01x07 - Coming out

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(WIND BLOWING)

(SIGHS)

-(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING) -(DOOR OPENS)

Hey.

RAY: Why are you awake?

GEMMA: Mm.

I'm trying to find another option.

But I haven't found one yet. (SIGHS)

RAY: Hmm.

(SIGHS)

(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)

Ray.

-We can't. -What?

Why?

It's not a good idea.

I know, it's big,

-I know it's -Wait a second.

RAY: Can we talk about it before

It's a lot of pressure, on

on all of us if you're locked-in like that.

I'm trying to help you.

Why won't you let me?

That's your parents' money.

- Ray, that's your inheritance.

- And they're giving it to me.

-(SIGHS) -Why is it a problem?

I've put so much time, and so much love,

and so much of myself into this place.

I've fought so hard for it

and the thought of it

belonging to someone else

and living upstairs as it gets torn apart

and made into flats or some

crappy coffee franchise

(SIGHS)

This an amazing offer and I love you for it

but

I care more about you, about us,

than the cafe and I

I just don't want to

f*ck up the balance of

RAY: What balance?

What does that mean?

Nothing.

It means we're married, Gem.

RAY: It's not

I love your marriage,

I just

(SIGHS)

You can hold hands when

you walk down the street,

and I'm still a "friend."

Your lodger.

We've been in love for a year.

Please just let me show you

that I'm a part of this.

That I

GEMMA: I'm sorry.

We should tell people.

- -About us -GEMMA: All right,

- one thing at a time.

- Ray's right. We should do something

- to make things more equal.

- -GEMMA: It's not as simple as that.

- -It'll be much simpler

if we stopped hiding or lying about

You've never come out before.

I've done it twice

and it's been a sh*t-show both times.

- -We're gonna have to do it eventually.

- -You're be gonna come out

as a man with a wife and a girlfriend.

Yeah, your friends will throw you a parade.

It's not the same for us. Ray

Would you do that?

Can we just slow down for a second?

-Who do you want to tell? -Everyone.

Everyone in the world.

Don't you?

(CHUCKLES)

(GEMMA CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

(WOMAN CHUCKLES)

GEMMA: Well, thanks so much,

for being so supportive.

-MAN: Of course! -CAROLINE: Yeah.

I I know it's a lot to take in

Well, we're just glad that

we're really happy for

you, it's really great!

(BOTH WOMEN CHUCKLES)

Good luck talking to Dad.

GEMMA: Aww.

Thanks, Nick.

-GEMMA: Bye, guys. -NICK: Goodbye, Gem.

CAROLINE: Bye.

(DOOR CLOSES)

(WOMAN SNICKERS, LAUGHS)

(NICK SHUSHING)

WOMAN (GIGGLING): What the f*ck?

"I have got some very important news

"We are having sex with each other."

(LAUGHS) She was so serious!

I thought she was dying.

Why else would you summon

someone to your house?

- CAROLINE: Can I have a very strong coffee

- to take away, please?

- Yeah. Double or Triple?

- CAROLINE: Three shots.

It's so typical of her.

Why's it any of our business?

Oh, she's just wants to

share what's going on.

Ramming her sex-life down our throats.

I don't think that's what she's doing.

- You've got no idea what it's like

- to have an older sister

who always broadcasts

her sex life to everyone.

Coming-out and going back in again

every five minutes.

Well, I expect it was harder

for her than for you, darling.

VICTOR: (SIGHS) Oh, sh*t.

CAROLINE: You all right?

Yeah.

(CELL PHONE RINGING)

(WOMAN GROANS)

(CLICKS TONGUE)

(SIGHS)

Hey, Kier.

Yeah, course.

What do you wanna talk to me about?

There you go.

All I'm just saying is if

your bottom half is fish

then you'd have to reproduce

the way a fish does.

- -You're overthinking this.

- -Laying mermaid eggs

- -in the water for a merman to come along and

- -They're mythical.

I don't think people have thought

through the practicalities of this fantasy.

(MOBILE DINGS)

I like doing you

Everyone else just talks about the weather.

Celebrity diets.

Brexit.

Can you look this way?

Moira?

Can you look up?

-Moira? -Sorry.

You okay?

Is this because I mentioned Brexit?

I'm fine.

Lori, do you want to go out after this?

For a drink?

MALE ASSISTANT: Five minutes please.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

Sure.

-Cool. -(BOTH CHUCKLE)

( AVANT GARDENER PLAYING)

- RAY: You should just go to the meeting with her.

- And find out

- KIERAN: It's not fair to talk about this

- when she is not here.

RAY: If it was your money

you'd give it to her.

And she'd take it.

KIERAN: Yeah, okay, fair point.

RAY: Hmm.

WOMAN: Hi, you must be Gemma?

Hi, hi, hi, erm

This is

our, my, our, um

-Ray. Hi. -KIERAN: Ray.

Hi. Melanie.

(VEHICLE DOOR CLOSES)

KIERAN: So, I wasn't planning

on telling you, uh

like this,

or at all.

Um

I'm Ray's

Gemma's

- We're all

- You're in a polyamorous triad?

Yeah.

Open or closed?

Err, what?

I was involved with this married guy

for a couple of years.

He had this arrangement with his wife,

who was seeing at least one other person

and she and I weren't involved romantically

but we got along really well

and it ultimately didn't last long-term

but it totally changed my perspective

on love and life

and taught me so much

about my own expectations

- and boundaries and what I really

- want out of life

and I wasn't ever able to

talk about it to anyone.

- I've never known anyone who would

understand - what that was like for me

- and it was basically the most

important period - of my life.

Oh, God, it feels great

to talk about this stuff!

-(KIERAN CHUCKLES SOFTLY) -(MELANIE SIGHS)

I have a thousand questions.

Hmm. (CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

ESTHER: Gemma isn't picking up, Jase.

Have you spoken to her?

I can't really talk now, Est.

We've been best friends

since primary school.

She practically lived at

mine when her mum died.

And I was there through all the g*y stuff

- -and all the bi stuff when she met Kieran.

- -The "g*y" stuff?

- You were horrible when that happened,

- you're doing the same again.

I was concerned.

This is not what concern looks like.

- Kieran's cheating on her.

- Literally not what's happening.

Look. Gemma's going through something huge.

She doesn't need you storming

in with your opinions

and judgements

and making this all about you.

I

I just miss her.

You know, we used to talk all the time

and now I don't have anybody who

-will pick up -Oh, my God.

Andy's calling, err, I've got to go, Est.

( MY HOOD PLAYING)

(CHUCKLING)

(SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)

Service.

Hi.

(SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)

This is banging.

- Even if I do say so myself.

- VICTOR: I agree.

This is proper nice.

What's that? Basil?

-It cropped up. -VICTOR: Yeah?

- -Come on. -VICTOR: Look at you, to think

- you couldn't make toast!

(LAUGHTER)

Right, what's this guy doing?

NAIMA: He's a prospective buyer.

Well, he ain't even looking

at any of the cakes.

(ALL LAUGHING)

Not for the cake, for the cafe.

Yeah, man, flats developer probably?

-Or "Vape shop." -VICTOR: f*ck off.

- -Yeah, 'cause we need more of them apparently.

- -ASHER: Yeah.

What about chef school? Have you heard?

Bring yours out then.

Come on.

We said we were gonna

open them together innit.

NAIMA: Come on.

You're acting like it's a DNA test, bruv.

-(GEMMA CHUCKLES) -Y'know like that.

NAIMA: Yeah? Yeah?

(VICTOR CHUCKLES)

(GEMMA LAUGHS)

Oi, Ash. Ash.

CAROLINE: She was so serious!

I thought she was dying!

(CAROLINE CHUCKLES)

Can I have a very strong

coffee to take away, please?

- -VICTOR: Yeah. Double shot or Triple?

- -Three shots.

NICK: It's so typical of her.

Why is it any of our business?

- CAROLINE: She just wants to share

- what is going on.

- NICK: Coming-out and going back in again

- every five minutes.

-(HISSING) -(VICTOR GROANS)

(SIGHS) Oh, sh*t.

CAROLINE: You all right?

Yeah. Yeah.

(COFFEE POURING)

Are you worried about her?

Think she's making a mistake?

Not my problem.

Well, then why this reaction?

Because she's always making trouble.

She gets all the attention.

All the sympathy.

She's so angry at Dad for her childhood

but if she only knew

what it was like for me.

What are you doing?

- Look I know you want me to get on board

- with your rage train here,

but, honestly

I just think Gem's really brave.

You want to have sex with other people?

No.

Uh-uh. No! (CHUCKLES)

-I wanna have sex with you. -When?

- Our shitty sex life is not just my fault,

- you know.

I'm as blue-balled as you are.

- Really? Because honestly,

it feels like you just - don't like me.

No.

It's just

it's quite difficult to get horny

- when I'm constantly wondering

if you're ever - gonna cook a meal

or wipe a surface or do

a f*cking grocery shop.

You know,

I still do every bedtime and get up

with him every morning

-and at night -I work.

-I have a full-time job. -Yes, so do I,

but I'm not the one who's completed

four computer games since Christmas.

Our lives aren't equal

- and you are not doing anything

- to change that

so I'm sick of being

blamed for it actually.

I'm ready.

- I'll literally go right now.

- No, not ooh.

I am just trying to tell you

that you don't notice

me until we're in bed.

And then every night I have to look over

at like this all pouty,

disappointed, entitled little face

and I just do not want to sit on it.

(LAUGHS)

(BOTH LAUGH)

Oh, damn.

I was not planning on saying any of that.

I don't want another baby.

I wasn't planning on saying that either.

But it's true.

Neither do I.

Really?

-Yeah. -(CAROLINE SCOFFS)

I feel like with Colby we,

I don't know,

we won the lottery.

Me too.

(EXHALES)

CAROLINE: Let's go home.

NICK: We're lucky.

It's hard enough with two people.

God knows what they've got ahead of 'em.

( WINDOW SEAT PLAYING)

-You -KIERAN: No, it's okay.

PASSENGER: It's okay. No problem.

KIERAN: Thanks. Thank you.

-Lunch menu. -Sure.

And your 11 o'clock is here.

-(DOOR OPENS) -RAY: Thank you.

GEMMA: Hello.

MAN: Err, Charlie,

can you grab an extra chair, thanks.

RAY: Oh.

BOTH WOMEN: Thank you.

-Hi. Martin. -Hiya, Gemma.

-Kieran. Pleasure. -Ray.

-(CLEARS THROAT) -(BLOWS TUNE)

MARTIN: Okay.

Well,

looking at these numbers

No, I'm sorry.

What if we included my salary?

Ray. No, we talked about this before

-and we agreed -And a deposit?

I didn't agree.

Oh.

Now this would change everything.

-See? -No.

This isn't

We can't. Kieran, can you please.

Actually

I think we should explore

the possibility of

Have you two been talking behind my back?

-RAY: Yes. -KIERAN: No.

-RAY: We had to. -KIERAN: No.

- -RAY: Because you wouldn't listen

- -GEMMA: I don't believe this.

- -KIERAN: Gem, we were trying to save your business.

- -RAY: You're the most

stubborn person I know.

Let me help you.

- GEMMA: Just because I don't think

- this is a good idea

it doesn't mean I'm rejecting you.

- RAY: It feels like you are.

- Wait, sorry, um

What's the situation exactly?

-(KIERAN CLEARS THROAT) -We're, um

These two are married

- -but -KIERAN: The three of us

- live together

-but we're also -GEMMA: We're married.

Uh

-Ray is -Our girlfriend.

Oh, uh

No, I meant,

with the deposit.

KIERAN: Um

(DOOR OPENS)

Tuna mayo on brown, right?

Yeah.

No, hang on.

Surprise me.

Who announces something like that by email?

I know we're not talking but

She was my best friend and

I don't even know her anymore.

After what happened between us,

I think I might even hate her.

Maybe you should talk to her,

if it's bothering you this much.

It's not bothering me.

She can do what she wants.

-What are you doing? -LORI: I'm gonna go.

Listening to you rant

about your ex-girlfriend

isn't my idea of a fun first date.

Friend. Not girlfriend.

-Wait, did you think this was -Oh.

-My mistake. -Oh, sh*t.

- -Lori, sorry. I just needed someone to talk to.

- -I get it.

-I get that a lot. -Lori, please, don't

-(GROANS) -Oh, sh*t.

- sh*t. sh*t. sh*t. sh*t.

sh*t. -(MOIRA GROANS)

(GROANING)

- LORI: So much for your modelling career.

- (CHUCKLES)

-Sorry. -Not your fault.

You should get it checked out.

It's fine. I've broken it loads.

That's, disturbing. (CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY)

Thank you

for looking after me.

sh*t.

I It's fine.

MOIRA: I'm sorry. I'm

(MOIRA SIGHS)

I'm in a weird place, erm

Wilson's email it

it really freaked me out.

I didn't mean to lead you on. I don't know,

maybe I did.

- I don't really know what I'm doing at the moment.

- I'm just

(TOILET FLUSHES)

Lonely.

(SIGHS)

(TAP RUNNING)

(TAP CLOSES)

(TISSUE PAPER RUSTLING)

(TOILET FLUSHING)

- -MOIRA: Oh, God. Lori, what did I say?

- -LORI: Nothing.

-Are you all right? -I'm fine.

(SNIFFLES, CLEARS THROAT)

Shall we get burgers?

We've been drinking since 4:00.

I'll try not to break

any more of your bones.

-Okay. -(LORI CHUCKLES)

MOIRA: I'll try not to talk about Wilson.

(CHUCKLING)

Come here.

-Oh, God. -(LORI LAUGHS)

-Oh -LORI: Yeah.

-Head up. -(MOIRA GROANS MILDLY)

-(MOIRA GROANS) -You okay?

MOIRA: Oh, yeah.

(ASHER SIGHS)

You knew. Didn't you?

About the three of 'em.

-Oh. -(ASHER CHUCKLES)

ASHER: Before anyone knows.

What are you,

some kind of mind reader or something?

No, they weren't very subtle.

Have you seen the way

they look at each other.

All three of them, it's like steel wires.

You gotta duck sometimes,

the way they make eyelines.

Yeah. I did not see it coming.

-No? -No.

- -I'm gonna miss this place, you know.

- -Mm-hmm.

I know myself here.

Chef was

the first person to take a risk on me.

Don't know when I'll get that again.

Yeah, man, she's a risk-taker.

(BOTH LAUGH)

-ASHER: Yeah. Yeah. -(SIGHS)

I mean, I could do with

a bit of that myself.

What? That?

-No, not that! -(ASHER CHUCKLES)

I mean, when this place closes, it's

Change can be good, Ash.

We all gotta move on, innit?

-I don't have to take it. -ASHER: What?

Yeah, I don't have to take it.

Yes, you do.

Let's just reapply

together next year, yeah?

What are you talking about?

Man, we're meant to go

together, me and him,

so let's just stick together,

stick to the plan, man.

- You've got a golden ticket right now,

you telling me - you're gonna rip it up?

Come on, man, don't be stupid.

- No, listen. I don't wanna go to

this place here - with them posh kids,

- thinking that I'm less than them,

- just 'cause how I speak.

Fam.

Reinvent yourself innit.

Be like them Shoreditch, man.

Just grow one beard.

-VICTOR: Wow. -You know what I mean?

I'll be there on the other side,

waiting for you, then we can just

finesse all the gentrifiers.

-See Yeah -(CHUCKLING)

It's all right to be scared, man.

-We've got you, yeah. -ASHER: Yes, man.

(TAPS VICTOR)

Oh, hey! You called me back!

After all those messages I

left I didn't think you'd

Oh, I'm so sorry.

I should have just said that "I love you

"and are you okay?

And do you need anything?"

I know it's hard to get

your head around, Est,

but it's good.

I'm happy.

- It's also really f*cking hard and

I have no idea - what I'm doing.

-(ESTHER CHUCKLES) -Yeah, you do.

Just trust your instincts.

Love you, Gem.

KIERAN: The corner.

-The corner. -RAY: You're out of your mind.

- -Where's the -KIERAN: Get the corner

- you idiot.

( BETTER THINGS PLAYING)

(SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)

Why has everything shrunk?

(KIERAN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY)

(KIERAN LAUGHS)

(LAUGHTER)

Perfect housewife.

MOIRA: Wilson was the one who grounded me.

Reminded me of who I am.

LORI: Forfeit.

(MOIRA SIGHS) Oh, bollocks.

(CHUCKLES) sh*t.

Am I alive?

Yes.

Wait, are you? Oh, I hope you are.

- I'd be so sad if you'd

- You're bad at this game.

My whole life is this game!

Trying to figure out who or what I am.

I wish I could just cheat and go.

(LORI CHUCKLES)

RuPaul? That is hilarious! (LAUGHS)

Oh, sh*t, I ruined the game.

Margaret Atwood is alive.

Oh, good. To Margaret!

(BOTH CHUCKLE)

LORI: I'm glad I broke your nose

and didn't go home.

MOIRA: Mm. Me too.

I haven't done this in a while.

My girlfriend died a year ago

-and I haven't really -Oh, sh*t.

Lori.

- I should have said before.

- MOIRA: I'm sorry.

I've been banging on

about my stupid problems.

I'm such a w*nk*r.

When you said you were in a weird place,

yeah,

I'm right there with you.

What was her name?

Anna.

(EXHALES)

Wow. (CHUCKLES)

I am clearly not ready to date.

Oh, but it's going so well.

(LORI LAUGHS)

You should talk to her.

Literally right now. Call her.

Go and see her.

Don't live with regrets.

-Yeah, no. This isn't a good idea.

-It's your idea.

- I know, but maybe you should wait

- until you're a bit more,

-or, or a bit less -MOIRA: It's fine.

I'll just walk in, very calmly,

and I'll say, "Hi, Wilson."

and then I'll start pulling her hair out.

Yeah, no, that's not a good

LORI: (SCREAMS): No, no, no!

Intervention. Intervention.

(FOOTSTEPS RUNNING, FADING)

(DOOR OPENS)

Hello?

WOMAN: I'll cut to the chase.

The upshot is

that we found it too late

and it's progressed too fast.

We could embark on more intensive treatment

but, I'm afraid the moment's passed.

MAN: Hmm. (SIGHS)

I appreciate this coming from you, Frances.

When the squadron was on active service

it was my job

to visit families to

(SIGHS) pass on bad news.

-It's not easy. -(FRANCES SIGHS)

What does one do now?

Put your affairs in order

and talk to your children.

(VACUUM CLEANER RUNNING)

(WOMAN SIGHS)

(INHALES)

(SIGHS)

(ZIP CLOSING)

(TRASH RATTLING)

(GEMMA CHUCKLES SOFTLY)

I'm glad you came down.

I thought it was important we

I thought we should talk.

Okay. (SIGHS NERVOUSLY)

And I wanted to come here one last time,

before it closed.

GEMMA (SIGHS): Just wish it

had shut down over night.

That I'd come down to find

the locks had changed.

You know, it's just the months

and months of waiting,

and knowing that sometime

soon it'll all just

Just be gone.

Feels cruel.

Do you remember Ray?

Hi, Walter.

Hello, Ray.

Hmm.

Did you talk to Nick?

No.

I felt I should speak with you first.

Okay.

As you know

I've always intended to leave

the proceeds of my estate,

such as it is,

to the Service Charities I've worked with.

Mental health support,

-PTSD. -Yeah. Yeah.

I've been speaking with my accountant

and it's (SIGHS)

considerably less than I'd anticipated.

My only real asset is the house and

And why are we talking about this?

You could use that money.

(SIGHS) Dad, no.

I should downsize anyway.

You don't have to worry about me.

-That old house is too -Ray has offered

to help us buy this place.

As a partner?

Something like that.

I don't think it's a good idea.

The outgoings would be similar I assume.

There'd be less uncertainty.

I must say I'd feel happier

knowing you were more established.

I don't know, it's

Making a commitment like that it's

(SIGHS)

So long as everyone knows

what they're getting into,

I can't see that it's a problem.

Seeing you and Nick settled down.

Watching Nick become a father.

(CHUCKLES)

Knowing that

those who most matter

most to you are happy.

That's all you can hope for as a parent.

Dad, are you all right?

(BANGING AT WINDOW)

(FOOTSTEPS RUNNING)

(DOOR OPENS)

RAY: Hello.

Dad, it's okay. Probably just kids.

(CHUCKLES)

(CHUCKLES) Wh What?

(SIGHS)

(CHUCKLES)

It's delicious.

Do you like it?

Mm. It's exceptional.

Thanks, Dad.

(CHUCKLES)

Oh.

-Saude! -Saude,

minha filha!

You can't run a business giving away food.

-The point was to treat you. -Fine.

Fine, then put it in the tip jar.

I feel like we didn't talk about

the things we needed to.

I think we did.

Get back safe, Dad.

Thanks.

( WHO CAN I RUN TO PLAYING)

MOIRA: It's like I still have a tail.

(BOTH LAUGH)

It's not fair.

Her having two people who love her

when we don't have anyone.

Do you think I'm g*y?

I can't decide that for you.

We could kiss for a little bit and see?

No.

- We could have sex.

- I'm not going to do that.

Drink this. My Uber's waiting.

-But what if I'm in love with you?

-(LORI SIGHS) Oh, Moi

Because it really feels like I am.

That's because you're drunk and sad

and I'm being nice to you.

It's not the same thing.

You're just tryna process some big things.

I'm really scared.

Yeah.

It's scary.

But you're gonna be completely okay.

I promise.

- -Actually no, you're gonna feel really terrible tomorrow.

- -(MOIRA SIGHS)

But then you'll start to feel better.

Are you are you working Thursday?

Is that the aquarium one?

Flower show. I think the water lilies

or something.

I think so.

You should talk to your friend.

See you Thursday.

(SCHOOL BELL RINGS)

DEE: Everything I do, I do for my son.

-How was school? -It was okay.

-You had a good day? -Yes.

DEE: Every day I do what I can

to give him a childhood.

To make him feel loved and safe and happy.

It's hard.

- I'm doing everything on my own.

- And I'm slipping.

I'm the age mum was

when we were taken away.

And Danny's the age I was.

That's been a heavy thing to be aware of.

And every day I'm more like her.

And not the good bits.

Mum never got the help that she needed.

And I'm not gonna mess Danny up

- because I'm too stubborn and prideful

to admit - that I have a problem.

So I'm starting outpatient

treatment tomorrow.

It's worked for me before

and I need to get serious about it again.

I need to simplify my life

and go to meetings and

It might get a bit worse

before it gets better

and I don't want Danny to

be around to see that, so

GEMMA: Of course.

KIERAN: Whatever you need.

When Kieran told me what you're doing,

Kier would never do this

for the wrong reasons.

You'd think everything through

and listen to everyone.

(BOTH CHUCKLE)

- I've known for a long time that I've

needed to do this - for myself. I've just

not been brave enough.

He can stay as long as you need, Dee.

Danny?

You're going to stay with these guys.

-Just for a little while, okay?

-Mm-mm.

Like we talked about, right?

If you need anything,

you just call me, okay?

Okay.

(RAY AND DANNY PLAY CHANTING)

(KIERAN CHUCKLES)

(RAY AND DANNY PLAY CHANTING)

RAY: Faster, faster. (RAY CHUCKLES)

Yeah, okay. Okay, yeah.

Let's buy the cafe.

Together.

( IT RAINS LOVE PLAYING)