01x08 - I Choose Chaos

[bunniefuu]

["Worth" by Tarik playing]

♪ Yo ♪

♪ I know what I'm worth… ♪

[students cheering]

[Xavier] We tapped in, baby.

♪ I know what I'm worth… ♪

[Xavier] Oh yeah! We are live
outside of the Dorian Heywood Arena.

The vibes are immaculate, and I hope
that you got your parlays together

because Hillman
just put the whooping on Norfolk State

in the men's MEAC basketball championship
spring break tournament, all right?

Judging by the crowd,
Hillman's gonna be bussin' tonight.

Let's tap in with some fans to see
what they gotta say about the festivities.

Let's get-- Hey, Debo!

-Hi! Hi!
-Holla at me. Check in real quick. Tap in.

Did you black out, or did you black out
when Jalen hit that three at the buzzer?

Uh, honestly, I was thinking about whether
I left my curling iron plugged in or not.

We are in the finals, baby!

-Yeah!
-Yes, sir!

-Ain't nobody messing with Hillman, boy!
-Nobody!

-Ay!
-Let's go! Yeah!

Did you see our defense
shut down their pick and roll? [scoffs]

They had the Norfolk boys settling
for contested threes the whole game.

-Okay. You know--
-Oh damn.

Did you see my man dunk?

-Jalen Hughes is the MVP.
-[students cheering]

-Yeah, okay.
-And I'm going to be Miss Hillman.

And then, probably, Mrs. Hughes.

Mrs. Hillman Hughes?

-Good luck in Baltimore, baby!
-[Xavier laughs]

♪ It's a different world ♪

♪ Than where you come from ♪

♪ It's a different world ♪

♪ Than where you come from ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ It's a different world ♪

♪ Than where you come from ♪

♪ Oh ♪

-[wind whistling]
-[Rashida] Ooh! Ooh! Ooh! Hurry up!

-[Rashida shrieking]
-[Hazel coughs] Ooh.

-Okay.
-[Rashida sighs]

They should have been paying me
for the way I was cheering.

I didn't even know
I mess with basketball like that.

-But…
-[laughs]

You know what, baby Haze?
I did have my doubts when you convinced us

to do spring break on campus
instead of going to Myrtle Beach.

But, I mean,
could you imagine in this weather?

-[Hazel] Mm.
-We have the whole dorm to ourselves.

Except we keep running
into that Judas Amir everywhere we go.

I still can't believe
he tried to break up me and Jalen

just because he wanted my man.

-Oh, baby. Come here.
-Oh, baby Haze.

-[Hazel] Okay.
-We understand you upset.

Yes, but do you really think he lied?

-It's Amir.
-[Hazel] Uh, I'm sure.

That's not Jalen. Period.

-She said "period." I mean…
-So can we please get off of this?

Deborah, I know that messy
is your comfort zone.

-[Rashida laughs]
-But my situation is pretty clear.

Whoa, ow. Excuse me, boo.

Candace actually helped me realize
that I should leave the past in the past.

And things with Ellington
are actually really good.

Yeah, he's mature, and he's a gentleman.

-[Rashida] Uh--
-And he's fine as hell.

-Okay, girl.
-That's peppermint, chamomile, and oolong.

All tea. [laughs loudly]

-[thunder crashes]
-Ooh. Uh-uh.

Okay, so maybe we should all go upstairs
and get changed

and then come back down here.

♪ Because I know the perfect thing ♪

♪ For us to do
On a spooky night like this ♪

-Ooh, a séance.
-Bible study!

-[wind whistling loudly]
-[Kojo] Ooh! Whoo!

-You man ever seen the sky that color?
-[Amir] No.

It's giving rapture.
All that's missing is the trumpets.

Hey, look, all I know
is that crossover was so nasty,

that boy ankles still on the court. Whoo!

You should be watching your ankles

the way Deborah
was swerving you at that game.

-[Kojo] Mm!
-Hey, nah.

Hey, and while you talkin',

I saw the way Hazel
was throwing shade at you today.

You know she got Jesus on the main line.
Thoughts and prayers.

-That's not funny.
-[Shaquille] It is.

Look, me and Rashida
been going smooth for a few weeks now,

and I'mma keep it there.

-Now, if you're asking for my advice--
-[Amir] No, thank you.

-I swear we didn't.
-We're not. Mm-mm.

Well, look, this new semester
was giving messy boots,

and I think that we could all use
a little guidance from the ancestors.

[in Yoruba] Ashé.

I mean, you have your Amir drama,

and I have
my complicated feelings with Kojo.

-[thunder crashes]
-And Andre.

Meanwhile, I just hard-launched
an entire relationship

just to watch it crumble.

Okay, I do kinda wanna know
if I'm gonna be the next Miss Hillman.

-[Rashida sighs]
-[Deborah] Okay.

-Copy that.
-Ashy.

Set an intention, ashy…

-[both laugh]
-…and pick a card.

-Okay.
-[Rashida chuckles]

[rain pattering]

[Deborah] Mm. Damn. The Moon.

Yeah, so when it's upside down like this,

it usually signifies hidden agendas,

secrets, deceit.

All the shady stuff
that eats at the trust.

That's disconcerting, but, I mean,
it tracks with Amir's lying a*s.

[Deborah] Okay, Rashida, you're up next.

[card sliding]

[thunder rumbling]

-[wind whistling]
-Okay.

The Five of Baskets. That is… regret.

Mourning things that have been lost.

Does any of that
resonate with you, Rashida?

-[thunder rumbling]
-Uh-- Uh, no. [scoffs]

Nah.

-[Deborah] And then me.
-[thunder crashes]

[Rashida] The Lovers?

Stop playing.
We know you planted that there.

-[Hazel] What does it mean?
-[Deborah] Temptation.

And a choice between… two partners.

-[wind whistling]
-[thunder crashes]

[Rashida] Mm-mm.

Uno?

-Yeah, that sounds great.
-Y'all don't wanna see me play Uno.

[Amir laughing]

I'm just saying, bruv,

it's not my fault these American girls
don't respect all this bad man. [chuckles]

Back home, I pull bare gyal. Trust.

I'm sure you pull hard
with your li'l tea set.

This is a perfect night for a cuppa.

Look, I love a peen measuring contest,
but y'all are silly.

I've gotten more play
than either one of y'all this year.

Marquise, Jalen, and a couple of randos
in the gym locker room.

-Ugh, that can't be sanitary, mate.
-Yeah.

I keeps it clean.

I-- I'm happy you getting it in, Amir.

I-- I really am, but you don't count.
Disqualified, actually.

-Eh?
-[Shaquille] What? Dudes are hella nasty.

-[Kojo] Mm.
-Women? Pfft. Way tough.

It ain't no way either one of y'all
have it harder than me.

Look, y'all wanna talk about it?
Let's talk numbers then.

On the count of three,
we reveal our body counts.

-Let's do it.
-[Amir] Okay.

-Does head count as a body?
-[Amir and Shaquille] No.

What about when she's like--

-Straight smashing.
-Straight smashing. Right to it.

[Shaquille] Ready?

-[Kojo] Yeah.
-One, two…

-[thunder crashes]
-Oh!

-Oh, hell nah.
-Hell no.

-[wind whistling]
-[Hazel] Oh. Oh.

-Oh, how bad is it out there, roomie?
-[girl] Ugh.

-Y'all seen the movie Twisters?
-[Hazel] Uh…

Don't go out there
unless y'all trying to be in the sequel.

Oh.

-[Rashida] I'm gonna die. I'm gonna die.
-[Deborah] Mm.

Yo, HBCU UP is saying
tornado watch until morning.

Nah! Give me earthquake any day.
We don't do tornadoes in L.A.

Nothing to worry about, sis.

We get tornado warnings like this
all the time in Elgin.

We'll just sleep in the bathtub.

Wait, there is no bathtub
for us to sleep in.

-[Deborah groans]
-Hey, we need shelter!

-[Amir] Hey!
-[Hazel] Uh-uh. Not in here.

A tornado will swoop
this little body right up.

Yeah, and Gilbert's been renovated,
retrofitted, and it's got a basement.

Mm, if you're really that scared,
you can go anywhere else on campus.

Hey, hey, hey. Come on, Hazel.
Everything else is closed.

Huh, too freaking bad.
This is an f-boy-free zone.

-Y'all gotta go.
-[Kojo] F-boy?

-I'm not going out there--
-You especially--

-[Rashida screams]
-Lord have mercy.

Who dies first if we're all Black?

[thunder crashes]

-[woman speaking indistinctly over phone]
-Mm-hm. Right. 'Cause that's what I said.

-[woman speaking indistinctly over phone]
-You know I don't play. [scoffs] Right.

-[thunder crashes]
-Ooh!

Girl, this 'nado ain't about
to get Boo Boo, I can promise you that.

I wasn't even supposed to work.

-[woman speaking indistinctly over phone]
-Uh-uh.

[Hazel] Ooh, I have one.

Never have I ever

lied to my best friend's face
because I wanted their man.

[Amir] Mm.

-[Deborah] Mm-mm.
-I'm not a monster.

Mm, never have I ever ignored the fact
that my man was a h*m* on the low-low

and cheated on me
with one of the finest men at Hillman.

-[Rashida scoffs]
-Please, honey. You're not even top 50.

-Well, that's not what he thought.
-Oh, okay.

-Uh-uh. Okay--
-Hey, hey.

-He said what he said.
-[Deborah] Okay, okay.

Never have I ever

let my friendships suffer
because I was too proud to talk about it.

I'm gonna need you
to put all them fingers down

and finish the rest of this bottle,
'cause that's a damn lie.

[rain pattering]

[Rashida groans]

All right, game over.

Time to make the most of this chaos.
Let's… Let's have a tornado turn-up.

-A what now?
-[Deborah] We'll divide and conquer.

We'll grab some supplies and stuff
and handle our business while we're at it.

No more beefing.

Okay? So Rashida, Kojo, The Pit.

Please just go grab some snacks.

You two, the basement.

Check the circuit breaker.

Try to get the power back on, please.

And you, you're with me.

We'll grab some candles
and way more drink.

-Deal?
-A'ight, whatever.

[Hazel] All I know is you better
stay ten feet away.

[Kojo] Why you gotta do that?

-You see that there's a problem?
-[Hazel] He's a liar!

[rain pattering]

-[Deborah sighs]
-[Shaquille kisses teeth]

-[Deborah] Look…
-[drawer opens]

…you clearly have something
you need to get off your chest.

Man, look, I know you feel
some type of way about how I reacted

when you told me about you and ol' boy.

I probably deserve a little bit of it,

but I need you to keep it
a hundred with me.

-[rain pattering]
-[thunder rumbling]

Are you and Ellington together?

[thunder crashing]

I saw y'all kissing at the talent show.

[wind whistling]

[inhales]

Look, you know I would never
play in your face like that.

Just things were messy between us.

And… [sighs]

…I think that it is about time…

we tried to move on.

I am

really trying to.

[thunder crashing]

Well, I guess it's time for me
to move on too, then.

[sighs] Look, we…

We gave it our best shot.

I mean, we didn't even really talk about

what happened last spring
at the warehouse.

-[thunder crashes]
-[drawer opens]

Well, maybe we should talk about it.

[tender music playing]

[Rashida] Whoo! [shrieking]

-[Rashida] Whoo!
-[Kojo] Whoo!

-[Rashida] Oh.
-[clattering]

-[Rashida] Oh!
-[clattering]

-[Rashida] Oh. Oh.
-[Kojo laughing]

I cannot believe Deborah convinced us
to leave the damn building.

-What a ride!
-Oh.

-Whoo! [exhales]
-A reckless ride.

Uh, you think, uh,
your girl Nneka would be cool

with you showing
your n*pples out like that?

Just saying.

And I'm just saying that's not my girl.

And she has no nipple jurisdiction.

And speaking of, what about your man?

How would he feel about you waiting out
the storm with someone you used to lips?

[scoffs]

Andre and I haven't spoken since

Club Insomnia.

I don't know what "lips" means.

Well, that settles it.
No entanglements for either of us.

-[thunder crashes]
-[Rashida gasping]

[tender music playing]

[Rashida exhales]

Uh, it's so funny.

Back in L.A.…

[music continues]

…storms were really rare,

and my brothers and I, we would

build pillow forts to keep us safe.

We were a trip.

[music fades]

[door creaking]

Look, I'd be pissed at me too
if I were you,

but to only be pissed at me and not Jalen
is crazy work.

Why would I be pissed with Jalen?

You're lying. Jalen is a real man.

[wind whistling]

What the hell did you just say?

I just mean that Jalen is a good,
God-fearing man.

Oh, that explains why he was crying out
to God the entire time we were together.

F you, Amir.
That's seriously so messed up.

How could you say something like that?
You're supposed to be my friend.

And you're supposed to be mine.
But now I know how you feel about me.

Not a good look, girl.

[rattling]

-What was that?
-I don't care.

I just wanna find the breaker
and me be on my way and you be on yours.

[metallic creaking]

Hey, um, Hazel,

we don't think it's haunted
down here, right? [chuckles nervously]

'Cause I don't do ghosts.

[Deborah] Do you have any idea
what a living hell that night was for me?

I felt so abandoned by you, Shaquille.

And I was up all night worried about you.

It was the worst possible ending
to a night that started out…

amazing.

The night I lost my virginity to you?

[mellow music playing]

I wasn't sure if it meant
the same thing to you as it…

[thunder rumbling]

…did to me.

No, no, no, no.
Look-- Look at me, Deborah.

It meant everything to me.

You know, I was so proud afterwards.

Pulling up to the party
with you on my arm.

Meeting all your friends.

[kisses teeth]

You wearing my big old
Cass Tech Football hoodie.

Oh, that hoodie was so comfy.

[laughing]

[music continues]

I tried to stop it.

Birdie, you know that wasn't your fault
what happened, right?

You ain't tell them to get drunk
and let off fireworks in the warehouse, D.

It's not your fault.

-You gotta let that go, okay?
-I guess.

What?

[tearfully] I didn't hear
from you afterward.

[music continues]

[rain pattering]

I felt like an idiot.

No, D.

Look, you gotta understand what happened.

My pops went off on me
the whole flight back to Detroit

after everything went down.

Look at me.
I promise, he shut it all down.

I'm talking about he took my phone,
my laptop, my credit cards.

He even took my passport.

-I didn't know.
-Yeah, I know.

I straight thought
you would never talk to me again.

[inhales]

Why is it so hard for us
to communicate? [laughs]

[thunder rumbling]

There's been so many
misunderstandings between us.

[inhales, sighs]

Well, let me start
by clearing this one up.

[Deborah] Hm?

Ellington took credit for those flowers
I left you after the talent show.

[Deborah] Uh…

Those flowers were from you.

[thunder crashing]

Hot Pockets, Bagel Bites…

There's also this high-protein Hot Pocket.

I don't know
how we feel about that one, but…

[gasps] Kojo, what is this?

I thought it could keep us protected
from the storm.

-[tender music playing]
-[Rashida exhales, laughing]

[Kojo] Mm.

[Kojo] Mm. [chuckling]

[Rashida exhales]

Shall we, Princess?

-[Rashida laughing]
-Your pillow fort… awaits.

[both laughing]

[thunder crashing]

[metallic creaking]

[metal clanging]

Here, Hazel, Hazel, Hazel.

[metallic creaking]

Oh sh*t, sh*t, sh*t.

-[crashing]
-Oh my…

[both scream]

-[Amir sighs]
-What the heck, Amir?

Oh!

[both sigh]

Where'd she…

[wind whistling]

[creaking]

What in the Illuminati
is going on down here?

Oh. I've been wanting
to see this place since I got here.

[exhales] Our founder,
Josiah Hillman, was an abolitionist.

This was a spot
on the Underground Railroad.

Harriet Tubman hid enslaved people
in this very room.

-[clattering]
-[metallic creaking]

Wait, chains?

Let me find out your dorm
is haunted by Harriet Araminta Tubman.

Would you let Harriet rest?

[scoffs] Some ancestors never rest
as long as they kinfolk need guidance.

[wind whistling]

Do you really believe
our ancestors are trying to guide us?

You know how nosy aunties be?

Ancestors probably like that
times infinity.

-[metallic clattering]
-[water dripping]

Why you going towards the ghost, crazy?
It ain't the Holy One.

[Officer Boo Boo sighs] Well, I swear,

y'all got me wet
out here looking for y'all.

-[rain pattering]
-[breathing heavily] You know what?

What the hell are y'all doing in the yard
butt naked in a 'nado storm?

-[thunder rumbling]
-[Officer Boo Boo] Huh?

-Ever been struck by lightning?
-[Xavier] Mm-mm.

Trust and believe
y'all don't wanna be naked.

[both] Sorry, Ms. Boo Boo.

-[rain pattering]
-[thunder rumbling]

Maybe, um…

Maybe breaking up was a mistake?

All I ever wanted was you.

[Deborah chuckles]

Ever since our Wayne-Johnson family trip
to Tokyo Disneyland.

-You got on my last nerve that trip.
-[chuckles] Yeah.

-Like, it's humid, my guy.
-[Shaquille chuckling]

Leave me alone.

-Sheesh. [chuckles]
-I couldn't.

[both laughing]

[thunder rumbling]

You know…

Yeah?

I, um…

I haven't been with anybody else
since that night.

["Love Language" by Alonda Rich playing]

What about you?

Deborah Wayne…

you were then…

and you are now…

the only one for me.

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ We should spend some time
With our clothes off ♪

♪ Don't you close the blinds
Let the neighbors talk ♪

♪ We can do whatever you want ♪

♪ Promise that you'll be
The only one I call ♪

♪ I just want your hands
Want your hands on my body ♪

-♪ What you want? ♪
-♪ My body, your body, all night ♪

♪ Baby, use your hands
Use your hands to communicate ♪

♪ My love language ♪

♪ Ah ♪

♪ You pick the time ♪

♪ And then you'll pick the place ♪

[song fades]

I never really dated outside of Abiolas
and Adammas and Femis.

You know what I mean?

Oh, so no Keishas or Moniques, huh?

-Seriously.
-[both laughing]

What about you?

-I mean, who did you date in high school?
-[scoffs] Please.

[sighs] With my strict parents,

the only person I was dating
was in my imagination.

[laughs]

-But in that imagination though…
-[Kojo chuckles]

…I was a h*.

[both laughing]

-[thunder rumbling]
-[Kojo chuckles]

[rain pattering]

[kisses teeth, inhales]

You know, I never stopped
beating myself up

that I made you feel any sort of pressure.

I hate that I made you feel uncomfortable
in any sort of way.

-'Cause the truth is that--
-Nah, I was just overwhelmed.

And it was a lot.

And, I mean, moving so far away from home,

and my tuition, and working,
and not letting my--

Rashida, please stop.

-Okay? Um…
-[thunder rumbling]

[Kojo inhales, sighs]

Look, um…

[wind whistling]

[thunder rumbling]

I'm a virgin.

[tender music playing]

Wait, what?

[Rashida exhales]

[exhales] It took me weeks

to even gain the strength to tell you,

and you could have
just told me this whole time?

I mean, you had me out here
in these streets looking crazy.

Bare my soul?

All up in my head
about trying not to let you down.

-And this whole time you were--
-I'm sorry.

I was embarrassed I hadn't been there yet.

And I didn't want you to find out because…

I don't know,
I thought you might think I'm a chump.

[kisses teeth]

[music continues]

I was just thinking,

you know, what it might be like
if we were each other's firsts.

Well,

what if I told you that

I was ready tonight?

["NIGHT OFF"
by Isaiah Falls & Sasha Keable playing]

What?

Are you sure?

Yeah.

♪ Baby, take a night off ♪

♪ Run your bathwater ♪

♪ Put ya body butter on ♪

♪ You deserve peace ♪

♪ Flowers at your feet ♪

-♪ Tend to your needs ♪
-♪ I'mma need you to ♪

-♪ Whatever ya need ♪
-♪ Baby, take it slow, baby ♪

♪ Uh-uh ♪

[both laughing]

♪ Run your bathwater ♪

♪ Baby, take it slow, baby ♪

[Rashida laughing]

♪ Run your bathwater, run your-- ♪

[knocking on door]

[Officer Boo Boo] What the hell
y'all doing in there?

This better not be one of them sex forts

I heard about on TikTok.
I see y'all. [knocking on door]

-We're coming. Sorry.
-We were just getting food.

[metallic clanging]

Oh, we actually found it.
Thank you, Harriet.

[metallic creaking]

Or it was just that old pipe
making all that noise in the corner.

You don't know everything
about everything, Amir.

Look,

I deserve all the attitude you're servin'.

I'm really sorry, Hazel.

I was so broken and lonely

that the second some dude
showed me affection,

I forgot everything
that was important to me,

and I hurt the one person
I've been closest to all year.

-[wind whistling]
-[rain pattering]

Part of me knew
you were telling the truth,

but I couldn't handle it
because of what it meant.

[soft music playing]

My best friend betrayed me,
and my boyfriend cheated on me?

He never even said anything
about being into guys.

Do you think he even actually liked me?
Am I really that naive?

[soft music continues]

I appreciate you telling me,

but it still hurts.

And you're not broken, Amir.

You made a mistake

because he took advantage
of your friendship,

like he took advantage of my love.

You deserved so much better
than him or me.

[Hazel sighs]

[Hazel] I have no idea
what I'm looking at.

-[Amir] Girl, same.
-I-- Uh-- Um…

-[rain pattering]
-[sighs]

[thunder rumbling]

I'm in love with you. [exhales]

I'm in love with you too, birdie.

[both chuckle]

Hey.

I wanna be with you.

But if we move forward…

we have got to do this the right way.

Okay, no more dishonesty,

no more miscommunications.

I have something I need to tell you--

[thunder rumbling]

[Deborah exhales]

[mellow music playing]

He does have a nice smile.

-Yeah.
-Mm-hm.

-Delete it. Delete that one.
-Can-- Okay.

-Okay.
-Get rid of it.

-[phone buzzing]
-Okay, okay.

Wait, bunny?

Is that what you call Jalen 'cause
y'all be messing around like rabbits?

[Hazel scoffs]

So do you think he's, like, g*y or pan?

Who knows?

I mean, for all we know
dude was just experimenting

and realized that it wasn't for him.

It's not like he's hit me up
since it happened, so…

Look, when I was coming up,
my pops ran my block,

and I got mad respect
with the dudes I ran with because of it.

When everyone did finally find out
that I was into guys,

I'm not gonna lie,
a lot of sh*t changed for me.

Maybe Jalen is feeling
some of that pressure too.

[thunder rumbling]

Hey, I'm sorry for those things
I said earlier, that real man stuff. I--

I didn't mean it. I just…
I was really trying to hurt you.

But that's not God's love.

I love you, Amir.

I love you too, Hazel.

Bunny isn't Jalen.

He's my boyfriend Roger
from back in Elgin.

-Like, your ex-boyfriend?
-[wind whistling]

We grew up in the church together,
and he was a really good guy,

but so perfect in a way that made me feel
like I could never step out of line, and…

The thing is,
we kind of never really broke up.

Girl, what?

-[door opens]
-[indistinct chattering]

-Oh.
-[Rashida speaking indistinctly]

-[Hazel] What'd you find?
-[door closes]

-[Rashida] Snacks.
-Snacks.

-Ooh.
-We got some good ones too.

-[Hazel] Uh-huh.
-[Kojo] Mm-hm.

-Ooh, what did you get?
-I have my speaker.

♪ Ain't no such thing as too far ♪

♪ It can all be forgiven ♪

Oh. Oh. Ah!

♪ I don't love with conditions… ♪

[all speaking indistinctly]

[all] Yeah!

-[laughter]
-[all] Whoa!

[all speaking indistinctly]

[all speaking indistinctly]

[all speaking indistinctly]

♪ …to come home ♪

[music fades]

[laughing]

-[wind whistling]
-[thunder crashing]

[sniffling]

[tender music playing]

[sighs, sniffling]

[sniffling]

-[Rashida sighs]
-Ooh.

Hey.

-What's wrong? Look, we're safe now.
-[Rashida crying]

-The tornado warning's over.
-[Rashida sighs]

-Why are you crying?
-[Rashida inhales]

Because the tarot cards were right.

I did lose something.

I regret it.

-I regret it so much.
-Hey.

It's okay.

-[Rashida crying]
-It's okay.

After Club Insomnia…

[sniffles] …Andre and I
went back to campus.

-Mm-hm.
-And…

I lost my virginity to him.

[soft music playing]

Uh… Andre?

Andre was there, and he was comforting.

-And it just felt right.
-Mm-hm. Mm-hm.

But ever since, I've been avoiding Andre.

I just wish I'd waited for Kojo.

Oh, it's okay.

-[Rashida crying]
-It's okay. It's okay.

You… Huh.

You do not owe anybody perfection.

-[Rashida sniffling]
-[Deborah chuckles]

I mean, look at me.

I spent the last, what, ten months

regretting losing my virginity
to Shaquille.

[Rashida sighs]

Being scared to take the plunge with him
for fear that, you know, I get hurt again.

My point is, regret is not worth it.

-I'm just so tired.
-Oh. I know.

-And I'm overstimmied.
-[Deborah laughing]

-And I just wanna go to sleep.
-Yeah.

But my brain, it just won't shut up.

You know, Candace keeps, like, magnesium,

melatonin gummies, sleepy-time tea
in a room for all the Gilbert girlies.

I could go cop some for you.

-That'd be great.
-Mm-hm.

Wait, but isn't she in NOLA for the week?

Mm, the keypad door locks
are so messed up from the storm,

so her room should be open.

-Okay. But don't get in trouble, please.
-Okay. It's gonna be okay. I got you.

-[Rashida sighs]
-[door closes]

[thunder rumbling]

[mellow music playing]

Yes.

Ah.

Thank you, Candace.

[chuckles]

[music fades]

["Doesn't Just Happen"
by James Blake ft. Dave playing]

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

[Shaquille] Pulling up to the party
with you on my arm.

You wearing my big old
Cass Tech Football hoodie.

[Deborah] Candace helped me realize
that I should leave the past in the past.

How do you know my RA?

[Shaquille] Who, Candace?

We bump into each other
at the gym from time to time, but…

[Deborah] Thing is, I was dating--

[Candace] Shaquille Johnson.
Not a secret, babe.

Remember that what's behind you
is behind you for a reason.

Trust me.

♪ Falling in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

[sniffles angrily]

[thunder crashing]

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Falling in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Staying in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Falling in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Staying in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Reaching above ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Staying in love ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ And everything good ♪

♪ And everything good ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

♪ Doesn't just happen ♪

[song fades]