01x04 - Episode 4

[bunniefuu]

Argh!

Woah, what's going on?

A severe placenta abruption.

Okay we need to get a line in.

Okay, come on.

Somebody tell me what's happening!

Let's go.

Hello. Alright.

Mummy?

Mummy?

Mummy?

Mummy, where are you going?

Were you trying to escape?

Again?

Oh, shut the f*ck up.

What's that?

Nothing.

I'm going into the office

before the hospital, okay?

I'm gonna take the car out today.

You're not supposed to drive,

you know.

You might hurt yourself

or somebody else.

Okay, I'll take a taxi.

Sorry.

- See you later.

- See you!

I like it.

You're going to hell anyway.

Taking out the odd pedestrian

won't make much of a difference

at this stage.

Oh.

Wasn't who I was expecting.

Can I come in?

Of course.

I'm here to see you.

Am I in trouble? I can't wait.

How's your head today?

Thomas,

what have we been up to?

Mum?

Oh, Sash.

Mum, hi.

Sash.

Why didn't you tell me

you were coming?

You alright?

I'm tired

and my head hurts.

I shouldn't have come.

Mum, here, sit down.

Bye, Jo.

- Sash.

- Yeah.

When you're having a baby,

you're going to have to depend

on that person.

So it's

You have to be really sure

of that.

I am sure, mum.

Yeah, where's this coming from?

Oh, Sash.

f*ck.

What?

Is there something on your mind?

What was I like last year to you?

You dipped a bit

when Finn went to uni,

but he is the sun, moon and stars.

No, he's not.

I know.

Dad was worried about you, I know,

but then you started working

for that charity

and doing all that amazing stuff.

To be honest, you grew last year mum,

you blossomed.

- I did?

- Mm.

Oh.

You're gonna be fine, mum.

You're gonna get through this.

Hi.

You really shouldn't be driving.

Are you offering to drive for me?

Mum, this is awkward

so I'm just gonna say it.

Can you not just drop by

unannounced again?

Has he told you to say that?

No, no.

Okay, look, for as long

as I can remember you have always,

my friends always loved you

and they'd come to the house

to see me

and they'd end up

spending most of the time

in the kitchen talking to you.

I just, I thought

with Thomas that for once

I love you mum, but can you just

f*cking stick to people your own age?

Please.

f*ck!

f*ck!

Do you need some help?

Great night, Mrs. Harding. Thanks.

I've been getting bits of memories.

I just can't piece them together

and sometimes they're

quite upsetting.

But you're getting

some memories back at least.

Well that's good, isn't it?

She's making progress.

Sometimes I think

I see and hear things and

I'm not sure if they're real.

Hallucinations?

They're getting more vivid

and

it's like I'm drowning and

it's very frightening.

Okay.

Well, those aren't a consequence

of your head injury,

but they can be an effect

of your time in ICU.

I'm going to refer you

to a neuro psychologist.

The good news is

there's no further bleeding

or collection.

I can't make any promises

about you making a complete recovery.

You both know that, right?

I think you should probably

also tell her about f*cking Thomas.

You okay?

Mm.

You know what?

I think I forgot my phone back there.

Why don't you just go off

to the office and I will get a taxi?

- Okay, you sure?

- Yeah, yeah.

Dr. Cadell?

You're back.

I want to see my medical records

from last year, all of them.

Jo, I have another patient

in about five minutes.

I know it's my right.

Can you just please look them up?

They're right there.

They're not actually,

they're with your GP.

What is it exactly that you want?

It's

It's the memories I've been having.

I don't recognise myself in them,

I need to know

what was my state of mind.

Is there something specific

that you've remembered?

I can't make sense of it.

Was I struggling before I fell?

Jo,

you are a woman of a certain age

mood swings, lack of motivation,

anxiety.

They can be symptoms of depression,

but also of the menopause.

And yes, for many women

it is a struggle,

but for some

it can be a time of re-invention.

Hi, Jo.

I'm Nick.

Oh, right.

Nick.

Mm.

Rose mentioned

what happened to you, um.

I'm really sorry.

Thank you.

Could we talk somewhere?

I don't remember anything

about this place.

Okay.

Sure.

So I

I worked here

for several months,

but then you fired me?

It's

It's very strange that you've come.

And, you know,

you leaving wasn't a big deal.

We just came to the end

of a big project and, you know.

Could you just please fill me in

on everything?

Look, Jo, when you first walked

through those doors,

you lacked a little

self-belief,

maybe.

Trying to choose my words

carefully here.

Don't.

Just say it.

You were unhappy.

You were searching for something and

I think you found it here.

Is everything okay at home?

With Rob?

Why are you asking me that?

Oh, Christ, this is difficult.

I think you felt that Rob's

temper

was responsible for a lot of things.

You said his business

had been struggling

and the atmosphere

between you both was strained.

I think you felt restricted

by your life.

I think it blossomed working here.

There's that word again.

Blossomed.

And I don't think he liked it.

I have to go.

Helen.

Helen, this is Jo,

Jo from the Headbangers Group.

I really need

to speak to you right away.

I knew Rob had money problems,

but they may be worse than I thought.

He told me

to follow the breadcrumbs, Helen,

and I don't like

where they've f*cking taken me.

Oh.

Oh, my god!

Oh!

I opened up the jewellery box

and found a charming copper fox.

I then could simply not resist

to slide it gently on my wrist.

I held my hand up in the air,

admiring his wildly stare.

I'm sorry

for when I've been a bad mummy.

What the f*ck?

Wendy?

I just wanted

to talk to you for a second.

I am really sorry,

I am in a hurry. Can this

It's just

I was at the nursing home

seeing your father.

We're actually friends.

He was very lonely

when your mum died and we

He was not lonely, he had us.

Have you been hitting on my father?

Look, even if he doesn't know

who I am

most of the time he's still

a human being, and I am too.

I don't think you've been comfortable

seeing your father

over the last few months.

I think it upset you

watching his demise,

and you saved yourself the pain

and there's no shame in that,

only in pretending there's not,

but you're sorry

Oh, Jesus, Rob.

- Helen.

- I came straight round.

Thank you.

You sounded so frightened

on the message.

It's so good to see you.

Come on in.

This way.

Do you wanna have a seat?

Listen,

there's so much going on here.

Last year,

Rob was losing a lot of money.

His firm was leaking cash,

so he's been very stressed.

And then the money,

it's all mine.

I inherited it

from my grandparents, you see, so

and then I

I did something unimaginable, okay?

I did the worst thing

anyone can do to their family,

with the worst possible person.

Okay, okay. It's okay.

No, it's not okay.

I don't know what to do.

Sh!

Just talk to me.

I'm not gonna judge you.

I think he did it.

I think Rob hurt me.

- Oh, my god.

- Jo, are you in there?

What do I do?

You need to just keep yourself safe.

- We can get out of here.

- Who are you talking to?

Through the garden.

if I could get this door open.

Jo open the door.

I need you to let me in.

No, I'm not letting you in!

- I can't let him in.

- Jo!

- Are you sure about this?

- Go away!

You thought

you did it to yourself and,

and now you're convinced it's Rob.

I need you to let me in.

He'll k*ll me.

He'll k*ll me.

- How do you know where I live?

- Jo.

No!

Stay away from me!

Helen!

She was right there.

No, she was right there.

She was right there!

She was right there!

Jo what's going on?

Don't do that. Hey, hey.

Sshh, don't do that.

Sshh.

It's okay.

It's okay.

it's okay.

I love you.

I'm right here, I'm here.

I'll always be here.

Jo, you okay?

Yeah.

Finn?

Hello, dad.

It's Jo.

I brought you a pie.

Ah.

It's plum, like mum used to make.

How are you, Finn?

I was just

explaining to Finn that I,

I want to go up in a firework.

Grandad says you can have your ashes

put in a firework.

That's how I wanna go out as well,

out with a bang.

Can we like,

not talk about that right now?

Oh, she's squeamish.

No-one leaves this place

unless they land laid in a box.

Susan.

Dad, I'm not mum.

It's me, Jo.

I'm worried about you.

Why are you worried

about her, grandad?

I don't think

she feels loved enough by us.

By you, Susan.

I don't think,

I don't think that's true.

But you need to be a better mother.

- I'll be back next week.

- Yeah!

Finn.

I'm so sorry for what I did

to you and Josh.

I didn't mean to hurt you.

But I was just trying to protect you.

I don't need protecting.

Bye, mum.

So,

my daughter Jo.

Dad.

I know who you are.

I'm not a goddamned idiot.

You were the naughty one.

I was your only one.

And I'm not that naughty.

That looks good.

She used to act out this one.

Sort her dolls in half

and writing on walls

and set fire to her cat.

I didn't.

I didn't set fire to a cat.

She pressed

a hot iron into her own arm.

I'm sorry, I don't speak Danish.

Why did I do that?

I'll just put this in the fridge.

There must have been a reason.

Dad,

do you remember

I had an accident last month?

I fell down the stairs.

Oh, my baby.

Who did this?

I don't know.

I don't know what to think.

It's like

I can't keep things straight in here.

Do you think

I could have done something so awful

to myself

again?

What the hell were you thinking?

That's horrible.

What do you think Dad will say?

Ring a ring a roses

A pocket full of posies

A tissue, a tissue

We all fall down

Josh.

I heard your mum here, Ella,

in the garden

so, I just let myself in.

Course you did.

A pocket full of posies

A tissue, a tissue

We all fall down

A tissue, a tissue

We all fall down

You're out?

In the world?

Yes, I am.

Hi, Ella.

Ella, it's Jo.

Can we talk?

Fire away, a tissue, a tissue

We all fall down

And we all get down

Do you remember when we lost Lucas

and I was in that really,

really dark place?

Bounce, mummy, bounce.

Just a minute, Ella, okay?

I'm just gonna talk to Jo.

Look at me, Ella.

Just five minutes, okay?

Yeah.

I have a history

of doing dark things, Cathy.

Ring a ring a roses

A pocket full of posies

A tissue, a tissue

I did something terrible last year.

We all fall down

Hey.

I don't understand.

I don't know

what could have possessed me to.

Mummy!

- Ella it's okay, it's

- I

I

Ring a ring a roses

A pocket full of posies

I think there was something wrong

with me last year.

I found all these tiny

little hidden messages,

saying help to myself

all over my house.

I used to do that when I was a kid,

every time I felt numb.

Listen, I told you before.

You did not fall down

that rabbit hole.

Mummy!

Ella, don't bite your hand.

Okay, sweetheart?

Jo, you arranged

that amazing charity event.

I don't think you were depressed.

The last time I saw you,

you were radiant.

What is it?

Is this about Rob?

Rob?

Christ. Ella it's okay, it's, oh

Oh, Jesus.

Twice.

Ella, it's okay, it's okay.

Ella, Ella.

Cathy!

What are you not telling me?

- Want some help mum?

- Yes, please.

Do you need some help?

I'm just going to get my bag.

Great night, Mrs. Harding.

Thanks. By the way,

you probably should know

your husband's screwing Anna.

He was f*cking someone else

and you didn't tell me?

I suspected, but

I didn't know.

You should have told me.

He denied it.

Jo!

- You should have told me.

- Jo!

Jo!

Where is he?

Oh, I think Mr. Harding's gone home.

He said,

he might finish early today.

He said the secret is

never fall out of love

at the same time.

Very good. Excuse me.

Pru, feeling better?

No.

One of you

has always got to be in love.

How are you, Mrs. Harding?

Uh, excellent.

I'm starting

to remember things now so,

fun times for everyone.

This is where she sits, isn't it?

Where is she? Where's she gone? Anna?

She left last week.

You don't remember

the last time we met, do you?

It's a shame.

Well, well, well. What have we here?

Where's Sash?

She ain't here. Sorry.

I need to tell her something.

Hi there.

Hello, Jo.

I need to talk to you.

You look like you're having

a really bad day, Jo.

I need the bathroom.

Where's the bathroom?

Wrong way.

Just a minute

I'll get Rob to come

and pick you up, take you home.

Who?

Rob?

Doesn't live here anymore,

as of today.

I'm shedding my skin.

And if you tell my kids

I'm gonna feed you to the sharks.

I was throwing him out.

Yeah.

I was really looking forward to what

the new year was gonna look like,

was gonna do.

Like having more sex with you.

What?

Are you serious?

You think I'm the sort of man

that would have sex with the mother

of his pregnant girlfriend?

And you're the sort of woman

to go along with that?

No, uh.

Have you been thinking about?

Oh!

Oh, my god.

Yes!

Yes!

Oh! Yes!

Okay, you fantasised about it.

Not great.

But your f*cking husband

went through with it.

What are you gonna do now, Jo?

She's pregnant.

And you knew that.

But did he know you knew?

Get out my f*cking house!