01x04 - I Don't Know You

[bunniefuu]

[Emma] It wasn't

a hallucination.

It happened, Pete.

This happened.

I can't just show up there

and start asking questions

about a girl that you think

went missing.

[Van] I checked

on your landlord.

He did work at St. Jerome.

But his license was suspended.

[Kamala]

Mother to mother.

Parker didn't k*ll

our daughter.

[Mary]

How can you know that?

Because Parker told me.

[Kit] The most

dangerous part of me

isn't even in this prison cell.

Someone worse than me

is still out there.

You copied

a private recording

of a conversation.

[Gayle] Grandma Moses

fostered so many kids,

but she couldn't save

that one.

Your secret is safe.

I love you.

[Esther] Will you take

the wolf out, please?

[door buzzes]

Karen?

I'm Pete Guillory.

I'm very glad you agreed

to meet me.

I don't feel

I had much choice.

The FBI, uh, has been known

to be a bit pushy.

So they asked me

to come talk to you,

to see if you remember

anything else.

You've been here

barely two weeks.

I'll bet you every minute feels

like an hour, doesn't it?

You don't get to choose

what you eat, when you sleep.

One moment all the lights

are on, and the next, well,

all you have is total darkness.

As long as you're in here,

no choice will ever be yours.

You came to tell me things

I already know?

No one likes to think

they got it wrong

about someone they trusted,

someone they loved.

Loving a bad person

doesn't make you a bad person.

Who are you?

I'm a psychiatrist.

I work with Witness Protection.

I make psychological

assessments.

My job is to determine

whether or not

someone like you is, well

is right for the program.

You think I'm crazy?

No. I do think you have PTSD.

That's why you pull

your hair out.

It's also why you don't remember

everything that happened

between you and Parker,

which is unfortunate,

because if you did and you could

help us with other cases,

I'd get you out of here a whole

hell of a lot faster than, uh

than seven years.

I could give you a new life.

I want my old life back.

And I've said everything

I remember.

[knock on door]

Karen? Louise.

I'm next door.

-Hi.

-Hey.

You doing okay?

Need anything?

Cup of sugar,

orientation day?

It's a lot to get used to.

Yeah.

But I was playing,

about the cup of sugar.

Right.

You want me to take that

to the mail room for you?

-Oh, no, I'm not done.

-I'll take it.

Is this to him?

Get out.

Beg your pardon?

It's not your business

who I'm writing.

Huh.

I said you should get out.

[groans]

See, we all got daughters

on the outside.

And women like you,

helping out men like him

Well, that makes us sick

to our stomachs.

I didn't help him.

Yo, this b*tch done

so much lying

she's starting to believe it.

We gonna help you remember.

[phone rings]

[Pete] Hello?

It's Karen.

I've changed my mind.

I'm ready to talk.

[drill whirs]

[sighs]

Something happen

out here, miss?

I just I live alone.

I want to feel safe.

At least you got a kitty.

[cat meows]

Excuse me a moment.

I got to shut you in.

Kit? Kit, they've got

cotton candy, clouds of it,

and they're

just giving it away.

Why, that is the best news

I've heard all day.

How about you go and get

the biggest cloud

you can carry

and bring it back to me?

No, I'll wait.

I'll wait till you're finished.

We can go together.

I'm gonna be a while here.

Go get me some

cotton candy, baby.

Hurry up.

[theme music playing]

Oh, God.

Jake?

You okay?

Have you seen all this?

Are you on this thread?

Don't look at it.

Just leave it.

And do nothing?

No, I got to call her.

I got to tell her

that I'm sorry.

I was so careful

with that upload.

I did not put on

the marriage part,

just that one moment.

It was her moment.

You stole a recording

that was so private

and so personal,

and you shared it

with everyone.

I don't think you can

apologize for this.

I never meant to hurt

or damage them.

I just I just wanted

to make it count.

It doesn't matter, Mom,

your reasons, your validation.

No, I got to go see Kamala.

I can't leave it.

It's like you

won't hear me. Mom.

Take a break

from all of it,

but especially

from Karen Miller.

Mom, you got to stop now.

Please.

Are you cold?

There's such a chill

in here.

You know I love the cold.

Karen said she loved the cold,

but it was because she thought

I couldn't afford

to buy her that warm coat.

She always worried so much.

That's right.

She was cold,

but she never said.

Has she called?

I don't want to miss the chance

to talk to her next time.

[shushes]

Does she still have

her stone

for the lake?

When it gets to be too much

and she needs to throw

those sins away,

she'll need to put them

in her stone.

I hope so.

"Don't forget your stone."

How many times

do I tell her?

And that's Elsinor Lake?

Do you need a stone, Roger?

They're looking for her.

Then we'd better

find her first.

[applause]

I told you I wasn't

gonna make no speech

to tell you how much

I love you

'cause don't nobody need

that kind of sentimentality.

[laughter]

But y'all just wouldn't

let it lie.

-[phone vibrates]

-You know, I chose

to go this alone,

just me and my baby.

But it never felt like alone

'cause y'all never left me,

-not for one minute

-Sorry.

of this whole journey.

That's right.

These your people, too.

And they love you.

And I love you.

This is your family.

All right, anybody want to

volunteer to give birth for me?

[laughter]

'Cause I want to outsource

that part.

You have quite an aura

about you.

Excuse me?

I sense other lives.

You've been many others

before you.

And there may perhaps

be many more lives to come.

I lived in Seattle.

My name's Emma.

I don't know

I don't know what else

to tell you. Hi.

-Hi.

-Hi.

You are gonna be great

at being a mom.

Thank you.

Maybe it's not your aura.

Maybe it's the aura

of others that I sense.

What?

[phone vibrating]

Excuse me.

Oh, my God.

sh*t. sh*t.

This is my work.

I'm trying to build a life here.

Why'd you change the locks?

I want my key. My key.

I am not in prison anymore.

Hi. Get in the truck.

I'm not getting

in the truck.

Is this about the girl?

Do you need me to keep going,

keep looking for her?

Is that what you need?

Tell me, 'cause I'll do it.

-Is that it?

-You were fired

from St. Jerome House.

You've got sealed records.

So I don't think

it's a great idea

for you to go looking

for a girl from St. Jerome.

That was you? You ran

a background check on me?

Oh, my God.

Wait, how'd you do it?

Wait, I know how you did it.

Your new boyfriend.

I don't have a boyfriend.

Sleeping with a cop

isn't exactly laying low.

What do you want from me?

You want to be with me?

You want to be

my boyfriend?

-Yeah.

-You jealous?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I'm jealous, yeah.

Is that why you need a key,

so you can come check up on me?

When all the time, it's you.

You who's been lying to me.

I worked there

when I was 20.

Check my background.

Check whatever you want.

You're not gonna find anything.

Why are they sealed?

Emma, I'm a psychiatrist.

I work with

the federal government.

I have been vetted

through and through.

If there was anything shady

about my background,

I wouldn't be able

to do this job.

Now, if you don't trust me,

all right,

and you want to play

Nancy Drew

and you want

to go digging around, fine.

But get ready to start

from scratch

new identity, new town,

new everything.

-Yeah?

-Yeah.

Why not same identity,

new you?

Because it's my cabin.

What?

Don't you remember

you asking me

for a place

where you could find peace?

A place where

you could breathe?

But a place that's my own.

I'm just a guy

that's protecting you.

Now, if you don't want me in

your life anymore, say the word.

I'll arrange a transfer.

You keep that shirt.

It looks way better on you

than it ever did on me.

Hey, Jake, honey.

It's Mom.

Um, listen, you were, uh

you were you were right.

I kind of lost hold of myself

back there.

So, um, thank you for, um,

loving me, letting me know.

So, uh, I think

I'm gonna take off

for a few days to a spa.

You know, unplug.

Get some headspace.

Let this whole thing burn out.

I won't be in contact.

Okay?

So, uh, I love you.

I'll see you in a few days.

[three deadbolts click]

[keys rattle]

Just keep it covered.

You get any discomfort, call me.

Oh, you went for pink.

Nice choice.

-[laughs]

-Mmm.

Did you

get what you need?

Yes, it's an ultra-plush

wearable warming blanket.

They had it in her color,

which I'm picking up, is mauve.

It's so chilly

in her room.

Great.

So we go there now?

Well-- I'm not

so sure about "we."

I have a very detailed way

of working.

The devil is, of course,

in all those details.

John, I just need

an address.

You can get that for me,

can't you?

I can do exactly that,

but I need to do

my important work alone.

Okay.

Look, I don't want to be that

as*h*le boss who micromanages.

-I'm so pleased.

-But I'm going with you.

I just need to get in

and get out.

From Saint Cloud

Assisted Living?

From Minnesota.

Um

You've taken me a little bit

off-balance here.

I called to say that I was

making good progress.

I didn't expect you to just

show up like this.

I had a window.

I don't even have

a pseudonym for you.

A cover name.

Uh, try this

cousin Helen from Tampa.

No one questions anyone

from Florida, right?

The construct of Helen

is very close to Esther,

with the E's on either side

of the consonants.

Why not, say, Linda?

Fine. Linda.

Well, then a gift

would be a nice gesture.

A new nightgown?

Hers are threadbare

and food-stained.

Hate these institutions.

There's no care anymore.

Go pick something out.

Put it on your Amex.

[seagulls calling]

[Emma] I need to find out

what he did. My landlord.

How do I get those

records unsealed?

You need a court order.

-Okay, how do I get that?

-You don't.

Now, if it was me, I'd just

quit my lease and move.

No, I can't.

I can't break my lease, so

You can

if you don't feel safe.

That's what I can't figure out,

like, why you stayin'.

Then I start to wonder

how you, in Seattle,

come across a psychiatrist

in north Louisiana

and rent out his cabin

in Saint James.

I met a lot of people

through my work.

You can talk to me

Emma.

About anything.

You can trust me.

Something is going on

with you,

and I don't know what it is,

but I know that

it's keeping you alone.

I like to be alone.

-No one wants to be alone.

-Yeah, I do.

-I don't believe you.

-I'm better this way.

I don't believe you.

You should let me know

if you like me.

[Emma] And how

would I do that?

Hey, what's the

what's the rush?

Isn't this

what you wanted?

I just don't want to feel

like I'm in a fight is all.

Well, then don't fight!

Emma.

Hold Emma. Emma.

-Enjoy your books.

-Emma, hold on!

I was just saying, like,

let's just take it slow is

Brought an old friend

to pay a visit.

No, there's a wolf.

There's a wolf!

[Denise] Please, Miss Esther,

there's no wolf.

Come on now.

Out there in the snow.

"In the snow"?

Is there something

you forgot to tell me?

Esther does have signs

of dementia.

Signs?

Yes, but also moments

of great clarity,

which we're having

with more regularity.

I think I'm able to center her,

and I have every confidence

that I will get

that address.

Hey, Denise.

I've got this now.

Denise. Let me.

Hey, you.

How's my girl?

It's okay.

It's all right.

I'm here.

I don't know you.

Yes, you do, sweetie.

It's me.

I don't know you.

Do you remember me?

Cousin Hel-- Linda?

From Florida?

Get them out.

Get them away from me.

I don't want to see the girls

from school.

We won't get

her back today.

Love you.

Wolf.

Don't call me that.

[stone thuds]

One, two, three,

four, five, six.

Two, two, three,

four, five, six.

Three, two, three,

four, five six.

Four, two, three,

four, five, six.

Stand up straight.

Good. Very nice.

One, two, three,

four, five

It's a sliding step,

a sliding step.

You should feel like water,

like currents in the river.

Very nice.

You're doing beautifully.

You want to

get out of here?

Like you

wouldn't believe.

One, two, three, four

So these are the things

Jess left?

Did you ever know

that man?

His name's Pete.

He used to work here

a long time ago.

He has a beard now.

I

[aide] What's that light on?

Who's in that room?

What are you doing in here,

young man?

You should be

at the dance.

I just need to find

my shoes.

What's your mom on?

Who even dances like

that anymore?

She thinks it's 1929

and Wall Street

hasn't crashed yet.

[door opens]

I just want some time

alone with you.

I wake up at night

and I'm so hard.

I'm sorry,

I can't do this.

What?

Do you want to get high?

This was just

on the off chance.

There's a work conversation

I need to have with my boss.

Uh-huh.

I'm based in Florida.

You fellas sure know

how to throw a cold snap.

Of course, my work brings me

all over the country.

You got blood

on your chin, sir.

John.

Hi. I just thought,

we're both in Minnesota,

we should have

dinner together.

Unless you prefer

to dine alone?

I didn't give you

my hotel details.

I'd be pretty poor at my job

if you needed to.

What you'll have

to understand, Mary,

is dementia is not

a specific illness,

a disease

It's an umbrella term.

It describes a collection

of symptoms,

all related to the decline

in memory, thinking skills.

I know about dementia.

My mother had it.

Oh, my goodness,

I'm so sorry.

Don't be. Really.

She's passed.

Then we are both of us

unmothered.

Did you lose your mother?

I did, when I was nine.

Any other family?

Yeah, a sister. Jane.

Jane?

Jane and John?

That's

The names

of unidentified corpses.

-Thanks, Mom.

-Okay.

I need to,

uh, get my rest,

so I guess we'll, uh,

start again tomorrow.

I need you to let me

do my work.

This afternoon

was very unusual.

Um

You have a certain energy,

which is understandable,

but it brings a tension.

I have an energy?

I think you hide

a lot of rage.

Don't analyze me.

I have a theory of my own,

of dementia sufferers.

I think they become

very instinctive.

As their conscious

processes dwindle,

their subconscious

becomes heightened.

And I think Esther

that felt your rage.

Do you want to know

about my rage?

It's dark, and it's

growing inside of me.

It's like a big, black lump

of burning tar.

It started in my chest,

and now it's in my gut.

And I hope it never

comes out, John.

I hope

I can keep it inside.

Have you considered

meditation?

Good night.

I meditate.

It helps me cleanse

after this work.

You have no idea of the toll

on the emotions.

I have a connection with her,

with Esther,

by being

what she needs me to be.

And what's that?

Her husband. Roger.

A remarkable man.

He's an engineer

and a political activist,

love of her life.

Heart attack at 50.

They never had the time

together they deserved.

Why does she think

that you're her husband?

I've encouraged a chemistry.

And cousin Linda from Florida

is kind of in the way.

We don't need three people

in this marriage, Mary.

I don't want you

there tomorrow.

See that star?

What?

That star

that one up there.

Are you crazy?

There's like a billion

up there.

[howls, laughs]

[groans]

[both laughing]

I think I see it now.

[laughs]

[Rose] What were you doing there

tonight at St. Jerome?

Did something happen?

Why do you hate it here?

I don't fit in.

Aren't you the

carnival queen?

Every night my mom locks me

in my bedroom

to keep me safe

from the world.

And every day

she gets me ready

for a stage that everybody

in town can watch me on.

[sighs] What's she afraid of,

your mom?

[Rose] Dangerous men.

Something very bad

happened here.

What?

You need

to go home, Rose.

What are you talking about?

What's happened?

She's right.

Your mom.

It isn't safe here.

It isn't a good place.

I don't want to go home.

I hate it there.

I hate it in this town.

I want to stay with you.

Go home.

Go home, Rose!

[thunk]

[shushes]

It's okay, Esther.

I'm your friend.

Linda?

I haven't been

a very good friend.

So I wanted to come

to you tonight,

mother to mother,

to tell you that I'm so sorry.

I'm so sorry I brought him

into your life.

Who?

The man who's been

coming to see you.

The man who's been coming

is a very, very bad man.

None of us

is all bad, Linda.

Mary. I'm Mary.

They wanted her to rot.

But I know she's growing.

I know she's flourishing.

She is?

Well, that's good.

Where is she flourishing?

That's my

little girl's kitten.

-I recognized it.

-[kitten meows]

Not even the worst of us

is all bad.

There's no monsters,

just frightened children.

Get out of my house.

She'll never come.

She's too clever.

What?

You think

I don't know wolves?

You sent your wolf.

But I survived him.

And she'll survive you.

Because you'd hurt her

if you could.

What are you talking about?

I wouldn't hurt anyone.

I came here

to make sure you were okay.

You'll never find her.

They keep her safe

because of people like you.

Get out of my house.

She is a monster.

She's part of him,

the man who broke nine women's

skulls with a hammer.

Get out of my house!

[Mary] Smashed them so they

were unrecognizable

except through DNA.

She did exactly what

he told her to do,

and they took my daughter.

[glass shatters]

I'm going to ring my bell

and ask them to take you

out of my room.

No, no, no, no, no.

Get out. Get out!

Get out! Get out!

Get out!

You're gonna hear the truth

about this monster

that you're protecting.

I know she phones you.

I know you know

where she is.

So I will sit and wait

until you draw

your last breath,

if that's as long

as it takes.

Then you'd better

get comfortable,

because that's

what it'll take.

And that's the only time

my Karen's ever coming home,

is to kiss my coffin.

[coughing]

I can't even ask

for a glass of water,

seeing as you've

taken my bell.

Do you have it in you

to pour me a glass?

It's okay

that you love her.

Even I can

understand that.

It's not okay

that you hide her.

If she is innocent, then she

has nothing to be afraid of.

Why is she afraid?

Why is she hiding?

Esther, get back into bed now.

Come on.

You get away from me.

They'll call the police.

I know they will.

They have very strict rules

on who can come see us.

Back into bed.

I just want to know

-where she is.

-No.

If you tell me that,

-then I will go.

-No.

-Okay. [shushes]

-[whimpering]

Don't do that.

Don't do that, please.

-[grunting]

-Just stop. Stop.

Stop. Just stop it.

Don't make that noise.

Just-- pl--

You have to stop.

You have to stop

making that noise.

Please, stop it.

Stop it.

[panting]

[Pete] Do you recognize

any of these girls?

Karen, anything you can

give us will help you.

Anything at all.

I'm here to help you.

I'm here to be

a friend to you.

Her.

I think I remember her.

I think I saw her with Kit,

in his van.

We were in North Carolina

at a music festival.

It was

May, two years ago.

This is good.

I'm gonna look after you.

Gonna stay close,

watch over you.

I'm gonna be

in your new life.

[man] Hey, it's me.

I want to hear

your voice again. Call me.

It's me.

I don't know what happened

back there,

but can you call me?

[woman] Do you still have

a file on me?

What?

You were my patient once.

Yeah, of course

I have a file on you.

I want to see it.

Why?

Because I want to know how you

saw me before you loved me.

Well, maybe

just maybe

I've always loved you.

Hello, I'm calling for, uh,

for Esther Moses.

[man] I'm sorry.

Esther passed away last night.

[sobs]

No.

Is this Karen?

My dad won't even notice

it's gone.

Yeah, well, he's gonna notice

that you're gone.

Then you'd

better drive fast.

Did you bring any money?

We can't disappear

for free.

I got 400.

It's not enough.

I have my debit.

We can get more.

No, we can't.

We can't use cards once

we're on the move.

I know where my dad keeps

his stash in the office.

You don't have to

do this.

You don't have to

come with me.

Give me five minutes.

Five minutes, okay?

I'll be right back!

[engine starts]

[sighs]

[gasps]

[theme music playing]

[child]

Tell me a story.