02x06 - Construção

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This memory stirred me up a lot, Alice.

Um! I had no idea of
the weight of this feeling.

Can you talk a little
more about this weight?

I was irresponsible.

I couldn't take care of
myself, let alone a baby.

There were days when...

when I cried more than Léo, you know?

And...there were days when I
couldn't do basic things, like...

take a shower, wash my hair,
or even go to the bathroom.

Um. Be with Valentina.

Let alone take care of a child, right?

I remember moments when
I would just cry, cry, and cry.

Well...it's understandable, right?

As the role of the woman after
the baby is born can be really...

really exhausting and tiring, indeed.

And it also comes with a lot of social
pressure that is put on the women.

So all of this makes the role of
being a mother, um, the maternal role,

into something that is
more about responsibilities

than about sharing experiences, right?

And everyone lives these
experiences differently.

Yes, but...

I feel so guilty.

I have...I feel that I
was not a good mother.

But what does it mean to be a good mother?

There's no way to know. Because...

there is romanticization regarding
motherhood, being a mother.

Especially in how a
woman should act, behave,

how she should speak,
what she should feel, right?

And...and the maternal
function doesn't emerge

when you get pregnant
or when the baby is born.

No, it's a process, it's a development.

The mother and the baby together
discover each other's needs, understand?

That's why having a support
network is so important

because it is within this network that
you receive the support and care you need.

And then you can calmly talk about
your anxieties, fears, and insecurities.

These people will see you as a
human being with certain needs,

as someone who also requires care.

Yeah, I...

I wish I had been more
attentive to those needs.

I wish...

I had been capable of love.

But...

I couldn't even ask for help for myself.

Yeah...it's really challenging.

The social construction

of motherhood is often prescriptive

and restrictive rather than
creative and individual, you know?

So we often see many people
out there telling you what you

should and shouldn't do

as if we were born
already knowing it all. Yes.

Then we receive this
information and reproduce

it because someone back
then learned it that way,

and then we continually
reproduce it. For example:

"A mother cannot let a
child cry for even a second."

This mother..."Oh, and pacifiers?
No way, pacifiers are never allowed!"

"Breast milk can only be given up
to two years, no more and no less."

And that's how it goes...rules on
top of rules on top of rules, you know?

So, yeah...it's cruel. People forget
that there's a person behind it all.

And that human being lives according
to their own unique experiences.

Understand?

So, don't worry because each mother

will experience motherhood in their
own way, different from any other mother.

It is unique to each.

Yes, I believe there is a
lot to understand, isn't there?

Yes. There is still a lot to assimilate.

Yes.

For sure!

But...how is your
relationship with Léo today?

Tell me.

BASED ON THE WORK BY NATHÁLIA SODRÉ

EPISODE 6: BUILDING

Did you know that sometimes I miss the
time when our only concern was college?

After we become adults,
things change, don't they?

Yes...

But I think we've built a lot of
great things even after college.

I think so too.

And I think like any couple,
we've had good and bad moments.

Everything is just phasing, right?

It's funny how none of what
I imagined became reality.

Is that so? Ahem!

I didn't picture myself married. I
didn't picture myself being a mother.

I didn't picture myself
living this kind of adult life.

I didn't know what I
wanted to do with my career.

You wanted to spend a
few years traveling the world.

Seriously? Mmm.

It's amazing how you
know everything about me.

I was just thinking about
that... Oh, is that so?

Ahem!

We've been together for many years.

Is that so? Mmm!

Many? Yes!

Enough for me to know that if I
don't distance myself from you now,

I won't be able to finish editing the
photos that I need to deliver today.

Really? Yes.

Today?

f*ck!

She wants to test my patience,
dim my light, disturb my peace!

She just wants to help, Duda. Help, huh?

Stop being annoying! Annoying, me?

I can take care of my own life, I am a
grown woman, I can take care of this child,

and Aninha and I can even choose
the school where my daughter will study!

Yes, you can! You can
do anything you want!

Did you sign the
authorization for her school?

I'm on it now, Duda! Now...

Yes, now. Can't you see?

Great! Aninha, hurry up,
your dad is waiting for you!

Waiting and signing! Signing and waiting!

Oh, you signed. How wonderful!
It's signed! Come on, daughter.

Go have fun, woohoo!

Do your moms fight a lot?

Sometimes. Because, my
parents are fighting a lot.

Would you like to live with me in my house?

I love it when we have
lunch together, you know?

Oh, is that so? Mmm!

And I love to see you. Do you?

Oh, it seems like our favorite
couple is always horny, huh?

I think we should start recording
that, so we can make money.

What are you talking about?

No, no, no! I think they deserve an
exclusive channel just for themselves!

Damn, that's a great idea! I even thought
of a name for the Fandom: Oranges.

And I bet if I posted
five videos, in two

weeks, I would get
around five million views.

Here...tell me how did
you get in here, please.

With the keys, of course.

We will have to change the lock.

Okay, then! Valentina, get her! Come
on, Valentina, we need more contact!

Wow! Stop!

I didn't do anything! No, no, no, guys!

Let's do this, Valentina. We'll
give you five minutes to figure it out.

Oh, Mom said she was going
to call, and what did we promise?

We promised we'd be
together, remember? Okay.

So, look at that, we'll be
waiting in the living room then!

That's right, Carol will wait in the living

room. Let's go! Let's
get this done quickly!

Valentina, you're the striker!

The best, come on! Get out, Sarah!

Come on, Luiza! It's
for the 'Little Oranges.'

Now seriously, Sarah, let's go, stop it!

I also miss my youth. Come on, Valentina!

That time was wonderful, huh?
But it's content for the 'Little Oranges.'

Valentina, what do you think? What is this?

What do you mean by that?

Stop pretending, okay?

I am...I'm going to finish preparing lunch.

You that we can do a lot
in these five minutes, right?

Stop, Valentina.

Hot!

Luiza...

you're crying.

I always get emotional in this scene.

Why did Simba's father die?

Simba's father died...because
it was his destiny, my dear.

And...that was important
for Simba to grow up,

and become who he became.

This is so sad.

Yes...

It is indeed sad, but...

Life is like that, right?

Sometimes, we have happy moments,

and sometimes we have sad moments.

But the important thing is, look at
me, I will always be here with you.

I love you.

He loves you a lot.

And I love him too.

And I love you too.

I will treasure this moment as
"My new unforgettable memory."

I don't know, Luiza.

I know the kids have stayed there before,

and it's not the first time they've
slept at their grandma's but...

Jana is up to something,
and I'm sure of that!

Well, she is their grandmother, right?

I think it's normal that she
wants to spend time with the kids.

Careful with excessive nitpicking, Eduarda.

"Excessive nitpicking?"

Luiza...

You need to spend more time with
your friend, that woman is rubbing

off on you, okay?"

Well, look at the bright
side: "We earned a night off."

Night off, you?

Since when do you need a night off, girl?

I'm a child of God too!

"Peaceful intimacy has its value."

Since when do you need calm sex? Luiza!

So, have me and my wife
become the subject again?

Can we go back to talking about Jana?

I don't know! I'm worried, you know?

Now...she's even complaining
about Aninha's school.

She just wants to annoy me. I don't know!

I just want the kids to be okay.

I'm worried, you know.

Luh, everything is ready!

Let's go? Yes!

I'm curious!

Every time we come here you
have exactly the same reaction.

Is that so?

It's beautiful, isn't it? It is, indeed!

I'm completely in love!

With me?

Oh, for you always, huh, Valentina!

I found this place through a photo sh**t.

Wow! Yeah, as soon as I
laid my eyes on this place,

I was sure you would be
as in love with it as I am.

You often say that I'm
your lucky charm, right?

But in reality, I think I'm
the lucky one to have you.

I really don't know if anyone else

would do everything you've done for me.

At least not with such dedication.

I don't have words to express
the good you do for me,

the good you've always done for me.

You never gave up on us,
because back in the beginning...

no one believed in me as you did.

Are you referring to the time in college?

Well, partly yes, but not only that.

Okay, do you know what I
sometimes think about? Hm?

What would that old Luiza
think of this new Luiza,

who is completely in love and
very proud to be married to you?

I'm sure she would freak out! Oh my God!

Do you know what's funny?

I never imagined myself married to someone.

Because even though I
admire my parents' relationship,

I didn't think I would be able
to share daily life with someone,

that I would have room in my life for that.

I am well aware of that.

Only I know what I went
through to win your heart.

It's just that...

It wasn't just about you, you know?

Well, I...it took me a
long time to understand,

to accept me.

And...

This process of acceptance was very...

painful.

I kept imagining what people would think,

how they would react,

if what I was doing was wrong.

Until I understood that...

it was wrong not to follow my dreams.

Well, the truth is, I like
'Enchanted Warriors.'

And I've found mine!

Who is in this battle with me, with my son,

and in every moment.

I love you.

I love you a lot!

I was looking at these photos
here, and...what a wonderful editorial.

I'm thinking of doing something
in this vibe for Normani.

What do you think? I like it.

Oh, I think we could try
using some pastel tones.

Mom, what is?

Come again? What?

What is an orgasm?

Kid, look, you're too young to
understand about this subject.

Ahem. How did you
come up with this question?

Mom, how are babies made?

So, Luiza, explain it to us.

How are babies made?

Son, babies are the fruit of love.

When two people love each other very much

they decide to multiply that love,

in the form of a new life.

Understand? How is it done then?

Mm...

They are made in a very delicate way,

and very intimate.

Whoa, Luiza...

You're horrible at that!

Buddy, let's stop teasing your mom.

When you're older, we'll
explain everything to you in detail.

Right? Um!

Agreed?

Let me just ask you a question, son.

Where did you hear these things?

I overheard Aunt Carol
and Aunt Sarah talking.

Ooh! I'm going to k*ll them, Valentina.

I swear!

Good evening, my beautiful wife.

Good evening.

Um, where's Léo?

Today is school field trip day, remember?

Oh! Igor is the one picking up the kids.

Yeah, but it's already late, isn't it?

I'm going to call him. Hold on.

[Your call is being
forwarded...] He's not answering.

He's driving, Luh. They'll be here soon.

Sure, but... I'll try again, just in case.

[Your call is being forwarded
to the voicemail] Hm, Valentina...

He's not answering.

They arrived! They arrived.

Hey, what's up? Igor, where's Léo?

He's not with me.

Come again? He's not with me, girls.

What do you mean he's not with you?
If he's not with you, then who is he with?

I don't...I don't know...he's not with me.

Igor, for God's sake!