02x11 - Episode 11

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[Lost You Forever S2]

[Episode 11]

Once, I was starving.

One of my heads

almost ate another one.

Really?

No.

You–

Someone once told me

that humans are strange.

They have to figure out if they're happy or in pain

through comparison with others.

So I told you about my miserable past for your comparison

so that you realize that you're just fine.

But I didn't lie.

I did crawl out of an egg.

I don't know my parents.

I do have nine heads.

As for the rest...

As for the rest, I got carried away.

What did I say?

Do you need me to tell you more about my tragic past to make you think

that having a devil as a father is actually not so bad?

No need.

Be it you deities, or we demons,

no one can choose their origin.

So, why get hung up on something that happened before you were born?

Hong Jiang was Chenrong's general.

When you followed him, did you see Chi Chen?

No.

Chi Chen had died before I followed

my foster father.

It's said that Chi Chen was cunning

and heartless.

But why did he insist on taking the path

that was a dead end?

The w*r lasted for over 100 years

with huge casualties.

Perhaps,

rather than living in pain and mourning for his people,

it was better to die.

For a general,

the best end

is to die in battle.

What about you?

Why did you choose Hong Jiang?

Just because he was your foster father?

It's not just that.

There were also those who had

fought alongside me.

We fought together,

drank together,

and we collected our comrades' remains.

It's been centuries.

Their bodies have long since turned to dust.

But I have nine heads.

It's impossible to forget something.

Even now, I remember their voices...

and faces.

My mother once told me that there are things we must hold on to

even at the cost

of our lives.

Fourth Uncle abandoned Auntie and Cangxuan.

My mother abandoned me.

If they were not my relatives, I would find them awe-inspiring.

But as her daughter,

no matter how awe-inspiring my mother might be,

I don't want to forgive her.

What are you doing?

Tushan Jing.

[Slaying mighty foes]

Xiao Yao. Take a closer look.

[Annihilating the powerful, Protecting the Central Plains]

[Assuming great responsibility, Abandoning personal feelings]

[Living up to the expectations of the people and their loved ones]

I believe... that Xiang Liu's speculation is the truth.

Your father did not betray your mother.

Nor did your mother let your father down.

It's just that as the great general of Chenrong,

and the general of Xiyan,

they had no choice in that chaotic era.

[Abandoning personal feelings]

[Living up to the expectations of the people and their loved ones]

They died...

to live up to the expectations of the people and their loved ones.

But they gave birth to me.

Why didn't they raise me?

Before they died,

didn't they think of me?

Weren't they worried that I would be hunted down,

become homeless,

and be tormented in a cage by a nine-tailed fox?

Brother, I'm back.

Is it cold outside? I asked Miaopu to make you some chicken soup.

Have some to warm yourself up.

No need. It's not very cold.

Head back and have a rest.

Don't worry about me.

I'm fine.

Princess. Have some hot soup.

I deserve to die.

You don't deserve to die.

I do.

Don't call me Princess anymore.

Remove the chessboard. And bring some wine.

Yes, Your Majesty.

Princess, it's getting late.

Have a drink.

You know I'm not a princess.

But you're joining them to bully me?

Why aren't you a princess?

Tomorrow, I can confer you as the Princess of Xiyan.

Let alone a princess, you can be a lord if you want to.

Feel free to pick a spot under my reign.

It will be yours.

Brother, can you stop making trouble?

Do you really care whether you are a princess?

You know very well that I don't care about the identity, but–

You care that Auntie deceived you over and over again.

Auntie promised to come back, but she never did.

Auntie knew who your father was, but never told you the truth.

Even though they were your own parents,

you knew nothing about their past.

I have always wondered

who dared to seal the Rejuvenating Flower within me,

making me a faceless person.

It turned out to be my mother.

She wanted to hide my appearance.

She even tried to deceive me about my looks.

Both our mothers are heartless.

Do you still hate your mother?

Not anymore.

But I often dream of her committing suicide before my eyes.

I've become the ruler of a kingdom.

But whenever I wake up from a nightmare,

I still feel helpless and desperate.

Me too.

Every time I dream of my mother,

no matter how happy it starts,

in the end,

I always see her in her armor and walking away from me.

I always call out to her from behind.

No matter how loudly I shout,

she keeps walking away and never turns back.

People think that Princess General chose righteousness over life.

But the image of her walking away with her back at me

is a life-long pain for me.

People think

that my mother had a deep affection for my father

and followed him to the afterlife.

But what I couldn't get out of my mind was the moment...

she pushed me away...

and fiercely plunged the dagger... into her own chest.

If she could die for my father,

why couldn't she live for me?

Mother.

Mother, I don't want to go to Jade Mountain.

I want to go home and find Brother.

I don't want to go to Jade Mountain.

I want to go home...

I want to go home...

Brother.

Don't be afraid.

Your brother has grown up.

No one can take you away from me.

No one will dare to hurt you.

This stack of memorials is all about the Eldest Princess.

It calls for celebration.

Haoling has been prosperous through proper governance.

The ministers have nothing to do and can only comment on my family affairs.

There are rumors everywhere that the Eldest Princess disrupts the bloodline of Haoling royal family

and she's a disgrace to Haoling.

They hope you can punish her severely.

Father. The rumors are becoming outrageous.

- You must do something.
- Like what?

Summon the elders of the Lirong Family to perform rituals on the altar to prove Sister's identity,

so that those idling ministers stop spreading rumors.

Good idea.

Ru Shou, why are you silent?

Master, there's something fishy about this.

Cangxuan holds great power as the new king.

How come he can't suppress such trivial rumors?

That's right.

There is something fishy.

I don't care if it's fishy.

Father. Prove that Xiao Yao is your daughter to make them shut up.

I can't prove it.

Because Xiao Yao

is indeed not my daughter.

How is that possible?

Guiwen. Convey my decree.

Lady Jiuyao is not a descendant of the Haoling royal family.

Proclaim to all that I revoke her title and clan membership right now.

- Yes, Your Majesty.
- Father.

What are you doing? Even if my sister...

Even if Xiao Yao is not your biological daughter, she has been your daughter for years.

Don't you feel sorry for her?

Why are you hitting her when she's down instead of helping her?

A'Nian.

Father. Xiao Yao is...

Master.

I take my leave.

A'Heng.

I didn't fail your and Qingyang's trust.

I brought up

Cangxuan very well.

Your Majesty. Your Majesty.

What's the fuss?

All of you, leave.

The King of Haoling announced that Haoling Jiuyao...

No. We just should address her as Jiuyao now.

She is not of royal blood and has been removed from the royal clan.

Heaven blesses Chishui and Chenrong.

If Chief had married this false princess, it would be a real disgrace.

Now that her reputation is tarnished by her unclear lineage, she can marry Chief Tushan as a concubine.

Even if Miss Jiuyao is not the daughter of the King of Haoling,

she's greatly valued by the Grand Majesty Sire and His Majesty.

If you talk nonsense like this, you'll get Her Majesty in trouble.

I apologize.

We're the only ones here. What can go wrong?

- You may leave.
- Yes.

Even if Xiao Yao is no longer the Princess of Haoling,

she's valued by those two rulers on Chenrong Mountain.

I know you're holding a grudge against her because of me.

But I have let go of what happened on my wedding day.

Why must you hold onto it?

Do you know who's been fanning the flames to reveal the truth about Xiao Yao?

Isn't it you?

The Tushan Family has joined forces with the Xiling and Guifang families to apply pressure on us.

One runs a petty business.

One has declined.

One sneaks around.

How dare they stand against our families?

What a pity that you only look clever.

So it wasn't you?

But only His Majesty, you, and I know about the assassination attempt on Xiao Yao by Mu Fei and others back then.

Even Father was kept in the dark.

Yeah. Apart from you and me, His Majesty knows as well.

His...

His Majesty spread the rumor?

His Majesty did this.

So when Jing suspected you, I couldn't even defend you and had to acquiesce.

Don't be absurd.

I can't wait for Tushan Jing to marry Xiao Yao.

Yet he suspected me of ruining his future marriage.

Xinyue.

His Majesty went to great lengths and did what seemed absurd to care about Xiao Yao.

It shows how much she matters to him.

Do not act on a whim anymore and displease him.

I am tired.

Linglan.

Escort Chief Chishui out.

Xinyue.

I take my leave.

Miaopu.

These letters are from Father...

I mean, the King of Haoling.

Take them away and burn them.

Miss.

But...

Give them to me.

He doesn't want me anymore.

Why should I hold on to these letters shamelessly?

What are you doing?

Don't move.

You seem to hold nothing.

But don't deny the process because of the outcome.

You did have a handful of water just now.

Yeah.

I can't deny that Father once doted on me despite what's going on.

He gave me everything a father could offer.

These are what you once had for real.

The Central Plains will accept Xiao Yao as long as the Xiling family acknowledges of her.

Why bother?

Xiyan is the most distinguished surname.

As long as she takes the surname Xiyan, who dares to lay a hand on her?

Let me take a look.

Who in the world doesn't know that Xiao Yao is Princess General's daughter?

All those old clans have followed you and Grandmother in battles.

Even if they hate Chi Chen, they wouldn't act against the daughter of the deceased Princess General.

But it's different with the clans in the Central Plains.

How so?

Do they dare to act against my granddaughter?

Grandfather. Let me take charge for once, okay?

No.

Xiao Yao. Come here.

You've arrived just in time.

I can't convince you, Grandfather.

Let her choose.

Xiao Yao. Isn't Jing here?

Won't you discuss it with him?

Grandfather. What does it have to do with him?

You tell me.

What kind of grandfather are you? Won't you help your own grandson?

- Are you my grandfather or not?
- All right.

When did I ever say that I want a surname?

Can't I have a name without a surname?

- No.
- No.

See? Grandfather does side with you.

Xiling, Xiyan. You choose one.

I choose Xiling.

Jiuyao, daughter of Xiling Heng, Princess General of Xiyan, is kind and graceful.

She dwells in benevolence and upholds virtue.

I hereby announce to all

that I bestow upon Jiuyao the surname Xiling and allow her to reside on Chenrong Mountain.

Are you worried about Shanhu?

I want to send her back to Haoling.

But the people of Haoling see me as a disgrace.

She may be implicated and life may be difficult for her there.

She can choose to stay if she is alone.

But she has a brother and a sister.

Her brother is in the army.

Her sister is married.

Leaving her in Xiyan is not good for her and her family.

You have looked into everything.

I bet you've come up with something.

My family has many businesses in Haoling.

Jewelry and spice are favored by female customers and we need a female manager.

Shanhu has seen tons of treasure in the palace throughout the years.

She can manage the jewelry business.

And she's supported by the Tushan family.

People wouldn't dare to bother her.

Okay.

Let's do as you say.

Thank you so much for being so considerate.

It's a huge relief for me.

Thank you, Chief Tushan.

Many things happened.

- There's something you might not have noticed.
- What is it?

Fangfeng Yiying has left Qingqiu to live in seclusion.

The elders announced that Fangfeng Yiying died of a lasting illness.

One year later, I can get married again.

Do you know why I chose the surname Xiling?

Why?

Xiyan is too prestigious.

Xiling and Tushan are well-matched.

These lychees are brought from Haoling, right?

That's right.

I had my caravan bring back quite a few.

There are some left from ones sent to the palace.

I'll send them to you if you like.

You're too kind.

It's nothing.

Xiyan has good relations with Haoling.

It's easy transportation.

I appreciate it.

- Your Majesty.
- Your Majesty.

Please sit. Today, I've summoned you here to discuss something.

What would Your Majesty like to discuss?

I plan to send troops to Haoling.

Your Majesty.

Haoling features water.

Our troops are not adept at naval warfare.

- I'm afraid they'll be...
- Fenglong.

How is the naval training going?

Your Majesty. Our 400,000 naval troops have been trained and are ready to serve.

Four hundred thousand naval troops? When did that happen?

Your Majesty. Haoling is powerful and prosperous with a strong military.

I'm afraid it won't be easy to conquer it.

The consumption of provisions will be enormous.

We should take our time for proper preparation.

I have given orders to complete the provision preparation.

The current stock in the warehouses is enough to sustain 400,000 troops.

Feel free to speak.

The King of Haoling brought you up as your mentor.

Will you be criticized if you start a w*r against Haoling?

The King of Haoling and I have a personal bond.

But the w*r between Xiyan and Haoling is a state affair.

As long as we intend to unite Dahuang under my reign,

the w*r between Xiyan and Haoling is inevitable.

As the King of Xiyan,

I won't shirk my responsibilities due to personal matters.

I volunteer to be a general to share your burden.

- I wish to share your burden.
- I wish to share your burden.

- We are at Your Majesty's disposal.
- We are at Your Majesty's disposal.

All right then.

Let's discuss the deployment of troops.

[Caoao Range, Chenrong Mountain]

I plan to propose to Xiao Yao here.

How should I decorate this place?

Your prescription is all right.

But the main ingredient grows in the deep mountains and not here.

Your medicine will be costly.

Treating patients has to be effective.

Your medicine works slowly and it hinders the appetite.

Your medicine indeed works fast with few side effects.

But poor people can't afford it.

My medicine can save more lives.

They can make money afterward or borrow some.

But the patients must be cured as fast as possible.

What about their family's livelihood?

My prescription is more practical.

Mine is better.

- Mine is better.
- Mine is better.

- Mine is more practical.
- Mine is better.

Why are you so happy?

Everything has been going smoothly.

Something happy is about to happen.

I wake up laughing from my dreams.

What happy thing?

Of course. It's Miss Xiao Yao and Chief Tushan's wedding.

All those troublesome matters in the Tushan Family have been resolved.

Miss Xiao Yao has nothing to worry about.

The two of them are busy being sweet.

They will surely discuss the wedding soon.

You should prepare her dowry now to not be late.

Don't talk nonsense.

What did I say?

- My prescription is better.
- My prescription is better.

- Mine is better.
- Mine is practical.

Mine is better.

Grandfather. Be the judge.

Whose prescription is better?

You've been arguing until now.

Haven't you realized that both of your prescriptions have their shortcomings?

The best prescription is not determined by your medical skills,

but by the patient's family.

Wealthy families will use Yin's prescription.

Poor families will use yours.

It's certainly important to be cured.

But the livelihood of a family also matters.

You can't cure the patient and let their family starve.

Right?

You are right.

My patients are nobles.

I never realized that some patients couldn't afford the medicine.

I have been too focused on using local herbs.

A good prescription depends not only on the patient's financial situation,

but also where the patient is from.

When I was running a clinic in Haoling, most of my patients were fishermen.

I gave prescriptions based on the Herbal Encyclopedia.

They worked well. But this prescription came from the Central Plains.

They didn't know it and couldn't afford it.

So I started using local herbs.

As expected, it was much more popular than the ones from the Herbal Encyclopedia.

The natural environment varies throughout Dahuang.

The Herbal Encyclopedia is far from enough.

That's true.

How can the Herbal Encyclopedia cure all diseases in the world?

What if there were dozens of Herbal Encyclopedia?

That's a good idea.

No way. It's impossible.

The Founder of Medicine exhausted his effort for only one Herbal Encyclopedia.

Just tell me. Is this a good thing? Is it worth doing?

Of course it is.

Since you've affirmed its value, why don't you do it?

Just because it's difficult and you dare not do it?

Do your best.

Even if it's only 100 more prescriptions, someone will benefit from them.

Xiao Yao. Do whatever you want.

I have your back.

It may be somewhat difficult.

But it can be done with the effort of an entire nation.

Thank you, Brother.

Work on them tomorrow if you're tired.

These medical records won't run away. There's plenty of time.

You don't have to rush.

I want to get these all sorted out before leaving Chenrong Mountain.

Leaving Chenrong Mountain?

But being with Jing might delay the process of editing the book.

Xiao Yao.

Compiling medical books requires a great deal of manpower and resources

as well as time and energy.

If you become Lady of Tushan, you certainly won't be so free

to communicate with physicians, and collect herbs from various places.

Jing will surely support me.

Even if Tushan Jing supports you, what about those elders of the Tushan Family?

They will keep a close eye on you to see if you live up to the title of Lady of Tushan.

They may not support you.

By then, Tushan Jing will be caught in a dilemma because of you and the elders.

You are right.

Jing always puts me first.

I can't make him defend me and grow distant with those elders.

Close your eyes.

Open them when I tell you to.

Why did you bring me here?

Close your eyes.

Okay.

Watch your step.

- Are we ready?
- Open your eyes now.

Rejuvenation Hall.

Xiao Yao. I have something to tell you.

- I...
- Jing.

Thank you.

If you agree, I should thank you.

You must have brought me here to encourage me about compiling that medical book, right?

Jing. Thank you.

Compiling a medical book is going to take a lot of time and I'll have to travel.

Our wedding will have to wait.

I didn't know how to tell you.

But you already knew.

And you're so supportive.

♫ You are the warmth that opens a window in the darkness ♫

♫ Healing all confusions ♫

♫ You are the prosperity that scatters the scent of life ♫

What's wrong?

Xiao Yao.

Compiling a medical book and practicing medical skills can benefit the people.

If you want to do it, I will support you.

The Tushan Family's caravan travels around all year and is familiar with many places.

The physicians can set out with the caravan to collect prescriptions and herbs.

It's both safe and efficient.

Jing. Why are you so nice?

The person I love is nice.

That's why I'm eager to do better.

♫ You'll never be lonely ♫

♫ And I'm no longer burdened with sorrow ♫

♫ Thriving and flourishing with you ♫




"Nothing Can Be Compared to You" by Jason Zhang

♫ Looking back on the days of my life ♫

♫ Where I'm calm and composed, free from sorrow and pain ♫

♫ Lost in the wilderness without meeting your gaze ♫

♫ I've got nothing but emptiness left ♫

♫ Enduring my life's hardship ♫

♫ I cherished everything, yet remained indifferent to wealth and fame ♫

♫ Amidst the sunlight, I couldn't feel your radiance light ♫

♫ The air is filled with nothing but heatwaves ♫

♫ All things are dim, only your eyes shine bright ♫

♫ I'll follow my heart and traveling to see the sun from afar ♫

♫ When everything is filled with sorrow, your brows lift in joy ♫

♫ I'll await for you to enjoy this moonlight night ♫

♫ You came with the wind and rain and left with the four seasons ♫

♫ Without you, even the grandest scenery becomes dull ♫

♫ It began with a turbulent storm and leaving nothing but dust behind ♫

♫ Without you, the world's beauty loses its symphony ♫