01x12 - Watashi no Mama de

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It always felt like I was stuck.

You're lucky you're so weak, Sheena-chan.

You don't even have to think
about w*r, do you?

Not once in my life have I ever
felt lucky for being so weak.

However, reality was a constant
reminder of how powerless I really was.

If all I could do was stand on
the sidelines watching,

it was like admitting
that I didn't really care.

I tried to convince myself that
it would be better to do nothing

than face how pathetic I was.

All I had to do was tell myself it wasn't
my fault and that it was out of my hands,

and come to terms with it.
That was really all it took.

But then...

I realized how wrong that was.
I didn't want to stay that way.

And when I finally made up my mind to do
what I could and find a way to contribute,

however small...

Sheena, you don't have to do that for me.

If you're that weak,
you shouldn't be doing anything!

Phew!

PHEW

It looks like you didn't get Sheena
to brush your hair today.

She was still in bed.

Oh. Well, there is no school today.

You haven't eaten breakfast, have you?

You can eat the biscotti if you want.

Okay.

Hey, Ari, is that Seiran's stuff?

Yes.

I have it all in one place so I can
put it out on the next Gratitude Day.

You're giving it away?

Yes. I can't just leave it here.

You're going to get rid of her things even
though the room belongs to both of you?

I am.

I don't think I like that.

It makes no difference if I don't keep her
things or if this stops being her room.

What do you mean?

Well, for example, on our days off,
we would always sleep in a little

and then drink warm milk together.

In the afternoon,

we loved to sit next to each other by
the window and look out at the town.

I'll always have my memories of Seiran
and the time we spent together.

I have memories of her too!

Like how we ate together,
or cleaned together,

or how she always sat
next to me on the b*ttlefield.

I remember how she kept fiddling
with the glass bead you gave her!

See? As long as we keep her in
our memories, nothing will change.

Of course!

Isn't it the same between you and Sheena?

Oh... Yeah.

You seem a little downcast today,
Mimi-chan. Did something bad happen?

Actually...

Ugh.

I wonder if she remembered
to eat breakfast.

This isn't helping.
I came here to concentrate.

Don't practice anything dangerous
while I'm gone, okay?

If Mimi knew I was here,
would she get angry at me again?

Sheena!

I don't know!

Mimi has always watched out for me,

but I still don't even know
what I should do or what I want.

Like, why wasn't she doing that all along?

If Mimi had fought harder from the start,
we wouldn't have had so many deaths.

I guess you're right.

Definitely. So why start now?

Of course they'd wonder.

None of them has seen Mimi covered
in blood and stuffed into a bag.

Nobody knows how she's been
sacrificing herself to save the others.

None of them. Neither did I.

Mimi was kind enough to try
to spare us from the truth,

but I rejected that kindness when
I refused to accept what she's doing.

I could find her and apologize,
but then what?

Sheena-chan!

Esther-senpai.

I finally found you! I went to your room,
but nobody was there.

Oh, are you all alone, Sheena-chan?
Where's Mimi-chan?

Uh, well, do you need to see her?

I wanted to thank her.
She saved us during the last battle.

I didn't get a chance to yesterday.

Did Mimi-chan make it back okay?

Yes.

Thank goodness!

- Well then, here!

- OOF

- Wh-What is that?

For you two to eat.

We can't accept that much!

Okay, then just take
as much as you can carry.

Thank you very much.

Sheena-chan.

Do your best.

Thank you... very much.

And Sheena is always telling me what
to do! Even though I'm not wrong.

She is, huh?

It sounds like you're both trying
to be considerate of each other,

so it's unfortunate
that it turned into an argument.

Ari?

What?

Did you ever get into fights with Seiran?

Well, yes. All the time.

Huh? Even though
you were such good friends?

Ari? Oh, come on, Ari.

If you fall asleep like that,
you'll catch cold.

And what about the homework that's left?

Hmm. In the morning.

We promised we'd do it tonight.

We did?

Sheesh. If you're gonna be
like that, I'll do it myself.

Hmph.

Hey, don't give me that look.

You're the one who suggested we go to
bed together after finishing our homework.

I just wanted to take a little rest.

Well, don't come crying to me
when you do catch cold.

Huh.

Seiran and I just had
very different personalities.

How did you end it?

Huh?

When does a fight end?

Well...

What do you want?

Nothing.

Well, I don't think it will end
as long as you're hiding out in here.

Attention. Attention.

The following students must report to
the front gate and prepare for deployment:





- 1621...

- Mimi...

Let's skip out and play, man.

Oh, crap, it's Professor Omi!

Hey, keep it down!

Aren't you going to scold them?

No, I don't mind. Students can spend
their free time any way they choose.

Oh, my! So you actually can be
cool about some things?

I'm not sure that you're
in a position to judge.

I'm shocked that you're such
a pushover, Professor Omi.

The point is to take
a balanced approach, so—

Um...

Totsuki-san?

Um, did Mimi already go into battle?

You don't need to worry.

She always makes it back, right?

Did something happen?

Actually,

Mimi and I had a difference of
opinion and got into a big fight,

and neither of us would budge,
so we haven't made up.

Ah, youth.

Totsuki-san, I hope you and Kagari-san

can come to a resolution
that you both find acceptable.

Thank you.

How unusual for them
to get into an argument.

Yeah, isn't it?

It's almost like our Mimi, who jaunts off
to battle without a care in the world,

is suddenly acting like
a normal, average girl.

Are you all right, sir?

Well...

I was jumped by a group of enemies
that had infiltrated the nearby forest

when I was bringing Mimi back.

What's the matter?

Please take care of him!

Huh? Hey, wait!

I realize that I'm powerless
and would be useless in a fight.

But I can't just stand by and do nothing.

I have to go and help Mimi!

Mimi?

Mimi! Mimi!

Mimi.

Hey, did you hear a sound?

From where? That monster's
gotta be on its last legs.

I need to stay calm. My magic isn't
powerful enough to beat them.

However...

There is one thing I can do right now.
One thing I can do for Mimi.

Shee...na?

Mimi.

There you are!

Sheena, what are you doing here?!
That was really close!

Mimi.

Is this the way you've always fought?

Yeah, it is.

A dream?

I wonder if it was a dream. But...

Sheena?

Sheena...

Mimi.

Oh!

Huh?

We're still fighting.

I want to make up, but I still don't
think I said anything wrong.

So I don't know what to do.

Then how about I apologize first?

Huh?

You didn't want me to worry, so whenever
you got hurt, you hid it from me.

You knew I'd cry if I saw you hurt,
so you didn't want to tell me.

I wasn't considering your feelings
when I got mad at you. I'm sorry.

- Does that mean we've made up now?

- But...

I still can't agree
with the way you're doing this.

I'm still not happy
with the way things are.

Why not?! That means
we still can't make up!

Are you going to keep on pushing
your limits in battle like that?

I will. Because I'm the only one who can.

All right.

Then I won't stop practicing my magic.

Huh?

I still don't accept the way things
are now, but I'll face up to reality.

But why? Why can't we just
stay the way we are?

I mean, you always get
good scores on tests,

and you make such good cookies and
rice ba*ls, and you're good at cleaning,

and you know all about flowers,
and I feel so cozy in bed with you.

Why isn't that enough?

Is it my fault?

Is it my fault that we can't
keep things the way they are?

No, it's not.

After I met you, I finally
realized that it was time to change.

If we're together, I didn't
want it to just be you saving me.

I wanted to help.
I wanted to support you too.

But I still couldn't do anything.
I was so frustrated by my own weakness.

The reason I'm able to finally
move forward despite all that

is because I have you by my side, Mimi.

Me too.

Once I met you, Sheena,
I wasn't alone anymore.

Mm-hmm.

I know you were all by yourself
for a very long time.

So... So now, I want you
to let me protect you too.

Please.

Then... if I come back in pieces again,
will you promise not to cry?

W-Well...

I guess it's okay
if you cry just a little bit.

But in exchange, I want you
to do something for me.

What is it?

Don't go away.

Sheena, don't ever leave.
Don't leave me alone.

Mm-hmm. I'll stay right here.

Actually, I still don't want you
to cry very much.

I like you lots more when you're smiling.

I like your smile, too.

We even have tomorrow off.

Yup, we do!

And there's no homework!
What do you want to do?

How about we have a do-nothing day?

Do nothing?

Mm-hmm.

We'll wake up whenever we want
and do—or don't do—whatever we want!

That sounds great! That means it's
a do-nothing day for you too, right?

For me?

Yeah, Sheena. You always start reading
or go to pet your plants or something.

In that case, can I at least do
a little cleaning while you're asleep?

Please. Do nothing with me.

Okay?

We woke up, nibbled on a cookie, went
back to bed, and now it's almost noon.

She's dreaming of eating!

Now's my chance to take a peek
at my medicinal herb book...

The more I try to escape,
the stronger she squeezes!

Back to sleep again, I guess.

We didn't get out of bed
until the afternoon.

Hello there, rice ball girl.

I have something nice for you.

Wow!

Strawberries!

Wanna make strawberry jam?

You know how to make jam, Sheena?

I guess we did some jam-making.

I guess we did.

I guess our do-nothing day was a failure.

A big failure.

Let's try the jam on some bread tomorrow.

Sure, let's.

Are you just going to let things play out?

What do you mean?

I mean with Mimi.

Her self-awareness is clearly
developing much faster now

than when she was in isolation.

Isn't that a good thing?

Is it?

Whoever she meets, whatever she obtains,

she'll eventually outlive it all,
because she can never die.

And that profound sense of loss
will t*rture her for all eternity.

So she should never have anything,
because she'll eventually lose it?

That doesn't sound like a very
scholarly opinion, Professor.

Sure, if she hadn't met Sheena-chan,

she may never have understood
how lonely she really was.

But, you know...

Gaining something and then losing it,
meeting someone and then parting...

No one who lives can avoid
going through that process.

Sometimes the memory of what
was lost is what keeps people alive.

The kids need to make their own choices.
We adults just need to give them options.

True.

Let's watch over them, Professor Omi,
as they decide what to do.