04x10 - Never Too Late to Start Again

[bunniefuu]

(IN ARABIC)

- Thanks for taking her on.

- You can do it with me.

What if instead of looking

for a job, I open a clinic.

Cleveland?

I figured Mark Novak

could easily step in

- That's not an option.

- You're too damaged

to be a mother, June.

I just know that you're resisting us.

I've lost sight of all of it, Liz.

I can't keep waiting.

(IN ARABIC)

To go through all this just

to be here, it's

I believe in you. And you can

do whatever you want.

I just wanted to tell you

how sorry I am.

Why was she working?

You should've stopped her.

- Don't blame yourself.

- I didn't deserve her.

I'm just here to clear up my locker.

What if you didn't?

(♪♪)

(UPBEAT, PIANO MUSIC)

(THUMPING)

(SIZZLING)

(OPENING THEME)

(GENTLE MUSIC)

(SPEAKING IN ARABIC)

(SIGHING)

It was basically like any

other big loud city.

The dorm they put us in

was super cramped,

and the girl I was sharing

a room with snored all night.

You don't have to make it seem

like you didn't have any fun

in London for my sake, Amira.

Must have been exciting, the adventure.

I'm sorry it got cut shorter.

It's part of the reason

I waited to tell you.

Don't be sorry. I wanted to come home.

I miss her, too.

Um, this open house with your school?

Tomorrow. Are you coming?

No, I'm working, but

- You don't have to if you can't.

- If you want me to, I will.

Bashir

Ten micrograms per kilo per hour.

Use a calculator if you're

not 100 on the math.

Guess I'm gonna have

to get used to feeling

like a first year all over again.

Just finished my last shift.

Ah.

Have you looked up who else

is on your surgical team?

Yeah, mostly dudes.

Uh, a lot of pictures of hiking.

So, I mean, I'm not doing

this to make friends.

My first surgical attending

thought my name was Ajax for two years.

- And you didn't correct him?

- If I could go back,

I'd do it on rounds

in front of everyone.

- Prove I had the stones.

- So you're suggesting

I pick a fight with the biggest

bully in the prison yard.

Hey, if you don't want

my wisdom, that's on you.

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

Okay, go,

before my resident comes back

and thinks I'm a softie.

(SINGH SNIFFLES)

It's a letter of intent

saying you'll take over

in good faith and purchase

my practice when you're ready.

Right, and time wise,

you were thinking?

Six weeks. Enough time to make sure

your CPSO licence covers

independent family medicine.

While we're waiting for paperwork,

we can inform patients and staff

and make a handover plan.

You wanna start that already?

Well, if we're expecting people to

make this major change in their lives,

it's a message we have to

project soon and with confidence.

Okay, but I was thinking

maybe three months.

Theo, if you're having

second thoughts, tell me now.

Before my wife starts pricing cruises.

No, that's not what, um

Just give me one second.

- (BARRY GROANING)

- Barry.

- Why aren't you in your room?

- Hey, Theo.

- I think it's out again.

- Barry, I reduced

your kneecap 20 minutes ago.

How could you already be

imaged and discharged?

Well, it felt so much better

once it popped in.

- I decided not to wait.

- So you walked on it.

- Barry, we talked about this.

- I know.

But it hurts, man, so much

worse than the last time.

Look, I have a patella to reset.

I'll give you a call later, okay, Mac?

We're gonna get you back

in your room, okay?

(PHONE VIBRATING AND RINGING)

Hi, Muriel.

The things of hers that you sent

Thank you.

I finally started to, um, sift through.

It's not easy, but it's necessary.

I don't know if this helps.

No, no, it does.

I wanted to see how you were.

I'm, uh

You know?

I do.

Thank you for calling.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Okay, next week.

Oh, Neeta, did you have

the room booked?

Because we're just finishing up here.

I just heard through the grapevine

that Mark Novak is back

in emerg as co-chief.

Tell me that isn't true, Neil,

because I know how

false rumours can spread.

He came to me last week

after your overture.

It took a few days to negotiate, but

My overture.

I didn't offer him co-chief.

Well, those were his terms

and we need him in Trauma OR.

And you agreed to that

without even talking to me?

Well, with Curtis leaving so suddenly,

I just solved a problem you couldn't.

We both know Mark lacks

patience required for management.

Well, maybe he wants to learn.

So did you when you took this job.

Is this constructive dismissal?

Are you suggesting

that I want you to quit?

Let's not overreact here.

All you've done is set me up to fail.

You have had one chance after

another to prove yourself.

I'm not quitting.

If you want me out,

you'll have to fire me.

Did one of you text me, "911"?

Emergency farewell session.

There's only a few people

I'm not ghosting, so.

Well, what is this?

Like a group hug situation or?

- (BOTH): No.

- Well, are you excited, June?

Have you ever known me to be

excited about anything, Theo?

Okay, so we're gonna be caustically mean

to each other right to the bitter end.

Okay, it's just that the ceiling at

this hospital in Cleveland is high.

You know, it's gonna feel good

to be challenged, but I'm nervous.

It's not too late to change your mind.

- I signed a contract.

- Well, you're going bigger,

- I'm going smaller.

- That family practice

you're taking over,

is that still happening?

And before one of you can

caustically make the point,

I realize that I am right

back where I started

taking over for

a retiring pediatrician.

This just isn't the right place for me.

And I'm good at that kind of work.

Are you trying

to convince us or yourself?

After everything that

happened, I'm trying to just

trust that I'm making

the right call this time.

So I finally get offered

a permanent position,

and you two can't leave fast enough.

Did you tell Devi that

you're officially taking it?

Not yet, but she'll want

an answer soon.

Makes sense. You're feeling weird?

Taking her job?

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

If she was here, she

- I mean, she'd want you to do it.

- We don't know what she'd say.

(CAR HONKING)

The map always takes you

to Niagra Falls,

but it's easier to cross

the border in Buffalo.

And Erie, Pennsylvania is half

way between here and Cleveland.

- I got Henry on weekends.

- Right.

We'll make it work.

- What happened?

- I don't know.

He was wide awake a minute ago.

Mr. Evans?

Responding to stimuli but he's out.

- Did you give him anything?

- Just fluids.

Bashir?

(IN ARABIC)

Claire, are you, uh

He's stable, I'm gonna call cardiology.

(IN ARABIC)

Madiha? Madiha?

(MUFFLED BREATHING)

Hamed?

(ALARM RINGING) Is that the fire alarm?

No, um, it's gas.

We need to get everyone

out of curtains right now.

You think the hospital gas is leaking?

Get everyone to triage

until we can confirm.

Yeah, there's only one of me, Mark.

Okay, relax, we'll rally.

Hamed, you okay?

Yeah, I need help here.

(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

Four cases of sudden loss of

consciousness in five minutes.

Have you ever seen a hospital

leak anesthetic gas?

The pressure on our delivery

system is haywire.

It's probably a hairline

fracture in a pipe somewhere.

Emerg has isolated ventilation

so hopefully, it's contained.

To which part of ED?

Do they know where it's leaking?

Definitely the curtain rooms.

I started feeling something there.

I was 10 feet away, and I didn't.

We had a patient affected

near Trauma, too.

- Maybe it's seeping.

- We're gonna have to evacuate

the entire department. We're

gonna get everyone upstairs

until we can figure out

where the risk is.

How? Bed spacing is a huge issue.

Even if we twist every arm.

Why don't you just

let me handle that, Neeta,

- and you can go do other things.

- Actually, Mark, why don't you

- just worry about Trauma OR?

- I can set up a temporary unit outside.

We'll use portable monitors

and trauma bags.

It's something I'm trained to do.

Do you want to say yes to

that, Dr. Devi? Or should I?

Tell us what you need, Bashir.

Admit anyone unstable, the rest

stay on gurneys near the tents.

If they're ambulatory, divert them

to walk-in clinics or urgent care.

This patient needs a monitor

and high flow of O2.

Arnold has a list, communicate

your supply needs now

and not when they're running low.

Come find me if you have any questions.

(SIRENS WAILING)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

Everyone will be accommodated outside.

My knee dislocation, do we know

if he ever made his imaging?

Uh, last I saw, he was refusing

a wheelchair saying he could walk.

- Haven't seen him since.

- We lost Barry?

shoving a pen at me, but I'm

not signing that consent form.

Ma'am, I know it's an unpleasant topic,

but you need to understand the risks.

And you need to understand

that I don't want you

swiftly disposing

of my uterus as you put it.

That was a poor choice of words,

and it would only be if necessary.

But you do need surgery. Trust me.

Ma'am.

Come with me.

Hemorrhaging uterine fibroid.

- Is Trauma OR even safe?

- No, I booked an OR upstairs.

But as soon as I flagged

hysterectomy as a risk, she flipped.

Well, yeah, she's, what, mid-30s max.

You can't just drop a b*mb like that.

Okay, so, you don't

even work here anymore,

so let's mark this as the last time

you get to tell me

how wrong I am, okay?

Bye, June.

Keep me posted if anything changes.

Madiha.

(IN ARABIC)

(MYSTERIOUS MUSIC)

Hello?

Hey, hey!

That's mine.

Actually, it's mine.

I have patients who need

that to survive.

I need it to survive. I live here.

And you people are in my way.

Look, I'm sorry about that.

I'm Bashir. What's your name?

Luke. (HEAVY COUGHING)

You have emphysema, Luke? Or COPD?

I always go inside that hospital

to charge my phone at this time.

And today, they say I can't.

Well, if there's somebody

that you need to contact then, please.

It wants you to watch this.

- Is it on?

- Yeah, why am I filming this again?

Because I want this one on record.

Well, okay

Okay, uh, she is a dancer

who quit performing to teach,

and he curates a fancy cheese shop.

- Okay.

- So does that mean they settled

or are they living their best life?

Well, we're about to find out

because I'm gonna ask them.

- Yeah, right.

- Why not?

- Don't you wanna know how good we are?

- Well, asking would be ridiculous.

What are you afraid of?

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

You need help breathing.

I'll be right back.

Ruth.

Hi, Dr. Curtis.

June.

Look, I know when Dr. Novak

had to explain

why they have to do open surgery,

he handled it like an idiot.

And sent you to apologize for him?

No, I wanna make sure

that you're not making

a bad decision because

he said something stupid.

Was he right? The surgery

means I could lose my uterus?

Some of the fibroids are too connected

to other tissues to

remove independently.

- Yeah, so, it's possible.

- Then, no.

Is this thing done? I wanna go.

Hey, listen, look, I know

this is a lot to take in, okay?

But if you keep bleeding inside,

you're gonna go into shock and die.

I've wanted to get pregnant

and be a mom my whole life.

There are other ways to do that.

I know that. And I get

how this sounds, trust me, I do.

But if I can't

I understand.

But you need to let them help you.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

If you're a doctor here, too, June,

why do you keep saying "them"?

(ALARM RINGING)

Barry?

Barry, are you back here?

- Oh, Theo. Thank God.

- You're awake.

What the hell, man?

I've been looking everywhere.

Five steps in and it gave out again.

I know, I'm an idiot, okay?

Help me understand why you'd walk on it

after it already popped out twice.

Oh, more like ten times

over the last year, maybe.

Ten and you didn't do

anything about it?

Okay, stay here and hold this, okay?

(BARRY MOANING)

I'm gonna lift you into this, okay?

I don't think I can, Theo, it hurts.

Put your arm around me,

c'mon, c'mon, c'mon.

(GRUNTING)

(SCREAMING IN PAIN)

Did I hit you?

No, my my shoulder popped out.

Out? What, as in dislocated?

Like my knee? What are the odds?

Ah, it's too painful to stand.

- I'm gonna try and text for help.

- (BOTH GROANING)

You know, the first time it happened,

they referred me to a surgeon.

Lots of pain, and a long recovery

with no guarantee it would even work.

- (THEO GROANING)

- Look, I freaked out.

Are we gonna die from this leak?

(BREATHES HEAVILY)

The fact you're still awake,

that means it probably

isn't circulating back here.

Okay.

Well, then this could be worse.

Barry, this is gonna keep

happening until you wise up.

(BARRY HEAVY BREATHING)

How long do I got to do this?

The O2 therapy will

make a big difference.

After that, we should go

to the hospital

and get a chest X-ray just to see the

extent of the damage on your lungs.

Well, at two, there's a drop-in lunch

at St-James that I go to every day.

And then, I have to buy

enough cigarettes

to last me through the night.

We can find you food at the hospital

and you shouldn't smoke.

At 3:30, I call my brother,

and then I have work.

You don't want me asking you

what you do for work.

Look, the BIPAP machine

is good for now,

but long-term we should

I can do this breathing thing

until one and that's it.

A potential stroke

went to imaging, and, uh,

we diverted three more

ambulatory patients to St-Agnes.

Where are we on blood work?

Well, your call

to Public Health helped.

Um, access to their lab

has cleared our bottleneck.

Madiha Wasef, I heard stridor.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

BP is 140 over 110,

SpO2 90% and falling.

She's cyanotic and hypoxic.

We need to intubate.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

(IN ARABIC)

There's, uh, propofol and

rocuronium in the trauma bag.

(SIGHING)

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

(IN ARABIC)

(♪♪)

CT shows a 14 by 19 by 10

centimetre uterine fibroid.

I'm gonna make a four-inch

transverse incision.

We're gonna do everything

we can to protect her uterus.

Dr. June Curtis, as I live and breathe,

what are you doing

operating on my patient?

Protecting her from you, apparently.

Transverse incision?

Vertical minimizes risk if

there's a history of adhesions.

Well, if you had taken

the time to review her chart,

you'd know that she's

never had surgery.

So there's no risk of adhesions.

Who is gonna do my homework

for me when you're gonna, June?

Did you want me to retract?

This is Becky,

she's a resident from OB.

- Good for Becky.

- Go ahead, Becky, retract.

(MONITORS BEEPING)

You know, I'm pretty sure

homework doesn't include

triaging the emotional damage

you inflict on people.

Give me the retractor, Becky.

That doesn't seem like it's

infiltrated the uterine wall. Tenaculum?

(MONITORS BEEPING)

Man, this thing's gargantuan.

You know, I'm gonna

expand the incision.

- Aren't you worried about the blood?

- You know these gestures are less selfless

when you throw them in my face?

Well, maybe if you acknowledged them

even one time, I wouldn't have to.

I think you're jealous because

I went after the job I wanted,

and you downgraded

to middling shift surgeon.

Don't tell me how I feel.

Okay, June and I want the room.

- Everybody out.

- Everybody stays.

- We need the support.

- Fine then.

I'll bring them up to speed

so they can follow.

I recruited June for Trauma OR,

and then I got myself

summarily dismissed

for yelling at a resident.

Do you know Ryan, by the way?

An incompetent little troll.

But anyway, now that I'm back,

June is acting like

her thousands of emotional pleas

to me that our work together

were meaningful

and important never happened.

That's because you only came back

after I decided that I was leaving.

So it's too late, Mark, it's too late.

- (MONITOR BEEPING)

- She's hypovolemic.

I told you she's lost too much blood.

What Becky is saying

is that my patient is unstable

and a reproductive fire sale

is her only option.

We're gonna do everything

we can to avoid hysterectomy.

It's her life we're talking

about here, June.

And she doesn't wanna

live it feeling damaged.

(MONITORS BEEPING)

I should've never have said that you

were too damaged to be a mother, June.

Guys, her pressure is still dropping.

(BOTH): Shut up, Becky.

It was never just about motherhood,

it was about feeling like

I don't deserve anything.

What?

Get Dr. Curtis her surgical loops.

We're gonna go in there and

help her find where it's attached.

We'll do it her way.

- Becky, take this over.

- Yeah, got it.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

(TENSE MUSIC)

Okay

Do you see it?

Yeah, I see it.

Clamping now.

Luke.

Luke?

And you took the BIPAP.

Thank you.

- Just got out of surgery.

- Corroded valve located.

They shut off a gas line and diverted,

so we are clear to go back in.

Spread word?

Looks like we weathered the storm.

Until today's stats explode

our weekly wait time averages

Not your problem.

Let me know if you get any

pushback from Dr. Olsen.

I'll handle it if I do.

I could back you up, Neeta.

How could you possibly

expect me to trust you, Mark?

Just call me finally motivated

to find some common ground.

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Bashir.

Hey, I got your text.

Yeah, that patient I was asking about.

Um, he took off.

I think with a very expensive

piece of equipment.

You said maybe he was

unregistered and needed a consul?

I mean, he's had COPD

that's been ignored for years.

I offered him long-term help,

and he just seemed fixated

on getting through today.

I recognized the look on his face,

he's stuck in survival mode.

Well, if he comes back,

I'm happy to talk.

Great.

This whole setup, it's impressive.

What if it's just my own version

of getting through the day?

You know, another

sinkhole to distract me.

Well, it makes sense to think that.

What happened to Mags is awful.

And so unfair.

To her.

And also to you.

After everything that

you've been through.

But you're doing the work,

you're not stuck anywhere.

Every time I try to think

about my future

or what I want, it just seems wrong.

It isn't.

You know, it could be so easy

to just disappear into myself again.

You're not gonna do that.

You will get through this, Bashir.

How, Karim?

You know what to do.

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

(BASHIR): What are you afraid of?

It should be you, not them.

It should be you, not her.

The past is best left where it was.

I just need to get her somewhere safe.

Every time I think I built

something, that feeling fades.

Don't look away.

Okay, Liz, your angle feels off.

- You're too tense, just try and relax.

- I am trying. It hurts.

Okay, remind me how much

hydromorphone he's had?

Two mgs, and one of ativan.

I think you should let us use ketamine.

We can wait for ortho

and RT if you're nervous.

No, don't wait. Just ketamine,

propofol if you need it.

Rhoda can watch my breathing,

I just want it back in.

Okay, push 50 ketamine, Rhoda.

(THEO MOANS)

Okay, it's gonna come on fast.

(SIGHING)

Are you there, Theo? Can you hear me?

Okay, ready when you are, Liz.

Okay.

He's moving a little bit easier now.

- Ow.

- I hate it when they're still in pain, though.

Yeah, at least he doesn't

know where he is.

Okay, Theo, you're still resisting.

I just need you to let go,

why can't you do that?

Because I'm scared.

- Should we keep

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think if I just

- (CRACKING)

- (THEO EXHALING IN RELIEF)

Got it.

Okay, I'll put him in a stabilizer.

Hi.

Welcome back.

(SIRENS WAILING)

- What is this?

- Aren't you gone?

Yet, you're still texting me

on our group thread.

You texted "911" again, but I wasn't

sure whether it was real this time.

- June.

- Why is your arm in a sling?

I thought I was just texting Theo.

- Did you come back because of me?

- Yes.

I turned around on

the highway, ran back here,

changed into my scrubs.

I was in surgery.

Why were you in surgery when

you no longer work here, June?

What happened to your arm, Theo?

Look, not to diminish,

whatever's going on with you,

but I need help. This is Madiha.

- Crohn's, mid-flare.

- Why would Chron's lead to intubation?

Was she here during the anesthetic leak?

Yes. It sent her into rest distress,

but she was already

struggling to breathe.

Imaging showed pulmonary edema,

but no underlying causes.

When did her symptoms present?

A few days ago when

she got here from Turkey.

I did a screening for possible

infections she could've picked up,

but nothing. There must be a

complication that I'm missing.

Blood clot maybe?

IBD inflammation

and VTE aren't uncommon.

Except there's no clot.

We did a CT to make sure.

Nothing cardiogenic underlying?

EKG, bloods, echo.

- And you're treating the fluid in her lungs?

- Obviously, diuretics.

Okay, so why did you call us here?

Just treat the edema, send her home,

- and follow-up with primary care.

- No, I am her primary care.

And it's not us you wanted to ask.

You're right, we don't know

what she'd say.

But we do know we pale in comparison.

Madiha just got to

Canada with her family.

She's shaken from her journey

and this huge change

in her life, and

Look, if I'm honest, she's me.

She's me seven years ago,

and she's me right now,

wondering if everything I went

through was for nothing.

- (PHONE VIBRATING AND BEEPING)

- And

Um, I'm sorry.

That was, uh

I have to account for a

missing BIPAP machine now.

You're not alone with any

of what you just said, Bash.

Why do you keep brining her up?

He clearly doesn't want

to talk about this.

Well, I think he does.

I can feel him trying

to make sense of it.

What does it even mean, Theo?

I don't know.

Someone we loved died.

We have to make sense of it, too.

When you say you lost it,

that machine is worth

more than you make in a year.

I lent it to an unregistered

patient who took it.

He needed help breathing,

and at least now,

we know he'll make it through the day.

Well, that's a good way

to get yourself fired.

- Hey.

- Hey.

- Is that the family?

- Husband and two boys from Aleppo.

The husband should know

there's nothing to worry about.

- Except, is that even true?

- Doctors, where we're from,

we don't give bad news

the same way you do here.

Right, I always forget that.

It's impolite to tell the truth.

When I'd watch my parents

talk to patients or loved ones,

it just made so much sense.

Yeah, so there's nothing

they can do but worry.

- What's the point?

- Exactly, yeah.

- I'll go talk to them.

- Let me.

We agreed to take Madiha

on together anyway.

Oh, ah, by the way, I checked

out that office space.

You're right, it can work.

But, hey, if the timing's wrong,

staying at Memorial is

a good option for you, Bash.

I just stared at those pills.

Okay.

The tension of this huge evac,

and, I mean, how we're only ever

one hairline fracture

from collapse, and

- You don't need to hear this.

- Yes, I do, Claire.

Because I can't imagine

this was easy for you.

I'll admit for a minute,

taking them and numbing myself

felt like the only way to deal with it.

That doesn't mean though

the next time I won't stumble.

But it does mean

that this time, you didn't.

So what if small wins are all we get.

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

Neeta.

I wanted to thank you

for fighting for this place.

And for not giving up on me.

(♪♪)

(ELEVATOR DINGS)

What if it wasn't too late?

I'm too tired to keep

doing this with you.

What if Devi could get

the hospital lawyers

to get you out of your contract

in Cleveland?

And eat whatever penalty

you might be on the hook for?

- Why would she do that?

- Because I asked her to.

She rightfully loathes you, Mark.

Ergo we made a trade.

I agreed to relinquish co-chief.

So you give up your power for me.

She'd rather I be

your problems than hers.

And let's face it, I'm not interested

in the soul-crushing

mundanity of her job.

What is it that you are proposing?

That we go back to running

Traum OR together.

- Mark

- You'd have to take a pay cut.

There's no way we can mash

the money you'd be making

in the US, but if you wanted to,

to try for a kid again.

Or whatever else it is

that you might end up wanting,

you'd have stability at work.

And I'd have a partner

who makes me better.

Anyway, think about it.

While you're thinking about it,

would you please tell Ruth

that she won the uterus lottery?

I don't think she's gonna

want to hear it from me.

(DRAMATIC MUSIC)

- (SIRENS WAILING)

- (CARS HONKING)

You didn't have to leave work

to come to this, you know?

No, it's okay. I had help there.

Um, that's Mrs. Butterfield.

I don't think she likes me,

so let's not talk to her.

Amira, I'm sure that's not true.

She only had the nicest things

to say about you

- on your report card.

- Whatever.

- They have to say that.

- No, they actually don't.

Fine, but this isn't

parent-teacher interviews.

Let's not talk about Amira

in front of her

because that makes her uncomfortable.

Okay.

This is social studies.

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You want to show me some of your work?

There's just this one thing,

but it's embarrassing.

Only if you want to, huh?

Just, here.

- What is it?

- It's a mind map.

You define yourselves with the

words that are important to you.

Mine is kind of messy.

You don't have to stare

at it for hours.

It's just

You know, you fought so hard

to come here for the theatre program.

But looking at this, math and

science are just as important to you.

I like them, too. I don't know, Bashir.

Maybe I'd make a better

doctor than singer.

It does run in the family.

My teachers think if my

grades stay high enough,

I could get into McGill,

or Queens, or UofT.

Look, you don't have

to follow anyone's path.

Amira, you can be whatever you want.

It's true, you know?

I know. And maybe

I'll change my mind again.

But I like knowing

that I was going one way,

and now I can go another.

(SOFT MUSIC)

I'm trying not

to embarrass you by crying.

Hey, um

I think I have to go back to work.

You said you were done.

And you said we could change our minds.

We'll be okay.

I know we will.

Haven't I done the last

10 of those in a row?

Well, we want to make sure

that you don't lose

your sense of humility,

future Dr. Wong.

I was gonna tell you I got in,

I was just worried that you'd

think I was abandoning you.

An old friend who teaches at the

medical school, he let it slip.

I'm proud of you, kid.

Anyone know if ortho has seen

my knee dislocation patient, yet?

Are you even supposed to be working?

I just wanna make sure

he knows I didn't bail on him.

Challenging circumstances today.

But you people k*lled yourselves.

Some of us k*lled each other.

Rhoda, don't think I'll forget

you wrenching at me like that.

The pleasure was all mine.

And some of us lost some very

expensive hospital equipment.

Dr. Hamed, you want to rip off

the bandage as it would?

Um, an unregistered patient

with untreated COPD

needed O2 treatment so

So Bashir and I lent him

a portable BIPAP machine

which he may have purloined.

Did you get a phone number

or a health card?

No, but it's possible he comes back.

But that's what

insurance is for, right?

We'll see, but it's not lost on

me how far you're willing to go.

All of you.

And since wait times

are skyrocketing again,

let's get back to work. Shall we?

Bashir, did you need something?

Liz, um

You were right about me

resisting who I am.

So I'm taking over Max's practice.

Good.

When I came out of sedation,

I was just happy to see your face.

I wanna trust that feeling, Liz.

And if you still feel

the same way about me,

I wanna trust it.

(IN ARABIC)

(GENTLE MUSIC)

(MAGS): Well, we're about to.

Why not?

Don't you want to know

how good we are at this?

(BASHIR): Asking would be ridiculous.

What are you afraid of?

- Let me show you how it's done.

- Mags, wait.

(LAUGHING) Thank you.

Um, well

- So were we close?

- Nope.

So she's an HR, and he just

lost his restaurant job.

And he admitted that to a stranger?

Uh-huh, yeah.

He also said he wanted

to go back to school

- and try something new.

- And what did you tell him?

Uh, that it's never

too late to start again.

(GENTLE MUSIC)

Seriously, did you honestly text

us "911" for the third time today?

Is this about the

pulmonary edema patient?

Thanks for watching her.

She's responding well to meds.

But still no answer as to why?

And sometimes,

there isn't one, you know?

You just gotta live with it.

It's hard, but

No, we work our way

through the differentials slowly

and get it wrong until we get it right.

But thank you for,

Thank you.

You are welcome.

But why'd you pick this room,

it's the site of my trauma?

You gonna tell us what

happened to your arm, Theo?

My reward for trying to help a patient

who very much did not want to be helped.

- Did he as*ault you?

- Not quite.

Tried to get him into a wheelchair

and my shoulder popped out.

Ah, so is that better or worse

than the guy who punched you in

the face a couple of years ago?

Well, your turn, June,

what are you still doing here?

I am staying to partner

with Novak in Trauma OR.

Can you trust him?

No, but I do love the work

we're doing together so,

I don't know, I guess

I was just running.

You know, after I got

punched in the face,

I think that's when I lost

faith in who I was.

You were the guy who took in

me and my sister

when you barely knew who we were

because we needed help, Theo.

Oh, you know, I once had a patient

who got punched in the face.

Left AMA. Comes back three years later

with a brain bleed, dies on the table.

Okay. (SIGHING)

You good?

Yeah, I can dress myself, thanks.

What do you think

you were running from?

Oh, um

you know, there are people here

who I care about

and who also care about me.

And I think I deserve that.

You do.

Yeah, I can't do this

without help so

(UPLIFTING MUSIC)

I turned down the job.

What? Why?

Bash, if you're doing this

because you feel guilty.

I'm starting my own clinic. (CHUCKLING)

She knew, actually.

She wanted me to do it.

That's what she would have said.

What kind of clinic?

Community medicine and public health.

It's what my parents did.

The doctor who sponsored me to Canada,

he'll bring some patients.

I'm actually seeing

a place later tonight.

I'll get a business loan,

a grant maybe.

I know it's a huge risk,

but it's what I want.

Get it wrong until we get it right.

Rulebreaker makes his own rule.

- Let me know how I can help.

- Yeah, same.

(PAGER BEEPING)

Go if you need to.

Uh, I'll see you guys soon.

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

Okay.

(GENTLE MUSIC)

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

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(HIP-HOP MUSIC)

(ESSET ABL AL NOOM BY BU KOLTHOUM)