01x03 - Episode 3

[bunniefuu]

[wistful music playing]

[Mia] Everything is different now.

If you're lucky,

at some point, life will hand you

a whole new chance,

a whole new person.

[inaudible]

[woman vocalizing]

[Mia] She doesn't see my past,

only the Mia I am now.

The Mia I can be.

[music continues]

[school bell ringing]

[Mia] Here are five things

no one will tell you

about falling in love for the first time.

[jaunty romantic music playing]

[Mia] One, whether you mean to or not,

you'll start to plan your entire day

around their schedule.

Meaning you'll become an expert

at "right place, right time."

Hey.

Hey.

Two, you'll go to what some

would call extreme lengths

just to catch a glimpse of them.

- Aw! You came to see me!

- [gasps]

Uh, yeah.

Oh my God, obsessed much?

What?

[Will] We're meant to be

keeping it a secret at work, but

he can't take his eyes off me.

Mm-hmm.

Nice hat, by the way.

[music continues]

[Mia] Three, your universe

will divide itself seamlessly

into two categories.

There is them

[Theo] Mia, hey!

[Mia] And then there is everything else.

- Alison said you weren't feeling great.

- Whoa, everything alright here?

[Mia] And everything else,

whatever that may be,

will start to feel not quite enough.

Unless you can share it with them.

- Wow!

- [laughs]

[music continues]

Hey.

Four, the hope will k*ll you

long before the heartbreak does.

[Carli] How was it?

[music continues]

[Mia] And five, you are not

as subtle as you think you are.

- [music halts]

- Oh! Mother of f*ck!

- You all right?

- Fine. [chuckles]

Wouldn't want a concussion

to rob you of your game.

- Not a chance. Netball's my b*tch.

- [chuckles]

Okay, guys, two teams.

Captains to the le

Mia. What are you doing here?

- You know

- Hey! What's the haps, sir?

We spoke about this. You shouldn't be

doing sports anymore. Doctor's orders.

I'm not allowed to do PE?

Come on, this is extracurricular.

I'm sorry, Mia.

Maybe next term, all right?

Fine.

No problem.

[man] Right. [blows whistle]

[Mia] f*ck you. f*ck you. f*ck you.

[tense music playing]

[Mia] Why does everyone think

they know what's best for me?

[dramatic music playing]

[clock ticking]

- [dishware clattering]

- [girl] Excuse me, I'm finished.

- This is f*cking ridiculous.

- [Mia] Just wait.

They can't stop us moving.

We're not prisoners!

We have to wait

to see if there's a distraction.

More often than not, someone kicks off.

Trust me.

- [girl] I'm done.

- [woman] Just take a deep breath.

[girl] I can't eat any more of that!

Seriously, I'm done!

[whispering] Go on now. Go.

[girl] I can't eat anymore! Get off!

Oh, right-o. And where are we going?

We've done the 20 minutes.

Just want to get some fresh air.

I think you know that's not gonna wash.

I just want to go for a f*cking walk!

What's the big deal?

It's healthy. It's good for you.

Yes. Yes. Exercise is

generally good for us.

Come on, Dean, sit down.

But only in moderation.

Even things we think of

as healthy may be harmful

if we allow ourselves to

fixate on them to the point of obsession.

And this need to move after eating

uh, to not allow meals to settle.

That's that's a compulsion too.

[sighs]

And you have to learn

to sit with that anxiety.

[grunting]

Six

Jesus, Cam.

Oh my God. [groans]

[laughs]

- [weights thud]

- [Cameron pants]

What? Decided I'd do

some remodeling this term.

You know,

keep the ladies happy. [chuckles]

Mmm.

What's up?

What? Why does something have to be up?

Come on.

They won't let me join the netball team.

- You hate team sports.

- No, I don't.

You literally said one time

you'd rather be part of a cult.

Fine. But

that was the old me. I want people

to look at me and see someone different.

Not just the sick girl I was in Year 11.

How am I supposed to reinvent myself

if I can't even play f*cking netball?

Is this a bucket list thing?

[Mia] It's a love thing.

Yeah.

Okay, all right.

Reinvent yourself, yeah?

Exactly.

Okay.

Uh

"Reinvent

your

self."

Yeah, there you go.

Easy.

Easy?

Yeah, peasy.

Whoa.

I'm gonna help you do it.

Come on. [sniffs]

[yells] Come on!

Okay, Cam. Be quiet.

Now, Mia 2.0, what a recovering social

recluse like yourself might not know

is that we at Westmere boast an impressive

selection of clubs and societies.

Here, we have your classic debaters.

Our contribution to the EU

was less than £140 million a week.

- Expect us to believe that?

- Of course not.

You wouldn't believe anything that hasn't

been slapped onto the side of a bus!

- [arguing continues]

- Thoughts?

I'm bored, but also angry.

It's a no from me.

[boy 1] You have to listen

to what people are saying!

I'm sorry, but

Now, here we have the Feminist Society.

[Becca] So, we're all in agreement

that it's absolutely key

that the education system

must make more of an effort

to raise the aspiration

of our young girls.

- [clapping]

- Sure.

But, like, just to play devil's advocate,

why do they always

have to put the message into every

[all clamoring]

- Is he always here?

- Yeah.

[clamoring continues]

[Becca] You're not even a feminist!

Shut up!

[upbeat pop music playing]

[music stops]

[chair creaks]

[door closes]

[Mia] I don't know, Cam, I'm not sure

any of these are really gonna

Gonna make her notice me.

Look what the Cam dragged in.

What are you hot young things up to?

Helping Mia reinvent herself.

Oh gosh, they do grow up so fast!

Aw.

- What are you signing up for?

- Drama Club.

Of course, when you're

classically trained as I,

you don't really need

such diversions, but

[Mia] Bingo.

Oh my God. That's how she writes her Rs.

She's f*cking amazing.

Wow, that is, um

this is such a coincidence.

I was just about to sign up for that.

- Hey!

- But wait, you hate drama.

And public speaking.

And regular speaking. And people.

- Uh

- [Mia] No, I love the theater.

I mean, Brecht? What a fun guy.

There's reinventing yourself, then there's

acting like you've got a concussion.

Oh my God, all the fittest girls

in our year go to Drama Club.

- Gimme the pen.

- [Will] Shut up.

Cam, thank you.

This has been great. Like, really great.

Okay.

Um, I I mean, you're welcome.

Uh-uh. Something is rotten

in the state of Denmark.

Ooh, that reminds me. I am so far behind

on my Geography coursework.

Do you want to do it together later?

Think your time is

better spent in the shower.

You smell like athlete's foot.

[laughs] h*-h*!

Ah, Becca. Can we have a quick chat?

Okay, to the left, to the left.

Okay, come in, come in, come in.

Take a perch-a-roony.

Uh, sorry, Miss,

I'm late to pick up my sister.

I won't keep you.

I was just wondering

how you were getting on

with finding donations for the raffle?

- [chuckles]

- [Becca sighs]

It slipped your mind.

I'm so sorry.

- Don't worry.

- I'll start it tonight.

[cell phone vibrates]

Not necessary.

I can rope someone else in to help.

No, no, I can do it.

It is okay to say no sometimes.

We don't want you

burning yourself out, do we?

I will make it up to you

at the coffee morning.

I will hold everyone hostage

until they buy a ticket.

[laughing]

[chuckles nervously]

Obviously, I can't condone that.

[giggling]

Oh, uh, go. Go. [chuckles]

Uh, Becca?

You can't pour from an empty cup.

[laughs]

[whispering] Good. Well handled.

["Get Ready" by The Temptations playing]

[Mia] Love changes everything.

And unlike all the other changes,

this one doesn't seem scary because,

you know, this is a good thing.

So now you need more change.

For the first time, you want to grow up.

You want to kick-start this new life.

Like, why do you still have all of this?

This stuff belonged to a sad little girl

who never even met Carli.

You live in a post-Carli universe.

And I'm bringing you a love that's true

So get ready ♪

- [Alex] Mia?

- What?

- [song continues on earphones]

- Hey. I've been looking for this.

What was this doing

in that box on the landing?

We spend too much time

on electronics in this house.

Hm. Read a book. Go outside.

What's going on in here, then?

Mia's pawning all our fun.

Just spring cleaning.

[Viv] Oh wow.

Marie Kondo's got nothing on you.

This box is stuff to throw away,

and this one's for donations.

Don't think I don't see you.

How do you mean?

You're glowing

like a spring lamb on Valium.

It's Theo, isn't it?

[Mia] For God's sake.

Not Theo.

Ooh, come on. Tell me!

You're way off, Mum. I'm a hermit as ever.

Oh no, Ribbit!

Oh, sweetheart, you love Ribbit.

And the books!

Dad used to read you this every night.

It's just stuff.

[ambulance siren wailing in distance]

[siren wailing loudly]

[siren fades]

[melancholy music playing]

[music continues]

[music fades]

[indistinct happy chatter]

[Mia] Am I really doing this?

[Carli] Hey.

[Mia] Hey.

- Hey.

- [Carli] Hiya.

Mia. Welcome to

the theater of screams. [chuckles]

Alison, didn't know you liked the theater.

I'm just, you know,

padding out the old Head Girl CV.

- Plus, it can hardly hurt to shine.

- [door opens]

[gasps]

Mrs. Von Shildegard. f*cking legend.

Isn't even married. She just felt like it.

[exciting music playing]

[Mrs. Von Shildegard] Children.

We must begin by asking ourselves

what is theater?

You.

Um

Performance?

My children, theater is poetry.

But what is poetry?

Rhyming.

Poetry is a verdict, my children.

But what is a verdict?

[Mia] This could go on forever.

The stage is at once

a space where one may embody the other,

where we may

nurture and craft our truth

as our art.

Which is why next week,

I wish you to prepare a monologue.

It must speak to you,

through you.

It must show us proudly

who you really are.

[Mia] Okay. No, thank you.

For now, children, it is time

to break down those barriers, right here.

For this first exercise,

I'll need two volunteers.

Uh

You.

And you.

But she didn't

Acting is reacting.

Learn to roll with the punches. Now

You'll be doing some improvisation.

What we in the theater call "improv."

[Mia] Everything about this is terrible.

You're having an argument.

You are the guilty party.

You are the one wronged.

Remember, there are no mistakes in improv.

Only one rule.

You cannot say no.

Go on, Mia.

Once more unto the breach.

[students whispering indistinctly]

Action.

Julius, I am sorry I m*rder*d your mother!

[flatly] Yeah, right.

Could you ever forgive me?

Um

No?

[murmurs]

[whispering] The one rule

is you can't say no.

- f*ck, sorry.

- No, it's fine.

So can you forgive me, Julius?

- Yes.

- Mia.

- You just said you're not supposed to

- [Carli] No! 'Tis I!

I faked my death!

Oh. [clears throat]

Mother, thank goodness you're alive.

What? She's not even in the scene?

How could I leave my only child

dear, sweet Julius

to deal alone with the likes of you,

a second-rate assassin?

- Ooh.

- [Alison] Second-rate assassin?

I'll show you second-rate assassin.

- This is a g*n. Bang!

- [gasps]

[groans]

I am slain.

Bang!

Bang! Get down.

Oh, yeah. I'm out. [clears throat]

[Mrs. Von Shildegard] And scene.

[scattered applause]

Ladies, stirring work.

Excellent performances from

most of you.

[intriguing music playing]

- Mia.

- Yeah?

Mark my words. Next time we are

going to peel back those delicious layers.

Like an onion. Hm?

[door opens]

- Jesus, take the wheel.

- [door closes]

Keira Knightley.

- What?

- It's our code word. Didn't I tell you?

No, you did not.

Well, we need to talk. Library, now.

- Carli?

- What about her?

- Carli?

- Who?

Oh, don't play games here, missy.

Why didn't you tell me?

Shh!

[sighs]

I didn't know what to say or how to say.

Ugh. That's a pitiful excuse.

You've known

about every one of my crushes.

I even told you about

me and teenage Simba.

It's not a crush.

Well, what is it?

I'm in love.

- In?

- Yes.

- No!

- Yes.

Oh, Mia!

- [both yelp]

- Quiet!

I think about her every five seconds,

sometimes three.

Is that normal?

I don't think that's normal.

Well, not to worry.

I know everything about love.

I'm like a genius spiritual savant.

Like Gwyneth Paltrow or something.

And, honey, let me tell you,

you're playing this all wrong.

- I am?

- Yes!

All this wannabe ingénue stuff.

You're not an actor, Mia.

Just be yourself.

No, but myself got me

hospitalized for seven months.

Augment, then.

Be yourself, but be sly about it.

Be Cady Heron.

- Who?

- From Mean Girls?

Uh-uh.

[exhales] f*cking amateur. Okay.

Cady Heron let Aaron Samuels tutor her,

and it didn't matter

that he didn't know the answers,

just so long as she could

stare at him all wide-eyed and dreamy.

So, what? I should ask Carli for help?

Well, it works.

- Take me and Cheese Guy.

- Gonna need a name eventually.

No. We're going about our day,

nothing major, then I stroll over and say,

"Hey. How is blue cheese made?"

"Where does the blue come from?"

Thirteen minutes later, I'm in the store

cupboard, and he's tearing off my smock.

How is blue cheese made?

What? I don't know. Who f*cking cares?

The point is,

this is your chance to bond with her.

Ask her for help with your monologue.

- I don't have a monologue.

- Ah-ha.

Hmm

Seriously?

Nobody knows love like us Williams.

Study up.

[squeals excitedly]

[melancholy pop music playing]

[sighs]

[Mia] "What lady is that which doth enrich

the hand of yonder knight?"

"Oh, she doth teach the torches

to burn bright."

"It seems, she hangs

upon the cheek of night."

"Like a rich jewel in an Ethiope's ear."

[music intensifies]

I can never be the same ♪

Since you took off ♪

You're all that I can think about ♪

[keyboard clacking]

- [knocking on door]

- [woman] Becca?

You okay?

I've got to run, but can you iron

Caleb's shirt before you go?

- Mm-hmm.

- Okay. [kisses]

[sighing]

Beauty too rich for use,

for earth too dear.

- Please, shut up.

- So shows a snowy dove

[Rick yawns] Morning.

You're up early.

[Mia] I'm seizing the day.

- Sit down. I'll get started on breakfast.

- [Mia] Lie.

I ate already.

[Mia] Whoa. Okay.

[Rick] Really?

Normally you need seven alarms

and me banging your door down

to pry you out of bed.

Found some energy, I guess.

[Rick] Um, and don't forget,

you've got Dr. Nell this afternoon.

- He's got you in the diary for 3:00, yeah?

- Mm-hmm.

Got it. I will be there.

Love you.

Love you.

Always.

[downbeat pop music playing]

[Mia] Don't feel bad. It wasn't a big lie.

Just a little one to tide me over.

At least I'm still eating.

He wouldn't get it.

How long an entire meal

really takes for me.

I just can't. Not now.

I have a life.

I'm finally "right place, right time."

[line ringing]

[on voicemail]

Hey, it's Mia. Leave a message.

I know, Dad.

First, be kind. Second, be kind.

Third, be kind.

[reciting indistinctly]

[Becca] Hey, dude.

Sup, homie.

You okay?

"My bounty is as endless as the sea."

Shakespeare, eh? Who knew?

Do you know what day it is?

It's Wednesday.

We were meant to do, you know, you, me?

[groans] sh*t, I forgot.

I'm sorry.

I've just got so much on,

trying to learn

all of this for Drama Club.

Right, Drama Club.

Yeah.

[Becca] Hm.

[sighs]

- What?

- I don't know. I worry.

Yeah, Becs, well, you always worry.

This isn't news.

You don't need to jump down my throat

because I forget about one thing.

I'm not jumping down anywhere. It's just,

you haven't been acting yourself lately.

And why is that such a bad thing?

I don't get it. Why does everyone

want me to be static?

You know, I thought

the whole point about being a teenager

is that you try on

new versions of yourself.

I've finally found one that I like.

Okay.

I'm sorry. You're right.

I shouldn't have said anything.

You know what, don't worry. I've gotta go.

Appointment with Dr. Nell.

Mia. I

[emotional synth music playing]

[door shuts]

[exhales]

[Carli] Mia!

Hey!

[Mia] f*ck. The one time

I don't know where you are.

Romeo and Juliet?

For drama?

Uh, yeah.

Got to love a classic.

What are you doing?

I'm thinking Streetcar.

Or The Children's Hour.

Or A Doll's House.

Nora would be super fun,

but maybe too much of a downer.

[Mia] I have never so powerfully wished

to know what someone was talking about.

[laughs] I should

probably go work on mine.

Bye.

Actually, Carli

I'm pretty rusty on it so far,

and I was thinking, since you know it,

would you maybe be down to, like,

help me rehearse sometime?

How about now?

[Mia] Dr. Nell.

Actually, uh

Turn her down, gently but firmly.

Now, turn her

No, I'm free.

Or not. That works too.

I'd love that.

Forswear it sight. For I never, um

ne'er saw true beauty till this night.

Well

It's terrible.

It's not terrible.

I don't [groans]

I just can't find, like, the thing

behind the thing, you know?

I feel like I know what he's saying,

but I just get lost in the

Florality?

Well, I was going to say

"wankness," but yeah.

[both laugh]

So rewrite.

- What, rewrite Shakespeare?

- Why not?

It'll help you get to the center of it.

Do you really think I could do that?

I think you could do anything.

[door opening]

[clears throat]

Well, looky here.

Guys, fan out. Talk amongst yourselves.

Alison, hi.

Are you here to rehearse too?

Why else?

Which monologue did you choose?

Dirty Dancing.

- Dirty

- It's a film, sweetheart.

[laughs gently]

God, you Scottish people crack me up.

I'm from Manchester.

Right.

Well, I'm doing Baby's ab*rtion monologue,

so feel free to stay

and watch if you like.

No, no, no, no, no. That is okay.

Wouldn't want to ruin your flow.

[Alison] Hm.

Hold the applause.

[exhales]

[in American accent]

I told you I was telling the truth, Daddy!

Line.

- [both laughing]

- Dirty f*cking Dancing?

You should do a duologue.

You'd rock a Swayze mullet.

Right. What, reckon

I could do the big lift too?

Hey, you do know it. Amazing.

It made it all the way to Manchester.

- f*ck off.

- [laughs]

[tender music plays]

Well, I should

Yeah, me too.

But this was fun.

See you tomorrow.

["Prim & Propa"

by Connie Constance playing]

See ya.

We only ever had just enough ♪

[Mia] Cady f*cking Heron.

Will is never going to believe this.

Got told to suck it up

I was raised by a woman and a warrior ♪

[Mia] Come on! How can someone

with so loud a voice be this hard to find?

[man] Can we get

some more provolone in here?

- What can I get for you today, love?

- Nothing for me, thanks

Gareth.

[Mia] Gareth?

No wonder Will didn't tell us.

Actually, I'm looking for a friend.

I think you know him? Will?

Who?

The guy you're hooking up with.

Excuse me?

He works here. He has purple hair.

The shelf stacker?

I'm not hooking up with him.

I'm I'm his manager.

Oh.

- sh*t.

- Did he tell you we were

Uh, no, I think

I've just got mixed up, sorry. Um

Wrong cheese guy.

[Mia] And the sixth thing no one

will tell you about falling in love,

sometimes,

it's all in your head.

[emotional music playing]

[Rick] Mia? Come into the kitchen, please.

[Mia] f*ck.

[Mia] How's it hanging?

You tell me.

I got a call from Dr. Nell at 4:00 p.m.,

an hour after

you were supposed to be there.

I just got held up. School stuff.

Treatment comes first.

It comes first, second, third,

all the way down.

It's one missed session.

The point is that you

have to start taking this seriously.

I am.

Really?

'Cause I think you're forgetting just

how much time and money we put in

so that you can keep seeing Dr. Nell.

Not everyone is so lucky.

Okay. Al, tell her.

- [Alex] Dad.

- [Rick] Come on.

Tell her what you told us.

What? Tell me what?

They know

- about you skipping breakfast.

- [sighs]

For God's sake, I still ate.

I grabbed a couple of bananas.

You're supposed to sit down

and eat breakfast in a calm atmosphere.

It is one morning, Dad.

It's never just a morning for you.

It's never just breakfast,

it's never just food, it's an obligation.

You can't check in and out of recovery

whenever you feel like it.

[Viv] Rick, maybe she has a point.

What?

Isn't the fact

that she was able to eat on the go

a sign of how far she's come?

Maybe a session a week is too many.

We could bring it down to a session

every other week and see where we are.

These people are experts.

They know what's best.

[Viv] She should have a say.

But not the only say.

It's our job to keep her alive.

Okay. Let's just sit down as a family

and stop being so dramatic.

You weren't there. You didn't see.

You don't know how bad it got.

Hey!

Why can't you just let me be happy?

I did my time. I put the work in.

I should be able

to live my f*cking life now.

Yeah, treatment makes me better.

Guess what?

It also makes me f*cking miserable.

Now, I would rather be happy than be well,

and if you can't understand that,

then you are the last people

I should be speaking to.

[breathing rapidly]

I don't need anyone's permission.

I give you a say, not the other way round.

What did I tell you?

[paper rustling]

Stupid

[exhaling shakily]

[exhales]

[Dr. Nell] That voice

is still telling you to push harder.

But your body can only take so much, Dean.

You have to trust us

when we say that right now,

any form of exercise

is too dangerous.

Because next time,

you might not be so lucky.

[melancholy music playing]

Mia?

Don't

Please don't.

[birds chirping]

[sobbing softly]

[Gareth clears throat] William?

Oh. Oh, sorry.

I was, um, just looking up

the best way to display nuts.

Can I have a word?

Have you been

telling people we're f*cking?

What? [hesitates] No, absolutely not.

Have people been saying that?

I I, um, it definitely

hasn't come from me.

I mean, what an outrageous thing to

[chuckles] It's fine.

Just

Why lie about something like that?

Um, well, I I don't know.

You can hardly blame a guy, can you?

[chuckles]

Just wouldn't have thought

that you'd have to lie about it.

I mean, look at you.

I thought blokes would be

banging down your door for it.

Oh. Um

That's, um No. No, thank you.

What?

Uh, very kind of you to offer,

but it's it's a no from me.

But I just thought that

[soft music playing]

Fresh out the gym.

Rinsed the f*ck out of the shower.

So clean you could eat off of me.

In fact

I'd actively encourage it.

I prefer my food

without notes of Lynx Africa.

All right, A, how dare you?

And two, that actually looks like proper

coursework, which is so not the deal.

- Let's go.

- Just give me two minutes.

- You're not still mad at me, are you?

- I was never mad at you.

Okay. Good, because I could not

figure out what I did wrong.

[chuckles]

[clears throat]

[groans]

[exhales]

[yawns]

- Cam!

- What?

Just let me finish this, okay?

I'm really behind.

Hmm, since when is Becca Lloyd

behind on anything?

Since she spends all her free lessons

running after Mia

or having "fun" with you.

Whoa. Okay. No need to air quote me.

- I only wanted to have

- What?

What do you want from me?

I

[sighing] Sorry.

Everything's just getting on top of me.

This isn't supposed to

make things harder for you, Becs.

- If it is, maybe we should

- Yeah, we should stop.

Oh.

Isn't that what you were going to say?

Uh

Well, I mean

Yeah, you were right.

Lying to Mia feels sh*t,

and telling her the truth will

only spin her out for nothing, so

Okay.

[sad music playing]

I'll let you, uh

[Becca sighs]

[Mia mumbling indistinctly]

How are we feeling?

Yep. Fine.

How was your shift last night?

Yeah, fine.

[door opening]

Let us be about it.

Remember the thing behind the thing.

[fluorescent light buzzing]

[breathes nervously, sniffs]

Who, um

[person coughs]

[Mia]is that girl

over there?

She, um [clears throat]

She lights up the room.

She stands out.

Like a gem against the dark.

And she's beautiful.

[electronic music building]

[Mia] Too beautiful

for anything in this world.

[deep breaths echoing]

[Mia] Everyone else seems

pale and flat compared to her.

Maybe I can't even see them anymore.

I'll watch her.

I'll see where she goes.

Where she stands. What she likes.

And maybe

Maybe next to her.

Maybe she'll look at me.

Start to notice me.

Maybe she'll make me beautiful.

Make me good.

But really, I wouldn't mind.

It's enough just to be near her.

[music continues]

Had I ever really loved before?

If I did, my eyes were liars then,

because I never knew true beauty

until I saw you.

- [spotlight claps loudly]

- [applauding]

Mia! My word!

Who'd have thought you had that in you?

- [Mia] Wait, was I good?

- That was truly something.

- Let's have another hand for Mia.

- [all applauding]

[whispering] Okay, Miss Dame Judi Dench.

What the f*ck was that, please?

I mean, Carli said you were good,

but I wasn't expecting that.

- What? She said that?

- Yeah.

[Mia] I will never be unhappy again.

She's been, like,

properly singing your praises.

Says she's really

impressed with you, considering.

Considering what?

Well, all of it.

With everything you've been through.

The fact you just keep swimming.

Oh, right.

[Carli] You never loved me.

You only thought it pleasant

to be in love with me.

[Mia] No, no, no.

It's perfectly true, Torvald.

When I was at home with Papa

How does she know?

[intense music playing]

About me and everything?

It's just rumor mill, I guess.

But it's cool.

Don't worry. It's a good thing.

She just thinks

you're f*cking brave, you know?

[Mia] Brave

for the anorexic girl.

Because that's all I'll ever be.

I can't reinvent myself.

Can't be new. Can't be different.

Not when my illness is all they

all she will ever see.

[Carli] And he played with me

just as I used to play with my

dolls.

And when I came to live with you

[Mia] What do you do

when you can't trust yourself?

[music fades]

Find the one person you can.

Hi.

Hi yourself.

What are you up to now?

Have you got time?

Uh

For you, always.

[Mia] And don't let go.

- [giggling]

- Oh. Damn it. Damn it. No!

Eat it, loser!

Hey, I've been in hospital the last

seven months while you honed your skills.

f*ck right off with that.

Hm. Thank you.

[sighing]

I quit Drama Club.

I think maybe I need to stop

trying to be a whole new person.

Yeah, I'm not sure it's a fix.

Or a plaster.

What? So I need to go back to being me?

- [giggling]

- Sure as f*ck hope so. I like her.

[giggles]

- Mm. Mm. Mm-hmm.

- [laughing]

[bird chirping]

[cell phone buzzing]

["Rebirth" by Tinlicker

(Ft. Hero Baldwin) playing]

[Mia] Number seven.

Love ruins everything.

You ever wonder why

The kindest get the roughest ride? ♪

Or how the toughest ones

Don't share the thing they feel inside? ♪

You laugh the loudest, sink the lowest

We don't notice, right? ♪

As long as someone's laughing

That'll keep the joke alive ♪

We had so many dreams

I guess we planned to live a life ♪

Somehow we all ended

Working up a nine-to-five ♪

If you don't fight to make it work

You only run away ♪

If you can't face it, man

It hits you like a tidal wave ♪

Those thoughts in your head

Might tell you you're not ready ♪

Is that what you heard?

That life is lonely? ♪

You should know

You've always been ready ♪

The highs and the lows

Are better with somebody ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪

Keep falling in love

Keep falling in love ♪