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- Hey, how are you?
- Hello.
- I'm going to Johnny Pumps.
- So how was
your night tonight?
- It was good so far.
My boyfriend's been calling me
for an hour to meet him,
and I was like, I'm busy
with everybody at work.
- So what is
your boyfriend like?
- He thinks he's the sh*t
plus a bag of chips.
- [laughs]
- Which he is, but--
he's very good-looking.
He's good in every way,
I guess.
Especially the sex is great.
- So how great is it?
- Oh, my God.
I would never cheat
on him, ever.
[laughs]
Let's just put it that way.
He's got me wrapped
around his fingers.
- Uh-huh.
[laughter]
- I was with my last
boyfriend for 10 years.
And now I'm with him for two.
So he was just like, I don't
know, a complete freak.
My other boyfriend was
a complete, like--
[blows raspberry]
Dud.
- So why the hell did you stay
with a dud for 10 years?
- He was my first
boyfriend, and I
really didn't know better.
Like, I didn't know,
like, anything else.
Now that you have something to
compare it to, it's like, oh,
my God, how the f*ck did
I do that for 10 years?
- So how was it when you
slept with your new papi?
- Mm.
I told him, I said,
where the f*ck
are you putting that thing?
You're not putting it in me.
That's OK.
- What?
- The first time I, like--
he thought I was a virgin.
That's how small my
ex-boyfriend was.
[laughter]
He was like, Jay,
did you have sex?
I'm like, yeah.
He's like, oh, my God.
I was like, yeah.
But I was like, but it don't
count because you're huge.
So f*cking horse p*nis, though.
- So how huge are
we talking about?
- I don't know.
I always describe
everybody from, like,
my elbow to my wrist.
So I don't know.
He's like--
[laughter]
I swear to God,
I was scared to death.
It took me like six
months to get used
to having sex with this guy.
[laughter]
I used to cry.
Like, I would literally
be there, and, like,
tears would be running down my
eyes and like, honey, I can't.
I can't.
He's like, you can take it.
I'm like, no, I'm gonna die.
You're gonna split me in half.
Now my boyfriend's like-- he's
like, you're a f*cking nymph.
I'm like, I'm sorry.
I was like, I haven't had
sex like my whole life,
like real sex.
- [laughs]
[cell phone ringing]
- Hello?
I'm in the car.
You're coming out, right?
Are you coming out?
You're paying for it.
All right.
Come inside.
- [speaking Spanish]
- Bueno, bueno.
- I told her you were
way too good in bed,
so she knows too much.
[laughter]
- Holy sh*t.
Bro, she took you
from there to here.
- I know, but don't worry.
- That's from there to here.
- Honey, I do love you.
Just for you.
- Get off, get off.
- Not just your body parts.
- Yeah, all right.
[laughter]
- Oh, boy.
Can you feel how sweaty I am?
Feel my hair.
It's disgusting.
We were dancing like a
bunch of f*cking maniacs.
- Sean called me back to
tell me what was happening.
- That's what I told--
I told Ray.
I said, Ray, my boyfriend
has, like, friends here.
They're watching me.
- Sean called me back to tell
me exactly what you were doing.
- Oh, really?
- Yes.
- What was I doing?
- Nothing bad.
- OK, so kiss my a*s.
Don't f*cking spy on me.
- I'm not spying.
- I'm not spying on you.
- I wasn't spying.
- Yeah, don't start your sh*t
because I'll have to f*cking
kick your a*s.
You won't get laid
for like a month.
What?
- I wasn't spying.
- Good.
Don't, because I don't
f*cking do nothing.
He's insecure.
- I'm not insecure.
- Yes, he is.
- Of what?
- I don't know.
You have the f*cking
biggest d*ck I've ever seen.
I don't know what
the f*ck you're doing.
- She's not leaving.
She's not going anywhere.
She loves--
- If there's any one
reason in the world
I won't leave,
just simply because of that.
- You know what, though?
The way she feels,
I feel the same.
- So are you guys getting
married anytime soon?
- No.
- Not yet.
- All my friends,
honestly, are married,
which makes me want to vomit.
So, like, I have no
more friends anymore.
- I want to be able to provide.
I want to have, God willing,
if I have 3, 4, 5, 6 kids,
I want to be able--
- Six kids?
- If I had that many kids, I--
- I hope we're adopting
because I'm not having six
kids out of this f*cking body.
I don't believe
in getting knocked up,
especially not at 24 years old.
If I get knocked up,
that's f*cking Ret*rded.
Like, those girls.
I didn't plan it.
You didn't plan it? Really?
You're f*cking 25 years old,
and you don't know
what the f*ck to do?
What, are you kidding me?
- So is she using
birth control?
- No.
- No.
Honestly, I was in
a relationship for 10 years,
and I never had
that scare once.
So I'm hoping that it
doesn't happen ever
for, like, until I'm ready.
Like, God, please,
just until I'm ready.
I don't know if I'm ever
gonna be ready because you're
never really ready
for a baby, but just
don't ever let that happen.
- Uh-huh.
- Yeah.
I spent $100 today on just
f*cking Lancome skincare
sh*t that he's probably gonna
use because he's like a girl.
- And I have an obsession
with, like, women's
smells, like Bath and Body.
- And I bought Gap--
- Bed Bath & Beyond.
- I bought Gap today.
- Victoria's Secret.
- Do you smell it?
- I love it.
- Honey, you like it, right?
It smells awesome.
Oh, my God.
- Yeah, it does smell great.
- Doesn't it smell good?
- I've been smelling
my arm all day.
Over here, over
here, over here.
- Oh, are we gonna k*ll
her with the smell?
Oh, my God.
- She'll love it.
- It's light, though.
It smells good.
I was gonna buy more,
but I didn't.
- Do you love
the way she smells?
- He likes
to smell like a girl.
- I personally buy all
these women products.
- When I went to his
apartment the first night,
all I seen was
Victoria's Secret body sprays.
I'm like,
how many f*cking girls
do you have in your house?
- I use women--
- He's like, those are mine.
I'm like, what?
- Anybody will tell you,
that smell just--
it's clean.
It's attractive.
I like to wear it because,
yo, what the f*ck?
I'm a guy.
When a girl walks past me and
leaves that smell, I love it.
So I figure as a guy,
when I walk past
and I leave that smell--
- Yeah, a girl?
That means any girl.
- --it's automatically
attractive.
It's clean.
It's-- women always smell
better than men, always.
Even a guy wearing cologne.
A woman always smells
fresh and clean.
- Some women are
very clean, and then
some are just like, oh, yeah.
- I just think it's
a great thing when you can
walk past somebody and
just leave that aroma that
makes them go, what the f*ck?
And you'll look and go,
f*ck, that was a guy.
- Not if you really
know what women do.
It's pretty gross.
Women are disgusting.
I mean, some girls
have told me stuff.
They wear underwear
for like five days straight.
- Disgusting.
- What?
- I can't imagine.
- No, I'm telling you.
- No offense.
I mean, both of
youse are woman,
but a girl wearing the same
underwear for five days?
I'm sorry.
- That sh*t is stinking.
- That's some smelly p*ssy.
- That is disgusting.
Honey, shut up.
- f*ck that.
Basic English.
That's some smelly p*ssy.
- It is.
It's gross, God.
- Yeah.
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- Hello.
- Hey.
- Thank you so much.
- Anytime.
Where are you guys coming from?
- I just got a huge
tattoo on my back.
Look.
- Black Widow.
- Yeah.
- How long did it
take to get that done?
- Three hours.
- Three hours?
- Yeah.
I sat through the whole thing.
I'm a glutton for punishment.
I like pain.
- You like pain?
- Mm-hmm.
- What does that mean,
Black Widow?
- That's my stage name.
- That's your stage name?
- Yes.
- What do you do?
- I do promotions,
modeling, and fetish.
BDSM dominatrix.
- Oh.
Really?
OK.
- One time, because my ex-wife
is also my submissive--
- Your submissive?
- Yeah.
- What's that?
- Somebody who's completely
subservient to me.
They do whatever I say.
- So what happens when
they don't do what you say?
- I beat them
with a bamboo stick.
- And how do you
do the beatings?
- They're cuffed.
They're up against the dresser.
They're with their legs open,
and I beat them from their butt
all the way down.
It doesn't take long to get
them to drop and collapse.
- Wow.
Wait, you do it until
they drop and collapse?
- I hit them.
Like the fifth hit, they drop.
The fifth or the sixth hit.
- That's amazing.
So, I mean, how did you
first get into this?
Like, the whole scene?
- I've been daydreaming about
tying women up and beating them
and everything for fun
for sexual arousal
since I was about eight.
- Eight?
- Yes.
- Wow.
- Oh, my God.
- Do you remember your
first memory of that?
- Yeah, it was--
I had a four-post bed,
and I had the female
tied to the four-post bed.
I would take different
shaped phalluses
and just shove it in her.
- That's pretty young
to be thinking
about something like that.
- Very young.
I went through a lot
when I was young.
- You went through a lot
when you were young?
- Mm-hmm.
I already knew about sex
by the time I was four.
- Four?
Were you sexually abused?
- Yes.
- And these were relatives?
- Relatives, babysitters,
friends, cousins.
I mean, you name it.
- Wow.
Who let all of this happen?
- My mother.
- She knew about all of this?
- Mm-hmm.
- Did you confront
her ever about it?
- Yep.
She told me pretty much
to go f*ck myself
and went back
to doing her drugs.
She told me that I didn't
want my father to go to jail.
That was her way of
guilting me into doing
it because I'm a daddy's girl.
- But why would this keep him
from going to jail anyway?
- She said that he would go
and k*ll the people that
were doing it, and they
would put him in jail for it,
for k*lling them.
- So your father had no idea
what was going on?
- Not until I turned 21.
- And then you told him?
What did he say?
He flipped out.
We both went on a rampage.
He took care two
of the guys, and I
took care of two of the girls.
- What do you mean,
took care of them?
- Beat the living
sh*t out of them.
- Are you serious?
- Mm-hmm.
And then one of them died
of a heart attack
when my father confronted him.
- What?
- And I was right there.
As soon as that man turned
around and looked at his wife
and looked at his kids,
that was it.
- That was it?
- That man, all of a sudden,
started grabbing his chest,
and that was it.
He died.
I spit on him
and walked upstairs.
- So, I mean, what did he do
to you in particular, this guy
that you confronted--
- Everything.
- --with the heart attack?
And you were a kid at the time?
- I was four.
- You were four?
- He was the one
that started it.
- Wow.
- I remember begging him to
do it to my doll, not to me.
- To have sex with your doll?
- Yeah, like, I remember
begging him a lot to just
please not to do it to me.
My family disowned me.
So--
- Because of that?
- Yeah, because I
exposed the family
secret that everybody
in my family gets
r*ped by one or another.
And when my mother
started saying,
what are you-- what are you
doing, what are you doing,
I blew up her spot.
You remember, Mom?
Remember when you let
them sexually abuse me?
Remember when you would
let them r*pe me just
so you could get coked up?
- That is some
f*cked-up sh*t, dawg.
Wow.
So when did you start
practicing violent sex?
- Violent?
Oh, I've always loved it.
- Oh, you've always loved it?
- I-- I don't know what it is.
It's something about the pain.
Like, I tolerate a lot of pain.
I don't want somebody
to punch me in the face
while we're having sex.
You know what I'm saying?
Like, but I don't mind,
like, choking somebody
or somebody choking me.
And one time, I was fisted
so bad, I was bleeding.
- Who did that?
- My ex.
She was real good.
As a submissive, oh, my God,
she was amazing.
But once the sex got involved,
she started getting jealous.
And as my submissive,
you can't.
You have to separate the two,
and she couldn't.
- What did she say?
- She told me,
I'm in love with you.
That scared the sh*t out of me.
- Wow.
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- Hey.
- How are you?
- I'm good.
How are you?
- Hi.
- All right, man?
- Oi.
- Oi.
- How you doing?
- I'm cool, man.
- You are.
- We're going to the
New York Palace Hotel.
- New York Palace.
- Yeah, that's the one.
You know the score.
- So what's going on?
- We're on our honeymoon.
- You're on your honeymoon?
- Honeymoon.
- Yeah, we are.
- Wow.
- I know.
Can you believe we're married?
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
- How long you been married?
- Five days.
- Five days?
So have you consummated
your relationship yet?
- Many times.
- Yeah, yeah, with my wedding
dress on and off as well.
- So how did you meet him?
- We met-- I rented
a room in a shared house.
- Yeah.
- Carrie was just another
girl at that time.
- I was.
- You were.
That was it, wasn't it?
So--
- Yeah.
- --I suppose I had other
girls coming back to the house.
- Many, many girls.
Many girls.
A lot of girls.
He was so horrible to me.
I can't tell you.
I can't tell you how horrible.
You were vile to me.
You were. You were.
- So what was your
first time with him like
when you guys got together?
- Oh, my God.
[laughter]
- Carrie fell asleep.
- Oh, my God.
- So--
- You fell asleep?
- Yeah, she did, yeah.
- Oh, no, honey.
- It was like--
it was like having
sex with a corpse.
Seriously, I could have
gone to the local mortuary.
- We used to do lots
of different things.
Oh, my God.
- Yeah, but you were,
like, asleep, weren't you?
No, she fell asleep.
- The first time.
- She fell asleep
halfway through.
We don't ever class
that as our first time.
- No, we don't.
We do not.
- Why?
- 'Cause that's horrible.
- I know, but you did
fall asleep, didn't you?
- I know I did, but that's
just what happened.
You should feel bad for it,
though, really.
- Why?
- You couldn't keep me awake.
- So when she fell asleep,
what did you do?
What happened?
- I just carried on.
I'm a man.
You've got to give me that.
Come on.
I'm a man, aren't I?
So-- and Carrie was like--
[snores]
- Oh, thank you.
He's a naughty boy, really.
He looks good,
but he is a naughty boy.
- How naughty?
- Ooh.
Well, on our wedding night--
- I don't know.
Yeah, well, that was--
- It was sort of
hotel room sex.
So you don't treat a hotel like
you do your own house, do you?
When you live
in your own house,
it's like, well,
there's a sofa.
I'm not gonna have sex on the
sofa because it's the sofa.
But in a hotel room,
everything's a perch, isn't it?
- Whoa.
- In fact, we had the
windows open, the curtains.
- Because he like--
you like to do that, don't you?
- I do, yeah,
because I just want--
I just like
someone's gonna look in,
and they're either
gonna have a wank,
or they're gonna think, sh*t,
man, I'm jealous of that.
Or they're gonna
shut the curtains
because they're God-loving
Christians or whatever.
I don't know.
I think last night
was on a par.
- With?
- The wedding night.
- Really?
- Oh, baby.
- It was actually
quite original sex
last night, wasn't it?
- We did do one that we haven't
done for quite a while.
- Yeah, what was that?
- You know, the--
you know, the--
- Oh, 69?
- Yeah, but that was lush
last night when we did that.
- It was lush?
- Yeah, it was lush.
But it was kind of like,
yes, that's not
the best angle to view me.
[laughs]
- I suppose
for a man-- you know,
a man, it's quite
all right because you
know what that looks like.
But for a girl,
you know, all they see
is a man's ba*ls right there.
- Oh, no, but for a boy--
- Their ba*ls and their a*s.
- I know, but for a boy,
it's-- you know, 69, it's--
it can't be much pleasant.
- I think a woman's
genitalia is much
more attractive than a man's.
- Do you enjoy
going down on her?
- Yeah, I do, actually.
- He just doesn't
do it very often.
- But-- well, I start
my own business,
so I'm very busy all the time.
And when you've got work
on your mind all the time,
it's, you know?
It can be very distracting,
but that's a poor excuse.
But you could do it to
me more often as well.
- I'm openly open to do that,
but you don't want me to.
- Do you ever just do it
and then I say, no, no, no, no?
- No, you're not open
to it, though, baby.
- No, because I--
I'm very closed.
- You are?
- Yeah.
- Why? Why are you closed?
- Work is, like, on
my mind all the time.
- He's very stressed.
- I am very--
I'm very stressed.
- This is the only time I've
had him to myself since--
pretty much since I've
known you, actually.
- Yeah, well, I will
chill out once--
once my empire has grown.
- I know, but just us,
just us, us,
because, honestly,
I have so loved
just having you to myself.
- But you've got
me to yourself.
- No, I haven't.
I haven't got--
- You have for the
next like 10 days.
- Yeah.
- And then I go back to work.
- Exactly.
And now we need to spend
time together just us,
you know what I mean?
- Ladies and gentlemen,
real loud, real stiff,
real hard, 1, 2, 3!
- Bingo!
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some excitement.
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Bingo!
- Hi.
- Hi.
- How you doing?
- Washi--
good, how are you?
- Fine, thank you.
- Washington Street
and Rector Street.
- So how was your night?
- It's been pretty good.
- Really?
- Yeah.
- What did you do?
- I went to Benny's
in the West Village,
and then I went
to Cafeteria right there.
- So how was Benny's?
- Oh, Benny's was
awesome, as usual.
Have you ever been to Benny's?
- No.
- Benny's is the sh*t.
I don't like places
like Cafeteria
because that's too, like, g*y.
- But what does too g*y mean?
- There's too many,
Like, Manhattan, like,
queeny boys there.
- Queeny boys?
They're too feminine?
- Yeah.
- Wow.
- I like Brooklyn boys.
I like tattooed out and, like--
I like, like, Black boys
and, like, Spanish boys.
And they're like, all,
like, white queens who
think they're so good-looking.
- So do you like,
like, buff guys?
- Hell, yeah.
- [laughs]
So how come you're not buff,
if that's what you like?
- I can't.
- Why?
- Because I'm a model.
- Oh, you're a model?
- Yeah, I can't be both.
So I'm the face--
you know Hugo Boss?
- Uh-huh.
- I'm the face of Hugo Boss.
- Really?
- And they--
they told me I need
to lose some weight, so I need
to lose a little more weight.
- Wow.
Why do they want you
to lose more weight?
- I have to lose 10 pounds.
- Oh, my God.
They want you to
look emaciated?
- I guess so.
- Wow.
So what's it like being
the face of something?
- It's really weird
because, like,
when I go to London, like,
everyone recognizes me,
and they want to take
pictures and sh*t.
But, like, I'm just like, I'm
a normal farm boy from Indiana.
Like, I just moved here
a year ago from Indiana.
- Oh, really?
- Yeah.
- What were you
doing on the farm?
- We had dairy cow.
We had some pigs.
Not very many, though,
but we had a lot of crop,
like soybeans and corn.
- That's interesting.
A year ago, you were taking
care of cows and pigs?
- Yep, and now I'm, like,
the face of Hugo Boss.
It's really weird.
- How did that happen?
- I was walking on the
street, and someone
recruited me for their agency.
And then they
liked me because I
was, like,
an interesting face,
and they'd never
seen me before.
And so, yeah.
- Is it tough
to be g*y in Indiana?
- Oh, yeah.
- It is?
- Oh, yeah.
- People give you sh*t?
- Oh, yeah, all the time.
- What would they say?
- f*gg*t, blah, blah, blah.
Like, read me Bible
scriptures and stuff.
Yeah, it was mad crazy.
- Did they try
to intimidate you?
- Yeah, but I was still
homecoming and prom king.
People still liked me.
- Wow.
You were popular.
- I wasn't, like,
really that g*y.
Like, I was just, like, chill.
I still played three sports.
- Have you gone back home
to Indiana since you've
become the face of Hugo Boss?
- Once.
And so many people
asked me questions.
I'm like, yo,
chill the f*ck out.
Like, I'm just-- you're still--
I'm still your farm boy, like--
- They ask you questions,
and you tell them, chill out.
- I'm like, chill the f*ck out.
Like, I don't give a sh*t.
- How do they treat you?
- Like a celebrity.
So, Dillon, I heard
you were in "Vogue"
for the month of June and July
and August, and I'm like, yeah.
Like, could you sign my--
I'm like, no, like,
f*ck off, dude.
Like, we were chill
friends like a year ago,
and now you want me
to sign your magazine
so you can sell it on eBay?
Like, no.
That's stupid, right?
- It's kind of like they--
they're proud of you in a way.
But if they want to sell your
signature, then that's crazy.
- How stupid is that?
- So you have a boyfriend now?
- No, I'm single.
- Why?
- Because nobody likes me.
- Come on.
- No.
Because I won't sleep
with anyone because I'm
such a prude.
Like, I'm not gonna sleep
with you just because I'm
going on a date with you.
And I'm-- especially
from the Midwest, like,
I don't just sleep with
people just because I'm going
on a date with them.
Like, f*ck that.
- What happens when
you go on a date
and you don't put out
after the first night?
- They're not interested.
- Wow.
- And that's stupid.
Guys think I'm a sl*t
because I'm a flirt.
I'm like, no,
I'm not a sl*t at all.
I'm just, like,
a chill guy who wants
to meet someone that's
genuine and, like, f*cking
cool as hell.
Like, I love football.
Like, I love any sport.
And, like, everyone's like,
I'm so into fashion, da-da-da.
I'm like, you're
a f*cking f*gg*t.
Like, I'm not that
big of a h*m*.
Like, I don't like the typical,
like, g*y, like, New York
sh*t, like fashion and,
like, going to Chelsea Pier
all the time.
Like, I'm a Brooklyn boy.
- So what was-- who was the
first Brooklyn boy you met?
- His name was Chase.
- Really? What was he like?
- He was, like, all
tattoos, like, artsy
and, like, chill and cool.
- And buff?
- Yeah.
- Did you date him?
- Yeah.
- You did?
- Yeah.
- Did you sleep with
him on the first date?
- No!
No.
- So what number date
did you sleep with him?
- I didn't sleep with him
because we didn't get together.
- Ever?
- Nope.
- But you really liked him?
- Yeah.
- But you said you also
like Black guys, huh?
- I love Black guys.
- Have you ever had
a Black boyfriend?
- Those are the only
boyfriends that I've had.
- Oh, really?
- Yeah.
- [laughs]
So what do you think
of people in fashion, then?
- They all think
they're so important,
and they all think they're
so cool, and they're not.
I'm like, really,
like, you're stupid.
Like, you think
you're that cool?
You're not.
But, like, I'm going to
school to be an engineer.
- Oh, really?
- Yeah, no, I'm not gonna be a
model for the rest of my life.
I'm going to school
to be an engineer.
- Great.
- Yeah.
Like, I don't want to f*ck
around with, like, the modeling
industry or, like,
the fashion industry
because it's so stupid.
People, like, expecting
me to, like, sleep
with them because
I'm a model, and they
think models are sluts.
And I'm like, nope, not a sl*t.
I'm not gonna sleep with you.
Get used to it.
- Did someone ever
approach you like that?
- Yeah, there's this creative
director who used to be like,
oh, sleep with me,
blah, blah, blah.
And I'm like, no,
I'm not gonna sleep with you.
Like, it's not gonna happen.
- Wow.
So when you told him that,
how did he treat you?
- I lost a lot of jobs.
- Oh, you did?
- Because of him, yeah.
- Did that piss you off?
- No, because I didn't care.
Because if people want
to book me because of I'm
a good model, that's fine.
But if people want to book
me because I'm gonna sleep
with them, that's bullshit.
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- All right, sweetheart.
Yeah, dude, I have--
I have a-- I have a card.
- Hi, girls.
- How are you?
All right, we have a issue.
We can't find our car,
so you're just gonna drive us
around till we find our car.
- OK.
Are you sure you want to pay
a cab just to go look around?
- Yeah.
These guys--
- Our shoes are k*lling us.
- No, no, it's not
even about the shoes.
I'm just scared.
I'd rather pay the
money than get r*ped.
- Are you scared?
- Yeah, no, these guys
had been following us,
and we told the cops, and
I'm not doing that to myself.
I'd rather pay the money,
and I don't care.
- No, no, I understand.
I understand.
- I have had a bad night.
- You seem like a little--
- We've had a crazy night.
- Yeah.
- Has it been crazy
the whole night?
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
- What happened in the club?
- Oh, no, my boyfriend left
me before we got in the club.
- Yeah.
- [laughs]
- He left you for good?
- No, because I
punched him in the face
and made his nose bleed.
- You punched him in the face?
- Yeah, because I thought he
was taking my friend's ID.
- Oh.
- Oh, my God.
- Oh, it's around here.
These are the apartment
buildings I was talking about.
OK, it's around here.
- So you made his nose bleed?
Oh, my God.
- Yeah, dude, I was
really, really--
I really love him.
He-- he really brings out
strong emotions really bad.
It's not a good thing.
Do you think I
should stay with him?
- No, not if he makes
you want to hit him.
- That's very true.
- What's he like, though?
Is he-- I mean, he has
to be nice sometimes.
- He's the sweetest
person in the world.
He loves me.
He really, really
cares about me.
So you want to know what it is?
He does things to upset me,
and I do things to upset him.
We're really childish.
We're immature.
- Oh, my God.
- And we haven't gotten past
that because our relationship
is only seven months in.
- Is that your car?
- No.
Yeah, maybe.
What kind of car is it?
Hell f*cking no,
that's not my car.
- But it's definitely
around here.
- It's around here?
- Definitely.
- So is he-- so is he good
in bed, though, at least?
- Yeah, I mean, I'm good.
[laughs]
You know what it is?
We really-- we really love
each other, so it's like,
really like, it's--
usually it's not empty sex.
That's all I can say.
I mean, yeah, I could
do without the sex
if, like, this sh*t's
gonna be happening.
I could f*cking go without sex.
I'd rather go without sex than
deal with this sh*t sometimes.
Let's just put it that way.
- Do you at least
get an orgasm?
- I don't know what orgasm is.
- Huh?
- I don't know
what an orgasm is.
- You don't?
- No.
- Really?
- I'm very inexperienced.
He was my first city boy.
- So you don't--
- Really?
- I know-- I know, like, what
an orgasm is, but not, like--
I don't know, like,
what an orgasm--
I've never, like,
shaken while you have sex.
Like, they say that
you shake and then come.
I've never shaken
and then come.
I've come while they've been
inside of me, like, doing it,
but that's just you
getting wet, isn't it?
I've never, like, shaken,
like, oh, my God.
- You don't have to shake,
but do you, like, cl*max?
- Yeah, it feels good.
I mean, I get off
to myself sometimes.
- Well, then, yeah,
I don't really shake.
I just-- but I know
when it is, though.
I can tell.
- But I don't know if
that means that it's
an orgasm, though, guys.
- It's like-- no, no, no, no.
- Uh-oh.
We both don't know
what an orgasm is.
- I thought I knew.
- No, I mean, come on.
- Do you feel a release?
- Yeah.
- A release?
- A release.
Do you feel, like, a release?
- Of fluids?
Yeah.
I mean, I'm getting
pretty saucy.
- Not just the fluids but--
- This is my car right here.
No, that's not it.
- What color is it?
- Black.
It's a black--
- OK, so we'll look for it.
So he's not, like, the--
the marrying material?
- He is. He is.
But I think he deserves
better than me.
- Why do you say that?
- I don't know.
I'm mean to him.
I'm really mean to him.
I don't want to make any
man that I marry bleed.
- [laughs]
- But you know what?
He always-- he always takes
me back with open arms.
- Really?
- Yeah.
It's never been a time
when he's like, no.
No matter what I do to him,
no matter what I say,
no matter what, he's
always like, I need you.
- So maybe he does want
to marry you one day.
- Aw.
- Aw.
- Is that my car right there?
- Where?
- Is it?
- No, that's it.
- Is it a Connecticut--
- No, that's a f*cking
New York license.
sh**t me in the face.
[laughs]
- What about you?
You have a boyfriend?
- Well, let's not
get started on me.
- Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.
Tell her, tell her, tell her.
- Because yeah,
the guy I fell in love with
moved to Israel.
- Oh, my God.
What was he like?
- He was, like,
perfect in every way.
- He was.
He's a good kid.
Dude, we--
- We only spent two months
together, but he was--
- Two months?
- Yeah, we only spent
two months together.
But, oh, I don't know.
I've just never met,
like, a guy like him.
- You fell?
- I mean, I don't fall
for guys in two months.
I really don't.
- They never did it.
They never had sex.
- You never did it?
- No.
- So he went back to Israel,
and you didn't get anything?
- No.
- She didn't want anything.
- No, but he--
I mean, we were
definitely intimate.
We just didn't get to have sex.
- They had oral sex.
- God, Mary.
- I don't give a f*ck.
- OK, we did everything but.
- You did everything but?
- Exactly. Exactly.
- Oh, my God.
- No, because it was-- it was--
- She's like, what?
- --it was my choice.
It was my choice.
Because after two months,
I'm not doing that yet.
- That's how you
find love, though.
If you can f*cking keep your
legs closed and look around,
you f*cking find some sh*t
that cares about you.
- Yes.
- Straight up.
- Yeah, Ross had to
f*cking wait a while.
I met him in November,
and he got it in like January.
He, like, r*ped me.
- Oh, my God.
The minute he got the-- like,
the, like, somewhat of an OK,
he r*ped me.
- Somewhat of an OK.
- Yeah, he was like,
f*ck this sh*t.
I loved every minute
of it, let me tell you.
[laughter]
- Oh, my goodness.
You think he'll come back?
- He's coming back to visit.
- So you think you guys will
hook up when he comes back?
- That's what I'm saying.
I'm telling her she
has to f*ck him.
I'm telling her.
I'm like, yo, if he's f*cking
flying from f*cking Israel,
you got to f*ck that sh*t.
- Yeah.
- You can't just f*cking
not f*ck that sh*t.
Yo, I f*cking drove--
I mean, flew to America
and I wasn't getting any,
I would not come
back ever again.
Yo, you should just give it
to him so he comes back again.
Yo, he'll marry you.
You'll be set for life.
And you love him.
That's a set deal.
- I know.
- That's a set deal,
Clarissa, seriously.
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♪ ♪
- So how's your night?
- My feet are k*lling me.
- Well, I like your boots.
- Oh, my God.
Dancing.
My feet are k*lling me.
- You were dancing?
- I guess with one guy.
I mean, it's not like I got
numbers or anything like that.
- No numbers?
- No, because we went late.
- So you don't
have a boyfriend?
- Right now, he's actually
not talking to me.
- Why?
- One of my girlfriends
brought two guys with her.
- Oh.
- Then so I'm
texting my boyfriend.
I'm like, my friend, Lorraine,
is trying to convince the guys
to take us over there.
He's like, guys?
What guys?
And then I said, yeah,
she's-- she's in his van.
Oh, you make me feel so secure.
You're with two guys and a van.
- Oh, my God.
- I'm like, you got to be
f*cking kidding me, right?
And then he texts me,
that's it.
It's over between us.
He was blowing up
my phone with texts.
Like-- like, just bugging out.
- But you were
trying to get to him.
- Yeah, he's crazy.
I don't know what the
hell's wrong with him.
He's never like this.
And then, look, he wrote,
"f*cking disrespectful."
- Mm.
- And I write, yo, I don't
need this sh*t right now.
If you want to act childish,
do it on your own account.
I'm going home.
Then he sends me a voice note.
- OK.
- What the f*ck
is wrong with you?
Yo, you're in a van
with two guys?
You driving around, chilling?
What the f*ck?
This is some
disrespectful sh*t.
Yo, really?
- Yo, he's heated.
Oh, sh*t.
[laughter]
- And I'm laughing because
it's just hilarious, you know?
And then he's never
act like that.
He was my boyfriend
when I was 14 years old.
- No way.
- Yeah.
And I was 14, and he was 18.
He was actually
my first boyfriend.
- Was he your
first-first, though?
- He was my first boyfriend.
- Your first--
- My first sexual lover, yeah.
- Oh, my God.
- So, like, I would
go to his house.
I would sleep over.
And my mom didn't know.
- She didn't know?
- So my mom found out
where I was staying,
and she called his
father because he
used to live with his father.
She's like, you know, my
daughter's only 14, da-da-da.
She blew my whole spot up.
- Hell yeah.
- And he told me,
you have to go home.
You're young.
You lied to me.
I could go to jail.
Yeah.
- Holy sh*t.
- So I went home, and I--
that's it.
I never seen him again,
ever, ever, ever.
Years pass by.
I got married, got kids.
- Yeah.
- So I went into Facebook,
and I started
looking at childhood friends,
and he came to my mind.
I wonder how he's doing.
So I put him up.
Boom, I find him.
- Get the f*ck out of here.
- So I write him a message.
I'm like, hey, I don't know
if you're gonna remember me,
but he's like,
here's my number.
We exchanged numbers, and we
called each other right away.
- Oh, my God.
- What are you doing later?
Let's have a drink.
The same day.
- The same day?
- But after spending that night
with him, talking with him,
I went home.
And then, like, every other--
like every other day,
we would see each other.
And we were spending
more time together.
- Yeah.
- So recently, like
three weeks ago,
I met another guy in Queens.
We meet these two
good-looking, hot dudes.
I mean, like, hot.
- God.
- Bodybuilders, like,
built, bald headed--
- Yes, yes, yes.
- Goatees.
- Love that.
- Gorgeous.
- Yes, yes.
- Really big dudes.
Guy is 6'2".
- Holy sh*t.
- And he weighs like 230.
He's f*cking hot.
He's something like out
of a dream, you know?
- Oh, my God.
- But you know guys
like that are never
gonna be serious with girls
because he got so many
chicks on his sh*t, you know?
- Yeah.
- So a week after knowing him,
I slept with him.
- Oh, sh*t.
- And it was f*cking great.
Oh, my God.
- What the hell?
What happened that night
when you were with him?
- The boyfriend,
he was texting me
and calling me and calling me.
I wasn't answering him.
- Oh, my God.
- And I didn't know how to.
- How-- yeah.
- Oh, my God.
I slept over at his house
the whole weekend, that guy.
- What was it like
with him, though?
- Oh, God.
- Girl, tell me.
- He's just great.
He's-- he's got
a beautiful body.
- Oh, my God.
- I've never seen
a man take off
their clothes in
front of me and not
be shy about their body.
- Well, pff.
- Seriously.
He'll walk around daytime
in, like, nothing.
He's got such a nice a*s.
He's got a nice d*ck.
- Oh, my God.
- His, like,
everything is so nice.
It's like, he's so perfect.
And then the boyfriend,
I go to him
to see him, like, to hang out
with him the following day.
He's over here hugging me,
and I felt kind of awkward.
I'm like-- but I didn't want
him to know that, you know?
And he was telling me, oh, my
God, it's been like a month,
and I haven't had sex with you.
Now I'm saying to
myself that it's
not gonna happen
because I really
enjoy somebody else right now.
- Yes.
- Oh, my God.
But what it turns out,
that that Sunday night,
I call the Colombian guy,
and he didn't answer me.
I said, what the
hell is going on?
- What the f*ck?
- So I'm like, listen.
I text him.
I'm like, listen,
if you have a girlfriend,
just be straight up
with me, you know?
And he still didn't answer me.
So I got drunk, and I went
to his house in a cab.
- No way.
- Yes.
And the doorman downstairs,
he's really cool
because he knows me.
It was like 1:00
in the morning.
I said, do me a favor.
- The doorman?
- Yeah. Do me a favor.
If he comes in-- he said,
I can call you if you want.
I said, please,
can you call me, please?
- Yeah, yeah.
- At 4:30 in the morning,
the doorman calls me.
He's like, hi, Jessica?
I'm like, yeah.
He's like, he just got in.
Really?
I'm coming right now.
So I call a cab.
I went over there.
Girl, when I go in, I tell
the doorman, he went up?
Do you know if he by himself?
He said, uh,
he's with another girl.
I'm like, what?
- sh*t.
- Are you serious?
I says, do me a favor.
Call him on his cell
phone and tell him
that he's got to move his car
because the cops are
gonna tow his car.
So as he's dialing him,
boom, he comes down
the elevator with the girl.
- Ay dios mÃo.
- I'm like, listen,
what are you
doing 4:30 in the
morning bringing
another chick to your house?
I mean, damn.
If it's like that,
you should have told me,
I can't chill tonight.
I'm chilling with other
friends or lie to me.
I don't care.
He's like, please
give me 10 minutes.
Let me just tell--
but when we go back outside,
the girl is gone.
- She broke out.
- She broke out.
I scared the b*tch away.
- Hell yeah.
[laughter]
Did you guys go back upstairs?
- We did.
- You had-- what happened?
- We had sex.
Yeah, we did.
It's just so great because it's
like he makes me have orgasms.
Like, I don't even
have to touch myself.
I don't even have
to do nothing.
It's like he's good like that.
- Oh, my God.
- It's-- and believe it or not,
he stays hard for a long time.
Seriously.
I'm like, are you normal?
- How long does he last?
- For a long time.
I tell him, are you on drugs?
[laughter]
[upbeat music]
♪ ♪
- Where are we taking you?
You gonna meet somebody?
- You know where the diner is?
Like, El Greco.
- El Greco?
- Brooklyn is a sh*thole.
You can't trust anybody.
It's all about f*cking money.
I'm more-- I'm more like
a romantic guy, you know?
- Romantic?
- Yeah, I'm very romantic.
And my girlfriend doesn't
need that, obviously.
She needs a f*cking guy
who does his eyebrows
and gets his f*cking
manicure done.
- [laughs]
- f*cking b*tch.
- What happened with her?
- I've been with her for six
years, and on my birthday,
I saw-- I looked through her
phone, and I saw text messages
of her flirting
with some other guy
that she met in her
college orientation.
I'm paranoid, you know?
- So you think she's f*cking
with this dude that--
- She definitely is.
She is.
And she's trying
to hide it from me,
and she's so sneaky about it.
And so I always ask her, like--
instead of having a normal
conversation with her,
I'm always like, where are you?
Who are you with?
Where are you going?
And she's like,
stop talking to me
like-- like you're
a f*cking cop.
- How long were you with her?
- Six years.
- Six years?
- Yeah.
- Damn.
- I love her, you know?
I think about her
every f*cking night.
I can't sleep.
I can't sleep half the time.
I'm laying in bed, and
my heart starts pounding.
I'm f*cking twisting
and turning.
It's f*cking crazy.
And girls, I don't
know what it is.
Girls around here, they're
all f*cking gold diggers.
They all look for money.
They all wear
their little Prada,
Dolce Gabbana, and that's it.
They go out like
little wh*res, and they
get 10 f*cking 40-year-old
dudes by the end of the night.
They don't even
know what they want.
And they're getting picked
up in Ferraris and Bentleys,
you know?
That's the way life works
in Brooklyn, at least.
I hate this f*cking place.
It's all corrupted.
Everyone's fake.
It's all about f*cking money.
So I'm just looking
for a real person.
I'm really romantic
and sensitive,
but I also have a very,
very, like, aggressive side,
you know?
- Really?
- I can do a lot of
crazy sh*t, a lot of sh*t
that I regret
later on, you know?
- You're so young,
though, like.
- No, I did pretty much
everything in the book.
- What do you consider bad?
I might not consider--
- I have connections
to the mafia.
- You what?
- I have connections
to the mafia.
I used to work for them
for about four or five months.
- Holy sh*t.
- Yeah, it's no joke.
No joke.
I drove to Pennsylvania once
to dump a body in my trunk.
- No f*cking way.
- I'm not even kidding you.
I had a body in my trunk,
and I'm 19 years old.
And I f*cking--
I had to chop this
dead body up because he
was stinking up the whole car.
I f*cking-- I took
a white, huge tablecloth.
They wrapped him up in there.
You know how much
they paid me, though?
$16,000 just for
going to, what was it,
upstate or Poconos,
whatever, about two
or two and a half hour drive.
I find the woods.
They tell me, find the woods
with no houses around.
You better make sure of it.
So I did.
I dug up a f*cking hole
for like 40 minutes.
I'm sweating my a*s off.
I have a dead body
with flies all over him.
I take this guy, and I
didn't want to touch him.
So I kind of pull the cloth.
He comes out, and,
you know what the most
disgusting part of it was?
He's in my trunk,
and I'm pulling the cloth,
and he just falls.
The whole body just falls
on the floor from the trunk.
- Jesus Christ.
- Yeah, just doof.
So, I mean, that
wasn't even the worst
thing that I did for them.
- What do you mean,
that's not even the worst?
- Yeah, I saw--
I saw-- I saw
killings, you know?
- You've seen killings?
- Yeah.
- With your own two eyes?
- Yeah, with my own two eyes,
I saw killings.
I feel-- I feel really
bad for one guy, too.
He was with this-- he was with
his wife in the restaurant.
It's like a big a*s f*cking
club for f*cking Russians,
you know?
- Yeah.
- So this guy, he's
with his wife dancing,
and he owed a lot
of money to this guy.
And it was his pay--
like, he forgot about it.
It was about a year.
He told them, I'll pay
you back in a year.
You know, nobody really
remembers the exact date,
and the exact date a year
later, I get called in.
It's four of us.
Of course, I'm the
youngest guy there.
- So what happened to the guy?
- Took him into the bathroom
and they slit his throat.
- They slit his throat?
- In, like, a popular club.
And I just don't understand
how a person can slit
somebody's f*cking throat.
Not in the movies.
Somebody takes a knife and
f*cking cuts somebody's throat,
leaves him in the stall.
Like, how do you not get
caught for that, you know?
It's ridiculous.
I had to take a f*cking mop.
I had to-- they closed
down the bathroom.
I had to clean the mess.
It was disgusting, disgusting.
His f*cking vocal cords--
like, you saw
everything, windpipes.
It f*cking cut so deep.
It's ridiculous.
- Holy sh*t.
- It's ridiculous.
His wife had no idea
until like an hour later.
- His wife was, like,
still in the restaurant?
- She was dancing, drinking
while he was sitting
in this f*cking toilet--
in the bathroom stall
with his throat slit.
- Oh, sh*t.
Did you see her?
- Yeah.
I came up to her
and told her that he
has a problem in the bathroom.
He has a stomach problem.
And I left.
- And she just-- what
did she say to you?
She goes, OK.
- Do you feel bad about him?
- Yeah, I did.
- Really?
- But after-- after I realized
how f*cking cold life is,
it's either-- it's either gonna
be a b*tch to you, or you got
to be a b*tch to it, you know?
That's the way I see it.
I've been f*cked over.
My girlfriend just
stepped on me,
and she was the only real
person that I had left here.
And that b*tch is letting me
go to the f*cking Marines,
you know?
- So why did you
pick the Marines?
- Why did I pick the Marines?
Because when my brother
died in the Marines.
And after-- after I
become an infantryman,
I want to be a medic because
I've seen a lot of sh*t
already that I
wasn't supposed to.
I'm built for,
like, healing people
who-- who had their legs
blown off, arms blown off.
I want to-- I want to be the
guy that saves lives, you know?
- So how did your brother die?
- He tripped on a mine.
- He tripped on a mine?
- Yeah, he blew up
in two seconds.
- sh*t.
- About two seconds,
blood shower, you know?
- Damn.
- Yeah, it's crazy over there.
- How did your mother take it?
- How did my mother take it?
She f*cking collapsed.
Yeah, I've been through a lot.
I won a hundred bucks
in the lottery today.
- How old do you have
to be to play the lottery?
- 21, but I got my
own grocery store
that sells everything to me.
- Why?
- Because I protected
him one time.
So he told me he owes me.
- You protected him.
How?
- Some guy came
into the store--
he came into the grocery store,
like, drunk out of his mind,
and he had, like, a butterfly
knife, you know, the big knife?
So he takes it out,
opens it up, and points
to-- his name is Ali.
And Ali is like,
what the f*ck are you doing?
Get away.
So I went behind him because
if somebody has a knife--
I took combat sambo
for like three years
before I did Muay Thai.
Combat sambo is pretty
much how to disarm
a weapon, any weapon--
nunchucks, knives,
g*ns, anything.
- So what did you do?
- I went behind him and
put him in a sleeper hold.
He passed out in
about 15 seconds.
I know the pressure points.
And, like, I cradled
him like a baby
and just choked the
crap out of him.
He passed out.
We carried him out
of the grocery store.
- Oh, sh*t.
- Yeah.
Tough stuff.
Very tough stuff.
[dramatic music]
♪ ♪
- Hi, how you doing?
- Hi.
So you guys work there?
- He's the DJ.
- Yeah.
- This is the famous
DJ Kenny from the Copa
from back in the days.
- Get the f*ck out of here.
- You ever went to the
Copa back in the day?
- Yes!
- This is him right here.
That's what I do right there.
You seen that truck
that just passed?
- Yeah.
- I'm actually a fire chief.
- Oh, you are?
- That's what I do
during the week.
- Really?
- Straight up, all jokes aside.
- Oh, my God.
What's that like?
- Mamita, I got 22
years doing this.
- Really?
- That plane that came
down on the Hudson River?
- Yeah.
- I was there.
- The one that just
came down recently?
- Yeah.
- What about 9/11?
- Sad.
That was like a w*r zone,
especially seeing so many
innocent people dying.
- How long did
you stay that day?
- I didn't go home like
for three days after that.
- Yeah, it's right here.
It's right here.
- You didn't get any rest?
- Not for the first three days.
- All right, it was
nice talking to you.
- Bye, nice talking to you.
- All right.
- OK.
- But let me tell you, it's--
it was tragic, just being
over there and seeing
everything that's going on.
Put it like this.
You ever had meat
that you leave out
and it, like, gets rotten
after two or three days?
- Yeah.
- That was the smell
that you actually smell
over there but even worse.
Sometimes you would have to,
like, hold your breath.
You can't even be
there and breathe.
You have to use special
masks and stuff like that.
Yeah, it just broke my heart.
I seen a lot of nice--
I seen people's secretaries,
executive, cooks, chefs.
It really broke my heart.
I never expected to ever
see something like that.
- Wow.
- There was a lady in--
she was a cleaning lady.
She was just kind of, like,
squashed in between two--
she was cut up pretty bad.
- That's really sad.
- Yeah.
I can just imagine
the nightmares
that her husband,
her kids, her family
will have just
knowing that they're
not gonna see their wife
or their parents
or their mother again.
And that's what I was thinking
going through my head.
That could have been me.
It could have been my sister.
It could have been
my mother, my daughter,
God forbid, my granddaughter.
I lost one of my
best friends that she
had a son that I still see.
He lost his father
first in the Gulf w*r.
Then he lost his
mother on 9/11.
- Oh, my God.
- Yeah.
- And you still see the kid?
- I still see the little kid.
I'm like a big brother to him.
So, you know?
- Really?
- Yeah.
- Do you still have nightmares?
- Yeah.
The nightmare I have,
it always repeats
that it's like when
you're sleeping,
and you see all these--
all these eyes around you
just looking at you.
You hear people screaming,
help me, help me.
And it's like you
can't help everybody.
And it's like-- it feels like
it was yesterday, you know?
You still smell
the corpse of people.
You're still looking for
innocent people that was there.
You still feel like they
are all watching you,
and you're trying to
save them, but you
can't save them because they're
already passed on, you know?
- Wow.
- When I was there,
all you see is
so much smoke, so many people
running in every direction.
They didn't know
which way to go.
I was actually running in
the building, you know?
But something that they told
me, don't go in the building.
I just felt it in my heart.
I must have had
my guardian angel.
When I say my guardian angel,
I lost a daughter 10 years ago.
And--
- You lost a daughter?
- Yeah, she was a little baby.
She was six months
and four days old,
and she passed away from SIDS.
She went to sleep
and never woke up.
Yeah.
So that must have
been my guardian
angel right there telling
me, you know, don't go in,
you know?
How you doing?
You OK?
- Yeah.
I'm good. I'm good.
- Yeah.
It's like, I'm trying
to hold myself back
from crying because it's--
I did enough crying
in my lifetime.
- I'm sure you did.
- Yeah, especially
when I lost my little girl,
that's the most hardest
thing in the world.
She was incredible.
She was so happy.
Happy to be alive.
Happy-- when I say happy,
she was the most happiest
child in the whole world.
I was proud to say, hey,
this is my little girl.
Yeah.
- Well, when did you find out
something was wrong with her?
How did you find out?
- Well, she was alive in the
morning before I left to work,
And then by 7:00,
like an hour later,
she's like,
the baby's not breathing.
I got in the car,
and we flew, all the lights,
everything you could think of.
On the highway,
we must have been doing
like about 100 miles an hour
just trying to get to Queens.
And I see her there.
They're trying to revive her.
We tried everything
we could do,
but it was already too late.
But just thinking
about it, it's--
it's a nightmare, you know?
Being with your kid
every day, holding her,
and then suddenly
you don't hold her
no more and knowing that
there's an empty crib,
and there's
a room full of toys.
You know, that the person
that used to be in there,
they're not there no more.
And it's sad when you can't
pick up your child no more.
You feel their body heat,
her little snoring.
You know, just feeling
her next to you
is the most beautiful
thing in the world.
- Yeah.
- You know?
Sad to say, you know, I don't
have my little angel no more.
- Do you think your guardian
angel saved you on 9/11?
- Yeah, she did.
When I was going in,
I don't know why,
but I was halfway already
going up the stairs.
Something tells me,
go back out.
I knew deep inside
my heart that was
my little daughter that day.
But I still have my little
guardian angel in my heart,
my daughter that passed away.
It feels like she's still
looking out for Dad.
["Put a Little Love
in Your Heart" playing]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Think of your fellow man ♪
♪ Lend him a helping hand ♪
♪ Put a little love
in your heart ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Put a smile on your face ♪
♪ Think of the human race ♪
♪ Put a little love
in your heart ♪
- Well, let me tell
you a little bit
about what I'm doing.
I'm driving around,
and I'm talking to real life
people, real life--
real life stories, real life--
- Oh, my God.
[laughter]
- Have you ever heard
of "Taxicab Confessions"?
- No.
- [laughs]
This is the only cab--
- f*ck no, f*ck no.
- No.
- f*ck no, I just
put my sh*t on blast.
- No way. Really?
- You know what, it was fine.
- I knew you were
too good to be true.
- No, I am, I am.
I am a real taxi driver.
I have to be, I have to be.
- Oh, my God.
- I look like sh*t.
- You look great.
- Is this a TV show?
- Yeah.
- I look like sh*t.
- Wow.
- I look like sh*t.
- No, you look great.
- This is crazy.
- Yeah.
- ♪ And the world ♪
♪ Will be a better place ♪
♪ And the world ♪
♪ Will be a better place ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ And me ♪
♪ Just wait and see ♪
- I'm doing this show called
"Taxicab Confessions."
- Oh, no way.
- It's on HBO.
- [laughs]
Are you an actor?
- No, no, no, that's my hack.
I'm a real cab driver.
- Are you a taxi driver?
- Yeah, real cab driver, yeah.
- [laughs]
Do you think
your dad's gonna be worried
about the fact that
I performed fellatio
on you the other night?
[laughter]
- ♪ Put a smile on your face ♪
♪ Think of the human race ♪
♪ Put a little love ♪
♪ In your heart ♪
♪ And the world ♪
♪ Will be a better place ♪
♪ And the world ♪
♪ Will be a better place ♪
♪ For you ♪
♪ And me ♪
♪ Just wait and see ♪
- I drive around, and I talk
to people, real New Yorkers.
And I'm making a documentary.
- Oh, so we're just
being recorded right now?
- Have you ever heard of
"Taxicab Confessions"?
- Yeah.
- I would love for you
to be a part of it.
- Holy sh*t.
We're still being recorded.
Wow, this is unreal.
- That's what I'm saying.
This is like one in a million.
- Hi, New York.
[laughter]
Damn, I finally
got my story told.
That feels so good.
- ♪ Put a little love
in your heart ♪
♪ Put a little love
in your heart ♪
♪ Put a little love
in your heart ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Please ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Just a little bit of love ♪
♪ In your heart ♪
♪ ♪
[bright tone]
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02x01 - Taxicab Confessions: The City That Never Sleeps 1
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When passengers enter the cab, they are recorded with several small cameras hidden in the taxi.
When passengers enter the cab, they are recorded with several small cameras hidden in the taxi.