Soul to Squeeze (2025)

[bunniefuu]

Right

now at this very moment,

...as you watch these light

rays striking the magnified eye,

similar tiny beams of light

are entering your own eyes,

and it's by our eyes that we are able

to gain a great part of our knowledge.

Nature has located the

eye close to the brain

so that its messages

may arrive there quickly.

Now, just how do light rays act

to form a clear picture within the eye,

first, let us realize that light rays

reflected from any object

radiate in all directions,

and that as an object

moves farther away from us,

the angle between the

rays that enter our eyes

grows smaller and smaller.

And finally, when the object is reached

a distance of 15 feet or more,

the rays entering our

eyes are practically parallel.

Now, nature has provided

that the parallel ray

shall produce a sharp

image upon the retina,

and as one may say,

with the eye in a state

of complete relaxation.

But if a distant object approaches the eye,

the angle between entering

rays again grows larger.

This increasing angle changes the direction

of the light rays as they

pass through the lens

so that the sharp image

falls behind the retina.

As a result, the image upon the retina

tends to become blurred.

This blurring causes a response

or reflex within our brain,

which brings about

harmonious internal adjustments

of all parts of the eye.

This adjustment is called accommodation.

Accommodation restores

the sharply focused image

with marvelous speed and accuracy.

This is all the more remarkable

because the distance

between lens and retina is fixed,

and the lens itself must change its shape.

It is also necessary that both our eyes

be fixed upon the same point in order

that we may see an object clearly.

- Make me happy again.

Jacob.

- Yeah,

You won't

be afraid to be afraid.

- Who is this? - You aren't afraid?

- You're right.

Of course not.

You won't want anything to scare you.

- Yeah. No sh*t.

I wrote that in your little survey form.

What's your point?

So young and already so sad.

That's why you're so aggressive.

It's your only cover.

- Hey, f*ck you, man. All right.

I thought I was doing this

so I could skip all this

talky, shrinky bullshit.

You don't wanna talk about

anything with any weight,

especially Shirlene?

- Shirlene?

What the f*ck do you know about Shirlene?

You guys said he wouldn't even go

snoop around my past for this to work.

That's right.

- Then how do you know about her then?

I know everything. Don't worry.

We'll get another chance to talk.

- f*ck you. f*ck.

Oh, I see what you're trying to do.

You're trying to set me off.

That's right.

And we both know how

easy that is, right, big guy?

- Listen, as long as this

mind game, mind game,

- Listen. - Yeah.

- As long as this fixes

me as fast as you say,

well, I'm ready for anything.

So you guys throw whatever you want at me.

No one who's gonna

throw anything at you, Jacob,

or make anything happen.

It's not how it works here. It's all you.

Everything that happens here is you.

- Well, let's get moving then.

You can't

rush when you can't feel

and you can't see when you can't stomach.

- What? Now we're throwing out riddles?

That's more of a thought.

- I don't want your thoughts, as*h*le.

Are you laughing at me?

More like saying Goodbye, Jacob.

- Goodbye. Jesus Christ.

Okay. Y'all done now?

I think so.

The iris, with

its central opening, the pupil.

Like the diaphragm of a camera,

the iris regulates the amount of light

and sharpens the image upon the retina.

Nature has also provided ample protection

for this very delicate organ.

This front part bulges

and forms a highly transparent window.

Another important safeguard

to the eye is the tear gland,

which secretes the tear fluid.

This is an effective germicide,

which drains through the

tear ducts into the nose

after flushing and cleaning

the entire eye surface.

Here, with the outer coverings removed,

we see the eyeball completely surrounded

by a layer of soft fatty tissue

and placed within the bony orbit

where it lies protected

against sudden jolts.

Seen from the side,

the protected possession

of the eyeball within its

funnel shaped eye socket

is shown still more clearly.

Once again, we see the fatty cushion,

which protects it on all sides.

Note this white stalk,

which is the optic nerve,

and also these muscles

which move the eyeball.

This is the empty eye

socket within the skull

with its bony walls inside

and the rim of the bony orbit in front.

The innermost layer of

the eyeball is the retina,

a very delicate brain.

The retina is actually a

part of the optic nerve,

which transmits the

light impulses to our brain.

The retina is the most important

and complex structure in the eyeball.

Magnified many hundred times,

the retina is seen to consist

of this complicated

arrangement of rods and cones,

which convert light

waves into nerve impulses

in some manner, which even science of today

cannot fully explain.

Hey.

Hello?

Man, are you okay?

- That's so good.

So good.

Dreaming about my dog, Rocky.

Rocky.

Come here, boy.

Yeah, yeah.

That's a good boy.

Ouch. Calm down, Rocky.

Ouch. Calm down.

Rocky, down!

Rocky, down!

- There's nothing there.

What?

- You.

You look f*cking stupid.

You're f*cking stupid.

You're a stupid, stupid dog.

- How'd you do this?

- I didn't do anything. You did.

- This isn't a dream, right,

'cause I don't remember going to sleep?

- No, not a dream. You're in a cross.

- Cross like a crossroads.

- Yeah, an intersection

where your physical body

and your subconscious exist

on the same plane at the same time.

Don't worry, Jacob.

There's no dream in here.

You can't go any further beside yourself

than where you're at now.

When you sleep, you'll only rest.

You're gonna need it.

Good night.

- Ladies and gentlemen,

are you ready for the next contest?

Are you ready to play?

Oh no. He f*cked up, didn't he, folks?

That's all right. He can't help it.

Jacob's kind of a clumsy prick.

What do you think?

Should we give him another chance?

Are you sure?

Okay.

Ladies and gentlemen,

are you ready to play the next contest?

Are you ready to play?

Was that so hard. you

stupid son of a b*tch?

Until next time, remember.

Don't f*ck this up.

Jacob.

- What the f*ck?

God, I f*cking hate hair.

What the f*ck?

It's coming off.

- Feeling blue?

- Yeah.

How'd you know?

Your pajama, silly?

Is it?

I thought,

I thought, - You thought what?

It was a coincidence?

- Isn't it?

- Who is to say,

what we do,

why we do it,

where it comes from?

I mean, am I a woman,

a part of a flower?

Am I just an invention of your mind?

Shirlene.

f*ck.

Damn it.

f*ck.

- Let me in. Let me in.

No. I don't wanna hide it.

No. No.

Well, well.

What have we got here?

A man, a tiny man.

- I got a wife and kids. Millions of kids.

Hold on there mate.

Nobody's going to hurt you.

- Sex, women, loose things.

Things we thought we had.

Ever have a dream where you find a treasure

of the wholeness,

the elation,

but as you wake up,

that perfect reality begins to fall apart.

By the time you open your eyes,

that realization, it's all gone.

Just like the pink glory

you lost in the pond.

You remember, don't you?

- I do now.

When I was seven.

- Your father told you to use worms,

but you wanted to fish like him.

So when he wasn't looking,

you took that lure out of the tackle box.

- And then I put him around

the other side of the tree

so he couldn't see me.

- And then?

- It was a perfect a*s.

- But you didn't know how to knot it.

And it was gone.

- I should have jumped in that pond.

He got it from grandpa.

- When he found out,

he started to scold you, but stopped

and began to laugh at himself instead.

- He's a good dad,

bad at everything.

- You think so?

- Bad son, employee, student?

Watch the show.

- The show.

- The one on the TV.

- Yeah, I've seen the show.

All right.

Endless diagram of eye... Well, try again.

And eat something.

You look like sh*t.

- Thanks. - You're welcome.

- No, I meant thanks for the insult.

- I know what you meant.

Here in

addition, we see the choroid.

It consists of three

different belts or zones.

The first zone is called the choroid proper

and is the part that carries nourishment

to the tissues of the eye.

The next zone is called the ciliary body.

This is a broad ring shaped

band of thin muscle fibers,

which play a very active and vital part

in the visual adjustment of the eye.

Here is an outside view

of the entire choroid,

which shows the dense network of arteries

and veins carrying

nourishment to the eyeball.

You can also see the shape

of the ciliary body and the iris.

The innermost layer of

the eyeball is the retina,

a very delicate membrane.

The retina is actually a

part of the optic nerve,

which transmits the

light impulses to our brain.

The retina is the most important

and complex structure in the eyeball.

- Why even bother?

Magnified many hundred times,

the retina is seen to consist

of this complicated

arrangement of rods and cones,

which convert light

waves into nerve impulses

in some manner, which

even science of today,

cannot fully explain.

Between the lens and the cornea,

Come on Jacob.

You know you need your glasses.

- There you go, Shirlene.

- Thank you, Jacob.

- Nice try.

YOu're still a piece of sh*t.

So you wanna go Jacob,

like when we were little?

Yeah. Sounds like fun.

It'll be, trust me.

Hey, there's our guy.

Jake, nice to see you.

Hi guys. What's up?

Not much. You ready?

Yeah.

Listen, I gotta go to practice.

Okay.

Just come get me after school.

Come on. Jake.

Squirrelly, Shirlene's

not your girlfriend, is she?

Shirlene?

No.

She's, you know, someone from class.

Good.

She looks like she picked out her clothes

from my grandma's closet.

Pearls and sh*t.

- That dude was right.

Sleep is good here.

No dreams, no thoughts.

Just rest.

I got the best of me.

You can't keep me down

'cause I'm hydrogen, baby.

I'm up.

I'm down.

I'm up.

Still not broken.

It's getting easier and

easier with this routine.

Sleeping and moving as much as possible.

I'll be fine.

Come on, Jacob.

I love Slapsticks.

Maybe not as much as I love drama.

But beggars can't be choosers.

Am I right?

You must feel really special.

Really special.

I mean, a lot of people watch TV,

but it takes a special,

very special for a TV to watch you.

And it is a pleasure to watch you.

You seem to have it figured out.

You're steady, you're cool, you're content,

just coasting along.

So, so smooth.

But I wanna give you a

little piece of information

you seem to be failing to pick up, Jacob.

Let me help you understand

the process a bit better.

Do you mind?

I said, do you mind?

- No.

- Okay, good on.

So what I'm going to do now

is give your taste of your own medicine.

What does that mean exactly?

It means we, the 10 TV's,

we're gonna take a

deeper dive into ourselves,

into our own little TV psyche

and work through our own sh*t.

Pay attention.

You are

about to take a journey

out of this world into

the world of the future.

Just

doesn't hold true anymore.

- Often fluffy, flapping on a clothes line.

- The story, - And all those,

- Long enough.

- They have, however

Things come up.

Smash your mind and shake your soul

- Pour some hot water.

- And it's just physical,

a little hand bump.

- You're not running

outta hot water, are you?

You're not running out

of hot water, are you?

I wish I had a castle in the sky.

And all this

has been just the beginning.

- Get that, Jacob.

So as I was saying,

the lesson is very simple.

Don't be a coffee prick.

It's not healthy.

It's the opposite of what the

treatment is meant to correct.

The pain has a purpose.

Don't evade it with sleep.

You've got to accept the pain here.

The pain, it will bring you to your knees

because you've do it.

Now you're able to feel right.

Always, always coming upon.

It's not a place you want

to be in for very long.

It runs so deep, Jacob.

If you made it to the other side,

it wouldn't even be you anymore.

So expansive.

But besides the universe itself,

it's the only capsule

that can hold infinity.

By the time you take a few steps in,

you can already be the living imagination

of a random graduate's

thesis "Truth b*mb Theory."

And I gave you marbles

containing consciousness

about being a fig,

who's made from designed

by a drunk programmer,

like a positive two computer nerd

that you we when you were seven

compared dream when you were nine.

And that worm is now eating their brains.

The worms have good reasons, Jacob.

Good reasons.

Victory is turned to fire by

windstorm caused by a blue car.

That passed three years and 45 days ago.

That blue car went on

to win the Kentucky Derby

right it mounted a horse.

It's all running in a field.

Trained her and unfortunately,

the horse thorough bred has now met demise

because of the sea worms

lost their source of food

and they and ate it's brains.

Does this sound like

the place for you, Jacob?

- No.

No. I'll take the medicine.

- Okay, great.

Okay, great.

Oh, now one more thing.

Hi, guy.

Jacob.

- What the f*ck is this?

Jacob?

You can't see me until you open up a bit.

Would you like me to help you with that?

- Okay.

Follow me.

Sit.

Now lie all the way back.

Do you see the eye?

- Sure. I guess it sort

of looks like an eye.

Anything will look like

anything if you look at it, right?

Exactly.

So look at it, right?

Look hard.

- I can't f*cking do it.

What good is having your sight

if you can't see the complete picture.

- Better than seeing no picture.

You came here for a reason.

- Because out there,

every time I tried, I failed.

I couldn't function anymore.

Functioning,

that's the toughest nut to crack in life.

But if you want outside,

you've got to split it.

- We're staying.

Like the TV set,

you've already gone so deep

it's hard to predict what kind

of mental state you would

be in if you choose to leave.

Look at you.

It's from the stress of exactly

internalizing your sickness all at once.

It's the exchange.

Make sure you stick

around to get what's yours

because if you choose to leave

before the process completes,

you will still be left with that gnawing,

disconcerting feeling, only

a person where someone

in the corner of their eye can feel.

It's maddening.

- Okay. Okay.

I'll do whatever you want me to do.

I'll see whatever you want me to see

Ill feel however you want me to feel.

- Nothing.

Nothing!

Honey, are you out here?

Where are you?

Oh, this isn't happening.

Come

home, honey. We're worried.

Where are you?

- Sorry. Sorry,

Shirlene

Morris, are you out there?

Your parents are worried about you.

If you are hiding, please cone out.

We just want to make

sure that you are safe.

Shirlene Morris, are you out there?

Your parents are worried about you.

If you are hiding, please cone out.

We just want to make

sure that you are safe.

Hey.

Relax, man. Relax.

Let me,

- Open your eyes.

I said it. Open your eyes.

- Let go!

- No. You let go.

This is a bargain?

This is f*cking hell.

Here. I want you to have this.

Your necklace?

- Don't worry.

- You don't have to wear it.

I just want you to hold it for me.

Why?

Because I don't think

it looks good on me anymore.

No?

No.

You can give it back to

me when I'm an old lady.

Okay.

Yeah, that's them.

You were supposed to meet up with us.

Oh, hi guys.

You trying to ditch us or what?

No, no.

How'd you guys find me?

Went your house.

Your mom said you were

all the way out here with her.

Long drive.

Yeah.

Are you coming or not, Jake?

I gotta go with,

I told them I would already.

Listen, your dad will be here

in an hour and he'll take you.

It's okay, Jacob.

You don't have to explain anything.

It's your loss.

What's with

Squirrelly's necklace?

You wearing it to the party or something?

No.

Here, Shirlene.

Talk to you later, Jacob.

- Trust us, Jake.

- It's gonna be a great time.

- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

How can I leave you there?

Jake?

What are you doing in there?

Peeky-boy.

Jakey-boy.

You're not so shook up about

the girl drowning, are you?

Who cares?

He's right, Squirrelly Shirlene

isn't worth all the f*ck.

- She's worth more than you, assholes.

I want out.

I want out.

You hear me? I want out.

I don't care what happens to me.

Get me the f*ck out.

Get me out.

This is the

empty eye socket within the skull

with its bony walls inside

and the rim of the bony orbit in front.

By gradually restoring the

outer portions of the skull

and also the covering tissues,

we can now realize the location

of the entire eye in relation

to the outline of the face.

It is also necessary

that both our eyes be

fixed upon the same point

in order that we may see an object clearly.

Thus, as an object

approaches us from a distance,

our eyeballs turn accordingly.

This movement is called the

convergence of visual axes.

This action is shown here

as the object approaches and recedes.

And now let us look at this

highly enlarged view of the lens itself.

It has a soft yielding body

and is as transparent as glass.

But it also has a firm ball

shaped central core or nucleus.

It is contained within a

thin elastic membrane

and is suspended all around

by a spoke like arrangement

of delicate threads or ligaments.

The lens itself lies between two liquids.

These liquids can exert pressure.

Now the lens as a whole cannot give way

against the equally non

inelastic aqueous humor

and its confining cornea.

So the only part which can possibly yield

to the pressure of the

vitreous humor or body

is the soft substance of the lens.

So whenever the image upon

the retina becomes blurred,

the brain automatically causes

the ciliary muscle to contract or to relax

until the lens has

attained just the right shape

to restore a sharply defined

image upon the retina.

Whenever demanded by conditions,

the lens acquires this peculiar

bulge called Lenticonus.

This cone-shaped curve

at first causes light rays

to become distorted into

aberrations upon the retina.

As a result of these distortions,

the pupil now contracts

until the diffused rays have

been shut away,

which brings about

harmonious internal adjustments

of all parts of the eye.

This adjustment is called accommodation.

- Jacob.

- Oh my God.

Shirlene.

Shirlene.

- As much of me as I can be.

- You're not just,

you're not just,

- A projection? No.

No. It's really me. I promise.

- Like how?

- You know how this place

makes all things living

deep inside of you physical,

makes them real.

When people know each other like we did,

we can't help but place

ourselves piece by piece

and to the other person's

subconscious wholly.

Who knows what we're going to do

before we even do it,

can tell us with a single feeling,

what's happening across the world,

what we'll do years down the road.

I'm like an echo that's

been traveling forward in time

and I finally caught up with you.

So for this moment, I'm real again.

Do you remember that time we snuck in

to see that movie in the bedroom?

- Yeah.

- We thought we were so grown up,

but it wasn't what we thought it would be.

It was messed up.

- We were supposed to see "Spy Kids."

God, I wish we'd see "Spy Kids"

'cause real life's too much like,

- Like in the bedroom?

- It doesn't have to be.

- Well, it was never

gonna be like "Spy Kids."

If we cut out the ugly stuff,

we cut out the pretty stuff too.

Hold my hand.

- What are you doing.

- Ripping myself from you

so you can finally leave me behind.

- No. Please don't.

That hurts too much.

- So stop fighting it and let go.

Jacob, let go.

- Jacob.

Yeah.

You won't be afraid to be afraid.

Who is this?

You aren't afraid?

You're right.

Of course not.

You won't let anything scare you.

Yeah. No sh*t.

I wrote that in your little survey form.

What's your point?

So young and already so sad.

It's why you're so aggressive.

It's your only cover.

Hey, f*ck you, man. All right.

I thought I was doing this so I could skip

all this talky, shrinky bullshit.

You don't wanna talk about

anything with any weight,

especially Shirlene.

Shirlene?

What the f*ck do you know about Shirlene?

You guys said you wouldn't need to go

snoop around my past for this to work.

That's right.

Then how do you know about her then?

I know everything. Don't worry.

We'll get another chance to talk.

f*ck you.

f*ck.

Oh, I see what you're trying to do.

You're trying to set me up.

That's right. And we both know how easy

that is, right, big guy.

Listen, as long as it's mind game,

mind game,

Medicine.

Yeah.

As long as this fixes

me as fast as you say,

well, I'm ready for anything.

So you guys throw whatever you want at me.

No one is gonna throw

anything at you, Jacob,

or make anything happen.

It's not how it works here. It's all you.

Everything that happens here is you.

Well, let's get moving then.

You can't rush what you can't feel

and you can't see what you can't stomach.

What? Now we're throwing out riddles?

That's more like a thought.

- I don't want your thoughts, as*h*le.

Are you laughing at me?

More like saying goodbye, Jacob.

Goodbye. Jesus Christ.

Okay.

Are you all done now?

I think so.

Hey man, you all right?

Hey. Don't k*ll yourself.

It's well forced to know

that our eyes are one of

our greatest gifts of nature

and are indeed worthy of our

constant care and protection.

Dear friend I cannot help

but think of the old days

But it's getting pretty old

I wonder up to now

if that was a gold age

Or if that's just what

we've been through

Shoes and ladders take you down

To a land of smoking gears

Twists and turns spin you round

Spit me out but make it through

But I'll stay never getting it all

Tell me why

Tell me why

We can't step inside what will be

Don't you see

Can I try

Can I try

To get into that

Tell me why

Tell me why

We can't step inside what will be

Can we try

Can we try

To make life like a

photograph right now

I love, I tried to match

the style you remember

But I'm getting pretty old

Oh yet I'm sure you

kept the style that I got, no

Still beautiful and all