01x04 - In Dad We Distrust

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Okay. Great question.

So, you know,
from a therapeutic standpoint,

trust is the confidence one person has

and the reliability of another person.

Like, how much can you depend on a person

to do what they say
they're going to do, right?

Real talk, on a personal level.

Trust is not just something
that you give someone.

They have to earn it.

And if they lose it,
they have to earn it back.

Now, the problem with that is

they can't earn it back
unless you let them.

And the problem with that is
you will not let them

unless you trust them.

So it's a conundrum!

So, lizclark1981, I'm really sorry.

I hope that's helpful.

I have a feeling it might not be,
but you are not alone.

Good luck.

I can't believe you and Mal
are a thing already.

Didn’t you just meet?

Kind of, but not really.

I mean, you know,

I think when you find somebody
you're into, why wait?

And I'm doing something different.

Something I've never done before.

Instead of hiding
what I really want in the relationship--

The way you did with Bill?

Yes, exactly. I'm doing something new.

I'm being upfront and honest.

Huh.

What-what do you mean "huh"?

Well, with Bill,
when you finally did admit

you wanted a real
and committed relationship,

didn't he run, like, cartoonishly fast?

Like, so fast he stayed in place
for a hot minute

while smoke came out from under his feet?

Yes, but that was Bill.

Mal is totally different.

I was honest with him about what I want.

I said I want commitment and stability
and he did not run.

I think I can really trust--

Oh, God!

Oh, God. Okay.

Can I have, like,
a one, two, three, like a warning?

Sure.

I think Mal is the kind of guy
who sends flowers after sex

and I'm the kind of girl
who's ready to be into that.

Okay, I was wondering why you wanted to

t*rture your lady parts
on a random Tuesday morning.

Mm-hmm. Because I'm ready
to go to the next level.

And the next level is waxing

'cause you've got a trip to the bone zone.

No, don't say it like that.

Promise you'll tell me everything.

I will, because I know

that talking about
other people's sex lives

is your Monday Night Football.

Ow! Yeah. Jesus.

Oh, yeah, get in there.

Excuse me, sir.

Look at that face, why don't you?

How can I help you, Mona Lisa?

I need something special for--

Let me guess. Date night.

- Oh.
- You must be an extra small.

Oh, no. Maybe.

Uh-huh.
Mom?

- Can I have a--
- Sure, honey, whatever, go.

Um, I'm actually looking
for something special for my sister.

Your sister as cute as you?

Huh?

Uh-oh.
- Damn it!

Can't I have one minute?

I will be right back.

Okay.
Okay.

Lorelai!

It wasn't me. It was Cooper.

Oh.

Javi?

What time do we get lunch around here?

Lunch. What do you
think this is, kindergarten?

We get a 15-minute pee and smoke break.

And, uh, this is my lunch.

What, we don't get time
for a proper meal?

I told the guy I'm supposed to meet
my daughter and my grandson for lunch.

So you think Saving Grace Thrift Store
gives a f*ck about your lunch plans?

Uh, no, man. I don’t play like that.

I’m-I’m going to eat.

Thank you.

They got a whole restaurant
up in that spot.

Yeah. You never seen
a food truck before?

No, sir.

A damn good idea, actually.

Here's yours.
- Thank you.

Yeah.

Yours.

- Thank you.
- Uh-huh.

What the f*ck is that?

It’s a sushi burrito.

I told you not to let Mom order for you.

- No. It's delicious.
- Yeah.

The perfect tuna/rice ratio
wrapped in a beautiful--

You know, a better way to eat fish,

pan fried, covered in cornbread.

- That actually sounds good.
- It is good.

No, it's not good for you.

- But it's good.
- Still good.

No.

Oh, my God.

So is this your lunch break?

How are you having lunch at lunch?

Isn't that Parmesan Garden's,
like, busiest time?

Hmm. Actually, I got me
a new job, Paige.

Through Pastor Nelson
at the Saving Grace Thrift store.

I don't know if it's gonna work out.

Okay, stop. Go back. You quit your job?

No, that's not what I said.
That is what you just said.

We had an agreement.
What are you talking about?

You don't know if this new job
is "gonna work out"?

Let me explain.

No, I don't wanna hear about it

because my heart
right now is being so fast

and my amygdala, I can feel it
getting all kinds of activated

because based on past experience,

I don't know if I should believe you.

- Should I? Can I?
- If you would let me--

- No, I don't think I can.
- Mom. God, you're being annoying.

Oh, honey, thank you so much
for that feedback.

I'm just working through
a little something with granddad.

Okay, look,
this is where I would lie, okay?

But I'm trying really hard
to be different, Paige.

So I'm gonna tell you the truth.

I never actually got hired
at the Parmesan Garden.

Wow. Okay.

So what we're learning here

is that my trauma response was very real

because the body never lies.

I knew that he was lying.

Paige, they took back the offer

before I could even start.

I think what happened
is that you got fired

and now you're trying to cover it up.

I'm trying to tell you what happened.

Well, I don't want-- I'm done talking.

Please stop talking. Stop lying. Stop.

Where are you going?
- I need some air.

We're already outside, Paige.

Ugh.

Oh, my God.

Come on, sit down, Paige.

Let’s, uh, watch a show.

I don't wanna watch a show.

Well, tell me about your love life.

Well, you've been looking
real cute lately.

Ugh.

There's someone.

I know there is.

What?

Did you involve my son in these lies?

Because I let him drive you to work
so that you two could bond.

We have been bonding.

That's what I was afraid of.

Okay, you wanna know what happened?

Yes.
Okay.

The truth.

Finn would drop me
at the Parmesan Garden,

and I'd walk around back
and I would get into Nadine’s car.

Oh.

We would go to our spot

and I would make love to her

all afternoon...

...till my shift was over.

Finn don't know nothing about that.

Why can't you just trust me, baby girl?

You just admitted to lying
to me about your job

and f*cking your girlfriend all afternoon.

Trust doesn't work like that.

I have a big day tomorrow.

I'm working myself.

Good.

How do you work this sh*t?

You have to click on the app.

I don't know what the app is.

f*ck this.

Wait, wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.

Are we really doing this
in the middle of the day?

Because I feel like afternoon delight

might be more of
a fourth time than a first.

Oh, well, I just didn't know
how to quite get into this with you.

Me-me, like... me specifically?

No, no, no, no, no, no.

I mean, like, you know, uh--

I just didn't know what to do next.

Like, I wasn't sure what you like.

So, what would you like to do?

Wait.

Are you asking me what I would like to do?

I think that's what I just said.

That's so cool.

Nobody's ever asked me that before.

And since you liked it so much,
I'll ask you again.

What would you like to do?

Um--

I know what I don't wanna do.

Okay, I-I don't wanna do
some kind of performance,

you know, where you do
all your best moves,

and I do, like,
my reverse cowgirl and we--

Yeah.

It just--

I wanna make sure
that we really connect.

- Yeah?
- Hmm.

So I did all that stretching for nothing?

Tsk. Sorry.

Sorry.

How about if we

try to find actual connection
between us...

Okay.

...and just see where it leads?

I like that.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

I got me a new job.

A new job.

Okay. Oh, you know what?

Um--
What?

I just realized that my dad

could come home,
like, any minute, or Finn.

So, are you, are you kicking me out?

Oh, uh, no.

W-- Uh, yeah.

Um, those are mine.

Oh.

That's okay. You can wear mine.

Morning, Edwin.

Good morning. Good morning.

I'm giving you a warning.

For what?
Oh.

Spending too much time
with the lady customers, right?

You took
an unauthorized lunch yesterday.

No, I talked to, uh--

- No, you didn't tell me.
- Okay.

But since you know Pastor Nelson,
I'm not gonna fire you.

Yet.

Wow.

Not a lot of charity
at this here charity, huh?

Whoa.

f*ck!
m*therf*cker!

Holy sh*t.

Oh, my God. I’ll grab the Super Glue.

Oh, damn, son.

Did-- Did she say Super Glue?

No, you need stitches in that thing.

I did Charlie’s head
and his scar is almost gone.

What are you talking about?
It's three inches and dark blue.

Hell, no. You can't glue all them germs
inside your body, man.

Just go see a doctor, yeah?

I already took my break, man.

This ain’t about a break, man.

This is an emergency.

Now, look here.

I will cover for you.

They'll understand.

You get your stuff and you go. Go, go!

Super Glue? Huh?

Yeah, I mean--

Yeah, yeah. Okay. Okay.

So you missed the bus
to Mal's bone zone?

Where am I even here right now?

I only came for the TMI.

Do you think I need wallpaper in here?

'Cause I feel like I need an accent wall.

Do not deflect what happened with Mal.

And, yes, everyone needs an accent wall.

I don't know.

Maybe sex is not that important.

Since when?

Um--

Maybe mercury is in retrograde.

It went direct last weekend.

It did?
- Yeah. Paige?

What?
- What's going on?

Are you not attracted to him?

Oh, my God. You've seen him.

I mean, I'm definitely attracted to him.

I just. I don't-- I don't--

Is it your wax? You know,
sometimes they give you a little rash.

No, no, I'm fine.

You know, my nana is gorg.

I--

I-I thought I was ready, and he's amazing.

So, I don't know. I-I don't--

I don't get it.

Oh. I get it.

Mal is a stable, good guy.

If he were a liar, a cheater,

or got around town on a skateboard,

it would have been all bow-chicka-wow-wow.

But a guy who is
actually stable and cares,

we don't pick that,
because our picker is broken.

Busted, b*tch.

I-I-- I--

I don't know what to do.

I mean--

Let's start with more wine, obviously.

Yeah. Yeah. You're so pretty and smart.

There we go.

- Twelve stitches.
- Ohh.

And you wanted to glue that sh*t, right?

- Yeah.
- Yeah!

Javi?

Can I speak with you?

That guy is such an a*s.

- What's up?
- We've already been through this before.

I mean, yeah, but my hand--

I have to let you go.

Oh. Hey, Greg. Greg.

Come on, you can't do that, man.

The man was injured.

Edwin, don't even bother, man.

You know, it's just a--

It's just how it is, you know.

Finneas.

No, no, no. Please come back. Come back.
I need to talk to you.

Uh-oh.

So you've been driving
my dad to work at Saving Grace, yes?

Yes.
Yeah.

And are you sure that he's going inside?

Like when you get there, do you see him
open the door and walk through it?

Don't laugh.

I cannot have him lie to me.

Why are you so hard on him?

Oh, sweetheart, you do not understand.

You're right.
I don't.

He's really trying, Mom.

You won’t even give him a chance.

Okay, well, he lives here,
so that's a chance.

It's like you don't even know him.

Okay. And you do?

Yeah, actually.

I do.

No. No, no, no. No, no, no, no, no.

- Stop, stop, stop.
- What are you doing?

You don't get to walk away
like you know everything.

I know things.

You don't have to make the bed, Edwin.

Yeah, you just like for me
and mess it up, right?

That's right.

Where you going?

None of your business.

Where are you going now?

Hanging with my grandson.

Uh-huh.

Yeah.

Paige has a date
but she won’t say with who.

Oh. Glad to hear she learned
something from me.

Yeah.
How's work going?

- It's terrible.
- Aw.

But it's a job, you know.

Without a job,

I don't have a daughter.

Or a grandson.

Or my freedom.

So I'm dealing with it.

Hold up.

Does Nadine Gregory
actually care about me?

I ain't just some--

f*ck boy?

No, you're a f*ck boy.

But I also actually care about you.

You know, you should go
into business for yourself.

Don’t I know it?
Mm-hmm.

The question is,

what should I do?

Something where you get to make money
off your strongest skills.

Hmm.
- But legal.

- Yeah.
- Now--

I'm not trying to make you go, but...

...you gotta go.

You think

we’ll ever really be
in a real relationship again?

What's so funny, Nadine?

Oh.

Remember when you used
to have so much power over me?

'Course I do.
Hmm.

I like it better this way.

So I open the bag and inside

is this, you know,
hot pink, glittery bowling ball.

That is incredibly random.

Yeah, I mean, I-I'd bowled
with my dad maybe once before,

but I legit lost my eight-year-old mind.

Oh, my God.

I can only imagine.

So, I'm really sorry about yesterday.

Mm--

I get it. I understand.

You got a lot going on.

You know, I-I don't,
I don't take it personal.

You're so evolved and... aware.

Wait, is that what I'm like?

Mm-hmm. Yeah.
Ooh.

Well, Esti says I'm annoying.

Oh.

She's wrong.

So, um, I was thinking that,

um, you know, with this whole situation,

maybe we need to deal with the--

Ethical implications.

Yes!
Yeah.

I love that you get it.

I'm evolved and aware.

It's annoying.

Okay.

This is new territory for me.

I've never dated anyone
related to one of my clients and--

Oh, now you know why.

Because I am such a mess and anxious and--

No, Paige.

You are sensitive and beautiful and funny.

And you're dealing with
a lifetime of being hurt

by people who should have
been taking care of you.

I see it every day in my job.

Yeah. And now my trust issue
is living in my house

and lying to me
and listening to Coltrane on a loop.

You know, if you wanna
make progress for yourself,

you have to be open to letting Edwin

be someone he's never been before.

That's dangerous.

You know, I-I have known him
a lot longer than you have.

Sure.

Well, sometimes you have
to try believing in something

so you can see it.

Don't play it safe, Finn.

Come on, make your bet.

Make your best bet.

Uh--

What you got?

I think that's a flush.
Oh, sh*t.

That's a royal flush right there.

My boy! My boy!

Farming the noobs over here.

You sure you never played before?

'Cause I'm feeling hustled right now.

Well, I play a game called
Magic: The Gathering.

And if you think about variance--

Variance?

No, no, no, no, no, no,
listen to the boy, Fox.

Like, uncertainty.

Card games are all about
just standing in the gap

between the known and the unknown.

But we don’t have to stand there.

We can move.

We have the ability
to change what happens to us.

See, that's what
I'm starting to figure out.

It's called agency, son.

sh*t's deep.

Ante up.

God.

What am I doing?

Oh. Nadine with a horse.

No, thank you.

You were telling the truth.

Ten dollars is not an apology.

Is that Miss Sushi Burrito...
frying something?

Yes. I am making you some fish.

This is the way you like it, right,

with, uh, cornbread
and lots of trans fats.

The way God intended.

Um,

I think that I have been

very judgmental, controlling...

and fearful.

Yeah.

And I'm sorry.

I believe you
about your whole work situation.

I appreciate that.

I think that you're doing a great job,

and I don't say that enough.

Well--

Thank you.

You know, Paige...

this has been f*ck' hard.

But you supporting me
makes me wanna keep trying.

Well--

let me know how it is.

Oh, yeah.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

I'm ready.

Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Okay. Yeah?

Yeah. Let's go.

Ohh.

So, you're bald down there, huh?

Yeah. Yeah, why, is it weird?

Nah, it's... it’s different.

Yeah, good different or bad different?

' Cause there are a lot of
different kinds of different--

Kiss me.

Thank you.

You're late, Edwin.

Greg. My man.

Uh... I'm actually right on time, Greg,

'cause I didn't actually come to work.

I came to tell you that the way
you're treating folk is wrong.

People who donate, Greg,

they trust that you're doing good.

My daughter, she says
that trust is the confidence

that one person has
in the reliability of another.

Now by that by that measure,

you’re doing bad, Greg.

I got treated better in the joint, man.

Now, all these people right here,

they can't say this to you because they

have no other way to make money.

So you know what?

I will say it for them.

f*ck you, Greg.

Oh!

f*ck you... Greg.

So you're quitting?

This job?

Oh, yeah.

I got something better to do, Greg.

Go on, Greg!

That's how you quit a job.

That's a lot of flowers.

It certainly is.

Not gonna read the card?

I mean, what could a card say

that these giant stargazer lilies
aren't already saying?

What are they saying?

Um, I don't know.

That whoever sent them is a good person.

And wants to show me in a concrete way

that they're trustworthy

and available for real intimacy.

Ew.

Is that a good thing?

Ice cream! You scream!

We all scream for ice cream.

What is this?

It's a money-making machine, baby.

If these fools can make
a living off of food trucks,

I'm about to k*ll this.

Yeah, so your new business is a bike?

You get it, don't you?
Hey, you wanna ring the bell?

You know you want to.

Go ahead. Go ahead.

Hit it. Hit it, man.

Put some muscle in that thing.
Put some muscle in it.

Come on. Dig in.

Ouch!

Do it again. Do it again. Do it again.

Ahh!

Woo-hoo.