02x01 - Eye See You

[bunniefuu]

- Your test came back positive
for non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.

You have cancer, Zac.

- I'm not here
to get comfortable.

I'm just here to get treatment
for my lame leg drama,

and then I'll ghost
in time for prom.

- You got a new neighbor.

- You're not an old dude.

- Sorry to disappoint.

[steady music]

[knocking on wall]
[device beeping]

You banged?

- When was the last time
you did something impulsive?

- You, uh--you like
ice cream, right?

- Are you asking me on a date?

- Are you saying yes?

♪

Cam, what's up?

- We nominated you
for Make-A-Wish.

- Make-A-Wish!

- A guy like me dreams
about waves like these

my whole life.

- Man, what's going on?

- I got a monster brain tumor.

[monitor beeping]

- He didn't make it.

[inspiring music]

- If cancer takes us
out of this world,

there's still one part
of us left behind.

That's the part that glows.

- I'm not alone.

♪

- The tumor isn't responding
to treatment.

Our best option now
is to undergo surgery.

- You said I was gonna be okay.

They made the emergency
decision to amputate.

♪

- Hi, uh, this is Zac Meier.

I know what I want.

[warm music]

- You wasted your wish on me.

- I didn't waste my wish.

I wished for you.

♪

all: ♪ Wonder why
- ♪ I

all: ♪ Wonder why
we're here at all ♪

♪ Wonder why
- ♪ I

all:
♪ Still believe in miracles

- The new normal...

- Will you still like me
when I'm bald?

- Yeah.
- [laughs]

- Dating my dream girl...

- [smooching]

Jealous of Mr. Bojangles?
- I'm not jealous, no.

How could I be jealous
of a stuffed animal?

- [laughs]
It seems like you are.

- Living outside
the hospital...

- How's that hair
coming in, bro?

- Evan, Stop.
- Oh, did you break it?

- My brothers are geniuses.
- Just me.

I can't speak for Evan, though.
- Thank you.

- A future ahead of me.

- This is a good song.

- You like it?
- Yeah.

Did you write it?
- Yeah.

- For who?

- It's called "M-I-A."
[chuckles]

[fireworks booming]
- ♪ Wonder why

♪ I wonder why we're here
at all ♪

♪ Wonder why

- You know, the new normal

has its benefits.

I'm gonna press charges on you
for tickling me--

don't touch me, don't touch me!

- ♪ Wonder why
we're here at all ♪

- [snoring]

It's really not funny.

Delete it.
Zac, delete it right now.

- I can't--I can't.
I can't--[laughs]

It's in the Cloud, and it stays
in the Cloud forever.

- [laughs]

How are you feeling?
- I feel good.

I feel really good.

You know, I feel
the best I've ever felt.

You know, I'm finally
making up for lost time.

- Okay, just don't push
yourself too hard.

- Impossible, okay?

[rock music]

When you're sick,

you'd give anything
just to have one normal day...

♪

But cancer changes everything,

even the definition of normal.

♪

[prolonged beep]

♪

- ♪ Nothing really feels

♪

- When survival has been
your journey for so long,

what you're left
most unprepared for

is the moment when you arrive
at your destination,

when you've survived.

♪

But if this is normal,

why does it feel so different?

- He's been pushing himself
way too hard.

Talk to him.
- Evan, I've tried.

He doesn't listen to me.

- I've tried.
You say something.

- Hey, Evan.

What's up, Bec?

- You're so sweaty and gross.

Did you go for a run
or something?

- No, what makes
you think that?

It's just hot outside.

Chill out, it's fine.

Where'd you end up last night,
huh, big player?

- Gentleman never tells.

- Yeah, but it's you, so...

Zac, what are you up to today?

And before you say "hospital"--

- Uh, hospital, hospital,

and after that,
I'm gonna go...hospital.

- Got it.

Listen, I totally support
your relationship.

I think you're being
a very good boyfriend.

But maybe you should
take it easy today?

- I appreciate your support.

I'm gonna go see Mia.

[gentle guitar music]

♪

How does it feel?
- Good. It's weird.

It's cold.
- Cold?

- [sighs]
- Hey...

♪

- Don't move, or we
won't get an accurate fit

for your prosthetic.
- [sighs] Okay.

- [chuckles]

I cannot wait for you
to get out of here.

- Totally.

It's just...

hard to get too excited
about losing my hair.

- I told you I'd shave mine
in solidarity.

I take it right off.
- [chuckles] No!

- Why not?
- You look too cute like this

for me to
let you do that.

Don't do that, seriously.

It's just, really?
I need more chemo?

You'd think cutting off one leg
would've been enough.

♪

- Close your eyes.

- What?

- I have a surprise for you.
Close your eyes.

- Is it a Get Out
of Chemo Free card?

- It's actually
an early birthday present.

- An early birthday present?
- Yep.

- One month early
or 11 months late?

- Hey, remember that
closing your eyes part?

Well, you should
probably do that, yeah.

- Mm, mm-kay.

♪

- Open.

♪

- No way.
- Yep.

- You're taking me
to see Lanie?

- Yeah.
- Nuh-uh.

- They're playing a show
on your actual birthday,

so figured we'd have
to go VIP style.

You should have something
to look forward to

once you're sent back
into the wild.

♪

- This means a lot.

♪

- You okay?
- Yeah.

- Well, good,
'cause I only got one,

so you're going alone.
- [laughs] Shut up.

- Okay, well, I gotta go.
I'll see you later.

- Thank you for being here.
- Okay.

♪

- Hey, Zac?

Bye.
- I'll call you soon.

Hey.
- Get out of here.

[soft music]

♪

So...

- [sighs]

- How long are you gonna keep up

this sunshine
and rainbows charade?

♪

- It's just, he's so excited
to be outside of the hospital.

♪

- Mm.

♪

- And all I wanna do is
hide in here forever.

- So tell him.

♪

- What if he stops coming back?

- From the way
that boy looks at you,

that's the last thing
you gotta worry about.

♪

- You continue to show
encouraging progress.

- Cool.

So...got any, uh--

any big plans for the weekend?

- Yes.

Uh, and--and yourself?

- I'm finally gonna learn
how to surf,

like I promised Cam.

- Oh, no, no, no, no.

The ocean is a bacteria
breeding ground

that can easily
lead to infection.

- Look, yeah, I know,
I did my research.

You know, I have my skin
enclosed, IV port,

and my chances of infection
are exponentially less--

- Zac, absolutely not.

Look, I appreciate
that you did your research,

but I say to this anyone
who is a high-risk scenario,

which unfortunately
includes you,

Dr. Meier.

♪

You are a success story, Zac.

♪

Let's keep it that way.

♪

No crowds.

No strenuous activity...

[waves crashing]
Especially in the ocean.

♪

Are we clear on that?

♪

- It's so big.

- I know.

- Only you could be
this excited

about back-to-school shopping.

- Oh... [chuckles]

- I was scared you were
gonna type "boobs."

[gentle guitar music]

- No, I would, uh--
no, I would never do that.

- No?
- Stop. No, that's not me.

♪

[chuckles]
- [sighs]

Why don't you show me
around your room?

- [laughs] Oh, God.

Okay, first stop

on the virtual tour

is Zac Meier at age 5.

Yeah, I just started
kindergarten.

- [gasps] Aww.

Five-year-old you is so cute.

I would've been crushing
really hard on you.

- Oh, really? [chuckles]
- Uh, yeah.

Chase you around
the playground.

Picked on you, teasing you.

You know, everything
kindergarteners do

when they like someone.

Zac?

sh*t, did I lose you?

- Um, no.

No, I'm, uh--I'm still here.

Maybe we should just wait
until we can do this in person.

- I don't know, Zac,
that could be a while.

♪

- We both know
you're getting out soon.

- [inhales slowly, exhales]

It doesn't feel like it.

♪

- I can't wait to take you
on a date.

- [chuckles]

♪

Yeah?
- Yeah.

- Like, what,
the hospital cafeteria?

- Ah, the hospital cafeteria.

- Or maybe--or maybe a prom?

- No, I'm thinking

something real, a real date,

where we both get dressed up,

and we go to a restaurant

where we can't pronounce
anything on the menu.

♪

Everyone in the room is gonna
look at you and think,

"What does that beautiful girl
see in that dude?"

- Zac?

Zac?

[monitor beeping]

- Everyone in the room is
gonna be looking at you.

[voice echoes]

[indistinct whispering,
machines beeping]

- [distressed breathing]
- Mia? Mia?

Mia?
- [exhales]

Zac...
[phone beeping]

[groans]

Hospital Wi-Fi sucks.

[sighs]

♪

- Hospital Wi-Fi still sucks.

♪

[footsteps running, modulated]

[airy ambience]

[waves crashing]

[light positive music]

♪

[birds squawking]

♪

[blade whirring, intensifies]

♪

[monitor beeping,
blade whirring]

[beeping continues]

[blade whirring]

[loud whirring]

[gasps]

[exhaling]

- When life attacks
out of nowhere,

our primal instincts kick in,

and we're faced with a choice.

Fight...

[gentle guitar music]

Or flight.

♪

It can feel impossible
to know what's right to do...

♪

And when you make
the wrong choice, like...

running from your best friend,

can you change?

♪

Or has the damage
already been done?

♪

- Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.

I mean, you hear "non,"

and you think it's
not cancer, right?

- We were literally
just sitting there,

talking about our summer plans
yesterday.

How we're gonna go
to concerts together,

how we're gonna go to
the beach together, how we're--

♪

- Dude, I know.

[sighs]

- [scoffs]

What am I gonna do
for senior year?

Or what am I gonna do
for college?

Am I even gonna be alive?

- Zac...

it's okay to be scared.

Okay?

Dude, it's okay
to be pissed off...

- Yeah.
- Okay? Yeah.

Okay, whatever you want...

♪

Just know you're not doing
any of this without me.

♪

- [exhales]
- Zac?

[waves crashing]

- Hey, Sarah.

- You suck at returning texts.

- I know. I'm sorry.

This is new.
This is a new look.

- Yeah.

My ex-girlfriend was a surfer
and got me hooked.

Literally the only good thing

that came out of
that relationship.

- [softly] Wow.

I missed a lot.

Um, last time
we were talking about

your whole
UC Santa Barbara thing.

How did that go?
Did that end up--

- Yeah, uh, waitlisted.
- Waitlisted?

- Basically their two-faced way
of saying, "Get lost."

- [laughs]

- You know, the college
process is terrible.

You're lucky you missed it.

[soft music]

♪

- Promise?
- I promise.

[indistinct murmuring]

[soft intriguing music]

- Evan?

- Yo, what are you doing here?

- Who's this?

- Ashley is my girlfriend.
[chuckles]

- Surprise! [chuckles]
- Ah!

[laughter]

- I can't even begin to imagine

what you're going
through, okay?

But why did you ignore me
for a year?

Why wouldn't you let me
try to help you?

- Try to help me?
- Yeah.

- I--I didn't want you
to see me like that.

Why should my cancer
affect your life?

- Okay, look, I get it.

But do you have any idea
what it was like

to have Evan or Bec
turn me away?

Over and over, dude? Like...

- I'm sorry.

- No, dude. No.

I'm sorry.

Senior year wasn't the same
without you.

[phone chimes]

Yo, what's the AMBER Alert?

- Oh, no, I gotta go.

It's my girlfriend.
- Your girlfriend?

- Yeah, met her
in the hospital.

Think you're the only one
who can play the field?

Yeah, every day
I'd show up in her room

as a different
hospital employee.

- [laughs]
Like I'd actually believe

that medical marijuana taster
is a real job.

Zac!

It is so nice
to finally meet you.

[gentle music]

- This is Ashley,
Evan's girlfriend.

♪

- When did this all start?

- [chuckles]

Um...
- What?

- Since approximately...

day three of your
protective isolation.

- Day three?

Oh.

You just forgot to tell me
in the subsequent 97 days?

- [exhales]
I didn't want you to feel like

I was here for a reason
other than you.

- Ashley, it was very nice
to meet you.

I'll call you soon.

Can I talk to you in the
hallway for a second?

♪

- Well, that went well.

♪

- What the hell was that about?

- I don't know. I--I don't--

I didn't know what else to do.
- What, and you're just--

♪

This is a big deal, Evan,

and you just feel like
you had to hide it from me?

- If the situation
had been different,

of course I would've told you,

but you were sick.

- I was sick, Evan.

- You just had
a cancer checkup.

- It's a post-cancer checkup.

That means I was sick
and now I'm better.

- Okay.
- I'm in remission.

- Okay.

You're right.

I'm sorry.

You're doing great, bro...

♪

And I'm happy for you.

♪

- Thanks.

♪

Now it's gonna be awkward the
next time I freakin' see her.

- Yeah, she's probably
gonna hate you forever.

- Shut up.

♪

- [sighs]

♪

[soft guitar music]

- Ms. Phillips...

I am happy to say
you have my all-clear

to leave the hospital.

I will see you when you begin
your chemotherapy sessions.

Congratulations.
- [exhales]

- [laughs cheerfully]

Mama, that is great.
[chuckles]

- Wait, does this mean
I have to leave?

♪

- Hey, smile.
You just got good news, yeah?

- [inhales, exhales]

- ♪ You keep
your eyes closed ♪

♪ Clenched tight

- What's going on?

- [sobbing] They're kicking
me out. [sniffles] Zac...

- Hey, hey, there has to be
something you can do.

She's not ready.

Vinny, look at her.
She's not ready.

- Well, there's nothing
we can do, Zac.

She has to go.

- Zac...

♪

- Please don't let
them do this...

- Hey, Mia--hey, hey, hey...
- They're just--

- It's gonna be fine.
You're gonna be fine, okay?

- You've said that before.

- Okay, well, I'm not
going anywhere, okay?

- ♪ You can't live like this

♪ My love

- It's me and you.

- Okay. [whimpers]

♪

- ♪ But you could be free

- Zac?

♪ If you could just see it

- I'm right here, okay?
- [sniffles]

♪

- Okay?
- Okay.

- ♪ All of your fears

- Hey.

You're gonna be fine.

- ♪ They'll leave you
someday ♪

- [smooches]

- Thank you.

♪

- ♪ They'll leave you
someday ♪

♪

- [British accent]
"Can I have a kiss, Mia?

"Oops, sorry.

Cannot do that.
You have a boyfriend."

That's right, Mr. Bojangles,
you're a good guy.

- He is a good guy.
- [laughs]

- But Bojangles
was there first.

- Uh-oh, what do you mean?
What are you talking about?

- [giggles] He was.