01x09 - Julie in a Homeless Shelter?

[bunniefuu]

Previously on

The real world...

Thanks for the welcome home,

Guys.

And yes, I got myself a date.

What's his name?

Charles.

What I think about julie

Is that she's sincere about

Trying to understand and trying

To help people.

This is the true story...

True story.

Of seven strangers...

[Laughter]

Picked to live in a loft...

And have their lives taped...

To find out what happens...

What?

When people stop

Being polite...

Could you get the phone?

And start getting real.

The real world.

[Dog barks]

I was on the telephone,

And charles had called.

And I was like, "well,

Norman's not here."

And julie was like,

"Who is that?

Who is that?"

She was whispering.

I said, "some dude named

Charles.

I don't know who it is."

And she was like, "no.

You keep him on the phone.

That might be norman coming up

The street.

Oh, god, norman will die if he--

You know, charles called

And he wasn't here."

But norman came in.

I was like,

"Somebody named charles."

He snatched the phone

Out of my hand.

He was so happy.

I'm just worried about norman

Getting hurt.

I don't agree, like, when

You're really interested in

Someone that you just, like,

Say, "okay, I'm really

Interested in you,"

And make a schedule with

Other people.

I understand that,

But it's like,

What would it take for this guy

To make you happy?

I mean, you already know

That he's not going with those

Other people he was even

Thinking of going about--

You know, to the rally.

He's screwing them over too.

I'm confused and completely

Disillusioned.

And I don't know kind of, like,

What the dynamics of the

Relationship are yet.

I don't know if it's, like,

Recreational dating or, like,

Really serious dating.

And I'm kind of, like,

In the serious mode.

I definitely, like, bit a little

Too much, you know, more

Than I can handle.

[Dramatic guitar music]

♪

[Dog barking]

Last sunday, we were in the

Park, and julie was walking

The dog.

And later that day, she told me

That she had came into one of

These reaganvilles where,

You know, everyone has kind of

Been thrown out their homes

And evicted,

And they live in cardboard boxes

On the river,

Which is a common thing here in

New york.

[Dramatic instrumental music]

♪

What kind of dog is that?

It's a great dane.

She's big.

Do you want to pet her?

She'll bite me.

No, it's a really nice dog.

She's never bit anybody.

Really sweet dog.

Come here, gouda.

She's big.

She's too big.

No, she's pretty, though.

Thank you. Her name's gouda.

Who?

Gouda.

What's your name?

I'm julie.

I'm darlene.

Nice to meet you.

Like, where'd you get

All your stuff?

Well, from the midnight run.

And the raven truck, it's this

Food--the trucks that come

And feed us, and they give us

Clothes.

That's basically it.

How long have you been living

Down here for?

It's going to be a year.

A year?

Uh-huh.

Oh, yeah.

Where's your family?

Well, my mother, she lives on

Th street.

But me and her don't get along

Too well.

So what are you gonna do?

I mean, are you just gonna live

Down here?

Well, I've been trying to

Look into an apartment,

But it's hard to find one,

You know, 'cause I'm on welfare,

And my welfare only allows me

$ For rent.

And an apartment is, like--

One room I need--and it's, like,

$ A month.

So what are you supposed

To do?

That's what I want to know.

I don't know.

One thing I think about julie

Is that she's really sincere

About trying to understand and

Trying to help people.

It was good what she did,

Because she at least showed

Darlene that someone in the

World cared about her, you know,

Because darlene, she's like

A lot of people who are homeless

Or who are on drugs.

It's like, you're at that point

Where you just don't think

Anyone cares.

I want to be like I used to

Be.

How is that?

[Laughs]

A lot of fun with a lot of

Boyfriends.

[Both laugh]

Seriously.

So are you gonna see him

Again?

Are y'all still...

[Laughs] we still okay.

But I was thinking about going

Uptown to go get him, but I

Don't want to go uptown, because

If I go uptown, then...

Somebody gonna offer me some

Drugs, and I'll end up

Taking it, most likely.

So I'd rather stay down here

And eat.

Do people steal things from

You down here?

Well, basically, they steal

From each other.

Like, it's--i don't know who it

Is, but it's somebody going

Around stealing my food.

And they stole smoky's tv

And his radio

And some of my clothes.

It's like that.

We call him the night stalker,

Because he come by while you

Sleeping or while you're not

Home, and he take your stuff.

Do you ever steal stuff from

Anybody?

No.

I wasn't raised like that.

What julie did was a small

Thing, but at least it was

Something, you know,

Because it's really

Disheartening in new york city

To see so many people who just

Act like homeless people are not

There.

And I just think if more people

Would at least take the time

To, like, you know, give

Or, you know, at least have

A conversation with, you know,

Some of the people who have to

Live on the streets because they

Have nowhere else to go, that

Would make a big difference.

Well, what if I spent the

Night with you one night down

Here?

You can.

Can i?

Yeah.

That'd be cool with you?

Yeah, sure. Why not?

Would anybody care?

If you stay the night?

No.

People in the loft kept

Asking me did I hear what julie

Was going to do.

And I got to admit, my feelings

Were mixed, and they still are

Kind of mixed, you know,

Because on the one hand,

I think it's really admirable

That she would do something

Like that, you know?

But on the other hand,

How much can you really learn

In one night?

This is about real change,

And real change doesn't happen

In one election or in one state.

It takes a dedication and a

Commitment and a moral purpose.

[Rock music]

♪

People are starving.

They're dying of A*DS.

They don't have hope.

[Siren wailing]

[Dramatic rock music]

♪

Jerry, jerry, jerry,

Jerry, jerry, jerry,

Jerry, jerry.

[Laughs] thank you.

Hey, thanks. What a crowd.

What support.

We the people

Are taking this government back.

So yeah, I went over to my

Old voting place.

I voted four years ago with--

For dukakis.

It's always neat to go.

I thought brown was the best

Choice,

Although I kind of wavered

Between him and clinton,

Because clinton--i don't know--

Might hold up against some

Things better than jerry brown.

The day that we were going to

Paint the mural, it was just a

Completely kind of stressful

Day.

I wasn't really too psyched

About what was happening with

Brown, and I was taking it kind

Of to even a personal note that,

You know, I'm just, like,

Thinking, "god, this ozone hole

Above our heads is just gonna

Get larger and larger and

Larger, and there's

Just gonna be more and

More people who are gonna suck

Up more and more resources."

And I just kept seeing doom.

Brown came in third.

I'm real disillusioned at

This point.

I mean, I did vote, but I wrote

In someone's name.

I look at the candidates,

And I really don't see much of a

Difference.

$ A person with an

Number, ---.

That's it.

Thank you very much.

We still wanted to paint

Jerry brown's number, you know?

We still felt like he was the

Best candidate, so why should

We stop supporting him?

We went ahead and painted his

- Number.

[Upbeat music]

♪

I think that the - number

Is kind of a symbol of trying to

Start a grassroots kind of

Position.

♪

We're going crazy.

You are out of control!

Ah!

Norman!

Oh, my god, becky, there's

Something on your head.

Get away. No!

[Yells]

[Laughter]

The idea of painting the

- Number was kind of a

Collective thing.

You know, I think that art is a

Really great way to express

Oneself and also express each

Other in a group situation.

It was a really great release,

I must say.

I really needed to get that

Paint out and just throw it.

Well, my parents aren't real

Excited about me going.

You know, they were just like,

"Why do you want to be in that

Big crowd?"

You know, "you don't know

Anybody who's had ab*rtion,"

And "nobody has ab*rtion,"

And "they're bad."

I don't think they were

Surprised that I would want to

Go, but they weren't real

Supportive of it.

[Upbeat rock music]

♪

[Chuckles] the van ride down

To washington, norman,

Every time he would go faster,

I mean, , , , , on,

Each was a warp.

Warp . Warp .

And he was just flying.

[Siren wailing]

And a cop pulls us over and

Was like, "I want to see your

License, your registration,

Everything."

This is bad.

I did explain this to the

Policeman, where we were going.

He said, "well, you know, I'm

Sympathetic with your cause,

But that's not why I pulled you

Over.

It's because you were speeding."

Are they getting tickets back

There as well?

What happened?

No, I'm speeding and causing

Dangerous situations and causing

Everyone else to speed.

[Laughs]

I'm just a trendsetter.

He's going to give me a ticket.

Oh, [bleep].

It's for a good cause.

Yeah, it is.

Listen, this is a ticket for

Speeding.

It's out of edison township

Court.

You know the speed limit's ,

Right?

Have a nice day.

[Upbeat music]

♪

You know, I was amazed that

There were so many people

And, you know, just kind of in

Awe at first.

But it wasn't until, you know,

You got up to the front and

Looked behind you that there was

Just tons and tons of people.

For the largest imaginable

March here today.

[Cheers and applause]

Right before we left, they

Had announced that million

People had showed up.

And it was just packed the whole

Way from the capitol building to

The washington monument.

We will not let the

Supreme court have the last word

About our lives, our bodies,

And our freedom.

[Cheers and applause]

It's charles.

What?

Right there.

Found you.

Hey, kids.

Hi.

Hi, how are you doing?

Getting a good view?

Yes, great view.

That was a powerful kiss.

You almost threw me over.

When we went down to the

March in washington, the last

Thing that I expected to see in

A million people was charles,

Who I had tried, like, the night

Before to, like, get together

With and spend some time with,

Because he was someone that I

Just found extremely fascinating

And really interesting.

And unfortunately he had made

Other plans.

And here I show up in

Washington, and just, wham.

I'm not even ten minutes in

Washington, and there he is.

And I was like, "this is

Amazing."

And we had a day to, like,

You know, spend a little bit of

Time together.

It was really nice to be a part

Of a really emotional day.

♪ We are g*y and straight

♪ Together

♪ And we are singing

♪ Singing for our lives

It felt good just sitting

There listening,

Being a pro-choice person,

Actually listening to

Why you have the right.

You know, make a decision on

Your body.

It opened my eyes to a lot of

Different women's issues and

Women's topics that I knew that

Was going on, but I didn't

Realize that so many people took

This thing so seriously.

I really felt good about it.

I really did.

And I'm glad that I went

And was a part of it.

I mean, I have friends who've

Been in situations where they

Wanted ab*rtion.

And I've had friends who were

Pregnant and had the babies.

Whether you agree with

ab*rtion or not, you know,

I do think--and I think most of

Us feel--that it does have

Something to do with, you know,

What women can do with their

Bodies.

Right, wrong, maybe?

I don't think the state

Should be given the power to

Tell a woman what to do with her

Body.

But it's not only her body.

That's another child, too,

That should be protected.

But it's her right.

It's her right.

She can do what she wants to do.

It's inside her body.

But it's not just her.

It's two people.

There's some things you can't

Do.

You can use birth control,

But you can't k*ll the person

And say that's how you're gonna

Deal with your problem.

And it was one girl in there

Who just--i mean, she just

Opposed ab*rtion.

And I can respect that,

But she just could not

Understand, you know, a

-Year-old girl--girls that I

Knew, you know--being pregnant

And coming home and having to

Tell their mothers.

How many people here know

Someone who has had an ab*rtion?

Everybody.

God gives everybody a choice

To do whatever they want.

And, you know, who is anybody to

Judge except, you know, god

If that's right or wrong?

So I mean, I don't think I could

Do it.

I wouldn't feel right having an

ab*rtion, but who am I to say

Whether anyone else should?

[Dramatic instrumental music]

♪

So you gonna walk me around?

Yeah, I'm gonna walk you

Around.

[Laughs] around in circles.

I'm gonna take you,

And I'm gonna go like this.

You gonna go like this, julie.

Look.

[Laughing]

Okay, which way you want to go?

Watch that rat.

I want to know what happened

Last night.

Oh, you want to know what

Happened last night?

Uh-huh.

I was with my boyfriend.

I had got my check yesterday.

I gave him some food stamps

And $.

I told him, "bring me back some

Drugs."

He never came back.

And I haven't seen him since.

He like to pay girls drugs

For sex.

He's nasty.

When I get high, I like to

Have a girl and have

A little fun.

Have sex with them. See?

So what's that consist of?

You pay girls drugs for sex.

Right?

The sex just happens to come

Naturally with me with drugs.

I just like--

Just like a pervert.

At least I got heat.

You have heat?

Yeah, I got heat.

You didn't see his condo?

You didn't see my condo?

No.

Want to come see my condo?

Yes.

Let's go.

See, my candles is my heat

Source.

Uh-huh.

Got your lysol.

Yeah, got to keep it smelling

Fresh.

[Laughs]

I wish I could die and just

Come back to life and start

All over again and forget what--

All that's happened.

I want to go and be a baby

Again and grow up knowing the

Things I know now.

What would you do different?

I'd go find my sister

And help her stay home.

I'd get a place to stay

And let them stay with me.

I wouldn't use drugs, 'cause

It's [...] Up my life,

To tell you the truth.

Do a lot of people go to the

Shelters on the weekend?

The men.

The men do?

Uh-huh, at the church,

All angels church.

Why don't you go?

'Cause it's for a man.

It's a men's shelter.

Are there women's shelters?

I don't know.

You don't care?

I don't care.

It's just a lot more real

Than, you know, when you give

Somebody change and walk away.

You know, it goes a lot farther

Than that, and I guess I just

Got a better understanding of

What, you know, you basically

Already know, that who's

To say that I couldn't be

Darlene if I didn't have the

Family that I have and the

Friends that I have to support

Me?

You see where that truck is

Over there?

Uh-huh.

That's where we're going.

How often does the midnight

Run come?

Every tuesday.

Sometimes every tuesday, but

They come fridays and saturdays

All the time.

'Cause we be in there sleeping,

And they come wake you up,

"Midnight run!"

Then you see everybody coming

Out they boxes, just running up

The block.

Looks like there's a raid or

Something.

[Dramatic instrumental music]

♪

I was accused of being g*y

Very early on in my high school

Experience, which was a very

Damaging experience for me.

And I felt that I didn't know

What that was, and it was bad,

That g*y was bad.

These older kids come up,

Knock me down on the ground,

Stuff like this,

And say, "oh," you know,

"You f*gg*t, you f*g."

This and that.

And was, like, thinking,

You know, "what the hell is

A f*gg*t?

What is this?"

You know?

And it was kind of a scary

Thing.

All: ♪ dear norman

Eventually with--inside

Myself, I started to, like,

Locate fears and try to

Challenge and confront my fears

And say why I'm so afraid of--

If I'm attracted to someone of

My own sex, why should I be so

Afraid of it?

Whoo!

[Cheers and applause]

This is who I am, and--you

Know, and I'm not gonna go away.

And I'm very proud to be

Who I am.

I'm not here to stop anyone

Else.

I'm here to live and to share

Myself and to make this world a

Better place.

I'm here to share.

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah

[Upbeat techno music]

♪

Yeah!

♪

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah

♪ Yeah, yeah

[Cheers and applause]

I was just, you know,

Extremely overtaken by charles.

I just thought that, you know,

He's just, like, you know,

The greatest thing since

Wonder bread.

And I just felt this incredible

Need to have someone.

But norman doesn't give

Something five minutes.

He's just happy, free,

Running on the beach naked,

Doing jumping jacks like becky.

So he just--i just don't want

Norman to get hurt.

That's my only concern.

It's just like, you know,

"Gosh, it's just crazy."

Can't believe how fast I'm,

Like, jumping into this whole

Thing, you know,

And then, like, putting added

Pressure on you to, like--you

Know, to, like, come up with

Some kind of something,

You know?

And I think that's really

Awful too.

What happened, unfortunately,

With kind of the relationship,

As in many relationships,

Is that I think I overloaded it

Really quickly.

I felt that we got into, like,

Kind of, like, a conflict.

And when I spoke with him once

That--he felt that I was also

Trying to--you know, I was

Calling him a little too much

And being, you know, on his tail

A little too much.

Does he know you're not going

Out with him?

Yeah.

I think there's a confusion

Going on with the relationship.

So I just...

Need to give it some space

And time or something.

When we do get together, it's

Just like, you know, we're at

Two different speeds.

You know, a lot of people,

You know, they're very

Concerned, you know?

They don't want to see me get

Hurt, but as long as, I think,

That you do what you want to do

In life, that you won't--

I don't think you can really be

Hurt, you know?

You only can learn and be better

For learning, you know?

The good comes with the bad.

[Bells chiming]

I was kind of upset because

It was easter sunday, and,

You know, I'd never been away

From home on easter.

And then I'd promised darlene

That I would go to her church

And see her sing in the choir.

And I didn't really know how to

Feel about not being there for

That, and so I go.

♪ Yeah

♪ When the women

♪ Came along

♪ And found that their savior

♪ Was gone

♪ Can't no grave ♪

♪ Hold my body down

♪ Yes

♪ When that first

♪ Trumpet sounds

♪ I'm gonna get up ♪

♪ Out of the ground

♪ Because

♪ Ain't no grave ♪

♪ Hold my body down

♪ Hold my body

♪ Down

The choir is amazing.

They're excellent.

So I'm excited that I'm there,

But I'm really disturbed that

Darlene's not there.

Puddin'?

She's short, thin?

Oh, I know her as puddin'.

I haven't seen her today.

You haven't?

No.

Yeah, I'm from the rotunda.

That's how you remember me.

So I was kind of concerned,

Real concerned.

And in between choir rehearsal

And the service, you know,

I go down to the rotunda

Or whatever they call it

To look for her.

[Dramatic instrumental music]

♪

So now I'm even, you know,

Having to ask everybody, you

Know, "have you seen darlene?

Have you seen puddin'?"

You know, "where is she?

What's going on?"

And they're like, "well, yeah,

She slept here last night,

But she, you know, went uptown,"

And she's not there.

Somebody said that a friend

Had come down and told her where

She could get some crack and

Went--she disappeared.

[Somber instrumental music]

♪

Well, I don't know where

Darlene is, you know?

I don't know if she's doing

Good, bad, whatever, but her

Stuff's gone, so she's gonna

Have to start over, whenever

That is.

You know, things aren't gonna be

Easy for her now,

Not that they ever were.

Yeah, I'm gonna walk you

Around.

[Laughs] around in circles.

I'm gonna take you,

And I'm gonna go like this.

You gonna go like this, julie.

Look.

[Laughing]

I understand that, you know,

I might not ever see darlene

Again.

And, you know, it will kind of

Hurt my feelings, but that's

Okay.

You know?

That's just part of friendship.

Next on the real world...

Don't cry, mom.

I think she's gonna lay some

Major guilt-trips on me.

None of you have ever done

Like I wanted.

The plan was to wear them

Out.

Nobody can bring out my temper

Like my family.