01x03 - Episode 3

[bunniefuu]

We turned right on
the Harcourt Street.

I thought you could turn
right. I don't know.

What if I pretend to faint and
sneak a peak and start there?

I'll diagnose you with
not a chance syndrome.

Okay. You can't turn right.

No, you can't, can
you? How's he doing?

He spoke to me.
Did you find out?

You can turn onto Harcourt
Street. It's okay.

Anna said that last
night you rang her.

You wanted to go to
that rehab place.

So I rang this place today.
It's called the Cloysters.

I don't need to go to rehab.

Why don't you just
go and try it?

Meet your roommate, Jacky.

The doctor says that you
probably need to do IVF,

but I don't have 10
grand to just drop

at the slight chance
of having a baby.

What is this? It's
my rainy day fund.

You take what you
need out of it.

Anna, do you think that he's
going to be up for a wedding

in a month? You might have
to push it back a bit.

Aiden, can you hear me?

[monitor beeps rapidly]

Help! Is there
anybody out there?

How long have you
been standing there?

They're gorgeous.

Not too long.

Ten minutes.

Oh, no, I'm not hungry.

Yeah, just take a bite.
No, I'm not hungry.

Come on. Take a bite.

Okay.

Mm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.

Yes.

It's a yeah? Yeah.

I love you. I love
you. I love you.

[UPBEAT THEME MUSIC] ♪ Hey,
I, I wouldn't let him in.

♪ No, I, I wouldn't,
I wouldn't let him in.

♪ His eyes are close together,
and he wears a toothy grin,

don't let him in.

♪ No, I wouldn't if I
were you, let him in.

♪♪

[man grumbles]

Dad.

Oh, you're awake, babe.

How long have I been asleep?

What, a while?

They had us to sedate
you. Where's Aiden?

Love.. What? Where's Aiden?

He's gone.

He died.

Now, Aiden's parents are going
to take him back to America.

They said they'd-Okay, stop.

Do you have my phone?

Yeah. Yeah.

Are you... okay?

Any questions? Yeah.

Do you have a charger?

I don't.

Can I use your phone then?

Yeah. Thanks.

Did you hear what
I said about Aiden?

I did. [laughs]

We have tickets to Glastonbury,
and we had seven laptops online

and two phones just to
get out of the queue.

It's a music festival.
I know what it is.

Millions of people wanted
the tickets, and we got them.

We went to brunch to celebrate,
and Aiden ordered pancakes with

bacon, but they came
with blueberries.

He was so confused and annoyed
because giving people things

that they didn't order
is inherent waste.

So I ate them.

So this is about
the tickets? Yeah.

Millions of people
wanted these tickets.

We got them, and
now we can't go.

So it's the right thing to do.

Anna, love, it isn't for ages.

There's no rush of
something... It is, dad.

People need to make plans.

Can't just rock up to
Glastonbury the day before.

Anna.

Hi. Hey.

Are you okay? I'm so sorry.

Okay?

And we're all here.

Well, not literally, but Maggie
and Helen and Mum were at home.

But Maggie's made a rota.

Do you know anyone who wants
tickets to Glastonbury?

Excuse me?

No, I don't.

Anna?

Are you okay, love?

Aiden's parents said at their
church that they live stream,

so we can all tune
into the funeral.

Or could we all go?

You know, be there in person?

Livestream funeral is
not very consoling.

She can't fly with
a punctured lung.

Yeah, I can't use this.

Can you open marketplace for me?

WHISPER: Marketplace?

I can try, yeah. Mmm.

I just...

It's just really bizarre..

That this is how
you're reacting, Anna.

Aiden.

Yeah, well, if you don't
like it, you can leave.

I don't have a problem.

No, I just...

I'm just saying that I
think it's strange you're

focusing on concert
tickets. It's a festival.

Um, the hospital has
a bereavement team..

Dad... the doctor said.

And maybe... Okay,
stop. Stop, dad.

Don't want you to
say anything else.

Okay? Just leave it, dad.

Just leave it. Yeah.

Just stop... [laughs]

Yeah?

Yeah.

Maybe we can talk
about this later.

Yeah, give me the phone.

All right.

Thank you.

And dad, you really need
to get a proper phone.

This is shite.

[exhales]

[beeping]

[groans]

No.

[knocking] Go away.

f*ck sake.

Open the window now,
please. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Open the window. Yeah, yeah,
I'm trying, I'm trying.

You're in a disabled bay.

Visitors are supposed to use
the main car park at the back.

Yeah, I'm just leaving.
Well, there's a fine.

No, I'm leaving right now.

Well, I have to
give you a ticket.

My sister's fiance just died.

It's not a disability.
It's a tragedy.

There's no parking bay for that.

Ticket. I'm not taking that.

Don't make me call the
guards. What's going on here?

This young lady's
being obstructive.

He wouldn't let me go home.

She's in a disabled
bay. It was a mistake.

I was in a rush to see Anna. Come
on Fergus. She's moving away.

She didn't see the sign.

Her sister's fiance just died.

So she said. I don't
make the rules.

Tickets printed. Uh..

[sighs]

Thanks for trying. Okay? Yeah.

It's just awful.

You know, for Anna.

There's nothing...

Nothing I can do.

It looks like she's got a good
family to help her through this.

Yeah.

Right. [both nervously laugh]

Better head away before
Fergus comes back.

Yeah. God forbid.

Get caught twice in one
day. Wouldn't be good.

Have a good day. You too.

At least, try to. Yeah.

Thanks.

Hmm.

Oh, for f*ck's sake.

I. Am. Going.

Morning, love.

Just logged into
our bank account.

Did you rob a credit union?

No, em...

Dad gave me money in case we
need to go down the IVF route.

IVF?

Yeah, if we need to. Did
you tell him we need to?

No.

But...

We might. We've had one
miscarriage, Maggie.

I don't think we should
even be thinking about going

down the IVF route. So
when do we get help?

We've been trying for
ages and we've managed one

pregnancy that I then lost.

Every month, my eggs
are getting worse.

Like, I'm ageing.

Okay, if we need help, I'm not
taking your father's money.

I love your family, Maggie, but
can you imagine if they paid

for our baby, he'd have the
child signed up to the Youth Wing

in Fianna Fail before it
can even hold its own head.

It's not funny, Paul.
And I'm not joking.

We'll do it naturally
ourselves. Promise me.

Well, if we're
doing it naturally,

the acupuncturist says I need

a different schedule,
based on my cycle.

So how about if I put
that on a chart and we can

stick it up there
and we both see it?

If that's what it takes, yeah.

And tell your father, thank you.

But we've got this.

MAN: So am I giving
her the letter to read

or am I reading it to her?

People reading to
me gives me the ick.

It's so preformative.

Would you not just remember
what you want to say and say it?

Ah, he'd probably lose track
if he gets emotional, y'know?

I have a lot to apologise for.

I don't want to
forget something.

I've been awful, in fairness.

I reckon just give
her the letter,

let her read it in her own time.

I'd want to see
her face, though.

I get it.

Yeah, 'cause you both
get a kick out of seeing

the forgiveness melt across
her face, you narcissist.

She's such a b*tch, and yet
I can't hate her. I can.

I was telling her about Luke
throwing water in my face not

letting me sleep, and she told
me I was the controlling one.

He threw water at ya?

Yeah, while I was asleep.

Was he trying to wake you?

Yeah, but could you not
try, wake up, Rachel?

Huh? Had you taken something?

Tiny sleeping pill.

[laughs] No, no. Team Luke.

Team Luke.

You were unconscious.
He was terrified.

You can't fool us.

I'm going in.

Are you all right there?

These straws are a crime.

Yeah, but at least
you're saving the planet.

Still, though.

Can hold his drink
better than you can.

[both laugh] You know what?

After that comment, I'm
not sure you deserve this.

[gasps]

Every time you get an ice coffee,
you complain about the straw.

Every time. And you listen?

I do listen.

It's funny how you never
remember your own spare one.

Thank you.

I don't need foresight like
that when I've got you.

Because I'm the best.

You are the best.

I love you.

I love you, too.

Race you to the goal
post. Mmhmm. Go!

That's not fair! I'm in heels!

[both laugh]

Have you done things for
your significant other

that he or she should
have done for themselves.

Have you ever experienced any
health problems as a result

of your significant other?

Have you ever paid a
bill for your loved one?

Stop, Luke. Does
that count, Rachel?

When did Rachel start
showing signs of addiction?

When did you start noticing your
partner's addictive behaviour?

Has she showed any traits of
abusiveness in your relationship?

Have you, Rachel?

Rachel, answer me.
Rachel! Rachel!

[bang]

It's just the other
side. Oh, Jesus Christ.

Oh, my God. f*ck.
Sorry. Oh, my God.

My heart. They can't
lock us in here.

We're not prisoners.

Oh, my God.

I'm such an idiot.

If I was smart, I'd come
up with some big metaphor

about locking yourself in
because you're too stubborn

and to turn the lock.

What has you up?

Can't sleep.

Yeah, same. Going
to go for a walk.

Sher there's always a few
of us that can't sleep, so.

Hang in there.

Sleep and addicts
don't always get on.

Yeah, I don't know what it is.

It's like, once I try
and sleep, it's like,

remember that time in fifth class
when everyone got a cupcake,

there's none left for you?

Wait, you're telling me
that something from 15

years ago as you awake?

Yeah. Bullshit.

[Rachel clears throat]

Also, they sent my boyfriend
that questionnaire.

Just worry that Luke's going to
be really cruel when he answers.

He might be. How do I stop him?

Can't.

It's just going to make me
sound like such a monster.

Why does it matter what a bunch
of addicts think about you?

I just...

I just want to explain the
questions to him, you know?

How to answer.

In the context of the ISO, like.

So what, you're just going to
rock up to his gaffe at 2:00 AM,

start telling him how to
answer questions to make you

look like a normal person?

[laughs]

Yeah, when you put it
like that, I mean, yeah.

[sighes]

What do you do when
your mind won't shut up?

You mean, when the
addict takes over?

I'll show you.

Actually, look at number
three there on the list.

God, I'm too tired to read.

Number three.

Choose to let go of control.

Okay.

Stand there. Okay.

Right. So I'm just
going to get you to.

You're just going to
turn around, right?

Okay. And you're just
going to fall into my arms.

Oh, okay. Is that cool?

Yeah. Do you mind
if I touch you?

No, please. Wherever, yeah.

Just the shoulders. Okay.

So, turn around.

And then you're just going to...

Well, the under the arms as well

because you're going
to fall into me.Okay.

Well, you better catch me.
Of course, I'll catch you.

Trusting you here. Why
wouldn't I catch you?

Okay, just let it
go. Okay, okay.

Yeah. Oh, Jesus.

Nice. That was really good.

That was actually
really, really good.

There was a little bit
of stiffness there.

So it's just like
you're still holding on.

You're not fully...

You're not trusting. Look,
here, I'll just show you.

Okay, I'll show you. Alright?

So you catch me and just
watch.. I'm catching you?

No time to think. Shut
off the head.Okay.Ready?

Okay, let's go. Ready?
I'm going to catch you.

Watch my body.

[groans] Jesus Christ.

[both laugh] Ow.

Oh, my funny bone.

That's good, Helen. That's good.

Can you tell me a little
bit more about the feelings

of anxiety that you experience
when you go into the lectures?

I don't know.

I guess it feels like
I don't want to commit

to studying because then if
I do, I'm just going to fail.

It happened before and
what's not going to say it's

going to happen again.

But I did go in a couple of
times this week and I felt

like it was a bit better.

But I just don't...

Jesus, knock.

Who knocks on a door
in their own home?

Shouldn't you be
studying or something?

I am. In bed?

Yes.

When your father was in college,
he was chained to the library

and he had massive books
weighing his back down as he

walked home every day. Barefoot?

[woman sighs] What do you want?

Anna's coming home on Friday.

She moving back in
here? Of course she is.

Where else is she going to go?

We need to keep an eye
on her with that lung.

She's coming to this room, this
bed, which needs to be made

up, and all that clutter
has to disappear.

Alright?

Right. I'm off.

Okay.

What's this?

So I was doing this
schedule for visiting Anna,

and I thought I would make
one for us as well.Right.

We are having sex
every day for a week.

Yeah. More than a week.

But I've put it into your
calendar, and it'll just pop

up on your screen. Sex now.

What if I'm in a meeting?

I'm joking.

It's not going to say
that. It's just my name.

Very subtle. No one will notice.

It's a bit weird
planning daily sex

with everything that's going on.

I did think about that, but
we're running out of time, Paul.

I don't know what
else to tell you.

I know, one month. But you
see, it's not one month.

This month it's Anna,
next month it'll be Mum,

then Claire need me to my Kate,
then you'll be away from work.

There's always something.

Okay, I don't want to upset you.

If you think this is what we
should do, I'm happy to do it.

Okay? Yeah, but do you
think I'm being selfish?

I don't think you've
ever been selfish.

See ya.

Bye.

Rachel.

Rachel, come on, wake
up. It's time for group.

Your parents are downstairs.

Josephine is going to get
very pissed if she sees

you snuck in a nap.

Can see why Luke
tossed water on you.

Come on now.

Time for group, let's go.

God, I love these.

Mine, not so much.
It was brutal.

How did you take it?

Externally, with grace, but
internally, not so well.

It was horrendous.

Thanks for coming in,
Mr. And Mrs Walsh.

We like to start with
family for context.

No bother.

I see you haven't managed to
complete the questionnaire.

Oh, sorry. Yeah, with
Anna and everything that-

And Jack let the printer
run out of ink, so.

It would be good to
hear how you both have

experienced Rachel's
addiction. Well, they haven't.

You didn't know it
did drugs, did you?

I wouldn't have dreamed
that a child of mine...

Well, see?

I mean, how could they be
impacted by something they

didn't know was
happening? Touche.

Jackie.

Rachel, please
stop interrupting.

I'm not interrupting.

You're just putting
thoughts in people's heads.

They didn't know I did drugs, so
how could I have impacted them?

You know as well as I
do that the personality,

the attitude of
someone in addiction

impacts the whole family.

Mum, people in here have
beaten up their families.

I mean, they put their parents
into debt with drug dealers who've

put petrol bombs in
their letter boxes.

I mean, come on, please
tell everyone in this room

that I have never, ever,
ever done anything like that.

Jesus, if she was
at that sorta stuff,

we'd have known
there was an issue.

Oh, no, we had no idea.

So she's never caused
you any trouble?

What they said no.
That's not what we said.

Well, they've all given us
grief at one time or another.

Go on.

I don't want to dredge up
the past and upset her.

Why?

What happens when
you upset Rachel?

What kind of leading
question is that?

Stop interrupting.
This is quite typical.

We've never been able to have
a conversation about Rachel's

troubles without
her storming off.

[laughs] That's bullshit.

You do storm off
quite a bit, Rachel.

Are you seriously
adding to this, Jackie?

I'm sorry.

Well, I'm sorry, dad. What
do you mean by troubles?

Rachel is a troublemaker,
not in the petrol bombs,

or stealing kind of way, but
we have been on eggshells

around you since
you were a child.

Okay, Mary, go easy.

Mrs Walsh is allowed to express
herself in this room, Mr Walsh.

For as long as I can
remember, it's been like this.

The success of every
occasion depended on Rachel.

If she was happy, we
had a grand old time.

Her mood dictated the
mood of the whole house,

the whole car journey,
the whole holiday,

whatever it was. That's a lie.

So you're telling me Claire
never ever threw a strop

or stormed around
when James left her?

Or Helen's constant critique
of everything anyone ever does.

It's different, love.

Everyone has their dramas.

Sure, house, with that many
women, how could we avoid it?

But when you're
upset or hungover,

you can't just let
everyone else be.

The whole house, everyone in
it, has to bend to your will.

Do you remember France?

If everyone bent to my will,
I wouldn't have any problems.

And that's a lie,
you're lying 'cause

I didn't even go to France.

You know the holiday
I'm talking about.

This is what we mean, Rachel.

Your intolerance is
impossible to live with,

expecting us all to be
perfect. Are you joking?

You think I'm only happy
when everyone else around

me is perfect?

Well, no wonder I'm
never f*cking happy.

Look, maybe this was a bad idea.

We didn't come
here to upset her.

Jack, don't do that. Do what?

You always do this. What?

You're so uncomfortable
I'm upsetting the girls.

You back down. We don't need
to be getting into fights here.

It's not a fight. Sounds
like a fight to me.

Yeah, calling me intolerant.

No, Rachel. She said
your intolerance.

Oh, shut up, you wife beater.
I'm not putting up with this.

This is bat sh*t.

She can't say that to them.

Rachel, stop.

I'm sorry, don't even make me
out to be some unreasonable b*tch

who grew up abusing their
poor and meek parents.

You have no idea what it
was like to live with them.

The teeniest mistake
was a disaster.

Mum, tell them about the time
that you abandoned me, all of us,

because I ate Maggie's
Easter egg when I was sick.

What are you talking about?

I ate Maggie's Easter egg and
you left for a week and you

didn't come back.
When? I don't know.

Easter? Granddad died, love.

That's why she left..

I only ever left for a
week when my father died.

And you thought
it was your fault?

Yeah, I thought she was
angry because I upset Maggie.

Can you not see from that example
alone how self-centered you are?

Can you not see

that as my mother, you
should have told me why you

left and not left me
feeling guilty for 22 years?

For God's sake, Rachel,
it's all about you.

Has it even dawned on you
to ask about Anna or Aiden

or what's happened?
Mary! What's happened?

Aiden is dead. He died.

He's lying in a morgue
because he was stupid enough

to go and try and collect you
from some pub or other. Mary!

Sit down. Okay.

Can we all just take a second?

He's dead?

What do you mean he's dead?

What do I mean?
Dead is dead. What?

But Anna said he
was talking. He was.

And now he's dead, and you
didn't even think to ask.

He was talking. He was
talking, and now he's not.

Why didn't you tell me?

Anna's okay, love.

Does she want to see me?

Okay.

I'm going to finish this
session now, everybody.

That kind of information can
really derail a recovery.

We're sorry.

We agreed we wouldn't say it.

And what, keep it from
me? You drove me to it.

Cool.

Blame me.

Shock, horror.

Oh, God.

[Frank sighs]

Don't.

It's going to be okay.

It is not.

She'll find her a
way. Not Rachel! Us.

Jack, I'm sick of seeming like
a viper because you are so, so

petrified of people
not liking you.

Rachel is going to feel
the guilt of Aiden's death

for the rest of her
life. Isn't that enough?

I didn't want to be
mean. You're saying I am?

I didn't say that.

But you'd think it.

[groans]

If you were in my ISO,
you wouldn't be handing me

chocolate full of holes.
I need solid chocolate.

You know, when my mom died, I got
in bed surrounded by chocolate.

But then I rolled over in
my sleep and woke up looking

like I sh*t myself. Wow.

If my mum died...

Don't finish that
sentence, Rachel.

You know, today was tough.

She was mad, but obviously,
she was trying to help.

If you took my mother's side,
I'm going to switch rooms.

My room will be available soon.

I mean, you can book
in with John Joe.

Oh, gross.

What you did today was
really sh*t, Rachel.

Are you seriously having
a go with me after what

I've just been through?
You broke my anonymity.

There are rules. Rules?

You know what else
are rules, Neil? Laws.

Like not beating your
wife. I was drunk.

I'm an alcoholic, and I'm
doing something about it,

but using my life to make
yours look better is a joke.

You're f*cked if you
do that in the future.

Really Neil, punching
your wife in the face?

Just eat the chocolate
if you want it that much.

You know, not everybody caves
into their impulses, Neil.

Thank you.

Do you think that
crash was my fault?

I mean, I was in a
bar waiting for them,

but I was nowhere near the car.

Were they on their way to you?

So, was the Titanic
America's fault?

Ow. You alright?

Do you think Celine would give
me something for a toothache?

I mean, there's nothing
worse than a toothache.

Ask her.

Come back in seven
days for a repeat

chest X-ray, and you must take
the full course of antibiotics.

Any breathing issues or shortness
of breath, come straight back in.

I have a daughter who's
a problem with drugs.

Should I be sleeping with
those under my pillow?

They're antibiotics.

Was he an organ donor?

Yeah.

What organs did they take?

Like, did they take his
eyes or heart, lungs?

I can't really disclose.

You don't need to
know that, Anna.

I want to know what parts of
him are living in someone else.

I'm so sorry, Anna, but I can't.

Can I go home now?

Yeah.

Actually, maybe we should look
at adding some sedatives to your

prescription just in case.

Those would be mood altering,

so you might not want
them lying around.

The week I've had, I
might take the lot myself.

Mum, like dad, Jesus.

I've problems, too.

Dad? Em...

They'll be under
lock and key, doctor.

Mind yourself, Anna. Yeah.

Thanks, doctor. Thank you, then.

I appreciate all you did.

Okay? Thank you.

What time will you
be back tonight?

Eh, I don't know.

I've got meetings all day,
but a client dinner at 8:00.

Why? Because we have
to have sex today.

Right.

A bit busy. When
were you thinking?

I don't know. Could you come
home before your dinner?

No.

By the time I drive home
and rush out of traffic,

it'll be time to turn and
go straight back out again.

Yeah, okay.

I'll come to you.

To the office?

Yeah. To have sex?

SAYS LIGHTLY: Yes.

BARE WHISPER: It's a sex day.

Sex at work? Mm-hmm.

I'll be ready. See you later.

You okay? Yeah.

Oh no, mum's put you in my room

in case you need any help
or try and off yourself.

Not that I think you will,
but you won't, will you?

No.

No, I won't. Good.

Although, Rachel might when
she hears we're sharing a room.

She'll be raging. Yeah, I don't
want to talk about Rachel.

Grand, more than happy
just to talk about myself?

I cleared some space.

This is your side. Please
don't get them mixed up.

Don't mean no offence, but
your clothes are gross.

I want to go home.

This is home?

No, I mean my home.

Yeah, but the doctor said...

Jesus, Helen, for my clothes.

I just want my clothes.

Sorry. I'm sorry.

It's fine.

Come on, I'll take you.

Yeah?

♪ It must have been
love ♪ But it's over

♪ It was all that I wanted...

[changes station] ♪ What
do I do without you?

God, sorry.

[changes station] ♪ Where
does a broken heart ♪

Jesus Christ, I'm...
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay.

All right, thanks a
mill. Bye, bye, bye.

The dentist will see
you in the morning.

Can you not just get me
something to numb the pain?

No, because it'll
only be back tomorrow.

You know, Rachel, try to
see this as an opportunity

to deal with life like an adult.

MIMICK: Let me see
this as an opportunity.

You'll be sorry when I'm dead.

Yeah, no one ever died
of a tooth ache, Rachel.

That you know of!

Right, well, I'll go check
what's in Rachel's wardrobe

and... shame to leave
it all hanging there.

[gentle sentimental music plays]

MUFFLED: sh*t, sorry.

[inhales]

[shaky breathing]

[breathing quickens] I love you.

[panicked breathing]

Anna. Hey, you okay?

Anna. Anna.

Okay, breathe.
Just breathe, Anna.

Okay, breathe with me.

Okay, in for four.

One, two, three,
four. Hold for five.

Hold for 5, Anna. 5, 4,


You're okay, Anna. You're okay.

Just-blow out the candle.
Yeah, blow it out.

[both blow, Anna
breath still shaky]

Good Anna, good. Yeah?

You're okay. You're okay.

You okay? Thank you.

No bother.

[big exhale]

Although you might have another
panic attack when you see

the state of Rachel's room.

There's a half eaten, rotting
kebab under the bed too.

Although how she got any of it
down her if she's doing this much

cocaine is anyone's guess.

Does it always look like this?

She's allergic to people
coming in her room.

No wonder she's in rehab.

Hopefully for 12,000 euro

they'll teach her how to
clean up after herself.

Should probably get rid of
the actual health hazards,

but she could do the rest
herself when she gets out.

I'll get a bin bag.

How did I not see this?

Actually, let's go
to Harcourt Street.

It's going to be late now.

Yeah, the street will
still be there, won't it?

Are you sure you want
to do that, Anna?

Are you going to start panting?

Helen, take me to Harcourt Street
right now or I'm gonna scream.

Okay. Okay.

Please don't scream at
me when I'm driving.

Then take me to Harcourt Street.

She lied to me.

She didn't want to upset you.
Do you think I'd never find out?

Do you think I just
wouldn't come and check?

I'd never just walk
this way again.

Rachel, I doubt she even
thought that far ahead.

She's been lying to me
about everything for ages.

I was so panicked that night.

I was so panicked to get to her
before she did something f*cking

stupid that I told Aiden
to go the wrong way.

Anna.

We would never have been in
the car if it wasn't for her.

Aiden.

You lied as well. Anna.

I knew we shouldn't have come.

This is why.

They've drawn together a list
that has everything boxed off.

There's not a... I can't imagine
a room in here that they...

I'm trying to think is there
anything else they could need.

There's not. Really, really, what
we never really mentioned when

we were walking around here was
the fact that I wanted to have

a place for my mum to live.

Ow. Stop it.

I barely touched you.
What are you doing?

Mum gave Claire a dig
together to speak to you.

Why? Mum, why are
you being so weird?

Because you're
really quiet, love.

All Well, Aidan died, actually.

So I don't know if you heard.

There's no need to speak
to me like that, Anna.

Yeah, but Mum, why are you
surprised that I'm being quiet?

I think we just thought that
there'd be more tears rather

than just... the sound
of you breathing.

I'm off to bed.

It still daytime outside, love.

Yeah, I'm tired.
It's been a long day.

Would you like some of my
good moisturiser, Anna?

Your poor face...

Moisturiser? Mum.
What else would I say?

Seriously?

Has she cried yet?
To any of you?

Not to me, anyway.

Leave the girl alone. No, dad.

Don't leave her alone.
It's not fight club.

She can talk about it.

What's fight club?

What's fight club?

Okay. Well, I'm off.

See you. All right, love.

Oh, boy.

♪ My heart is going low.

♪ As only a woman's heart
can be.. [Anna mumbles along]

♪ As only a woman's,
as only a woman's...

♪ As only a woman's heart
can know [Anna mumbles along]

♪ The tears that
drip from my.. Hello?

Have I opened a
door to the past?

Yeah, sorry, I'm
colonising your room.

Why are you playing
Women's Heart?

Do you not have enough
to be sad about.

[stops music] You know.

See, that's the thing.
I'm actually not sad.

I don't feel anything.

I thought Mary, you know.

She might stir something.

Maybe you should play
that Christmas ad.

You know the one?
What's it for again?

The English Department store.

Mmm. Not Debenhams.

You know it always makes
you cry. What is it?

I've already watched
it on YouTube.

Absolutely nothing.

I think I'm broken.

I always thought
heartbreak was like a pain.

Maybe it is like a broken.

Was it not functioning?

It's like, why am I?

Why am I crying? He's dead.

You're in shock.

It's normal, I think.

None of this feels normal.

I'll let you rest.

John Lewis.

[music continues]

♪ ..From my bewildered
eyes [Anna hums along]

[door opens] Anna,
turn that off, come on.

[music stops]

[gentle folk music plays]

Great. Thanks.

[light knock on door]

Hi. Hello.

You said 7:30?

I know, but I didn't know how
long it would take to find

somewhere, you know? Get set up.

Set up? Did you bring a swing?

[nervous laugh] I'm nervous.

So am I. There's
still people here.

Yeah, but look, they won't see.

Ready, Mr. Paul Garvin?

WHISPER: You know, if we
ever do conceive from this,

we can't tell the kids, okay?

Deal? Maggie, stop.

Okay.

[light groan]

[groans]

Great.

Great job. Thank you.

Phew. What are you doing?

Just giving your
sperm a helping hand.

PANTING: You know,
I had a fantasy

for years about us
having sex at work.

Really? Yeah.

Didn't think it would
be this uncomfortable.

Yeah, well, we're not here
to be comfortable, Paul.

We're here to have a baby.

What are you doing? Jesus,
you have the ears of a lynx.

Yeah, well I haven't
raised five girls

without being able to know the
sound of somebody creeping out

when they're supposed
to be in bed?

Where's Anna? Asleep, upstairs.

We aren't siamese twins.

No, but you're supposed to
be keeping an eye on her.

I was keeping an eye on her,
and then she fell asleep.

And I remembered that it's


at the library.



Yeah, it's a new thing for
night owls, like myself.

I didn't want to miss it.

So what studying
in the dark, like?

No, obviously, they
turned the lights on.

But yeah, studying at night
is meant to be good for...

endorphins.

See you later.

[sighes]

Endorphins!

I don't believe a word
out of that girl's mouth.

Is that a mean thing to say?

Being cruel again, am I?

If I had known you wouldn't
speak to me for an entire day,

I wouldn't have said anything.

Well, maybe you shouldn't have.

Now, Rachel Walsh. Yeah, here.

You have to get up.

Oh, yes, I see. Yes, yes.

Right. All good.

So I'm fine? Oh, no.

Tooth has to go
today. It's infected.

But you'll numb
me up, won't you?

Nothing like that
for you, I'm afraid,

just good old courage.

Now, back you go.

[sighs] Oh, my God.

So what are you then? An addict?

An alcoholic?

I'm not an addict.

Okay, but you're in the
Cloysters for something.

I love a glass of wine myself.

Only in the evenings, though.

Last weekend, I was on it
hard from Friday till Sunday.

I'd have a wee sip of whiskey
on Monday to steady myself.

Just a tiny sip.

And a little blast
of gas and air.

[laughs]

Now, be good. Let's open.

Now, I'm gonna...

Now...

open, good.

I'm going to wiggle this
now. [Rachel screams]

Right, you might want to rinse.

Where's my tooth?

Okay.

Oh, the makings of a nice rose.

[laughs]

Oh, so you lived then?

Sorry, not only did I live,
but I got a tooth removed

without any anaesthesia.

Point out one drug
addict that can do that.

I'll wait. You won't wait.

We have to pay. Come on.

And then he takes a
drink in the morning,

and he sometimes have
a go on the gas and air

for the hangovers.

I'm not the one
with the problem.

You never had a drink or a
drug in the morning time, no?

Okay.

Come on.

How are you feeling
after that ISO?

I really need to talk
to Anna. Why don't you?

Josephine has my phone.

I'll talk to her.

[sentimental piano music]

[phone rings]

Hi... Hi, Anna. It's
me. ..this is Anna.

Please leave a message.

[dialling]

[line goes dead]

Oh my God.

She blocked me.

[sentimental music continues]

Hey, it's Aiden.

Please don't leave a message.

Just send a text and
I'll get back to you.

Hey, it's Aiden. Please
don't leave a message.

Just send a text and
I'll get back to you.

[phone vibrating]

Aiden, I just spoke to your mom,

and I just needed
to hear your voice.

I...

How could I have been with you
last week, and now you're gone?

[woman sobs]

♪ I woke away from home

♪ Your residing words,
reach across my husk

♪ Go long and face it all.

♪ We speak with iron tongues
and temper the heart for me.

♪ Our love bore the wildest sea,

♪ If I was you then
I'd take it all back

♪ Our love bore the wildest sea.