[upbeat pop music]
* *
- * Hold your hands up high *
* It's good to be alive *
both: [singing scales]
* That's hot *
* That's hot *
- And let's remember
to open your mouth, so...
both: * That's hot *
- Absolutely.
- Crypto's here
for her singing lesson.
- Crypto, you'd better
be taking notes, honey.
I want to hear
these barks in...
[plays chord]
This key.
Here we go.
* All the gays are gonna be *
both:
* Sliving, sliving, sliving *
[laughter]
* *
- Ugh, this is giving
"Jurassic Park."
- [laughing]
"Jurassic Park"?
- Absolutely.
So I've heard some of the songs
being submitted right now.
Have you picked out
your favorites?
- There's so many.
Like, it's hard
to, like, choose.
- If we can get these songs out
and have them connect to you,
I feel like that's what's
gonna get people hooked.
- Performing "Stars are Blind"
on New Year's Eve
inspired me just to get back
into the studio and do music.
My album came out in 2006,
so my fans have been
waiting for this.
Crypto loves music.
Yes.
I love everything I do,
but a lot of it,
especially right now,
is very serious,
and, you know...
- Right.
- Everything I'm doing
in Washington D.C.,
and all of--
- Yeah, it's a lot.
And I feel like music for me
is the thing
that makes me most happy.
- Yeah, I can see that.
- Like, that's when I feel like
I light up, and I feel just--
I don't know,
just most fulfilled.
- Like, I know for me,
like, as a kiddo
in a super Christian house
where I wasn't allowed
to be a g*y boy,
music was the one place
I could be onstage and be like,
oh, I am
Aretha Franklin today.
[laughter]
- I just feel like the timing
is perfect with everything.
Like, I'm finally
taking back my voice...
- Mm-hmm.
- And taking back
ownership of myself.
When I was at
Provo Canyon School,
music was taken away from me
for almost two years
of my life.
We weren't allowed
to listen to it.
We couldn't sing.
So after what I went through,
I would listen to music,
and it just made me feel alive.
In some ways,
music saved my life.
Now with Phoenix,
I just want to show him
that you can do it all.
- Right.
- But I don't know,
I feel like in my life,
I've just learned to, like,
always expect the worst.
- Are you nervous?
Are you--
- Yes.
I'm so shy,
so to sing is just scary to me.
- I understand those nerves,
but I think we can
turn them into, like,
something, like,
really incredible.
This is your reintroduction,
recording the album.
We need to have
as much fun as possible.
- Obviously.
- Yeah.
- Oh, my God,
the cat just came back.
Yay.
- Hey, Cutes.
- Cutesie!
She looks like a leopard.
She's so pretty.
Look at the way she walks.
- But she's also feral.
- [laughs] No.
- Oh.
- Feral is, like, wild.
- Oh, OK.
- [gasps]
[cat hisses]
- No!
Cutesie, you have long nails.
- She's gonna eat Crypto.
- [laughs]
Cutesie!
* *
- * Think you can claim me *
* Think you can break me *
* 'Cause, baby,
I don't have the time, no *
- So all of this is approved.
But these,
the crop ones, are just--
I just tried it on.
It's not--
- Too tight.
- It's so tight.
Tell them all of this leopard,
beyond.
It looks cheap.
And then this color
is kind of drab.
- It's so chic, yeah.
I'm gonna go change
really quick.
* *
[chuckles]
* *
- I'm good.
How are you?
- Hi.
- Hello.
- What's up?
- Just on my way to the studio.
- What are you recording?
- My new album.
I've done, like,
four songs so far.
- Yes.
- It's so sick.
June 7th, I'm doing
my first live concert
at the Fonda Theatre.
I'm gonna be headlining.
- June 7th, in LA.
- Yes!
- I'm gonna be introducing
the new bill
so we could push it
for federal legislation
in all 50 states.
- What is the bill?
- The Stop
Institutional Child Abuse Act.
It's basically
giving children rights
in the troubled teen industry.
As punishment, you're not
allowed to abuse them,
which should
be common sense,
but unfortunately, it's not.
And inspections
because there's no oversight
or regulation.
So literally, these people--
it's just like the Wild West.
They have nobody
looking after them,
and they're only getting
checked on every--
once every 3 and 1/2 years.
- Oh, wow.
- Prior to this trip,
I'd gone to D.C.
to build support for the bill,
but the bill
was never actually real.
This trip is the official
introduction to Congress.
Legislators could now show
their support by signing on.
- Oh, sick.
- Oh, really?
- Mm-hmm.
- Like, all the pink trees?
- Mm-hmm.
- That's so cute.
I wanna get a picture
in front of it
in the pink outfit.
[both chuckle]
- Yes.
With everything
that's been going on recently,
especially after
the whole book situation,
I was having doubts
about my mom coming to D.C.
I got to talk to my mom
before I went on my book tour.
She just kept
kind of making me feel bad
about me being a bad kid.
- Yeah.
- This trip's
so important to me,
and I think it might be
a better idea
if I just tell her not to come.
After thinking about it a lot,
I changed my mind.
She's been really helpful
with writing letters
to the lawmakers in Montana
to help make changes
to the congregate
care system there.
- 35 having voted yes,
15 have voted no,
House Bill 2318
has passed the Senate.
- Mr. President, House Bill...
- You guys did it!
- Yes!
- We did?
- You passed it!
And Kathy, this was
the first bill that you...
[baby crying]
Really helped on significantly,
so thank you so much.
- With my mom there,
it shows that my family
is a united front.
OK, I'm pulling up now
to the studio.
I love you.
- Bye.
- Bye.
[kisses]
* *
Hi.
all: Hi.
- What's up, y'all?
- You look amazing.
- Thank you.
- I love the pink, honey.
How are you?
- Good.
- "Hot Ones,"
we're crushing it today.
- Love it.
- I was thinking we can track,
like, the spoken parts.
- [muttering lyrics]
When they say,
"Chad, he the hung one,"
do they mean hungover,
or like...
- I think they mean, like...
- Hung.
- Hung. [giggles]
- Like...
- Like, he's blessed.
- That kind of hung.
- Yeah.
[laughter]
- Is that weird for me to say,
"He the hung one"?
It's kind of funny, but...
- [muttering lyrics]
- I don't know,
is Carter gonna, like,
think I'm weird
saying, my friend
with the big [bleep]?
- I think because
it rhymes with "fun."
- Oh.
We could, like,
record "hung" just to have.
- Do you want
to hear it in the room?
- Yeah.
- * That's what I like *
* We got *
- * Britt, she the fun one *
* Chad, he the hung one *
* Sage, they the shy one *
* Zane, the always high one *
* Tess is the lit one *
* Brett is the fit one *
* Oh, sh*t, I forgot one *
* Me, I'm the hot one *
- [chuckles]
- Yeah!
- It's just been incredible
to have so many
amazing producers
all writing me
these epic songs.
- It's just something
that feels so right for me
at this moment in my life.
This is a new era for me,
musically.
It's really about proving
to myself and to everyone
that I've evolved
and grown as an artist.
- Yeah, that's gonna be great.
- Yes.
It's nerve-wracking and scary.
The stakes are high,
and I just hope
I can deliver the magic
that everyone's expecting.
- OK, I think we can move on.
- Let's do the first two lines,
if you're good with that.
- * Legacy *
- * I don't really care
what they think they know *
- Let's make sure
we're getting...
* I don't really care *
- * I don't really care
what they think they know *
* They only see
all the glitter and gold *
- Let's just get more into it.
- My song "Legacy,"
it's definitely more difficult
to sing than a lot
of my other songs,
mostly because
the cadence is moving so fast,
and the verses are very wordy,
and then I'm going from
a low register up to high.
It's kind of just
back and forth with that.
- Let's do two,
giving us pop queen.
- * In your arms, all I need *
- A little tiny bit longer.
You were almost there.
- Yeah.
* In your arms, all I need *
- Yes, let's get
more comfortable in that.
- Sunglasses are going back on.
- OK, that means--
- Period.
- That means it's really on.
- * In your arms, all I need *
- Yes, ma'am!
- Oh!
- Whoo!
- Yes.
- Let's get
two more just like that.
- Yes.
* *
- OK, this is just
for editing purposes.
We'll go through line by line,
like we did the last time
that we went to D.C.
- "Ladies and gentlemen,
good afternoon."
"Ladies and gentlemen,"
is that weird?
- We can just start with,
"Good afternoon.
I'm Paris Hilton."
- Yeah.
- OK.
- "Good afternoon.
I'm Paris Hilton,
"and I'm so grateful
to announce the introduction
"of the bipartisan Stop
Institutional Child Abuse Act.
"When I was at
Provo Canyon School,
"I was forced to lie back
on a padded table
"and submit to a cervical exam.
"As a new parent,
I now understand the lengths
"I would go to help my child,
"and no longer blame
my mom and dad.
"They trusted the experts
who told them I would die
without these
extreme interventions."
I feel like if I start it off
like, "I no longer blame,"
then she's just gonna,
like, right away--
take it as a negative thing
in the beginning.
- With your mom there--
the first trip,
she obviously was very upset...
- Yeah.
- By the speech.
- For 20 years,
I couldn't sleep at night
as memories
of physical violence,
the feeling of loneliness,
the loss of peers
rushed through my mind
when I shut my eyes.
My parents were promised
that tough love would fix me.
Imagine if it was your child
who was suffering abuse?
Wouldn't you do everything
in your power to protect them?
- Is she mad at me?
- It's not about the--
- What, saying the part--
the part that
they didn't come rescue me?
- I don't blame you.
I feel it does take the onus
off of the decision
that they made.
- [speaking softly]
"My child..."
Don't even say
the word "blame,"
because that
will get her upset.
I honestly don't know
how my mom is feeling
about the trip this year
because she doesn't really talk
about her emotions.
And already,
even writing this speech
is why I considered
uninviting her.
I need to focus
on myself and this cause,
not on pleasing her.
And now you're officially
introducing this bill.
This is the biggest moment
we've ever had
in the last
2 and 1/2 years,
and I want you to feel that,
and I want you to enjoy it.
Are you nervous about anything?
- I'm just deciding
if I should wear
that turquoise suit
or not.
My mom was making me nervous.
- Really?
- I would not wear turquoise.
Be very conservative.
Navy or black.
You want to really
be taken serious.
- I know.
- Not a Playgirl.
[tense pop music]
- Everybody in D.C. knows
that you are serious,
and that you are a survivor,
and that you are an advocate.
I don't think wearing color
minimizes that.
- Yeah.
* *
[upbeat pop music]
* *
- So cute.
I'm gonna miss him so much.
- Really?
Hi, world.
Am I a sweet boy?
[smooching]
Do you look like Mommy?
Aww.
A smiling one.
He's so little and cute.
OK.
Yeah, that's perfect.
- Yeah.
- Because then
when he's laying here
and, like, getting a massage,
or doing his diapers,
he can look at us.
[laughter]
* *
- Hello, how are you?
Paris being back in D.C.
and having
to relive these moments
in front of my mom
does weigh on her.
Paris is a grown,
married woman with a child,
but she still does
get scared of my mom.
Thank you so much.
- I don't know.
She just has it in her head.
So while in D.C.,
I imagine I'll be
a great buffer.
Wow, my bags beat me here.
- It's lovely to have you here.
It's a pleasure.
- Thank you.
It's great to be back.
[shower running]
* *
- Hello.
- Hi, honey.
- People in the hallway
were just looking
at me like I was insane.
- Can you do me a favor
and grab
a couple of my baby pillows...
- Yeah.
- For my back?
- You're so funny,
you travel with these.
- Do you know I sleep
with baby pillows?
- I do know.
And the dogs do too, right?
- Mm-hmm.
- Here.
- Great.
- How was your flight?
- Good.
I'm just exhausted.
I haven't stopped.
- Are we gonna have
any time off tomorrow
to walk around?
- Um, I'm trying to think.
[soft dramatic music]
Last time I was
in Washington,
I felt anxious,
uncomfortable.
Rick was unable to join me,
so I felt kind of all alone.
- I don't feel nervous.
We've come so far
in the last couple of years.
I'm really feeling
very ambitious.
I'm jacked up.
I really want to sing,
"I Will Survive."
- [laughing] What?
- I might tomorrow.
- [laughing]
- I would love
the look on Paris's face.
- She's probably a little more
relaxed this time around, no?
- Um...
* *
- Thank you, sir.
- You ready?
- Yeah.
- All right.
* *
- How's Phoenix?
- He's so cute.
- She sent me a picture of him.
- I have a little video
of him literally smiling
with an ear-to-ear grin.
- Yeah!
Are you smiling?
- Oh, my goodness.
- Is she calling me?
[phone chirping]
Yeah.
- Yo.
- We're in Washington.
- We're in D.C., b*tch.
- And we were
just talking about you.
- Do you guys want
to go to Joe's Stone Crab?
So b*mb, I didn't even know
they have it here.
- I'm so exhausted.
I have to get up at 5:00
in the morning to get ready.
- Oh.
- So tired.
- How many appointments
do you have tomorrow?
- I don't even know.
Ten?
[yawns]
- All right,
well, get some rest,
and we will see you tomorrow.
- OK, honey.
- OK.
- Bye.
- Bye, honey.
- I'll just put it
here for now,
and then open everything up
and just place it, OK?
- I just need my eyeliner.
- So Paris seemed
just under so much pressure.
- Mm-hmm.
No, I agree.
- Should I open this one,
or do you know which one it is?
- I don't know.
It's, like, in the toiletries.
- Right here, Paris.
[groans]
* *
- And introducing the next
female Commander in Chief,
President Paris Hilton!
[all cheering]
- Let's do this.
[laughter]
- Just remember how proud I am
of you today, OK?
- Yes.
- You worked
so hard for this day,
so you got to take in
the moment.
Have a little triumph
along the way, OK?
You got to celebrate the wins.
Oh, no. OK.
OK, let's go.
Don't ruin your lipstick.
Rock and roll.
* *
- D.C. is intense.
With the help of my sponsors
in the Senate,
I'll be working to tell as
many legislators as possible
about my story.
- I have
back-to-back meetings
with senators
and representatives.
I need to get congresspeople
on board
to sign on to this bill
so it can actually become law.
* *
Hi.
- Hey, good morning.
Greg Murphy, North Carolina.
- When I was there,
I was verbally,
mentally, physically,
and sexually abused.
That's why we need this bill,
to find out the good ones
from the bad ones.
Because, unfortunately,
there are so many bad ones.
- So my mom is here
with me now
to be supportive
because all of these families
are manipulated and lied to.
My parents thought
I was just going
to a normal boarding school.
They had no idea.
[indistinct chatter]
* *
- Beautiful day.
This bill is so important
because there's
hundreds of thousands
of children who are being
sent to these places,
and hundreds of children have
died in the name of treatment,
and it's just horrifying
that this has now turned into
a $23 billion a year industry.
And there's just
no transparency.
* *
- Mom?
- What's up?
- You are?
- Mm.
Is it hot in here?
I feel warm.
- What are you doing?
- Just scrolling.
- We're supposed to leave
in five minutes.
- I know as a parent,
seeing your child struggle
or be in pain,
it is the worst feeling
in the entire world,
and you just want to die.
What are you doing?
[tense music]
She hates dealing
with confrontation,
so she will come up
with any excuse.
She's actively avoiding,
and Paris would be
extremely hurt
if my mom backed out.
* *
[midtempo music]
[doorbell chiming]
- All right.
- Hello.
How are you?
- How are you doing?
I love that dress.
- Thank you.
- Just enough sparkle.
Just like Paris.
- Yes.
- All right.
How are you guys doing?
- Just my mom--
waiting for my mom.
Mom?
[somber music]
How's Paris doing?
- Ah, she's doing well.
She woke up at 4:30
to get ready
because she did
7:30 "Fox & Friends."
- So that just is early.
And then she's been
on Capitol Hill since.
- Mom?
[scoffs]
What are you doing?
- [exhales slowly]
Seeing Kathy
not ready to go,
it's definitely a lot,
because if this trip
doesn't go well,
I think it's safe to say, um,
Paris won't invite Kathy
in the future.
- Good morning.
- Mwah.
How are you?
- I'm doing well.
- Good.
- Yeah.
And is she nervous, serious?
- Nervous.
Like yesterday
on the plane here,
she read one
of the survivor websites--
the one that we had put up
2 and 1/2 years ago
to have people submit
their stories,
so she spent
about 4 and 1/2 hours
crying on the plane,
taking notes,
like, reading
everyone's stories
and highlighting them.
So even though she is tough--
she acts tough,
like, D.C. is just always
very emotional for her, like--
- Oh, boy, I'm pale.
- Are we ready?
- Oh, I got some food in me,
and I knew it was important
to be there.
I didn't want
to disappoint Paris.
It's very nice
when a family member is there,
and you get up,
and you can look over and know,
mm, mom's there, my sister's
there, it's all good.
- Let's go, Mom.
- I'll take that.
- Can you--are you sure?
- Yes.
You are--you are Paris.
As Nicky and I said,
heavy bags
with everything in it.
- Oh, yeah.
- Come on.
- We're so glad you're here
and so glad you're advocating
for this important issue.
- Great.
six weeks in a row
since launch.
- Amazing.
- Fabulous.
- Thank you so much.
- I'm so proud of her.
I have never seen her
this happy in my life.
- Yeah.
- I love it,
not only this legislation,
but if you think about, like,
the memoir, like,
people are finally
not underestimating her
and respecting her, and, like,
it just is, like,
her happiest stuff.
- Nothing better than helping.
- Yeah.
You guys obviously...
- And giving back.
- Could've been doing it
for a while.
[inspiring music]
Getting out?
All right.
* *
- This is a whole
different world here.
[indistinct chatter]
- Oh, honey, Ginger sent over
a little baseball bat.
- What?
- For, uh...
- Who?
- The baby.
Is that hysterical?
Made of chocolate.
[indistinct chatter]
- This is my mother, Kathy.
- Hi, how are you?
- I'm John Cornyn.
- Pleasure to meet you.
- Very nice to meet you.
- Hi, nice to chat with you.
- Well, good to be with you.
- Good to see you again.
- I was just saying...
- Yeah.
- And, uh...
- Thank you.
- Yes, it's the best.
* *
[soft dramatic music]
- Let's go introduce this bill!
[all cheering]
* *
Clear the path.
- All right, guys, give her
a chance to get up there.
[camera shutters clicking]
- It's wonderful to be here
in a bipartisan manner.
You know, celebrities come
in and out of this town.
They fly in,
they do a press conference,
and then they leave.
What has impressed me
about Paris is commitment,
and to Paris's mom,
and this sharing
of the stories.
Doing the work to actually
get something done
is very different than what
a lot of other people do.
So I'm grateful to them
for actually helping
move this legislation,
and I'm confident
we're gonna get it
across the finish line
and do something good
for America's kids.
Thank you.
[applause]
- Good afternoon.
I'm Paris Hilton.
This issue is deeply personal
for me.
From the ages of 16 to 18,
I was sent
to four troubled teen
industry facilities.
Each one was more horrific
than the last.
One of the many issues
with these programs
is that parents
sign away all the rights
and know nothing about
what is going on.
As a new mom,
I couldn't imagine
being deceived like this,
like so many parents,
including my own, were.
But as long as the abuse
is still happening, and it is,
our job is not done.
That's why we need you,
every member of Congress
and every state official,
to join forces to stop
institutional child abuse.
Nelson Mandela once said,
"There is no keener revelation
of a society's soul
than the way in which
it treats its children."
The introduction of this bill
sends a resounding message
that child abuse has no place
in our society.
Thank you.
[cheers and applause]
- I feel more
emotionally equipped.
I've seen the documentary.
I've had time to process.
She knocked it
out of the park.
She came there with a mission.
She wants to pass this bill.
She k*lled it.
- Thank you so much.
We love you!
- You're welcome.
Thank you.
When you become a mother,
your whole perspective
on a lot of things change.
You think, wow, what can I do
to make things better?
And big things take time.
Rome was not conquered
in a day--
or built in a day,
should I say?
- Yep.
Rome was not built in a day.
- I'm so happy
with how my speech went.
I really poured
my heart into it.
And even though
I was really nervous,
it felt empowering
to speak my truth
in front of so many people.
- Having my mom
there watching,
it was kind of surreal,
just knowing everything
that we've
been through recently.
I could feel
her energy and support,
even when I was nervous about
how she'd react to some parts.
This is bigger than just us.
[upbeat music]
Hello.
* *
- Thank you
for sharing your story.
- Incredible.
Thank you so much
for your support.
- Nicole?
- Yes.
- Once we have support
from a majority of members,
I'm gonna push
the committees for a hearing,
and then for a floor vote.
We can't wait,
as children are still dying
in these facilities.
* *
- [sighs]
I can't believe we missed
the cherry blossoms.
- You were as cool
as a cucumber up there.
- Really?
- Yeah.
- Inside, I was so nervous,
just because I've been
freaking out over that speech.
- How's Phoenix?
Let me see those pictures
you were showing.
- [mumbles]
So cute.
- Mmm.
- [laughing]
Do not drop it in the water.
- So cute!
- How cute is he?
- I miss my babies so much.
- I know.
I hope you know how much
it means to me that you came.
- Oh, I wanted to be here.
I know Mom,
she's happy she came, too.
- I'm so happy
that you both came.
Thank you for being
so understanding
with everything--
with the book,
and surprising everyone
with Phoenix,
and all this.
- It's your story to tell.
I think Mom was hurt, but...
[tense music]
- Because we literally
never even talk about it.
- Yeah.
* *
I think she felt like
she missed out
on that journey with you.
* *
- Well, I felt bad
for not saying anything,
but it's hard for her
to talk about feelings.
Maybe she got that
from grandma,
because grandma was so strong.
- Mm-hmm.
Can you imagine
if Mom went there and, like,
talked about it with me,
and just went in?
- Mm-hmm.
- I want to, though.
Like, I just want to be
closer than ever now.
- Yeah.
Move on.
- Mm-hmm.
- * Put my hands
in your hand *
* Be my man if you ready,
ready *
[upbeat pop music]
[baby fussing]
- Hi, angel.
I'm gonna make you a bottle.
* *
Ow!
- I hate that.
- * Make a wish
and close your eyes *
- [sighs]
My back has been k*lling me.
- Stiff.
- I know.
All those plane rides
didn't help.
- * Take me up,
take me down *
* Swing my feet
off the ground *
- Yeah!
- OK.
- Very cool.
- This is
my first live concert,
and I've not done
any of the choreography.
I don't even know what
my set list is gonna be--
my songs I'm singing.
I don't know what I'm wearing.
With the lighting,
is there, like,
a certain, like, beautiful...
- No.
- The only thing I know
is it's gonna be
at the Fonda Theatre.
It's so iconic.
There's so much to do.
- You're gonna have so much fun
being like, "Hello,"
and having 900 people scream
back at you.
It's--
I think you'll really--
- [nervous sigh]
[laughter]
* *
- Hello.
- Hello.
- I was about to go see Phoenix
take his bath.
- Oh, I want to see him.
both: Mwah!
- All right.
- I'm in the glam room!
I'm pleased that my mom
came to D.C. in the end.
She was good.
She didn't make it
about herself.
But now I just keep thinking
about what Nicky told me
about her being upset
that she wasn't
part of Phoenix's journey.
- Oh, my goodness.
Is he spoiled?
- I don't want to keep
sweeping things under the rug.
Like, I'm ready
for some growth between us,
and I hope she is, too.
- Oh, whoa! What?
[baby crying]
Oh-hoh-hoh-hoh-hoh.
What are you doing?
- Aww, he's cute.
- You scared, maybe?
- It's OK, it's OK.
[baby screeching]
- OK.
I'll see you after your bath-y?
OK?
Hi. How are you guys?
- Good. How are you?
- Good.
- Bye, honey.
Thanks.
[tense pop music]
* *
- Um, so that was really
a successful trip
in Washington.
- Mm-hmm.
- I think Nicky was in shock
seeing you on Capitol Hill
and walking through
and meetings.
And she was very, very,
very proud,
and I was, too.
- Yeah.
- Did you accomplish
everything?
- There's still more work
to go.
- When do you have to go back?
I'd love to go.
- I'd love that.
- Oh, my goodness!
- Quick kiss.
- Cutesie!
- Hi, my angel.
- Hi, angel head.
- You're not being
very nice to me.
- No, he just said,
it wasn't you,
but there was just
so many people looking
at him when he was naked.
- I know.
He said, "Get out of here!
This is my private time
to just bathe and relax."
Hi, babes!
Hi.
- Are you my heart?
- It was so special
to have the two sisters--
and just the three of us...
- Yeah.
- Having that time together,
as well.
I really appreciate that.
- It's nice to see
Nicky so proud.
Nicky was saying
that you were upset
about not being involved
in the pregnancy.
- I mean,
I'll be honest with you,
would I like to have been?
Absolutely.
I understand what you were
going through,
so I mean, I'm cool.
I may have said something
to her.
Should I call her
right now and ask her?
* *
[soft dramatic music]
- Nicky was saying
that you were upset
about not being involved
in the pregnancy.
- Would I like to have been?
Absolutely.
I may have said something
to her.
Should I call her right now
and ask her?
- No!
- Watch, she'll go, "No.
I never said that."
- Don't do that.
- Well, let me just
put it this way,
I don't mind.
I was so excited seeing him,
I could not think
about anything else.
When the next one comes,
I definitely want
to be part of it.
* *
And I would feel hurt.
- Daddy's back.
- [chuckles]
[laughter]
- Surprise.
- Where are we going?
- Oh.
I was just gonna take him.
All right.
Oh, we love you.
- Aww, love you!
- I love you.
Bye, baby.
- You are an unusual person.
- Thanks.
- No, that's OK.
You don't have conversations.
But always come to me, and
let's always talk as a family.
- You're just hard to talk
about serious things with.
- I'm just like you,
sweeping under the carpet.
Is it just in our DNA?
I think that my parents
were pretty direct.
But I do believe this:
I love my mother
more than anything,
and I think why I did keep
certain things from you kids
is that I don't think
it's right
to have a child overhear
certain drama at a young age
that they really
don't need to hear.
And I heard plenty of things
when my parents--
the second time,
my stepfather--
were divorcing,
and it actually broke my heart,
and I would just cry.
Makes me feel bad.
[crying]
Can you imagine?
[soft dramatic music]
- No.
* *
- My stepfather...
he loved me
as much as if I was his own.
Ah.
* *
So I always loved him, too.
My point being,
I felt so bad for him
when grandma left him,
and I felt bad--
he's older, and--you know?
But I didn't like
the way my mom spoke
so freely with her friends.
She would say things like,
you know,
"Little Kathy, she's exactly
like her stepfather.
"Her mannerisms...
- I'm sorry, Mom.
- That made me very unhappy.
Do you understand that?
Agh.
But my point being is,
my mom did those things
that I--
I didn't like it,
and I thought,
I will never do that
to my children,
ever, ever, ever.
Because Nicky always goes,
"Why won't you tell us
if this happened or that?"
Well, there's certain things
you don't need to know.
Yeah, I think that's
where that stems from.
- That makes sense because
you were traumatized by it,
so I mean, it's probably just,
like, deeply ingrained in you.
- Do you think that's weird?
- No.
My mom's always projected
this perfect, happy life,
so that's what I assumed
that she had growing up,
and that life
always had to be perfect.
I wish I would have known
about this earlier,
but I really do believe
that timing is everything
and that people will come
and tell you things
when they're ready.
I'm happy that I'm able to talk
about things with you now.
- Yeah.
I want to hear
you speak your mind.
- I just feel like
ever since I released the book,
it's just like,
I've had all these emotions
that I've kept in for so long,
and I don't know.
I just feel like I need to,
like, speak to someone.
- Mm-hmm.
- But I feel like
I need to speak to someone
who can understand trauma.
So I set up an appointment
with this therapist
to talk about things.
- Good.
I think that's great.
I mean, I wouldn't mind
joining you for an hour.
I would love to ask
a few questions.
- No, definitely.
- Because maybe we can
figure a few things out.
- Yeah.
- I definitely feel
that I'm opening up.
I mean, I shared with her
so that she can understand
who I am,
why I maybe react
to certain things
the way I do.
Well, Paris, you know, you make
the world a better place.
You're giving.
You're kind.
I'm hoping to have the deepest
connection with Paris that--
that we possibly can have.
[soft pop music]
You went through hell,
but your life
is just beginning.
* *
- Yeah.
I'm happy you came over.
- I am, too.
- I love you.
- I love you.
- * Now I'll take your soul *
* Then I'll see what's next *
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