02x01 - Awake

[bunniefuu]

[muffled screaming]

[scream echoes]

[professor speaking muffled]

[chattering becoming clearer]

In Friday's class,

we'll talk about the lab results, okay?

[mouse squeaking]

[high-pitched sound]

[female muffled] Are you okay, Mia?

[high-pitched sound fades]

Do I know you?

[chuckles] Come on, Mia!

[background chattering]

FAVORITES

- [phone line ringing]

- [breathing heavily]

Hi, it's Niklas! Leave a message.

Hello. [clears throat]

- Hello, Niklas, where are you?

- [phone beeps]

[inhales]

[exhales sharply]

[breathing heavily]

[breathes shakily]

[tense music playing]

[tense music stops]

[breathing heavily]

[pop music playing muffled]

[keys jingling]

[sighs]

Come on.

[door lock clanks]

What?

Can someone open the door?

My keys aren't working.

Who are you?

I should be asking you.

[woman] Hey!

[door closes]

What's going on?

Are you okay?

I live here.

No. No one lives here.

Where are my friends?

Hey, do you need help or

- I said where are my friends?

- [man] Hey! Calm down!

We don't know your friends.

Been here since November, okay?

What?

No, it's October.

Or is it?

It's the middle of January.

What?

[exhales sharply]

Oh.

[screaming]

[breathing heavily]

[high-pitched sound]

[groans]

[phone dings]

[panting]

What?

TUESDAY, JANUARY 19TH

ENTER PASSCODE

[error tone chimes]

- [error tone chimes]

- [breathes deeply]

IPHONE IS DISABLED

TRY AGAIN IN 1 MINUTE

[exhales sharply]

[breathes deeply]

- [high-pitched sound]

- [phone beeps]

[breathing heavily]

IPHONE IS BEING ERASED

[deep, shaky breathing]

[whispers] What's going on?

[labored breathing]

[theme music playing]

[theme music fades]

[approaching footsteps]

[high-pitched sound]

[man 2 echoing] Emma!

[door hinge creaks]

[sighs]

Niklas?

[Mia] What?

[gasps]

Hey.

Hey. I just wanted to kiss you.

Is this a joke?

Ha ha, very funny.

What's wrong?

Where's Niklas?

What do you mean, "Where's Niklas"?

Where's Niklas?

In Strasbourg. Where do you think?

Why did you try to kiss me just now?

'Cause we're a couple.

You and me are

Yeah.

What is going on?

This isn't happening.

What? What's wrong? What?

When I went home just now,

everything was gone.

- What's gone? What are you saying?

- Everything!

What's gone?

The last thing I remember

is giving

Niklas and the others antibodies,

and then I woke up at school,

and now it's winter and you you

- You should be in jail!

- So it's all gone?

Now you're saying

you really can't remember anything?

[brooding music playing]

- About how we took down Lorenz together?

- "We"?

You released the mosquitoes

into the train!

- We had this talk.

- Oh really?

And I forgave you just like that?

Yes! No, not just like that.

But, yeah. Yes, you did.

Because I gave you the evidence.

- Because I took your side.

- What?

- There's no way you forgot all this.

- It's all a blank! Everything's a blank!

[breathes deeply]

What did you take to get this f*cked-up?

Nothing.

[exhales]

[exhales sharply]

Relax.

It's just a light.

Normal.

[Mia exhales]

Do you have any other symptoms at all?

Um

A bit of a headache, but other than that

[high-pitched sound]

[tense music playing]

[high-pitched sound]

[Mia groans]

Here. Drink.

- Don't worry.

- [groans]

[echoing] It'll be okay.

This might be a bit weird,

but can you give me Niklas's number again?

My phone erased it.

Sure.

[phone ringing]

Hi, it's Niklas. Leave a message. [beep]

Yeah. Hi, Niklas.

It's Mia.

Um, I think we better talk soon.

I'm not doing too good.

Call me back, okay?

Emma Mia Akerlund?

Yeah, that's me.

CHECK-IN

X-RAY/MRI

I'll be here.

["Runaway" by AURORA playing]

Vanilla.

Coffee.

Tell me when you can see my fingers.

Now.

Mm-hmm. Now the other side.

- Now.

- Mm-hmm.

Gently lift your shoulders

as I press down on them.

Mm-hmm.

Now turn your head to the right. Now left.

Good.

Everything seems normal.

You're a healthy girl.

Please, I didn't make this up. I swear.

I can't remember

a single thing after October.

Go ahead and undress in here,

and please remove any metal objects.

I'll be here when you come out.

Nobody knows ♪

Nobody knows ♪

And I was dancing in the rain ♪

I felt alive, and I can't complain ♪

But now take me home ♪

Take me home where I belong ♪

I can't take it anymore ♪

[man] If you could lie down here, please.

I'm gonna raise the table now, okay?

[table motor whirring]

You get to wear this fancy helmet now too.

Okay, there's a mirror so you can see us

the whole time you're in the tube.

And if you press this button,

the machine will stop.

All clear.

Please keep still. I'm gonna slide you in.

And I'll see you soon.

[low pulsing rumbling]

[male nurse] Everything okay?

[breathing heavily]

Good. Please stay very still.

[imaging machine beeping]

[imaging machine clacking]

[grunts, screams]

[screams]

[breathing heavily]

Please stay calm. Keep your head still,

or the imaging won't turn out.

[sighs]

[imaging machine clacking]

[imaging machine clacking rapidly]

[rapid clacking continues]

- [male nurse] Hey. Keep your head still.

- Yeah.

[imaging machine clacking]

[imaging machine clacking rapidly]

[rapid clacking continues]

[clacking fades]

"S-O-N."

[ethereal music playing]

[grunts]

It won't come off.

Yeah, because it's a tattoo.

How did I get it?

I don't know.

You had it when I got back from Indonesia.

- You never asked me where it was from?

- Of course.

You said you didn't remember.

Could've blacked out at a party.

"S-O-N." What is that?

Is it just son?

Ms. Akerlund?

Yes.

[doctor] Your MRI

is completely normal as well.

[Mia sighs]

Does your family have a history

of neurological or psychiatric illness?

No.

I would still ask your parents

if they know of anything in the family.

- You don't often speak openly about this.

- Mine are dead, Doctor.

I'm sorry.

We'll run a toxicology screening

using a blood sample

and let you know if we find anything.

I'd also like to refer you

to a psychiatrist.

[doctor writing]

And if your symptoms don't get any better

over the next three days,

please come see me again.

Mm-hmm.

- Thanks.

- You're welcome.

- Everything's okay. That's good!

- Nothing is okay here, Jasper.

None of the scans he did

could explain why I still have no idea

what happened to me since last fall.

You should try to stay calm

and get a little sleep.

It's nice you wanna take care of me,

but I don't even know you.

The last time we saw each other,

you wanted to k*ll me.

Now we're a couple? How come?

'Cause we got to know each other.

I didn't wanna k*ll you

or anybody else, Mia.

Give me a little time to sort things out.

Okay.

I'm gonna I just need to go home now.

- You want me to come?

- It's okay.

Call me if you need anything.

Can you tell me where I live?

[ethereal music playing]

[phone chimes]

NIKLAS

TEXT MESSAGE

GOT YOUR TEXT.

DON'T KNOW WHY WE SHOULD TALK.

YOU MADE YOUR POINT.

NIKLAS MOBILE

[phone line ringing]

[disconnect tone beeps]

[intriguing music playing]

[door lock clicks]

[pop music playing]

[Ole exhales sharply]

- [strap clicks]

- [drone beeps]

Brain-computer interface.

Ready. Okay.

[Chen-Lu] Mm-hmm.

Okay.

Hey, fans and all you

hacking beauties out there.

Today I'll be steering this drone

through the apartment.

Not with a controller,

but with just the power of thought.

My brain-computer interface

is based on Nonsurgical

Sonic Neurotechnology,

which the US Air Force uses

on F-35 Lightning II jets overseas.

Okay. [kisses]

[breathes deeply]

[exhales sharply]

Wow, I think I saw the carpet move.

[tuts, exhales sharply]

[high-pitched sound]

[Ole] Lotta!

[drone beeping]

[exhales deeply]

[drone blades whirring]

[upbeat music playing]

[gasps]

Oh, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck!

Should I stop filming?

Ah!

- My Paphiopedilum sanderianum!

- Oh no!

[tense music playing]

- [clattering]

- [music stops]

Enough of that. [sighs]

[Mia] Hi.

[sighs, sobs]

Hey. Don't worry about it. It's okay.

[Mia sobs] It's not.

[Mia sobbing]

[sniffs] Yech.

Looks like someone made a sloppy mess.

They were in a hurry or drunk or both.

And you have no memory of anything

that happened in the last three months?

And neurologically, you're okay?

They didn't find anything on my scan.

Um, and I'm really with Jasper?

[Lotta] Uh, yeah, and

things were good with him.

You were really happy.

He was able to get over

how you used him to get closer to Lorenz

and how he lost access

to his Huntington research as a result.

In the end, you both realized

you had screwed up,

and you were able

to apologize to each other.

Yeah, and it sounded like the two of you

had fun apologizing to each other.

[chuckles]

What? Is that too personal?

And, um, Niklas?

[Lotta] Um

You changed your mind about him,

and it wasn't too long

until you broke up with him.

Uh, was I weird?

Did I have any any problems or anything?

You were a bit out of it,

you know what I mean?

Which isn't like you.

But after all that stress and everything,

it must've been easy

to lose sight of others

and think only about yourself for a while.

[Lotta] You were in a better mood.

Other things

just didn't seem to be so important.

Like me.

[Ole] You said a huge weight

was lifted off your shoulders

after everything with Lorenz,

which is understandable,

so you were a little more,

you know, superficial. So what?

- Funnier. Funnier.

- [Ole] Or funnier.

Which makes sense after what happened

on the train with the quarantine.

With the

quarantine?

You saved everyone on the train,

and then you got sick and ran off

for a full three days afterwards.

I got sick?

Yeah. Hold on.

Give me a second.

Uh, no, no, no.

No, yeah.

"Don't worry. I got a fever,

and the people from Disease Control

want me to quarantine in case

I have Coxsackievirus, just to be sure."

"I don't know if I'll have good reception,

so don't worry about it if you don't

hear from me soon. Love, Mia."

[Ole] Hey.

When you get a high fever like that,

it's not unusual

to have occasional blackouts.

[exhales sharply]

[emotional music playing]

EMBRYO EXPERIMENTS

"The DA's office

is investigating a renowned professor

in hundreds of cases

of involuntary manslaughter."

THE RISE AND FALL OF TANJA LORENZ

[chuckles]

REMOVAL OF A SCIENCE ICON

THE RISE AND FALL OF TANJA LORENZ

[knock at door]

[door closes]

So I really took Lorenz down, huh?

Like the Terminator.

Well, you didn't k*ll her, but I mean,

she can't do any of her research anymore,

and nobody will let her back in a lab.

So, yeah! I'd say you took her down.

[sniffles, breathes deeply]

You could talk to your therapist

about what's happening to you.

I have a therapist now too?

Yeah, and you like her and trust her like

a really good friend like me or even more.

Maybe that's why

you don't talk to me so much.

I'm sorry, Chen-Lu.

Really.

[sniffles]

You're the best friend

anybody could ever have.

[Mia sniffles, exhales]

Oh, I fell over once again ♪

Take me with you where I feel safe ♪

BICYCLE PATH

Changed everything

I thought I knew about myself ♪

This is it.

But, oh, I look into my heart

It's too late ♪

"Dr. Reuther. Psychiatric practice."

Never heard of it.

Just call if you need me to be here.

Thank you, Chen-Lu.

- [doorbell buzzing]

- [lock clicks]

[pensive music playing]

[Dr. Reuther] Mia.

It's nice to see you,

but I don't think

we have an appointment today.

Um, no, but do you have any time for me?

I have a patient in ten minutes.

But we can talk until then. Come in.

[door closes]

So when did

these blackouts you're having start?

Um, yesterday.

Not blackouts.

It's just that I don't remember anything

I did in three months before then.

Including you.

[doctor writing]

Why am I here?

You wanna know why you're in therapy?

I mean the first

the first time that I came in. How come?

Your school had me meet with you

after Professor Lorenz

was taken off the staff.

It was all a little too much.

I was supposed to help you

cope with your emotions.

And did it help?

We talked about strategies to help you

deal with the situation productively.

You were partying quite a lot.

You seemed to be

out of touch with your feelings.

Okay.

What are you writing down?

I'm taking notes about what you say,

my general impressions.

Can I see them?

They're confidential notes.

Yeah, about me.

Okay.

CHILDHOOD

TRAGIC DEATH OF BROTHER

TWIN BROTHER

PARENTS DIED IN CAR CRASH

FEELINGS OF GUILT?

You know, memory is a very tricky thing,

and in most cases of amnesia

VENDETTA

they aren't gone.

You just can't access them anymore.

Sometimes for a reason.

h*m* DEUS "VICTIM"

Your brain wants

to protect you from certain memories.

PTSD?

I thought we were

both making good progress.

You were growing more stable,

and your life was becoming more normal.

Something must have happened since then.

I have to know what.

Can you help me find out?

All right, then.

Well, some patients try things

like medication, hypnosis.

And some people

respond really well to triggering.

So let's start with that, shall we?

"Triggering"?

Like a kind of sunscreen

you may have used as a kid.

The smell of it.

It triggers a memory from your childhood,

doesn't it?

The memories you still have,

try to draw on those ones.

Try to replicate those situations.

That can trigger memories,

but there's no guarantee it will work.

Thanks for all your help.

[door closes]

[Jasper] Hey.

Um

Chen-Lu said that you'd be here, and, um

I know you aren't really up to date,

but in my world,

you're still my girlfriend.

And I'd like to help you.

Please.

[sighs]

You always been so nice?

Mm-hmm. You just forgot.

- Okay, triggering.

- Mmm.

Here's what I can remember

since I woke up yesterday.

First of all,

I went to the park to meet someone.

[pensive music playing]

He was standing here

with his back towards me.

What did he look like?

I'm not really sure.

- Can you look at the lake?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- [sighs]

[pensive music continues]

[both laughing]

And? Did it trigger anything?

Nothing relevant.

[Mia] This may sound a little crazy.

I remember being in a van

and that when I was put in it,

they had me tied up and gagged.

Yeah, that sounds a bit crazy.

[employee] So you don't want to rent it?

- We wanna take it around the parking lot.

- You know, like a test drive.

Well, we don't sell cars here.

We just rent them.

Five minutes. We'll rent it.

You drive.

[Jasper] Sounds good.

[engine starting]

[Jasper] And you're sure

that you didn't just dream this?

No, the memory of it, it feels real.

How did you end up there?

Was anyone else with you?

[Mia] I don't know.

[tense music playing]

[Jasper] And?

Nothing.

I have a third idea for a trigger.

The tattoo.

That must have hurt like hell.

If I trigger that pain again,

then I could

[Jasper] You wanna

give yourself a tattoo now?

This is a bit too much, Mia.

No, it's not.

[exhales sharply]

- Psycho.

- [chuckles]

[Jasper] sh*t.

[breathes heavily]

[groans]

[breathes heavily]

- [whimpers]

- All right! That's enough!

[Mia] No.

Enough. Really.

Stop it! Stop!

[grunts]

[Jasper] Okay?

[typing]

"Juri Oberwetter."

JURI OBERWETTER CONTAC

TELEPHONE BOOK SEARCH OBERWETTER

ELECTRICIAN

HAIRSTYLIS

GERMAN PRESS DIRECTORY

"'Juri Oberwetter' is a synonym

for tips given on an anonymous hotline."

[sighs]

[pensive music playing]

[high-pitched sound]

[muffled scream]

[high-pitched sound intensifies, subsides]

Hi, it's Jasper. Leave a message.

Jasper, I remember now!

I was tied up in the van,

but I wasn't alone.

Lorenz was there too.

Whatever happened to me in there

Lorenz knows about it.

Hello?

I have to talk to you!

[grunts]

[phone alarm blaring]

[pensive music playing]

WINNER'S CERTIFICATE

CERTIFICATE

PLEASE WAI

MY MEETING

[scoffs]

[computer chimes]

Ah! Professor, hello. How are you doing?

The same as last time, so fantastic.

Let's not waste any of our time.

We've been granted access

to those files, and

I really couldn't care less

about the files.

Have you spoken with the DA yet?

No.

It's been how long?

We've tried to reach him several times.

[exhales]

You kept assuring me

that you were well-connected.

And we are.

I don't believe there are any indications

the DA wants to settle outside of court.

- There's a lot to consider.

- It's happening.

The deal is in place.

You don't need to plan anything.

Just be ready to execute it

when it comes in.

The only thing you've done for us so far

is to gain us access to the files?

My source says that the DA

wants to set a precedent with this case

and that they're trying

to get the maximum sentence.

They're talking about you doing life.

Nonsense.

I don't know

what you've been doing wrong over there.

I'm positive that the DA

wants to offer a deal to me,

and that deal will be quite a lenient one.

Yes, you said that several times now.

My advice, as your lawyer,

is that we keep our options open.

We should talk about another strategy

in case this private contact of yours

can't settle this whole matter

outside of the courts.

I think we've been

wasting enough time already

pretending this is just an ordinary case.

Call the DA as soon as you can.

I'm not gonna go to jail for this.

Okay, I'll keep you posted.

[Ursula] And?

- [water pouring]

- Yeah. [sighs]

Well, what did they have to say?

Will you not talk to me

till I'm formally dressed?

[Lorenz sighs]

Aren't I too old to hear from you about

how I pick out the clothes I wear at home?

[cup thuds]

- Can you go back to work?

- Don't worry. I'll be out of here soon.

[breathing heavily]

[phone vibrates, chimes]

WEDNESDAY, JANUARY 20TH

TEXT MESSAGE

WHERE ARE YOU? I MISS YOU.

WILL YOU SEND ME A GOOD-NIGHT SELFIE?

[brooding music playing]

[breathing heavily]

[high-pitched sound]

[sound subsides]

[brooding music continues]

[groans]

[panting]

[shuddered breathing]

[gasps]

[screams]

[scream echoes]

[theme music playing]

[music fades]