13x06 - Balancing Act

[bunniefuu]

There is snow
in the mountain.

I need to finish the shelter.

I have no more time.

It's really good to see

some game in my cooking area.

I think if I can keep
getting more food,

I'm in a good position to
do this as long as it takes.

Mmm, mmm, mmm.

It's important
for me to explore

this land because I need
to find moose.

. Oh.

Totally lost consciousness.

Man.

I know that I said

I'm willing to die
to win this,

but this experience has
given me a different mindset.

I do not need two
snowshoe hares right now.

My intention isn't
to come to the land

and just take
as much as I can.

There we go.

I really want to have this

respectful relationship
with it.

If I harvest this moose,

that would definitely be
a game changer for me.

Okay, let's get hands dirty

even more.

It's gonna be a long night.

Yeah, quite exhausted,
but the real work starts now.

This is my first experience
with moose, basically.

To me, it looks huge.

But I might be biased
because I live

in a country with red deer.

So it's a different category.

I have to remove this hide.

Wow, it's so heavy.

It's good insulation.

Oh, ****.

But I'm a bit worried
because I never

processed something so huge.

So there is a lot of work
because I have to skin it,

gut it, and I have to pull it
apart as soon as possible

to prevent meat spoiling.

And it's dark already.

Okay, I don't really see well,
but I have to keep on going.

Whoa.

How huge livers.

I hope they are better
than from fish.

That's so much fat
attached to the kidneys.

Put this around your neck.

So long.

Wow, so much good stuff.

Gosh, I could almost get in.

Oh, look, guys.

Meat.

Huge heart.

Crazy beast.

I love you,

and I love your meat.

I was having a lot of fun,
but I just realized,

, I should speed up.

I don't have unlimited time.

Also closer to go to bed
tonight at some point.

Okay. Come on, leg.

Oh, yeah!

I'm not sure
if I can carry this.

Whoa.

Crazy chunk of meat.

Quite hurts.

I'm working quite late
in the night,

and I have to collect
all my strength

to at least put bigger chunks
of meat apart.

Heavy beast.

Okay!

And then I can go to sleep.

Do we have any bear here?

So far, no competition.

I'm a bit nervous
leaving this moose overnight.

It's completely open
to predators,

and I'm risking all my meat.

But I'm super exhausted,
so there's no chance

I can transport anything
this night.

. I'm struggling now,
to be honest.

There's no other option,
and I will continue next day.

Oh, my back.

Exhausted.

Look at this.

We have sunlight.

Beautiful.

Awesome view.
Look at this.

I want to say thank you
to God for blessing me

today with the sun.

It's awesome.

Let's begin.

Then I will cover
the roof with the tarp.

The bigger ones...

I want to finish
my shelter today

so I can spend
all the time fishing,

because fishing is
the secret of the show.

Just like this.

And fish have more fat
than the meat of big animal.

Now I only have pieces
of rabbit to eat.

I have enough food
to stay here more three days

until I get some fish.

It's not an easy task.

Even with lack of food,
I have strength because...



Split the branches.

And I think it's an advantage
because the heart

needs less energy
to pump the blood,

and I can go further.

This is a lot of energy,

so we are pushing
to the limit.

Pressure is what
make diamonds,

and diamonds are hard
to break.

Even if it's the wrong step,
it's something to move on.

Then you learn again
step after step.

Massive work.

And I am too tired
to finish it.

Why did I do...

Oh, ****.

Slept. I don't know how long.

It's super late already.

I hope.

Let's see.

It looks exactly
the same as yesterday.

I don't see
any animal activity here.

All this fat from the guts,
everything all good.

So let's do some work.

Oh, man, that's such a relief.

It's a lot of work
processing something so big.

I was afraid there would be,
like, huge devastation,

especially of parts
that contain a lot of fat.

Because if this is gone,
then I'm left pretty much

only with lean meat,

and this can lead
to protein starvation.

Gosh, it still must
be heavy as ****.

But, of course, I don't
want to waste anything.

Bam!

Huge steaks.

Whoa.

Gosh, it's so much meat.

It's incredible.
It just doesn't stop.

Okay, ribs.

Basically, I'm not a hunter.

So it feels very good
to have this moose.

But, of course,
things can always go wrong.

Like, the weather is
changing so quickly here.

One day, it's snowing,
and then suddenly warm,

and then it's cold again.

Also, in this competition,
there are many people

who are very good hunters.

Almost there.

I mean,
it never happened before,

but I don't find it
that impossible

that another person
might catch something big,

and it could go
for super long.

I'm done.

Gosh, I'm tired.

So look at this.

So much meat.

Holy ****.

A lot.
A lot of carcass to haul.

Okay, carrying meat.

Whoa.

Bring as much as possible.

That's the plan for today.

There is only 240 steps
from the place

where moose died
to my shelter,

but I will have to carry it
many, many times.

Heavy stuff.

So each time,
I'm carrying as much as I can.

The legs could be
almost my weight.

And it's very exhausting.

But if there are no predators
or no spoiling...

Okay.

For now, I'm putting meat
on branches

and logs to be
slightly elevated.

It's very simple,

but I know
I have to do something quick

to preserve it all.

Meat is close to my shelter,


So it's within sh**ting range
if some predators

would start feeding
on my meat.

Later on,
I will make a food cache...

But it's good for now.

Keep on forgetting to eat.

I'm thinking I made a bunch
of right decisions

to get to this point.

Let's eat some meat.

First decision is
to change the location--

Very important.

And I knew it has a good
potential for hunting.

It's gonna be awesome.

This moose is kind of sign.

I mean, it's gonna be hard.

It's gonna be so many
other challenges and so on.

That looks good to me.

But, for now,
I'm planning to win.

Mmm.

So juicy. More!

Let's bring her down.

Come inside my little home.

Hello!

All right.

We got some food for dinner.

Bloody Hands Café

is gonna be Fatty Hands Café.

Ba dum tshh.

My tail.

So I got to get a little bit
more fat off that.

All right.

Let's dice up that beaver tail.

See what we can get out of her.

I'm slowly getting
through my beaver.

I've got all the dried stuff,
and I still have a lot of fat.

Cut around that bone first.

The beaver, it's just
huge for the relief.

Kind of just frees up
that mental space

as sort of like play
and explore and create more.

Just trying to open this up.
These little chunks up a bit.

Shelter's come along
really well.

All right.

I still need to
unlock fishing,

but this gives me time
to figure that out.

I'm getting the hang of things
a little bit here.

We's done.

A pot full of beaver tail
and fat.

Time to put her on the fire.

Start to simmer her down,

and then starting
on my shelter.

Food does make
everything easier

and enjoyable
and sustainable out here.

Since I got that beaver,

focus has been
on permanent shelter.

I feel like I was a bit behind
with regards to getting

my permanent shelter up.

All right.

But I'm feeling
pretty good now.

It's my dream to have
a fire in my shelter.

So I'm gonna put
some crossmembers

across here and across there,

and that'll kind of seal it in.

Then I can start
setting up my fire pit

and my heat shield in here.

Get to it.

Right now with my shelter,
the necessity

is just to get the bed,
retaining wall,

and fireplace all sorted out.

The insulation
can kind of come

as the weather gets colder.

It's just gonna be
an ongoing project.

When it came to my choice
for permanent shelter,

I've had in my mind
coming here that I wanted

to do, like, a tepee wickiup.

It's not super
labor-intensive.

You can put it up
pretty quickly,

and also it comes with
its own chimney as well.

I'm gonna dig
a bit of a channel

to connect my pit
to the outside,

to hopefully
encourage the fire

to burn a bit more cleanly

and not to smoke on me.

I've never stayed in
a tepee or a wickiup.

I just wanted to just
build something different,

something that brought me
happiness and joy,

but it was also
functional as well.

I've got that established.

We got these two tins
right here.

I'm hoping we can cut it,
fold it,

open her up,

and have them
reflecting heat this way.

Would be nice.

And now I just want
to check on dinner.

I definitely need to eat more

because I want to be able
to be set

for whenever med check is.

Oh, there's
so much fat in there.

I put in beaver leg as well.

It's taken a long time
for me to come around

to loving this land.

It's been
a growing relationship.

The more that I've been able
to become in tune with it,

the more I've fallen
in love with it.

I swear,
food just tastes better

if you got to work for it.

You just appreciate it so much.

So much sweeter.

I'm really feeling like
I'm meant to be here.

The land wants me to be here.

Okay.

Yeah, it's going.

There's our heat reflectors.

Might be scrappy, might be raw,

but I'm living.

Really living out here.

I absolutely love it.

This whole lot will be covered,

and then it will be
pretty much weatherproof.

The most important thing here
is that the spruce branches

are put in upside down.
So poke them in like that.

And the reason is,
when they're like that,

they shed water,
but if they're that way,

the water will drip inside.
So I just kind of poke them up.

And when you're doing this,
if you start at the top

and work your way down,
you've got something

to kind of poke into.

You just kind of push
them up like this.

It takes a bit of time
to do it like this,

but for a long-term shelter,
it's worth it.

Oh, cold wind.

The days have been
getting shorter,

and the weather is
very likely to turn.

And I think once
we have snow on the ground,

it will make a lot of things
more challenging.

So my focus now is
getting the shelter built

up to a certain standard.

Bring it on.

Winter can come.

I think I'm having
a medical fairly soon.

I don't feel like I've lost a
spectacular amount of weight.

I've definitely lost some.

Food is coming in not as fast
as I would like,

but it is providing.

I'm very, very,
very happy about it.

He'll definitely keep me going
for two days, maybe three.

I think the easiness
of catching hares

is why some people used to die
of rabbit starvation.

I think everything else
is under control.

Shelter's under control.

Fire's under control.

Water, but hopefully this won't

result in tap-out by TP.

I thought about shelter design
long before I came out,

and I wanted something
that I could heat

with a fire,
that would have a raised bed

and be efficient.

And the obvious solution
to that is a lean-to.

But a lean-to shelter
is really designed

to be short term because the
whole thing is open-fronted.

But then I thought,
if I combine

with a tepee in front of it,
I create living space as well.

So I've got
a sleeping area that

I can be 100% confident that

I'll stay dry
during the night.

And then I also have a large
area that I can stand up in.

I can make things. I can cook.

So I've basically created
the perfect shelter

for the environment
that I'm in.

Oh, wow!

That's it.

First fire in
the permanent shelter.

Definitely a moment
to get excited about.

So the smoke is kind of
swirling around inside,

but it's not coming to the bed.

I'm okay over here so far.

I think eventually, once
the walls are fully insulated,

the smoke will automatically go
up through the hole in the top.

Or at least that's the theory.

Oh, ****.

You know what?

Of course, they go for
the easiest resource.

. Crazy jacks.

So far, all the food was
never touched by any animal.

Uh-uh-uh.

Maybe even poop there.

Uh-uh.

No, I'm not giving this to you.

Sorry, guys.

I'm pissed of these jacks
picking my food.

Come on, get the off!

But this is definitely a sign,
you know,

that, oh, be careful.

I'm expecting that
I will face predators soon.

So I will have to protect
my meat much better.

Okay.

I'm planning storage place.

And this is kind of
appropriate distance.

The meat is close already.

If it's wider,
it's less cutting to build it.

So it will be just here
between these three trees.

This meat goes there.

Use these logs.

Now I understand why
some participants

mentioned that they
would not sh**t a moose.

There are many
never-ending projects.

I don't have any experience
with building

food cache for big game.

So my plan is dig
a hole in the ground,

place logs around it,
and then put layers of meat,

cover them with
spruce branches,

another layer of meat,

another layer of
spruce branches, and so on.

So let's go deeper.

So it's protected
from small predators.

And it would take some time
for big predators to get it.

And hopefully I can hear it
before they reach this part.

Nice.

Time for branches.

Spending so much time
in forest,

it just gives you inner peace
when you're out in nature

and away from the city life.

Growing up, it was
definitely an escape for me.

And quite soon, I was reset,

and I could go back
with new energy,

and that was very
important for me.

It really comes back
also to words

of book like "Into the Wild."

I think about
survival of the fittest,

but what does it mean
in our modern society now?

Yeah, we all can survive.

I mean, we have food.
We have everything.

But the fittest, I would say,
it's basically the happiest.

And you don't need to do
something crazy for it.

You just have to
think about it

and decide that
you want to be joyful

and to live your life.

So these things
that we as humans

are kind of maybe
sometimes forgetting

too much in this crazy world.

I'm so glad that moose
is now under control.

I'm so glad.

I'm hungry, but

I can feel my body
is really exhausted.

Gosh, I'm tired.

Maybe just...

Just give me five minutes.

I think I deserve that.

Well, I collect

like the flag of my country--

Green, yellow, and red.

And let's put
all of these in the soup.

Yeah.

All there is.

Let's cook.

There's so much to do though.

Today I will have
medical inspection,

but first, I have work to do,
and I need to be prepared.

So much gear to deal with.

Okay.

Today, I will cut more logs
to put here in the wall

and try to finish the shelter.

It's snowing,
but I need to do it.

So let's go.

Another day in the paradise
that I choose.

And day after day,
the work never ends.

There you go.

This one is cool.

Oh, my God.

Oh, log.

Huge log.

I have a penthouse now.

People that know me
probably are laughing

because of my stupidity.

I carry all the logs
that I can.

Another one.

But it's a lot of energy.

Maybe too much.

Now I need to take a rest.

So I will push harder
until I break.

The taste of the soup.

And since I know me,
I never break.

I confess, it is not good.

This probably is not tender.

There's a boat...

It's for another one.

Then they come to me.

What's going on
with the body?

Nothing too special,
I would say.

Had any shortness
of breath out here?

No.

Full stomach and happy?

- Yeah.
Okay.

Feeling okay?
- Yeah.

I mean, from what I'm doing
with the workflow

and everything, pretty good.
Yeah.

One more.

Any issues with pain,
infection?

No concerns over that?

Nope, it's good.

I'm done with you.

Any episodes of
lightheadedness, dizziness?

Dizzy most mornings,

but it's definitely
hunger-related.

Deep breath
in and out for me.

You're pooping a little bit?
- No.

Last time I pooped was
probably four or five days ago.

Hey, here they come.

Let's go.

How are you doing?

Not eating much.

Are you feeling
very fatigued?

No, only when I work a lot.

No chest pain?

Nothing.

Yeah, a lot of work.

Not a lot of food.

Too much work, really.

I good?

Just give us
a few minutes here, okay?

And I understand
his resting heart rate

is low to start with,

but it looks like
it's dropped a fair bit now.

So he's dropped
about 10 points.

His blood pressure's
down 20 points.

I want to stay
here more time.

Then you're into
some big trouble.

Okay.

It will be a disaster, so...

So I was talking
with the doctor,

and it was pretty alarming.

So your blood
pressure is dropping,

and your heart rate's
decreased to a point

where it's now critically low.

So ultimately we feel like you
need to go into the hospital,

get some lab work,

and, for that reason,
we feel it's necessary

to medically extract you.

- Today now?
But I feel awesome.

I know.

It's a hard thing when you're
not feeling that many symptoms,

but it's dropped to a point
now where it's just, you know--

I feel so energetic.

Look, I carry
all these logs today.

I'm feeling energetic
to build all my shelter.

Can we wait more a few days
if I get really wrong?

The concern is that,
even if you aren't feeling

symptoms, your heart's
not able to pump in a way

that you're getting good blood
flow to your tissues.

Your brain's not well perfused.

And so we don't want
to wait till

it's a point that
you're passing out

and getting yourself
into danger.

Ultimately, over the
next couple days,

even if you were able
to eat a bunch,

we're actually a bit
worried about that

'cause the state
you're in right now,

if you eat too much too fast,

your body's not able
to respond properly,

and it's actually quite
dangerous to your health.

Is your definitely--

Unfortunately, yes.

We have to
medically extract you.

Okay.

If you want to.

I need to go.

I can do nothing?

It's not that we want to.

It's just,
we're looking out for you.

Okay.

If your final answer, or--

I'll go.

The worst thing that could
happen happened to me.

The doctor took me out.

But, in the end,
I'm not regret about that

'cause their decision
was correct.

I understand that
if I was there alone,

probably I will push
until I die.

And this is a big thing
to think.

I think I gave my best
with my skills.

And I give my best emotional,

showing the real Pedrosa.

For me, it was
an awesome experience.

I enjoyed the view.

I enjoyed when
the first snow fall.

I enjoyed the sun in my face.

And I'm humble enough
to understand that failure

is part of the process.

It is forging me again.

It's another stage in my life.

And I hope all the love
that I found here

can inspire people to push
harder and realize that

you are a force of nature.

I'm grateful to bring
the flag of my country,

a symbol of hope,
to the Portuguese people.

And I hope the people
around the world

can see that I never quit.

I just go further
and further without blaming,

because the present is a gift.

All right, the wait is over.

I got ribs, baby.

Got beaver ribs.

Great, great meal.

Honestly, it tastes so close
to beef, it's crazy.

I've got enough meals to eat
every day to day 30,

and after that,
it's pretty slim.

I need to get some stuff in.

That's that.

I'm gonna put that back
in the food case.

Save half and have that
be my meal tomorrow.

You can come with me.

It's been a while now since
I've had new food come in.

I'm starting to feel that
pressure just a little bit.

Food is what's gonna
make being out here

sustainable or not.

I do not want to
starve out here.

My body type, my metabolism,
I will not win.

So I gotta hustle.

Let's go out
and check the trap line.

This place is
gonna get harder.

You can just feel it.

There are tracks
through those three.

There's a lot of life around,
but even that seems

to be quieting down
a little bit.

Nothing.

Oh, snap.

There's actually
a little bit of ice

on top of Little Lake.

That's not good.

There's this window to snaring
a beaver from a land snare,

and it's gonna close
with the coming of the ice.

The beavers eventually
get to the point

where they'll just stay
in their lodge

and stay under the ice.

Damn.

I think I've only got
maybe a day or two left

before this closes up.

So I think this is
the only run that

they're using at the moment.

So I'm gonna focus
all my efforts on this one.

I'm gonna move my
beaver snares onto this run

and have maybe three
or four snares on this run.

It's a last ditch effort.

Snare.

I think this is gonna be tight.

I know one beaver is not gonna
be enough to stay out here.

I need to get more beavers in.

It's just such
a complete food source.

They're very, very
clever creatures,

and I just need to think
outside the box

and try and outsmart them.

It's a race against time
and against nature

and against the ice
to try and get it

before that window closes.

All right, let's set one more.

I don't want to put
all my money on beaver,

but fishing is just not
working out for me right now.

While they're still
coming up on the land,

I've still got a chance.

Leave it there.

Here we go.

The land provides.

Oh, yeah.

The river has provided.

The land provides once again.

I slept so good.
I didn't want to get up.

So comfortable and warm.

I see and hear
something outside.

Let's go out
and see what it is.

Holy!

Wow.

Oh, apun.

Snow.

Look at all this apun.

Overnight,
the land has changed

into a beautiful
winter wonderland.

It is now
a different environment.

As the snow begins
to stick to the ground,

I think of my kids.

I think of them walking
outside in the early morning

and seeing snow,
seeing the joy on their faces

and then seeing how happy
they are to play in the snow,

make snow angels.

And this gives me comfort,

knowing that it could be
snowing at home

also right now.

Maybe that's how they're
feeling in the same moment.

All right, quit yapping
and get going on the day.

Despite fainting, I'm feeling
pretty good at this point.

I have food, but other than
knowing that I haven't pooped

in a long time, I feel
like I have enough energy

to live out here.

While I'm sitting here waiting
on this rabbit to boil,

I'm going to work on my sign.
Finish that up.

Camp Ukalaitchaq is what
I decided to name this place.

It's a beautiful place.

And that means Camp Rabbit.

I decided to name it that
because ukalaitchaq

is an Iñupiaq word that my kids
are really familiar with.

"The Ukalaitchaq Song,"
I sing it to them every night

in Inupiaq.
Puts them to sleep.

And they're constantly
asking me to sing it.

"Dad, sing
'The Ukalaitchaq Song.'"

"Dad, sing my song."

"Sing my song, Dad."

I've been harvesting
ukalaitchaq,

eating ukalaitchaq here.

Makes a yummy, yummy broth.

And it just made sense,
Camp Ukalaitchaq,

and so we'll finish
this sign up.

I think about it all the time.

Wonder what my family
is doing right now?

Crazy thing is, like,
I don't even know

what day of the week it is.

Like, I lost track of that
a long time ago.

Like, it doesn't matter.

It's irrelevant out here.

I'll dig these...

deeper.

Every day is just
work to survive.

Work the gill net to survive.

Work the snares to survive.

Work the water to survive.

Work your shelter to survive.

Just every day is
work to survive.

Just finishing up the I.

Four letters left.

But I'm in to win
this thing, man.

Like, it's not gonna be easy.

It already hasn't been easy.

This has been
the most difficult

three weeks of my life.

Working on the A now.

Second to last letter.

And it will be probably
forever the most difficult

time of my life,
until the day that

I no longer am on this Earth.

That's it.

Clean it up a little bit.

And Camp Ukalaitchaq sign
is done.

But I know the memory,

the footage will live on
forever.

As long as mankind lives on,

I will live on
for my descendants

to see and hopefully
bring encouragement

and cultural acceptance
and spirit.

All right, camp is
officially done being built,

and it has a name.

Camp Ukalaitchaq.
Camp of Rabbits.

I think the kids would love it.

It's like a hobbit house.

Nice.

Get that fire going
in the morning.

Yeah, as soon as you get that
hot tent up and the fire going,

like, everything
just seems possible.

It's like, you know
you can go outside

and you can always just
come back into the tent

and just warm up,
dry out, refresh,

and head back out again.

So getting the fire going
in the mornings for me,

it's gonna become ritual.

Okay.

Now we go brave
the light outside.

Let me check my set lines.

Check the gill net as well.

I don't want to bet
and put all my money

on getting a beaver.

That's gonna becoming
more and more difficult

the colder it gets.

They're gonna
be bunkering down.

So we need to start
getting some fish in.

I need to figure that out.

All right,
let's check this line.

Coming out here,
I was really planning

on having fish
as a huge strategy

or a huge food source for me.

Nothing at all.

Just haven't been able
to make it work at all,

and I've tried
so many different things.

There's something
that I'm missing.

I'm not sure whether it's just
a code I still need to crack.

Come on, fish.
Where are you at?

I'm still just trying
different means.

But we're starting
to feel the pinch,

just not bringing any in.

All right, let's go check
gill net and set lines.

Just on the surface,
it looks like it would be

a good spot for fishing.

You've got flow from
Lake Learning into Big Riv.

Oh, it's freezing over more.

But I'm starting to learn
that it's not.

Nothing in here.

Got ice forming on
this side of my gill net.

Get this out of the water.
Move it somewhere else.

I cannot afford to have it
frozen into Little Creek.

It's not doing anything
for me here, anyway.

My float line here is
almost frozen in place,

too, so it's gonna
have to come out.

I have to keep at it.
I have to keep trying.

But I'm not enjoying it
at all.

Oh, of course,
it's stuck on a snag.

See if I can pull it off
over this way.

Come on.

Get off!

Yeah, it's broken.

You, Little Creek!

Freeze over.

I don't care.

I'm done with you, man.

This sucks.

I'm sure some people are just
k*lling it with the fish.

Not this dude.

Not this spot.

I don't know whether it's
just because the fishing's

annoying me or something
like that, I don't know,

but today, I'm like, I'm
actually missing people more,

and I'm missing comfort
and other food more.

Not sure what to do.

Trying to figure it out
one step at a time.

I still need to check
my trap line.

We'll go and check out
the beaver snares

and see if anything
comes of it.

I'm worried that I may
have missed my window

to get another beaver.

The snare down there
has got no activity.

It hasn't had any activity
for a while, to be honest.

I've got a beaver.

We have a beaver
stuck in the snare.

Holy ****!

He's still alive, though.

Heart's pumping.

Heart is pumping like a mofo.

Heart's pumping.

Ah!

Yes!

Argh!

Life!

Food!

Thank you.

Let's go! Let's go!

There's more time, more life,

more experience out here.

I'm so grateful.

Oh, my gosh.

I'm hearing you, nature.

I'm feeling you.

A lot of love for nature,

and a lot of love for myself
for just not giving up.

Just keep trying.

I feel like I'm getting there.

I'll never forget today

and the gifts that this land
is giving me.

Thank you.

Beaver is back on the menu.

Maybe that's why
the fishing's not working,

because this land just knows
how much I love eating beaver.

Let's roll with that.

To get another full-size
adult beaver

is just incredible,
and right at the precipice

of the ice setting in,

I feel like that was
my last chance,

and I've actually gotten one.

Having two beavers now

really does take
the pressure off

with big game.

I have that fat there.

I don't need to have big game.

All right.

And got plenty of food
to see me out

while I figure out fishing.

It still seems surreal
that I'm doing this,

skinning another beaver.

I'm a very, very lucky man.

I have a tattoo
on my right calf

that says
fortune favors the bold.

I'm not sure whether pursuing
the beavers is bold,

but fortune has favored me.

Yes, indeed.

I really feel now
that I can bunker down,

and I can go deep
into this competition.

All right.

Do better each day.

What is it?
Ernest Hemingway.

Fantastic
Ernest Hemingway quote.

It's something about--
No, I'll remember it.

I'll get back to you later.
It's a great one.

And I'm feeling
generally very good.

The trap line is providing.

I'm--you know,
had a few varying hares.

I don't want to kind of take
my foot off the gas completely,

but I feel like I've got
a little window now

to make the most
of what I've already got

without having to put down
any more extra snares.

I'll just check the ones
I've got for now.

Ah, yes.

Okay, this is the quote
by Hemingway.

There is nothing noble in being
superior to your fellow men.

True nobility lies in being
superior to your former self.

And that is
a very, very good quote.

So I'm gonna keep
that one in my head,

because even though there are
ten of us all trying to get

to the end of this and win,

the competition isn't really
with them, is it?

It's with ourselves.

So if we don't up our game
individually,

then we haven't got a chance.

So I'm gonna work
on my weaknesses out here.

So catch a fish.

That's how I'm gonna become
superior to my former self.

I'm gonna catch a fish
because...

That's what I need to be doing.

I wonder how he would
have done out here.

Wouldn't have lasted long
without the booze,

though, would he?

I think he would have been
really hankering for some rum.

Bear with me.

This is gonna be more
treacherous than usual today.

I feel a little bit relieved
now that the medical is done.

That was a bit of a concern.

But I need to start building
my weight up again.

So I need to focus
on finding out a solution

to my inability to catch fish.

I want to catch the pike.

I want to catch the whitefish,
the burbot,

all of these nice
high-fat fish because

that will allow me to stay
out here for the long term.

Wow.

There's fish in here.

This little creek here
is full of fish,

very small fish, but they

are currently very much
trapped in here.

See this one?
That'll make excellent bait.

Whoa. Okay.

If I was a pike,
I would so go for that.

When I come back,
I can grab a few fish.

Might be the easiest meal
I get out here.

All right,
let's send this and see

if he can catch bigger fish.

Oh, not bad.

I am getting better
at these casts.

I'm gonna set
this one up as well.

Nature never hurries,
but everything is accomplished.

That's another quote
that I'm trying to live by.

That's better.

I've been quite philosophical.

It's bound to happen when you
spend this much time alone.

You start to question
all of existence.

But the one thing that stands
out above everything else

is how absolutely absurd
modern-day living is.

Still waiting.

And I think that's why
I've settled into being here,

because I feel like
I was certainly

addicted to technology
and social media

and that dopamine hit you get.

But now that I'm here,
I'm fully disconnected,

and I think that helps with
my feelings of positivity

and feeling that
I've still got what it takes

to win and to get to the end.

Oh, wow!

Oh, hello!

Someone was listening
to my prayers.

I've got a burbot.

Oh, you are very welcome
to stay for dinner.

You really are.

Okay, this is--this is a bit
of a game changer.

Let's get this guy sorted.

A burbot is exactly
what I wanted.

Burbot is poor man's lobster.

And this guy will absolutely

be coming home with me.

Holy ****.

There is a lynx
wandering around.

Wow.

Knowing that there's
predators out there,

it's quite scary.

This is fresh too.

Got chewed up a little bit.

Came up right here
next to my shelter.

It might be back,
and I'll be ready.