01x04 - That Was Fun

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So, I have your name.

"Arabella Essiedu."

Next to that, "Stranger one,

seven weeks ago, DFSA,"

which stands for

Drug-Facilitated Sexual as*ault.

So, anything else I come to know

will be what you share with me

and is confidential.

Okay.

- Has it started?

- The session?

Yeah.

Okay.

- How long does this?

- One hour.

'Kay.

- It's tough.

- Yeah.

How are you doing?

I'm great. Great. I'm great

as long as I'm around people.

Um, when I'm alone

Flashbacks?

It's just sometimes

it gets a bit much.

What do you do

when it gets a bit much?

I just I just make sure

I'm around someone, anyone.

Um, and if I'm not, I say

"There are hungry children.

There are hungry children.

There are hungry children.

There's a w*r in Syria.

There's a w*r in Syria.

There's a w*r in Syria,"

or, "Not everyone

has a smartphone.

Not everyone has a smartphone.

Not everyone has a smartphone."

To remind myself

of the bigger picture.

Sometimes, when we try

our best to see the big picture,

we lose sight

of the little one altogether.

The little detail here is you.

Oh, yeah.

r*pe Trauma Syndrome

has got some common symptoms,

frequent flashbacks,

high irritability in places

or situations that

remind you of the as*ault,

difficulty focusing,

emotional numbing,

which can sometimes be

a hard one to know you have.

Do you have any advice for focus

'cause I have the first draft

of a book due?

I was doing all right

before everything, but now

my head's just sort of

Yeah, they have given me, um

a guy to help me.

Have you asked

to take a break?

I don't get paid until

I've delivered my first draft,

so a break isn't gonna help me.

The only thing they're paying

for is this therapy.

I see. Okay.

I can only remind you

to take care of yourself

whenever possible.

With family?

Family?

Yeah.

Yeah. I see I see 'em a bit.

You haven't told your mom,

I guess.

But I've got friends.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And my friends, they You know,

they will know what happened.

It's helpful

to identify people you trust.

And then from there,

try doing relaxing

creative things together.

Like?

you could go for walks, yoga,

jogging, meditation, painting.

- Painting?

- Handicrafts.

I don't even think I know

what handicrafts is.

Coloring in.

Uh, yeah. My friends

aren't really gonna be, uh

Ben, actually, err,

this is his kinda sh*t.

Ben will be into

I'll just text him.

He's typing.

Ah. He's not in tonight.

f*ck. Band practice.

I'll sort it. I'm okay.

I'll be fine.

I will I Yeah.

I'm good.

Yeah. I know what I'm gonna do.

I'll be fine.

You are the phoenix

rising from the flames.

What are you?

- The phoenix.

- What are you?

- The phoenix.

- All right.

Take flight over the bodies

of your dead enemies.

What are you?

Are you gonna be the phoenix

or the pigeon, class?

- The phoenix.

- Right.

No, no, no, no, no.

Double time.

Double time.

What are you saying, huh? Huh?

What are you saying?

Right, yous lot,

you don't need to pretend

to be someone you're not.

You do that every day.

At work, on the train,

at home with your family.

When you're here with me,

I give you permission to do you.

Knee pump.

- Four. And three, two, one.

- Four, three, two, one.

- Well done.

- Whoo!

Well done, my phoenixes.

All right.

Two minutes, water break.

All right.

Get your air inside you. Good.

- Yo.

- Hey.

my grandma really liked

your class this morning.

- The aqua-aerobics

-Oh, I'm glad.

Yeah, I saw you in the, um

I saw you in the window.

Cool. Um

Y'know, it's actually

my last class, so

if you wanna grab a coffee

or something

I'll be done in 30.

- Okay, everyone.

- Back on in one minute.

You know what, I actually feel

a bit sorry for him.

Yeah?

Yeah.

He's visiting from Ghana.

Most days, he can't even

look me in the eye.

I'm like I'm like, "Hey, Dad."

He's scrunching his face,

cursing the house.

Ah, it's whatever.

One more day and he gone.

I've never really spoken

to a brother who was, uh

What? g*y?

Come on.

You can say it.

We're in Britain.

No one's gonna throw me

off a building

or chase me with a stick.

You can say it.

Say what I am.

A g*y guy.

Are we the same?

Look, even if you never find

an answer,

I think it's really cool

that you're asking yourself

the question.

This is me.

So, like, uh

- I would, but

- Your dad's there?

- You live with your nan, right?

- Yeah.

If I could find somewhere

for us,

would you be interested?

I could be, still.

Even if it involved

someone else?

Yeah, I ain't scared.

Why would you be?

- Sorry I'm late.

- No. No. Um

Thank you for

- You good?

- Yeah. Yeah.

- How you doing?

- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

So, um, Francine called

- to say you need some

- Yes.

Closing the tills now

'cause we're closing.

Do you want anything?

Great. Thank you.

We could try a bar.

Some hotel ones

are pretty quiet.

- A bar?

- Okay. Not a bar.

Um, we could use the office.

I can ask Julian

if his office is free.

I'm good with a bar.

- Yeah?

- Yeah. Yeah.

"Tina finished her Sprite,

considered leaving

but realized she didn't know

the way to the bus stop.

She went to the toilet.

You sat there

like an African King

in Adidas trackies,

smiling at the bones

left on your plates.

You rubbed your lips together,

leaving no corner,

crack, or crevice safe

from the chicken grease.

With the skill of a magician"

Okay.

Sorry.

No, no, no. Don't say sorry.

Don't say sorry.

What, um

genre is this?

It's just like

It's actually quite hard

to really, um

Hi there, would you

like to order anything?

Just water.

Tap for me. And?

No. I'm not

I'm not drinking anything.

So, uh, Tina and Terrell in

Tinsel Town is just one chapter.

- I go into all these different

- What's your background?

Ghana.

Career background?

How did you, uh

Oh, right. How did I start?

Yeah.

Yeah, I was just

expressing myself online, and

yeah, people just seemed

to really respond to the stuff

- I was

- Tweeting?

Yeah. And then

everyone on Twitter was like,

"Why haven't you got a book?

You should make a book."

So then, I was like,

"Yeah. I'm gonna make"

- Make a book?

- Yeah. Exactly. Yeah.

What's it called?

Chronicles

of a Fed Up Millennial.

Chronicles

of a Fed Up Millennial?

And then this one

you're on the way to finishing?

No. I'm not

I'm not drinking anything.

And you're being published

by Henny House.

That's

Most people who, um, who get

a commission from Susy Henny

know about Susy Henny.

Who knew I could sub three years

of uni for a Twitter account?

I know a lot of people

with degrees

who are good and

No, no, it doesn't

have to I didn't

I'm so sorry, I have to go.

-It's not you, it's just, uh

-That's my bad.

I'm sorry about that.

Sorry.

Long time, sis. Long time.

Yeah, man.

I was in the area.

You live, like, 10 minutes away.

Where is your key, man?

Mom's at work,

I'm goin' to church, so

There's w*r in Syria.

There's w*r in Syria.

There's w*r in Syria.

The children are hungry.

The children are hungry.

The children are hungry.

Not everyone has a smartphone.

You ready?

I don't have to do anything

with the other guy, right?

Nah, you ain't got to do

anything at all.

You're very sexy, Kwame.

Sup!

- Hey.

- What you sayin'?

Yeah. What you sayin'?

It's shoes off.

Yo.

I'm outside.

This is good.

Good, or good considering?

Considering what?

Uh, what's

What's your background?

India.

You're such a f*cking d*ck.

Um, I studied creative writing,

and got signed in final year.

Oh, where did you go?

I was with Portland Street

Publishers first,

but Julian seemed a little more

rough and ready.

- Do you know what I mean?

- No. Uh, where did you go uni?

Cambridge.

You went to Cambridge?

Of course, you did. Yes.

Now I get it.

Oh, Zain, I'm so sorry,

No, I'm actually really sorry.

- You done? You

- Oh. No.

- Nope?

- You went to Cambridge.

You must be hugging

your certificate at night.

Do you like coloring pencils?

No.

f*ck.

Shall I go? I've got no idea

what's going on.

No, no. I'm just

I'm just like,

"Did I know

this was gonna happen?

Is this a good idea?"

Dunno.

What?

Well, we're probably gonna

be having sex soon, innit?

- Shall we do that now?

- Yeah.

Why don't you care

about my book?

- 'Cause you don't.

- Oh, f*ck off, mate.

- Ben? Ben?

- Hello, mate.

This is Zain.

- Hi. Hi.

- Hello, mate.

I didn't know

that you were here.

Yeah, same.

Didn't hear a thing.

I was just listening

to the band sesh,

- kinda sounding pretty good.

- That's fantastic.

- See you in the morning.

- Great.

Oh, uh, I do like the idea

of painting though,

- so we should do that one day.

- Yeah.

So, um

- this is my room.

- Can I just kiss you?

I've been thinking about it

for a few hours.

Sorry.

You Yeah. You okay?

Yeah. Yeah. Just, uh

Yeah.

- I can go or If you're not

- No. Uh

Please, stay.

- What about you?

- What about me?

- Where you from?

- Depends who's asking.

If it's a black person,

I'm gonna tell them

I'm from Nigeria.

If they're English asking me

where I'm from,

they're getting Barking

and Dagenham, bruv.

If they ask me a second time,

they're getting sparked.

As if.

Yo, bruv, I beg you

play something else.

Oh, for real?

What you into?

I'm into everything.

Is that right?

Tell me that again.

I said I'm into everything.

He's into me.

I ain't trying to f*ck him.

Some bruddas

like the quiet ting.

Some bruddas just watch.

You're f*cking sexy,

you know that?

Come here.

Have you got a condom?

Oh, uh, yeah. In my bag,

but it's in the Whoa.

Uh, wait, wait, wait.

Turn over.

Bro, you want some of this?

Get on the bed.

I wanna f*ck you bareback.

Uh, no, no. I don't do that.

I thought

you were into everything?

Yeah. Not that.

Boy, is that all you got for me?

Yeah, I'm bouncing still.

What? Wait, wait, wait,

wait, wait, wait.

One sec.

Can I do anything for you?

f*ck him.

You're amazing.

Come here.

I'm gonna come.

- Better Better use the

- Yeah, it's first on the left.

Uh, there is a bin in the one

across the hallway. Sorry.

What?

A bin for the condom.

There's a

- Where did you put the condom?

- I

I took it off.

I thought you

Oh, sh*t. Um

Yeah. It got uncomfortable,

so

- You're joking.

- No. No. Look, here, see

There.

I thought you knew.

Uh, couldn't you feel it?

- No, I couldn't f*cking feel it.

- I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

Um, Zain

Um, I, uh

I I didn't wanna stop,

'cause it was

-Um

-I don't know.

Maybe that's normal for you,

- but that was pretty insane

for me.

- Yeah, no. But, Zain,

I have I have to get

the pill, for f*ck's sake.

I know, I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry. Um

- Uh

- It was really f*cking

good though.

Yes, it was.

You are paying for it.

Right.

I'm gonna wait outside.

That was fun.

Stay.

Stay.

f*ck.

What happened?

It's fine. It's fine.

It's just my nail.

It's fine.

Good. Come here.

- No, look, I have to go.

- Playing. I'm just playing.

- Just go on the bed.

- Why?

Go on the bed.

Yo, yo, no.

We're not having sex again.

It's not sex.

What the f*ck, man?

Can you Can you

Can you stop that?

Can you just get off me?

Get Get the f*ck off me!

What can I say, I'm a bad boy.

See ya.

Done.

Hey, bae.

Hey.

You all right?

Uh, yeah, yeah, yeah. You?

I'm good, bae. What you on?

Uh, I'm just going

Going to bed.

I just thought

I'd say goodnight, bae.

Aw. Love you, bae.

Night, bae.

He secretly

took off the condom.

There are actuak forums

where men share tips

and phrases like,

"I thought you knew."

Couldn't you feel it?

What is going though

their heads?

We've got some results back,

and we have a potential suspect.

- Ooh. You ain't told him?

- I have to tell you something.

I wanted to report something.

I'm here to report a crime.

- Arabella! Susie, honey.

- You're Susie?

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