- ♪ I'm just
an ordinary girl ♪
♪ In an ordinary world ♪
He's getting ready
to take a bath.
- He loves his mama.
But you can't kiss Mama
'cause she has electricity
running through her.
- You got so excited
when you see your mama.
- Hi.
- Oh, you cute boy.
Where you going?
You're putting him in the cryo?
Oh, you're looking
at the mirror.
[upbeat pop music]
- ♪ I feel so beautiful ♪
♪ Tonight, yeah, yeah ♪
♪ ♪
[cheers and applause]
- Welcome, welcome, welcome
to Prom Night Under the Stars.
The She Ready Foundation
started with just giving out
suitcases to foster youth,
young people like me
that have been through
the hardships.
Now, we're gonna get
this program started.
- Is my headphones up there?
[all cheering]
- Wow.
♪ ♪
[upbeat dance music]
♪ ♪
- Yes!
- Give it up for Snoop Dogg!
- Yes.
That was so much fun tonight.
- It was.
- How many years
have we been friends?
- That's so crazy.
What's the name of this show
we on right now?
- "Paris in Love."
- Oh, you in love?
- Yes.
[laughter]
♪ ♪
- Thank you.
Love you.
- How's everything?
Like, what's going on
on the show on the seventh?
- [sighs]
It's just--
- Have you hired
the creative director yet?
- Vijat's
the creative director.
Mikey's the choreographer
with Robin Antin.
- That's a huge theater,
by the way.
- I'm freaking out.
I'm singing live, so...
- I know.
It's a big deal.
- I'm doing my first live show
at the Fonda in one month.
I've never done
a concert like this before.
Singing is completely different
than DJing.
I've wanted to cancel,
like, ten times.
- Yeah, I would too.
- When I'm in the DJ booth,
I feel,
like, safe and secure.
But, like, even though it's
always been a dream of mine,
the thought of singing
and dancing onstage
is terrifying to me.
I'm not a professional dancer.
I'm not a professional singer.
I just love what I do.
- You are
a professional singer.
- I'm a professional icon.
- Well, obviously.
But icons have
to be able to pivot.
- No, I know.
I just--
I don't want to be, like,
a cornball on stage,
like, dancing.
- You're doing this.
This is your moment.
You gotta go for it.
No one's gonna
make fun of you
if you don't hold
anything back.
People make fun of people
when they can see
that they're trying
to hold it back.
You go there
and you bare your soul,
that's when people
are like, respect.
All right, so ready
for something super annoying?
- What now?
- So I need a favor.
- What?
- There's this really hot guy.
Will you follow him
on Instagram
and like his photos for me?
- Yes.
- Perfect.
All right.
How many times do I ask you
for favors like this?
- Oh, my God,
thousands of times.
- I just needed you to do this.
[laughter]
♪ ♪
- So stunning.
- Right?
- [gasps]
So hot.
It's like there's,
like, crystals...
- I know.
- Glued to my body.
- It's so beautiful, babe.
- It's insane.
- Big ol' t*tties.
- No, I don't.
[laughter]
- I feel like they definitely
have shrunk since IVF.
- No, they look great.
- This is, like,
exactly what I pictured,
but even better.
♪ ♪
I love it.
- Shiny.
- OK, that's...
♪ ♪
- Hello?
- Hi, angel.
You look so cool.
Hi, baby.
Hi.
[tender music]
I can't believe that Phoenix
is four months old.
The time is just flying.
I was missing Phoenix so much
when I was
in Washington, D.C.,
and I thought
I was gonna come back here
and have, like, a day off,
but I have to go
right back into it.
That's you.
Are you cute?
Yeah?
- [burps]
- Oh.
[chuckles]
A little burp?
- [burps]
- Oh. Another one?
[chuckles]
[Housenick's "Forever Tied"]
- ♪ Howlin' through the fire ♪
♪ The sweetest hope ♪
♪ Get a little higher ♪
♪ Just to lost control ♪
♪ But I don't wanna
let it be ♪
♪ Howlin' through the ♪
- Guys.
See you inside.
Hi.
- Oh, my gosh!
- You look hot.
- Hi.
- Yes. I love this color.
- You look so cute.
Look at you.
You look beautiful.
- Thank you.
- Aw. How do you feel?
- Nervous.
- I know, but you know what?
Let the nerves work for you.
Right?
- Really?
- Yes.
You've always been
the hottest ever.
- Thank you.
- This is nothing.
This is easy.
- OK.
- Yeah. I promise you.
- Ah.
- We got you.
- This live concert
is such a huge moment for me.
It's not just about showcasing
my new music.
I've really poured
my heart and soul
into these new tracks.
This is really a chance
for me to connect
with my fans in a way
that I haven't before.
- OK, here they are.
- Hello.
- Matt, Willie, Gion, Ned.
- Nice to meet you.
Hello.
Nice to meet you.
- OK.
- Yes.
- Here's our one
little tricky part
that we believe you can do.
- It's hot.
- OK?
- Here.
- That's hot.
[laughs]
- That's hot!
They were just gonna grab
your arms here.
Right, boom.
And then there it goes...
[hums]
- OK.
- OK?
- Let's just try that.
- Try that.
- Five, six, seven, eight.
- Boom. Boom.
- Oh.
- Uh-huh,
it's boom, boom, boom.
Five, six, seven, and...
both: Boom, boom, boom.
- OK.
And have the arm still out?
- And the arms
can be still out.
- Let's go from the beginning.
Five, six, seven, and...
- One, two.
- One, two, three.
- Three.
I feel like my ADHD
makes me not remember anything.
- If it feels uncomfortable,
we can always
just have you do--
not do that.
And then just look
at the audience.
- Oh, the audience is here?
- No, turn around.
- Oh. I was like, "What?"
- Show your a*s.
- And we're gonna go directly
into the next song?
- Yes.
- Yeah.
- [bleep].
- Move, two, three,
four, five,
six, seven, and done.
- Yeah, I like that.
- Correct.
[laughter]
Tricks, all of our tricks.
- I'm so happy
that Mikey and Robin
are doing this with me.
I love them so much.
- You're all nervous.
- I know.
I have so much support
around me,
but I just feel super awkward.
I don't know what it is.
Like, just something
in the back of my mind
that just always is,
like, making me feel shy
or weird or insecure.
- Seven, eight, now.
- I forgot that other part.
I'll be looking
in the mirror, like,
doing, like,
the moves and everything,
and then all of a sudden,
I'll just forget everything.
Or I'll just be like,
people are gonna
make fun of you;
they're gonna laugh.
I'm just trying
to be my most confident,
but inside, I'm dying.
[applause]
- That's a wrap on day one,
ladies and gentlemen.
- Thank you, guys.
- Be proud of yourself.
- Just be careful.
- Yeah.
[upbeat pop music]
- Aww.
- Hi, love.
- Hello. Mwah.
- Look at how cute.
- All right.
And I brought cupcakes
for everybody here.
- Aw.
So sweet.
[applause]
- Love you, honey.
- Proud of you. Love you.
I'll see you tomorrow, OK?
- Bye, guys.
♪ ♪
But I haven't done the singing
with the dancing yet.
- Yeah. That's just
part of the process.
- Singing and dancing
in front of a massive audience
is no small feat.
Learning all
this choreography,
that's the priority for me.
I'll be performing seven songs
at my concert at the Fonda,
and I need to learn
choreography to all of them.
It's hard because
my back's really messed up.
I think just, like,
years of, like, sliving.
Literally, like, when I DJ,
I'm jumping up and down.
I'm, like, in 5-inch heels.
♪ ♪
Then I, like,
go from the stage,
jump onto the floor
with the heels, then fly up.
And I've done that
so many times.
And it was, like,
sh**ting pain the whole time.
So that's what
I'm worried about most.
How's Phoenix?
- We hung out.
I read him a book
about a little bear
that gives you hugs
through the book.
He's gonna be so proud
of Mommy.
- [groans softly]
♪ ♪
[line trills]
[phone chirps]
Yo.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Where are you?
- In my backyard.
- I am.
It's so nice here.
It's so beautiful today.
- Mm-hmm.
His eyes just light up
when I walk in the room.
It's so cute.
- So what are you gonna do
for your first Mother's Day?
- Nothing.
- Why?
- Carter, like,
wanted to plan this whole
Mother's Day for me,
and it'd be, like,
his mom and his sister
and, like, celebrating them
as moms and me as a mom.
But I just--
I don't know.
I just don't even want
to get dressed.
I don't want to have
to leave the house.
- But it's
your first Mother's Day.
That's so sad.
- Since I'm the mom this time,
then I get to choose
what I'm doing.
[laughs]
- I don't know.
[laughs]
- Yes.
[quirky music]
I'll do that.
- My schedule has been
so out of control.
It's just been nonstop.
I'm just trying
to figure out, like,
a balance between everything.
Like, what did you do
when you were a new mom?
- Mm-hmm.
Yeah, I need
to start doing that more.
Paris being a mother,
I know in the beginning,
she was very, very nervous,
just learning
how to hold a baby correctly
with the neck, but with time,
she's gotten more confident,
and I'm so incredibly proud
of her.
- And then he has
this new bouncy thing.
It's, like, those things,
like, at the circus.
- Yeah, he jumps.
- Parenting,
there's no rule book.
It's sort of trial and error,
and you get the hang of it.
I certainly have after three.
[laughs]
- You know how
I've never really talked
to a real therapist
ever since I was a teenager?
- Mm-hmm.
- I found this therapist
that specializes in trauma
and ADHD, so I have her
coming to the house,
like, in the next few weeks.
There's just so much going on
in my life right now,
and I just want to be
the best mom that I can be.
With my book out and all
these new emotions coming up,
it's just hard for me
to handle by myself
and obviously hard
to talk to my family about.
I'm thinking of maybe
having mom come as well.
Not to the first session
because I feel like
I want to just
speak to her alone first.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, I'm hoping
that it's helpful.
I just want to,
like, enjoy my life.
I feel like
I've worked so hard,
and there's just
so much happening.
- Then enjoy your life.
- No, I'm trying to,
but there's just
so much happening.
It's like, OK,
then I release the book,
then I have a concert,
then I have
my album coming out,
then I have--
- Yeah.
Every free moment I can.
- I know.
♪ ♪
- ♪ Nobody will love you,
love you like I do ♪
♪ And nobody will treat you,
treat you like I do ♪
- Daddy's making me pancakes.
- I was really proud of Paris
when it came to Mother's Day.
Aw, you cute boy.
You like the camera
like your mama.
It was her first Mother's Day,
but she didn't worry
about what she felt like
she needed to do
or what was typical.
She just did
what made her happy,
getting to spend time together
as a family.
- I love you.
[upbeat pop music]
And review everything too.
- ♪ That's what I like ♪
♪ We got Britt,
she the fun one ♪
♪ Chad, he the hung one ♪
♪ Sage, they the shy one ♪
♪ Zane, the always high one ♪
[Paris Hilton's
"Hot One" playing]
♪ Oh, sh*t, I forgot one ♪
♪ ♪
♪ Me, I'm the hot one ♪
Do I look weird doing that?
- Like, diamond ring hands.
- I know.
- I feel corny.
- I don't think it's--
- I don't know if she--
- No, just me
because I'm not a dancer,
so, like, I don't know how to,
like, do it, like, perfectly.
- Yeah.
♪ ♪
- I'm forgetting everything.
- It's OK.
Listen, we just
are running through it.
- [sighing]
Oh, my God.
I'm trying to do the best job
that I can possible,
but I'm in pain
the whole time.
It's hard for me
to even remember
all of the different moves.
♪ That's hot ♪
- Awesome.
Almost done.
- [sighing]
I just wish that I didn't have
the voice in the back
of my mind
making me feel bad
about myself.
- Should we--do you want
to try that one more time?
- Yeah.
- Yep.
[upbeat pop music]
♪ ♪
- Hey, everyone.
It's Paris.
Tickets for my upcoming
concert in LA
sold out
in under three minutes.
I'm so excited to hit the stage
and perform my favorite hits,
preview new music,
and bring out
epic surprise performers.
- Is that the world's
largest water bottle?
- It's gonna ruin
my lipstick.
- It has a straw.
- Oh.
Yeah, my voice coach
says I need to drink,
like, a full one
of these every single day.
- Yeah.
- I hate water.
- Should I put a splash
of vodka in there?
- Yeah.
[laughter]
- It's fine.
- Cute.
Being a new mom, I'm definitely
learning as I go.
What's most important to me
is to prioritize Phoenix,
but I am having
a hard time with that.
- That's good.
- My sister got me this
really cute baby carrier,
so I'm gonna be
taking Phoenix with me
to his first meeting.
- He's smiling.
He's so excited.
Are we putting him facing out?
- Yeah.
- OK.
- He's like,
"What is happening?"
- Yeah, he's like,
"I do not know about this."
- It's OK.
- [crying]
- No.
He hates it.
It's OK.
- [crying]
- Maybe if we look
in the mirror
because he loves the mirror.
See yourself.
Look at you.
There you are. Look.
- [crying]
- No.
- [chuckles]
We love this new contraption.
[upbeat pop music]
Hi.
This is Phoenix.
- Hi. So cute.
- Hi, sweetheart.
Good to see you.
- Definitely. Awesome.
- Hi.
- Hi, everybody.
- Hi.
- This is Phoenix, everyone.
- Hey, Phoenix.
- So I just put together
a little mood board
of the different ideas I had.
So set design-wise,
this is sort of the,
like, star idea
that we had--
the double platform,
the sparkly DJ booth,
and then the, like,
oversized lipsticks.
Then from there, we go
into "Nothing In This World."
For that, I was kind of
playing off, like,
the planets and the world
and the, like,
aesthetic of Earth.
- Yes.
I always wanted to do clouds.
- Yeah.
- Like a dream.
- Love it.
- Yeah.
- Yes.
- Every time I'm at a show
and I see clouds,
I'm like, oh, my God, like,
I want to do that one day.
- I would give her
at least two minutes...
- That's what I was gonna say.
- 2 and 1/2 min--
- Two.
- 2, 2 and 1/2.
- [crying]
- I'll be right back.
I'll be back in one second.
- OK.
- Let me just put the baby--
- Hang on one sec, Alex.
- It's his nap time.
- Bye, angel.
- Nappy time.
- OK, I'll be back
literally in 45 seconds.
I believe as women,
that we can do everything,
being a mom,
having a successful career.
But I have to admit
that right now,
I just feel overwhelmed.
I feel like I'm not
being the mom
that I know that I can be,
but I don't know how to do it.
- Amazing work on everything.
- Great job.
- Thank you.
- That's exciting.
This is the first concert.
People can't believe, like,
this is, like, gonna happen.
Like, what?
- [sighs]
I'm so scared and nervous.
- ♪ Lay it all out
on the line ♪
- Yes, I'm using
the pediatric needles for you.
- Yes, it basically suspends
or stops the inflammation.
- Yep.
- ♪ Lay it all out
on the line ♪
[upbeat pop music]
- Good!
♪ ♪
Walk to center!
- [laughs]
♪ ♪
- ♪ Lay it all
out on the line ♪
- Wow.
[laughter]
[line trilling]
- Yas.
- Yas.
- I'm doing the campaign
for the new Crocs.
- Something iconic.
- Yeah.
[laughter]
♪ ♪
- Hi, babe.
- Hello.
- Now, are you ready
to learn the last two songs?
- [bleep] yeah.
- [bleep] yeah? OK.
This comes
right after "Hot One."
Curtain opens.
"Legacy" starts.
And you make your way
over to lips couch
on the left-hand side.
And then we're gonna
get you up
into center stage
for the chorus.
Boom. Boom. Boom.
And they're gonna dance
right off your shoulder.
Let's do that with music
instead of my vocals.
[track starts]
- Oh.
- One more time.
- Can we start it over?
- Yeah.
- You guys ready
for some new music?
- Yep.
- Yes!
Good!
- ♪ I know
there are the memories ♪
♪ 'Cause loving you
is my legacy ♪
- One, two, three.
Here we go!
- Yes!
- Keep going.
Work it.
- Nice.
Hot! Hot!
- So cute!
- Yeah, yes!
- Love it!
- ♪ 'Cause loving you
is my legacy ♪
- Hold it, hold it, hold it!
- Nice!
- Oh, my God!
[cheers and applause]
Cut.
- Brilliant!
- Major. Major Lazer.
- That was so good.
- Magic, I told you.
Bada-bing, bada-boom. OK.
- I can't believe
the show is in one week.
I feel like everything's
finally coming together.
I have my friends
and family and fans
flying in
from all over the world.
I'll see you tomorrow?
- Yeah.
- This is gonna be one of
the biggest nights of my life,
and I just can't wait to put on
an amazing show for everyone.
Oh, my God, it's ten minutes
to 7:00, mother[bleep].
[phone chirps]
Hey, my love,
I'm on my way home.
It says that I'm gonna arrive
at 28 minutes from now.
[phone chimes]
- [laughing]
♪ ♪
- Pop star has entered
the building.
Phoenix laughing is
the cutest thing.
- I've watched it,
like, 15 times.
- Was that just starting today?
- Yeah,
today was the first time.
- I missed his first laugh?
- No, it's OK.
He's gonna laugh tomorrow,
too, for you.
- [laughing]
[laughter]
- All right,
he just went to bed.
His eyes are still open.
- So he's awake or no?
- Sleeping with his eyes open.
Seeing that video of Phoenix
laughing for the first time
was such a bittersweet moment.
My heart literally melted
hearing his laugh,
but I also just felt
this pang of guilt
that I wasn't there in person
to witness it.
Reigniting my pop career
is super important to me,
but missing a moment
like this makes me wonder
if it's even worth it.
[tender music]
- OK.
♪ ♪
[upbeat pop music]
♪ ♪
[doorbell rings]
- Hi.
- Hi.
You must be Gus.
- I'm Gus.
Dr. Bethany?
- Yes, nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
Come on in. Welcome.
- OK. Thank you.
- Well, I'm excited
for you to meet with Paris.
[tense music]
- Let me go
and get Paris for you.
- Mm-hmm?
- Dr. Bethany's here.
- Um, perfect.
I've been to therapy
in the past,
but I usually find it
really hard to trust anyone.
- Which horse is most like you
based on the behavior?
- This one is shy.
It doesn't really want
to engage.
It's hard for me to, like,
even talk about my feelings
sometimes because I'm so used
to just not doing it.
- Yeah.
So what's the fear
about not speaking up?
- I don't know.
Dr. Bethany deals
with trauma and ADHD,
so maybe she'll understand me.
Hello.
- Hi.
You must be Paris.
- Yes. Hi.
- Hi. I'm Dr. Marshall.
- Nice to meet you.
- You can call me Dr. Bethany
or Bethany.
Come in and have a seat.
- Thank you.
- It is great to meet you.
- Nice to meet you too.
- I wanted to let you know that
I did watch your documentary,
and I read one
of your interviews,
so I know some
of the basic themes
and what's happened to you,
so you don't have to re-explain
in ways that would be
traumatizing or triggering.
So given all of that,
where would you like to start?
- I don't really know
because I'm--
never do this,
so I don't even...
know where to start.
- Maybe a good place to start
would be, like,
what causes you to suffer?
- I don't know, I just feel
like there's always this,
like, voice in the back
of my mind,
like, always saying
negative things
and just making me feel bad
about myself
and thinking people
are gonna judge me,
people are gonna
make fun of me.
- Mm.
- I have my baby,
my husband,
this beautiful life,
but even when
the happiest things
are happening in my life,
I just feel the--these--
it just, like,
steals my happiness.
- If you've created
a great life,
but then you can't enjoy it,
that's really problematic.
Has anyone ever suggested
to you
that you have
post-traumatic stress disorder?
- I definitely know I do.
- You do?
Do you know the symptoms
of post-traumatic stress?
- Not all of them.
What are they?
- Avoidance of anything
that's reminiscent
of the trauma, detachment
and estrangement from others--
that's a very common one--
flashbacks.
- The other night
when I was holding my baby,
it was just--
just smiling
and just looking in his eyes
at this little,
innocent human being,
and I was so happy,
and then all of a sudden,
I just started--
I don't even remember
what I was thinking.
I was just...
kind of just, like,
having a flashback to something
bad that had happened to me.
It's like, I should be
in the moment with my son
and enjoying this, but instead,
my mind is, like,
going back to the past
and thinking about, you know,
somebody hurting me.
- It's interesting
that it's when
you're holding your baby
it happens.
Because I know people
who are trauma victims
have a very hard time
happily bonding
with their children.
- Yeah.
- It really does happen,
so I'm glad we're
talking about it.
I'm sorry this is
happening to you.
I mean, this is really tragic
that the trauma is
getting attached
to the maternal bond
with your baby.
I can't fully bond
with the people I love
because something bad's
gonna happen,
just like I was bonded
with my parents,
and these people kidnapped me
in the middle of the night.
Do you think that could be
what's in the mix there
somewhere?
- Probably.
I'm just always expecting
the worst in every situation.
- I'm assuming
you wanted Phoenix, right?
You planned to have a baby?
- Yeah.
Yes.
- Yeah.
How much time are you able
to spend with him?
- Every morning,
I go in and check on him
and feed him
and play with him.
That'll be for, like, an hour.
And then I'll have to go
and get ready.
- Mm.
- But he has his baby nanny.
- Oh, OK.
So you have a nanny.
- I just feel guilty
because I want to be able
to spend every minute with him,
but then I also have
so many responsibilities.
- Does that schedule
preclude you
from spending time with him?
[soft dramatic music]
- It's just a lot
for one person to handle,
with my media company,
all my employees,
everybody who's depending on me
to be the face of this brand.
- But I'm wondering
if you feel like you've
relinquished control
just a little bit.
- Yeah.
- One of the main features
of trauma is avoidance.
When you hold Phoenix
and you're having
that bad feeling,
what would it be like
to try to tell yourself,
what I'm experiencing
with Phoenix now
is completely different
from what happened
to me as a child?
I'm in a house with--
that's very safe.
I'm in charge
of this household.
Nothing bad is gonna
happen to me
because no one could ever
take me away
in the middle of the night
ever again.
This is my baby, so I determine
what happens to this baby.
- Yeah.
Would it be OK
if I brought him in here?
- I would love to meet him.
- OK.
I'm gonna go grab him.
♪ ♪
- Aww.
- This is Phoenix.
- Phoenix.
You are a beautiful boy.
You know that?
And you look like your mommy.
I'm so glad
you brought him out.
You love hanging out
with your mommy, don't you?
This is probably your favorite
place in the world.
- [laughs]
His new thing
is sticking his tongue out.
- Aww.
Oh, yes.
That's a beautiful tongue.
I'm glad you found it.
- Aw, I love him so much.
I wish I could spend
every minute with you.
Mommy has to work so hard.
- I mean, you could reframe
that all of your great success
at such a young age
has positioned you
to be able to spend time
with your baby.
- Yeah.
- What about play dates
and hanging out with kids,
because at five months,
moms are all getting together--
and dads.
- Like, all my cousins,
my sister,
everyone's doing music classes
and all of these "mommy and me"
things together,
and I don't have time
to do any of those things, so--
- Could you bring them to you,
like, have a class here?
- Yeah, I've been wanting
to do that,
but then I also get nervous
with him being around
so many people
because he's so little,
that he'll get sick.
- This seems to me it could be
a little bit
of a trauma response,
that if you bond with him more
and take him out and about,
something bad's gonna happen.
- Yeah.
- Can you hear it
in what you're saying?
- Yeah.
- So when it comes
to trauma and anxiety,
we always want our decisions
to be made on data,
not feelings.
What's good for development
with children
is the thousands and thousands
of interactions
that they have with
their mothers back and forth.
In the first two years of life,
the mother actually regulates
the child's heartbeat,
respiration.
Holding the baby, you're still
regulating all of his systems.
- Yeah.
- And gazing eyes
back and forth,
that's really good
for their development,
talking to him.
- [fussing]
- Oh.
Are you hot?
I feel like he's hot
in these pants.
- Is he hot?
- I think so.
- Does he have
a little onesie on?
- Yeah.
They're, like--
are you hot?
The baby nanny,
she always loves being so hot.
Like, the heater is always on.
I always say, "Isn't he hot?"
And she said,
"No, they like it."
- OK, so this is where
you should trust yourself
in terms of what you think
is good for the baby.
You are the mother.
- Yeah.
- She's not.
- I know, but she's, like,
done this millions of times.
- You've given up authority
to the baby nanny.
I'm sorry, but that's wrong.
- It is?
[tense music]
- Mm-hmm.
Because you're the expert,
not her.
It doesn't matter
how many babies she's raised.
That's your baby.
You're the expert
on your child.
I think the question is,
do you want the nanny
to be the primary
attachment figure,
or do you want to be
the primary attachment?
I think that you should
ask yourself that.
- I just feel like
I am not responsible.
- OK.
What you're telling me
makes no sense.
If you were so irresponsible,
you wouldn't have
a multibillion dollar empire.
♪ ♪
It makes no sense.
So how much do you want
to change this?
Because I can help you
work on it,
but I don't want to force you.
- I think about just,
like, figuring out that,
like, work-life balance.
Like, I love what I do,
and I feel so grateful
just to be in this position,
but I definitely
don't want to miss
all the moments with him.
- Mm-hmm.
♪ ♪
- ♪ They say what they say ♪
♪ They get in the way ♪
♪ They think that
they know all about us ♪
♪ Ain't catching no slack ♪
♪ But when they attack ♪
♪ we're gonna fight back ♪
- Thank you.
[upbeat pop music]
Hey, everybody.
- Hi.
- This hair is so heavy.
[groans]
- It was different
in the rehearsal, the--
- The size?
- They, like, didn't
map it out.
I really enjoyed
my session with Dr. Bethany.
It definitely shifts
my perspective.
There's this balance now
between wanting
to give my all
to the performance,
but I also want to be there
for Phoenix
as much as possible.
Honestly, with this concert,
it's just
way too much happening,
so I don't think
it'll be possible till after.
[soft dramatic music]
Mm.
♪ ♪
[groans]
- What are you thinking?
- Oh, no, I'm just, like,
trying to imagine
when I'm in high heels
and the outfit, walking.
- Yep.
Steps--
- And then
the couches are so big,
I'm wondering
where they're gonna be.
- Right.
It's a smaller space.
- This looks
much smaller than...
- Yeah, it's small.
- The rehearsing studio
that we practiced in.
I don't know what the [bleep]
we're gonna do.
- How are you feeling?
- Nervous.
- Nervous?
We have so much rehearsal.
- OK.
- Don't be nervous.
- Yes.
I'm freaking out.
- You're like,
"b*tch, shut up."
- This is definitely not
what I was expecting.
We've been doing rehearsals
on a taped off section
that is much bigger
than this one.
I don't know where
we're gonna fit the couches.
I don't know how the guest
performers are gonna fit.
We're gonna be doing
cartwheels on stage.
Like, I don't know how
there's room for any of this.
- Are we doing a fitting?
- Should I try on anything?
- Yeah, so, Mikey, let's go--
- Let's go down?
- Yeah, for a second.
- Let's check out the clothes.
- Love it.
- Sweet.
[upbeat pop music]
♪ ♪
All right, who's ready
to [bleep] rehearse?
Let's go.
[cheering]
The star has entered
the building.
Let's go.
- OK, so this is the most
important moment of the show,
when she walks down.
Coming down,
there's Gion's hand.
- Yep, give her support.
There you go.
- And then you lead her
right up into the fans.
- The skirt's gonna fly up.
See how much you can actually
get your legs closed.
If one person takes a shot,
that shot might be everywhere.
- But I have a question.
Isn't it--
it's a bodysuit
with a skirt over it.
- Skirt that goes out with,
like, a bodysuit.
- Right,
so your p*ssy's covered.
It's not underwear.
It's a crystal bodysuit.
- It's all crystal.
- The puss is rhinestoned,
everyone, OK?
We're gonna love it.
OK, let's do it
from the beginning.
Five, six, seven, eight.
Boom. Boom.
I think what you were doing
in rehearsal,
you were just kind of,
like, feeling yourself,
and they were going,
grab, grab.
They were hitting the accents.
- OK.
both: Six, seven, and...
- Boom. Boom. Stop.
- OK. Let's do that again.
- OK, I have an idea for that.
- Stop. Cut.
- Just look at one of them to
know which way they're going,
and then just catch on.
[song playing]
[mouthing words]
- And hold it.
Hold it. Hold it. Hold it.
Hold it.
Cut.
Let's do that number again.
[tense music]
- Put your legs up.
♪ ♪
Yeah, it helps.
It does help.
- Let's do that number again.
Are you good?
- OK.
- She's been standing up here
for, like, an hour and a half.
- I understand. I know.
Paris, if you want
to just, like,
not go crazy with your body
right now.
You have to rest, OK?
- All right, boys,
you can come down.
Everyone, you can come down.
♪ ♪
It's OK.
- Like, I want to, like,
do the bending
and all the cute stuff
like I was doing it before,
but...
- Save it for tomorrow.
- All right.
Day two tomorrow.
- The Fonda is
so important to Paris,
but her back's
just getting worse and worse
because she's just rehearsing
harder and harder.
I know Paris will do
whatever it takes.
This girl is so tough.
I'm just worried she's gonna
push herself too hard
and honestly,
create permanent damage.
Do you want us to pick you up
and take you to the car?
♪ ♪
- I'm freaking out.
And then when I bend down,
it, like,
feels like acid is, like,
being poured into my spine.
[sighs]
♪ ♪
[sniffling]
- What's the matter?
- My back hurts so much.
- Come here, come here.
Come here.
What's the matter?
What's the matter?
- I'm just in so much pain.
And I'm, like, trying
to be strong for everyone,
but it really [bleep] hurts.
Like, I don't want to complain
so much, but it's just like--
It just hurts so much
that I just--
and I'm trying to do it.
It's, like,
it doesn't even look good.
I just feel really insecure.
- We're just gonna
take deep breaths.
And I promise you, tomorrow
we're gonna give you--do meds,
and we're gonna
make your back feel better.
But I promise you,
that stage
and you on that stage
looked iconic, OK?
All your fans are just
going crazy.
I've gotten
a thousand texts today
from people trying
to get tickets.
- That's gonna make me
even more stressed.
- [laughing] No, no, no.
[soft dramatic music]
- I don't want to,
like, disappoint everyone.
People have been waiting
so long for this concert.
They're so excited.
And I can't cancel.
I'll feel bad.
- Of course we can cancel it
if you want.
You got to worry
about yourself.
Everyone will understand.
- Everyone's worked so hard
on the show.
I'll never forgive myself
because this is,
like, something I've dreamed of
my whole life.
- No, no, no, no, no.
- [sobbing]
[dog barking]
♪ ♪
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