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01x02 - Independence is Scary

Episode transcripts for the TV show, "Gypsy Rose: Life After Lock Up". Aired: June 3, 2024.*
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Follows Gypsy Rose Blanchard as she experiences life as a free woman, including reconnecting with family and finally living with her husband Ryan Anderson for the first time.

01x02 - Independence is Scary

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- [Woman] Gypsy was

Dee Dee's daughter,

but also her prisoner.

- Hospitals is what I knew,

surgeries is what I knew.

I have always had

a difficulty letting go

of my ex-fiance, Ken.

- Gypsy Blanchard

will be set free.

- She's ready to go home to

Louisiana with her husband.

- Oh my God. I did not sleep.

Oh, it feels so

weird being in a car.

- Yeah. You're free.

We're being followed.

[Gypsy groans]

- [Bystander] Any plans?

- Lots of them.

- Made it.

- Hey!

We got another situation

going on though.

- I just need a minute, okay.

I'm so sorry. [sobbing]

I don't know

- [Kristy] Don't be sorry!

- I do not feel free right now.

I am in a different

form of prison.

[suspenseful music]

[Gypsy crying]

[gentle pensive music]

[Gypsy crying]

[Kristy faintly speaking]

- [Kristy] It's okay.

- [Gypsy] [sobbing] I'm sorry.

- [Kristy] Like I said, there

is nothing to be sorry about.

[tense music]

[people chattering]

- [Gypsy] I'm just

scared about them saying,

okay, you're being

argumentative.

Okay, you're

getting a violation.

- [Mike] Okay.

- [Gypsy] You're

getting sent back.

- So first of all,

you have to actually

commit a violation

for them to revoke

you, which you haven't.

Right now the guy that

we need to deal with is,

sounds like he was missing

a piece of information.

- Mmm-hmm.

- We'll sort this out.

- [Gypsy] Okay.

- Okay?

- [Ryan] Thanks, boss.

- [Mike] Yeah.

- Thank you.

[gentle music]

I'm a very responsible person

and I'm not gonna

argue with anyone.

If they give me a

directive, I will follow it.

They always say,

the justice system is meant

to fail an individual,

but I'm not gonna let them.

It's whatever it

takes to keep me free.

[gentle tense music]

[phone ringing]

[people chattering]

[phone ringing]

- [Ryan] This is Ryan.

Hold on one second for me, sir.

Let me get Gypsy.

[people chattering]

[Ryan murmurs]

[somber music]

[Ryan murmurs]

- Hello?

- Okay, would that

be immediately or,

or tomorrow morning.

- Okay, tomorrow morning?

- If that is yes,

if that is okay,

because we have like, literally

not even slept two hours.

- Twelve.

- Yes.

- Yes and it takes

roughly about 13 hours.

- Okay.

- All right. Thank you.

- [Parole Officer] Thank you.

[phone beeps]

- Okay.

- [Rod] It's settled. Good.

- It's settled.

- [Ryan] It's settled.

- I could live with that.

Let's enjoy today.

- I can live with that.

[people laughing, chattering]

- That's the main thing

is I don't wanna go back.

I didn't know what

all was gonna happen

and I'm just kind of like, I'm

overwhelmed with everything.

And I'm like, I don't

wanna go back to prison.

I don't wanna do anything

that they are not okay with.

- [Ryan] Right.

- I'm like, I feel

like I've done my part.

- Right. You have.

You have. Look at me, you have.

- Okay.

- And you know,

it sucks we won't be able

to stay in [indistinct].

But it's okay.

- I'm okay with that.

- [Ryan] Yeah.

- I'm just kind of like

the going back to

Louisiana right now.

- Right. That's the kicker.

We didn't wanna do that.

- Right.

- And now we got directed,

we can enjoy the day,

enjoy the night, wake up have

breakfast in the morning then go

- [Gypsy] Okay.

- and well go back to our home.

- Okay.

- Okay?

- [Gypsy] I love you.

- [Kristy] So, what'd

you do last night?

- Was the bed comfy?

- The bed was comfy and,

it was so nice.

It was so nice.

We consummated our marriage.

[Kristy laughing]

[Gypsy laughing]

- [Kristy] Silly

girl, silly girl.

- You're so happy for me.

- [Kristy] You're a silly girl.

[Gypsy laughing]

[laughing]

- Bragging rights.

Girl, you deserve that.

- I'm happy that, you know,

it was with the right person.

You know, that's important.

- [Mia] I just wanted to have

a little girl talk with you.

- [Gypsy] Okay.

- Birth control, did

you figure that out?

- Okay.

Do you want kids right away?

- I mean, I want kids.

I just, I don't think that

right away would be smart.

- Agreed.

- I'm not gonna say that,

if it happened,

I would be sad.

I just don't think

that, I'm not gonna try.

I just wanna settle

into marriage.

I know in my heart that

the marriage is stable,

It's like, is this my life.

but I just wanna

feel it out first.

- Do you think that

all the medication and the

surgeries may have hindered

your ability?

- I'm not, I'm hoping not.

I've had regular

periods, you know,

I've had two pap

smears in prison.

They all came back normal.

But like, I don't know.

- You should probably schedule

a gynecologist appointment.

- Yeah, yeah.

- Soon.

Probably could find out

how many eggs you have left

and all that.

And if you are able to.

- Mmm-hmm.

- And me talking

to you about this

is not me telling you to

have babies or me like-

- [Gypsy] I know.

- I want you to have kids.

I just don't want-

- [Gypsy] No, I know, I know.

- To prevent that.

- [Gypsy] Right, you

just wanna make sure

that I'm doing the right thing.

- Yeah.

- I get it.

- [Mia] When it's on your time.

- Yeah, I understand.

Thank you.

- You're welcome.

Somebody has to.

Now, you have a sister

to talk to about this.

- Thank you!

Thank you, sis.

Love you.

- Love you, too.

- Okay.

- I'm very hopeful

and I'm worried,

for sure.

I'm worried about the world.

It's like she's a

new little born baby

and I don't want

anything to hurt her.

I know she wants to do

things with her life

and she wants to

find her purpose

and she's excited for that.

And I'll be there to

help her figure it out

as much as I can be.

[gentle bright music]

- To freedom.

- Let's pop one up, right?

- [Gypsy] Right.

- All right, one, two, three.

- Three.

[bottle cap pops]

[everyone exclaims]

[Gypsy laughs]

- The color palettes of freedom

are so bright and fibrous.

- [Mia] Smile like you're happy.

- Smile like you mean it.

In prison, it's

white walls, gray,

strong metal.

[family laughing]

This is what I've

been missing out on.

It's amazing. [laughing]

Hmm, oh, that's so good.

I feel very weird.

Being in front of an

audience. [laughing]

Oh my goodness.

These, I think, will fit!

I have fat calves.

- Suck it in. I'm just kidding.

[Gypsy laughs]

- [Ryan] You see, I was leaving?

- You're about

ready to get kicked.

- Her road right now is hills,

spirals, u-turns, everything.

Everything has been

thrown at her, you know,

from having all this family

time to cutting it short.

But it is what it is.

I mean, she's gonna have

to put her seatbelt on

pretty tight. [laughing]

That's what I'm gonna say.

Hold on 'cause it's

gonna be a bumpy ride.

But she always has me.

We're her tribe.

- And this is my

big present to you.

- Okay.

Ooh!

Christian Louboutin!

These are really nice.

- [Kristy] Those are stunning.

- Okay.

Awwww!

- [Kristy] Read it.

- Never forget that I love

you forever and always.

I hope that you

believe in yourself

as much as I believe in you.

Always keep me in your heart.

For you are always in mind.

Nothing and no one, not even

time will ever change that.

You are braver than you believe,

stronger than you seem,

smarter than you think and

love more than you know.

I can't promise to be here

for the rest of your life,

but I can promise to love

you for the rest of mine.

Love, dad.

- [Ryan] Aw.

- Aw.

Don't make me cry now!

I have been solid!

And this is gonna

make cry. [laughs]

- I've always been

daddy's little girl.

It's different having

a sister come in.

But I've had my

dad for 22 years.

She hasn't.

I know that what I have

with my dad is a good thing

and I want them to

build that, as well.

and I want them to

build that, as well.

I want them to have that.

And I can't wait to watch it.

- Now you gotta get

a hug [indistinct].

Let's throw all this

trash. [laughing]

- [Rod] I love you.

[gentle music]

[clock ticking]

- This morning, Gypsy

Rose Blanchard posted

her first social media post

since being released

from prison yesterday.

It was a selfie on Instagram

with the caption "First

selfie of Freedom."

- She truly looks so happy.

- Gypsy Rose's family

had a welcome home party.

Mia captioned the

photos with saying,

"The sweetest, hello.

Welcome home sister."

- Some really disappointing news

just came out about Gypsy Rose

and her going to the

Chiefs' game tomorrow.

Unfortunately, she

will not be attending

because she has been ordered

to leave the state of Missouri

by her parole officer,

according to TMZ.

[worrisome music]

[jewelry clanks]

- Crap.

[pensive music]

- I'm trying to

get this necklace.

- I love spending

time with my husband.

We've been having sex the

last two nights. [laughing]

Even in here. [laughing]

I was like, "Shut

up!" [laughing]

- Even with the

family. [laughing]

That's why I slept so

good last night. [laughs]

- [Mia] We gotta go home.

I see you getting antsy.

- [Rob] Yeah.

- What time is y'all flight?

- [Mia] I'm hungry, too.

- [Rod] 12:30.

- [Gypsy] 12:30.

- So y'all be careful.

Have fun. Enjoy.

- Thank you.

- I will, I will.

- [Kristy] Yeah.

- [Gypsy] I love you.

- [Rod] Roger?

- I love you, too.

- I'll see you soon.

[tense music]

- [Mia] All right, love you.

- [Kristy] Love you, too.

- Love you.

From start to present,

I think it has just been a

whirlwind for me of emotions

and ups and downs.

I feel like the

stakes are high as far

as that I have to

do good on parole.

That is literally my biggest

fear is going back to prison

for another year and a half.

I don't wanna risk

that for anything.

My first priority will

always be my freedom.

[reflective music]

[tense music]

- [Ryan] You ready

for this [bleep]?

- [Gypsy] Yeah, I'm just

ready to get out on the road.

[tense music]

There's just two of 'em

right now, which is good.

[tense music]

[tense music continues]

That [bleep] is right behind me.

- Just ignore 'em.

[tense music]

- [Ryan] All right, you

gonna call the PO?

- [Gypsy] All right.

- All right, be good.

[phone ringing]

- Hi, this is Gypsy

Rose Blanchard

and I just wanted to call

and let y'all know

that we are driving

back to Louisiana as we speak.

- [Parole Officer] Alright,

I do appreciate you calling.

- [Ryan] Absolutely.

- Thank you so much.

All right, have a good day.

- [Parole Officer]

All right, thank you ma'am.

- Okay. Bye.

- [Parole Officer] Bye-bye.

- Yep, I just wanna keep

them on the up and up.

- Good, baby.

[gentle xylophone music]

Look at this [bleep].

- Yes. Paparazzi,

we were hungry.

- [Ryan] Yep.

- And we gotta eat, you know.

- Not really.

There's a guy taking

our picture right there.

Like now I'm about to

give him a closeup.

This is Gypsy Rose Blanchard.

- Hi.

- [Worker] Oh, that

must suck. I'm so sorry.

- It's okay.

- Yeah, there's nothing

that they can do.

- Second day out, you know,

it's something I

gotta get used to.

- [Worker] Yeah, how it is?

- You know? [laughing]

- [Worker] Here you are.

- I just wonder how

many pictures does

he actually need of us?

- [Worker] Well, I hope

you have a better day.

- Thanks, thank you, guys.

- [Gypsy] Thank you.

- All right, don't

eat in front of him.

- Oh.

[pensive music]

Oh, these are so good.

- [Ryan] Are they good, baby?

- They're very good.

- [Ryan] Good.

- Hmm.

I am concerned.

Is paparazzi gonna follow us

all the way back to Louisiana?

Are they gonna follow

us back to our home?

That's not what I want.

I think there was

a mass difference

of what my expectation was.

I expected it, but

not that intense.

[tense music]

[cars whirring]

I think this necklace looks

so pretty with this sweater.

- [Ryan] Oh, it's gorgeous.

I just wish my name was in it.

- Later on in life, I

wanna get another one

where I could have.

- Yeah.

[Ryan laughs]

[Gypsy laughs]

- [Ryan] No!

- "I'm so happy

she's outta prison."

- [Ryan] RG?

- [Gypsy] KU.

- No!

- Yes.

- Mother.

[Gypsy laughs]

And of course Kristy

let you know about it.

- It's not like she singled

him out and was like,

"By the way, Ken texted me."

- Too late, buddy.

[tense music]

- [Gypsy] Ken is my ex-fiance.

Ken and I first started

dating in September of 2017.

We were together for two years.

Even though he was in the free

world and I was in prison,

this was my first

actual relationship

that was long term.

Right before we were

gonna get married,

he ended the relationship.

It devastated me.

I think he pretty much

gave me every breakup line

you can think of in the book.

[tense music]

- Of course! Baby.

- I just wouldn't

have told you that.

You know what I call him?

Dumb mother.

[tense music]

[heavy pensive music]

- [Gypsy] Is that guy

still following us?

- Oh yeah, he's back there.

Vultures, man.

Another thing

- Bye, thank you.

Bye-bye, go home.

- Yes, they pulled off!

Yeah!

[suspenseful music]

Hey, baby, how do you feel?

We're about to be out of

the state of Missouri.

- Oh, I feel relieved.

- Yeah, we are so close.

- [Gypsy] I feel relieved.

[laughing]

- [Ryan] Hey look, here we go.

You see it?

- I see it.

[hand tapping] I beat you.

- [laughing] You're so silly.

[Ryan laughs]

- Goodbye, Missouri.

- Yep. Goodbye, Missouri.

- I don't wanna be back.

I'm just happy to leave

all of that behind.

Go with a fresh start.

You know?

- New state.

- New state. New start.

- New life.

[reflective music]

[light bright music]

[light bright music continues]

- Alexa!

Play, "Shake It Off,"

by Taylor Swift.

- [Alexa] Should I

start your free trial

and play, "Shake It

Off," Taylor's version?

- Yes.

- [Alexa] You're

missing a payment method

so I can't sign you up.

- [Gypsy] Are you

still unpacking?

- [Ryan] Yeah, we got

a lot to unpack, baby.

We got Christmas presents.

We gotta figure out

where we're gonna put

some of this stuff.

- What drawers would be mine?

- If you want this

whole thing, it's yours.

- Okay.

Who do you think is

gonna take up more space?

- [laughing] Not

even up for debate.

- I think a lot of

people felt like

I should have waited

in getting married

and I know that.

Now they feel more comfortable.

Like my family feels more

comfortable with Ryan.

and now that they've got

to spend time with him.

But I think my dad is skeptical.

I mean, it's

something I expected,

I expected my dad to

still have, not concerns,

but almost like prove it to me

that things are gonna be okay.

But the transition from

prison relationship

to full-fledged marriage,

I feel like it's

transitioning beautifully.

Oh, this is so cute!

- [Ryan] Isn't that cute?

- I love this.

Okay, I gotta look at all the

different cat pictures now.

- Yep.

Being home with Gypsy is great.

I'm glad to be

doing my own thing.

I got her to myself.

You know, it's funny,

I have been waiting a

long time to be with her.

So has her family.

And I know they're

probably a little jealous

that I got a lot of

her time and I get it

and I'm okay with sharing her.

At the same time, nobody knows

her quite as well as I do.

She wanted me to pick her up.

She wanted this, she wanted

to move here with me.

But like her parents are

planning on coming over tomorrow

and spending more time with

her and I'll give their time.

You know, it's no biggie.

But that's my time too, so.

- I'm gonna turn on the light.

This is

a bra

that if you put

it in a nice bow,

it's like a Christmas

present bow.

And as you can see,

it's very short.

There's nothing to it.

So he bought these for me

about two and a half years ago.

We just started dating

and I think he had

like full confidence

that we would work out perfect.

I always wanted to wear

this one for the first time,

but I ended up just

being like [exclaiming],

"All right, let's

do this." [chuckles]

A big part of womanhood is

learning to be comfortable

with our sexuality.

And for years I wasn't.

I'm self-conscious because I

have scars all over my body.

And I had a lot of surgeries

that were unnecessary.

And so I'm like, "Am I gonna

be what he wants me to be?

Am I attractive to him?"

And even to the

point that I'm like,

"Don't even look

at me down there!"

You know, don't because.

And he's like, "It's okay."

For a long time I actually

kind of like questioned

like my own sexuality

because as a teenager

or a preteen,

I felt that I was

attracted to girls.

And I got to experiment

with that in prison.

I think I've kissed more

girls than I have guys.

I had such big fears

that I was like,

"What happens if I'm

just not gonna like sex?"

I feel like I don't

have a sex drive.

There is a rule against

masturbation in prison.

Not only do you have the risk of

if you get caught masturbating,

but for me, I can go six

months and just be fine.

And I'm like, what

happens if I just,

I'm not a sexual being?

And so I'm discovering

things about myself.

I'm like, I'm a

freak! [laughing]

[light rhythmic music]

- All right, we got a couple

special treats for y'all.

- All right.

Some non-alcoholic.

- [Rod] And then sparkling rose.

- Stuff.

Okay, I'm gonna love

the sparkling rose.

- That's what I figured.

Because it's you.

Gypsy's never had steak before

so I made sure to get

a nice cut of ribeye.

- Been while since I got a kiss.

[lips smacking]

- Hmm.

- Thank you.

- Give me another one.

[lips smacking]

Hmm.

[Rod] All right, you

ready to do this?

Thank you.

- Can I tell you something

that I've never told

you guys before?

- [Kristy] Tell me.

So you remember

whenever you and dad

came to my wheelchair games,

you know the wheelchair

races that I was in?

So after,

when y'all left,

my mom said that dad was

making fun of me and that-

- Like, as if.

- I know.

But she said, "This is why I

don't invite them to anything

because you know

what your dad said?"

And I said, "What?"

She's like, "He

called you a ret*rd."

[tense music]

- No, that's how she saw you.

And we didn't see you like that.

Never once!

Never once would we-

- And it-

- And it-

- [Kristy] But it

just goes to show.

- Yeah.

- [Kristy] You know how much

she tried to pull you away.

- It's like it was just

comment after comment

and after so many years,

comments build up.

- [Kristy] Yeah.

- You know?

And opinions are formed, so.

- [Kristy] Yeah.

- I wish that my mom could

have been honest with me.

I mean, she twists

things in stories

to make herself seem

holier art than now.

But with my dad,

I think we're headed to a

really, really good place.

I think we're in

a good place now,

but I think we're gonna be able

to foster that relationship

we always wanted to

have with each other.

- [Rod] Where's the beef?

- [Gypsy] Take a picture

with me and the steak.

- [Kristy] Take more than one.

[gentle banjo music]

- Lord God, heavenly

Father, we gather tonight

to give you thanks, Lord.

Thanks for bringing

Gypsy back home to us.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

- [All] Amen.

- All right.

- Very nice.

- Oh, yeah, this is amazing.

Mmm-hmm.

- [Kristy] Aurora's gonna beg.

She'll be looking

straight at you, Dad.

[all laughing]

[gentle music]

[inaudible dialogue]

- [Gypsy] So I was thinking

about wearing this.

It's a shame we don't

wear the same size.

Try to do it before-

- And the shoes.

- [Kristy] Ooh, that's

gonna look nice.

- I know!

- You've come a long way.

- Mmm-hmm.

[reflective music]

- When I was fixing her makeup

and she closed her eyes,

all I saw was Mia.

And that's when I

was like, "Oh my God,

You know, I could have been

helping you with everything."

And to be able

for a dream to

become a reality is

unmeasurable.

Look, see?

- I like that. Yeah.

- Rub.

Go. Up and down, up down.

There you go. There you go.

[Gypsy laughing]

You see, y'all

learning the tricks.

You see how it makes it look?

A little more

pronounced, you know?

- Yeah.

Oh, the necklace.

- I have never been

dressed like this before.

You know, looking

at myself right now,

like I never thought that I'd

look this pretty, you know?

This is just not something

that I ever saw for

myself. [laughing]

I guess I just, I

knew that my mom

would never let

me look like this.

Having long hair

and wearing a really

low cut dress.

I'm not used to

looking in the mirror

and liking how I look.

So this is definitely

a little bit of a shock.

Kind of like a little

Cinderella moment. [laughing]

I'm k*lling it! [laughs]

[gentle reflective music]

- [Rod] Oh, wow.

- [Ryan] Wow.

- Gorgeous!

Sparkly.

Gypsy Rose Blanchard Anderson.

[men exclaiming]

You look beautiful.

- How do I look?

- Oh my God.

That's my wife.

- I know.

This is your wife.

- [Kristy] That is your wife.

- What you whatcha

gonna do about it.

[Kristy laughing]

- [Kristy] He's like,

I'm gonna [indistinct].

- You look so good.

I love the necklace you got on.

- Thank you.

- [Kristy] She has on

her dad's necklace.

- Yeah, this is the

necklace that dad got me.

Yeah.

- You look beautiful.

- Thank you.

- [Rod] All right,

Ryan, come around.

I wanna do a toast.

- [Gypsy] Okay.

- I just wanna say a few words.

Ryan, you're a good guy.

I like your family.

Gypsy, I'm so proud of you.

You've come so far, darling.

I love you so much and

I'm just [heavily sighs].

I'm so happy for you.

- Thank you, daddy.

- So to y'all wedding

and your new life.

- Cheers.

- Cheers.

- Cheers.

- Cheers.

- All right. Let's party.

Let's dance!

- Woo.

- Thanks, Dad.

[gentle reflective music]

- [Rod] 10.

- [All] Nine.

Eight.

Seven.

Six.

Five.

Four.

Three.

Two.

One!

[bottle caps pop]

[all screams

- We are in 2024!

- Happy New Year, baby.

[lips smacking]

Happy New Year, y'all.

- [Gypsy] Happy New Year. Yay!

- [Kristy] We did it!

[Gypsy yells]

I can be myself

with all this room ♪

Like a flower

blooming in spring ♪

When we're together

we have everything ♪

After every setting sun

Yeah, we always get it on

A new days come

- [Rod] I never thought I'd

dance with her standing up,

you know, maybe in a wheelchair

one day or something.

But it was really nice

to see how beautiful she is

and just dance with her.

Hold her.

And I know it's never easy

- You're a good dancer.

You hold me up

together like the moon ♪

I can be myself

with all this room ♪

And we're always

on the upswing ♪

- [Rod] Just to live

what she's been through

and what she's done,

she's taken it all.

She's taken everything

her mom has thrown at her.

And what society's

given her so far.

I think she has

something more to give.

I really believe that.

[gentle music]

- As a little girl,

I didn't imagine that

I would be dancing

with my dad one day, you know?

'Cause I didn't think

that he was gonna be

a part of my life.

So that was special for me.

[gentle music]

[giggling] That was beautiful.

- It was.

Fit me in?

Nine, eight, seven.

- [Family] Six,

five, four, three,

two, one.

When we're together

we have everything ♪

[gentle music]

- The person that got arrested,

I think it's a version of myself

that I have completely

left behind.

[gentle music]

Yes, I'll always have

the stigma on me.

[fireworks explodes]

But I'm working to change that.

No one thing stays the same.

People evolve.

Creatures evolve.

This is my evolution.

[gentle music]

[clock ticking]

- I cannot get over this.

Gypsy Rose Blanchard

has been pretty active

on her new Instagram account

since her release from

prison a few days ago.

And she just posted this

picture with her husband,

Ryan Anderson.

She captioned it, "A New Year's

Eve Eve kiss with my hubby."

It looks like in the background,

they have a little

just married sign.

They have a Ryan and

Gypsy sign up there

and it seems like

maybe this could be

where they're living together.

It is so sweet.

[light upbeat music]

- You know, like Ryan's

a really good cook.

My mom was a really good cook.

Kristy can't cook. [laughing]

The only thing I've learned

to cook is these pasta sides,

which are my favorite.

Instructions are

pretty simple so far.

But that's all that I've

tested the waters with.

Gotta start somewhere, right?

I was worried about that

when we got married.

I'm like, you know, "I

don't know how to cook.

Hadn't had a sex

life to speak of.

So I'm like, God knows.

Why did you marry me?"

You know?

I didn't want him to feel

like I'm a dependent on him.

My whole life I had been

a dependent on my mother.

She drove us everywhere.

She cooked, she cleaned,

she did everything.

So basically, all I had to

do for 24 years of my life

was just exist.

All I needed to do is be

taught and there we go,

another gain of independence

checked off my list.

[Ryan sighs]

- You back?

- Never send a big man to

the store hungry, baby.

[Ryan sighs] [bleep]

[Gypsy laughing]

- Let's see what you got.

I'm gonna wait for you to come

in here so I can show you.

- Show me what, how

to make a nasty rack?

- Yeah.

[Ryan gags]

When I was still in prison,

I told them about a

favorite drink of mine.

It's instant coffee with a soda.

For flavor, you crush

up some Jolly Ranchers,

add that to it.

You mix it all together,

and also juice.

And then you serve it over ice.

And we call it a rack.

- So how often would you

drink this in prison?

- I drink it like

every other day or so.

[Ryan scoffs]

Or at least twice a week.

So look how thick

that is because-

- You don't cook, but

you do this [bleep]?

- I know, right?

[hammer thudding]

- I hope your PO don't

come in right now.

"Look at this

powder everywhere."

- Okay, this is gonna

foam a little bit.

- [Ryan] Good God!

- All right, now the

foam will dissolve.

- [Ryan] Oh, so it's done?

- Yeah, it's done.

That's all it is.

[Ryan gags]

Pour it.

[Gypsy laughs]

[Ryan scoffs]

You might not like

it because it's coffee.

- I can tell you right

now I'm not gonna like it.

Do you see that chunk of [bleep]

just laying on top? [exclaims]

- It's the Jolly

Ranchers. It's flavor.

- You really expect

me to drink this?

- Come on. [laughing]

[curious music]

- Things you do for love.

- Cheers.

- I love you.

- Oh yeah, that's

good. [laughing]

- Baby, that's so bad.

- It's not bad. [laughing]

- It's so bad.

- It's not bad. It's good.

[playful music]

So, let's talk about

this whole puppy thing.

- I know you want a dog.

- Mmm-hmm.

- I know you want

one right away.

- Mmm-hmm.

- But like, there's

other logistics

we need to think about.

- Like what?

- Well like, you know

we're in an apartment.

- There's lots of

people with dogs.

- If it was up to, you'd

go get the puppy today.

[Gypsy laughs]

- Maybe.

- When Ryan goes back to work,

I just don't wanna like lonely.

I've never been alone

a day in my life.

I have always had my mother.

Then I went to prison and

had three other roommates

and lived in communal

living within a prison.

So I've never been alone.

And I don't know

how that will feel.

Independence and

freedom is scary

because at least in prison,

things are controlled.

Freedom, you never know what

the next day is gonna bring.

- I mean, what is a Malshi?

- [laughing] Did you google it?

- A Malshi is a Maltese

and a Shih Tzu combined.

That's what it is. Look.

[Gypsy laughs]

- I see quite a

few Husky puppies,

but a husky, we can't

have a husky here.

- I want a Malshi.

- All right. I'm working on it!

[both laughing]

- So violent.

- I'm not violent!

Take it back.

- I take it all

the way back, baby.

- You better.

Done. Fine.

[curious music]

You're hovering.

Thank you.

[Ryan groans]

[curious music]

- [Ryan] I don't know, babe.

Like I would love for

you to have the dog.

- Mmm-hmm.

- When I'm at work.

- [Gypsy] I don't

see any issues.

- I mean, it's a lot

of responsibility.

- I mean, I don't

see any issues.

I stay at home.

- True.

- While you're at work.

It's not like I'm

going to a nine to five

and leaving the puppy by itself.

I'm gonna be here at the

apartment by myself, so.

- And you want a puppy, puppy?

- Mmm-hmm.

- [Ryan] You wanna start

from the ground up?

- Yeah.

- [Ryan] What do

you wanna name it?

- Oh, we haven't

even picked one out,

let alone ready for a name.

- True.

I say we call it hormonal.

- I'm not hormonal.

I'm just a woman.

- Okay, well let's

call it a woman.

- No.

- Okay.

Because at an apartment, baby,

you have to take 'em for walks.

- Dang it.

- And you have to

pick up their pee

and you have to pick up

their poop and stuff.

- Mmm-hmm. I'm not an idiot.

I know how to care for a dog.

- I didn't say

you were an idiot.

Baby, I didn't say

you were an idiot.

[tense music]

[door slams]

[tense music]

I didn't call you

an idiot, baby.

- [Gypsy] Why are you

treating me like one?

- [Ryan] I'm not.

I'm not.

- [Gypsy] That's the kind of

[bleep] that you tell a child.

"It's a lot of

responsibility, you know?"

[somber music]

- Baby, you're gonna

be great with a dog.

I'm all for it.

I think you're gonna

do great with it.

- [Gypsy] I've had

animals before.

- I know.

- Just, please, don't

treat me like I'm a child.

Like I don't know

what I'm doing.

I know a dog is a lot

of responsibility.

I'll walk it, I'll feed

it, I'll do everything.

Like

- Okay, sweetie.

- I think a lot of people,

they have this perception of me

that just because I have

not experienced something,

that attributes to

being childlike.

And for me, it's not.

My mother used to

treat me like a child

and she wanted me to be a child.

I'm not stupid.

You don't have to talk

to me like I'm stupid.

It irritates me.

- I never treat

you like an idiot.

I never have.

You know, I get mad when

people treat you like that.

- I know.

And you are starting

to act like them.

- I'm walking a thin

line with Gypsy.

Like I want her to live her life

and I don't wanna be a

controlling husband and I'm not.

But it's one of those things

that if I say something that

a normal husband would say,

then I'm like controlling

her and I'm like her mother.

And it's like, whoa,

that's not fair.

Any little thing

could be a trigger.

I got things in my

past that trigger me.

You know, like, I don't

like being abandoned.

I like knowing that

people are there for me.

You know, I get

where she comes from.

How are you not cold?

I'm over here freezing

my [bleep] off.

- Because I'm mad!

- I apologize if you think I

was treating you like a kid

'cause I'm not meaning to.

- Thank you.

We haven't had major conflict,

but in the little

tiffs that we've had,

I'm pretty open about

what I'm mad about.

I don't wanna be controlled.

I push back 10 times harder

if I feel like I'm

being controlled.

I didn't back then with my mom

and there was so many

times that I could have,

but I was so scared.

Now? Bring it!

'Cause I got that

confidence now.

[tense music]

Nobody ever said this

was gonna be easy,

you know, I love

her unconditionally

and you know, I'm just happy

to be along for the ride.

No matter what me

and Gypsy go through,

we will always come

together in the end.

[dramatic music]

- I'm more nervous about the

PO meeting than New York.

Literally my biggest fear

is going back to prison.

- We're gonna get on

the [bleep] flight.

You better get

in the other lane.

- He's got it. [groans]

- [Ryan] So baby you excited

to go sh**t at The View?

- I'm nervous.

- The attention on social media,

like I'm not used to it at all.

- [Ryan] Very quick.

- [Gypsy] Right quick.

Ken texted my stepmom.

- Why do you think he decided

it's time to pop back up?

- I don't think that he has

respect for my marriage.

- He doesn't like me.

- I go into my messages

and I will have death threats.

Am I at risk for

dangerous people?

I'm feeling a lot of stress

from everything else

going on right now.

- I just want to have

a family with you.

- Is this the life that we

really wanna lead for ourselves?

[dramatic music]