01x04 - Episode 4

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Just sometimes it helps

distract me

..from the sound.

The one that's always there.

Everywhere.

Or I lose myself.

HUMMING

I definitely thought it was

sleep deprivation at first.

Like, before you fall asleep

and you think you're falling.

I, like I see the ground

open up in front of me.

But since we started talking

..they started to get more,

like, epic.

They got really bad.

Nights of no sleep

and my head pounding.

And there were a few times

where all I could think about

was k*lling myself

..on repeat.

I'm so sorry.

No, I mean

..I got that a few times before,

but nothing like this.

I mean, I thought my brain

was broken.

I felt so f*cking alone.

INTENSE HUMMING

But, you know, that's changed

..obviously.

I love you.

I don't mean that I'm in love

with you, but

..I love you.

HUMMING

THEY GIGGLE

HUMMING BUILDS

GROANING

THEY LAUGH

Bye. See you.

INTENSE HUMMING

HUMMING FADES

RUNNING WATER

PHONE BUZZES

Morning. I hope you're OK.

It would be good to talk today

if you can.

Sweetheart, I'm worried about you.

Can we just talk, Kyle?

Kyle, please.

Hi.

Erm

..I am OK.

Erm

I mean, I've been not OK.

It's been awful.

About as awful as it gets, but

..something happened. I'm

No. No, no.

I did something.

I broke through.

And I am really

..OK.

I'm fine. OK, good. Good.

Are you staying with someone

or are you on your own?

I don't want you to worry.

If you are not here,

worrying about you is all I've got.

Is it that woman or is it that

OK. ..group of whatever? I

f*ck off.

DOORBELL

It's like a rip.

It's like the universe has been

..torn open.

And

And everything comes

from inside the hum

..and inside of me.

And

..it's like I'm being

pulled inside of it.

SHE EXHALES

And every

HUMMING

..every atom

..in our bodies

..found their frequency.

HUMMING BUILDS

And we found it

..and we stayed in it.

SHE LAUGHS

And you don't remember how long?

Erm A while.

HUMMING CONTINUES

SHE LAUGHS

I didn't get it.

I couldn't get it before this,

but now Now I I get it.

No, it's wonderful.

It's truly It's just

..you shouldn't really be

listening on your own.

You're joking?

I

HUMMING FADES

Were you telling me that the two of

you never do it just the two of you?

We've been doing this

for far longer.

I'm sorry, but, I mean, I thought

..we were just doing what

you encouraged us to do.

Without a proper guide,

this can tip into something

very frightening.

A state closer to psychosis.

No, no

No.

Your physical symptoms

HUMMING

..what happened in the shower

..your sleeplessness,

seemed particularly acute,

and this suggests that you might be

more susceptible to

INTENSE HUMMING

..becoming lost in it,

and that can be very scary, Claire.

No, no, it's No, no

Claire We know, we know.

Just drink your tea.

..you're on a precipice.

No, no, this felt different.

It felt We know, we know.

Now, drink your tea.

There's Ayurvedic herbs that have

very powerful

anti-psychotic properties.

You've got turmeric

INTENSE HUMMING

I used to drink a lot

at the beginning.

It's just

Is she

Is she Are you Are you OK?

Yeah.

It's just a headache.

Just drink your tea.

There's Ayurvedic herbs

that have very powerful

anti-psychotic properties.

Water hyssop, ground turmeric,

ashwagandha, shatavari, maca root,

estradiol, valerian.

I used to drink a lot

at the beginning.

Do you want to lie down? Yeah.

OK, good. Good idea.

Take the spare room.

Claire,

you're on a precipice.

We need to be very careful

how we can guide you back, OK?

SHE GASPS

HUMMING

SHE GASPS

SHE PANTS

Oh!

HUMMING

HUMMING BUILDS

Aaaaaaaaaaah

Welcome back.

Just find a spot.

Aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaah

HUMMING

HUMMING BUILDS

Hello?

She's with them, Dad.

Can you just call her?

Look, I don't think me harassing

her is going to do any good, Ash.

Can you just wait for her?

Come here.

What the f*ck is happening to her?

I don't know.

DOORBELL

Oh, hi.

You won't go back, will you?

You know it's just fear

pulling you there.

Yeah, well, that felt

really f*cking good just now.

Yeah?

What's up with the phones?

In the bowl?

Oh, we found it helps everyone

be more focused, more present.

How are you feeling?

Good.

It felt really great

being with everyone.

You were right,

go forward with the group.

I have no idea

where he's been sleeping.

What? For how long?

A few nights, a week.

Has he been here?

Well, he said you kicked him out.

Excuse me?

Can we scale this back?

He was at this party after prom

and he said you kicked him out.

Well, he's lying.

Of course I didn't kick him out.

Can you just lower your voice?

Of course I didn't kick him out!

So, do you have, erm,

much support, Noam?

Wow. Big question. I know.

Erm, yeah, I've got a partner,

and he's

I mean, it's

It's been difficult, yeah,

because, erm, very quickly

he made it about my mental health,

which, erm, has been quite tough.

Yes, I know.

I think that'shonestly something

that pretty much everyone has felt.

It's really difficult.

I mean, my husband and daughter,

they were so quick to dismiss it

as stress or a breakdown.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I mean, I get it, you know?

But do you, though?

And if he's lying, then

Well, if he's not here,

then he's at that group, and

Dad! Yeah, look,

we'll just wait here,

they'll finish up and then we can

all just have a discussion. No!

Thank you for your time.

f*ck.

Erm, so, husband

and daughter, was it? Mm-hm.

Yes. Ashley.

She's 17. 17?! Mm.

My God, the babies

were having babies.

Yeah.

Are they, erm

..you know?

Mm-mm. No.

They

They left.

But

..I'm so grateful

for this community.

Really.

Because it's been f*cking hard

..and I've not known what to do

or how to actually

take care of myself.

This is the right place.

These are the people.

Anyway, I'm

I'm really happy that you're here.

Thank you.

I know she's in there, Ashley

Yeah, well, I'm going.

I don't think there's anything

to be gained by Ashley!

CAR DOOR SLAMS

Yeah, this morning we had

a really lovely session

Did you try the grapefruit?

Why is Ashley here?

Huh?

It's Claire's daughter.

She's outside.

She's with someone -

a woman I don't recognise.

Oh, sh*t.

DOORBELL

I mean, she's obviously just

concerned about you, you know?

She wants to section me.

That's disgraceful. It's OK.

Look, that's not going to happen,

is it?

Like, she's not going to be able

to do that. You'd be surprised.

No, no, she won't listen to me.

It's all right.

We support you, Kyle.

I'm so sorry.

We want this, OK?

Let me go to them.

With your permission,

Claire and Kyle

..I'd like to ask them to leave.

I don't know that that's

OK.

Yeah Well, yeah.

Yeah, sure. OK, thank you. Yes.

Hey, it's going to be OK.

It's not Hey.

Hello. Is he in there?

Mrs Francis.

Paul.

I am Omar and this is Jo.

I don't give a sh*t who you are.

Just give me my son back.

We don't have your son to give.

Are you for real?

Can you just

Can you just ask Kyle to come out?

Oh, Kyle doesn't want to come out.

Neither does Claire.

They asked that we come out instead.

OK, well

Sorry, is it money? Sex?

We just want to be left in peace

to listen together. OK, bullshit.

You enjoy vulnerable people

needing you. It's just ego, power

What's inside there

is a supportive, loving family.

f*ck off.

The people you love are loved.

Why is it so hard OK.

..for you to

Hi. Erm, police, please.

Thank you. Yeah.

Hold on a sec. I'm not sure.

Sorry, what's the address?

I'd like you to leave our property

now, please.

12 Meridian Drive. Yeah.

I really don't think we need

to do this. No, it's my son.

My son is being held by a group of,

I don't know, erm, like a cult or

OK. He's 17 and he's in

They're all much older than him

Let's go. ..and he's vulnerable.

My name is Siobhan Francis.

My son's name is Kyle

HUMMING

This is

It's OK.

Maybe we should just send him out.

Everyone in there is here by choice,

Omar.

I know.

We're not doing anything wrong.

Claire

..I'd like you to call them

and ask them to leave, please.

Ashley? Hey. Are you OK?

This wasn't me, OK? But she keeps

saying that they have her son

and just can you Can you

please Can you make this stop?

No, we don't have him.

We're not holding him c*ptive.

Jesus Christ.

Why did you even bring her here?

I didn't. It wasn't like that.

I just

OK.

Can you put Dad on, please?

Well, do you love him?

Do you still love him?

Do you love Dad?

Yes.

And what about me?

Oh, of course I do.

Well, then, come out now with Kyle

and we can all go home.

He doesn't want to come out

and neither do I.

Look, you're the ones

that can stop this.

You can just walk away and go home.

Mum,

you have locked yourself in a house

with a bunch of f*cking lunatics!

They're not lunatics, Ashley.

They're here for me.

We're here for you.

We're literally f*cking here!

They listen to me and they

support me like a family.

I'm your family.

Dad is your f*cking family.

I felt something.

I have

I have

..felt a wholeness,

a connectedness beyond

anything imaginable.

Beyond ecstasy or pleasure.

Ecstasy or pleasure?!

And the work that we are doing

What is she saying?

What is she say?

I don't understand why we can't

just, you know, go out there and

Absolutely not. Agreed.

I mean, they're obviously

just worried, you know,

and if we continue to

barricade ourselves

No-one's barricading.

You know, they've called the police

and, you know Precisely.

They're the ones f*cking escalating.

Yeah.

Kyle?

That's your mum.

She just wants to know

that you're OK.

For weeks I have been trying

to convince her

..that I am, in fact, f*cking OK.

But she doesn't listen to me.

And instead she tries to

medicate me and hospitalise me

and she calls the f*cking police.

Does that seem like logic

you can reason with?

Claire?

Claire, that's your kid.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, and I want what's best

for her.

She's not out there on her own,

Noam. She's with her father.

No, this

This is something that I need.

And I truly believe that I need this

in order to be

the best version of myself.

But because it isn't

..exactly what they want me to be

..because for the first time in a

..in a really f*cking long time

I'm not putting them and their needs

above mine, well

Well, then, that's a problem.

Because I want something,

then they call the police

to the door.

SHE SCOFFS

No.

Walking out of here

..into their fear

..and their projection and

..their confusion and panic and

..theft and

..closed-mindedness

..that steals clarity

and conviction from us.

No.

No, this will not end

the way that you think it will

if we just walk out of here.

POLICE RADIO CHATTER

Nice.

OK, we've got Siobhan Francis - mum.

Says her son Kyle is in this address

being held by, and I quote, a cult.

Cult?

Not had anything on the address.

Kid is 17.

Mum says he's vulnerable,

history of mental health.

The eight of us

are peacefully gathering

in this residence by choice.

Please respect our privacy.

Thank you.

We want to de-escalate, Damian.

And they're in there

because they can hear a noise?

A hum, they call it. A hum.

Why are we specifying a number?

Yeah. It makes us sound

like trapped miners.

It's your wife that's in there

as well, is it, sir? Yeah. Claire.

Any reason to believe she's not

in there of her own free will?

I mean, she's an enthusiastic

participant, but she's not

Is Kyle under any medication,

Mrs Francis,

or under any kind of hospital care?

No, but he has been in the past.

Omar, the leader or whatever,

he's been in trouble before.

He was fired for basically

running a cult in his university.

His real name is Oscar Barrett.

We'll take it from here.

DOORBELL

DOORBELL

DOORBELL

So, erm

..I'm going to go. No.

What do you mean, "No"?

Look, I know this is really f*cking

stressful. Yeah, no sh*t, Claire.

It's extraordinary for all of us.

INTENSE HUMMING

But I really believe

that this is the right

..the right place for you

and for all of us, right?

Yes? Look, I know you're having

your moment and whatever,

and I really hope that everyone's

going to be all all right and that,

but I'm not going to sit

in here Can we regroup?

..whilst the police are outside,

because that's just f*cking wild!

I don't want to f*cking regroup!

Get your f*cking hands off me!

I don't want to be touched,

all right?

I think we should get that.

No, we shouldn't get that.

I just want to f*cking leave.

You seem upset, sweetheart.

Just try and keep calm.

I am calm! You don't seem calm.

Well, it's just because

I've said I want to go.

Please, just all agree to stay until

they've left. Please. Is that a g*n?

DOORBELL

Have you got a f*cking g*n?

Damian? Just calm down. Calm down.

Damian, why do you have a

Why do you have a g*n?

It's locked and it's fine.

It is not fine.

Oh, so there is a g*n.

There's a f*cking g*n. No!

No, wait, wait, wait, wait.

You don't know what you're doing.

Oh, my God!

Get off of me!

I said get the f*ck off of me!

All right! I don't want to be

f*cking touched! OK.

f*cking go, then!

We didn't mean that.

No, you f*cking did. f*ck off!

We're a f*cking family. f*ck off!

We're a family. f*cking family!

f*ck you. Yeah, you f*cking

Oh, look. Sir, are you OK, sir?

Please, just leave me alone.

Please. Is Kyle OK?

None None of them are OK because

they've all lost the f*cking plot.

What do you mean? Is Kyle OK?

Please.

Erm, there's a bloke in there

and he's, like

Like, he pushed me to the floor.

He's got a f*cking g*n.

Kyle! I need to speak to my wife.

How the f*ck did I get caught up

in this sh*t?!

Yeah, I know that.

I know that, Tom.

No, I am listening.

I can't quite

No, I'm fine.

I don't want to come out.

What do we do?

Sorry to call.

I love you, too.

I'm so sorry.

I'm really, really sorry.

It's my son.

Aaron. He's

..the only thing that's

been keeping me going.

This is for him.

Cos this makes me feel

like I can protect him.

When everything else

is so f*cking out of control,

that at leasthe's safe.

That's the only thing I can do.

I'm so sorry.

Claire and Kyle

..they've made a very brave

decision today,

choosing us,

and

..we all have chosen one another.

And that's beautiful.

I am so proud of us.

This is family. That's all we have.

f*ck!

HUMMING

Soon we will all have to

walk out of here.

And we may never

..be able to gather again.

I feel I've let you down.

But

..there is one more thing

..that we could do

..and that we should do.

HUMMING

We listen.

Hmmmmmmmmmmm

..mmmmmmmmmmmm

CLAIRE INHALES

..mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Aaaaaaaaaaah

Aaaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaaa

Ah! Aaah! Ah!

..aaaaaaaaaaaa

..aaaaaaaaaaaa

KYLE PANTS

..aaaaaaaaaaaah

Radios! Ah!

Voices!

SHE LAUGHS

PANTING, GRUNTING

JO MIMICS CRYING

Your breath, your breath,

your breath.

Let it move through you!

Let it move through you!

SCREAMS

Let it replace you.

Let it replace you.

Let it move!

Move!

Atom by atom!

Go deeper! Go deeper!

HUMMING, GROANS

Go deeper!

MANIC LAUGHTER

HUMMING BUILDS, SCREAMS

Go deeper!

MANIC SCREAMS

Go deeper!

When I was a girl

I was happy.

INTENSE HUMMING

When I was a girl I was happy.

CLAIRE PANTS

HUMMING BUILDS

SCREAMING, CHANTING

MUFFLED SCREAMS, GROANS

CLAIRE GASPS

HUMMING BUILDS, GASPING

SHE CHOKES

Aaaargh!

SHE GASPS AND SCREAMS

I couldn't imagine

how my life could unravel so

I couldn't imagine how my life

could unravel so completely.

Such a barely perceptible sound.

So small.

I couldn't imagine how my life

could unravel so completely.

When I was a girl I was happy.

I used to look at my mother

and wonder

.."Why aren't you happy?"

I used to watch her making dinner.

Making lasagnes and pies.

Roasting things - roasting joints

and birds and legs of animals.

And I'd look at her face in the

mirror when she brushed my hair.

Or when she taught me

how to brush my teeth.

And I'd look at her face

when she tied my shoelaces and

..I used to think

..you made a decision to be sad.

You made a decision

to live a small life.

And I will never let that

happen to me.

And when I had my baby

..my girl, my daughter

..well, the universe expanded.

It felt ginormous.

Everything grew around her.

It wasn't what I'd feared.

It wasn't that motherhood

compressed, it was the opposite.

And she forced me, from when

she was three seconds old,

she insisted me into a space

where I chose to be happy.

I loved my job,

I love my husband,

I love my friends,

I love its simplicity, I

Life looks small but it feels huge.

It does. It did It did.

It did.

But then

..now

..since and now

..how can you go back

when you've seen it all

..when you know?

HUMMING

Claire? Claire. Claire.

Come back. Listen to my voice.

Hold on to my voice.

Claire, it's OK. Claire, I'm here.

I'm here, I'm here.

Keep talking. Hold her. OK.

Sorry. It's OK, it's OK.

Come back. Listen to my voice.

Hold on to my voice.

CLAIRE SCREAMS

Go!

Aaaargh!

CLAIRE PANTS

EUPHORIC LAUGHTER, GASPS

Armed police! Armed police!

Hey, Claire, listen, it's me,

it's me. I'm here, I'm here.

It's everything, it's all of it,

and it's

..and it's right here,

you just need to see them.

Armed police!

Put the g*n down! Put the g*n down!

g*nshots

SCREAMS

JO SOBS

No!

CLAIRE SOBS

SHE LAUGHS

I'm so sorry.

Hey.

POLICE RADIO CHATTER

I used to hope

that I'd step into the road.

I think I just

The thing that scares me now

..is I know I'm supposed to

want the

..peaceful, quiet, healthy,

functional version of my life,

but

..I don't.

I really don't.

I miss that feeling of

..when it was just about

..to tip into chaos.

Claire?

Well

..when I was a girl, I was happy.

Erm

I used to look at my mother

and wonder, "Why aren't you happy?"

The report came back

from the council.

They say it was a

compressor station.

Part of, like,

a natural gas pipeline.

And it was making these

low-frequency vibrations.

Apparently.

SHE SCOFFS

OK. Well

How's Ashley?

Erm

I think it's going to be hard.

Erm She, erm

Er, she didn't go to the funeral.

She's struggling.

SHE BREATHES SHAKILY

Thank you.

DOOR CLOSES

So, have you spoken to

anyone from the group?

No.

I'm not going to, either.

What, so you've just stopped

hearing it? It's gone?

Ashley.

It's fine.

Mm-hm.

So it was a gas pipe?

It looks that way.

It's what the city report says.

A gas pipe.

Someone's going to sue them.

I bet those people that

came over that time will.

You know, that doctor.

Maybe.

I'm sure they feel very vindicated.

They were right.

It's over.

ALARM CLOCK BEEPS

Temperatures around about

12 to 14 degrees.

Tomorrow is probably the

best day of the week.

Temperatures 19 degrees. Looks

quite nice, actually, tomorrow.

Plenty of sunshine.

Then you get into

bank holiday Monday

ALARM STOPS

..and it's a mixture of

sunshine and showers, dry in parts.

Into next week, by the way,

it's quite decent.

By Friday, we're talking 21 degrees.

Very nice.

Just because of that, just to let

you know there are road closures

from around 11 o'clock to 5 today.

It's expected to cause

some delays on roads

around Knutsford town centre.

The main road there is closed, but

it's always an amazing day, that.

If you're looking for

something to do today,

get there nice and early.

You might need to park just

outside the town centre,

but then if you head in, there are

road closures in Knutsford

Right, great story on

the BBC website today,

which is about interviews

or scenarios when people

have been interviewed for jobs,

and they talk about one particular

person who said that they

had a bizarre experience

when applying for a student

ambassador job for a new

BRUSHES TEETH

RADIO CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY

BIRDSONG

HUMMING

HUMMING BUILDS

HUMMING INTENSIFIES

ECHOING THUMP

What's the most beautiful

sound you've ever heard?

A lawnmower.

When I was a boy, I'd lie in

the grass at my grandma's,

listening to the sound of

her neighbour cutting his lawn

in the distance.

I remember feeling like

time was limitless.

It was like the sound of eternity.

HUMMING CONTINUES

DISTANT WHIRRING