01x05 - Beban Dunia

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Jaja, what are you doing

in the boy's dorm?

Hey.

Is that a gift for Aizat?

Is the gift in the box

or the one holding the box?

Where is Aizat?

Jaja!

Hey, what are you doing in the boy's dorm?

-What's up, Ja?

-Where is Aizat?

-Aizat?

-Yes.

He's not here. He went back home.

Jaja?

Need a hand?

Just help me.

Where is she?

-Hey, Botol.

-Yes?

Have you seen Jaja?

She was in our dorm just now.

What's she doing in the boy's dorm?

She was looking for Aizat,

but he went back home.

So

Wait, Aizat went home?

I thought he didn't go home much.

Yes, but he will go home

for his birthday every year.

He must be afraid to get floured.

He cares too much about his hair.

When is his birthday?

His birthday is this Sunday.

Hey, Aaidaa.

I thought you were looking for Jaja.

Yes, Jaja.

Did she say anything else?

She asked what time

Aizat's bus would leave.

Oh no.

Okay then.

Jat.

He'll be in trouble.

ANSWER SHEE

This.

Do you know who did this?

I don't know, sir,

but I will try to find out.

Mi.

Your mom is waiting, right?

Come on. These are really heavy.

Let's go.

FREESIA TERMINAL

Labis!

Hurry up, we don't have time!

Here.

Okay.

Aizat!

Right foot first!

-Aizat. Excuse me, sir.

-What? Where's your ticket?

-Aizat!

-Hey!

Make it quick!

Aizat.

Aizat!

Hey, Ja!

Here. Take everything.

What are these?

These are all your stuff

that I picked up all this while.

From now on,

take good care of my sister.

If you mess with her, you're dead.

Got it?

Labis! Hurry up, we're running late!

-Okay, climb in.

-Jaja?

This is correct. Get in, miss.

Quick, we're late.

Don't fall.

Labis. Sir, I'm looking for my sister.

Just a second.

-Who on earth is your sister?

-Jaja.

I don't have time for this. Mat, let's go!

-We're already late.

-Ja.

Jaja!

Hey, Jat. Have you seen Jaja?

How should I know?

Jaja.

Jaja!

-Aaidaa.

-Wait! What are you doing there?

-Sir, wait a second!

-I have many more trips to make.

-Mat, just go.

-Ja, wait!

-Aaidaa?

-Sir, wait up!

Aaidaa!

Peace be upon you, Din.

Peace be upon you too.

Awang, can I talk to you?

Sure. What's wrong?

We can't talk about it on the phone.

I'll see you tonight at your office, okay?

Okay.

Okay.

Hey! Where are we, Jat?

Come on.

Tapah.

Tapah?

Why didn't you ask the driver to stop?

-I did, but he won't listen.

-What? Why didn't you try again?

You

I don't understand.

Are you sisters trying to humiliate me,

to trouble me today?

Hey, Jaja!

Aaidaa?

Jaja!

Aaidaa, are you okay?

I'm okay. What about you?

Wait. Are you not mad at me anymore?

Daa, I'm sorry. I

I don't know what has gotten into me.

No, I'm the one who should be sorry.

So it's settled then?

Both of us are stupid,

both of us are sorry.

Okay, it's settled.

But why did you look

for Aizat at the bus station?

No, I was just returning his stuff.

I feel like I don't want

to face that anymore.

You? What were you doing there?

I was looking for you. You were mad at me.

I was worried.

So you really love me, don't you?

Of course I love you.

Listen, you go home first.

At the next stop,

I'll buy a ticket back home, okay?

-Okay. Okay, bye.

-Bye, Ja.

Thank you everyone.

You know this is an express bus, right?

This bus doesn't have stops.

You only get bathroom breaks.

So where is this bus going?

Labis.

Your house?

Labis is

my mom's place.

How much longer?

It's around four hours.

Four hours?

Oh no.

RAWANG REST STOP

MOM CALLING

Hey.

Move away.

Sorry.

MOM CALLING

LABIS BUS STATION

There's just one last bus

at twelve o'clock.

MOM CALLING

That's six hours away.

Six hours?

That's okay.

I'll stay here with you.

Is your mom's place far from here?

It's not that far.

Well, it's really far.

You have to go through a paddy field

and cars can't get through.

It's really tough.

Well, if your mom's place is nearby,

I would like to

Muhammad Aizat bin Abdullah!

STIA LEADING IN SBP TRIAL EXAMS

Din, coffee.

I'll be honest with you.

I can't believe it.

What can't you believe?

I can't believe you could threaten

the kids to change this quickly.

What's your secret?

I don't have any secrets.

It's just

due to STIA's tradition of excellence.

You can keep your secret.

But if you can continue this until SPM

The Deputy Director General

of Education is retiring.

Why?

Nothing.

Botol is drinking from a bottle.

Come on.

How did you get the nickname "Botol"?

When I was in Form 1,

everyone said my body was weird.

My head

is a lot smaller than my body.

Just like a bottle.

That is mean.

Aren't you mad they called you that?

Why would I be mad?

It's who I am.

I'm late, I have to go.

Are you not going home?

No.

Why? Everyone goes home.

If everyone is going home,

do I have to go back too?

You didn't answer my calls.

You didn't reply to my texts.

I was worried,

so I went to the station

to make sure you're all right.

It reminded me

of what happened seven years ago.

Yes, Mom. I'm sorry.

Also, why did you bring home a girl?

Will you be responsible

if anything happens?

-Aizat, are you listening to me?

-Yes, Mom. I'm listening, sorry.

Auntie, you and your son

Just call me "Mom."

Let's go inside.

Botol, can I ask you a question?

Sure, I like questions.

How did you become like this?

Like how?

Like this.

Honestly, you're special.

You're not like the other kids.

You look like you're so calm.

It's like you have no troubles.

Who could have no troubles in this world?

Then how can you be so calm all the time?

I don't know.

I don't think I'm special.

Maybe that's why.

Wait.

So you feel calm because you don't

think that you're special, right?

Okay, here goes.

I'm not that smart,

but I always score Physics.

Because I like Physics.

-What does Physics have to do with it?

-Okay, it's like this.

I don't just study SPM Physics.

I study everything.

How the planets orbit around the sun,

how we have billions of galaxies.

And when I study these things,

I feel like I'm small.

Smaller than a speck of dust.

What's so special about that?

When I realize

that I'm just an insignificant speck,

all of my problems

become just a speck of dust.

I don't mean

that I have no troubles, no burdens.

But when I realize

that my troubles are small,

it's a waste of time to dwell upon them.

I'd rather be quiet and face it.

Do you understand?

I do,

but don't you think

there's even one person in this

world who thinks that you matter?

No.

Don't you think that you'll find

someone special compared to others?

Why?

Don't you feel lonely living like that?

Lonely?

I don't know, Botol.

My mind is reeling right now.

I don't know what I'm saying.

Come on, let's go.

Lonely?

Peace be upon you.

Peace be upon you too.

-Aizat!

-Aizat!

-Aizat!

-Who missed me? Come here!

Oh gosh.

You've all gotten so big.

I haven't been back for a while.

Quick, come here!

-Do you miss me?

-Yes.

How come you got darker?

I'm sorry.

-Miss, are you Aizat's girlfriend?

-Nadi!

No, I'm not.

Aizat is not that great.

Aizat is a good person.

He's handsome.

He'd be perfect for you

because you're pretty.

What a sweet talker.

What's your name again?

Nadirah binti Abdullah.

"Binti Abdullah"?

Jat, is she your sister

Who wants to go inside?

I'll feed you guys dinner!

-Who wants dinner? Raise your hand!

-Me!

LIST OF BABY HATCH CHILDREN

All of the children came from there.

Mom, I'm sorry. I didn't know.

Why do you have to be sorry?

Aizat chose to keep it a secret.

I don't think anyone at school knows this.

Look at Aizat now.

I can't believe he used to fit into that.

Back then, we'd just opened.

There were only

Aizat and Yati.

Yati?

AAIDAA: JAJA, THERE'S A SLIGHT PROBLEM.

I'LL BE HERE FOR A WHILE.

WILL YOU BE OKAY ALL BY YOURSELF?

JAJA: I'M OKAY, SERIOUSLY.

I'VE NEVER FELT THIS OKAY BEFORE.

Lonely?

Those are photos of Yati.

This room used to be hers.

Aizat is a smart boy.

But ever since he was young,

he always got into trouble.

He won't let people mock

where he came from.

Hi, illegitimate child.

Aizat, this is not the way

for us to show them.

We have to show them through our efforts.

Our efforts for a brighter future

compared to them.

Aizat.

Let's become role models

for the younger kids, okay?

Let's go.

They were very close.

I never felt that way

even with my own siblings.

Aizat used to accompany Yati

studying at night.

He didn't even return to his room.

Yati was hardworking.

She studied all night without sleep.

Her PMR results were excellent

and she was offered

to enter an elite

boarding school in Kuala Lumpur.

But she couldn't bear to go

and leave Aizat.

Every year on Aizat's birthday,

Yati will make Batik cake for him.

Freshen up before you go.

You must be uncomfortable from a long day.

I'll ask Aizat to send you to the station.

Thank you, Mom.

Mom.

What happened to the late Yati?

SPM.

On the morning

of Aizat's birthday that year,

Yati had state trial exams.

She didn't sleep at all the night before.

Yati.

Aizat.

You're leaving for school so early.

Aizat, we have to become

role models for the younger kids.

You have to do well in your UPSR exam.

I have to do well in SPM.

This is the day for us to show everyone

that it doesn't matter

where we come from, Aizat.

What's important is our next direction.

UPSR, SPM.

These will determine where we're going.

Remember that, Aizat.

I have to go.

Bye.

That was the last time

Aizat talked to Yati.

Yati fell asleep

while cycling on the roadside.

She swerved onto the main road.

The oncoming car couldn't brake in time.

Mom.

Have a seat.

I'm leaving now.

Thank you very much

for letting me stay here for a while.

Are you sure you don't want

to stay here until Sunday?

I don't think Aizat will like it

if I stay here longer, Mom.

If that's the case,

ask Aizat to send you there.

Tell him it was my idea.

I don't think he wants

to talk to me right now.

Well, he has been avoiding

this subject for a long time.

I think even he doesn't realize

that he has been waiting

for the right person to arrive

to relieve the burden

that he has been carrying.

It's 11:30 p.m. now.

I know how to get to the station.

Okay, I'll see you at school then.

Jat.

You do know that I don't mind this, right?

I don't mind this at all.

And I don't think your friends

and our batchmates would mind.

We know who you are, Jat.

You're not just

the person you showed to us.

The annoying school rugby captain

who thinks he owns the school.

But we know you as a good person,

who loves his friends.

A person who seems brave,

but in reality, is scared.

Just like all of us.

Mom told me many things about you,

about the late Yati.

I just want you to know

that you don't have to carry

the weight of the world on your own.

We're here for you.

I'm here for you.

I'll go now, okay?

Call me if you need anything.

Aaidaa.

Will you stay here?

AAIDAA: SORRY, JAJA. LOOKS LIKE

I'LL BE STAYING HERE UNTIL TOMORROW.

JAJA: IT'S OKAY.

ARE YOU STAYING WITH AIZAT?

AAIDAA: IT'S NOT LIKE THAT!

THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE HERE!

JAJA: OKAY

DON'T DO ANYTHING NAUGHTY WITH AIZAT!

Lonely?

Botol.

Are you not busking today?

Do you visit her on this day every year?

I'd rather be here, Aaidaa.

I'd be floured if I was at school.

I'll go ahead.

Do you know? All this while

I thought if I could do everything

that Yati didn't get to do,

I could make her proud.

But when I entered STIA,

when I realized nobody knew my past,

nobody knew where I came from,

I loved it.

I loved it when nobody knew.

For the first time in my life,

I could do everything that I wanted.

I could be anything

I wanted to be at school.

I love that people like being my friend.

Some of them adore me,

some even worship me.

I loved it.

I loved it so much

that I forgot my promises to Yati.

One thing, Aaidaa.

I think only SPM can redeem

every damned thing that life threw at me.

That's my only hope, Aaidaa.

I want to become a good role model

for the younger kids at that home.

That's all.

Yati.

I'm going home.

Peace be upon you.

Let's go.

Jat.

All of the secrets, responsibility,

and guilt you felt for the younger kids

are not fair to you.

But everyone has problems, right?

Of course.

But I'm telling you,

you don't have

to carry all that weight alone.

Wait, I don't get it.

I'm showing you that you can

share some of them with me.

Share some of what?

Burden.

All of that burden,

you can share them with me.

Okay, but what's with the shoulder thing?

No, if the burden is like a bag,

I'm taking some of it to share.

Got it? You don't have to carry it.

Gosh, whatever.

Hey, Aaidaa.

I don't understand what you did.

Aaidaa?

I know that your days are gray

In the play of your thoughts

Everything is confusing

Nothing is perfect

But you are different

It is clear in my eyes

You are something

Don't you always be anxious

You should know

You are a star

Twinkling in the sky

Even from afar, you look beautiful to me

In the dark night

When I feel gloomy

You are always there to give me light

Believe in me

I will always

Definitely be with you

Believe in me

I will take care

Because you are a star

You are a star

Twinkling in the sky

Even from afar, you look beautiful to me

In the dark night

When I feel gloomy

You are always there to give me light

You are the star

You are the star

You are the star

Aaidaa.

Are you mad at me?

Why would I be mad?

Well, you lectured me

about bags and stuff.

And then you disappeared

for the rest of the day.

Were you looking for me?

I didn't look for you.

But I was worried.

Worried? About me?

No, I

It's nothing.

The bus will leave at 10 a.m. tomorrow.

I know.

NUR ABDULLAH'S HOME

Jat.

Jat, wake up.

Jat.

Let's go.

Let's go!

ANSWER SHEET, CONFIDENTIAL

ANSWER SHEET, CONFIDENTIAL

Jaja!

I feel empty.

Would you like to go

to the dinner night with me?

-Mi.

-What do you want?

It's hard to believe that you and me

Hilmi, I signed

your Head Prefect certificate.

Don't try to mess with me.

My band and I decided

that for the dinner night,

you have to sing with me.

It's time for them to see what I've seen.

Go.

What's wrong with you?

-I'm sorry.

-You didn't see me?