15x25 - Motherly Love

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- Previously on "The Real World"--

- We've been given this opportunity

to develop a playground for the children and for Northern Home.

- Playworld drops the playground set in about , pieces,

and we started putting it together.

- I know that a lot of my issues with my body

have a lot to do with my mother. My eating problems didn't start

until I found out my mom had cancer.

- This is the true story--

- Of seven strangers-- - Oh, my god.

- --picked to live in a house--

- --work together and have their lives taped--

- --to find out what happens--

- I'm over it.

- --when people stop being polite.

- Oh, shut up.

- --and start getting real.

- "The Real World: Philadelphia."

- [bell dings]

- ♪

- That's a big bowl of chips!

- Ladies first,always.

- Oh, look at this menu.

- How about some buffalo wings tonight?

- [indistinct chatter]

- Since I was probably, like, or ,

I've definitely had issues with eating.

I think a lot of people have the same thing I do--

an unhealthy attitude towards your body.

- Sarah? - What?

- Eat your food! She won't eat her food.

- No, because you guys-- I had shrimp. It's really hard

because people I live with can eat certain things

and be fine and kind of have a carefree, lax attitude,

and that's fine because they look fabulous,

and they can do that,

but the way it affects me is totally different.

- Sarah, you need to eat something.

- Your mom! [laughs]

- Right now, I think Sarah's self-image just controls her.

I mean, she worries about it

pretty much every second of the day.

- Sarah, you need something in your stomach.

- No, because that's what I've done this entire season,

and I've gained pounds.

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- In order for me to be happy, I have to be a certain way.

And I'm not as skinny as I want to be right now.

I'm being very self-consumed right now.

Sometimes I feel like my body is all I have to control.

- There's really not a pair of jeans that fit you?

- No. I broke a button on one of them.

Go look. It broke.

It just boggles my mind for someone like Sarah

to have issues with her body

and not see herself as a beautiful being.

- No. - I'll go get your makeup kit,

and we'll do it in bed.

- Oh, really? - Yeah.

- I want some. Yeah! I'll be back. Woo!

We as roommates can only say so much to Sarah,

and we've told her we're here for her and we support her.

She wants to eat a cucumber every day for a month.

I'll eat a cucumber every day with her.

Well, maybe not every day.

- My a*s had almost disappeared before we left for Fiji,

and then Fiji made me fat. I hate Fiji.

- You know what we'll do?

We'll go to Eckerd, the drugstore.

They always have muumuus for sale for, like, $.

It's really cost-effective.

You'll save about $ each purchase

because you won't be buying anymore Robert Cavalli jeans.

Okay. I need you to lay flat completely. Thank you so much.

- I feel like a dead person.

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- [phone ringing]

- Hey. I just wanted to call and say happy birthday.

- MOM: Yeah. Where are you?

- I'm building a playground. - Oh. How nice!

- Yeah.

- MOM: That's great. - Yeah.

We'll be done in, I guess, a few days.

- MOM Wonderful. - Yeah.

- MOM:Kids will be able to use it. That's nice.

- Are you doing anything special with Daddy?

- MOM: We're coming to Philadelphia. That's great.

- My parents, they're coming to visit me.

I'm excited to see my mom. I'm excited for her

to just see me and know that I'm okay and healthy.

All right.

- MOM: I love you bushels. - I love you, Mommy.

- MOM: Thank you for calling. - Yeah, definitely.

- MOM: Okay. - Happy birthday.

- MOM: All right. Thank you. - Bye.

- MOM: Bye-bye.

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- Yeah. I told him to donate three plaques:

Landon, Laura and Donna.

I'm just really, really impressed by Landon,

his dedication, his passion. I wanted to give Landon

a tangible gift for doing all of this extra work.

Don't--Shh. It's between you and I.

- Yeah. - This is just my own

personal thing to do for Landon. The roommates, other than Mel,

don't even know that I'm doing this

because I don't want any negative feedback.

I'm going to just do this on my own.

- [thunder rumbling]

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- I go to the gym and run for minutes,

and I know that weight doesn't come off overnight,

but I am kind of

in a military-type way kicking my a*s.

- Somehow in this big city of Philly,

I run into Sarah's mother.

I feel like I should take them to go see their daughter.

Jump in the car. Let's go. You guys can hang out right now.

But don't-- You know, if she's not done--

I'm going. I'll be back! I got a surprise for you.

- Is it downstairs? - Yes. It's down--

- Can I come back? - If you want.

- Hi! - Hi.

- How are you?

- Do you want to finish working out?

- Yeah. I'll call you when I get back, okay?

- Okay. - Do you have your cell phone?

- Yeah. Mm-hmm. - Okay.

- All right. - Thank you, Mommy.

- Bye-bye. - Enjoy yourself.

- Want to go out to dinner tonight?

- Yes. Yes. I'll make reservations somewhere.

- Okay.

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- [phone ringing]

- SARAH: Hello? Yeah? - RACHEL: Hi.

There's no good way to say this.

- What happened?

- RACHEL: You're going to hate me.

Mommy says you need to start the South Beach Diet again.

- Okay.

- RACHEL: She says that you're drinking too much--

- Okay. - RACHEL: --and eating too much.

- Okay.

- RACHEL: And they didn't know how to tell you.

- Okay.

I've always been the tall, skinny, pretty one in my family,

and when I am not a size four, my sister likes to tell me that.

Rachel, I know that. I know.

I was at the gym today for, like, an hour and a half.

- RACHEL: You're, like, the kind of person, though,

that can lose weight so easily.

- Okay, Rachel. - RACHEL: I'm sorry.

- I have to go. - RACHEL: I knew you were going

to hang up on-- - [phone clicks]

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- [crying]

- What's wrong, Sarah? What?

- My sister just called me-- - Mm-hmm.

- --and told me that my mom called her and told her--

"She just told me to tell you

that you need to go back on a diet."

- Sarah, honey. - What's wrong?

- Her sister called her--

- Yeah? - --and was like,

"Mom told me to tell you that you need to go on a diet."

- Your mom did not say that. - No wonder I have issues.

No wonder I stick my [bleep] down my throat

for [bleep] years.

My mom made me feel so horrible about myself.

I'm not talking to them.

- You don't have to. It just makes me so sad

that I don't have the right words

to say to help her fix what she's going through.

- [phone ringing]

- Hello?

- MOM: Is Sarah there? - No, she's not.

- MOM: Where is she? - She's not here.

- MOM: Well, she damn well call me.

- Okay.

- MOM: I'm, like, totally pissed off at her.

- Okay.

- MOM: Her sister let her have it. We came here.

We want to see her, and now she's pulling this [bleep].

- I didn't expect Sarah's mom to be so angry,

and it's making me very uncomfortable.

- MOM: You tell her that, get her on the phone

and not run outside.

- Okay. - MOM: Period.

- I'll let her know. - MOM: Okay?

Okay. Thank you, Melanie. - Bye.

- MOM: Bye-bye. - Oh! She's pissed.

- Mel? - Why is she mad?

- I just don't even know what to say.

- I don't want to hear her.

- MOM: Hello? - Hi.

Number one, that could've been done through an e-mail.

Second of all, Mom, I know I've put on weight,

but, like, I've been working my a*s off to get it off.

I went to Fiji.

- MOM: What happened? - I couldn't workout.

All we [bleep] had to eat was bread there.

I put on a lot of weight.

- MOM: Yeah. How much was it? - Like, pounds, Mom!

- MOM: Five pounds?

You look like you did your freshman year of college.

- I do not look like that, Mom!

I'm . Why would my mom feel the need to tell me

what to do about my body? I have to go, please!

- MOM: Where are you going? - No. I just want to go.

I don't want to talk to you right now.

- MOM: Fine. - I'll call you tomorrow.

I don't want to talk to you right now.

- MOM: You don't look good. - Don't tell me what to do!

- DAD: Don't yell at me.

- Dad, I don't want to talk. - DAD: What?

- You said I looked good. I look--

Why would you say that?

- DAD: Sarah, I love you. - I have to go.

- DAD: You're always going to look good to me.

- Stop doing this to me, please. Stop.

- DAD: I'm not doing anything. - I have to go! I have to go!

- [crying]

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- Ed and I are about to go look at the plaques

that I have designed for Landon and Laura and Donna.

Yeah. This looks nice.

Landon's award will say, "An exemplary award."

They're coming along great.

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- I realize that there is a competition

between MJ and Landon, and so I don't want to

to ruin the relationship between MJ and I.

I don't want you to think that this is against you

or this changes anything with you.

- Okay. - Okay?

Now, you know how I got the trophies

and certificates for everybody? I got an extra one for Landon.

- No. That's fine. That's awesome.

- That's why I was like, "I need to come to MJ

because I don't want him to think that

I'm starting something by"-- - I see. And I--

- --"giving an award for him and not saying that,"

You know what I mean?

- I think it's very cool that Karamo is coming to me

and asking me if it's cool if we give Landon a plaque.

I thinks it's very respectable of him.

Yeah. I don't know what you were about to tell me.

I was thinking, "Oh, [bleep]."

- Oh, yeah. I'm also g*y.

You better not tell anybody.

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- So we put inches of the gravel

and then another level of fabric. It's almost done.

- I know. This is so crazy. It is unbelievable.

- It's really hard for me to focus right now at work.

I want to talk to Donna because she has children my age,

and I just really want her advice.

So my sister calls me,

and she's like, "Mom thinks you should go on a diet."

- Hey, no. Oh, my god.

- This is the thing, like I've been battling

with eating disorders for five years, and they know.

- You look so phenomenal.

- I've never really met anyone like Donna

that I look up to so much, you know, outside of my mother,

and I just really need her right now.

- That is big-time her issue, not yours.

- I know.

- And you do have control of your life,

and you have to look in the mirror and say,

"You know what? I like how I look. I look good."

- Donna is telling me everything I already know,

but at the same time telling me that I can't allow myself

to have so much self-doubt. It helps to talk to Donna a lot.

- Consider the source of where she is now,

and that's something that she'll get through,

but I don't think in any way--

You've made it clear how much you love her.

I'm sweating, and I'm digging,

and I see Sarah talking to Donna.

I'm pissed, not only because I'm working and she's not

but just because she's, like, babbling on about, like,

these weight issues that are, like, nonexistent,

and it's just such a girl thing, and it's just I'm over it.

- Thank you, baby. - Willie just has hit a spot

with me where I am just pissed. How dare you, Willie?

- How dare I what?

- I need to talk to somebody!

- I understand you need to talk to someone.

- [bleep] you! You sit around and [bleep]!

- You know what? - [bleep]!

I [bleep] put my sweat and [bleep]

[bleep] into this [bleep] playground! How dare you?

- I am not saying you don't work!

You have time to vent. - No.

I wanted to talk to an adult. - I undestand.

But you know what?

Two hours later will not make a big difference.

- I don't come into work hungover,

sitting on my a*s making [bleep]!

- I [bleep] work! I'm not hungover ever!

I [bleep] work at o'clock in the [bleep] morning!

Don't tell me you've worked harder than I have!

- Yes, I have! - No, you have not!

- That's [bleep] [bleep]!

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- I didn't yell at you. - You came to me and you--

- Willie! - Okay. Just talk.

Just let it out. - Can we just please talk?

When Willie is doing physical labor sometimes,

he just gets really diva,

and he just thinks that everybody should be suffering

the way he's suffering.

You think it wasn't the right time and place, but I did. Okay?

And you can't put yourself in my place.

You can't walk in my shoes

because it's more than just my [bleep] weight. Okay?

It's my mom's cancer. It's a lot of things.

- I know it is. - She's a therapist,

and I wanted to talk to her now.

- Understood. Understood. If I offended you, I'm sorry.

I realize it's not just the issue of,

"I'm fat when I'm really not."

I was wrong, and I should have been at least

a little bit more considerate about Sarah's feelings.

- I know going and yelling at you

was not the smartest thing to do.

But I'm going to do it at times, you know?

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- Are you not going to talk to us?

- No. I'm going to talk. I'm just--I've had a bad day. Okay?

- Okay. - I love my parents to death,

and that's more than most people can say.

I don't know.

I'm so emotionally drained from this whole day and last night.

- It already is.

I've been crying about it for a day and a half now, so--

I'm sorry. I can't help that.

The only way I'm ever going to conquer this,

never let this defeat me again is by being sure of myself

and not letting my mom's words give me self-doubt.

I'm in good shape now. - I know.

I'm sorry. I apologize. I really am sorry.

- Like, just say-- - I don't want you upset.

- I know. I'm not upset with you, but to say something

that harsh it's like you have made me feel like I'm a monster.

I got my mother to admit that she was wrong

because she feels maybe that she's losing me,

and she wants to have that element of control over me.

I'm just saying, it was really hurtful.

- I don't like the way it went down.

- I know. - I'm sorry.

- [heart beating] - ♪

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- Today is the construction of the gazebo,

which is pretty much the final touch of our playground,

and after that, we're basically done.

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- Is that better?

- Jon Bon Jovi. - That's Bon Jovi.

- How's it going?

- Good. - It looks great.

- What's up, chief? - How you doing?

Nice to see you. - How you doing, sir?

- It really looks great.

- I'm really happy Jon Bon Jovi has come to see our playground.

- Good deeds are done all around. Gotta love that.

- He really seems to be pleased with the end result.

- Bon Jovi Villa is done. - [laughs]

You guys did a great job.

It's fantastic.

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- All right.

So basically, the plan is,

IKEA has decided to give us a very nice donation.

- Now the fact that they have a playground,

they can have a daycare center,

and they can have all these programs

that they weren't able to have before.

- We are all going to IKEA to shop, shop, shop and buy,

buy, buy with other people's money.

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- Everyone was being all shy.

They were like,

"Do you think we have enough in the budget for this?"

And I'm like, "Whatever. Take ."

I love it. I love it. I love it.

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- ♪

- Our dedication ceremony

is kind of a little wave goodbye to Northern Home

and basically handing over what we have created to Donna

and the rest of Northern Home.

- Well, I'd like to thank the Northern Home for Children

for having us here today, and first off,

on behalf of ING Direct, as promised, we have created

a $, Orange Savings account for each one of you:

America's highest yield savings account

with no fees and no minimum.

- [applause] - Thank you very much.

- Thank you so much.

- Thank you. - Thank you very much.

- Thanks. - Holy cow.

- Thanks, again. - Good morning, everyone.

How are you doing?

My name is Karamo, and I'm basically here today

just to give special thanks to all the people

that assisted us in making this amazing structure possible.

- [applause] - We'd like to present Donna

with A World Apart Award because Donna has been here

since day one like a mother for all of us.

- [applause] - Aw, guys. Thank you so much.

- Next, we would ask that Laura come up here, please.

- [applause]

- We're presenting her with a Leadership Award.

We have one more that is actually more of a surprise.

So this person right here is one of the most amazing people

I've ever met in my life.

The reason I wanted to get Landon this plaque

is because I really appreciate him.

I love the friendship that we've established,

and I want him to know that I really respect him.

If it wasn't for this person,

I really think that we'd have literally been lost,

so we'd like to present an Exemplary Award to Landon.

- [applause] - When he said my name,

I got a little overcome with emotion.

- [applause]

- It's just a great feeling having my roommates,

like, really appreciate the fact that I did work hard.

- Cut.

- Yeah.

- Yay!

- [applause] - ♪

- Okay, guys. Go play. - Go!

- Let them play! - Go!

- We're all really proud of all the work we've done,

and the moment that we see a bunch of kids run up

and play on the playground that we've designed

and built is a very proud moment.

- It really felt like this is going to be something

that I can come back to Philadelphia

for and see with my children and be like,

"You know what? Like, your father built this."

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- I climbed the rock. - I can't even really see it.

You know what I mean?

I tried to write it in words to each one of you,

and I really couldn't, so my hope is instead

that you will stay in touch with me.

I'm there for you all the time, and I mean it, day, night, /,

anytime you ever need it. Just getting to know you guys

as individuals has been such a gift,

and I just wanted to tell you all.

- Thanks.

- And I mean it with all of my heart.

- We love you. - Oh, I love you too.

- ♪

- Next on "The Real World"--

- You ready for this?

- No. - I think we're all in denial

that we're actually leaving.

- This box is going to burst.

- Are you guys boyfriend and girlfriend?

- Vonda only wants it to be sex.

- You need to go bring another girl home.

- McKenzie and Landon in the hot tub, I don't want her there.

I want to be the girl in the hot tub.