02x08 - Episode 8

[bunniefuu]

I...

I don't think that
was about me, was it?

I should, um... I'm going
to go... No, don't go.

Er, let's talk about it, um...

I'm sorry.

I'm not.

I don't regret it. I wanted it.

I love you.

But I think I've been chasing
something that isn't there.

I don't regret... you.

I don't regret any of it.

Oh, my God, hilarious.

SHE LAUGH-CRIES

Are... are you all right?

Ohh!

Ugh!

Agh!

Of course I'm not
f*cking all right!

But you said you'd moved on.

That we were all atoms and you
didn't want to stab me any more.

Well, I just threw a carbonara
at you, so maybe not, Josh!

The thing about travelling?

I f*cking hated it.

It's like Butlins, but hot.

And everyone there was, like,
ten years younger than me,

and all they want to do was
watch Friends on their phones.

It was supposed to solve
everything, you know?

I don't even know what's wrong,
but that's what people do, they go

and they eat and they pray and they
love and they come back better.

But I just came back the same.

But with Lars, and
he was so nice,

and now he's gone!

You didn't just f*ck
up our relationship,

you f*cked up the next one
too. OK, that wasn't my fault.

Well, I wouldn't have met him
if it wasn't for you, would I?

Look, I do realise I never
said sorry to you... properly.

Oh, it's nothing
to do with that.

I mean, you cheated on me
and then you proposed to me.

And I'd already shagged someone
else. And it was my boss!

And then you cheated on
me again in front of me.

And I tried to have sex in
a f*cking sandpit... What?

..and then we just got
off with each other.

Why'd I do that? Well, we
were both pretty drunk.

It's just muscle memory.
Well, yeah, it'd better be.

Cos I'd rather chew glass
than get back with you.

No offence. Little
bit offended.

Nothing works!

Nothing makes me feel better.

I ju...

Everyone has worked out
who they are except me.

Oh...

Hey.

I feel like you're looking for
the answer in other people.

But I think you might be
looking in the wrong place.

Oh, my God.

You're not Free Willy.

I'm Free Willy.

Why didn't you tell
me that before?

I am f*cking exhausted suddenly.

Can you clean this up?

You were the one throwing eggs.

DOOR CLOSES Yeah, fine.

Hey.

That was really sh*t of me.

With the New York thing.

You've been great taking
me in, and I'm really...

I've f*cked it up.

What have you f*cked up?

Everything.

My marriage.

My...

Josh.

Everything.

This is nice. Don't ruin it.

FOOTSTEPS

I feel terrible.

How are you so bushy-tailed?

Maybe I'm just excited. I'm going
to do something with my life.

Well, I'm going to sign on,
then do something with my life.

Sounds great. Mm.

Last night was good - I think.

You were helpful.

Had to have someone
to throw eggs at.

Yeah, but the talking too.

We were both a bit sh*t,
near the end of us.

Especially me. Especially you.

But it'd been over for a
long time, partly because...

..we'd just become friends.

Still friends?

One thing at a time, mate.

Today I'm feeling
excited about the future.

That's great.

You should sort yours out.

PHONE BUZZES

LINE DISCONNECTS

HE KNOCKS

Oh, I'm sorry.

Not a great time, love.
We're just about to go live.

You're more than
welcome to join.

I was actually, er...

I was hoping you could put
me in touch with Claire.

You've got her number.

Yeah, but after yesterday, I
think she might have blocked me.

Well, probably shouldn't go
against her wishes, should I?

I really like her. I knew it!

Babe, we should
probably get started.

Did she tell you we met her
through this, originally?

She was a subscriber
to our personal site.

I did not know that.

She may or may not be watching.

Right.

The show starts at three, so you
have 60 seconds to put it right.

Er...

Um...

Hi, I'm, um... Camera's
there, actually, love.

Oh.

Hi.

Um, I guess you could call me
Monica and Eddie's warm-up guy.

Um, I promise this
won't take long.

If you're there, you know that
I was an as*h*le yesterday.

Running off on you like that.

I've been getting a divorce
and it's been making me crazy,

and what's craziest of all
is that it's been blocking me

from being able to see
a really good thing.

Aw. Ten seconds.

I love the way you
look at the world.

It gives me hope. I-I-I
just need one chance.

One more chance to see if you
like me as much as I like you.

And to make up for everything!

OK. I'm done.

Well, there are lots of
messages, but they're mostly

requests of things they want
you to do to me and Eddie.

Yep. Oh, here we are.

Makingupforlosttime69.

She says she'll meet you at


And Dirty Darby says he wants to
see your ba*ls on Eddie's chin.

But you're probably not
interested in that, are you?

I don't think so.

Oh.

Hi.

We have to stop
meeting like this.

Look, can I say something before
we get into anything else?

That sounds ominous. It isn't.

I wanted to say...

..I love you.

Oh.

Wow.

Never said that before.

I know.

But I clearly do.

And, er, I think this all started
because you didn't know that.

And I love you.

I-I know. I know you do.

But you starting
with that makes me

feel like you've got
something bad to tell me.

I do.

Can I go first, in that case?

What the f*ck, Josh? What now?

Me and Esther were very
drunk and kissed last night.

After you kicked us out.

And it might have gone further
if Tiwa hadn't stopped it.

Yeah, well, that's...
that's what I wanted to say.

Me and Zack last night.

Not sex, cos, you
know, but, yeah.

So, you're angry.

Yes.

But other things as well.

Sad. Jealous.

Hungry, but, y'know,
not just cos of this.

Hungry isn't an emotion.

I see what you're doing, you
know. You're pushing me away.

Funny how you're suddenly
able to talk about feelings.

Not when you're thinking of
going on dates with other people.

Oh, yeah. My fault.
Always my fault.

That's not what I'm saying.

My fault that you left Zack.

My fault we had sex in Finland.

My fault you spilled your
coffee at the airport.

Excuse me? I spilled my
coffee? You spilled my coffee.

Like, that was your fault.

You put it on the floor. Maybe this
isn't helping. No, I don't know.

If it's still bothering you,
why don't we have it out?

Get it all out in the
open. OK, fine. Fine!

You are so needy that going out
with you is like going out with

a limpet who's catastrophically
bad at talking about his feelings.

You don't trust me because
we started as an affair.

I don't trust you because you
went on a date with someone else!

You've been pushing me away so that
I break up with you, so that you

don't have to do it. You've already
said that. Well, it's still true.

NO, IT ISN'T!

If I've been pushing you
away, it's because...

..there is a part...

..there is a part of me...

..that feels like the
people that I sleep with

should treat me like sh*t...

..and the people that I love...

..I shouldn't sleep with.

Like, maybe that's why
it was easier with Zack,

because we weren't having sex.

But with you...

..it's both.

I love you...

..and I... I love
having sex with you,

and you're the whole package, and
it's f*cking... it's f*cking...

it's f*cking terrify...
It's terrifying.

Because I have to
show you who I am.

SHE SOBS

Oh, Fola. I...

Yeah, yeah. "Oh."

MUSIC: Fade Into
You by Mazzy Star

Is that place new?

Which one?

With the neon.

I think that's
been there a while.

Has it?

I think the neon's new.

I think that's why
you think that.

New York sounds amazing.

You should totally do it.

And you should check and
see how long Citymapper says

it takes to get there.

I don't think they do journeys
when you have to get a plane.

Yeah, obviously I
wasn't being literal.

And it depends on which airport.

The point just whizzes over
your head, doesn't it? Huh.

♪ Strange you never knew

♪ Fade into you

♪ I think it's strange
you never knew. ♪