03x05 - I'd Like to Hold Her Head Under Water

[bunniefuu]

- Hey.
- What's going on?

Have you heard about this Facebook group?

I'm sure you heard about my case.

You know, if you make a report too,

Chris could finally be held accountable.

I didn't mean for this story
to become about me.

I was... I was just trying to help Pippa.

You've actually been kind of
mean to me most of the night.

I think you're looking for that.

- [LUCY] I'm sorry.
- [ALEX] Say that again.

I'm so sorry.

No, next week doesn't work.
I need your next available appointment.

Wait, who do we know that got pregnant?

- It's Diana.
- sh*t!

Yeah, and you really can't tell Stephen.

[STEPHEN] Are you pregnant?

You don't think I have a right
to be f*cking consulted?

I am so excited to abort your baby.

Yes, I said some things
that I probably shouldn't have.

He's just not someone who lets things go.

- Have you seen Wrigley yet?
- [STEPHEN] He's moving into a new dorm.

He doesn't want the reminder
of everything that happened in our room.

You and your parents,
you don't talk at all, right?

My mom was like 14 when she had me.

I had a conversation with someone today,

and they told me
that I was a needy person.

Maybe that's what drove Evan
to cheat on me.

Evan is obsessed with you!

- Can I come in?
- Yeah, yeah, of course.

Sadie, hey.

[SADIE] [ON PHONE]
Sorry. I can't really do this.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[PHONE LINE RINGS]

[SADIE] [OVER PHONE]
Hi, this is Sadie. Leave a message.

[PHONE LINE RINGS]

- [WRIGLEY] Hey, man, what's up?
- Hey! Oh, nothing.

Nothing. Just found out
I got into f*ck' Yale.

Oh, that's great, dude.
I think in my head you were already in.

Well, yeah. No, but now I'm actually in.

That's awesome.

Let's go. Let's celebrate.
Let's get a drink, right? Come on!

Yeah, for sure.
Let me talk to Pippa. I'll text you.

- Okay.
- All right, congrats, dude.

All right.

- [COPIER BEEPING]
- [STEPHEN] Come on, Jesus Christ.

- [BEEPING AND BUZZING]
- Access.

[BUTTONS CLICKING]

d*ck and a half!

Okay.

[BUTTONS BEEPING]

- [COPIER BUZZING]
- Suck a d*ck!

[BUTTONS CLICK]

[BUZZING AND BEEPING]

Piece of f*ck' sh*t.

[STOMPS FOOT]

[♪ "RUN ON" BY MOBY PLAYING]

♪ Some people go to church
just to signify ♪

♪ Trying to make a date
with a neighbor's wife ♪

♪ Brother, let me tell you
just as sure as you're born ♪

Sorry, excuse me,
is there anyone sitting here?

Oh, um, I don't think so.

♪ Go tell that midnight rider ♪

♪ Tell the gamblin', ramblin' backslider ♪

♪ Tell them God Almighty
gonna cut 'em down ♪

♪ You might run on for a long time ♪

♪ Run on, ducking and dodging ♪

♪ Run on, children, for a long time ♪

♪ Let me tell you,
God Almighty gonna cut you down ♪

♪ You might run on for a long time ♪

♪ Run on, ducking and dodging ♪

♪ Run on, children, for a long time ♪

♪ Let me tell you, God Almighty... ♪

Are you not cold in that dress?

♪ Run on for a long time ♪

♪ Run on, ducking and dodging ♪

♪ Run on, children, for a long time ♪

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[CELL PHONE VIBRATES]

[CLEARS THROAT] Hi, Daddy.

[ARTHUR] [ON PHONE] Hey, I keep
getting your packages to the house.

They're all over the foyer.

You can just put them all in my room.

Okay, well, there's this odd one.

It's big. And it's from...

Oh wow.

You know, now that I'm looking,
this one is from Yale Law.

Are you serious?

You're in, sweetie.

[LAUGHS]

Oh, my God.

I knew you could do it.

[WOMAN] Diana? We're ready for you.

Um, I'll call you back.

I just... I have a meeting with my advisor.

- I love you.
- I love you, too.

So proud of you. Talk later.

- That way?
- Mm-hm.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

- [BREE CHUCKLES]
- What?

Nothing. You're just a very
inappropriately dressed barista.

Well, I'm sorry.

No, it's fine.

Just disgusting.

Huh!

[BREE LAUGHS]

I should get back to my dorm.

I don't want Pippa
to start interrogating me.

How has she not realized
that you've been sleeping here

almost every night for a week?

She has a boyfriend, too.

Not that you're my...

boyfriend.

Hey, we can take it however you want.

We don't have to tell people yet.

Yeah, it's been good, just us.

[EVAN] Yeah.

I don't think I'm, um,
going to the beach party tomorrow.

Oh, really? Are you working?

I just have some stuff
to do for the exhibit.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Must be a delivery.

Hey, Evan.

- Oh, sh*t.
- Well, well, well,

well, well, well, well! What's this?

- Hey.
- What's going on?

Don't say anything.
We're not telling people yet, okay?

Okay. All right. I promise.

I just... I forgot something here.

And there it is. Yeah.

Got it.

Okay, cool. See you later.

There was some good news today,
besides all this.

I got into Yale.

Oh, sh*t. That's huge, man.

Wrigley's like... He's like insisting

that we go out and celebrate, so...

Yeah, definitely. I'll hit you later.

Okay.

Cool. Cool.

See you, Bree.

[GROANS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

So now everyone knows?

- No, he's not gonna say anything.
- You suddenly trust Stephen?

Well, of course not,
but him and I are good.

So if I tell him
not to say anything, he won't.

Hey, just trust me, okay?

I don't know how people
have so much patience for him.

I mean, I can't believe
Lucy got back together with him.

You know, he dumped her while
she was wearing a coconut bra.

I hope you told him what a f*cking as*h*le
he was that night.

I don't think I was there.

Yes, you were.

The Hawaiian party.

No, I didn't... I didn't go.

I know you did.

It was the last night
before we left for summer.

Oh, right. Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, I went for like 10 minutes.

I'm just saying I didn't see, uh,
Lucy or Stephen that night.

- Okay.
- Yeah, I left pretty fast.

- You left fast?
- Mm-hmm.

Well, you left with that girl.

I know that was the night
that you slept with someone else.

You said that it happened
the last night you were on campus.

Right.

I'm sorry.

Honestly, I don't...
I don't even want to get back into it.

It's fine.

Mm.

[CHUCKLES]

I just realized something.

What?

Stephen slept in your bed while
he stayed here over break, didn't he?

[LAUGHS]

Yeah. I'll burn the sheets.

- Good.
- Yeah.

It's f*cking cold.

- What's that?
- Coffee.

You've never made me coffee before.

Yeah, I can be polite.

How's your week been so far?

- Um...
- [ALEX CLEARS THROAT]

yeah, fine.

Pretty... uneventful.

You're good, though?

What are you doing?

Nothing. Just asking you a question.

You, you don't really do that, though.

- Why? Is it not okay to talk?
- No, it's okay, but you're...

Why are you being weird and thoughtful?

I'm not. I'm just wondering
how you're doing.

What's going on?

[ALEX] I just...

[SIGHS]

[CHUCKLES] I, uh, I heard something.

- Okay.
- About a guy named Chris.

[SIGHS]

And that he might have done
something to you, and I was worried.

No.

No, that-that's, um...
That's n... that's

nothing for you to worry about.

Come on, Lucy,
I'm not that insensitive, okay?

I'm sorry if it seems like I was, but.

No.

It is okay, okay?

It's just genuinely not an issue for me.

I-I promise you.

- f*ck, I just feel really bad.
- Why?

Because of, you know, the...

You know, the way that we are together
and the way that I am with you.

But I'm fine. It has nothing
to do with you and me.

No, but that's not true, Lucy.
It's not. I'm sorry. It's just...

Like, I feel like
I'm doing something different

to what I thought I was doing.

What do you mean?

[GROANS] Uh, like...

Like, when-when...

When I'm rough with you, I...

Like, I thought we were
just f*cking around

and it didn't come
from a place of, like, trauma.

Trauma? No, there's no...
There's no trauma.

- I promise you.
- Yeah, whatever you want to call it.

Look, if you don't want to, like,
f*ck me anymore, you don't have to.

- You can just say it.
- Lucy, that's not what I'm saying.

That is not what I'm saying at all.
I'm just...

[SIGHS] I am...

I try not to hurt anyone.

And I know I could
come across like a d*ck,

but I try and avoid doing
actual damage to people, okay?

It is kind of a thing for me.

No, you're not damaging me, okay?

And I don't... I don't want you
to suddenly be different.

Okay, we-we obviously...

k*lled the mood.
Let's j... Let's just talk later, okay?

Okay, yeah, if that's what you want.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[TOILET FLUSHES]

- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- [BILLIARD ba*ls CLACKING]

Ugh. Ugh.

So, how's it feel?

You've been talking about Yale
since the first day I met you.

Yeah, no, it feels... Feels pretty good.

Feels... It feels really good, yeah.

Maybe it hasn't sunk in yet,

but, no, I'm so, yeah,
I'm so f*cking happy.

[CELL PHONE VIBRATES]

- Well, you're popular tonight.
- Molly keeps calling me.

I don't even know what to say to her.

She wants to know
where her f*cking husband is.

[EVAN LAUGHS]

You can stop hooking up with her.

I did stop. I haven't talked
to her in over a week.

Did you tell her
you're no longer hooking up,

or did you just assume
she'd figure it out eventually?

Uh...

- Right.
- I told her we were casual.

You're fine. She's being crazy.

[BARTENDER] Last call!

All right. I'm beat.

What? No, no.
Let's have another round. Come on.

That was the last call.

Oh, okay. Let's just go to my room.

Uh, let's just go to my place instead.

My dorm's like 40 feet from here.
Let's just do that.

No, it's cool. I'm gonna call it.

Oh, come on.
When do I ever want to stay out?

It's a big night!

Hey, I can just get a cab to mine.

That doesn't make any sense.
We can walk to my dorm in five seconds.

I'm not going to that f*cking room.

I'm not gonna act like everything's okay

and sit on the couch
my brother f*cking died on.

sh*t, man. I-I-I wasn't thinking.
I-I'm kind of drunk.

And by the way, it's f*cking psychotic
that you're okay living there!

You okay?

f*ck, man, I wasn't thinking.

Do you think it's weird
that I stayed there?

You never thought it was?

No, I mean, I get why Wrigley
wouldn't want to stay there,

but I wasn't there when Drew died.

That's just my dorm.

Do you think it's weird?

Does everyone else think that?

Look, man, I haven't talked
to anyone about it, but...

Yeah.

I mean, of course, it's pretty weird.

I-I honestly didn't realize that.

Hey, let's go find you a drink somewhere.

Come on. Let's go.

Oh. So you're not in pain?

It's like bad period cramps.

- I'm sorry.
- That's fine.

Um, I'm gonna see you
at the beach pool thing later, right?

[CHUCKLING] I figured
you wouldn't want to go to that.

I told you I'm fine. And it's for charity.

Plus, I have some good news.

Yeah?

I got into Yale.

What? That's...

amazing.

[LAUGHS]

Okay, I'm gonna put on
a swimsuit in February for you.

[DIANA LAUGHS]

Um...

Okay, I actually... I, um...

- Go, go. I'll see you later.
- Okay.

[LINE DISCONNECTS]

Hey.

Oh, what? Are these yours?

- [WRIGLEY] Mm-hmm.
- [PIPPA] Oh, my God.

What? They're... They're so good.

Okay, they're not, right? I...

[LAUGHS]

I don't take photography,
so I didn't know, but...

Well, I do, and I can say
with authority that they are not.

But thank you.

- I'm gonna get a water.
- Okay.

[SIGHS] Hey.

Do you think Lucy's okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I think she just wants
people to stop talking about it.

I just... I don't know why
she wouldn't tell me about Chris.

Like, do you think I did something that...

That made it hard for her to talk to me?

No, I think it's...

more that, um...

She just doesn't want people,
like, thinking about it.

You know, like, visualizing it.
Especially her friend.

I mean, since you've heard about it,

you probably have all these bad images

in your head of what
might've happened, right?

- Yeah.
- Yeah, okay, so she probably

just doesn't want us
thinking about her that way.

She's probably, like, embarrassed. Um...

Hey, okay, so what time
do we want to go to this beach thing?

Yeah, I'm... I'm not sure
I'm really in the mood.

I was thinking we could get off campus,

find some food somewhere, not here.

Yeah, I can't make it either.

I'm gonna go into town,
run some errands for this exhibit.

But Lucy's going.

[WRIGLEY] Leave campus with me.

It'll be better.

I just feel so bad leaving Lucy alone.

Okay, well, I just need
a break from this place

for, like, a day.

Yeah.

Why don't you drive Bree into town?

I could just take the bus.

No, it's cool. I can drive you.

I'm kind of crawling out of my skin here.

Yeah, okay.

Okay. Yeah.

Cool. [LAUGHS]

[CROWD CHEERING]

[♪ "PAPER PLANES" BY M.I.A. PLAYING]

♪ I fly like paper, get high like planes ♪

♪ If you catch me at the border,
I got visas in my name ♪

♪ If you come around here,
I make 'em all day ♪

What are they raising money for?

I don't know.

Cancer?

♪ I fly like paper, get high like planes ♪

♪ If you catch me at the border,
I got visas in my name ♪

♪ If you come around here,
I make 'em all day ♪

♪ I get one done in a second if you wait ♪

[LAUGHS]

They're a disease. Let's get rafts.

- Yeah.
- Far away from them.

♪ Sometimes I think sittin' on trains ♪

♪ Every stop I get to,
I'm clocking that game ♪

I think it's like a...
Like a "clean the oceans" thing.

I don't know.

Please don't be mad at me. I feel awful.

I didn't know Evan was gonna
tell Stephen about the pregnancy.

And honestly, f*ck him.

- Which one?
- Evan.

I can't believe what he did to you.

And he hasn't texted me back
in like eight days.

[TEGAN YELPS]

[STEPHEN LAUGHS]

[SCREAMING]

Do you even know her?

Oh, yeah.

I met her briefly at the library.

[TEGAN YELPS]

Did you just spray me?

Did he just spray me?

Yeah.

Okay, but to be fair,
now you're already wet,

so you might as well get in the water.

Maybe I didn't want to get in.

That's a good point.
We don't need you in the water.

We just... Evan and I
need you and your friend,

hi,

like right above it.

[ALL CHEERING]

You want us to play chicken?

Do you even remember my name?

Yeah. Tegan.

Is that, how would you...
How did you decide on that pronunciation?

How would you pronounce it?

- Tegan.
- Mm-hm.

Okay, so you expect me
to get on your shoulders

in a bathing suit, straddling your head?

Okay, fine, if you
and your friend play and we win,

Evan will give you $200.

[LAUGHS] Two... What?

- $200?
- Yeah.

Only if we win.

I didn't come here to lose.

[♪ "THE WAY" BY FASTBALL
PLAYING OVER CAR RADIO]

♪ They made up their minds ♪

♪ And they started packing ♪

Anywhere up here is good, actually.

Belman's is still two miles away.

♪ ...sun came up that day ♪

I'm going somewhere else, actually.

I'm going to New Jersey to see my mom.

Oh!

Wow. Okay

I just... I didn't want to say anything

because I haven't seen her
since I was in high school.

And it wasn't really great that time.

So it might go badly.

She might not even want to see me.

And I might never want
to talk about it ever again.

Right, that makes sense. Um...

So, instead of, uh, leaving you alone,

I have hijacked your private reunion
with your mom.

- God!
- [LAUGHS] No, it's fine.

[EXHALES]

You can just drop me at the bus stop.

♪ ...without ever knowing the way ♪

♪ Anyone can see... ♪

Okay, but since I already f*cked it up,

maybe I could just drive you anyway?

Um...

We don't have to talk about it,

and I-I-I don't need
to ask any questions, I just...

I can't go back to campus right now.

♪ You can see their shadows
wandering off somewhere ♪

[LAUGHS] Okay.

♪ They really don't care ♪

♪ They wanted the highway ♪

It's like a three-hour drive.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

- Okay.
- [LAUGHS]

Here we go.

[EXCITED SHOUTING AND LAUGHTER]

Go for the eyes!

What about the plan?

Coordinate! Coordinate!

Yeah, yeah, there we go. They got it.

[ALL LAUGHING]

He got it.

Um, yeah, Evan?

Hey. What's up?

Right. What's up?

Yeah, I haven't heard from you
in like a week,

and I was... I was really worried.

And then you just showed up here
with some random girl and what,

you're like f*cking suddenly?

What? I-I just met her.

Oh, careful.

Don't, I have a drink in my hand.

Ah!

[LAUGHING]

Well, I just want you to know
we're no longer hooking up.

Okay.

And I want you to delete
those photos I sent you.

I already did.

You are such a d*ck.

Why are you so mad?

Because we had sex a week ago
and you just disappeared.

Can I get down now?

Oh, yeah, sorry.

[SPITS] Look...

I've been really up front with you,

and you say you're okay
with us just being casual,

so I don't know what else
you want me to say.

Okay.

[CLEARS THROAT]

What were these photographs?

Dude, I genuinely deleted them.

And besides, her face wasn't even in it.

Yeah.

What is that?

- Hmm?
- What is that?

Oh, it's nothing. It's curling iron.

So, um, I heard something kind of gross.

Hmm.

Apparently, somebody left, like, a

bucket of pee outside of Caitie's dorm.

I'm assuming it's Chris's friends.

f*cking dicks.

Anyway, um, thanks for not...

bringing me into it.

Seriously, it means a lot.

- Yeah, of course.
- Mm-hmm.

No one's bothered you about it, right?

No.

No one's bothered me.

- Hey.
- Yeah.

I'm gonna get us more drinks.

- Yes.
- Okay.

[EXCITED SHOUTING]

[ALL LAUGHING]

All right, fine, fine, $200.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[CHRIS] Yo.

Can we talk?

Why are you telling
everybody that I r*ped you?

- Chris.
- Lucy, seriously?

You've known me since I was four.
Why are you doing this?

If this is about Lydia or something,
I know you two are fighting.

No, no, no.
This has nothing to do with Lydia, okay?

Are you seriously just going to pretend
you've done nothing wrong?

What about Caitie?

What? That whole thing was bullshit.

Even the school said she was lying,
and she wanted attention.

Nobody wants this kind of attention.
Are you kidding me?

If it wasn't true, she would
have dropped it months ago.

Well, it isn't true, okay? She's insane.

I mean, what, are you guys
in on this together or something?

Like some weird f*cking crusade?

I am not talking to you about this.

[CHRIS]
No! I don't need to, like, force anybody.

You can literally ask your own friend.

Pippa and I hooked up once,
and we're cool.

You think nobody knows
what you did to Pippa?

That I hooked up with her?

The fact that you think
what you're doing is okay

makes it even more f*cking disgusting.

[SCOFFS] Are you high or something?

Don't f*cking touch me!

[LAUGHING] So...

are you gonna be
my criminal defense attorney?

Why do you need criminal defense?

For when I sue all these fraternities

for all these horrible theme parties.

[LAUGHS]

How is that criminal defense?

- Um...
- [GIRLS LAUGHING AND CHATTERING]

I'm seriously so happy for you.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

[LAUGHS]

[MOLLY] Diana?

Are you in here?

[DIANA] Ahem, hey.

Hey, I've been looking everywhere for you.

Are you okay?

Are you feeling sick?

Uh, no, I'm fine.

Okay, because I just had
the most insane conversation with Evan.

Why are you talking to him?

Because I had to tell him
he was being a d*ck.

Molly, he's been a d*ck
since you first hooked up.

He dragged you along, humiliated you,

and then just came back
as soon as he got bored again.

[LAUGHS]

I mean, Evan's basically your Stephen.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

♪ So we ♪

♪ Just skirt the hallway sides ♪

- ♪ A phantom and a fly ♪
- [GPS CHIMES]

I think it's up here on the right.

Do you think I'm crazy

for coming without telling her?

- No.
- If it was a good idea,

I probably wouldn't have kept it a secret.

I would have just told Pippa.

It's not anybody else's business
what goes on with your family.

Except mine.

Because I forced you to involve me.

♪ Another afternoon... ♪

- Oh!
- Uh, but no.

I'm not gonna say anything to anybody.

♪ And pilfered booze ♪

Even to Pippa?

Even to Pippa.

♪ And milk from the window lights ♪

♪ Family portrait, circa... ♪

[BRAKES SQUEAK]

[IGNITION SHUTS OFF]

I think this is it.

I can come back and pick you up whenever.
Just call me.

Okay.

All right.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

[KNOCKS]

[DOOR OPENS]

Hi.

I'm here for Mary.
Does she still live here?

Yeah, she does, but she's out.

Oh.

[MAN] Do you want me to call her?

- Uh, what's your name?
- Bree.

But that's... That's all right, really.

Bree. Um...

Let me call her, okay?

Okay.

[DOOR CLOSES]

Hey, everything okay?

Um, her boyfriend answered the door.

She's... She's out.

So, I guess we're gonna go
meet my mom in a... a brunch spot?

Great.

[STARTS IGNITION]

- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- [CUTLERY CLINKING]

Thanks for coming in with me.

Yeah.

You sure this is the spot?

Yeah, I think so. Yeah.

Bree?

Oh, my God.
You're like a fully grown person.

Hi.

Hi!

You look so pretty
with your hair like that.

Thanks.

Uh, I was just...
I was having brunch with some girlfriends,

and I just figured since
you're already driving around,

you might as well come by.

- [BREE] Yeah.
- And Trevor's at the house, so...

Right.

Hi, I'm Mary.

Oh, hi. I'm Wrigley.

- Bye, Mary.
- Bye, hon.

Sorry, I didn't mean to, like,
interrupt anything.

Oh, no, no, no, no.
We finished, like, an hour ago.

Um...

I... Oh! I think they're still doing
bottomless mimosas, if you want.

Okay.

I'm gonna leave you two alone.

- Are you sure?
- Yeah. I'll get a table outside.

- I'll get some food.
- Okay.

Um...

I think it'll be pretty quick, though.

Either way, take your time.

All right.

[DOOR CLOSES]

[EXHALES]

I'm sorry for just showing up.

Like, I-I can call you next time.

Or you can... You could call me.

No, no, I think we should talk now.

You want to talk, obviously, so...

You can say it.

Do you think I'm here
because I'm mad at you?

I mean, you were really angry at me
last time I saw you.

I was like 15.

No, no, I know. I know, I just...

You know, then you never,
like, called or anything,

so I don't... I just kind of figured.

I'm not mad.

Okay.

I mean, even if you were,
that'd be totally fine.

I just... I didn't know
what you were gonna say,

and I didn't want Trev to hear you

because, you know,
I've been trying to be, like,

better than I was back then.

And I... And I am. I am.

I honestly just I just wanted to see you.

[LAUGHS]

Okay.

You seem really good.

Thank you.

And you look gorgeous.

Holy sh*t, look at you.

Thanks.

Okay, here you go.

Um, I-I wasn't drinking for a while,

but I can have, like, wine and beer now.

I just... I realize that I feel like
it's when you tell yourself

that you absolutely can't have something,

that that's exactly
when you want to binge it.

Yeah, that makes sense.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

This is so fun.

[BOTH LAUGH]

Uh, yeah, I think it's been
like three years.

He seems really nice.

He's the best.

He's honestly the nicest guy
I've ever dated.

What about you? Do you date?

Yeah, I date.

I bet guys are obsessed with you.

I don't know.

Yeah, I mean college guys
are the worst, though.

Yeah, they are.

I was seeing this older guy, actually.

Oh.

Well, look at you.

Oh, my God, are you like
a little heartbreaker?

That'd be such good karmic payoff for me.

It was actually, like...

It was pretty messy when it ended.

Oh, no. Was he mean to you?

No, he wasn't mean.

He was just...

Just really in love with me.

[MARY, CHUCKLING] Okay.

Good, so you broke up with him?

Yeah.

I-I ended it.

He was just...

way too needy.

Wow.

You are really figuring
things out earlier than I did.

I'm pretty sure I have
always been the needy one

in my relationships.

Oh, I mean, it was...

It was still really sad when it ended.

I felt like he really knew me.

And I hadn't really felt like that before.

And I love my friends at school,
but it's not the same.

Does that make sense?

Yeah, it's so funny how with a boyfriend,

it feels like they know everything
about you after a week,

but then with everybody else,
it takes forever.

Yeah. Yeah.

And no one's really...

like, known me for that long.

Except you.

I know you only had
custody of me for a year

after Grandma died, but...

what was I like?

Um, well, I didn't...

I didn't have custody for a year.

I think that probably would have been bad.

Um...

yeah, I think I...

I think I had you for, like,
a month after my mom died.

Really? It felt like...

like, longer than a month.

That's not usually a good thing.

No, it was. It was.

In my brain, it's like, good memory.

Good.

But it was only a month?

Yeah.

Well, maybe I'm just thinking of...

before she died.

Because we were living together, right?

When you were in school and everything.

Um...

I don't know how much you remember my mom,
but she was, like...

really religious.

And, um...

she pretty much kicked me out
as soon as she found out I was pregnant.

I'm sorry.

No, no. It's obviously not your fault.
She just...

She was really mad.
And then once you were born,

she just didn't really want me around you.

So you didn't live with us then?

I mean, she let me stay
at the house sometimes.

Where else did you stay?

With people.

You didn't want to, like...

I don't know, take me with you?

I was 14.

I know, I'm sorry. Sorry.

I mean, honestly,
I've blocked all of that out.

I-I don't even remember
high school at this point.

And look, I'm good.

And you're at Baird.

And you're so pretty.

And you're not letting guys get to you.

You're happy.

Yeah. I'm happy.

And I really just wanted to see you.

[LAUGHS]

Thank you again for dropping me.

Of course.

Did Bree tell you
about her photography exhibit?

No.

She's really talented.

The department picks
only a few students every year.

They picked her.

Oh, my God, that's so cool!

You could come if you wanted.

A lot of families are coming.

Really? Wow. Thank you. That's so sweet.

I would love it.

Um, the, the turnoff's right up here.

This was so nice.

Thank you guys so much.

I would actually love to take your photo.

- If you want it.
- Oh God, I'm so unphotogenic.

No, I'm sure you're not.

I could just do it really fast right now.

The light is so pretty.

Okay. Yeah.

- Yeah? Okay.
- [MARY] Yeah.

[CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS]

Is it... Is it okay,
could you just go on my left side?

Yeah.

It's just my right side's
kind of weird, so...

You're beautiful, Mom.

[LAUGHS SOFTLY]

[CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS]

I think I have it.

- [BOTH LAUGH]
- Yeah, okay.

You're gonna have to send me the photos.

Or you could come to the exhibit.

You know, like, it could be nice.

We could spend a little bit
more time together.

Yeah, let me, um...

Let me see if I can get off work.

As long as you don't think I'd be,
like, intruding or anything.

No, not at all.

Okay.

But... I am so, so happy

that you came today

and that you took the time,

even though you're so busy
at school and everything.

You know, I don't have
any summer plans yet,

and I won't be busy at all then.

[MARY] Um...

well, actually,
Trev and I are house-sitting

for his parents at the shore this summer.

We're gonna have
the whole place to ourselves, um...

You could come if you wanted.

Like, I could stay with you?

You don't have to, but it could be...
It could be fun.

Yeah. Yeah.

- Okay.
- Okay.

- It was really nice to meet you.
- Nice meeting you, too.

Bye.

Bye.

[EXHALES]

[SIGHS]

[SHOWER RUNNING]

[PHONE LINE RINGS]

♪ My body is a cage ♪

♪ That keeps me from dancing with... ♪

- Hey.
- Hey.

Listen.

I really don't want you
to be different with me, okay?

- I know. I know.
- Okay?

♪ My body is a cage ♪

♪ That keeps me from dancing ♪

♪ With the one I love ♪

♪ But my mind holds the key ♪

♪ I'm living on a stage ♪

- Come on, Alex.
- ♪ Of fear and self-doubt ♪

♪ It's a hollow play ♪

♪ But they'll clap anyway ♪

[BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY]

Lucy. Lucy...

It can be good like this, too.

[EXHALES]

♪ My mind holds the key ♪

♪ You're standing next to me ♪

♪ My mind holds the key ♪

♪ I'm living in an age ♪

♪ That calls darkness light ♪

♪ Though my language is dead ♪

♪ Still the shapes fill my head ♪

♪ I'm living in an age ♪

♪ Whose name I don't know ♪

♪ Though the fear keeps me moving ♪

♪ Still my heart beats so slow ♪

♪ My body is a cage ♪

♪ That keeps me from dancing ♪

♪ With the one I love ♪

♪ But my mind holds the key ♪

[BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY]

[ACTOR 1] [ON LAPTOP]
As the brains of this organization,

- I should have made this decision.
- [ACTOR 2] Whoa, whoa, I'm sorry.

- Since when did you become the brains?
- [PHONE VIBRATING]

[ACTOR 1] Uh, I'm sorry.
I've always been the brains.

[ACTOR 2] What? What are you
talking about? I thought I was the brains.

- What the hell am I?
- [ACTOR 1] You're the looks.

[ACTOR 2]
Well, yeah, of course, I'm the looks.

- But I always thought of myself...
- [TURNS OFF SHOW]

- You wanna get that?
- [VIBRATING CONTINUES]

Mm-hmm. Yep.

Yeah.

[VIBRATING CONTINUES]

[PHONE BEEPS]

All good?

Um, yeah. Just, like, a random number.

- [TURNS ON SHOW]
- [ACTOR 2] ...the brains and the looks.

[ACTOR 1]
You're the looks, I'm the brains,

Charlie's the wild card.

- [ACTOR 3] Oh. That's awesome!
- [ACTOR 1] Yeah!

[♪ MELLOW ROCK MUSIC PLAYING OVER RADIO]

[CELL PHONE VIBRATES]

Sorry it got so late.

Is Pippa worried?

Nah, I haven't heard from her.

So what do you think of her?

My mom.

She's nice.

She's really young.

I know.

She seems really good now.

Like... Like, she seems normal.

Do you know what a freak
I feel like sometimes?

What? What are you talking about?

[LAUGHS] Like...

Like there's no way
I could be normal after everything.

[SIGHS] Like...

Like, I never even learned how to swim.

It's just something that was skipped over

because of all the chaos.

- No.
- [BREE LAUGHS]

No, you were swimming
at Evan's lake house.

You were in the pool.

Not in the deep end.

[LAUGHS]

I told you, I just... I don't float.

Come on, you're like a fish.
You're one with the water. You got it.

Okay, if you're moving,
you'll stay at the surface.

So try like this.

See what I mean?

Try lifting your feet up.

Okay, I respect this.

But what you're doing
is not exactly swimming.

It's usually referred to as leaning.

I told you I can't swim.

Yes, you can.
You just got to let your legs float up.

- No.
- Wrong.

- No.
- [BREE COUGHS]

Incorrect. Failed.

Here, just...

Can... Can I... Can I help you?

- Yeah, yeah.
- Okay.

But I'm telling you, I just...

I don't float.

Yeah, you do.

- Here you go. Try kicking.
- Okay.

[WATER SPLASHING]

There you go.

- You're doing it.
- I'm doing it.

I'm swimming.

You're an Olympian.

I'm actually swimming.

You're doing it.

- Just don't let me drown again.
- I'm not gonna let you drown.

[BREE SCREAMS]

[LAUGHS]

♪ It's no use pretending ♪

♪ I'll keep stealing ♪

♪ Breathing her ♪

♪ Birds are leaving ♪

♪ Over autumn's ending ♪

Okay.

♪ One of us will die ♪

♪ Inside these arms ♪

Okay. I can stand.

Oh, good. That was really great swimming.

Really good.
We should probably get out of here, huh?

♪ Naked as we came ♪

♪ One will spread our ♪

♪ Ashes 'round the yard ♪

Hi.

I don't know if you heard the good news,
but I got into Yale Law.

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

So did I.

How? You bombed the LSAT.

Because I actually aced the LSAT.



I don't understand.
Why would you lie about that?

Because I had to get away from you.

And I knew that was
the only way you'd let me.

I guess you're not rid of me yet.
I'll see you in New Haven, right?

I'm not going to Yale.

What are you talking about?
You've always wanted to go.

Your dad is obsessed with you going.

I'll go somewhere else.

Stanford. Harvard.

I'm sure I'll get in everywhere I

applied. I'm a pretty perfect applicant.

I would never go
to the same law school as you.

I wouldn't put myself through that.

You would change
the entire trajectory of your life...

to avoid me?

Yes.

But congratulations.

I'm sure you're really happy.

Oh yeah.

It's gonna be pretty f*cking incredible.

Couldn't ask for anything more.

♪♪

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Oh.

- Hey.
- Hi.

[PIPPA] Oh. Hi.

Hi.

Hey, do you want to come get food with us?

I ate already, actually.

With Evan.

We're kind of back together.

Wait, what?

Yeah, you know,
we weren't really telling people,

but we talked about it and...

It's good.

[STRIKES COMPUTER KEY]

[♪ DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[TYPING]

♪♪

♪♪

[STEPHEN] [OVER COMPUTER] Oh what,

so you talked sh*t
to my sister last night

and now you're not gonna
pick up your f*cking phone?

I knew you were pathetic,
but I didn't realize

you were still quite
this desperate to get my attention.

Do you wonder why
I got tired of f*cking you, Lucy?

It's not because you're crazy.

It's because you are
so completely forgettable.

No matter how hard
you try to make yourself

even marginally interesting, you cannot.

You can't f*cking do it, Lucy,

because you're just
a pointless f*cking c**t!

Oh what? So you talked sh*t
to my sister last night

and now you're not gonna
pick up your f*cking phone?

I knew you were pathetic,
but I didn't realize

you were still quite this
desperate to get my attention.

Do you wonder why I got tired
of f*cking you, Lucy?

It's not because you're crazy.

It's because you are
so completely forgettable.

No matter how hard
you try to make yourself

even marginally interesting, you cannot.

You can't f*cking do it, Lucy,

because you're just
a pointless f*cking c**t!