04x06 - Fever Dream

[bunniefuu]

I'm taking a hormone therapy

- to stimulate ovulation.

- You're trying for a baby?

- Thinking about it.

- I guess that's on me.

Actually, about how I've managed

to screw up most of my relationships.

I hear that you proposed a reshuffle

in which you report

to her instead of me.

You're the one who told

me to build a relationship

- with her, earn capital.

- I heard Novak's gone AWOL.

I think we should use this as a

reason to move him out of Trauma OR.

- He's, like, unpredictable.

- He is toxic chaos.

Theo, it's okay that

you wanted this life.

This is part where you

tell me you and Mom are

you're praying for me?

Every patient I see, I think,

"Is this the person who stabbed me?"

We're going to make an accountability

plan for the painkillers.

I just matched with a heart.

It sounds like you got

walloped with some pretty

- intense news yesterday.

- I want to be here for you now.

However you need me to be.

(TENSE MUSIC)

(DOOR SLIDING)

You ready, Mags?

It's time.

Your heart is in the building.

Prepped and ready.

All systems go, Dr. Leblanc.

At the behest of our anesthesiologist

whose eyes are on the monitor,

I'm gonna ask you to

count backwards from 10.

Okay.

10, 9,

8, 7

(OPENING THEME)

Hi, Amira.

No, it's 1963.

Yeah.

Okay, just put it back when you're done.

Okay. Yalla. Bye.

It's the spare key security code.

I mean, how difficult is

it to just know the things

that you need to take with

you and to take them with you.

I sound exactly like my father.

- (CHUCKLING)

- Was he strict?

He was more of a spiritual philosopher.

My mother was strict. My

father would have called

Mags' surgery a second chance.

Do you miss that kind of outlook?

I wonder if Mags' heart

is in the hospital yet

I know I should focus, but

Thank you.

Do you feel comfortable

about your strategy for managing today?

As best I can. Why, do you?

Well, I was thinking about

what you said last month

about that ordeal in the sinkhole.

The trapped man. You told

me that jumping in blindly

is what you know how to

do, even when you shouldn't.

Mags' family is making

all the decisions today.

Talking to the doctors, I'm just

waiting for news above ground.

It's, uh

It's my father's birthday today.

- 1963, the year he was born.

- Seriously?

How weird is that, right?

Do you do, uh, do you

do anything to mark it?

This is, uh

Okay, he loved Snickers.

And it's one of the few candies

that you can get both here and there.

And usually, Amira and I, but

nobody's brought it up this year.

My brother died when I was 20.

Car accident, he was 17.

Oh, Karim. I'm so sorry.

The ways we grief and

adapt as we move on.

Thanks, brother.

I'll see you soon.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Mark?

Dr. Novak, where have you been?

I woke up, made coffee,

ran 10k, came here.

You know full well I mean "Where

have you been for the last two days?"

You've been on the schedule

but decidedly not here!

(SIGHING) My mother died.

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.

If you'd let us know, we

would have been able to

She didn't actually die.

I just wanted to see

if you'd still give me a hard time

after hearing that news, and

apparently, you would.

You gonna let Pops go on

the rides at Centreville too?

I mean, he did come a

long way to take you.

She's going to make him do it.

She always gets scared.

Nothing wrong with being afraid, Gracie.

Theo, I can do the

sunscreen on the ferry.

Why is everything you say a lesson?

- (CHUCKLING)

- Welcome to my childhood, kid.

Dr. Hunter, your patient

in six is back from imaging.

I can relay results

if you need a minute.

Ah, no, thank you,

Dr. Bergeron. I'm good.

Okay, girls, take it

easy on Pops, alright?

Thanks, Dad.

Have a seat for one second, okay?

Uh, Theo

- Forget something?

- No, just, uh

Was that Was that lady your friend?

You know, it just

seemed like there was, uh,

you know, like, she knows you.

No, Dad.

I don't know, why would you

even think something like that?

Alright, I was just asking.

- Okay.

- Okay.

Alright, girls, we're ready.

(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

So sweet of your dad to help out.

- Liz, what the hell?

- I wanted to meet your family.

- Even undercover.

- My head is k*lling me.

You know, he pulled me aside

and basically asked if

you were my girlfriend.

Wow, impressive dad insight.

Okay, so fine. I

accidentally forced the issue.

No, you didn't because I denied it.

You lied?

Why, because me being

sort of still married

makes you a bad pastor's son?

Another sick dog?

This is Esther Danbury.

Seriously compromised airway.

- Whoa.

- Try to stay still, Esther.

Where's Judah? Where's

Bertie? I can't see them.

They're right here, Esther.

They're okay.

- Are you breathing okay?

- We were in the ravine,

the coyote leaped out of the bushes.

Esther, I need you to

save your breath, alright?

- Two units of O-neg.

- Yeah.

Heart Rate's 105, RESP

rate 24, BP's 88 over 58.

Yeah, two grams TXA, start ceftriaxone.

- Bertie, is our dog okay?

- Might hurt a little.

(ESTHER MOANING)

Alright, I'm gonna need to secure her

airway before I can handle the bleeding.

Bertie was on leash when

the coyote lunged at us.

Esther threw herself in front.

Okay, our nurse is gonna take

you to your room, okay, Judas?

- Here, Esther needs him.

- Okay.

Oh

Theo, get that dog out of

here, this is an operating room.

She needs her dog, June.

Can you tell me what you feel, Esther?

How's church, Jim?

Where have you been?

It's hard to breathe.

Being able to talk is

impressive. But, uh

These kinds of trauma

usually create what we call

a "difficult airway". Options, June?

First, intubation, but

You think we're dealing

with a tracheal injury?

I'm having a hard time

getting a good look.

It seems like it's mostly facial,

but then she has intra-oral bleeding,

some loose teeth tissue, swelling.

Blind nasotracheal intubation?

Nobody does that anymore, okay?

If this is a last resort,

then it's gonna be an emergency cric.

Theo, why is the dog still here?

- June, Bertie stays.

- Are you saying you

that you can't get me

breathing because the

parts of my face aren't

where they should be?

Esther, Esther, listen to me!

Look, I know you're scared, okay?

But I promise you everything

is gonna be alright.

Can you just stay back

from her open wounds?

- 02 SAT's 86 now guys

- Actually, I forgot.

- I got us this.

- What is that?

A video laryngoscope with a stylet.

Means we can see what

we're doing, and

- muscle through the debris.

- What?

Nah, keep the emergency

cric, just in case.

- Call that a double-double.

- When did you get this?

50 mg of etomidate and 70 of sux

I don't know, couple of months ago.

Am I supposed to ask permission?

Well, at least tell someone you did it.

Hi, kiddo, we're going

to sedate you, okay?

And now we're going to

use that very good tool

to put a tube in, and

then when you wake up,

you'll be able to breathe

way more easily, okay?

You know these things need

special approval, right?

Devi doesn't need any more reasons to

- To what?

- You know, you could've

at least answered my

texts the last few days.

Okay then, let's get this kid breathing.

Alright.

Okay, on your side.

Thank you.

Alright.

Sorry, tender there?

- Uh-huh.

- Appendix, bet ya anything.

I lost that one as a kid.

This pain's definitely my pancreas.

What makes you say that?

Uh, a few years ago, my immune

system declared w*r on it.

I've had chronic pancreatitis since.

My uncle had that.

Man was in constant discomfort.

Of course, he was also a

weasel who drank a 40 a day.

Except, I wasn't

much of a drinker before

this came on and

barely at all after either.

Your loss! (LAUGHING)

(COUGHING) Hey, hey, hey!

Time to wake up, nurse lady.

100 over 70, Kathy.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(COUGHING)

Okay, this'll be cold.

(PAIGE INHALES)

This is to rule out

gallstones or bleeding.

(MOANING)

Are you on any medication?

Pancrelipase and Rabeprazole daily.

Tylenol at home. When it gets like

this, I always have to come in.

And what do we usually do?

On a good day, listen to what works,

but mostly tell me why it won't.

I'm hoping it's a good day.

I like this one, she's fiery.

What are you in for?

Congestive heart failure.

Sorry to hear that.

- No, no, no.

- I'll live to fight another day.

- (KATHY COUGHS)

- I'll start fluids.

Thanks. Um Tell me

what usually works, Paige.

Three rounds of intravenous Toradol,

aggressive fluids and

cipro to avoid abscess.

High-dose anti-inflammatories

are controversial

- when it comes to pancreatitis

- I know, but

I think the best thing

that we can do is see

how you respond to the

fluids and manage pain orally.

Won't work. I don't

metabolize well by mouth!

The thing is,

you guys always make me sit

in agony until my body proves me right.

Can we please just skip

that step this once?

Look, I get you've been

through this before,

but there's a treatment

protocol that we need to follow,

and IV and seds risk anti-platelet

effect or acute kidney injury.

But if I'm willing to take that

risk to stop my pain, why can't you?

Yeah, why can't ya?

I mean, it's her body, right?

Kathy

Look, I want to help you,

Paige, of course, I do.

But I need to look

before jumping in blindly,

so we're going to do some

blood work first, alright?

(ELEVATOR DINGS)

That was weird.

Zero boundaries, that woman.

Let me try to load her up with

diuretics and hope that works.

Uh, no, not Kathy. Paige.

I just saw her move easily

like she wasn't in pain.

Do you think she's drug seeking?

Asking for NSAIDs?

They're not a controlled substance.

I know, but some patients lay a track.

Oh, you know the deal. Hiding is

second nature with chronic pain.

It's when you need somebody to

really know what's going on inside,

that's when you gotta work at it.

Huh

No Mags today?

I, uh, took her shift.

People are saying there's

something going on with her.

She's having a heart

transplant right now.

She's been on the

table about four hours,

about four more to

I didn't know it was that bad.

None of us did.

Is she gonna

Is she gonna be able

to come back to work?

I think the drugs she's

asking for are a real risk.

Paige.

Maybe.

But she's the one alone with the pain.

Dr. Devi, sorry.

Uh, I imagine you heard

about Trauma OR this morning.

I know you've been auditing the logs,

so if you have any

questions about the fancy

piece of equipment Dr. Novak ordered

Oh, I have a lot of questions for Mark.

All of which I'd prefer

to ask without a buffer.

- Yeah, I, uh

- Dr. Curtis?

This is Murray, Esther's father.

I just saw my son, but

they said you could tell me

what's happening with my daughter.

Yes, we were able to

secure Esther's airway.

She's gonna need several

reconstructive surgeries

- over the next couple of days

- Well, can I see her?

- (DOG BARKS LIGHTLY)

- (JUNE SIGHS)

You need to be prepared.

Her face and her airway

were damaged extensively.

Well, she's gonna recover, right?

She's starting university soon and

Functionally, her prognosis is good.

But she may have some

trouble swallowing,

she might need a speech therapist.

And they'll be some scaring, but

This dog, we got him

the week their mom left.

Anytime one of them was sick

or sad, he'd be by their side.

Like, their pain is his to bear.

Well, you can come see her

- in the ICU, I just, uh

- (PAGER BEEPING)

Sorry, you just, you can't take the dog.

- (DOG WHIMPERS)

- No, I can't, you can't

(DOG GROANS)

I got your page, Bash.

You ever held a living

creature before because you

look completely unnatural, June.

Then maybe you should

take him since you made

such a big deal of

him staying in Trauma.

Okay Geez.

What are you guys even

doing here? I told you

I'd fill you in if I had

any news on her surgery.

We were just discussing that

while Mags is in recovery,

if we split her shift, they won't

need to hire a temp replacement.

I already have my hands full trying

to keep my job from imploding.

What, June, you won't help?

Did she even ask you to do this?

Wait here.

June

I mean, Mags does work at, like,

three times the capacity

of a normal person.

Are we even gonna make a dent?

- She coded on the table.

- What?

- June, did she

- They were able to get her back

but it's not looking

That's all I could get.

Okay, then I'll find out myself.

Bash! What are you gonna do?

I have to talk to

them, maybe I can help!

Hey, hey! You can't just storm

into the OR with zero context

and distract the people

who can actually help her.

Bash

(WAILING)

(PAIGE WEEPING)

It's about time!

The poor girl's dying here.

Your labs are back.

You're not gonna give

me the meds I asked for.

The risk of straining

your kidneys is too high.

We're managing your pancreatic

inflammation with fluids.

I know it's not the

news you wanted but

I own a restaurant.

And you know, it's my

job to taste our food.

Fatty foods being the exact

thing I'm supposed to avoid.

- Well, isn't that a sick joke.

- Right?

And usually I just have a taste.

Only last night we were slammed.

And after close, these 18-hour

short ribs were calling to me.

Why won't you help her?

I understand this is frustrating.

I can give you other

suggestions for pain management.

It's just that we see

a lot of people come in

with pancreatitis and based

on my personal experience

That's really what it's

about, though, isn't it?

Your experience. The

day that you're having

when you walk in the room.

Once, a doctor at

another hospital seemed

so personally offended that none

of his solutions were working,

he suggested I apply for

medically assisted death.

Jesus. What is wrong with you people?

At least I know I have a fall-back

option in case no one can help me here.

This is your life, Paige.

That's not some idle

threat to waive around.

Someone else will come in and offer you

other suggestions for pain management.

Heard about your friend Leblanc.

You bought $11,000 worth

of unsanctioned equipment.

- Life-saving equipment.

- "Get you fired" equipment.

I'm serious. While you were AWOL,

Devi was trying to convince me to

help her find ways of moving you out.

- Well, did ya?

- No!

Short-sighted on your part. It could've

been a good career move for you.

Why do you not care about this?

C'mon, what's wrong with these doors?

When we started Trauma

OR together, you loved it

because building and making

up the rules as you go

works for you, but actually

following them, not so much.

Wow, that is so insightful of you, June.

You know what I don't get? If you don't

like your job, why are you still here,

when you could just leave? Why are

you trying to get Devi to push you out?

Because you won't let me!

You keep dragging me into

conversations like this one

in which you remind me about how

important our working

relationship is to you.

(SIGHS) I never wanted a partner.

Then why did you recruit me?

That was one of my many mistakes.

Okay, I'm pretty sure this

counts as harassment now.

Well, we're gonna

have this conversations

because I'm not just gonna walk away.

Really? You should try it sometimes

because it really feels good.

I can't.

I'm thinking about having a kid, okay?

There. And if I do something

that's that crazy by myself,

I need to know that my

work environment is stable.

And I know you don't want me putting

my emotional stability on you.

Guilt tripping me because you're

suddenly nesting is

the opposite of that.

It's not why I'm saying this.

I actually like being your partner.

And I know you like it,

too. Like, you would miss it

if you got run out of here

for being a stubborn idiot!

Oh, how magnanimous of you, June.

I care about what happens to you, Mark!

The only reason our partnership exists

is because you stepped over

me to get yourself power.

That happened, like, months ago.

You could've told me something

instead of burning me!

- That actually hurt you?

- (NOVAK CHUCKLES)

That proves my point.

You care.

You're too damaged to be a mother, June.

Where's Paige?

What the

Kathy?

Seriously?

Figured what harm

could it do now, right?

But this is a hospital,

you're in heart failure,

and you have a sick roommate!

Not anymore, Paige left!

Left, what do you mean "left"?

Well, the details are

between me and her,

but I will tell you that this

place failed her big time!

Do you know where she is?

Because she still needs treatment.

She needs fluids and pain control.

Is that what these are? Nice!

Hey, those are basically morphine!

Oh! Beautiful! Anyway, why?

Paige already told you that the

good stuff doesn't even work on her.

Those were not meant for you!

Well, screw me for wanting to

feel good, you uncaring b*tch!

(KATHY COUGHING)

Where have you been?

I mean, you weren't here

to stop Paige from leaving.

To go where?

Of course, Abby swore she

wanted to go on the drop ride,

but as soon as we got to the

top, she panicked, poor kid.

Just give it a couple of days, she'll

remember it like she conquered it.

Uh, hey, do you mind if we sit?

Sure.

Uh, look, I don't want you

to feel like you need

to hide from me, son.

You know, whether you're, well,

dating that person or not

- Dad

- No, no, no.

I should not have pried, that wasn't

Not my business.

And to set an example,

you should know that I am

no longer with the church.

You retired, Dad, that's big

No, no, no, not retired. Uh resigned.

I wanted to tell you, but

you're always so busy and, uh

Okay, but So you and

Mom, you still go, right?

Uh, well, yeah, your

mother, from time to time.

But it would be too weird for me.

And actually, I work Sundays now.

Yeah, for a small landscaping outfit.

You know, it's, uh

Dad, you gave up a lead pastor to, what?

Trim hedges? You've been doing

that job for 30 years, Dad!

The church has stayed exactly the same.

And there are just things about

that that I can't reconcile anymore.

You used to say that wrestling

with doubt was a good thing.

- Yeah.

- Right, that, uh

faith grows with the

fight. You would say that.

I still believe that.

You know what, I also, I

sometimes wonder, perhaps,

I pushed you too far towards

something that I believed.

You know, maybe that's why you left.

Oh, so now it's my fault

that you're throwing away

everything we grew up

believing? Dad, that's unhinged.

- That's

- It's not, it's not, Theo.

No, I think it's so brave what you did.

It is. Recognizing that you weren't

happy, and then changing your life.

The path that you were on.

No. Look, if anything, that inspired me.

Oh

Do not rethink your calling

because of me, please.

Hey.

Still no news.

How you doing?

Don't really know.

Think I was a little harsh earlier.

Just don't know how to

deal with these things.

You're asking me how?

I was gonna go pray.

Does that really work for you?

Uh-huh.

Also, it just gets me out of my head,

so I don't do something like

Barge into an operating room.

Yeah

Look, if Mags, uh

If she doesn't make it, I just

I think that's it for me, June.

What do you mean?

No

Not that.

I just

I just know I won't

be able to start over.

No, not again.

(LAYING)

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

(PILLS RATTLING)

(IN FRENCH)

How do you feel?

I was dreaming about the anesthetic.

That sleep is so heavy.

Every time I wake up now,

I feel a huge wave of relief

washing over me when I realize

how lucky I am to have made it.

I'm making vegetable soup.

Think you'll be hungry later?

Maybe.

Hey, Dad.

(IN FRENCH)

(MUSIC PLAYING)

Who died?

Hi, Paige.

It's Dr. Hamed from

York Memorial, again.

You haven't returned

any of my calls so

just checking if everything's okay.

You're on my bed.

Yeah, you asked me to lie here earlier.

- I did?

- Hmm.

These immunosuppressants

are messing me up.

I feel so spaced out.

And is that a rash? I feel itchy.

No, I don't see anything,

but let's keep an eye on it.

Who were you talking to?

Uh, a patient with pancreatitis.

She left AMA and things ended

sort of weird between us.

Mmm, maybe she just needs space.

- What if she needs help?

- She can ask.

You know, it's gotta come from her.

(SIGHING)

I wish I didn't need all the

drugs that they're putting me on.

Hey, look, you and I both

know that the immune system

attacks foreign substances.

In this case, that's organs.

Will it be the heart

that rejects the patient

or the patient that rejects the heart?

Both of those options end in rejection.

Because it was never mine

to begin with, the heart.

And now, part of another human

being is braiding with me.

Should I be happy that

that's all behind me

or afraid about what's ahead?

Bash called while you were asleep.

If you want me to tell him to

lay off a bit, I can do that.

Gently.

- How do you feel?

- (SIGHING)

I would love it if people

would stop asking me that.

Mum's making soup.

Well, if you must know,

I feel like a zombie.

- Like the Walking Dead.

- (CHUCKLING)

Oh, how long it's been like that?

- I think it just came on.

- Is it time for your meds?

- What if they're not working?

- Magalie, don't.

Your doctor's checked in

every day, he says you're good.

I can feel it, Cam. I can feel it

trying to fight its way out of me.

The funny thing is she fought so hard

to get into this art school,

and now, the thing she

likes the most is math.

- (LAUGHING)

- Well, you know,

not knowing what path

they're on is part of the fun.

This feels like a horrible memory.

Being 12 years old and you

guys were so worried about me.

(IN FRENCH)

Never too late to start again.

What were you saying about your sister?

Oh, she got invited to the STEM exchange

program at this school in England

for kids who excel at math,

and I can't decide

whether to let her go.

Mmm, they all go eventually.

- Bon appétit.

- (MAGALIE GASPS)

Something went wrong. We've lost her.

(MONITORS BEEPING)

You'll never work again after this.

No! There's a bad rash, Dr. Zhang.

And her fever won't come down now!

We need to get it out.

- Please!

- Magalie, you're only dreaming.

Please!

You need to get it out of me now!

(MAGALIE GASPS)

(HEAVY BREATHING)

(MUSIC PLAYING)

Memories ♪

Feel like a disease ♪♪

(KNOCKING)

Come in.

Hey, Cam said you need

to be awake anyway.

Yeah, come sit.

(SIGHING) Tell me

What's the panic level out there really?

Um (CHUCKLING)

Well, your mother thinks

that her soup will solve

all of your problems and I

assured her you would be fine.

I love that I don't

have to pretend with you.

It does seem like you're

adjusting to your meds better now.

I know it's been a rocky

couple of weeks in this place.

Yeah

- Mags

- What is it?

I had a thought during your surgery

when I got scared that you

weren't going to come out of it.

Every time I fall asleep now,

I'm afraid I'm not gonna wake up.

It's been really unsettling.

That's normal, it'll take time.

What thought?

Look, I know when you

and I were together,

we had our issues on figuring out

how we were going to move forward

or if we were going to at all.

And I know a lot of that

was me and my fears, but

I can't see a future

unless you're in it.

This is real, Mags. I

want this to be real.

Did you make this when

you thought Mags might die?

Um

It was like the day of her surgery,

but it's not usually,

like, about one thing.

It's about everything.

When we were together,

I had no idea this was a part of you.

I've never been good at

letting people know me.

Not sure that's true anymore.

(SIRENS WAILING)

- Hey, Karim.

- Hey, Bashir.

I got your call this

morning, I was just, uh

I put it all on the line with Mags.

I told her that I want us to be together

and she has to think about it.

- How's she doing these days?

- It's been, uh,

it's been a couple of

weeks since her surgery.

She's moving around the apartment,

but there's also the

psychological component

of when do I get to

believe I've survived,

and I get that because it's

Can we go in here?

Uh, yeah, sure.

Bashir, do you know

what transference is?

Uh, it's when an emotion

gets redirected to

where it doesn't belong.

You think that's what

I'm doing with Mags.

Actually, I'm talking about us.

You call or text with thoughts

and ask questions like a

friend or family member would.

- Yeah

- Just wait.

I'm gonna get through this.

I think because you and I

are similar in so many ways,

culturally, in part, yes,

but also just personality-wise,

that it's been easier for

me to let my boundaries lax.

And you have this need for a brother,

or father figure, or role model

And it pulls at me, man.

So as your therapist,

I've let my guard down.

I also should never have told

you about my brother who died.

- Bu

- That was about me.

And it crossed a line I

have never crossed before.

Is any of this making sense?

The work we're doing, it's helping.

I know, but I need to keep a firm grasp

on professional boundaries. I just

can't be your brother.

Are you firing me as your patient?

No, but I do hope that we can reset.

So book an appointment

and we'll talk then.

- Hey, Esther.

- Hey!

Your dad hanging in?

I don't know, he kind

of looked tired or

Crazy? Yo, he m*rder*d that coyote.

- What, why?

- Revenge, he said.

Like, we don't even know

if it was the same one.

- k*lled it with what?

- A hunting r*fle.

After the attack, he went out,

looking every night just

(MIMICS g*nsh*t)

I'm worried about him.

Yeah, I guess so.

And he raised us on his

own, that's a lot to carry.

And even Bertie's upset.

I mean, this is a trauma on all of us.

Look, I checked back in with Plastics,

and they said your

second surgery went well.

Yeah, I mean, I can swallow

better, if that's what you mean.

Do you think after the next

one though I can go home,

maybe help my dad, even make

it back for Fall semester?

Look, Esther

About a year ago, I was

in a helicopter crash.

Pilot died and I got

stranded in the woods.

Okay? I mean, wow!

- But

- Why am I telling you this?

I know I promised you that

everything would be fine.

- Are you saying that it's not?

- No.

- I'm just saying tha

- Because you seem okay to me.

And am I. I am.

And I barely even

think about it anymore.

But I'm just now starting to understand

the effects that it had on me.

I don't really know what

to do with any of that.

I know. Which is kind of my point.

Okay, how you react to

all of this, just trust me,

and just try to take it slow.

I'm gonna go check on your dad.

I need help out here!

Need some help down here!

- (KATHY COUGHING)

- Arnold, what is this?

I just found her collapsed here.

- Her O2 SAT's brutal, Claire.

- This is Kathy,

she's been in and out with

congestive heart failure.

I heard a tonne of fluid.

- Prep trauma.

- Yeah!

(KATHY MOANING)

Kathy, hey! Hang in there.

Hang in there, we're gonna

help you breathe, okay?

No. No!

No, not you!

(KATHY COUGHING)

Mr. Danbury, Murray.

I know it's been a tough few

weeks, but I just wanted to

- What?

- Uh

Am I crying blood?

- Uh, June. Have you seen this?

- Yeah?

(PA EMERGENCY ANNOUNCEMENT)

- I'll get that, you get this.

- Yeah, okay.

Hi, sir. Just look at me.

(SIGHING)

(BREATHING HEAVILY)

(MONITOR BEEPING)

Claire

Claire.

It's over.

She wouldn't let me tube her.

By the time help came and got her

on the bed, she deteriorated so fast.

I did three rounds of CPR.

I don't even know how she

got here, who brought her in.

I did.

Everyone on my street

knew where that thing slept.

This city wasn't going to

do anything about it so

But did you physically

handle the animal?

After I shot it

I used to go hunting with my

uncle, I still have my old r*fle.

Anyway, I did the right thing.

I made sure it was

dead, not in any pain.

Why?

Uh, coyotes can carry bacteria

that is harmful to humans.

What, like rabies?

Hmm

Because I've been

feeling kind of fluish.

It could be something called tularemia.

When Esther came in, we gave her

some precautionary antibiotics,

but if you had it on your hands,

and then you touched your eye

Okay, so Murray, I'm gonna

have to cut into the tissue

in order to drain the abscess

or else you might go blind,

but, I am gonna numb your first.

- I know it was stupid.

- Just one more.

I just couldn't sleep knowing

that thing was still out there.

Yeah

I know you think I'm crazy.

Actually, I was wondering

if it made you feel better?

I love those kids so much.

It's worth the pain.

She texted me after I left that day.

I invited her to the

restaurant, cooked her a steak.

We've both been feeling lousy.

Ended up making friends over that.

Sick friends.

- I'm sorry, Paige.

- You called me a lot.

Yeah, are you still in pain?

(SCOFFS) We'll get you into a room,

- I'll give you an IV of Toradol.

- Now you'll do what I want.

Two weeks ago it was such a

big risk, but now it's not?

- It's still a risk.

- Then why did my friend

have to die for you to take it?

Look, I am the kind of

doctor that takes risks.

It's just that day, I was

trying not to overreact

to something that was

happening in my life.

Kathy was right about

me making it personal.

Let me help you now.

What is this?

Dr. Novak and I have been discussing

our working situation,

and we've decided

- You've decided.

- It's been decided

that he's gonna be

transitioning out of Trauma OR

and no longer connected to

the emergency department.

"Banished". That's the

word she's looking for.

We wanted you to hear it,

officially, from the both of us.

Heard.

June?

June!

Yeah, I guess you're right.

I'm a starter, not a stayer.

So you're leaving the hospital?

No, no. I have some

friends still upstairs

that are willing to slot me in.

Maybe I'd ask what this

means for me, but

I wouldn't want to sound too damaged.

Yeah, June, uh

When I said that,

look, it wasn't about

Hey, how was your

follow-up appointment?

- I'm on my way there now.

- Okay.

But Bash

I want it to be real, too.

You do?

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

Sasha and her mom have already

been waiting 10 minutes.

Uh, I thought it was

in my bag, but it isn't.

- My math.

- Where did you see it last?

I don't know, but I

have to study on the way.

Mr. Redican said that if we don't pass

this test, we can't go on the trip.

Found it!

Oh, my God, Mags, you saved my life.

(CHUCKLING)

(SPEAKING IN ARABIC)

Okay, one second!

I'm doing nine to two today.

I'll crossover with you at one.

Yesterday, I stayed until

four without hitting a wall.

That's great, just don't

push yourself too hard, okay?

The whole reason I'm

covering for you is

Bash, you're picking me up

from rehearsal later, right?

- I work until nine.

- I'll do it!

And then we can grab a late dinner.

- Great.

- Okay, just not burgers.

- I can't do burgers ever.

- Amira, lunch.

(SIGHING)

That is never not exhausting.

Mmm, their student

exchange trip is in

Two weeks. She used

the word "nerve-cited"

to describe how she's

feeling about living

in a foreign continent for a month.

- You, too?

- Um

I can still stop it from happening,

it's just if that

feeling's more about me,

then I should probably

just stay out of her way.

Makes sense, it's hard.

Mmm.

Tell me what you think.

I think she should go.

- Are you staying over tonight?

- Yes.

But I'll see you at one!

(DOOR OPENING)

(DOOR CLOSING)

(SOFT MUSIC)

Memories ♪

Forgive me please ♪

I'm lonesome without you ♪

But I'm a wreck thinking about you ♪

Just memories ♪

As far as my mind can see ♪

It's too sad looking back ♪

(MUSIC CONTINUES)