01x03 - Episode 3

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Our troops are back
from the front lines.

Hasan?

1917, THE AEGEAN

Oh.

My love?

What's that? Come on, Ada.

Whoo!

Yeah, it's not just me.

Toprak, ladies and gentlemen!

Fancy seeing you here, Doctor.

I have to get up early tomorrow.

Okay.

You're taking out my stitches.

So I'm up early too.

I'm Toprak.

- I'm Sevgi. Nice to meet you.
- You too.

- Finally! Leyla. Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

- Yeah, you look great.
- Yeah, you too.

Come with me. We're dancing.

Come!

No, no.

So... are you gonna hurt me again?

Yeah, but only if you don't behave.

Uh...

Yeah, sorry about that.

Uh, my roommate.

He had a guest last night.

All right.

Beer? Or wine?

Taxi.

Taxi?

You k*lled the mood.

I don't even know
why I came here with you.

Because you're curious.

Curious? About what?

About what could happen between us.

So are you gonna call the cab?

Or should I do it myself?

Ada.

Okay, I'm sorry. That was stupid.

We don't have to do anything.
Just let me make you coffee, okay?

We don't have to do anything?

Really?

Who do you think you are?

Acting like you're the one
who gets to decide what I do?

Honestly, it's baffling
how you can be this entitled.

Oh my God.

Listen. I like you.

Is that so wrong?

- What do you like about me?
- What?

Well, first, you're beautiful.

And you smell great.

Mm.

I guess that's enough to get
any woman you meet into bed, isn't it?

You're right. Fine.

I messed up. That was stupid.

I thought you liked me back.

Or you wouldn't have come to the bar.

I thought you'd give up after 100 texts...

...but I was wrong.

Ada.

Text me when you get home, please.
It's late.

Don't worry.
I'm safer out here than I am with you.

Be at the office at 9:00 a.m. sharp,

or you'll get a scar
and ruin your image, rock star.

Okay. See you in the morning.

It's Toprak.

Please, don't hang up.
I need to talk to you.

What do you want, Toprak?

Nothing.

I just want to talk.

You're coming back, right?

I can call you back later,
if it's not a good time.

- It sounds like you're driving.
- No. I'm in a cab.

I've been in this cab
for the last ten years, Toprak.

But I can't seem to get anywhere.

Good morning, Ada.
Rise and shine. Wake up.

Muko made your favorite omelette. Come on.

I'm not hungry.

Why don't you read something then?

It'll take your mind off things.

Sevgi?

Yes, my love?

Where do I keep going wrong all the time?

Oh, Ada.

My poor baby.

Don't be too hard on yourself.

We can't always control
everything and everyone, Ada.

Right...

I can't even control my own hand.

Even that betrayed me.

Who else am I supposed to trust?

Or what else?

Would you help me
file for a divorce from Selim?

Ada, it all just happened.

Just give it some time,
just to let the dust settle.

And after that
maybe you two can talk about it.

Will you do it?
Or do I need to find another lawyer?

She wants a divorce from Selim.

What?

That girl's ruining her home.

What do you mean?
She's not the one ruining it.

Mom, are you and Dad getting divorced?

No.

No!

- Sarp, wait. Sarp!
- Hey, hey. Hey, boy, wait!

- Wait. Hey!
- You stay here, I'll talk to him. Okay?

That's how it is now, I guess.

Bailing after the first fight?

It's the woman's duty.

To keep the family together,
protect it with her life if she has to.

But not anymore!

You all have
your heads up in the clouds, Leyla.

I... I didn't say anything wrong, though.

Sarp!

I still don't understand it.
How could Selim do something like this?

Sweetie. He's human too.
It was obvious this was coming.

How was it obvious, Leyla?

Have you forgotten
how much Selim loves Ada?

The man's crazy about her.

Yeah, but, you see,
Ada doesn't love him that much.

Don't you get it?

I mean, she was the one who decided
to go abroad and leave him for two years.

Ah, okay, okay. I see.
So it's only fair for him to cheat on her.

Darling, that's not
what I'm talking about.

Ada has always been the same way.

Always independent, always busy,
always cool. Am I wrong?

It was almost like
marriage was just a hobby for her.

Really, Leyla?

Ah...

Ada, you're awake. All good?

So you're saying
it's my fault that Selim cheated on me?

No, come on.
That wasn't what she meant at all.

No, hang, on Sevgi.
She can speak for herself. Can't she?

So you think it's my fault, Leyla? Really?

Love... a friend will tell you the truth.

You were never really in love with Selim.

And the thing is, Selim always knew it.

You're not even making sense now.

It's all so obvious.

The guy waited for years
for you to get over Toprak.

- He was patient and always by your side.
- Leyla.

What, do you think Selim is an idiot?

Of course he's got his pride.

But the thing is, you never satisfied him.

So, if I don't act like some kind
of geisha, I deserve to be cheated on?

See, this is exactly
what I'm talking about.

To you, it's a weakness
to make the man you love happy.

Or to forgive him
if he ever does something wrong.

- Am I right?
- Hey.

I think you should go and check on Sarp.

If you're such an expert,
then why did your husband disappear

and leave you and Sarp alone?

Hey! What the hell?
Stop it now. That's enough.

Maybe instead of giving advice,
you should try finding a job.

I don't think
I'm the only one here who's unemployed.

Maybe we should look for jobs together.

Wait there.

"Doctor's mistake nearly kills minister."

"Negligence on the part of
award-winning General Surgeon Ada Korkmaz

nearly cost the minister his life."
Check this out.

f*ck your family and f*ck your traumas!

Why can't you just keep your mouth shut?

Can't you see
that girl is a mess right now?

So, what? You agree with her, Sevgi?

Instead of going to work,
I chose to be with my son and husband,

and apparently that makes me an idiot?

Ms. Ada is a surgeon,
and I'm just a f*cking idiot?

Wait a second. Is that what I said?
When did I say that?

I'm just saying you pushed her too hard
and she has a temper!

Then she needs to work on that.

We're not the ones who cheated.
Enough is enough now.

What on earth is going on here?
Seriously?

- Mom, for God's sake!
- Sevgi, your meds.

You know what, Ada is right.

You can't just keep acting
like you're going to make a living

selling a few outfits
and shoes online, Leyla!

You listen to me, babe.

I actually have
faith in my husband, all right?

Erdem would never leave us with nothing.

You listen to me!

If you try to protect him,

- you're just going to end up in trouble.
- Sevgi. Your meds!

I know!

- I'm not a kid, damn it! Leave me alone.
- Wait.

IT DIDN'T START WITH YOU

It means "a good place for a good book."

It's a Portuguese song I'm a big fan of.

Zaman, welcome, sir.
Here's your coffee.

Thank you very much, Mustafa.

How are things?

- Good, sir. Nice to see you.
- Thank you.

How is your hand doing?

You had nothing to do
with Sevgi's recovery.

I never said that I did.

Okay, but you know
that's what she believes, don't you?

You do realize that
what you're doing is dangerous, right?

You're giving these people false hope.

I'm just trying to help them
as much as I can.

- That's all it is.
- Mm.

Just like you are.

- Just like I am, you said?
- Yeah.

Mr. Zaman, I am a surgeon.

We don't treat patients
with fortune-telling gibberish.

We use actual science to help people.

Science.

Just like I am.

Aren't you tired of this fight?

Don't you find it exhausting?

There's a session tomorrow at ten.
Feel free to come.

I think I'll pass, thank you.

That's a great book you're reading,
by the way.

You might want to take a look at page 24.

Mommy!

Hello?

Yeah. Hello, Mom. How are you?

Is Dad with you?

Ah.

Okay, uh, I need to talk to you
about something.

Um...

I'm gonna need to ask for some money.

I'm sorry, but do you think
you could help me out?

I can't really explain everything
right now,

but I need it for Sarp's school, Mom.

Of course.

Yeah, of course as a loan, absolutely.

We'll pay you back. Yeah, as soon as
Erdem's business gets back on track.

Of course.

Just please don't tell Dad about it. Okay?

Of course.

Of course.

Sarp?

Sarp!

Sarp!

Sarp! Oh my God!

Sarp! Sarp!

Sarp, come here.

Sarp, are you okay?

- Mom, why did you lie to me?
- What the hell are you talking about?

You actually can swim.

Sarp, don't you ever
do anything like this again.

Do you hear me? Never again!

Never do it again!

Come here. Oh, Sarp.

Eeh...

Why don't you just give it CPR?

What are you doing? It's gonna
come back to life and fly out of here.

Ada, it's only food.

MOM

She's worried about you.
Just answer. She's your mom.

Yeah, Muko, she is.

Unfortunately, she is.

God forgive us all.

How can you say that?

I hope your children never say that
to you, Ada.

Ada, you know, someday
the tables are going to turn,

so be careful what you say.

I'm not going on a date,
not when Ada's going through all of that.

- Don't be silly. You're going.
- I'm not going.

Sevgi, you have to go.

I don't have anything to wear.
Do you want me to wear this?

What are friends for?

And what do you think I'm here for?
What's this about a date?

- Mommy?
- Hm?

Leyla...

Yeah?

...set me up on a date with some stranger
she found on the Internet.

No! Who?

This guy.

Ay!

No, he's such a snob.

No, no. nothing good can come of this.

Well, I guess he's no Mr. Zaman,
now, is he?

Leyla, keep this up,
and I'm gonna kick your little behind.

- Come here, girl. Let's go.
- Do it. Just kick her butt.

Come back here.

Whoa.

Leyla, you could dress all of Cunda
with this amount of clothes.

Love, this is all for sale.

Don't worry. They'll be gone soon.

Hm.

Nope. No way.

There's no way I'm wearing that.

Selim, would you please, please calm down?

How can I be calm, Sevgi?

I came home to talk, but she's gone!

Ada's with me.

Here in Cunda.

Selim, Ada wants a divorce.

What?

She said she wants a divorce?

Great, that is just great.

She wants a divorce. Huh.

Okay, let's get divorced.

If she wants to leave
for one mistake, let her.

Selim, what are you, stupid?
You can't play the martyr here.

Honestly, what did you expect?

God, just k*ll me.

Your hear me?
I should just drop dead right now.

God forgive us.
Just shut up and stop cursing. Listen.

Are you still seeing that woman?

What? What are you saying?

There's no woman.
It was a one-night stand.

You trying to drive me crazy?

How could you do this?
I really don't get it.

And not only did you cheat on her,
but you came home and told her about it.

You're right.

- I just shouldn't have told her, right?
- Yes.

I mean, no!

Ugh!
I hate being in middle of all this.

Get your a*s over here, and do
whatever you have to do to win her back.

- Would she talk to me if I did?
- Hey.

Toprak, I'm on the...

Toprak? Which Toprak?

Listen, I really have to go, Selim.

Please just let me know
before you get here. You hear me?

- And this conversation never happened.
- Sevgi.

Which Toprak?

- Okay, bye.
- Wait... Hello!

Were you saying something to me?

- Just asking how you've been.
- Fine, I'm fine.

I'm much better.

Toprak, I was... wondering how long
you were planning to stick around?

I'll be around for a while.

Why?

Hey. 'Scuse me.

Me and my friends are here
'cause we loved your performance.

We were all wondering
what time you're going on tonight.

I'm not. That was a one time thing.

But we're all here
to listen to you sing.

I hear you,
but I'm not playing tonight. Sorry.

You're Sevgi, huh?

- And you're Orhan?
- Yes, yes.

Welcome, welcome. Please, please.

- Be right back.
- Have a seat.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

I'm very sorry for being late.

You know, it was worth the wait.

Excuse me? What?

I'm just surprised.

I wasn't expecting
a pretty lady like yourself.

Oh, really? Why?

I mean, why would a pretty woman like you
actually need to use a dating site?

Am I right?

I mean, unless you have
a disorder or something? Huh?

Leyla.

Yeah.

Actually,

I didn't set up the account.

- A friend of mine did it. She was...
- Ah-ha.

- Welcome.
- Thank you, thank you.

We'll have the sunfish.
Two sunfish.

- But not farm-grown, you got that?
- Okay.

- And to drink we'll have white wine.
- Would you like to see the appetizers?

- No, we wouldn't.
- Okay.

Appetizers here aren't very good.

- Orhan, what kind of work do you do?
- Uh...

I'm a businessman.

I have yachts, and I rent them out.

Uh...

And we actually have a pretty serious
legal issue going on, Sevgi.

I'll tell you a bit about it in a minute,
but maybe you can give me some advice. Hm?

Why not? Why not?

"Freud and his contemporary,
Carl Jung,

believed that things stored
in our subconscious do not get lost,

but rather resurface in our lives
as destiny or chance."

"And having difficulty remembering

does not necessarily mean
that everything is forgotten."

"Pieces of traumatic events,
like words, images, or urges,

reappear in order to construct
the secret language

of the pain that we carry inside."

"Nothing is ever lost."

"Rather, the pieces
merely change direction."

"When we connect
the reasons behind our fears

with the symptoms of our disorders,

we open ourselves up
to new possibilities for resolution."

- ...finger was severed...
- Here you are.

What's this?

It's on the house.

We didn't order this.
You can take it back.

Uh, sir, in Cunda,
we are most known for our appetizers.

- I'd like you to have a taste.
- I've tasted them before. No thanks.

I mean, look at this.

Saganaki? This isn't how it's done.

Look, look. You see that?
You've ruined the crabs.

What a shame. They're garbage now.

You shouldn't have bothered
to come all the way here, then.

That's enough of that.
You can just refill this, please.

Hm?

You hear that attitude?

He should've been a farmer or something,
so he'd only have to deal with pigs.

Why don't you go back
to your little village?

Sevgi, please remind me
to pick a nicer place next time

so we don't have to deal with this mess.

- Get up. Get up.
- Oh.

What are you doing?

I'm sorry, Sevgi.

It's all right.
I'm sorry, everybody. It's okay.

Please forgive me, but,
for the sake of my farmer friends,

I'm going to have to show
this asswipe out.

- Move it!
- It's all right, Sevgi.

Let's go. I wouldn't want
to be rude in front of everyone anyway.

I'm staying here, Orhan, thanks.
I'd like to try the appetizers.

- Let's go.
- Huh.

Your tab is closed.

I'll see you later, dear.

I'm not done with you either.

- I'll see you again.
- Move it. Go, dumbass.

I'll see you.

I'm sorry, everyone...

Come on, back to work.

Fiko, I'm really sorry.

Give me the check. I'll pay for all this.

Oh, come on. What check? Please.

I'm the one who's sorry
because I couldn't control myself.

What did you call him?

Was it an "asswipe"?

Hey.

Where I come from, we say "asswipe."

Operation failed.

Sevgi's coming back home.

Maybe 'cause you set it up.

You know what?

You get really ugly
when things don't go exactly your way.

I'm the one who gets ugly?

What about you? Huh?

You actually said Selim was right, Leyla.

I don't give a damn
about Selim, all right?

I was trying to tell you something,
you idiot.

Maybe you'd get that
if you didn't just start yelling at me.

Anyway, listen.

You have a point, as well.

I mean, it's actually very upsetting.

Did you know I beat Erdem
the first time he cheated on me?

- Come on. That's bullshit.
- No. No, it's true. It is.

And it was bad too.

I literally beat him.

But he said nothing about it.

And then I thought,
"He actually wasn't all wrong, was he?"

What... What do you mean he wasn't wrong?

Because,

ever since I gave birth,
I've let myself go.

My boobs are super saggy,
and I have zero sex drive.

Hey. Don't say that.

You're beautiful inside and out.

And you went against your family
to be with Erdem.

You've done so much.
Please don't be silly.

You know, if I had just finished school,

I wouldn't be so lost
in my life right now.

What am I supposed to do, Ada?

Did you know that, I may not show it,
but I've always deeply admired you?

Even my stupid side, you mean?

Aside from that,
I admire how you'll do anything

to be with the man you love.

I couldn't do that.

Never have.

I guess it's not who I am.

And you're braver than I am.

Come here.

Don't be silly.

I love you so much.

I love you so much too.

- Really? I thought she said...
- Can someone please just k*ll me, please.

Wow. That bad, huh?

- Come here.
- Scoot.

Come here, baby. Come here.

Ugh.

Twelve years. He spent
12 years on one lawsuit,

and I had to hear about every hearing.
All of it.

Then he actually tried to fight Fiko.

And we had to hold him back.

I know. I know what we need to try next.

- Speed dating!
- What's that?

It's super fast 'cause you only get
five minutes for each guy.

But I swear it's gonna be so fun.

If she went on speed dates,
Muko would literally k*ll her.

Oh, f*ck everyone else.
Why is it all right for men to do it?

Come on. Who does speed dating anyway?

Us. We'll be the pioneers.

Aw. Hey, listen. First thing's first.

If you two ever fight again,
I'm gonna kick your butts.

Yes, sounds fair.

Oh, actually, you almost did already.

- I forgot to tell you!
- Hm?

Something really weird
happened to me today.

- What happened?
- I went into the ocean.

- What?
- Just by myself.

Isn't that strange?

For the first time in my life.

Things started to change
when I started doing what Zaman told me.

And it was the first time
I didn't feel like I was drowning.

Leyla, sweetie. I'm so happy for you.

The thing is, I think
I'm starting to believe in this, you know?

For real.

I mean, this idea
that maybe we carry things from the past,

or that we're getting stuck in one place.

Ada, I think you should give it a try.

It will be good for you.

What do you have to lose, huh?

All right.
Today we're having a session for Ada.

Right, close your eyes.

Now, make sure you tell yourself
whom and what you're representing there.

You can open your eyes
whenever you're ready.

And then you can change
your direction and location as you wish.

How are you feeling? How is Ada?

I have this pain in my chest.
It's a burning feeling.

All right.

Please pick two people,
one female and one male,

to represent your mother's family.

Someone in your family might have been
m*rder*d at some point in the past.

Mm, on your mother's side.

Must be a relative.

No. Uh-uh. That never happened.

Mm.

You missed the mark this time, I guess.
Never happened.

All right.

Okay.

All right, how are you?
How are you feeling?

- I'm in a field.
- Mm.

Red flowers all around me.

I'm surrounded by poppies.

Lie down here.

Zehra?

Papa?

Papa!

Papa...

The Comitadji ambushed the troops.
It's over.

Outside the village. They're dead.

And Hasan?

We're leaving this place, Zehra.

Where's Mama?

Where is Havva?

Papa!

Papa?

I can't take you with me like this.

Listen. Even if I let you live,
the others won't spare you.

Zehra, they say that
you allowed the Comitadji in the house.

Say your last prayers, my girl.

Pray... so that God may keep you.

I did what I was taught.

I had to do it.

I had no other choice.

Can you touch her, now?

For years,
I've been carrying this burden with you.

But now, it's become
too much for me to bear.

I promise. I'll do great things for you.

I need you
to pick two more people. Hm?

One will represent your emotions,
and the other will represent your mind.

But what's that for?

Come on, please. Just pick them.

This wound from the male side,

it's very important to see
the damage it does to you,

when you shut out your emotions. Okay?

Hm.

Okay, fine.

Um.

Mm.

You stand here.

And you stand here. All right?

Good? Good?

Tell me what you feel
when you look at her.

I'm feeling left out.

I feel like I'm not needed.

And I'm trying to get away from him, but

I can't.

Okay.

And what are you feeling?

I... I want to get closer to him.

But something's holding me back.

Her anger.

Her anger is dreadful.

Right. How is Ada? Huh?

Which one of them makes you feel better?
Which one feels closer?

What did I do?
Did I m*rder someone?

What's this fine for?

You've got to be kidding me.
You know what?

I'd rather pay ten of these
than serve him again.

And you can tell him I said that.

Uh, what m*rder?

Look at this. We've been fined.

It's more than three months of rent
for this place.

Must be that asswipe.

We're barely staying afloat.

Culuk, coffee for Leyla.

- Hey, Fiko. Can I ask you something?
- Please.

Do you have an Instagram account
we can use for the tavern?

Instagram?

That's not really my thing. Why?

Hi, everyone.

So I'm at the hottest spot
in all of Cunda.

The appetizers are awesome.

The ambiance is truly amazing.

And the live music is epic.

So, if you're planning to stop by,
make sure to make a reservation.

It's already so hard
to find a free table in the evening.

I'll leave the phone number for you
and the link below.

And, honestly, what more
could you possibly ask for?

Fiko's place is the best.
Kiss goodbye to all the rest.

Kiss the what?

So you think this is gonna work?

Mm.

Yes, hello?

Yeah, this is Fiko's.

How many? Tonight?

Okay, music... We have music...

- Yeah... we do. Yes.
- Yeah, we do. Of course we have music.

Yeah, okay.

Yes, I'm making your reservation now.

He wants the music in the video?
What video?

Check it out, hon.

But that's Toprak.

I literally had to beg him to play.

How do we get him back?

Fiko, listen to me.

If I can get Toprak
to come and play here again,

will you make me
the new PR manager for your restaurant?

- Uh, PR?
- Uh-huh.

Watch this.

Hello?

Hi, Toprak. What's up?

So, hey. I have something to ask.

Remember how you asked me
to do you a favor the other day?

Mm-hm.

And I gave you Ada's number, didn't I?

Okay. Well, now I have a favor
to ask of you, darling.

So, my hand is shaking because
one of my ancestors is a m*rder*r, right?

And now everything will be fine again?
I don't even have to do anything?

I think you could draw poppies.

Or you could buy poppies
for your ancestors.

Hm.

Well, that makes total sense.

Now the only problem is,
that never happened in my family.

How are things with your mother?

Just ask her. Maybe she knows something.

His readings for me were so wrong.

Total waste of time.
Such ridiculous bullshit.

Ada, do you remember
that dream you used to have in college?

You used to wake up screaming in the dorm.

Okay, but anyway,
what does that have to do with Zaman?

What are you talking about?

There were poppies in that too,
just like that girl said.

Maybe in your subconscious,
you knew about all this,

which explains why you had
those dreams. Hm?

Sevgi, honey, there's simply nothing
scientific about any of this stuff.

It's all just pure nonsense.

Why don't you call Belgin
and ask her? Come on.

Maybe it actually happened.
How would you even know?

What do you have to lose, Ada?
Just call the woman. Come on.

Fine.

Ah...

Ada? Thank god you called.

I've been worried about you.

Are you all right?

I'm fine, Mom. I'm just busy.

Ada, you know what?

I was thinking about
maybe coming to Istanbul.

That's actually why I called, to ask
when the best time for you would be.

Uh...

It's been a long time.

Mom, I'm not there right now.

I have a quick question for you.
I don't have much time though.

Do you know of a woman in our family
who was m*rder*d by a man?

Maybe her father?

Uh, no. Where exactly is this coming from?

It's nothing.
It's not important. Never mind.

Uh, Mom, I have to go.
I'll call you later, okay?

Good night, Mom.

Mm.

Told ya. Never happened.

- Sevgi?
- How was I supposed to know?

He said it was just one time.

Would I have brought you here
if I knew he was gonna be playing?

Wow. Good work.

You really managed
to fill up the place, Leyla. Well done.

Let's talk about my salary then, shall we?

No problem.

Guess who just got a job here
as the new PR and social media manager.

Cunda is no match for me. Mm!

Congrats, Leyla.

So is the live music
part of your new job then? Hm?

Oh...

Please, don't be ridiculous.

He's harmless. Come on.

The old rocker Toprak is totally gone.

This poor guy is nothing like him.

Leyla, why would you...

Come on. We should get the check
and get outta here.

Answer.

Yes, Mom? I told you I was very busy.

- Her name was Zehra.
- What?

My mother's sister.

So she was my aunt.

I couldn't bring myself
to say it, but

during the w*r,
a g*ng of men raided the village.

They r*ped and k*lled her.

At least, that's what we thought.

Turns out,
it wasn't the real story.

Hey, Zehra.

My mother saw it all.

Her own father shot Zehra.

- Because, to him, she was a disgrace.
- Zehra?

Then, after all those years,

on her deathbed,
my mother started raving about Zehra.

How did you find out?

Nobody knew about this but me.

Listen, Mom. I'll call you tomorrow.

Love, what is it?

For too long, there's been a w*r
between your heart and your mind.

Soon, you may be put to a test.

Find out which you'll choose.

You came back.

- Oh no.
- It's okay. I got it.

Ada, slow down.

Ada, easy.

Don't treat me like I'm drunk.

Okay, let's get you home.

What are you talking about?
I don't even have a home.

I'm getting a divorce, all right?

I'm sorry.

You should be,
because it's all your fault.

It's all your fault.

And where the hell
did you come from, anyway?

Iceland, the Netherlands, or wherever.

- Just go back there!
- Ada, stop. Stop.

No, you stop.

You f*cking walked away
like nothing ever happened.

How dare you?

It was a mistake, okay?

Not that side.

I see your signature in the mirror.

I stitched you up real sloppy too.

But you deserved it.

Why'd you leave?

I was an idiot.

It might have been
the worst mistake of my life.

I'm sorry.

A buried past repeats itself,

in new generations and in new ways.

This is actually
not necessarily a problem...

...but rather a vital tool for survival.

Because those
who have passed through darkness before us

can also show the way out.

as*h*le!
You f*cking as*h*le!

Accepting the past
can change our feelings in the present.

But, when our feelings change,

does our future change as well?

♪ What if the past is not yet history? ♪

♪ And it's why my future
Gets away from me? ♪

♪ The bliss, the joy, and the victory ♪

♪ Are hidden in another self
deep inside of me ♪

♪ So tell me
If the past is not yet history ♪

♪ Could it be
Somewhere we've lost the harmony? ♪

♪ The muse, the spell, and the irony ♪

♪ Are sailing in another self
Deep inside of me ♪

♪ I came to smile
I came to cry ♪

♪ I came to fail, then grow up high ♪

♪ I came to fall
I came to love ♪

♪ I came to remember we're born to fly ♪

♪ I came to sing
I came to fight ♪

♪ I came to lose, then look upside ♪

♪ I came to doubt
I came to trust ♪

♪ I came to remind you
No one's born to die ♪

♪ No one's born to die ♪

♪ No one's born to die ♪

♪ Don't you see
The past is not just history ♪

♪ It's why you are you ♪

♪ And it's why I'm me ♪

♪ The spark, the taste, and the destiny ♪

♪ Are dancing with another self
Deep inside of we ♪

♪ So tell me if your past is not history ♪

♪ But it's why you're here... ♪