01x02 - Poli

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- Press play here.

- Okay.

And that's the same songs

that we had?

- It is, yeah

- Okay.

Hey,

can I talk to you for a second?

Yeah, sure.

What's going on?

I was looking at the original.

Mm-hmm.

- In two, right?

- Yeah.

- And Marianne in that one

- Yeah.

She does have kind of a different energy

at the beginning of the

There's this great moment

where she goes into the refrigerator and

Like the equivalent or something,

like a version of

Right, here we go.

And go ahead.

Do you

want the door open?

All right.

Stand by to roll, guys.

- Let's get slate in. Okay.

- Ten seconds

Marker.

And action.

Daddy!

Why can't I just call Mommy?

Because, sweetie,

you already said good night

to Mommy.

You talked to her already,

remember?

But I forgot to show her

the picture I drew

in the kitchen.

Yeah, well

she'll be here tomorrow

when you get home from school,

and you can show her then, okay?

How do you know

she's gonna be here?

How do I know?

Because she is coming at noon.

Her train gets in

at twelve o'clock.

Close your eyes, kiddo.

- Hi. You're awake.

- Yeah, you know.

So, you made it out of there?

- Ah, yeah!

- That's great!

I ended up taking

the nine o'clock.

Fantastic!

Ava's gonna be thrilled.

I told her she wouldn't see you

until after school tomorrow.

Oh, yeah.

How's she been sleeping?

You'll do pick-up

in the morning? Yeah?

Uh, she's sleeping great.

That rain app you got is genius.

- Good.

- She doesn't wake up anymore.

That's great.

So, how was the train?

Did you sleep?

Uh yeah.

Um, not really,

I I did some work, I read.

- It's

- Good.

You just ditched the dinner

last minute?

Yeah. I told Ackerman

Ava was sick.

He was bummed,

but he really couldn't do

anything about it.

- Don't use that one too often.

- Hmm.

So, you didn't eat.

You must be hungry.

You want a little something

to eat?

- No, I'm not hungry.

- There's some pasta left over

from Ava's dinner.

It's not gonna win any awards,

- but, uh

- No, thanks.

Okay.

Do we have a bottle of wine

open, by chance?

I don't know, let's see.

Yes.

Thanks.

It's, uh

Kate. She thinks I'm in Oh!

- West Coast for some reason.

- Right.

How are she and Peter?

They doing okay?

Everything all right over there?

Yeah, I think so.

Usual drama, nothing new.

Why?

No, 'cause I tried to get, uh,

lunch with Peter the other day.

I had some free time, and just,

I feel like he's avoiding me.

He's just been blowing me off

the last couple months.

Did you ask him why?

I tried to.

He just mumbled something

about it being a busy time.

It's not like him,

he's usually really excited

to brag about

his latest adventures.

Well, maybe he's just

stressed at work.

Yeah.

You still mad at me?

What? About what?

You were pretty pissed

on the phone last night.

Oh, no, that was nothing. No.

I texted you after,

but you were probably asleep.

Yeah. I was really wiped.

Anyway, sorry about what I said.

Yeah, that's

Really, please. It's nothing.

Just forget it.

It's not a big deal.

Do you know

what I'm talking about?

You mean the renovation, right?

Yeah. In the attic.

So, anyway, I

I was just trying to say,

it was that

I get that

it's a really busy time

- for you right now, with all the acquisitions

- Yes.

and all that, which is fine,

but the thing is that

you know, you left it mid

- Mm-hmm.

- So when the desk's upstairs,

but my books and all my papers

are downstairs,

- I can't really, you know

- I know. You're right. You're right, you're right.

And, as I said on the phone,

um, it's your office,

so you decide what you want.

Yeah. But I don't

Mira, it was your idea,

the whole renovation's

your vision.

- I know. Yeah.

- It just doesn't make sense

that you suddenly don't care

what part of the house is like

I'm sorry, I'm doing it again,

I'm blaming you.

- It's okay, you can.

- No, no, no. I

All I'm saying is that

it is fine for me

to come back downstairs, okay?

I will move the desk myself

and that's fine, that's it.

And then you just finish it up

whenever you have the time,

and that's okay.

And I'm not being

passive-aggressive.

I really mean it.

I'm I'm happy to do that.

- Okay?

- Okay, fine.

Okay. Cool.

Cool. Then it's settled.

Oh, man, watching you eat that

is making me so hungry,

I'm gonna polish off that pasta.

What?

I didn't say anything.

Everything okay?

Mira, what's the matter?

I, um

I came back tonight

because I needed to talk to you

about something.

Okay.

I'm here.

I fell in love with someone.

It sounds stupid.

It's so stupid.

Maybe,

maybe it's stupid. I don't know.

I met him in September,

uh, in, uh, San Francisco.

He's the CEO

of an Israeli startup

that we're buying out.

He he's

Israeli, from Tel Aviv.

He will be relocating out here

at some point. I mean, not

exactly here, it'll probably be

the New York office,

but I don't I don't know

which city it's going to be,

but either way, he will be

moving to the States.

He's not someone you would think

too highly of, I bet.

He's not really an intellectual.

You'd probably, I don't know

make fun of him.

I don't know how it happened,

it just it happened.

I felt terrible about it.

But it was good for me.

It was it was really good.

Please, say something. Please.

What do you want me to say?

I know it's unforgivable

that I didn't tell you

about it earlier.

I mean, I just I couldn't.

And, um

I didn't know

what was gonna happen.

I guess I thought

that you would find out

on your own at some point.

How was I supposed to find out?

I don't know.

You didn't

Haven't

You didn't feel anything?

No.

Well, that right there might be

a sign of something, I guess.

Right?

- Sorry.

- You okay?

Here.

Here, let me

Here, just drink this, okay?

Okay, please?

So, what am I supposed to do

with this information here?

I don't know. I

I thought that it would pass,

but it hasn't.

So it's still

it's still going on?

Like, right now?

Yeah.

And you're gonna keep doing it?

I don't know.

Yes.

Yeah.

So why are you telling me

right now?

I don't

I thought you should know.

Why are you telling me tonight?

- Why

- I'm going to Tel Aviv,

uh, with him, tomorrow night.

- What

- I have to go. I have to go.

Just for a little bit. I don't

know for how long, and

I'm gonna talk to Ava

in the morning,

and I'm gonna tell her that,

um, I have to go away for work,

which is true. I

Someone has to oversee

the transition.

Ackerman and I spoke,

and we both agreed

that I would go I would do it.

So I am leaving tomorrow night

at 10:00 p.m. from JFK.

What do you why does Ackerman

need you to leave tomorrow?

No, it's not Ack

It's not about him.

It's because Poli's go

What?

That's his name. It's, um

short for Poliakov,

his first name's Saul,

but everyone

just calls him Poli.

He's going tomorrow.

I'm gonna go with him, so

You already bought a ticket?

Yeah.

I mean, now that I'm talking

to you,

now that I'm in this house,

it's, uh

it seems crazy.

Nothing could be crazier.

It's just

it's really surreal. It's

But at least now you know.

Now you know.

- That's a relief, I guess.

- I don't know anything.

I don't know

what's going on here.

I told you what's going on.

I don't

I don't know what else

that I can say. It's

Okay.

Go ahead, I'll be right up.

You have marks

on your back.

What?

Sorry.

Uh, I need

some things for the

Did you have a chance

to pick up the dry cleaning?

- No, no, I didn't.

- That's okay.

You can pick it up yourself

in the morning.

Yeah. I'm not sure

I'll have time.

I wanna be with Ava until

I drop her off at preschool,

and then I have to run

to a meeting,

but it's okay. Never mind.

How long are you going for?

I don't know. It depends.

On on what?

Is it something that you're

- still trying to figure out?

- Three months.

I see.

Okay.

And, uh

What about Ava?

Have you thought about

I'll see her

every other weekend.

- Got it in the contract.

- You will?

It'll be a long weekend,

Friday to Sunday, so

Flight's 11 hours,

not the end of the world.

I'll get a hotel nearby

and she can stay with me.

And then there's Skype

and there's FaceTime,

I mean, we

I could talk to her every night.

It's a seven-hour

time difference,

so when she gets home

from preschool,

I'll be home from work.

People do this.

I won't be the first,

or the last.

Men do it all the time,

and then, you know, it's not

really a big deal, so

Okay. As long

as you've convinced yourself.

I don't care

if I'm convincing anyone.

I don't give a sh*t.

You can think I'm a monster,

think whatever the f*ck

you want, I don't care!

This can't I just

I can't do this right now.

Let's talk about this later.

I can't I just

- I can't do it right now.

- When's later?

When I get back.

- So in four months?

- When I get back,

we will, you know,

set something up in advance

with a couples therapist

or a mediator,

and we'll we'll start

some sort of process.

A process of what?

Of detachment.

Detachment?

What the f*ck is detachment?

It's a separation.

You want a divorce?

Maybe. I think so.

But we don't have to do it

right away. I think it's best

that it's gradual,

so that Ava isn't

Yeah. Gradual, gradual.

You're leaving her overnight.

- I'm not leaving her.

- Really gradual.

Don't say that. I'm leaving you.

I'm not leaving her.

Yeah.

Try explaining that to her.

I will. I'm gonna tell her

that I'll see her in less than

two weeks from today,

and and, you know,

when I'm back from this trip,

we're gonna be together a lot,

you know, all the time.

All the time.

I mean, maybe the three of us

can start this process,

you know, over Skype

with a family counselor

I'm not really interested in

going along with your process.

Okay, fine.

- We won't do it.

- Good.

Whatever you want.

I mean, I can't force you

to do anything, so

I'm just gonna take

some clothes.

That's all I need.

And of course, I'll pay

for all of the help

that you need, obviously.

- Okay. Thank you.

- You don't need to worry

- about anything.

- Sounds great.

When I get back,

we can talk about the rest,

but I'm sure we'll work it out.

I don't wanna fight you,

Jonathan. I just wanna leave.

Okay. Well, you know what,

if it's really that urgent,

why don't you just leave

right now? Go ahead.

Leave if it's so urgent for you,

just you can leave right now.

Urgent? Do you know how long

I've wanted to leave?

I'm not really

interested in knowing.

Every day for eight months,

every morning,

I've woken up with the knowledge

that I cannot be here anymore.

That I have to go.

But I didn't go. I stayed.

So don't talk to me

about urgent.

I fought this for months.

You were so busy

with your own anger,

you didn't even notice.

What? What what

what did I not notice?

That I was miserable.

And we never even

talked about it.

The ab*rtion? We

we talked about it for days.

We

- It's what you wanted.

- I know.

I thought that it was going

to protect what we had.

It was for us.

And then Kate saw

that I was in bad shape,

so she took me to dinner,

she set me straight.

She was like,

"Who has an ab*rtion

to save their marriage?

What kind of marriage needs

an ab*rtion to save it?"

She's right, though.

It was the other way around.

I was terrified

that if I had another kid

then I could never leave.

Why didn't you talk to me

about it?

I couldn't.

You couldn't either.

- I couldn't?

- No.

You were so angry at me,

you couldn't even admit

that you were angry.

How were we supposed to talk

about anything?

Okay.

Let's talk about it right now.

- No.

- Let's talk.

- It's too late.

- Come on, let's talk.

Jonathan, it's too late.

It's too late.

Mira.

Mira, I know that I've

I've made my fair share

of mistakes, okay? And I take

- responsibility for that.

- No.

No. No, no, don't go there.

- On this position, I

- You don't have any responsibility.

You didn't make any mistakes,

and I didn't any mistakes,

and

we're not gonna get

into blame because if

we do that, I will go crazy.

So this isn't anyone's fault.

It's just the way that it is.

This is the way that it is?

- What the f*ck is that?

- Yeah, it's the way that it is.

It happens to everyone.

It's so predictable,

it's practically a cliché.

I mean, so let's not get

into the blame game

or where we went wrong

and all that,

- because it's not about that.

- What is it about?

I'm trying to explain to you,

but you keep trying

to figure out

where you went wrong,

what this has to do with you,

but it's not about you.

- Okay.

- It's not.

Well then, tell me.

What is it? What is it about?

I don't know how.

I mean, can you understand

what it means to feel like

like I'm lying here at night

and I

just feeling like I'm

I had a crazy thought

the other night where I just

I thought of checking

my own pulse

to see if I was still alive.

Can you understand that?

Like there's no oxygen,

like you can't breathe.

- Do you under

- Yeah, yeah. That I

- That I can understand.

- Yeah, well, yeah.

Of course you can. So imagine

like a constant asthma attack.

Entire days

where you just feel

suffocated,

and the whole time,

I'm just thinking

"Is this it?" It's like

Is this all I'm gonna have?

Just like

this?

Without any

feeling?

Without feeling?

When you're in this house,

you don't

- No.

- You don't feel anything?

That's not what I meant.

I love Ava so much, and I

I love you.

I didn't even know

what the problem was

until this happened, and

then I remembered what

it was like, and now I

I can't go back.

You can go back.

You can,

- you just don't want to.

- No, I can't.

I can't.

I tried a hundred times.

Believe me, I tried.

Over and over. I can't do it.

I know you think I'm spoiled

and I'm pathetic.

Look, I don't think that.

I don't know why you

Well, maybe I do.

I thought I was better than this

but I guess I'm not.

Mira, please, this is bullshit

and you know it.

No, I don't.

I mean, you've known me forever.

How long did you think

that we could just, like

go on like this? Just

living without any

What? Without what?

I don't know, just

- Passion.

- Uh-huh.

- I hate that word. It's

- Right.

It's it's really

it's embarrassing,

it sounds pathetic,

but, you know

that's, uh

Who is he?

What?

The guy.

I wanna hear about him.

Why? What good would that do?

I wanna know.

Why? Why do you wanna

t*rture yourself?

Do you have a picture of him?

Of course you do.

- Can I see it?

- Jonathan, no.

- Please, let's not do this.

- Please?

- Not right now. Don't

- Yes, yes, right now. Right now.

I'm asking to see a picture.

Okay.

This is recent?

About a month ago.

How old is he?

Twenty-nine.

What does he do?

- I told you, he runs a startup.

- Right, right, right.

He's tall?

Yeah.

Is he married?

No. Single.

So, um

how'd you meet?

At that party on the boat

after we

- closed the deal. Yeah.

- Right, right.

Yeah, yeah.

I remember that party.

So, how did it happen?

What do you wanna know?

How it happened.

He walked up to me and

he told me that he liked

the way that I was dancing.

Since when do you dance?

I haven't in a long time.

But there was, uh

I'd had a lot to drink,

and there

and there was

a lot of coke there. So, yeah.

I was dancing and, um,

he came over.

Mm-hmm. And?

And

he said that I was the first

American woman he had met

who wasn't constantly trying

to please everyone,

who didn't need to be liked.

Hmm.

And then we talked

until 2:00 in the morning.

And then what?

And

then we kissed.

And then, um

we went up to the room.

His room?

No, my room.

Your room, okay.

And then what?

- Honey.

- Just tell me.

It was mostly funny at first.

- It was funny?

- Yeah.

Um, I was just

I was laughing hysterically.

It was really awkward,

and

But it was also liberating

to laugh like that.

Mm-hmm.

And then we didn't leave

the room for two days.

I told, uh, everyone I was sick.

I I told you that too.

And then I came back and I

prayed that you couldn't see it

on me, but you were

you were just so happy

to see me happy again,

and calm, and

We started having sex again too.

Yeah.

- Does he know that?

- No.

Every day, I told myself

it had to stop, every day.

I couldn't do it.

And I even told him,

I told him I wanted out, but

I couldn't go through with it.

He wouldn't let me go.

- You can still end it.

- Uh-uh.

- You just don't want to, Mira.

- I can't.

- You can.

- I can't. I'm in love with him.

You're in love with him. You're in love with him.

I'm happy with him.

- Yeah. I'm in love with him.

- Okay.

And he's good for me.

I am I'm happy again.

You've seen that. I mean,

even people at the office

have said

that I'm finally

like myself again.

I'm so vibrant, and

even Ava. I'm

I mean, you saw

how we got we got so close,

and it's like suddenly I

I had so much patience for her.

I'm not Honey, I'm not

saying this to try to hurt you.

I'm just trying to explain,

like, why I can't give it up.

If I I'm gonna go

out of my mind

- if I don't leave right now.

- Right now?

- Like, right this second?

- Yeah.

If I don't leave right now,

I know I'm never going to.

So

I just I wish you could like

listen to yourself for a second

'cause if you could,

you'd think you're nuts.

No, don't patronize me.

- It's crazy.

I'm not trying to patronize you,

I'm not.

I'm just telling you

that this is not you.

- It is me.

- You don't talk like this.

- It's absolutely me.

- It's not you.

You're not this person.

You don't do sh*t like this.

Just without thinking.

It's insanity,

what you're doing.

- It's not insanity. It's me.

- It's gonna leave you

It's me! If you think it isn't,

you haven't been listening to me all this time.

I'm listening. I'm listening,

and I'm trying to understand.

I'm trying. Believe me. I'm trying to understand, okay?

No, you understand.

You understand. You're just

trying to convince me to stay,

- and I don't wanna be convinced.

- All I'm asking for you

- is to postpone the trip

- No.

- for a few weeks.

- I can't.

Just Yes, you can, you can.

It's more than reasonable

for me to ask you to do that.

If it's really meant to be

with this guy,

a few weeks is not gonna

make any difference.

You need to think

about Ava for a second,

if not about me.

- Don't say that. Please don't.

- What?

What exactly do you think

is gonna happen here

every day and every night

while you're gone?

Have you thought about that?

- Will you think about that?

- I think that you

are the best dad in the world,

and I think that I'm

I just

It's gonna be the best

for her too.

How could you

how could you possibly say that?

Because it's true.

Sweetie.

Honey.

We can survive this.

We can get through it.

We can talk. We know

how to talk to each other.

You'll never forgive me.

I think I can.

We can

I think we can

we can get through it together.

We can

go to therapy. We'll, you know,

maybe it'll bring us

closer together.

We have something

so real between us,

something so big.

You've been so good

for me, honey,

and I know that I've been good

for you.

- I know I have.

- You have.

Then let's not just blow it

all up in an instant.

Okay? Just think about that.

- It won't work.

- Why? Why

How how can you be so sure?

Because it ended so long ago.

Okay. You Listen,

you have to give me

a chance here.

You have to give me a chance.

You can't just

This is cruel,

doing it like this overnight.

You know, I

- I don't deserve this.

- No, you deserve so much more.

I'm telling you, honey,

I really think

that this is gonna be

the best for you too.

- What?

- Yeah. You

you think that you're gonna

be lonely

like you were before,

but I'm telling you,

honey, you're not

that guy anymore.

You have Ava now

and it's really

it's gonna be good for you.

I mean, you're not happy

with me like this.

You haven't been

for a long time.

I mean, there's no way

you haven't felt that.

Don't don't

don't tell me what I feel.

I thought everything was okay.

Don't put that on me.

- I'm not I'm not

- That Yes. Yes.

I think you are.

You're putting that on me.

Honey, please. Let's just talk

in the morning, okay?

It's just not helping.

It's so painful.

It's like everything

we're saying

is just more and more pain.

I'm so ashamed.

Hmm.

Could you hand me

my towel, please?

Thanks.

I'm taking the Bric,

I'm gonna leave

the small suitcase here.

Okay.

Okay

Okay.

Just let me do it.

- No, I got it.

- Let me help you.

Okay. I'll take some stuff out,

it's fine.

Let me do it. Let me do it.

It'll just take a second.

It'll just take a minute.

Let's just move this.

Okay. That's good.

That's enough.

Jonathan, please don't

- Just It'll take a minute.

- Don't do this.

It's gonna just take a minute,

you're gonna rip it.

- Give me one second.

- Let Okay, stop it.

No! I don't want you

Stop. It'll just be a minute.

You want a coffee?

Yes, please.

Thanks.

I can't do it.

I can't wake her up.

Well, let's just get through

the morning and

we'll see, you know, maybe

we could talk to her together.

Just just do everything

gradually.

Oh.

I'm not doing it. Whatever.

Calm down, calm down

Have you seen my, uh

the carry-on

that I came back with?

Mira, will you

just sit down for a second?

You know, I'm gonna pick

pick her up today after school.

Um, yeah, I'll have time

before the flight.

I could I'll take her

to Vaniglia,

maybe I'll talk to her there,

and then you could meet us

- to take her home.

- Veronica's already

planning to pick her up

from school today.

It's okay, I'll call her.

I'll tell her everything

- so that way you don't have to

- Where are you going?

- It's 7:00 in the morning.

- Uh, to the office.

I called a car.

It's The office

is still closed.

Well, I've got a key.

Will you please just listen

for a second?

What?

This is, uh,

it's just surreal.

- It's delusional.

- Yeah, I know.

Then, no. No, I don't accept it.

We're gonna sit here

and we're gonna talk

as long as it takes, okay?

- We talked last night.

- No. No, we yelled at each other

for an hour, that was

that's not the same thing.

It's not gonna do

any good. I mean

It's not gonna do any

What is this? What is this thing

where we can't talk

to each other, Mira?

I want to talk to you, and

- you don't want to talk to me.

- No, you don't want to talk to me.

- What kind of cruelty is that?

- You want to keep me here at all costs.

I want to talk to you.

I want to

I want to sit here 'till there's

smoke coming out of our ears

and we've

we've gone through all of

all of the angles and figure out

where we went wrong

and how we can fix it.

I'm not attracted

to you anymore.

How do you fix that?

Mira.

Jonathan, please,

let me go, please.

Please.

Let me go.

Let me go.

Jonathan.

I'll text you

when I'm with Ava.

Ready to go?

Let me get that for you.

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after the

Hey, Jonathan.

- Hey, Peter.

- Hey!

How's it going?

Um, can you put Kate on

for a moment?

She's not answering the phone.

Sure. Is anything wrong?

No, I'll talk to you

in a second, just

Could you

could you put her on?

Uh, sure.

Uh, just a second.

- Thanks.

- Hold on.

- Good morning.

- Kate, hey, good morning.

Good morning.

Hey, so, listen, um,

look, I I know that, um,

- that you know

- Know what?

about the whole thing

with Mira.

Oh.

- Kate?

- Um, I'm sorry, Jonathan.

No, no, Kate, Kate, hey,

hey, it's it's okay.

I I understand, I know

that you couldn't, and, um

look, I just, uh

So, basically, Mira just left.

- How do you mean? Like

- She, um

She got in last night,

and she just left

for the office,

and she's going to fly out

to Tel Aviv

tonight. Yes. And, uh

I'm sorry,

but if you two

No, I I I

I know that you don't wanna

be put in the middle of this,

and I just I just need you

to talk to her,

and and convince her

that she needs

to postpone this trip

just for a little bit,

- you know?

- Postpone

Yeah, just for like a couple

of weeks

so that we can talk

about this calmly,

and, you know,

maybe go to therapy,

and it's just it's insanity

doing it like this overnight.

Well,

she's not doing this

Did did you try to talk

to her?

Yes, I tried. But she

wasn't really listening

Then why didn't you

tell me about it

before this thing turned into

a f*cking sh*t show?

Kate, Kate, I need

I need you to

- Hey, Jon.

- Hey, Peter.

Why don't we come over

and then

No, I don't I don't need you

I don't need you to come over

I can be there

because it's not gonna help

at all.

Yeah, yeah, it is. It is.

By the way, how long

have you known about this?

f*cking

And it did not occur to you

to let me know about this,

with all your

"honesty" bullshit?

Look,

Kate's the problem

No, don't don't blame this

on Kate. Don't blame it

I I called you yesterday, man.

I didn't wanna hurt you.

You didn't wanna hurt me?

f*ck you!

f*ck you! f*ck the both of you!

You're both pathetic!

You