,
really k*ll me this time.
Not like before, almost.
This time, he will.
You know I'm sleeping
with that guy.
Get outta here!
Yeah.
What are you, nuts?
He's good.
What are you stupid?
He's f*cking good.
Yeah.
I don't care.
I know he's doing it to me,
so f*ck him.
How are you in love
with somebody
if they hurt you all the time?
If you don't mind me asking,
I mean...
That's a tough question.
That is a tough question.
I've grown to hate this person
after what the f*ck
he's put me through,
do you understand?
You just told me
you loved him.
I know, but I...
You know, I'm more confused
in the f*cking head.
But I-- I've,
like-- you know,
if I catch him
out there tonight,
I know it's gonna hurt me
like crazy,
but I'm still gonna f*cking
do what I gotta do to him,
and I know tomorrow he's gonna
do what he has to do to me,
and he might f*cking k*ll me
this time, you know?
Like last time,
he does crazy sh*t.
He takes f*cking g*ns and...
forget it,
I'm not even gonna
get into it.
Forget it, just forget it,
forget it.
What happened, like, with a g*n?
What, are you kidding me?
f*ck it,
it's a whole long story.
You gonna tell me this guy
pointed a g*n at you.
Nah, he did other things
with it.
I don't know.
What else can you do
with a g*n?
Forget it, it's just
a long story.
g*ns, knives... drugs.
It's f*cking crazy sh*t
out there in New York,
I'm telling you.
I can't wait to get
the f*ck out of this city.
You must have done
something to him then
for him to, you know,
treat you like that.
Me?
I'm the nicest girl
in the world!
I'm not blaming you.
So, I played his a*s
left and right, but hey.
You know, a woman's gotta do
what she's gotta do.
You find a nice piece of a*s,
you gotta go after it.
So, he caught you cheating,
you're trying to say.
Oh, a lot of times,
but I caught him
cheating a lot of times too.
But if he's with this one
f*cking girl tonight,
we're gonna just beat
the f*ck out of each other.
She's gonna k*ll her.
Hm-hm, I'm gonna beat
the sh*t outta him,
he's gonna beat
the sh*t outta me.
And then I'm probably
gonna be dead tomorrow.
Becky, what am I gonna do?
I don't know.
[sighs]
So, this ain't the first time
he's f*cking around
around your back?
It's not the first time
he's f*cked around,
it's not the first time
he's done what he's done.
It's not the first time
he's beat the f*ck outta me
with his f*cking...
anyway, never...
What, he beats--
beats you bad?
Not to, you know...
I don't know, I don't know.
Not hospital bad, right?
Twice.
How bad did he beat you?
What'd he do to you,
like, you had to go
to the hospital?
What, you break teeth,
or what'd you do?
[chuckles]
Broke a couple bones
with the g*n.
With the butt?
With the-- yeah.
But it's all right,
he's got his share.
I shot him once.
But I shot him--
You shot him?
Yeah.
In the arm.
[chuckles]
You shot him with a g*n?
Yeah, my father's g*n,
I took that r*fle
and I shot him.
He was in my house
and he was trying
to force himself in
so he could f*cking get to me,
and I shot him
in the arm.
You shot him in the arm.
He's gonna call the cops.
[laughs]
Don't... why are you
repeating it?
Just like, you know,
you don't know me,
I don't know you,
you don't know where
you picked me up from tonight.
You know, that's it.
That's the way it goes.
♪♪
Okay.
Yeah, you don't care
if we smoke, right?
What are you guys up to?
Going to a party.
What kind of party
are you going to?
Oh!
[chuckles]
Every kind of party, man.
The best kind of party.
What kind of party is that?
Big rock and roll party, man.
Big rock and roll party?
Yeah, you know,
like the rock and f*cking
roll kind of party.
You guys from New York?
No.
Delaware.
The first state
of the rock and roll revolution.
So there might be drugs
at this party?
Yes.
Do you guys do
a lot of drugs?
Drugs do us, man.
[both chuckle]
You know what I mean?
So what do you guys do?
Like, you guys have been dating
for a while now, and...?
Yes.
woman:
Yeah.
driver:
Except what?
It's the '90s, my man.
It's the '90s, so...
Yes. Yeah, man,
until the m*therf*ckers
come off the A*DS cure,
which you know they got,
you know what I'm saying?
Until some m*therf*ckers
comes off the cure,
which they're sitting on,
and we have fact
that they're sitting on it.
You have fact that
they're sitting on it?
Yes, we do.
But you can't say
you're not bisexual.
What are you talking about?
driver:
You're both bisexual?
I mean... I think
everybody is.
Yeah.
I mean, come on,
man, you are.
I can tell.
I saw the way
you're looking at me
through the rear view mirror,
you kinky cab driver.
I was looking
at your girl.
Yeah.
Well, that too, man.
You made me do that
scavenger hunt and kiss Kelly.
Yeah, well,
that was you, baby.
You know what I mean?
You didn't see me
running around town making it
with all the guys now.
What do you mean?
All the cats in my band
went, like, a little crazy.
The whole, like,
the drug thing
went a little crazy,
and then the sexuality thing
started going crazy,
like everybody questioning
their-- their sexual
preferences and stuff.
And I went through
this whole thing where, like,
to begin to feel like God,
the Devil and Jesus
all at once, man,
you know what I mean?
Yeah.
And the radio
starts playing songs,
and the radio's playing
all these songs,
and f*cking, like, every time
he says the word "baby."
Uh-huh.
Right, the word "baby,"
I'm like, yeah, he's singing
about me.
Anybody,
anybody on the radio.
But that's all good now.
p*ssy power!
[laughs]
Speaking of p*ssy...
move over, man.
No...
Are we gonna fight
who goes first tonight?
[laughs]
Ooh!
Ooh! I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
You see that, man?
No, I don't see anything.
I'm just driving.
Oh, good.
You don't see anything?
She set my eye on fire.
[laughs]
You know?
Okay.
We should. [giggles]
I think we should too,
and then meet 'em
in a little bit.
Yeah.
Where?
St. Marks?
Yeah.
Dude, take us
to St. Marks Street.
Right now.
How are we--
driver:
You going to
the St. Marks Hotel?
f*ck yeah, man,
that's our spot.
Okay.
[both laughing]
Take us to the dungeon.
Her workout room.
[laughs]
Yeah, I want it
so bad now.
Oh my God, man.
What a f*cking night.
[both laughing]
Let's get him
in the movie, man.
We gotta get you in
the movie, man.
Oh, my God.
You can film stuff
with me and your girl, man.
Huh?
Film stuff with-- all right.
Ohh!
Then we'd have
to k*ll you.
Okay.
That's what we--
that's what we really do
for kicks, man.
Yeah.
Is go around
filming cab drivers
f*cking my girlfriend,
then I k*ll 'em.
[laughing]
Hey, you like it?
You like the concept
for a movie?
It's not worth all that,
I guess, is it?
I don't know, you tell me.
[laughs]
It's definitely worth it,
man, if you know my girl.
Can I have a cigarette?
Yeah.
driver:
I don't know if I believe it.
[laughing]
Yes.
I f*cking can't find
the lighter, babe.
I think we're out of luck.
No, no.
We're gonna have to
stop and get matches.
Mm-hmm.
Go ahead, go ahead,
I'll wait for you.
Don't touch her, man,
I'll k*ll you.
Careful.
I...
I found it.
[laughs]
Wait, now let me get
this story straight.
You guys came from a party
and you're on your way
to go party.
Mmm.
[knocking]
You want the door?
man:
Move over, baby.
Oh.
Oh, you found the lighter?
Where was it?
Did you hide it somewhere?
Yes, I wanted to be alone
with our kinky cab driver.
[laughter]
I didn't touch her.
Let me see
the toes tonight.
[sighs]
I just graduated
college today, man.
Oh, congratulations.
Thank you.
You believe it?
driver:
No, that's amazing.
I know.
man:
Oh my God,
what a night.
[indistinct muttering]
You're making me crazy, girl
♪♪
How you doing?
Hi.
Listen, I have
to go to Bowery,
I've got a couple dollars
in change.
Where you going?
CBGB's.
You know the Bowery?
Sure, I know CB's.
Thank you.
Thanks very much.
No problem.
So, what's going on?
Nothing, I'm trying to kick
this f*cking cocaine habit,
and it's just
k*lling me, man.
Why can't you quit?
Between the money
and the coke,
I-- I wanna quit,
I wanna stop,
and then I fight
with the-- my family,
and I get all depressed,
and I say f*ck it.
And I give up, you know,
that's probably what it is.
Do you feel like
getting high now, or...?
I got ten dollars to my name,
I gotta give you
a couple dollars out of that.
If I do that, I won't have
no money to eat tomorrow.
But you still got
the urge to do it anyway.
Yes, right.
Can't do nothing for less
than $15 in this neighborhood.
I only got ten.
I walked down here
for nothing.
Oh, you-- you came here
to score, or...?
Yeah, I came in
your car because I thought
they were dimes,
but they're 15.
You wouldn't wanna chip in
five dollars for one?
I got ten.
Oh, no, I couldn't, man.
Okay, okay.
I really couldn't.
Great, I'm gonna take
your philosophy.
I'm just gonna say
f*ck it and go home.
Who you going home to?
CBGB's, I live--
it's a hotel upstairs.
Oh!
You got some family
there or...?
No, I'm staying there while
my wife and me are fighting.
I-- I got a h*--
we have a home
in Nassau County.
I have three kids too,
it's crazy.
The reason why
we're not getting along
is because of this.
When I work, I spend
the money on garbage.
It's crazy, you know.
It's-- it's my own fault.
I-- I shouldn't complain to you,
it's my own god-- g*dd*mn fault.
The thing is, my kids
are in their teens now,
and it's better that
they don't see me
if I'm gonna be like this.
It's better that I stay
away from them,
as much as I don't want to.
My own children,
I gotta stay away from 'em
because I get high.
If there is a devil
and there is a hell,
sure as hell the drugs
are the devil's toy--
devil's... whatever.
It's hell, it sure is.
How-- how is it hell?
It's-- it's hell
because it's a trap.
You can't never get enough,
you can never...
You run, you're always
chasing that high,
you can never get--
you can never get satisfied,
no matter... no matter how
you think you're satis--
Like me, it's very rare
to see a person who does drugs
to go home with ten dollars
in his pocket.
That-- that's rare.
I am just...
just tired, okay?
I'm tired of living
this kind of life.
Eventually I'm gonna wind up
getting k*lled
in these streets,
or I'm gonna stop.
I've tried going in for detox,
it just don't seem to work.
I stay straight
for a couple of months,
and bang, a fight,
and all over again.
What do you think from,
like, your childhood
or something might have
caused you to... use?
Oh, it's-- no, no.
All the things that I could
blame it on, I won't,
because I'm a man.
I've got to accept
the responsibility.
I'm not dealt a worse hand
or a better hand
than you or him or him.
You all gotta make
the best of it.
So do I.
If I wanna f*ck
my sh*t up...
I am suffering,
I-- I can't see my kids.
I can't have--
be with my woman.
I am paying the price
for this, believe me.
So why do you do it, man?
Listen, why don't you
try to get a fare?
I-- I'm gonna walk up.
Maybe I'll run into someone
with five dollars.
Huh, fat chance
in this neighborhood.
Right?
You're in a bad neighborhood,
you gotta be careful
around here.
Yeah.
I've been cut,
I've been shot at.
You gotta-- you gotta make
an image as if you're a bum,
otherwise they will f*ck
with you.
If you look like
you got a dollar,
they will f*ck with you.
But that place right there
is a good place to get fares.
I can get a fare where
I drop you off at CB's,
it's no problem.
Thank you, God, for running
into you, thank you, God.
This way, I ain't
gonna f*ck up.
You take-- you force me
to go to my door,
I gotta go in,
I gotta go up, that's it.
I can't f*ck up.
Thank you, thank you,
thank you.
Thank you, God,
for running into you.
What happened
to your hand, man?
Something happen
to your hand?
I was burned.
I was in a fire.
Ow!
And it's my own fault again.
I had fallen asleep
with a cigarette.
What happened,
it looks like it...
Yeah, they had to cut
part of the bone out
and the whole sh*t.
How did you burn yourself?
Yeah, I had fallen asleep
with the cigarette
and I had been drunk.
I was the only one
that got burned, thank God.
That must have been
a wake-up call, right?
I was in the burn unit
in Nassau County
for nine months.
That was the main thing
that made us split up.
'Cause she realized,
if he don't get the point
after that, he ain't
gonna get the point.
I can't blame her,
she was good, you know.
She was good.
I... I can't blame nobody.
I really wish that
I could blame someone.
But I gotta be a man and look
at it-- the real deal.
I did this to myself.
I can't lie to myself
and try to put the blame
somewhere else,
when the blame belongs to me.
'Cause eventually,
I'm gonna try to get out
of this hole that I'm in.
And if I start lying to myself,
I'll never be able to do that.
♪♪
Tough night?
It's too hot out.
Yeah?
You're in an
air conditioned car.
Yeah.
It's f*cking out there.
Yeah, what have
you been doing?
Oh, I work over on, like,
Whew.
What do you mean?
Hooker.
You a hooker?
Yeah.
What's it like
being a hooker?
Oh... like anything else.
It's not like being
a babysitter.
No, it's not so great, actually.
You run into maniacs.
Do you?
I almost got k*lled
last Sunday night,
as a matter of fact.
What happened?
I went with this guy, okay?
Yeah.
But, um, a girl had got
k*lled six months ago
and the police were showing
the picture of him
'cause he went
to the St. Marks Hotel.
Right.
And you're on, like, film,
a camera when you go in there.
So, they had a picture of him.
I said, hey, that looks
like this cab driver
that used to always pull over
in the wintertime and say,
"One day, I'm gonna go
with you."
Same coat, same hat,
same moustache, everything.
But I said, ah, he seems
too nice, it can't be him.
Well, anyway, he comes
to pick me up,
and he's been k*lling
a lot of girls
like, in Midtown area too,
either strangle 'em
with a rope
or stabbing 'em
in the heart with a knife.
And he had both, he had
the rope and the knife.
He pulls out this rope
like made of--
out of, like, boot strings,
with like a slip knot on it.
I said, oh sh*t.
I said, "What's that?"
He said, "Oh, that's my whip,"
but he didn't whip me with it.
So I said, I gotta get
rid of this thing.
This is-- with the slip knot,
that's too much coincidence,
you know?
So I said, "Let me whip you
with it a little bit."
I hit him a couple times,
then I balled it up
and I threw it backwards
into the bathroom.
He didn't see me do that.
He went crazy when
he couldn't find that thing.
Really?
Yeah.
I said, oh no,
this is him.
So I threw my socks on,
and that's where
my money was, thank God.
He goes, "Wait."
He walks over to the dresser,
I walk behind him
and I'm looking
over his shoulder.
He unzips his bag
and takes out a knife.
Honey, I...
No!
I ran out of that room.
Before he could turn around,
I was out of that room.
Are you serious?
Screaming, yeah.
Totally nude.
You ran out naked?
Yeah.
Where'd you run to naked?
Then I fell.
You know how
in the horror movies,
the lady always falls?
Sure.
And the guy gets her.
I fell.
I f*cking crawled
into that office.
Did you call the police?
Yeah.
And they-- they thought
it was a f*cking joke.
They thought it was
a f*cking joke,
they were like,
"What did you do, rob him?
"Oh, he was hitting you
with a whip?
You were sucking his d*ck?
Ha ha."
Like it was a f*cking joke.
And as soon as we started,
like, having sex, he changed.
You know what I mean?
How did he change?
His eyes were like
going back and forth,
they even rolled up
in his head like a--
he looked like he
was possessed.
Wild.
And that little thing
that was a whip
with a slip knot on it,
he was like pet--
he had that next
to him in the bed
and he was, like,
petting it, like...
like he was going...
Really sick, you know?
Very weird.
I'm the only one who I think
has got away from this guy.
As long as he kills hookers,
they don't seem to care.
They don't even
put it on the news.
Now, if this guy was going
around k*lling regular girls,
wouldn't it be on the news?
Like, how did you know,
though,
when he-- when he
started getting weird?
He couldn't get hard or c*m,
he was sniffing coke
and drinking.
But you guys
were having sex, so...
I was blowing him.
Oh, you were blowing him?
Yeah, he couldn't have sex
'cause his d*ck
wouldn't get hard.
You still blowing him
and he's not hard?
That happens a lot, a lot
of people can't get hard at all.
How long you been working?
Uh, off and on
since I was like 15.
What?
What's the most amount
of men in one night?
The most amount of men.
I don't know,
it was in Washington, D.C.
It was like
a state troopers convention
from some, like,
hick town down south.
I don't know,
it was a lot of guys.
I didn't f*ck them,
I gave 'em all blowjobs.
But, pfft, I gave
a lot of blowjobs.
A ton of blow--
Like how many?
I had like $1,200,
I don't know.
You figure, it was only--
they were only spending
Oh my, come on.
That's like 60 blowjobs.
I gave a lot
of f*cking blowjobs.
There was a lot
of guys there.
How old are you now?
So you've been doing this
more than half your life.
Yeah.
Well, I stopped
for a few years,
not that long ago.
Like about four years ago,
I had met a guy,
I fell in love...
or I thought I was in love.
I have a daughter,
she's three.
How did you meet the guy?
When I was working.
You met him working?
Customer.
Some people you get along with,
they're not all mutts.
So, what happened again?
Oh, I still live with him,
but we're not like--
Oh, you do?
Yeah, 'cause we--
'cause of our daughter.
She loves him.
So, why did you, um,
like, fall of out love
with your boyfriend now?
Right after I had my daughter...
I know he's a sex maniac.
I knew he was cheating on me.
So I followed him one day
and he was picking up
a prost*tute.
Really?
And these were some really--
oh, God--
like real crack addicts
and all that.
I busted him.
And I don't know, it just
wasn't the same after that.
I kinda hated him.
But how did you, like, hide,
and how'd you catch him,
you know what I mean?
I-- I followed him,
and he was talking
to the girl, and I waited
for him to talk...
He went on his bike
and I-- and I took the car.
And I followed him.
I hit him with the car,
actually.
You hit him with the car?
Yeah.
Not to k*ll him, just to,
like, knock him down, you know?
I just, like,
bumped him off.
And then I was,
you know, like,
yelling and cursing at him
from in the car.
Really?
Yeah.
I don't know, I'm jealous,
if I love somebody, I'm jealous.
I don't know why, you would
think I wouldn't be, right?
Doing this kind of work and...
But if I love somebody,
I'm real jealous.
But I mean, you really expect
him to be faithful?
Yeah.
Like, you expect
to be with a guy
that's faithful when
you're a prost*tute?
Yeah.
But I mean, you're sleeping
with people for money.
Yeah, but there's no--
it's like smoking a cigarette.
It's not even like
you're having sex, really.
♪ Woo-hoo! ♪
♪ Hey, whoo ♪
♪ [vocalizing] ♪
♪ Hey, whoo ♪
♪ Hey, whoo ♪
♪ Mmm ♪
♪ [vocalizing] ♪
♪ Whoo-whoo-whoo, huh! ♪♪
How you guys
doing tonight?
Good, thanks.
All right.
We need to go to Brooklyn.
You in love?
Yeah.
Does it show?
Yeah.
[laughs]
Love at first sight?
No.
No.
[laughter]
No.
How long did it take?
Uh, I guess three
or four dates,
Right?
Yeah.
But it wasn't, like,
totally, like, gaga
for quite a while.
Took-- I think it took, uh,
I think it was three dates.
And then it was gaga?
I was f*cking gone,
man, yeah.
Yeah, he freaked too.
I did, I freaked big time.
How'd you freak?
I just kind of lost
all control, you know?
I mean, like every thought
was all about her and...
That's beautiful.
Yeah.
Obsessed?
Look at you.
You look totally obsessed.
[laughter]
You look like you're, uh,
whacked on a drug.
woman:
We've just never
said no yet.
You never said no, huh?
No, we haven't said no yet.
Have we said no?
What did he ask for?
[laughing]
Whatever comes up.
Wow, you're--
And all his friends
are like, "What? She'll do that?
Are you kidding me?"
It's the first time
I've ever felt
like a real balance,
you know?
For the first time I feel like
I am able to give him
everything I wanna give him,
'cause he can handle it.
And yet, he gives
so much more back to me.
Right.
It's weird.
If I had to tell you
if I knew that much about him,
I really don't know
really much about him,
except I know a lot about him.
Yeah, and I don't
trust women.
So, as a general rule,
I never have.
So, you know, to trust her
is pretty f*cked up.
But the sex is good
and great with you guys?
Its f*cking unbelievable, man.
Ah!
[laughing]
It's the best?
Definitely the best.
Why?
'Cause it's that--
that freedom to go, you know?
It's like, you don't have
to be afraid to do anything.
I mean, like,
we've had some, like,
really kind of passive,
mellow nights.
Mm-hmm.
That you know,
weren't like, you know,
rocking down the walls
or anything like that.
And then there have been
other nights
that were just, like,
totally extreme and crazy.
And it's okay for any night
to be anything.
I said it before,
I'll say it again.
He rocks my world.
Aw.
Let's take, for instance,
like tonight.
You don't mind if I get
a little personal here, do you?
No, go ahead.
All right, we were,
you know,
we were on our way.
It was really dead
at Shea Stadium,
you know, it was totally empty.
We were throwing back
a few brews,
getting a little drunk.
And I'm looking up
to the top bleachers,
you know, and I figured, hey,
what a great f*cking idea
it would be to take her
up to the top and get it on
in Shea Stadium, you know?
It never came to fruition
because we got busted by a cop.
But... had to--
You got busted
by a cop, what?
At-- up at the top bleacher,
we got-- we got snagged.
They stopped you
from like...?
Yeah, the stopped us when
we were getting pretty close.
Oh, man.
See, what a bummer?
Totally.
All the way in the top.
There was not even a soul--
forget about a soul around--
not a m*therf*cker
in the place would even know
that it was happening,
you know?
And it would have been like
a major f*cking fantasy
fulfilled had it come through.
♪♪
Where you going?
I'm going to Omonia
You know how to get there?
Where's that?
That's on-- that's on Broadway.
Broadway, yeah.
Yeah.
What's up,
how you doing?
Rough night, man,
let me tell you.
What happened?
I'm pissed, man,
forget it, man, you know.
You got a girlfriend?
Yeah, I got one.
You engaged?
Am I engaged?
No.
I don't have one girlfriend,
I go out with a few of 'em.
Why?
Well, let me
tell you something, man.
[sighs]
Just-- just be careful, man,
'cause girls
are f*cking wh*res,
that's what I'm trying
to tell you.
I'm pissed.
You know what I'm saying?
I'm f*cking Greek, you know
what I'm saying,
and the b*tch is Italian,
and I f*cking have a kid.
And the b*tch,
now she wants to separate,
and I can't see
my f*cking kid.
Is that right?
Tell me, how would you feel
when you're in
that situation?
And her f*cking parents,
just because they got money,
they think they can do
whatever they want.
So, what happened?
Oh, man, I-- I don't even know
where to start, man.
Let me tell you, man,
she was supposed to go
to Puerto Rico this weekend.
We tried to ease things out,
tried to think about things.
Then all-- all of a sudden,
I found out from her friend,
her friend tells me
she's not there.
It's like, she's over there
hanging out,
and she's supposed to be
at Omonia now.
If I go there, I'm gonna
f*cking k*ll the b*tch.
She didn't go to Puerto Rico?
Where'd she go?
Yo, man, I'm telling you.
I'm telling you,
don't you listen?
She didn't go,
she's a scammer.
She-- she never went.
She might be at Omonia now.
One of my friends told me this,
you know what I'm saying?
Yeah.
You know, she might be,
like, you know,
cheating on me or whatever,
but that's not the point.
The point is the kid
is the most important thing,
you know what I'm saying?
'Cause I'm not
f*cking Italian,
this gotta happen,
because of f*cking r*cist sh*t,
for her parents don't like me.
And the parents didn't know
you were going out with her?
They know, man,
they know after two years
just because I-- I just got
laid off, all right?
Yeah.
I got laid off
about three months ago,
and I'm a f*cking accountant.
Yeah.
All right, I got laid off
after tax season,
April 15th or whatever it is,
and they think
I'm a f*cking bum,
'cause I can't get
a f*cking other job.
Just because they own
a construction company,
they got all the money,
they think they can treat people
the way they want.
This is the f*cking
United States of America,
you know what I'm saying,
the bigger guy
always f*cking wins,
you know what I'm saying,
and I hate that sh*t,
I hate that.
Yeah.
On the top of it,
she's gotta go
to f*cking Omonia
where I know all the people.
All my friends
are over there, you know?
You think maybe she's--
maybe she's having another
affair or something, or...?
I'm gonna go check
that out right now.
Whoever she's there with, man,
she better have some explaining
to do, let me tell you.
The first lie that comes
out of her f*cking mouth,
I'm just gonna, like,
smack her or hit her,
you know, or something,
you know?
Yeah, you don't wanna do
something like that.
So you wanna keep it
as honest as possible.
I don't know, I mean...
Let me tell you, man.
You gotta be 100% sure, man,
who you f*cking
get engaged to.
Yeah.
You can't trust nobody
in this f*cking world, man,
it's amazing.
You know what I'm saying?
I f*cking treated her nice,
I'm a nice person.
Hey, it happens
to a lot of guys, man.
What are you gonna do, man?
I wish I had somebody
to f*cking guide me,
what the right thing to do
is right now, you know?
But there are a lot of pretty
girls out there, man, come on.
You gotta get your mind off it,
you gotta go out, man.
Yo, let me tell you something,
all right?
There is a lot of girls
out there, all right?
You know, I don't know--
I'm not saying
I'm good looking or anything.
Maybe I'm a-- you know,
you know, you're a guy.
I don't want you
evaluating me, all right?
Yeah.
But you know,
I'm just very, very lucky
to be with a f*cking
hot girl like this,
pretty girl
like that, all right?
Oh, man, I don't know
if she's with a guy,
I don't know
what the reaction will be
if she's with a guy
or with her friend.
I mean, I don't know what
the f*ck is gonna happen, man.
You don't wanna do nothing,
'cause you wanna see
your kid, man.
You don't wanna
jeopardize that.
Go away for like a weekend,
or week or something, man.
Get your mind off it, man,
grab a friend or something
and go on somewhere,
I don't know.
All these f*cking years,
man, leading me on.
Don't-- don't get
bent out of shape.
Whatever, man, don't let
a woman ruin your life, man.
You don't wanna get
in trouble like that, man.
Yo, make a left over here.
You know where
Omonia is, man?
Yeah, it's over there...
At the light,
make another left
and just go down the block.
I don't want you
to be in the front,
just in case, you know...
Oh, all right.
Just in case I have
to f*cking like, aw, man.
I'm gonna break some f*cking
b*tch's head, man,
I swear to God.
Come on, as*h*le.
[horn honking]
♪♪
driver:
How you doing tonight?
Not so good, huh?
I'll be better tomorrow.
You sure?
Yeah.
When you get home,
you gonna call him?
No.
How come?
No, I'm not gonna call him.
He's got a great body.
I could see
that muscle shirt.
Well, it's not
the most important thing.
Well, it doesn't hurt.
No, it helps, true.
What else?
He must be something
or you wouldn't
be with him.
I was with him
for three years, but...
And this is it,
tonight's splitsville?
No, it's been splitsville
for a while,
for a couple of months.
You're not gonna
give him another shot?
No.
Was it around
another woman?
Yeah.
Uh-oh.
I caught them together.
Oh no!
Yeah.
Oh.
What did he do?
Um... well, I actually just--
I saw them through the window.
Where?
Through the fire escape.
You were on
the fire escape?
Well, I was on his roof,
because I went over to his house
one night unexpectedly
and I heard voices.
And then I went up
on his roof and...
Ohh.
and I went down
the fire escape
and I saw them.
Oh my goodness.
So, I didn't wanna walk in
and I didn't wanna create
a really ugly situation.
Did you watch?
I mean, I watched,
but I didn't, like,
watch because I wanted to.
I was just really
in such a shock.
Yeah, huh?
I was paralyzed,
I wasn't able to move,
talk or do anything.
Oh, that's terrible.
It's such an awful
experience.
Yeah.
You know, like,
I always thought
that this is what happens
to other people you know?
Right.
I hear my friends
tell me stories,
and... and I'm always like, oh,
that would never happen to me.
So you had the key
to his place?
Yeah.
And what happened?
You called him
and he didn't answer?
He didn't-- no,
he didn't pick up the phone.
And I thought
it was so strange,
because he usually calls me
before he goes to sleep,
or I call him.
And I knew that
he would be at home.
It was-- that was very stupid
of him if he wanted to hide it.
What-- what time was it?
Uh-huh?
And then, um,
around 12:30,
I was at home
and I called him,
and I was like,
"Where have you been?"
And he's like, "Oh, you know."
He's like, "I fell asleep."
And he's like, "I went out
to get a chocolate bar,"
and I was like, yeah,
a chocolate bar is--
is good after sex.
What'd he say?
And, um...
and he's like,
"What are you talking about?"
And I was like, "Nothing."
I'm like, "I just, you know,
I just know that you eat
chocolate after sex, it's good."
Ohhh.
And then he started crying,
and he was like, "I feel
like something's wrong."
And I was like,
"No, nothing's wrong."
So, he knew
you had busted him.
I said,
"Do me a favor."
I said, "When you go to sleep,"
I was like
"think of one thing."
And he was like, "What?"
I was like,
"Ask yourself a question.
"What kind of a human being
are you, and how did you become
to be somebody that
you hated all along?"
You know, 'cause he always
hated, you know,
guys or girls who cheat,
and he always had a--
he always like--
he never trusted me.
Whenever I went out, like,
it was always such a big deal.
"Did you get a phone number?
Did somebody try
to pick you up?"
So, let me get this straight.
You went up to the roof
and climbed down
the fire escape?
Yes!
Isn't that risking your life?
No, I mean,
it's not a really--
you know, it's a safe roof
and stuff.
[chuckles]
It wasn't all that bad.
How long
did you stay there?
Until they were over.
What were you feeling--
I wanted to see if he was--
if he was using
a condom at least.
Uh-huh, was he?
Yeah.
My God, what-- what must
have been going on for you
when you were watching him?
I have no idea, I mean,
I was just in a shock.
I couldn't move.
I just hate him.
So what--
He's an as*h*le.
What made you decide
to give him another chance?
I didn't give him
another chance,
he just wanted to talk to me.
Oh, I see.
Just give me back a five.
What-- what'd he say when you
tried to talk to him about it?
Oh, just crying and
"I'm sorry, it was a mistake,
and I'll never do it again,"
and all that other crap.
Uh-huh, and what
did you say?
I said, "Spare me all that."
I said, "Once a cheat,
always a cheat."
What'd he say?
He said, "That's not true.
People are entitled
to mistakes."
Did you know the person
he was with?
It's the secretary
from his job.
[gasps]
She was a 21-year-old
who-- who had
a three-year-old kid.
Ohh.
No college education,
no life, nothing.
I was like, at least
if you'd cheated on--
you know, on me with somebody
who was a lot better than I am.
And like, you know,
there's like...
[scoffs]
I cannot believe
that he chose to cheat on me
with, like, such a bimbo.
Well, who would you want
him to cheat on you with?
Somebody who was
at least better than I!
Oh, where would he find--
You know,
then I wouldn't mind.
Somebody who was more beautiful
or more-- they're smarter,
with you know,
better career,
better education,
who earns more money,
but not with a three-year-old
kid ever since she was 18.
♪♪
So where park?
Between what?
Between Winthrop
and Clarkson.
You look so happy!
Yeah.
[laughing]
I'm always happy.
You're always happy?
Yeah.
What's kept you so happy?
I don't know,
just going, I guess.
[laughing]
Taking care of myself.
That's have a lot
to do with it.
You married and everything?
I've been married,
my husband's dead.
Oh, your husband dead?
Yeah, but I'm with
someone else though.
Oh, you're with
someone else?
Mm-hmm.
[laughs]
Nice Jamaican guy.
Really?
Yeah.
How long ago, I mean,
since you've been with him?
Uh... 15 years.
You've been with him
for 15 years?
Uh-huh.
Wow.
Can't get rid of him
to save my life.
[laughs]
What happened?
Tell me.
Just, I'm nice to him
and he's nice to me,
that's all.
How 'bout, you don't
have any kids together?
No, I have one
little grandchild.
One little grandchild?
Yeah, she's with me.
My daughter's grown though,
she live by herself.
And I have the grand--
little grand-- her grandchild.
Oh.
Mm-hmm.
And she's eight years old.
Her mother got k*lled
about two years ago.
How did her mother
get k*lled?
Of-- oh, uh, Washington Avenue
and Franklin
and St. John,
you know where it is?
Yeah.
Somebody...
she wore a lot of jewelry,
and some guy shot her
and took all the jewelry stuff
off her hands.
Uh-huh?
And shot her
twice in the head.
Man, and I'm telling you,
it was real--
one-- that was the saddest
thing in the world.
It real-- when I got
a call that night
that Juanita had passed away,
had got k*lled,
oh me, oh my.
And I went out
like lightning.
And then, the funeral
was that Wednesday,
I-- I went out again.
They hold up the funeral parlor
for about an hour
before they could
get me to come through.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah, very sad.
I often think
about her now.
They caught the guy though.
Somebody turned him in.
Oh, oh, so they find
the guy that did it?
Yeah, they found him.
So, did you see
the k*ller?
The guy that k*lled
your daughter?
Yeah, we went to the trial.
So, um, where is the guy?
He's in-- in prison.
I think he got life time.
Life time?
Yeah.
What type of work
she used to do?
She, uh, was working
in the school,
and she was going
to college too.
Mm-hmm.
And then in-- in the evening,
she would work.
She didn't bother nobody,
was a very good child.
And a pretty gal.
Like you,
because you're pretty too.
[chuckles]
How old is she
when she got k*lled?
She was, uh, about 18.
Oh my God.
Mm-hmm, 18.
when she got k*lled?
Uh-huh.
Wow, that's the worst thing.
Yes, it is,
it were that.
'Cause when I went down there
and seen her laying
in the middle
of the street and--
Oh, you went down there
that night?
Yeah, my son-in-law
called me,
'cause somebody
had called my son-in-law.
Uh-huh.
So, my son-in-law said,
"Oh, my God, my daughter."
So then, he called me
and we-- me and my daughter,
she was living with me then...
Uh-huh?
we grabbed a taxi and we went
straight on down there.
And when we got down there,
they had her
out in the middle of the street,
and the cops was there,
and they had
a sheet over her.
And then I just fell
out in the street and--
go on up, I'm on
this side up here.
Uh-huh. You fell out
on the street when you see?
I fell out, yeah,
man, we both fell out.
Me and her both.
My daughter, she fainted.
Yeah, she fainted
in the street.
Oh my God.
Yeah, been a sad thing...
I mean, I'm so glad
you survive.
See you looking
so nice and strong,
I would never think
such a thing
would happen to your life?
Yeah.
I never will forget that,
that'll be...
that'll be with me
for a while until I die.
♪♪
I had a boyfriend,
but he left me
for somebody else.
He left you
for someone else?
For somebody else, mm-hmm.
Why?
What'd you do?
Because-- no,
I didn't do nothing.
I treated him like
he was the best thing--
You give him
everything he wanted?
Everything.
Everything.
Everything.
I used to-- I can't name
not even one thing
that he paid, because he never
paid me for nothing.
I used to take him out.
You know, he was 17,
he was real nice, you know,
but he didn't had a job.
So, so I understood that.
But... I don't know,
after a year and a half,
I guess, you know,
we weren't together anymore.
So... so now, who--
who you going with now?
Nobody.
So you're all alone?
Uh-huh.
Are you working
the street?
Sometimes.
If I really need to.
I got a--
I got a job now.
Oh, you got a job now?
Yeah, I'm work
in Edelweiss
That's where
I dance topless.
Oh, so you're dancing
topless now,
so you're making some bucks.
And I do, um,
I imitate Mariah Carey
in Sally's.
Let-- let me hear
a little something,
just a little something.
No, I don't-- I don't--
I don't, like...
sing like her.
I, you know, a lot of people
tell me I look like her.
But I used to have
lighter brown hair, you know?
My hair color was like hers,
but I dyed it,
like, two days ago.
Huh.
I gotta ask you
on question.
Mm-hmm?
I mean, don't be offended,
I mean, I'm a straight sh**ter.
Mm-hmm.
You know, around there,
there's a lot of transsexuals,
you know, the whole bit.
Uh-huh?
First of all,
you gotta tell me,
are you a guy or a girl?
I mean, you look like a girl,
but you know,
I mean, you're pretty.
I'm both in one.
Oh, so you're-- you're a guy,
but you're a girl.
I'm a transsexual.
Okay.
What-- what is that exactly?
You know, I mean,
if you had to describe it?
What is that exactly?
Yeah, no.
Um... I consider transsexuals,
like, the most intelligent
people in the world,
because, like,
we used to be boys at first,
so we know what boys want.
And now, we're women,
and we know what women want.
We know what...
what our two sides,
you understand?
If, like, somebody...
[horn honking]
...has a friend
for transsexual,
they could get so--
such good advice, you know,
because they've been
through everything, you know?
It's not really easy
to be a transsexual.
It's very, very hard.
You realize
what a guy wants,
and you could give it to him,
you know, what a real guy wants.
You also realize--
I know where
it tickles him the best.
I'll tell ya,
you're sounding good.
[chuckles]
Wait a minute.
Slap myself.
I can speak for my boyfriend,
my ex-boyfriend.
Go ahead.
I can speak for him.
And it wasn't nothing
like it was just,
I wanted to have sex with him.
It was something that we liked
in each other, you know?
But he didn't knew at first.
He did not know.
Because you know,
I can fake my voice,
you understand
what I'm saying?
If I like a boy or something,
I will fake it,
because I don't want him
to know my business at first,
you understand?
I got you.
Um...
[chuckles]
He doesn't like d*ck,
you know?
He don't like d*ck.
He doesn't like
that side of me.
Okay.
He likes the woman side.
You know, he doesn't like
pee-pee or nothing like that.
Okay.
You know what I'm saying?
He likes me because that--
what he saw was, you know,
what he saw was a girl
at the first time,
you understand what I'm saying?
He saw a real pretty girl,
and I was everything
that he wanted
in a woman, you know?
But he found out,
he got depressed.
He freaked out.
You know, he never
hit me or nothing.
But he told me, you know,
"We're not gonna be together,"
blah, blah, blah.
But we started calling
each other and going out,
and blah, blah, blah,
so you know,
he liked it.
Does he love you?
He liked me for me,
you understand?
I gotcha.
Because he fell in love
with me as a girl.
Right, he loved you.
You know what I'm saying?
And he liked me also.
I think that one
I hit the jackpot.
But I told him,
he freaked out,
but you know, he said that
he's not gonna let
what I got down there
come between us, you know?
Us being together.
You won't take
the operation, will you?
Huh?
Would you take the operation?
Yes.
You would?
Definitely.
That's my struggle, baby.
Struggling there.
No.
It's really frustrating.
It's really, really, really...
How hard are you working
for this operation?
Are you trying
to raise money or what?
Well, um, I told my mother
that I was scared to.
My grandma, they're--
I have problems with my mother.
She doesn't wanna see me,
it's been three years
since I haven't
seen my mother.
She knows?
Three years.
She knows.
She knows.
Mm-hmm.
She knows.
They threw me out,
they really rejected me.
They showed me that
they really don't care about me,
because if they would have
cared about me,
first of all, they wouldn't let
me down like that, you know,
regardless, you know?
I understand.
I didn't have a piece--
they know that I didn't have
a place to go,
a piece of bread to eat.
You understand
what I'm saying?
They're turning their back
on you, that's what you said.
They don't care.
I was hustling in the street
for two years already, okay?
Because of my mother.
I don't put
all the blame on her,
but I put part of the blame
for being so naive
and so stupid
and not accept me.
Is there any chance
in your life
you think you could ever
make amends with your family?
Look it... I wish.
That's, like...
True.
A lot of times, I cry.
Many times, and I still do
to this day,
because I miss my mother.
I miss my grandmother,
I miss my father,
I miss everybody,
every single body,
because I have to give them up
for my way of being.
Some people are born,
you know, get born...
you know, like,
with dicks and stuff,
like straight guys...
But, um...
if you don't
feel comfortable
about the way you are,
you have the right,
you have every right
to be what you wanna be.
♪ Oh, when you're smiling ♪
♪ When you're smiling ♪
I got a little surprise,
I'm doing a documentary for HBO.
We drive around
for 30 nights.
He's a d*ck.
♪ [scatting]
When you laughing ♪
You don't have to do--
make lies up, all right?
No, no, seriously.
Listen, I'm not joking.
What?!
I'm gonna f*cking k*ll you.
Yeah, that's what
I'm supposed to--
You're gonna be
my next victim.
♪♪
No way, this is on camera
or something?
Uh, yeah, sure.
No, no, no, you can't.
You can't do this.
Is this like that
taxi stories on HBO and stuff?
Yeah, that's
exactly
what it is.
You gotta be kidding me.
No, this is a camera
up here.
No, it's not!
Yeah, look.
It's here.
Are you serious?!
Oh my God!
I can't believe I told you
this whole entire thing.
Well, it's fascinating.
♪ Babe, when you're smiling ♪
You ever seen
the show on HBO?
Yeah, I seen it, man.
You kidding me?
"You're on Candid Camera!"
You're f*cking around, right?
♪♪
♪ Ahh! ♪♪
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01x03 - Taxicab Confessions: America Undercover Part 3
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When passengers enter the cab, they are recorded with several small cameras hidden in the taxi.
When passengers enter the cab, they are recorded with several small cameras hidden in the taxi.