01x02 - A Risky Decision

[bunniefuu]

It is definitely strange,
uh, being alone.

Usually, at this
point in the challenge,

you are building that
camaraderie with your partner.

And there is none of that
here because it's just me.

So, definitely a
very different feeling,

not having anyone to talk to.

This is tough.

Yeah. I'm just so
happy right now.

I missed Africa a lot.

What an adventure.

But I know there's going to be a lot
of good and happy moments out here,

and happiness is a
better when shared.

I don't have anybody to share
my happiness with out here.

[sighs]

Being alone out here sucks.

That's all there is to it.

[narrator] They've
tested themselves

in the most grueling
environments on Earth...

We got fire!

[narrator] ...and proven
the value of teamwork

in overcoming
harrowing conditions.

[woman 1] Oh, my
God. I'm so cold.

[narrator] Now, eight of the
most battle tested survivalists

will take on their
toughest challenge yet,

as they attempt 21
days with no partner...

[animal groaning]

[narrator] ...to each take
on a separate location...

solo.

Yes! Bad a*s b*tch right now.

That's a honker!

- [Fernando] This is no joke.
- [man] Ah!

[woman 2] This is the most
naked and afraid I've ever felt.

[man 3] Oh!

Why am I out here?

[Terra] You either
get it done or die.

[screams]

[Cheeny] Oh, man!

There's just so much
meat on this fish.

It's unbelievable.

Unbelievable.

Catfish on a stick.

Catfish in a pot,

catfish on a rock.

Catfish, baby.

One fish, two fish, catfish.

Oh, there he is.

[narrator] On day three,

Cheeny, a wilderness
survival instructor from Maine

found early success by
catching a 15-pound catfish,

she calls Caruzilla.

Yes! [laughs]

I'm gonna preserve them
pretty well by smoking them.

I'll just reboil it in my water
and consume it that way.

'Cause, uh, even though it's...

cooked and it's good,
I want to re-cook it,

just to make sure that...

if there's any bacteria
or anything it's...

it's k*lled, so it
doesn't make me sick.

Hope the fish will last
me just a little bit longer.

Please...

It's good.

Nothing like catfish.

I guess this is it.

Here we go.

I'm Terra. I am from
Mobile, Alabama,

and I am an archery tech.

I was in the Air
Force for 12 years,

and during that time I
went overseas 12 times.

I have done a week at a time
alone by myself in the woods

with nothing but a knife.

So, yes. I am absolutely
prepared for this.

All right, baby. Ready
for round two. Let's go.

The last time I was
on the challenge,

I was out as transgender.

What defines me is not
how I look or how I act.

It's what I do in my life.

And things that I do in
my life are [bleep] epic.

So, I got my blade.

I'm so glad I've gotten
my knife this time.

I've got my paracord.

I got my pot.

And, I see they've
given me a fire starter.

I see the fire starter,

and I'm choosing
to leaving it behind

because I want this to
be a primitive challenge.

I have practiced all kinds of
different ways to make fires.

Really expect that

while I'm out here I'll be able to
make a friction fire without an issue.

I came out here for a
challenge, so I'm good.

I'm gonna leave that there.

In my previous challenge,

I think my biggest obstacle
was losing my partner.

He was just trying
to push himself

so we could have a better
existence while we're out there.

Shaun...

He's not responding, so...

[Terra] I'm going
into this one knowing

that the entire time I'm
going to be completely alone.

Doing this solidifies that
it wasn't a first-time fluke.

All right. It looks
like I'm here.

So, for now, I think I need
to get at least to this tree.

It's got a good water
source right next to it,

and I gotta get there quick.

We're losing daylight fast.

I can definitely tell
the elevation difference

because I'm
breathing hard already.

[narrator] Terra has been dropped into
the Sierra Madre Mountains in Mexico,

where the 6,300-foot elevation

rapidly increases the risk
of dehydration and fatigue.

These steep mountains are home to the
largest concentration of jaguar in Mexico,

and the highly venomous
fer-de-lance snake,

whose bite can quickly
dissolve skin, muscle tissue,

and lead to death, if
not immediately treated.

[Terra] All right.

A little bit more steep here.

Damn!

I can definitely tell the
elevation difference.

The higher your elevation,
the harder it is to breathe

because of the less oxygen.

Like, right up
there is a clearing,

which I'm hoping,
means that that's the river.

I am literally racing the sun
right now to get to where I'm going.

Uh, I need to get my shelter
done, at least, bare minimum tonight,

I have to have a shelter done.

[narrator] With
expert survival skills,

a military background,

and having successfully
completed a 21-day challenge,

Terra starts with a Solo
Survival Rating, or SSR, of 7.3.

[Terra] Sweating more than
the last time I was in church.

I see my river.

It's not a bad little area.

It's very shaded.

It's very dense above me.

Good location to set up camp.

I'm definitely feeling
the pressure right now.

I know that the sun's going
down and I don't have a shelter.

I am making a debris
shelter right here.

I'm gonna dig
out just a little bit,

just enough to get
my body underneath.

And then, I'm gonna
sticks debris on top.

That way I'm at least
protected overnight.

Yeah. I could sleep in that.

I'm running out of daylight

and I still need to figure
out a way to get water.

I could probably dig
a seep well right there.

A seep well works by
going to the water table,

which is at that level down
there, about a foot down.

And, as it comes
through the ground,

uh, the dirt acts as a filter

to take out anything
that's harmful in the water.

My arm is worn out.

[sighs]

Oh, [bleep].

My heart is beating
out of my chest. [sighs]

I have to finish this.

Having a quick shelter
that you can put together

is sometimes the
only thing you can do

to keep yourself going
in the game of survival.

It's not the most
beautiful thing in the world

and it's not the
most extravagant.

But it'll get me
through the night.

I'm not going to try
to create a fire tonight.

After digging the still, walking
all this way, making the shelter,

I would just be k*lling
myself to make a fire.

Got 20 more days of this.

[sighs]

[growling]

[Jamie] I'm going to use my
machete here, just to clear some of this,

make our trail.

This is just so dense.

This is very unusual for...

anything that I've ever
came across before.

My name is Jamie.

I'm from Scotland.

And I'm a bushcraft instructor.

I've got to make sure that there's
nothing in my way that's going to harm me,

'cause I'm completely
open to the elements here.

I'm just clearing a path,

just so I can kind of
see the ground more,

see what I'm
putting my feet onto.

But I can't make camp here.

All I'm thinking about right now

is getting to location
and setting up a shelter.

I'm glad I'm getting this chance
to be back out in the jungle

to experience this
environment again,

even though I survived 21
days on my African challenge.

I have food.

[woman 3] Jamie, you're awesome.

Come on! Yes!

[Jamie] I'm doing
this to get redemption

in a way from what
happened in Peru.

That was quite a catastrophic
way to leave a challenge,

so, I'm back in the
jungle to try this again.

I've just been focusing
myself on jungle survival,

getting into that mindset

and accepting that what happened
in Peru might happen again.

And I've just got to be
tougher about things.

That is a nasty
looking spider there.

[narrator] Jamie begins
his solo challenge

in the Rupununi
Jungle of Guyana,

one of the least
populated places on Earth.

This dense swamp is saturated
with flesh-eating insects,

including the Aedes
aegypti mosquito,

which transmits deadly diseases
like yellow fever, malaria and Zika.

[mosquitoes buzzing]

[Jamie] Wow!

This looks like a...

a good place where I
could set up a shelter.

There's a strong tree there,

I could use as support.

So, I'm gonna call
this place home tonight,

and hopefully for
the next 21 days.

[narrator] As a
bushcraft instructor,

Jamie enters this solo challenge
with a vast primitive skill set.

But after leaving Peru, only
two days into the challenge,

Jamie's SSR starts at 6.9.

[Jamie] When I'm in
an environment like this,

I know that fire is priority.

It keeps the bugs away.

I can't explain how
important that is.

I definitely don't want the
same thing to happen as in Peru.

My biggest concern is
the... the biting insects.

That's going to be a huge
danger for me, especially.

I take a bad reaction
to mosquito bites.

So, right now I'm
focusing on fire.

That's my main goal.

By splitting it into quarters,

it gives me access
to a nice sharp angle

where I can make
some fiddlesticks.

Hopefully, that
will take a spark.

This is a great
place to set up a fire.

The cave, that's a great backup

just in case I
would ever need it.

In case it does start raining
or when it starts getting dark.

My fire starter.
Thank you very much.

If it really does rain when
I'm making my shelter,

I can really just run in there and
tend to the fire and it shouldn't go out.

Look at that.

Amazing.

Nighttime entertainment, this.

Not only does it...

[thunder rumbling]

[Jamie] Just in time.

[thunder rumbling]

So, I'm gonna camp out
here right outside the cave.

And I'm just going to keep
feeding the fire all night.

My main focus right now,

just gathering as much
firewood, processing it.

I'm gonna try and
chop it up into little bits,

stack it, so I've always got a fresh
supply of wood throughout the night.

The feeling I've got right now
beats any feeling I've ever had

from getting this fire made
successfully from bow drill.

The feeling I've got right now
making a fire in this environment

using natural resources.

Bring it on, man.

[Terra] I'm gonna
crawl into my cave

and, uh, I'm going to attempt
to get some kind of rest.

Even though I've got
this debris shelter built,

I didn't get a fire started.

And look at these [bleep]
little bees all over me,

that are just k*lling me.

Tomorrow I need
to make a big a*s fire

'cause I can't stand
these [bleep] bugs.

[Jamie] [bleep]

There's bumps all over my skin.

Argh! These [bleep] mosquitoes!

[bleep] off, man!

[bleep] was that?

This is horrible.

[groans]

This place is hell.

[Jamie] I just saw
one. [bleep] A, man.

[bleep] mosquitoes everywhere.

This is no joke.

Mosquitoes are
definitely my nemesis.

Definitely.

This is what's going to send
me down a slippery slope.

Look at that.

That's brilliant. Isn't it?

They're on fire.

Nothing comes
close to the mosquito.

I mean, it is the biggest
k*ller in the world.

I know that the mosquitoes
are going to come out soon,

so, I'm just going to go and
try and find some termite nests.

And I want to try and put
the termite nest on the fire,

and hopefully that'll
get them away.

My body's just so
run down right now.

And on top of everything
else for that matter,

I'm hungry.

Oh!

Termite nest.

Found one.

If you put the termite
nest on the fire,

hopefully that'll get them away

'cause I know that the mosquitoes
are going to come out soon.

Here we go.

I've got my mosquito net,

got my termite
mounted on the fire.

And it's sending the
smoke right over my body,

which is great.

It's going to keep
those mosquitoes away.

I hope for the rest
of this challenge.

Those things are horrible.

When it comes to bugs,
this place is [bleep] awful.

Definitely makes you
feel like less of a human

and more like a
dumpster in a city alley

that's been used by all
kinds of different restaurants

namely those with weird foods.

Oh, my God. Stop biting me.

Biting me on the junk now.

I don't know how
much of that I can take.

Really don't.

It is only day two
and I am being just...

annihilated by bugs
over and over and over.

I can understand if they were
just on my back or on my shoulders

but they're in my face, they're
in my eyes, they're in my ears,

they're in my butthole,
they're everywhere.

The best thing to do
about them insects is fire.

And I didn't take
the fire starter

because I want this to
be a primitive challenge.

I want it to be a challenge
of my actual skills

and not just being handed
everything to do the challenge with.

I'm going to go ahead and
work on making my bow drill kit.

And what I'm looking for is just
something that I could possibly use

that's not green.

Just to at least
try a friction fire.

This is pretty much the...

not only the first
dry wood I found

but the first dry wood that's
not just rotten to the core.

I need to make a big a*s fire.

That shouldn't bend at all.

That's pretty thick.

It looks like it's
pretty strong.

My skills are very well
adapted for all kinds of climates.

When it comes to bow drill,

I have practiced all kinds of
different ways to make fires.

And I really expect

that while I'm out here, I'll
be able to make a friction fire

without an issue.

Oh, my God!

Damn! Damn! Damn! Damn! Damn!

I don't know if I can go 21
days covered in bugs constantly.

Not sleeping, not eating.

If I can't get this fire
with these bugs...

God damn it.

...then I can't use the smoke
and the ash to get rid of them.

[bleep]

[Fernando] Oh, wow!

This is my hunting blinds
that I was gonna use today,

and it's been destroyed

by either wind or elephants.

There's much more
covered the last time I used it.

Oh, yeah.

Definitely elephants.

A bunch of fresh
elephant dung here.

There's definitely a
common theme here

of the elephants, kind
of, crapping my style

and scaring away animals,
destroying my blind.

[narrator] Fernando has endured
five days in the South African savannah,

where he's been able to
secure water, fire and shelter.

[Fernando] I'm not
claiming victory yet.

I... I'm just so traumatized
for my days in the jungle.

[narrator] But he has yet
to find a source of food.

His safety has been threatened
by nocturnal predators...

[Fernando] They're everywhere.

[trumpeting]

[narrator] ...and a herd
of territorial elephants.

[Fernando] It'd be nice
to have a big k*ll now,

because I'm really hungry.

So, I am not a bow
hunter by trade or by skill.

But I've been trying to
practice as much as possible...

uh, the last few weeks.

And hopefully that
practice pays off.

A big goal of mine and
a huge success for me

would be to use that bow
and to k*ll a large game.

There are some birds that
were here in the riverbed.

And they just kind of scurried
it up the hill into the brush.

Another hungry night.

[Cheeny groans]

I still get up often
to restoke the fire.

I mean, it's blazing.

And I'm...

I'm not far from it.

It's putting off good heat
but I'm still so [bleep] cold.

[groans]

Night here is the worst.

And so many more nights
to [bleep] suffer through.

[thunderclap]

It's been raining
the whole night.

That's huge, innit?

Unfortunately,
I'll need to k*ll it,

and then, I'll cook it
tomorrow and eat it.

It's sad having to do that.

But that's survival.

I've got to eat.

Thank you very much, frog.

[Jamie] No way!

I don't think it's in there.

It's gone.

I k*lled it and I sat
it under my bed,

and it's gone.

I didn't hear anything
coming under my bed.

But it was raining quite hard.

There was a lot of
noise from the rain.

It was a nice fat one.

It had big legs and big arms.

It could have been
a Goliath spider.

They eat things like that.

Hmm.

[Cheeny] It's the
morning of day six.

Thank God.

Another cold night.

[growls and laughs]

Oh!

Look at this. Look
at that sunrise, baby.

My lips bleeding.

Yep.

Chapped lips. My
lips are bleeding.

I can see my breath.

The grass is covered in frost.

Every night was this cold.

Midnight, maybe,
1:00 a.m. I wish,

but it is so cold.

I can't stand being
[bleep] cold constantly.

I think I'm pretty tough

but when you're naked in
freezing temperatures constantly,

like, that takes a
special kind of person.

Another long [bleep] night.

[bleep]

It's so [bleep] cold out here.

[bleep]

God! I gotta figure
something out with this shelter.

I think I'm gonna
build kind of a lean-to,

modified lean-to
thing right here.

Help block the wind,

and help keep some of
the heat from the fire inside.

I'm switching from the
branches to rocks for the walls

because the rocks are
going to hold more heat,

because I've been
sleeping right here,

so, I'm gonna stack
the rocks this way.

Flatter the better
to make a wall.

Well, rocks are
great for the back.

They're heavy and they would
give the support that the wall needs.

The wall is like legit now.

It's at least knee height.

I'm gonna need some
Y-sticks for supports.

So, right now I'm putting
together some tripods,

so, I can rest my
poles across them.

And then I can
focus on the thatching

and start stacking branches.

That'll help keep a lot of
the heat in for me at night.

So, doing this challenge,

even though it's quite
miserable at times and frustrating,

there are moments
that you just can't beat.

Rock wall goes all
the way around inside

like so. Got my bed,

and a big thick a*s roof.

I'm not trying to toot my
own horn but toot, toot.

It's my fourth day in
a row eating catfish.

I've got catfish that I heated up
in the pan with a little bit of water,

I've got the skin
from the catfish

that I'm smoking and
crisping up by the fire.

I'll be five days in
a row eating catfish.

Hopefully, it'll give
me enough energy

until I can find my
next food source.

[Fernando sighs] We use these...

and go to a new spot.

So, I'm officially feeling the
fatigue of like the lack of food.

Um, today's the first day
where I definitely feel like...

a different... a
different gear of fatigue.

I'm moving my blind from
where the elephants destroyed it...

to here because lots of
natural foliage already here.

Just making my blind
building a lot easier.

And also I've seen
that same herd

the last couple days

on that far side of
the riverbank there.

Now, I'm going to clear
my ground a little bit here.

So, here I am again.

Like, having to
work a little bit extra

because the elephants kind
of messed up my operation.

At this point, it is a little
bit comical and frustrating

'cause I am so
weak right now, but...

this one feels good.

There's a phenomenon called
"Jumping the string," that animals do.

When the animal hears
that string be released,

they twitch and they
jump on that and they flee.

But that's the risk
of taking a far shot.

Hunting is not easy
and you need a lot of skill

and you need
things to go your way.

I feel really tired.

And whenever I stand up,

I feel like I'm going
to pass out. [laughs]

[Terra] All right. Right
now, I'm going to take...

all of this little
stuff that I just got.

I'm going to try to
put it in a sunny spot,

so that maybe any moisture
that's in it can be dried out.

If I can get this all dried out,

it'll be a perfect, little,
tender bundle for the bow drill.

I really don't want to give up
on making a permanent fire.

I'm hoping that all
of my stuff will be dry

so I can get some fire.

While that is sitting in
the sun drying some more,

I'm gonna go get some water.

I don't really like the
looks of my seep well,

so I think I'm gonna go
ahead and take the chance

of trying the river water.

Hopefully, I don't get some kind of
weird parasite or something from the water

but at this point I
need something,

so this is what I'm gonna do.

[sighs in relief]

Now that I've got a
little bit of dry wood,

I actually have really good hope

that I'm going to have a
fire here in just a little while.

Getting this fire means
everything right now.

Damn it!

Son of a b*tch!

Son of a b*tch!

Just [bleep] do it!

Everything is against me.

I'm beat up and eat up.

The only way to step
it up is to get a fire.

God [bleep] damn it!

That was so close.

[breathing heavily]

I've literally never had this much
trouble making a bow drill ever.

I've never taken
days to make a fire.

[exhales]

I feel like punching something.

I feel like doing something
because I'm so pissed off

that I can't get this going.

I would say that, at this point,

I am starting to regret not bringing
the fire starter at least with me,

even if I had just
not planned to use it.

I really wish I had
brought it with me.

I might have screwed myself.

[Jamie] Look at the bites.

You can't really see them.

They're... they're actually...

they're doing a lot better
than what they were.

Thanks to the termites nest.

That is huge.

I can feel myself
just relaxing more

and so, hopefully, I can
get myself a nice bit of food.

I'm getting quite hungry...

Let's have a look to
see what I've got here.

This is called the tree of life because
it provides everything you need.

Also provides food.

You can see these little nuts.

A lot of them have been opened but
there'll be some that are still closed.

And if there's no holes on them,

and I crack that open, there's going
to be a grub inside that I can eat.

And they're really tasty.

So, I'm gonna fill
my bag up right now.

So, I'm looking for the
ones left with no hole in them.

The hole means that the grub
has grown and crawled its way out.

I'm getting eaten up right now,

but this is worth it.

Hopefully, I can come
back here on a daily basis

and maybe get some fresh ones.

This is great.

Loads of grubs here.

I'm really happy about the
amount of nuts I was able to find.

Every one of these should
hopefully have a grub inside it.

But they're quite hard to open.

So, I'm just going
to make a tool

that's going to help me get into
these nuts more and more safely.

That's going to
hold that in place

while I give it a whack.

That is tricky.

That's the grub inside.

I'm just going to
pick it out and eat it.

It's a big fat one.

They don't taste like what you
would expect a grub to taste like.

It taste kind of like
coconut a little bit.

Really nice.

[Fernando whispering] I
have been sitting in this blind

for a long time.

I mean, I'm... I'm 20 feet
from an elephant at this point.

I have to keep a safe distance
like got to make sure I don't like...

get them upset.

I mean, one charge
from an elephant,

and not only is the
challenge over, my life is over.

Oh, [bleep]. What's that?

Oh!

Huh.

I caught dinner.

That's awesome.

You never know
what you're gonna get.

I find food.

That's just how
these challenges go.

All right. Mr. Chameleon.

I actually do feel
bad about this.

This is a beautiful creature,

but, um, I haven't eaten, so...

thank you, Mr. Chameleon
for giving your life.

I feel good.

Morale is high.

All right. I'm gonna
cook this chameleon.

I've never eaten this before.

I really don't know...

what I'm doing.

To be totally honest, this
does not look that appealing.

I'm gonna eat it

'cause I'm really hungry.

There actually really
isn't much meat to him.

All right. Let's
just try it, though.

What do I care.

Let's see what
chameleon meat tastes like.

Mmm...

Mmm. Okay.

Mmm. Yeah. Not bad. Not bad.

Yeah.

Tastes kind of like snake.

And this is what survival is.

It's little small victories.

And you have more small
victories and setbacks,

and you... you survive.

[elephant trumpeting]

[Terra] Get off me.

I'm just getting ate
up by mosquitoes.

The issue is when I'm just
constantly, constantly getting eaten.

I need a [bleep] fire.

Twenty-four, seven,
never stopping.

God damn! This place is awful.

On my next challenge
out, I will bring a fire starter.

[insects buzzing]

[Cheeny] Oh! I'm
so tired of being cold.

It's really uncomfortable...

So, I'm in my shelter and...

I don't know if it's really doing
much to help me keep the heat in,

I'm feeling the rocks behind
me and they feel ice cold and...

my moccasins are
working pretty good,

but my feet are still cold.

Tonight it's gonna
be a really cold night.

I just don't want
to be cold anymore.

Can't do this every 30 minutes.

I'm [bleep] over it.

This is a non-stop
battle at night.

It's [bleep] ridiculous.

Argh! I [bleep] hate this.

I'm not gonna freeze my
[bleep] a*s off every night.

Freezing my ovaries off.

These are my hash marks

showing what day
I've just completed.

I think everyone has different
techniques to stay strong mentally.

[Cheeny] Over here is
my... my day markers.

And everyday I
just mark a new line

just to see my progress.

A fun morning ritual.

Every morning I'll
check off the day it is.

It is day seven.

Day seven.

[Terra] That means it is
one week in, two weeks out.

A third of the way through.

[Fernando] First seven
days like a orientation.

The last seven days
are a kind of countdown.

Day seven, and now
I'm in like the thick of it.

Counting the days,
that keeps me going.

Don't mind if I do.

And right now it looks like I've
got a long road ahead of me,

but I know in no time it's
going to be full of hash marks.

Ooh!

Hopefully, not the last notch.

[Terra] So, when I made the decision
to leave the fire starter behind...

I absolutely thought that
in this jungle somewhere...

I would be able to adequately
and easily find the materials I need

to make a damn fire.

I was way wrong.

I came out here to do everything
as primitively as possible

and I think using the fire
starter would kind of negate that.

I just... I don't have it
in me to try anymore.

I put more into this fire than I have
ever put into any fire before ever.

As much as I wanted
to do this the right way,

I'm gonna go do it the
next to primitive way

'cause if I don't, I
will be forced to tap

'cause I can't stand
these [bleep] bugs.

I'm going to try to use
some of the last energy I have

to go back up this mountain
and collect that fire starter.

If I don't, I'm screwed.

I have to do this.

It's either that or keep k*lling
myself trying to make a fire.

This hike is going to
take a couple of hours.

It's gonna hurt.

It's going to suck a lot.

So, I'm gonna go ahead
and head up the mountain

and grab that fire starter.

Here we go.

I don't care who
looks at it as a fail.

I might not complete
all of my goals,

but damn it, I'll
complete at least one.

I'm gonna complete
the challenge.

I think being up here,

reaching a higher
and higher elevation,

along with the CO2

coming out of the crap
that's on the ground.

There's a... huge,
huge, huge amount

of leaf litter just decaying.

And that decaying produces CO2.

CO2 displaces oxygen

and makes it a lot
harder for us to breathe.

[narrator] The higher altitude
and elevated CO2 levels

can lead to headaches,
nausea and dizziness.

[Terra sighing in
exhaustion] [bleep] sakes.

I'm feeling very tired.

This is a lot to do with...

no food in your system.

Oh!

It's a tough hill to climb

when you literally
have hills to climb.

But I can't give up.

I've got to do
what I've got to do.

And I got to do it now,

or this could be
leading up to disaster.

[exhales]

I wish I could explain...

the cold here.

It's cold.

The shelter didn't
help me at all last night.

It was so cold, I
couldn't feel my feet.

I was shivering, my
teeth were chattering.

I was hoping the
heat from the fire

would get pushed
back from the stone

and would come into here and...

heat everything up but...

it didn't.

I had to get up so many
times last night anyway

just to keep feeding the fire to
keep it big enough to keep me warm.

It was just all night.

They're 14 hour nights.

That's a long time to be cold.

I don't want to do 14
more nights out here.

I don't even want
to do one more.

I have nothing to prove
to anyone or to myself.

I just have so many
emotions right now.

I know if I leave,
I'm gonna regret it.

But if I don't and if I stay,
I'm gonna [bleep] hate it.

I don't know what's worse.

Having the regret of leaving...

or suffering the
rest of the challenge.

I'm not even gonna
bother with this fire.

I'm not gonna need it tonight

because I won't be here.

I never in a million years...

thought that I would
tap out so soon.