Love as Much as Pain (2019)

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Many indigenous Filipinos

still live in the mountains.

They live too far away

from medical knowledge.

Hi.

Hello.

Are you sick?

No.

No, it's okay?

Good.

This medical missionary

team visits regularly.

The villagers line up

to get a check-up.

I'll give you the medicine.

Just three times a day.

Since they can't

go the hospital

they are thankful for

the team's visits.

Where is Dr. Park?

Dr. Park died.

In August, three months ago.

He had cancer.

My kids had tumors,

so they had surgery.

Really?

3cc, three times a day.

Five days to one week.

Why don't I see Dr. Park?

Dr. Park died.

On August 26th.

He cured my son's boil.

There was a big one here.

I miss him.

No one else took care of

my children like him.

Even when it was late,

we welcomed Dr. Park.

He was a wonderful person.

We didn't understand each other,

but he was nice to everyone.

He died?

He was so kind.

He's not here anymore,

but he helped me.

I'm too heartbroken

to anything else.

I think God sent him to us.

He built this church for us.

I feel the presence of

God and Dr. Park.

I'm sad to think

that he's gone.

I didn't know

he was so sick.

He gave us this church

and everything we need.

I stopped coming here

since I found out he died.

He was like a father to me.

He was so kind.

Dr. Park.

At the news of his death

these villagers started to sob.

Don't you pity them?

Medical missionary Park Nu-ga

traveled all over the Philippines

to help those in need.

He cared for patients while

fighting cancer himself.

Mt. Pinatubo is an active volcano.

Its eruption k*lled

about 800 people

and destroyed

200,000 acres of farmland.

Life goes on even in

this harsh environment.

This is Mt. Pinatubo.

It's the volcanic ash from

the eruption in May, 1991.

He has been coming here

regularly since 1996.

The Aeta people lost their

mountain homes in the eruption.

Are you sick?

Sometimes, I bleed.

Let's go.

He stops to check

the pregnant woman's health.

I'll give her some

vitamins and bread.

One box of vitamins.

This should be enough.

As a volunteer, he spends

his own money to buy bread.

These are multivitamins.

It won't cause problems

for the baby or your kids.

Two times a day.

Everyone can take it.

Babies should take only one.

- What's your name, sir?

- I'm Dr. Park.

His tires are stuck in the water

containing volcanic ash.

No matter how hard they push,

the car won't budge.

The villagers couldn't help him.

The signal is weak.

Hello?

He can't even contact anyone.

This situation is

making me laugh.

I can't help but laugh.

Now that he feels better,

he's hungry.

Don't do that.

You're spilling it.

Stop spilling it.

Why are you squishing it?

Stop squishing it.

Let's eat together.

The kids' father shares

a stew of meat and herbs.

Is it tasty?

It's good.

- It's tasty.

- Yes.

Dr. Park is used to enjoying

meals with local people.

- How does it taste?

- Excellent.

- Is it filling?

- I was hungry.

Worry about yourselves.

I won't be hungry again

for a few hours.

Thank you.

It was delicious.

He will do volunteer work

until help arrives.

This is the day that

the Lord has made

I will rejoice

and be glad in it

Rejoice in the Lord

This is the day that

the Lord has made

Amen!

He started out with a single

backpack 30 years ago.

He visited doctorless villages

to save people's lives.

He didn't know his own

health was deteriorating.

Is that a scar from surgery?

Yes, for stomach cancer.

I had to drain

stomach fluid, too.

I'll just put on my shirt.

Your questions are

making me shy.

They've reached

the Haduan village.

He's the only doctor around,

so the villagers line up.

They mostly have skin

diseases, colds and asthma.

Many people catch colds

in the mountains.

It's hard to recover

due to the lack of food.

It's malnutrition.

He brought all this

medicine from Korea.

2cc per day,

two times a day.

It wouldn't be so serious

if they had these ointments.

Without Dr. Park, they could

never care for their own health.

His asthma might be

dangerous this year.

Dr. Park's hospital is

in the outskirts of Manila.

His employee Lafi takes

care of the facilities.

He tiredly walks back after

a day of volunteer work.

He takes care of poor

people of the city, too.

His home is a bed

in the corner.

Every day is night duty.

If the bell rings in

the middle of the night

I have to let them in.

The hospital opened in 2010

in this old building.

I can only make bean paste stew

and kimchi stew.

The more ingredients,

the better it tastes.

And if you make

it with love...

For a guy,

I make a decent dish.

His cooking improved while

being apart from family.

20 years hasn't changed

his food preferences.

I brought this bean

paste from Korea.

I can feel my

mother-in-law's love.

And my older sister

always takes care of me.

She sends me a lot of stuff.

He won't go to a hospital

but wants to fly here?

He's been sick for a week.

Are you well?

All right, I hope you

survive the cold weather.

Okay.

I'm from Gyeongsang province.

'It's me.'

'Did you eat?'

'And the kids?'

'Good night.'

That's about all I say.

He always had nice skin.

I wish his looks won't change.

He already changed a bit.

I think my wife is

prettier now.

His wife and two sons went

back to Korea for education.

His hospital is always open to

those who can't afford doctors.

Every day,

one time like that.

I'll give you

three days' medicine.

That's all.

No other problems.

Mama, I can't do this.

The bad environment causes

boils and skin problems.

- Okay, finished.

- Very good.

Very pretty.

You should thank him.

- Say 'thank you'.

- Thank you, Doctor.

Don't forget to

apply medicine.

Treatment is free

for the locals.

Ouch.

This actually hurts.

It hurts to stab yourself.

He developed diabetes

while doing volunteer work.

It's higher than I thought.

361 is a shocking number.

The lack of drinkable water

made him drink soft drinks.

Hard work and stress

also caused liver cirrhosis.

This is for my liver.

This is diabetes medicine.

A lot of Koreans take it.

I want to be where

people need me.

That's where I want

to keep working.

What would someone

like me do in Korea?

I wouldn't make a difference.

But in doctorless villages

I can save a life

with every action.

He was the hope of a poor

family with eight children.

In 1989, he visited a doctorless

village in the Philippines

and chose a life of volunteer work

instead of riches or fame.

My plan was to escape

after one or two years.

But after almost thirty years,

I'm more comfortable here.

His hospital is still here.

It was renovated to

be bigger and nicer

and now has a nurse.

Is it a sharp pain or

a twisting stomach pain?

It's a twisting pain.

Do you eat on time?

- No skipping meals?

- No.

Dr. Park isn't here anymore.

- No pain?

- No.

- Did you do a blood test?

- Not yet.

He left the hospital to

his wife's niece, Ju-hee.

He prepared everything

before he died.

Even things I never

would have considered.

To his dying day, he worried

about poor, sick Filipinos.

Whenever I saw him, he was

planning medical missions.

Dr. Park already had

a medical condition.

But he could still

do medical missions.

What about me?

I'm perfectly healthy.

That for me is

inspiring enough.

To be able to help others

even though he himself is sick.

I really want to be a part

of the medical missions.

Ms. Kim and I went there

just for half a day.

We were able to

help some people.

It would be my pleasure

to continue Dr. Park's work.

He was an ever-burning candle

of hope to these people.

He made the most of

his short, precious life.

It's working.

He wanted to reach those

without access to medicine.

So, he learned to drive a bus.

In 2005, he bought a used bus

and converted it for that purpose.

He drove this medical bus

to over 50 villages.

It's more comfortable

than a normal car.

But it doesn't go very fast.

With this mobile hospital,

he saved even more lives.

It was his most

valued possession.

Montalban is one of

the four landfill towns.

9,000 impoverished households

were forced to move here.

They pick up trash to survive,

so they can't afford hospitals.

The medical bus is

a lifesaver to them.

Lie down.

Even at first glance,

it looks serious.

It's a good thing

he's a surgeon.

I checked what's inside.

It's not cancer, so

surgery should work.

Meanwhile, the village hall

also becomes a clinic.

These kids are checking

people's temperatures.

Local Koreans often help

him with volunteer work.

His hospital can't afford

to hire a nurse.

Doctor, my swelling

won't go down.

You have to apply

the appointment.

They get their blood pressure

and temperatures checked.

Then, I'm given the results.

I base my treatments and

prescriptions on that.

Make sure you explain

the directions well.

The Koreans here volunteer

their food and time.

I get a lot of help.

I couldn't do this on my own.

Are we leaving?

Something is wrong

with the bus.

Is it broken?

It says I'm out of

brake oil.

That's what this

symbol means.

This old bus breaks

down quite often.

The engine keeps shutting off.

Just like the last time

I got it repaired.

It keeps going

and then stopping.

Once again, he's stuck

in the middle of the road.

He needs a lot of luck

to get the bus to start.

This bus is 12 years old.

My car is 15, 16 years old.

They're weak, just like me.

Like owner like vehicle.

We were made for each other.

The bus, the car

and the driver.

In this bus, he traveled

to Manila, Luzon, Cebu...

Even Mindanao, where b*ll*ts fly

because of Islamic rebel groups.

Typhoid, cholera, dysentery,

dengue, pancreatitis, hepatitis...

He's faced death from

such diseases many times.

But one day, he felt

a strange stomach pain.

It was stomach cancer.

In 2004, he was given

six months to live.

He begged God to

give him more time.

The poor prognosis was due to

his liver and diabetes.

His weight dropped to the 30s.

He was just skin and bones.

I knew about his situation.

That's why everyone says

it's a miracle he lived.

He was so skinny that

I didn't recognize him.

But he managed to

come back here.

I think he still had

a mission in this world.

So, I told him to keep going.

Doctor Park wasn't

going to stop his mission.

The creator didn't

want to take him yet.

One year after cancer surgery,

he returned to this place.

Patients who were waiting

for him all line up.

A small illness may develop

into something dangerous.

No matter how far away,

he makes regular visits.

Oh, you were in an accident.

It was broken.

It was a motorcycle accident.

- How long ago was the accident?

- Nine months.

The surgery cost 30 thousand pesos

and then 40 thousand pesos.

After two surgeries,

we have no money left.

Even after two surgeries,

he's in bad shape.

It's still broken.

They didn't do

a proper surgery.

Does it hurt?

This will hurt just

a little, okay?

Okay, finished.

It doesn't hurt anymore, right?

Which hospital did you go to?

They did a very bad job.

Look at this bone.

Pieces of bone were

pressing against his skin.

This is also bone.

That's why it hurts.

Do you understand?

It looks like a knife.

The bones press the skin,

so it's very painful.

Those b*stards.

What kind of surgery was this?

I can't help but swear.

They've made a mess...

There's no staff

to help with the surgery.

It's hard to remove the bones

lodged into the skin.

- Is it almost over?

- He's working on it.

He's fixing the mistakes

the last hospital made.

He removed the bones and

treated the infection.

It took over two hours.

Okay, God bless you.

We're finished.

- Thank you very much.

- You're welcome.

The patient's expression

is a lot brighter.

It wasn't an easy surgery.

But he doesn't

look happy at all.

The couple goes home smiling.

But Dr. Park is angry that

he suffered in the first place.

His heart breaks at the state of

medicine in the Philippines.

I've been sick, so

I know their pain.

That's why I want to

reach out to them.

When I was sick,

everything felt bothersome.

So, I want to love others

as much as I suffered.

The more suffering I have,

the more love I will give.

I thank thee for

granting me more time.

I will be the salt of the earth

and the light of the world.

Please turn my suffering

into love for others.

Let my feet become lighter

so I can meet more people.

He is fulfilling his promise to God

by loving and healing patients.

The endless medical missions

make him exhausted.

His diabetes and an 80% removed

stomach make matters worse.

I'm feeling some nausea.

I'm out of energy.

Recently, he has trouble

sleeping at night.

He's trying to stop himself

from falling asleep.

He sings everything from

old pop songs to hymns.

I buy from people who start

work early in the morning.

Oh, it's Gina.

It's his go-to

corn stand.

Gina!

Hello, how are you?

Merry Christmas.

Today, it's expensive.

It's four pesos each.

Why did the price increase?

Not a lot of corn today.

They're roasted over a real fire.

That's what makes it delicious.

It's the real thing.

- Have a nice day. God bless you.

- You too, thank you.

You should text me

if you're going to drop by.

That's why the corn

isn't that good today.

Okay.

It's small, so

it's not very filling.

The important thing is to enjoy

missions and volunteer work.

A lot of people fizzle out

after a few months.

If you want to do it for years,

you should enjoy it.

Think of it as

going on a trip.

That's the trick.

The good people he meets

and the beautiful scenery.

That's what drives him.

Look at this vast landscape.

Five years have passed.

He's still heading to

remote villages.

He's now accompanied by a nurse.

He can't do mission work

alone anymore.

After 12 years,

his cancer is back.

- Edward!

- Sir.

Where are you going?

Somewhere nearby?

- I'm delivering this.

- When will you arrive in Calapi?

In two hours?

Ma'am.

- God bless you.

- We'll give you a ride.

No, we're walking.

- You're not going far?

- No, thank you.

Have a good day.

- Are you okay, Dr. Park?

- He's doing chemo.

- Is it working?

- So-so.

The villagers are worried

about his health.

Dr. Park, get well.

May God bless you.

Are you okay?

You're breathing heavily.

My stomach is bloated.

It's no good.

It might be fluid.

This started last week,

so I'm slightly worried.

Stomach fluid is bad news.

Maybe walking will

make it go away.

Let's head on.

Dr. Park puts on

a brave face.

Hello.

How have you been?

Your blood pressure

might be high.

It's 180.

Over 150 is very high.

- Is there enough?

- Yes.

I'll give you medicine for one month

and give you more next time.

Take it every day.

- One tablet?

- Yes, one tablet.

It's ripe.

Let's eat it here.

That's the stuff.

It's tasty.

This brings us together, so

it's worth more than money.

It's a token of thanks,

and it quenches our thirst.

Thank you.

Don't forget your medicine.

See you next month.

A papaya from a villager is

all he needs to be happy.

Get a check-up!

Medical check-up!

40 households live here.

Medical check-up!

Are you sick?

Merry Christmas!

Here, merry Christmas.

A remote village

far from civilization.

This is where

the Aeta people live.

Give her cold medicine

and some vitamins.

Three times a day.

Just 2cc, okay?

It's easy to catch colds

in the mountains.

Before Dr. Park started visiting,

some even died from colds.

No life is perfect.

I have some regrets, too.

But I don't regret

doing what I do.

I enjoyed it.

It's brought me

joy and happiness.

It's like catching up

on homework.

I can't quit half-way through

just because I'm tired.

Doing volunteer work

gives him strength.

The breeze feels nice.

He's feeling many

emotions right now.

I know I can't keep

doing this forever.

I'm thinking about starting

to make preparations.

Will I see that boulder again?

Will I see that tree again?

Will I visit that house again?

I have these thoughts...

Even though this scenery

is familiar to me

I have a new viewpoint now.

Sometimes, he sleeps

in the medical bus.

In fact, he lived in it for

six years with his wife and sons.

Two people here, and

two people over there.

It's spacious and comfy.

Make sure you

cover your stomach.

It'll be morning soon.

It's almost midnight.

Good night, Doctor.

The bus is also

his sanctuary.

The water pressure

is suddenly weak.

He also tried to help kids

achieve their dreams.

The doctor course,

or the nursing course?

If you finish the nursing course,

you can work with me.

- Say 'thank you'.

- Thank you.

The diaper is causing eczema.

Keep this part cool.

On this bus, some give birth

and some die of old age.

Two times a day, 5cc.

It's cough syrup.

God bless you.

The medical bus saves them

and gives them hope.

This 15-year-old mother

feels that way, too.

When her baby developed boils,

she didn't know what to do.

She was relieved when

the medical bus arrived.

This girl with burns also

feels a lot better.

Don't shower today.

How did your husband die?

Oh, heart problems...

Are your father and

mother still alive?

- You're 15, right?

- Yes.

If you need anything or

you're having difficulties

you call me.

I can help you.

- 'Dr. Park', for emergencies.

- Thank you.

God bless you.

He can't turn a blind eye

to those in need.

Instead of riches or fame,

he chose volunteer work.

If I had become a rich,

successful doctor in Korea

I'd have a lot of money.

But I would have lost

my health in my forties.

Thanks to this work,

I made it to my sixties.

I am sure of it.

Regardless of religion,

that's the truth.

His stage four cancer has spread

to his liver and lymph nodes.

He should be concerned

about his own health.

While I was in the hospital,

I couldn't help others.

So, I have to visit

even more places now.

His stomach fluid

is building up.

He's going to Korea

for chemo in a few days.

I'm quite worried.

He can't let his illness win.

He's too busy

giving love to others.

Don't be so stubborn.

- I'll take the shot tomorrow.

- It'll hurt all night.

- Tomorrow when?

- Just give me fever medicine.

I have to take your blood anyway.

It's not like it will

cure my cancer...

Whenever I take it,

I can't move or sleep...

Your hands are freezing

because of your fever.

He's a chemo patient who drove

and worked all day long.

It's no wonder

he's all worn out.

A coin-sized chemoport has been

implanted under his collarbone.

It's a device that helps

long terms chemo patients

by making it easier

to draw blood.

He's taking care to

dress well today.

My hair is falling out.

Your hair keeps falling out?

Yes, it a side effect

of chemotherapy.

If you look sick

because of your illness

you should dress well to make

your patients feel at ease.

He's getting ready to leave.

They shouldn't need

someone like me.

I want to help them

until they don't need me.

I hope that day will

arrive in this country.

There are still a lot of

poor people in the Philippines.

That's why he couldn't

leave this place.

This is a slum near

the big city.

It's called 'Sewage Town'

because of the polluted ditches.

The rich live beyond

these shabby shacks.

It's just like

Seoul's shantytown.

Are you sick?

Is it a fever or a cold?

Oh, it's both.

160 over 90.

His blood pressure is high.

- Hello, Elda.

- Hello.

- Elda.

- Hello.

- How have you been?

- You're sick?

That makes me sad.

Don't worry.

I'll live a long life.

He's come here quite often.

One week old? Ten days old?

- Ten days.

- Only ten days.

Don't worry.

His health is good.

Give her cough syrup.

- You want surgery?

- Because of my skin.

Does this hurt?

We should remove that lump.

Let's do surgery.

- Can you bring her on Friday at 7?

- Yes.

You used to be healthy.

What happened?

Her skin hardened because

she couldn't get treatment.

The polluted water causes

a lot of skin problems.

I'll pray for

Dr. Park's health.

He's such a kind doctor.

His kindness brings

tears to my eyes.

I thank him for

taking care of us.

I always pray for Dr. Park.

I don't want him

to go away.

I'll keep praying for him.

Thank you, Dr. Park.

That's all.

This town is where he started

his volunteer work.

I honestly don't know

how much time I have left.

I'm losing hope, but

I don't express it.

I don't want to make

people uncomfortable.

Plus, it'll be embarrassing

if I live over ten years.

Helping the hungry,

the needy and the sick.

That always made him happy

despite his disease.

His wife came from Daegu

for his chemotherapy.

Lying down makes me feel

more like a patient.

I suddenly feel woozy.

Wearing hospital clothes

can make a big difference.

He lost a lot of weight

in the Philippines.

I wish he'd take it easy

while he's sick.

But he won't stop...

It's upsetting.

Even his family couldn't

change his mind.

Starting chemotherapy.

He's fighting cancer

for the third time.

It's still hard for

his family, too.

She sold everything to

follow him to the Philippines.

After returning to Korea, she

opened a restaurant to support him.

All people have

different ways of life.

Sometimes we're apart and

sometimes we're together.

Faith kept us going.

If one person has a dream,

the other should be supportive.

That's how my kids and I made it

through all these years.

Another cancer patient

died this very day.

He's been trying to

run from his situation.

The city lights are beautiful...

I'm not certain anymore.

I don't think it's greed.

But there are things

I have yet to do.

Even in my personal life.

I'd like to see my sons

get married and have kids.

His small dream

couldn't come true.

It's been three months

since his death.

Can we go today?

Maybe, but sometimes

it doesn't work.

- What's wrong?

- I ordered new generator parts.

- Is the side mirror okay?

- Temporarily, yes.

It was his treasure.

When he was healthy,

he used to sleep in this bus.

His hospital staff

slept in it, too.

I think of the bus

as Dr. Park.

What happened to it?

I'm worried it won't

make it to Dagupan.

The ownerless bus

doesn't work anymore.

Still, they'll take it

on one last trip.

It's been two years since

Dr. Park drove this bus.

Now, it will retire and

go to his best friend.

I'm a little sad, but

he'll take good care of it.

He was Dr. Park's best friend.

Former employee Lafi

is also here.

We went to Baguio, Dagupan,

Pangasinan, Clark and Mindoro.

This bus traveled

for a long time.

This is the last time,

so I'm sad.

He used to drive and sing...

I'm very sad.

After three hours,

they've reached Pangasinan.

This is where Dr. Park's

friend Densio lives.

As a rental car company owner,

he helped Dr. Park a lot.

He used to aid him during

medical missions, too.

Brother!

He helped him spread

love in the Philippines.

Dr. Park isn't in there.

It'll make me miss

him every day.

Densio converted this bus

into a medical bus

and sometimes helped

with the mission expenses.

Whenever the bus came here,

I could see Dr. Park.

I've lost my friend.

Whenever it broke down

in the middle of the road

he would call me,

and I'd go help him.

Whenever it had problems,

he contacted me.

So, I've become

attached to it.

The engine sounds a lot better.

I have a great friend.

In life, even someone you meet

by chance along the road

can feel like a good friend

you've known for a long time.

That happened when I met

Dr. Park for the first time.

For some reason,

he felt very familiar.

Like he was my

long-lost brother.

Dr. Park never lost hope.

He thanked those who sent him

donations and well wishes.

The sunlight feels great.

That magpie must be

happy to be so free.

Birds in cages are miserable.

After chemotherapy, he always

hurried back to the Philippines.

It was like he needed to

help others to keep living.

He suffered through more

than 30 chemo sessions.

He grew thinner and thinner

because of chemotherapy.

Even the fluid in his stomach

couldn't break his will to live.

During two years of treatment,

he traveled 20 times.

His wife gave me his ring

and this dolphin charm.

He left the Philippines in

April of 2018, and never returned.

I flew to Korea right away

after receiving the news.

He was already comatose.

He was comatose for ten days.

Then, without

any last words...

He died at the age of 68.

They said their last goodbyes

at the church he went to.

The rain during the funeral

felt like tears to them.

He poured his blood, sweat

and tears into Clark.

He built a well and a church

during his missions here.

He turned this empty building

into a house of worship.

God, I thank thee for

sending us your servant.

Thanks to the life

and work of Dr. Park

we can spread your

holy name in this land.

He built a kindergarten and

started after-school classes.

He wanted kids to get

education for a better life.

He wished for a day

he would no longer be needed.

He knew that one child

can make a big difference.

He had hope in them...

The children will always

remember and thank him.

I'm sad to think

that he's gone.

I didn't know

he was so sick.

He gave us this church

and everything we need.

I think God sent him to us.

He built this church for us.

He taught me about God

and right from wrong.

I feel the presence of

God and Dr. Park.

I stopped coming here

since I found out he died.

He was like a father to me.

He was so kind.

I'm so sad and heartbroken.

It was very hard for me.

My father died

before I came here.

Dr. Park was like

my new father.

Now, I've lost my father again.

Since he served God,

God is with him.

He taught them that

love makes everything possible.

Now, Ju-hee takes care of

the villagers in the mountains.

It's my duty.

I gave him a promise, so

I'll do everything that I can.

He changed this world

with his love.

Now, he will become

a part of it.

This is a strand of hair

that was on his deathbed.

It's the last piece of him.

Since he loved Pinatubo

I thought this would

be meaningful to him.

Will it blow in the wind?

Dr. Park spread hope

all over the Philippines.

He has finally returned

to the place he loved.

God taught me by

making me sick.

First, I caught all of

the infectious diseases.

Typhoid, yellow fever, cholera...

Every single disease

in our textbook.

I caught them all.

If you want to treat disease,

you should experience it first.

How will you cure others

when you've never been sick?

That was His message.

So, I've never misdiagnosed

a patient for 30 years.

People ask me how

I'm still alive.

If you just stay at home,

you'll die sooner.

For a long life,

do volunteer work.

For a longer life,

do missionary work.

For a long-a*s life,

do ministry work.

Sorry for my language.

I'm from Gyeongsang province.

I don't have enough time to

share all of God's plan.

It'll take over three hours.

Invite me again next year.

I'll still be alive.

If I don't show up,

it means I'm in heaven.

I just took some strong

pain medication.

My pronunciation won't

be accurate for 15 minutes.

I hope you can all

understand my words.

Why did He make me sick

when I was spreading His word?

I prayed every dawn

for over a month.

Then, He gave me the answer.