05x08 - Is It Too Late To Say Sorry?

[bunniefuu]

[Desiree] Previously on Too Hot to Handle...

[Lana] Your kiss lasted 12 minutes.

-You know what you could do in 12 minutes?
-[chimes]

[Lana] Alex and Elys,

if you fail to connect on a deeper level,
you'll be leaving my retreat.

What?

[Lana] Louis and Christine
did not break any rules.

Boom!

Every single day, you're opening me up.

-[watches chime]
-Finally, we get a green light!

[Lana] The rules have been broken.

$18,000, $30,000,

$36,000.

Oh, my God!

I'm feeling super-duper horny.

I need a man in my bed.

-Damn!
-[Lana] There will be new arrivals.

You gotta be
a certain kind of stupid to break rules.

Damn!

-Do you have them pierced?
-Wanna touch them?

I'm absolutely f*cked.

[upbeat music playing]

You look cute when you wake up
in the morning.

Thank you.

Louis is being so sweet right now.

I feel so bad for not trusting him
with Linzy,

but I've never felt so comfortable
being myself around a guy before.

So this feels like paradise.

[Desiree] Enjoy this paradise
while it lasts

because I see trouble on the horizon.

Christine still doesn't know

that I touched Linzy's boob yesterday
at the date.

I need to figure out
how I'm going to play this. Yeah.

Louis and Christine
seem very happy together,

but what he was telling me on our date,

and what I'm seeing with my own eyes
are two completely different stories.

They are a lot closer.

-[Louis] Should we break a rule now?
-[Christine] Hmm.

-[kissing loudly]
-I just don't trust him.

[Desiree] Isn't this the point where
Detective Dre enquires about rule breaks?

Who's the guilty party this morning, Dre?

I broke a rule! And that's wrong.
I shouldn't be doing that.

[Desiree] Oh, yeah. Detective Dre
was one dirty cop last night.

Guess it's time for me to come clean.

I got a confession to make.

-Oh, God!
-Oh, sh*t!

[Desiree] Before Dre's confession,
let's remind ourselves

what a stickler for the rules
he's been since day one.

Oh, it's gonna be some
real law enforcement now!

Hey!

-[Hannah] Relax.
-Hey.

I'm watching y'all, bro.

Did y'all break a rule?

How much money have we lost?

I gotta make sure everybody
keep their eye on the prize. Like me.

Listen to the damn cone!

I broke a rule.

[all exclaiming]

Detective Dre!

-What?
-When the f*ck did this happen?

-I took Linzy upstairs to the bathroom...
-[Megan gasps]

What?

I had fun. I liked the kiss.

[all exclaiming]

Okay!

The detective was off duty and on booty.

Lana's number one detective turned dirty.

I'm in complete shock.

As if Dre's come to the dark side.

I'm sorry.

[Louis] Thank you, Dre.

Everyone's focusing on you
about breaking rules,

but no one's asking about the date
between me and Linzy.

I'm happy for you, Dre. You deserved it.

-He's been through hell with us here.
-Good job.

[exhales in relief]

Thank you.

I kissed Linzy just to prove to myself
I could kiss her.

'Cause she said, "I felt more of a sexual
connection with Louis,"

but me and Linzy don't got nothing.

[all cheering]

[Linzy] No one's even mad at Dre.

Apparently they wanted him
to break some rules, but you know what?

It was so sensual.

So I plan on doing way more with Dre
than just a kiss.

[chimes]

[Lana] Good morning, everyone.

Dre, it's regrettable that you broke
a rule last night,

especially as you have worked tirelessly

-as my sex detective.
-Oh...

[Lana] I commend you
for taking responsibility

for your actions.

If only certain other individuals
had the emotional maturity

to own their mistakes and learn from them.

[both] Oh, my God!

[Hannah] Lana,
just switch off and shut up.

I'm, like, looking at these big arms,
and his big back, and I'm like,

"But... But I cannot be next to this
and, like, be good."

[Lana] You know who you are.

So consider yourselves

warned.

-[all exclaiming]
-[Trey] Oh, damn!

[Louis] sh*t.

I know Lana's talking about me,
but I've got a plan. I've got a plan.

[Desiree] Why have I got a feeling
this plan is only gonna make things worse?

[Louis] I'll have to keep
them away from each other.

[Desiree] Oh, yeah, because it's Louis.

Lana, call me Einstein, but I'm guessing
you're singling out Louis there.

[chimes] Indeed I was, Desiree.

But I also have my artificial eye
on Isaac and Hannah.

Isaac has changed women more times
than I update my software,

and the two of them have shown an utter
disregard for the feelings of others

while pursuing their own needs.

Today, I will need to see signs
of a genuine connection between them.

If I don't, then I will be forced
to take action.

[Desiree] Oh, Lana.
You are bad to the cone.

[upbeat music playing]

[Louis] Damn!

No, I promise you.

f*ck's sake!
I'm in another sh*thole, ain't I?

[Christine] Can we go to the pool?

-[Louis] I'll come! I'll come!
-[Yazmin] Okay.

[Linzy] He's definitely keeping
me and Christine away from each other,

and now I can see who he really is,
it just does not sit right with me.

♪ Bad to the bone ♪

♪ Watch out 'cause I'm in that zone ♪

So now we've settled in,
should we break rules tonight?

[laughs] Sounds good.

I'm probably not in Lana's good books
for all the bed-hopping,

but I don't care what the cone says.

I do wanna break rules
with Hannah soon enough.

[Hannah] This whole thing
doesn't make sense.

This whole retreat

-just does not make sense at all.
-[laughs]

The situation where you can't kiss people,
that is my biggest thing.

I can't concentrate
on what Hannah's saying sometimes.

I'm just looking at her tits.

[Desiree] You have such a way
with words, Isaac.

It's almost poetic.

I'm just affectionate.
I'm a very touchy person.

I think me and Isaac,
we need that green light.

We need this to ding-ding
because, if it doesn't,

I'll start breaking all the rules.

Take that as you please. [chuckles]

♪ The deeper we go ♪

♪ I'll go deeper, I'll go deeper ♪

♪ I'll go deeper with you... ♪

You have to come to England.

-I do.
-I'll show you around.

Oh, that sounds so sweet.

[Louis] Everywhere I look,
I'm seeing Linzy.

It is... Literally, it's impossible.

-Should we go inside?
-Yeah, it's getting hot.

[Courtney] What's going on here?
Louis is acting really suspicious.

[Louis] I wanna take a shower.
Wait for me?

Sometimes a guy can change
for the right person,

but my faith in Louis
is dwindling day by day.

-Hey, girl!
-[Courtney] Hello!

[Courtney] I am
taking control of this situation.

I need to find out
what happened on that date

because Christine is my girl.

[Desiree] Uh-oh, Louis,

your foolproof plan
may have a Courtney-shaped hole.

How are you finding it here
in the retreat so far?

-You know, I'm really enjoying it so far.
-Yeah, I like how you move.

I mean, you went on a date with Louis
and then you kissed Dre in the same night.

I'm, like,
a little thrown off about Louis.

I don't think
I want to get to know him more.

Of course, he's such a good-looking guy.
But he seems a little slimy to me.

Did you feel
like he was flirtatious at all?

Yeah. Louis touched my breasts.

My gosh!

I can't say I didn't see that one coming
'cause I totally saw that coming.

Louis has player written all over him.

This is just another play
out of his playbook.

-Oh, no.
-And when I saw him with Christine

I'm like, "This is throwing me off now."

I mean, you just have to tell her.

So, you ready to pull her aside

and have a conversation with her
to let her know what's going on?

If I was in her position and my man

was going around
flirting with another girl,

touching her boobs, I would want to know.

She deserves to know the truth.

[Desiree] Louis, danger, danger!

Christine is out of your sight
and firmly in Linzy's!

Christine!

Christine!

[intense music playing]

[Linzy] You look good. How are you?

I'm good. How are you?

I'm really good.

-What's up, bro?
-What up, bro?

-How're you livin'?
-[sighs] Chillin' and grillin'.

[sighs wearily]

-What's up?
-The date yesterday.

Oh...

Oh...

No, no, no. This is not good.

Louis told me that the whole time
during the date, he was thinking about me.

Did I tell you I touched Linzy's boobs?

No, you didn't. Did you tell her yet?
Does she know?

Well, no!

[groans]

You don't really know the full story.

Yeah.

Who he is with you is so different.

He was telling me
how I was so beautiful and...

Oh, he said that?

Yeah, when I asked him about his type,

he looked me straight in the eyes
and described everything about me.

I did not expect that.

He said y'all didn't kiss.

-[Linzy] We didn't kiss...
-You were like...

...but he kept looking at, like, my chest.

And so at one point, I was like,
"Do you wanna touch them?"

Oh, he touched your boobs?

Yeah.

[Louis] sh*t.

She knows.

I think it would have went further
had Dre not come and taken over.

Really?

[slow song playing]

Yeah, I wouldn't trust him if I were you.

Oh, he's disrespectful as hell.

[sad song playing]

♪ Some days why does it get so hard ♪

♪ Try to mend my broken heart ♪

[sniffles]

[sad song continues]

[Christine] This literally
always happens to me.

It just sucks 'cause the whole time
I thought he was different.

And...

obviously, he's not.

f*ck's sake, mate.

[Desiree] Poor Christine.

And I've got a sneaky feeling she won't be
the only girl let down by a guy today.

-Yeah, how was the date?
-It was cool. Yeah, she's a cool girl.

I kissed her once 'cause I'm just like,
f*ck it. Know what I'm saying?

I ain't got nothing since I've been here,
so why not?

Yeah, yeah.

I'm a whore outside
of this g*dd*mn retreat!

Real talk, I'm bad.

Don't get me wrong, she look good,
but she's not my particular type.

If I don't like a girl,
I try to avoid them.

[Hunter] You should tell her how you feel.

-Yeah.
-She might like you, yeah.

I personally think,
when it comes to Linzy, I'm single.

"I can do what I want, you can do whatever
the hell you want."

We're not together.
So why do I owe you an explanation?

[Desiree] Woof. The vibe in this place
is dragging me down!

But thankfully, Lana's thrown
a birds and the bees party

to welcome new arrivals, Bryce and Linzy.

-[all exclaiming]
-[Alex] Oh, sh*t!

[Desiree] I just hope nobody gets stung.

[Louis] Christine's very pissed off.

I've got a feeling that she doesn't want
to have a conversation right now.

I can't even look at anyone right now.

This is just too embarrassing.

The last thing I wanna do is party.

[Desiree] Oh, come on, guys.
Don't be a buzzkill.

[Courtney] Yeah!

[dance music playing]

I'm excited that Lana's
throwing us a party! Finally!

I can't promise
I'm not gonna break any rules tonight.

Let's get this party started!

-[Dre buzzing]
-[Hunter exclaiming]

[Alex grunting]

[Hunter] Buzz.

[all laughing]

Let's fly away tonight!

[all cheering]

[dance music playing]

[Hunter] This party is gonna be buzzing.

[buzzing]

[Megan] I'm so excited for this party.
Thanks, Lana!

I wonder if these wings actually work.

Ow.

No, they don't!

[dance music playing]

[Hannah] Isaac is literally so hot,
like a Greek God,

and he's so hard to resist.

I'm like... [mimics bee]

[chuckles]

I'm loving Hannah right now.

Her body is incredible.

I've been waiting all day and all night
for Dre to talk to me.

We had this moment and we kissed

and now nothing.

I'm really confused.

[Dre] You know, in the outside world,
I just disappear.

But, you know, being in the retreat,
you cannot escape them.

And all this right here is awkward!

[upbeat music playing]

[Louis] This day has been
the most stressful day of my life,

but, I mean, I actually didn't kiss Linzy.

So at least that's true.

If me and Christine can get through this,
I think we can get through anything.

I really do not want to talk to him
right now.

He really did hurt me, but I'm interested
to see if he does apologize.

Obviously, I wanted to, um,
pull you away from the party

'cause I wanted to talk to you
about the date.

The whole date, I was thinking about you.

So you were thinking about me
when you were grabbing her boobs?

Oh, she's fuming.

But how it really was, was me just being
over-flirty and I didn't mean any of it.

I wanted to tell you, I know that you will
just blow it out of proportion so...

Was it out of proportion though?

Uh...

Or you just shouldn't have done it.

That's basically disrespecting
what we have.

No, that's not true.

[Louis] I know I've messed up.
It is hard for me to admit it.

I'm just not that guy.

It's hard for me to tap into weakness.

It was flirty, but like,
from my side, it was harmless.

You know that I do have trust issues,

and you made me feel bad
for not trusting you.

But I had every reason not to trust you.

-We're hugging, we're sleeping together.
-Yeah, but...

Whole time, she knows that
you were saying all of that to her,

touching her boobs.

[intense music playing]

And it makes me regret
putting my guard down

and thinking that I can trust you.

But that's just... That's what I'm saying.
So, from her telling you,

you're having a different perspective
of the flirting, how it actually was.

Louis is not apologetic for his actions.

And the fact that he doesn't even
understand what he did wrong

shows that he hasn't grown, obviously.

He's selfish. He's very selfish.

Yeah, I have nothing else to say.

It's over between us.

[sighs] Oh, f*ck's sake.

sh*t.

[Louis] I think Christine is amazing,

but now I feel like I f*cked it up.

Why can't I grow up and apologize?

[sighs]

[upbeat dance music playing]

I'm so horny. I need a green light soon

or I'm gonna do something I regret.

[Desiree] You mean more than wearing
that fluffy cowboy hat?

I wish we were just in a room
by ourselves,

but if I wanna kiss someone,
I'm gonna kiss someone.

I am just going to put my arm around him

and hope that if we can't
see anyone, then they can't see us.

[Desiree] In front of everyone?
You've gotta be kidding me, Hannah!

You could end up in so much...

[chimes]

[Desiree] Saved by the bell.

[screams] No! No, no, no!

Every single time we're having
a little bit of fun, she intervenes.

I should have known
Lana wasn't just gonna let us party.

It was too good to be true.

What do you think is going on?

No idea.

It was Dre's rule-break, right?

I'm the one that broke a rule last night.

I know I slipped up bad,

but one breach is a reason
to stop the whole party?

That can't be it.

I'm a little worried, Lana.

[Lana] We all know Dre and Linzy

broke a rule last night.

I can't do nothin' but apologize.

I know I've been on your ass
since the beginning.

Dre has not said a single word to me,
like, all day.

And now, he's not even looking at me.

What the hell is going on here?

Dre and Linzy's kiss has cost the group

$6,000.

[Courtney] Surely that's it, right?

[Lana] But...

Oh, God.

...that is not the only reason
for summoning you all.

-There it goes.
-[Megan] Why?

[Desiree] I think we're about to find out
if boobgate was a rule break.

Obviously gonna mention
the boob thing, isn't she?

[Lana] Louis.

f*ck off.

[Louis] f*ck.

This is not good.

I just wanted to know if Christine
and Louis have broken the rules or not.

They can't keep it in their pants.

Um...

[Linzy] I feel like
I'm in trouble with Lana.

I kissed Dre,

and I let Louis touch my titties.

I'm a bad, bad B tonight.

Christine, are you okay?

[Isaac] Oh, man.

There's obviously something wrong here.

Come on, mate. What's up? You're quiet.

I know that no one's gonna be happy.

On the date with Linzy...

Um...

I acted inappropriately.

I touched her breasts
and told her things I didn't mean.

Explain why you're hurting Christine!

I just...

thought I was being flirty.

[sighs in exasperation]

I feel really bad now
'cause in the moment,

I thought we were just flirting.

I'm truly disgusted with Louis.

Yeah, it definitely hurts more hearing it,
especially in front of everybody else.

I don't know, I just don't want
anybody to see me crying right now.

[Louis] Seeing how Christine is,

is making me upset.

Christine's the best thing
that's happened to me in a long time,

and I've messed up like I normally do.

[Lana] Louis and Linzy,

your intimate moment on your date

has cost the group $4,000.

[sighs]

[Lana] These indiscretions
have cost the group $10,000.

The prize fund now stands at $100,000.

-What?
-[Louis] What?

-[Elys] Why?
-[Louis] What?

$100,000? Is this a joke?

[Desiree] Yeah, Lana's not known
for her lulz.

At least we still have half the money.

[Lana] That's not all.

What do you mean "that's not all"?

[Desiree] Why do I get the feeling

that Lana is about to open
a can of whoop ass?

[Isaac] Bro, I can't do this.

Oh, my God.

[Lana] This morning, I made it clear

that some of you
were not rising to the level

that I expect at this stage of my retreat.

Louis, you are clearly falling short
of your potential.

However, I see signs that your feelings
for Christine

are more than just skin-deep

and that you want to change and grow.

-The same cannot be said...
-Appreciate it.

...for the two people
I'm about to send home.

Two people? Right now?

What the f*ck?

-[Bryce] No.
-[Courtney] Wow.

Ah, f*ck! Someone's going home.

Like, seriously,
what the f*ck is going on?

I am absolutely sh1tting it.

[Dre] Come on, bro. Are you serious?

Like, this is f*cked up!

[Lana] The guests leaving the retreat are...

[Dre exclaims softly]

...Isaac and Hannah.

-[Dre] What the...
-[all exclaiming]

Wow.

Oh, my God.

f*ck off!

Oh, mate.

[Elys] What the f*ck? I'm in shock.

I mean, what the f*ck?

[Lana] Since arriving at my retreat,
you have ignored my rules...

[Hannah] Breaking rules
kind of feels natural and feels right.

[chuckles]

[Isaac] f*ck it.
I don't regret breaking rules.

It is what it is.

[Lana] ...dismissed my teachings
and failed to grow...

All of that... is doing well for me.

[Isaac] I'm just looking at her tits.

It's hard to commit to one person.

I like my men how I like my drinks.

I wanna have, like, five,
you know? [laughs]

[Lana] ...and pursued your own desires
at the expense of those around you.

I'll be sleeping with her tonight.

I like Yazmin. But once a player...

Oh, man.

...always a player.

I want to do naughty things to her.

I am going to get what I want.

The cheetah always gets its prey.

[Lana] Isaac and Hannah...

you must now leave my retreat.

f*ck!

[Lana] Goodbye.

[slow instrumental music playing]

Can't say I'm surprised.

-Sorry.
-Yeah, man. It's all good.

-[Hannah] Love you guys.
-[Courtney] Love you, girl.

Hannah's just trying to fill a void
with Isaac,

and that's not the growth
Lana's looking for.

[Hannah] Bye, Elys. Love you.

Love you, too.

[Hannah] I have definitely
learned a lot from Lana.

You know, it's hard to drop old habits.

I do search for male attention.

I guess it is something
that I'll have to work on.

See ya, Yaz.

I mean, I understand the reasoning
behind Lana and what she said.

Honestly, I'm feeling kind of bummed.

[Isaac] I hope you work it out.

[Isaac] But with Hannah
outside of the retreat,

can't wait to get sexy, down and dirty.

Let's get it.

Flamingo style.

[Desiree] Standing on one leg? Impressive.

[Hannah] Bye, friends!

[Dre] This is a wake-up call
how much more we gotta learn

and give ourselves to the process
a bit more.

-All right, bro.
-See you later, bro. Bye!

-[Dre] Love y'all. Be safe.
-[Louis] sh*t, man.

[slow instrumental music playing]

♪ I try, I can almost feel it... ♪

[sighs]

Oh, what a day.

[Linzy] Dre and Louis
have so much attitude.

Yeah.

Dre is giving me the ick.

♪ And then it all came crashing down ♪

♪ I was left in pieces... ♪

[Linzy] I'm so over Dre.

He hasn't been honest with me
since the beginning.

He's behaving really cold towards me.

I just hate that. I hate men.

I felt like I was connected with Louis.

♪ My chance ♪

♪ And I felt so hurt ♪

♪ It tore me up when I wasn't enough... ♪

[Christine] I felt like
I could be myself around him.

This just felt different and I was hoping
it was gonna be different,

but obviously not.

-Goodnight, guys.
-[all] Goodnight.

♪ It broke my trust
When I was so in love ♪

♪ I'm in ruins ♪

♪ Ruins after ♪

♪ I hope I'll see this through ♪

[upbeat music playing]

Guys, it feels so weird with an empty bed.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

I mean, I use all Hannah's makeup,
clothes, she does my hair.

[Yazmin chuckles]

[Dre] I kissed Linzy
and then I tried to avoid her.

But after having a lot of realizations
last night,

I feel like I should apologize
for my actions.

But I never opened up to a girl,

so I don't know what to say.

Christine, how are you
feeling this morning?

Um, now I have to face reality, but...

[Louis] Christine won't even look at me.

She just doesn't deserve it.

I wanna fix it. I don't know how.

♪ Are you watching me, watching me ♪

♪ Tell me how it looks
From the back seat ♪

He's only cutting his hair because
he can't f*cking redo it without me.

[both laughing]

You're f*cking savage.

I'm healthy, I'm wealthy.

I am rich, I am that bitch.

d*ck needs me, I don't need d*ck.

Namaste.

[Desiree] New addition
to my morning mantra.

Thanks, Linzy.

♪ Are you watching me, watching me ♪

♪ Tell me how it looks
From the back seat ♪

[Louis] I want to prove to Christine
how much I actually do like her,

but from situations in the past,
I know I don't know how to deal with it.

So I don't give anyone the chance
to make me feel vulnerable.

I'm scared.

[Desiree] Seems Louis and Dre
want to change their ways,

but don't know how.

The great philosopher Justin Bieber
once asked,

"Is it too late now to say sorry?"

And I say no.
You just need a Lana workshop.

[Lana chimes]

I agree, Desiree.

Louis and Dre are struggling
to take responsibility for their actions

and be vulnerable with the women
they have hurt.

Therefore, I have designed a workshop
to help them understand

why they behave in ways
that do not serve them.

As with understanding and acceptance,
real change becomes possible.

[men cheering]

[Desiree] Sounds like a lesson
all the boys could benefit from.

In today's workshop, the men will learn

that in order to heal
and build deeper connections,

we have to recognize, acknowledge
and own our self-sabotaging behaviors.

[Trey] Wow.

I wonder what the hell is this?

If they can become more
emotionally self-aware,

they'll build healthier relationships.

What up, guys?

-Oh, yeah!
-[whooping]

-[Dre] Yeah!
-[all whooping]

Fellas, so...

[Desiree] As ever,
a mature and measured start

to proceedings from the boys.

[all whooping]

-Yeah!
-Oh, yeah!

Today's workshop is centered around
the power of vulnerability.

We are at our most vulnerable
when we expose our weaknesses.

That one word. I really don't like
that "V" word.

Vulnerable.

Oh, please, I can't do that. Nope.

[Brenden] Unwillingness to feel emotions
is holding you back

from deep connections and falling in love.

Do your best to be honest,
open and vulnerable.

You learn at a young age
you really can't trust anybody.

Naturally, what do you bring that into?

-Your relationship.
-Yep.

So today, this water here
is going to signify and represent

all of these things that we hold on to.

One scoop of water equals one burden
that you are carrying.

So we'll have some fun, but we'll go deep.

[Louis] I don't wanna get deep.

It's tough to let people know
how I really feel.

I've always struggled with that.
So doing this is...

Is really, really challenging.

♪ I wish we could turn it all around ♪

All right, Alex,
so what's been holding you down?

I think one
of the greatest pressures for me

is to have a great head of hair.

So, yeah...

All right, Alex,
this is actually still real talk.

What's another thing?

[Alex] Uh, I struggle with commitment...

and I think the pressure to settle down.

I'm a wanderer.

Now I've met Elys, it kind of
makes me feel a bit funny.

-I'm not gonna lie.
-Like, "What the hell's going on?"

That's it and I'm not sure
what to make of it just yet.

Thank you for that.
Come down and grab some water.

[Alex] I have this side of me
where I love to be wild

and go mental and travel the world,

but getting in a relationship with Elys
may change the dynamic.

Any of you other fellas resonate
with that? Grab some water.

Usually I don't have these conversations
with friends.

Now you can put it in your bucket.

But, you know, being in the retreat
and kind of like,

you have to kind of face your problems
head-on, you cannot escape them.

All right, Dre.

[exhales] I'm so nervous.

It's kind of like a self-validation thing.

For me, I was a late bloomer.

My teeth was jacked up. I wore glasses.

I would go to school everyday,

demoralized ego.

I'm down here.

When I had my glow-up,

you know, after working out,

it brought my ego back up here.

But then when I started
getting girls consistently, I went here.

I use women as a way to sustain my ego.

And I always felt like I need to do that
and feel like, "Yeah, I'm a man."

That I'm giving them a certain energy.

I have just ghosted all of them

without actually explaining to them
why I'm like this, like disappearing.

We don't see women as just a box we tick.

When we don't try to rectify
the situation,

if we just shut it out
and ghost and leave,

you're gonna be the villain
forever, you know?

-Yeah.
-[Brenden] All right, Dre.

That vulnerability's beautiful.

[Dre] Me going out and having sex
with all these girls

to make myself feel good,
and that's wrong.

I respect for him for that.

Everybody's holding the water.
You're not alone.

-Yeah.
-It's okay.

Cool.

All right, Hunter.

I've never let any sign of weakness out

with past relationships.

They'll ask me if something's okay,
it's always okay,

when inside, it's... It's tearing me up.

That's a barrier
that I just can't get over.

[Brenden] Thank you for going there.

I went to an all-boys school.

I had that expectation
that I always have to be on front.

Lot of people around me don't share
emotion and I've grown up that way.

-To not be honest, yeah?
-Yeah.

-I struggle with that.
-I don't trust anybody.

Opening up my emotions

and being vulnerable has been something
that I've had trouble with.

Come grab some water.

I'd never imagine,
looking at these other boys,

that they would have any problems at all.

We all have problems. We're not perfect.

All right, my man Louis.

I feel like things like this,
expressing my emotions to people,

I don't ever do it.

This is hard.

This is f*cking hard.

And the reason why is...

Oh, mate.

I struggled really bad growing up.

My mum was really ill.

I had a situation where we had to prepare
ourselves for the worst.

Me and my mum are like best friends.

And then when I was about 12,
she got cancer

and that was a hard time.

I felt that the only person
that had my whole emotions

and knew everything about me was my mum,

and having that feeling of losing her,

I felt it was like
if I gave someone else my emotions

-and they could leave me.
-[Brenden] Yeah.

So I've never ever let anyone
have any part of me that they can take.

She overcame it, but it messed with me.

She's my everything, my mum.

Just the fact you was a boy
taking care of your mom.

You actually took up that responsibility,

so I wanna celebrate you for that.

It was hard, but it toughened me up.

It toughens you up in a way
that you had to bottle up your emotions.

Keeping it all in.

So we're going to bring that bullshit
into our connections,

our romantic connections, you know?

I met someone in the retreat, Christine,

who I was starting to give my emotions to
and I panicked.

I messed it up.

So I go back to the attitude,

"I don't care about anyone.
I only care about myself."

Even though inside, you were like,
"Yo, I don't feel too nice about this."

You didn't express it, you let it happen.

You said, "Just go." Even though
you didn't say what you needed to.

Not being emotional is holding you back
from deep connections and falling in love.

Try to be honest, open and vulnerable.

Appreciate it.

Grab some water, man.

[Dre] I'd definitely say it's good to hear
my boy Louis open up more than usual.

Louis hurting right now.
I can see it in his eyes.

You are not alone, Louis.

Look at your bros.

Thank you for sharing that.

The same water we felt the weight
with is also gonna cleanse us.

It's gonna purify us.

We're gonna get rid of these things
that have been holding us back.

♪ Lost in the water ♪

♪ So deep ♪

♪ My mind's been a cloudy mess... ♪

This bucket represents...

being a ladies' man, suppressing emotions...

You feel the weight of that?

♪ I know these issues gotta go ♪

♪ I can't breathe and I'm cold ♪

♪ I need you ♪

You ready to release it?

[exhales]

[all exclaiming]

[all] Yeah!

[all cheering]

[Dre] Hell yeah, I'm feeling reflective.

Kissing Linzy in the bathroom,

I did it just to make myself feel better,

not thinking
about how it would make her feel.

I should definitely go up to Linzy
and have a conversation about my actions.

[all whooping]

[Louis] Opened up in the workshop today.

I'm proud of myself.

I've always left people hurt,
but to protect myself.

I never saw what...

What happened to them.

I don't want that to be me.

Whoo!

There you go!

I hope Christine will let me talk to her.

I feel good.

I feel refreshed, like a clean start.

I want her to know I'm sorry.

From the deepest part of my heart,
I congratulate every single one of you...

for going there today,

for being vulnerable, for doing something
you've never done before.

-Good job, men.
-[Louis] Appreciate you!

Later, fellas. Good job, men.

Thank you.

[upbeat music playing]

[all whooping]

[all laughing and chattering]

-[Louis clears throat]
-Oh, my God.

-Hello, how are you?
-Welcome back, boys.

-Missed you.
-[Dre] It was. uh...

[snorts] Thanks.

-Thank you.
-"Thank you"?

[Dre] That was the last word.

-What have you been up to?
-It was incredible. I ain't gonna lie.

Definitely changed
my whole perception on life.

I felt like it was massive
'cause I'm sh*t at explaining my emotions.

I don't talk about the sh*t
that I bottle up,

so being able to talk about it
was a massive thing.

[Desiree] Ooh, that is some
savage side-eye right there.

Good luck, Louis.

[upbeat music playing]

♪ I've been love shy ♪

In the past,
I never even apologized to a girl

and I definitely have never
explained myself to a girl.

[Dre grunts]

I see Linzy sitting there,

I'm like, "Bro, can you go over there

and show her what you really about.
Like, for real."

[Desiree] Let the apology tour begin.

First stop, Dre and Linzy.

What's up?

Dre, you may act like a nice guy,

but deep down,
guys like him are just so cocky

and have a huge ego.

I am definitely not listening to him.

Nope, no, thank you.

Yeah, so...

basically, like, when I ghosted you...

Yeah.

The date, it was a vibe, you know?

It was cool or whatever, we came back.

The conversation was about Louis,

how you're getting sexual tension
from him.

My ego took such a hit.

So I'm like, "Let me revert back
to what I'm good at."

When we went to the bathroom,
I went, "Let me prove to myself."

It just shows how much more
I need to learn.

Going to the workshop,
talking about all the weight,

all the pressures we carry.

Basically, like, women sustain my ego

'cause I never want to feel the way I felt

when I was in school
and they just tore my ego down,

and my ego is,

it's probably been my biggest issue.

And I regretted the way
that I went about the kiss,

but I learned something about myself

that I didn't even possibly think
that I had an issue with.

So, again, I just wanna,
you know, apologize.

[Linzy] I was, like, so pissed off,

but since he's actually being so open
and vulnerable to me,

I just can't help but want to forgive him.

Thank you for even expressing yourself
to me and sharing all of this.

It means a lot to me
and even saying sorry,

I know that takes a lot.

He seems like a changed man
from his workshop,

and I just really appreciate him for that.

-If I can do this, I can do anything.
-You can do anything.

-The world is your oyster, Dre.
-Yeah, thanks. I appreciate you, Linzy.

I appreciate you.

We can definitely stay friends.

-Get to know each other a little bit more.
-Yeah.

-Know what I mean?
-I love this soft side of you.

[Dre] For the first time in my life,

I've actually wanted to apologize

and explain my actions.

And I appreciate you, man.
This sh*t taught me a big lesson.

My ego got the best of me.

It's overinflated
and I need to tone it down

to connect and get an emotional,
intimate connection with somebody else.

-[Linzy] Hug it out!
-Yeah.

That's what I gotta do.

♪ Nothing worth fighting for
Comes easily ♪

♪ And I'm not trying to give you
A piece of me ♪

♪ I wanna give everything I got ♪

-Do you wash your face every night?
-I washed my face tonight.

Apparently not!

I did actually miss Alex
when he was at the workshop.

Have you told him you missed him yet?

[all laughing]

I did and I obviously got embarrassed
'cause I was like, "Oh, I missed you."

And he just said, "Thank you."

Maybe he's gone off me.

How are we feeling after the workshop?

Mate, if I'm totally honest,
I said about the whole wanderer thing,

I'm kind of lost between wandering

and then also finding that person.

-Yeah.
-I've been used to being single

-for so long.
-Yeah.

-It got me thinking a little bit.
-Right.

I do really like Elys, but it's just like,

I don't just wanna dive straight in.

[Louis] I feel like after that workshop,

I need to explain to Christine

the reasons why I'm the way I am,

and that I am trying to change.

This is my last chance.

I'm normally the one doing the hurting.

[dramatic music playing]

I usually give chance after chance
to guys in my life, but...

[inhales]

I don't wanna go through
the same thing again.

Oh, mate.

I don't know where this leaves
me and Louis.

How are you?

Um... numb?

On the outside, I run away if I, you know,
break a girl's heart or whatever.

I don't care
because I don't get to see it.

But being in here,
I've actually got to see

what me just pissing about
and being stupid,

doing something that I knew was wrong,

but thought was harmless
has actually done.

And honestly, this comes
from a genuine place.

I apologize for how I acted on that date

because you don't deserve that,

and it made me realize how much I do care.

♪ No words can save you now ♪

♪ It's over ♪

[Christine] I do miss Louis,

but I feel like for me to love myself
and put myself first,

I can't run back at the first apology
that comes to me.

For me, it's just been kind of hard

because the old me,

I put myself in situations with men

where I'm constantly letting them hurt me.

And give them chance after chance
after chance.

I refuse to let that happen.

You need to feel the pain
that you gave me.

I'm not just, like, a retreat fling.

The old Louis
was going 'round hurting people.

I don't wanna go back
to the old Louis, not caring.

I wanna put things right.

And Christine deserves to know everything,

but I don't normally
explain my feelings with girls.

[sighs] I'm a little bit worried. I am.

I've only ever given one person
my emotions and that's my mum.

And I had a situation where...

we thought we were gonna lose her.

I got a glimpse of what it feels like
to lose someone.

It makes me scared
to give people my emotions...

in case they leave.

But that workshop made me realize

to be a man is to actually
show your emotions.

I feel that I need to learn to do that.

And, you know, to try and prove to you
how much I do like you.

[Christine] I am so happy
that Louis is able to own up

to his reason for being the way he is.

However, I feel...

I don't know how I feel, actually.

I mean, I'm happy you learned something
from the workshop.

But...

you can't just get off easy.

I feel like you have to earn
my trust back.

[Louis] That's all I want,
is just a chance.

That's all I want, to be fair.

So I've kind of been stuck
between giving another chance...

or just walking away from the situation.

So...

[Desiree reading]

But worry not because the next episode
is ready and waiting.

See you on the flip!

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