06x12 - Strength in Pain

[bunniefuu]

-Good night, bree.
-Good night, clarence.

It's so cramped in here.

What the *bleep* was that?

I heard a noise.

*Bleep*

Aah!

Oh, my god!
There's a snake on me!

Holy *bleep* aah!

*Bleep*

Narrator: one man...

...one woman,
exposed and alone...

It's scary.

At nature's mercy for 21 days.

Aah!

There's a bear
outside my shelter.

Narrator: with no food...

Please don't go.

...no water...

I'm hurting real bad.

Narrator: ...no clothes.

There's an alligator
down here.

Narrator:
do they have the skill...

-Fire!
-...and the will to survive?

Clarence: mother nature
will kick your a*s.

Woman:
now, bree, please tell us

What you're eating
for your last meal.

Last meal with the family --
this wasn't planned --

I got the fresh and naked
basil pesto.

-"Fresh and naked."
-Mmm. Yeah.

Hopefully I'll be fresh
and naked when I get there.

Okay. Let's get real.

My name is clarence,
and I am homeless.

I've been homeless for a little
over 10 years now.

I do work, usually as
a survival instructor.

But I don't make enough money
to have my own place.

When I'm not living
where I work,

I'm crashing
on friends' couches.

I may not have a home,
but I have a heart,

And home is where the heart is,
and that's everywhere.

That's earth.
My address is "earth."

Narrator: a primitive
landscape, untamed --

This is the atlantida region
of honduras,

Bree and clarence's home
for the next 21 days.

Bree: is this a road?

It's not a road.

I'm ready. I'm ready.

Narrator: in this mountainous
tropical rainforest,

A blazing sun sends
temperatures soaring.

The high humidity creates
a suffocating stillness.

Nightfall brings some respite
from the heat but no relief

From the threat of
stalking jaguars.

The area has been saturated by
violent seasonal thunderstorms,

Providing an ideal
breeding ground

For a huge variety of
poisonous snakes,

Among them the eyelash viper,

Whose long fangs inject
deadly hemotoxic venom.

Man, this just got real,
real fast.

My name is bree.

I'm from denver, colorado,
and I work in real estate.

My father has taught me

How to survive since I was
a little, little kid.

Primitive skills --
I would say foraging.

I know what's edible.

I mean, building forts --

I guess you would call them
shelters from a young age.

He's always wanted my sister
and I to be independent women.

I used to drink a lot.

The hardest thing
that I've ever done

In my life was getting sober.

What my parents saw in my 20s
was me drinking.

If I accomplish these 21 days
and nights,

I can show my dad he raised a
very confident and strong woman

That can take on anything.

Narrator: bree
is highly motivated

To prove herself in the wild,

But her impatient nature
could be her downfall

In an extended survival
situation.

Bree begins with a primitive
survival rating of 6.9.

Bree: I'm nervous about
who my partner is.

It's like the biggest blind date
in the world.

Clarence:
* take your clothes off *

* Take your -- take
your clothes off *

* Take your clothes off *

* Take your -- take
your clothes off *

School's about to start.

My name is clarence.

I'm from baltimore, maryland,

And I teach outdoor education.

I know how to make a shelter.
I can track an animal.

And I know how to make
a hand drill and a bow drill.

My father passed away
september 11, 2004.

My father was my rock.

After my father passed away,

Lots of people have let me down
over the years,

And I would never rely on anyone
for my success.

Narrator: clarence's loner
mind-set could work against him.

But his homelessness and
experience as a wilderness guide

Have given him a wealth
of primitive skills.

His psr is set at 7.2.

Right.
Looks like it's time.

I'm kind of excited to be naked
for 21 days.

Let's get naked, baby!

Tough times don't last,
tough people do!

I love my body, and being naked
is not a problem.

People seeing it -- it might be
a problem for them.

Ready for a big blur?

Ready for honduras.

Is honduras ready for me?

Let's see who I'm working with.

Bree:
I'm confident that I can survive
21 days in this environment.

Um, I am afraid of the dark.

I still sleep with a night-light
every night.

Snakes are something that also
freak me out,

So that's something that I'm
a little bit worried about.

Ah!
I'm making my way there.

Hi, I'm bree!
Here we are.

I'm clarence.
Nice to meet you.

Clarence,
nice to meet you finally.

I have to hug you,
I'm sorry.

Clarence: bree seems like
a very upbeat person.

She's smiling, I'm smiling.

Bree: the pink toenails
kind of threw me for a loop,

But, uh, clarence seems
very positive,

Which I'm in really
in tune with.

-All right.
-Okay.

Here's the big
black rock.

Yep.

It looks like
there's some palms

That maybe we could use
for shelter.

Kind of work our way
through in the shade.

To get out of this sun.

God, it's hot.

It's ridiculously hot.

Holy hell.
Aah!

Clarence:
I walk very slow.

I take my time, and I'm watching
every step that I take.

I run when I need to run.

- Okay.
-That's a fact.

It's not about the destination,
it's about the journey there.

Right behind you --
literally.

The wind is coming
from that direction.

It's fully raining now.

If my core temperature goes down
by three degrees -- hypothermia,

And that's gonna be
a major problem.

I hear water.
-Yep.

Look!
Oh, my gosh! The palms!

Check it!
-Yeah!

I love it.

And there's a lot
of water here.

This is go-time.
Let's get...

-Let's do it.
-...some sort of shelter.

Off the ground,
for sure.

That's all I want.

Oh, my god!
Do you hear that?

Man, it is picking up.

Oh, my god.

It's a race against time.

The mosquitos are eating
me alive.

I don't feel so good
about this shelter at all.

Clarence: one of the problems
I'm having is --

My hands are wet, and it's
raining, and everything's wet.

And I'm gonna try to get this
bad boy going right now,

In the dark.

Please.

Bree: oh, my god.

Clarence:
we haven't slept yet,

And we have no clue
what time it is...

But, uh...

We'll survive.

We'll survive.

So, first, I think
we need to locate

Where we want to change from
this, 'cause this sucked.

This was the worst.

And it sucked
for many reasons.

Last night was bad
in a very unique way.

I've been out in the snow,
on sidewalks, in deserts,

But last night
was a whole new level

I've never experienced a day
in my life.

I didn't get a lick of sleep.

This is really flat.

Just this and this is all we
need to start our lean-to.

We don't need any forks,

Except for support beams
underneath.

Bree: I don't like sleeping
on the ground.

It is extremely important that
I fix this shelter situation.

So this is of high priority.

Snakes are something
that freak me out.

They can hide in smaller places,
and you can easily get bit.

Well, I'm gonna let you take
charge on making the shelter.

Okay.

For me, I'm gonna focus
on the fire.

That fire's gonna be
a life-line.

I'll feed the fire
before I feed myself.

Whew. Pressure's on.

It's a lot of hard work putting
up an elevated shelter.

I put up a lot of them, and --
and it's an all-day process.

Everything is wet.

Everything is awesome.

Oh, this is wet.

That's why
it's not catching.

This is pretty dry.

Here's how I've been
successful before --

I need to take the base of it
and get it low.

You're so peaceful when
you do that, not, like --

I'm sweating like crazy.

Stress doesn't help anything.
There we go.

Put the whole damned thing
in there.

Let me get it right on
the coals, right there.

Bree: I'm really excited
that he got fire.

I'm realizing that
it's a lot easier

For us to work as a team
on things,

Rather than me being impatient
as I usually am.

That is one of
my biggest downfalls.

What is that?

Oh, my god!
It's a tarantula!

Holy -- look at that guy!

Yeah, that's a nice,
tasty little snack.

He's huge!

All right, buddy.
You're gonna get eaten.

Oh *bleep*

Got it, got it!

Oh, my god! Be careful!

I got it, I got it.

I need a rock,
I need a rock.

Clarence.

I don't want to mush it up
too bad.

I know.
Did you get him?

Yeah, I got that sucker.

All right.

So that's what's
on the ground.

Nice.

Sucker's got bigger teeth
than me.

Want to try a leg?

Yeah, let's try some leg.

Oh, look at that meat.

Like a fuzzy
little lobster.

Clarence:
you'd told me 10 years ago

You were gonna be naked
in honduras eating tarantulas,

I would have laughed at you,
said you were crazy.

Whew. Cool.

Hey, clarence!
-Yo!

I'm, like, so thirsty!

Let's take a break,
drink water.

I mean, if you want
to drink it now,

You can drink it now,
but I like it to cool off.

We'll cool it off.

I just got to get something
in me.

Well, to cool it off,
I would keep the top on it,

And it'll probably take
a little bit.

This thing's, like,
boiling-boiling,

So I think we need to, like,
keep it propped off.

I think that with the top on,
in the water,

On the rocks,
I think it'll be safe.

Blah, blah.

Do you understand, like,
how bad I need water?

I know.

I don't know if you are
understanding that.

I don't think rushing is going
to satisfy that.

I'm just gonna drink
the water, okay?

I have to.
I'm so sorry.

Mmm.

Clarence, can you try better
to listen to me?

I feel like you're not
listening to me.

Well, what do you need me
to hear?

You were thirsty?
-Yes.

And I heard that
correctly?

Like, pass-out thirsty.

I understand.
Okay.

And I just recommended --
let it cool off.

Clarence:
bree likes stuff quick.

She doesn't like to take
her time, and I do.

I'm not going to be able
to go at her pace,

And I'm expecting that

She's gonna want me to pick it
up a little bit.

Narrator: clarence and bree
spend the next two hours

Working on the raised platform
for their shelter,

Racing to finish before
the evening storms roll in.

Clarence: honduras!

Is that the best rain
you got?

Came all the way down here
for this trickle?

Come on, honduras.

We should start taking these

And just tossing them over
real quickly...

-Okay.
-...and have a shelter.

Okay.

Tonight will be better as long
as we keep this fire going.

We got it.

Up off the floor,
with dry feet.

All that hard work

I feel like just paid off.

Bree: it was freezing cold
last night.

I mean, cold-cold.

I am feeling tired,
really, really tired...

Oh, I bet.

...from a piss-poor sleep.

You know, a team effort for
the fire would have been ideal.

I'm the main one
looking for wood,

And I'm the main one tending it,
the main one feeding it,

And the only one at night
doing anything to preserve it.

I'm gonna make
a new shelter completely,

And I'm gonna make
my own fire.

I need a warmer spot
to sleep in.

Sleep's too important.

I know sleep
is important.

Bree and I are partners,

But we don't have to hold hands
with everything that we do,

And we definitely don't have
to sleep together.

I'm used to being alone,

So I don't mind
doing it again.

I want to finish this
before it rains.

Narrator: clarence quickly
gathers leaves and twigs

To erect a debris shelter.

It's the ideal structure to keep
heat in and rain out.

So, it's raining...

And I'm dry.

That's all I can say about that.

He is making his own shelter
and his own fire.

I haven't done a fire here,
'cause I don't want my palms,

Which are very flammable,
to go up in flame.

So, I know the bugs
will eat me tonight,

But I just hope it'll be warm
since I'm not wet.

Well, that's good.

What?

Oh, my god.
Are you serious?

You've never heard
your stomach growl?

There's a snake over there --

Venomous eyelash viper snake

That's a few steps in front
of me, and I'm hungry.

I'm gonna eat it.

There's a potential for danger,
but I got to eat.

I don't know how many calories
are in little snakes,

But I get five calories here,

Ten calories there,
they'll add up.

I got a snack.
-You did?

Oh, my god,
you k*lled it?

Yeah, you're just
a bona fide badass.

Oh, my god.

There was a venomous snake
just feet from our camp.

Bree: I don't have those kind
of guts, man.

Can't be afraid out here.

Ready to pull the skin off,
eat the meat,

And hopefully the bones will be
nice and crunchy.

How close it was to camp
does bother me a little bit.

Sleeping on the ground --
I got to be cautious.

My stomach's k*lling me.

I can feel it all
in my bowels.

Narrator: so far, a diet of only
snake and tarantula

Is reeking havoc on clarence's
digestive system.

Narrator: in this foreign
jungle environment

Crawling with
disease-carrying parasites,

He may have picked up
some bacteria

His body simply cannot
fight off.

Clarence: I'm sick.

I have something
in my intestines

That doesn't agree with me.

So I've got crazy diarrhea.

I think I need to add
one more big one.

Patience is what's gonna make it
work the best.

Clarence: today bree is going
to be all about the fire.

Today's gonna be a good test
for her

And see how important it is,

And hopefully it'll teach her
a little bit of patience.

All righty-diety.

-I need to sleep.
-I agree. Sleep.

Bree: I feel like
I'm always on guard.

Eyelash vipers blend right in
with everything.

Having fire responsibility today
makes me a little nervous,

'Cause I know how clarence feels
about his fire.

And I don't mean his fire,
but it is -- it's his baby.

So, I really don't want
to let him down.

Before he left to go rest,

I put a ton of firewood
on the fire

So that I won't be left between
a rock and a hard place,

Because I do have
a tendency to --

Holy *bleep*

The whole thing
is catching on fire.

Oh, my god.

Oh, my god!

He's gonna be pissed.

Holy *bleep*

Oh, my god!

Get down. Get down.

No!

Hello!

Oh, my god. Hi.

I'm back.

Your shelter burned up.

I'm gonna make a new one...

Well -- okay.

...because I need
some insulation.

Everything's gone,
everything's wiped out.

I got to start from scratch.

I can only guarantee my own
success and everything,

And I can never rely on anyone
for my success.

-Okay.
-Ever.

I am a one-wolf wolf pack.

For years,
I relied on my father,

And he was the most
reliable person

I have ever had
in my entire life.

But can you rely on me
just a little bit?

I can guarantee that if the ball
comes in this area,

I'm gonna catch it,

But I can't guarantee

That you're gonna throw it
to me accurately.

You know what I mean?

All right.

I'm gonna knock a shelter out
real quick.

Okay.

Bree: clarence wants
to do his own thing.

I wish he'd like to -- to be
part of a team more.

So it's a little disappointing.

Clarence: I'm gonna make
a debris shelter

That will keep me super-duper
warm and cozy at night.

I need my beauty sleep real bad.

So, here is where I am.

And then here is where
he used to be.

Right there is where he is now.

This is the weirdest thing
to me ever.

Like, we came in as a team
knowing that it's a team thing.

I'm gonna say the truth --

I'm really disappointed
with who my partner is.

Narrator:
over the next three days

Clarence's stomach continues
to plague him.

Clarence:
I feel like I have to go
to the bathroom all the time,

But I got nothing to eat
to poop out,

So what's -- what am I doing
when I get over there?

Just sitting and straining.

Narrator:
struggling through the pain,

He continues to isolate himself
from his partner.

So, one thing I have learned
about being in recovery

Is that thinking of other people
is extremely important.

So what if he doesn't care
about being a team?

I'm gonna try to turn this
into a huge positive.

That is my goal.

That should be enough.

I'm going to make gumbo-limbo
tea for clarence's stomach.

This tree has a lot
of healing properties.

Narrator: the coppery bark
from the gumbo-limbo tree

Has known antacid properties.

It's been used for centuries

As an effective remedy
for diarrhea.

So, if you cut these into pieces
and boil them in water,

You can drink it, and that can
help ease, like, indigestion,

Tummy-ache.

-Hope this works.
-I do too.

-Yeah.
-All right, sir.

That's good.
That's really good.

Clarence: bree has definitely
been helpful.

I didn't really ask
for anything,

And that made me feel even
more comfortable and secure

Knowing that she's got my back.

It is pouring rain -- again.

...going on in a monsoon.

I got flames *bleep*

Narrator: clarence and bree
spend the next three nights

In their separate shelters

Trapped by a torrential
rainstorm.

Bree: if I knew that he didn't
want to sleep where I am,

Then I would have
made it smaller

So I'm not so cold at night.

The rain --

It's relentless.

Everything's wet.

So, today I think I'm gonna get
bree on the bandwagon

For a debris shelter,

Which is gonna get
better insulation.

She's shivering like crazy.

Bree: I'm already
10 times warmer

Than just sitting in my place.

It's super-duper insulated.

Yeah, I want to do this.

I think a debris shelter there
would be quite warm for you.

And then -- with the entrances
facing each other,

We'd be able to have
conversations.

Conversations!

He said he'd help me
make my own,

And in that way we can be more
of a team and closer together

And share stories at night.

Like I said, I was bound
and determined

To bring us back together,

And I think that's exactly
what's happening.

Survival out here has to be
a team effort.

Right now he's starting to
respect me more,

And he's offering to help me
and I'm offering to help him,

And -- and it just -- you know,
I don't want to get too excited

About it, 'cause I just want us
to continue down this

Really awesome path that,
I think,

We're on to succeed this --
at this -- together.

There it is.
Excellent!

Okay, so, bedtime.

Goodnight, bree.

Goodnight, clarence.

I heard a noise!

*Bleep*

Aah!

Oh, my god!

There's a *bleep*ing snake
on me!

Holy --

*Bleep*

Bree:

Oh, my god!

There's a *bleep*ing snake
on me!

Holy *bleep*

*Bleep*

*Bleep*

I think it was
a poisonous snake.

And we can't find it.

So we don't know
if it went away,

Or we don't if it's still
in there.

And it's really hard to sleep
on the ground

In the debris shelter

With poisonous snakes
crawling in and out.

So, I've been thinking
about this a lot.

I mean, there's no where for me
to sleep anymore, so --

That just took me
to the edge.

That's the last straw
for me,

That coming right at my face,
the snake.

I can't...

I think I'm gonna tap out.

Are you okay with that?

It's your decision
to make.

Are you gonna be okay?

I'm tough.

I've been out in tougher
situations by myself before.

Yeah. I'll be fine.
I'm a trouper.

Are you sure?
Positive.

I am a one-wolf wolf pack,

And that's my survival mind-set.

I've got to survive.

Bree: in my recovery it is
a form of survival to me.

This decision for me to tap out
is knowing your limits.

So I feel like I have reached
my limit.

-See you soon, bree.
-You got it, clarence.

I know that clarence
can handle being alone,

But I still feel like
I'm letting him down.

Clarence:
I'm gonna miss bree,

But I know I can do this
challenge alone,

And I'm pretty confident
that I will.

After the snake incident --

Tonight I'm gonna make a little
lean-to down on the beach.

Knowing that venomous snakes
crawl around me at night --

I got to be cautious,
I got to be smart.

If it sees me, I am more scared
of it than it is of me.

Bree's gone.

It's just me out here
all by myself.

But I'm a survivor.

I've been through
worse situations,

And I will be through
worse situations.

Ohh.

Mm.

Last night was terrible.

11 Hours of k*lling mosquitos
nonstop.

Nonstop.

I'm gonna go back
to the debris shelter.

I don't particularly want to go
in there,

But I need to sleep.

Got no place else to go.

Here I am back in the old
snake-ridden,

Spider-ridden,
ant-ridden shelter.

Do you hear this rain?

Do you hear this?

Look at the raging river.

Mosquito beach is no more.

Thank god I didn't stay there
last night.

I'd have been gone,
out into the ocean.

Gone -- you never would
have saw me.

The last time I ate
I think was day 3.

Since then
it's just been water.

I'm past the hunger stage.

My stomach isn't shrinking
any more.

The, uh -- I'm not hungry.

Now I'm just lonely.

This is what life was like
for adam

Before he lost a rib
and got eve.

* Amazing grace *

* How sweet the sound *

* That saved a wretch *

* Like meeeee *

Being here alone --
it's not easy.

Mother nature will kick
your a*s.

* Through many dangers *

* Toils and snares *

* I have already *

* Come *

I'm hurting.

I'm hurting real bad physically,
mentally, and emotionally.

I, uh, don't...

Really want to...

t*rture myself anymore.

* 'Twas grace that brought *

* Me safe thus far *

* And grace *

* Will lead me home *

Narrator: before clarence began
his survival challenge

In the hot and humid rainforest
of honduras,

He and his partner

Were each given a primitive
survival rating, or psr.

Frigid nights and a terrifying
snake encounter

Caused bree to tap out
on day 14.

As a result, her final psr
will drop substantially.

Alone, clarence has battled
ill health, bug bites,

Floods, storms, and days
filled with despair.

Now the lone wolf,
never more alone,

Faces his most daunting
challenge --

To make it to extraction,

At which time his psr
will be re-evaluated.

I lived in better places,
I've lived in worse places.

But I'm glad to be done
with this one.

I don't think I'd make it
through one more night

In this snake coffin.

I can't wait to leave
this place,

Never ever to return.

Let's take a look
at the map again.

And then I got to go down
the stream,

Past the waterfall where the
little river hits the big river,

Then take it to the bridge.

My ticket home is right over
in that direction.

I'm having trouble enough
just standing up.

But the only thing
that's gonna stop me

From getting to
the extraction point

Is me going unconscious.

Slippery, slippery, slippery.

Very, very slippery.

Doesn't look like easy terrain

Continuing on the side
of the water,

So I'm gonna cut up,

Cross over when I find someplace
safe to do it.

I know I'm heading
in the right direction,

Because I can still hear the
river flowing over to my right.

Using all my senses --

My sense of touch as I feel
the ground below me,

My sense of hearing
listening to that river,

Staying in the moment.

Look at that waterfall!

That's a lot of power.

Looks like I've come
to a dead end,

And my only option now
is to jump.

I hate heights.

I'd rather jump out of a plane
than jump off of a small hill.

Out of a plane the worst
that can happen is I die.

Here I could break a leg,
an arm.

I'm not the best swimmer.

If this is the only way,
it's the only way.

Whew!

Wow!

Feeling real hungry now...
And tired.

I need to have my wits about me.

Being homeless, I've had
a pretty tough life.

I got to keep on pushing.

That's what my father always
taught me.

He taught me how to endure.

I see a bridge.

Take it to the bridge, clarence.
Take it to the bridge.

Now I'm most of the way there.

I'm pretty tired.

I'm feeling dizzy.
I'm lightheaded.

Just going on pure willpower
right now.

Don't want to make a mistake.

One slip up here,
twist my ankle,

Fall, bust my head...

Whew!

It's the worst place
to be dizzy.

Okay, this is the bridge.

Hey!

Yeah! Hey!

Stop!

Can I get a ride?

This was the most grueling
three weeks of my life.

Yeah, baby!

I kept a positive attitude
through all of it.

My father would be proud.

My father would be
very proud of me.

When I started this challenge,

I was a one-wolf wolf pack.

I realize now that I don't want
to be a lone wolf anymore.

Yeah!

Let's get out of here!

Whoo! I made it, baby!
I made it!

This challenge is over,
but the adventure never ends.

Yeah, baby!

Yeah!

Narrator: surviving three
grueling weeks in honduras

Left clarence 40 pounds lighter
than when he began.

After tapping out early,

His partner bree returned
to her home in denver.

I was naked,
and I was kind of afraid.

Narrator: failing to complete
the challenge

Drops bree's psr to 4.8.

Clarence bravely endured
the final week on his own,

Overcoming huge obstacles
along the way.

This earns him a final psr
of 7.9

And a life-changing experience
through beating the odds

And surviving naked and afraid.

If you want to succeed in life,
you got to face your fears.

-Go, clarence!
-Let's go!