01x08 - Hawaii

[bunniefuu]

This is how it started.

Dating here is trash.

If you don't make a good first
impression, you're kind of screwed.

I cry about once or twice a month.

I'm looking for my husband, hello.

Then this happened.

I'm happy I met you.

- Opposites attract.
- Thanks.

I wish you find joy and happiness

when you find your mate.

I do like her a lot.

What is sexier than talking about
boobs in Russian?

- I'm so turned on right now.
- Right?

In Austin...

This is the perfect place
for you to sing to me.

Don't be afraid. Give it a shot.

Oh, f*ck. Look what just happened.

What a babe.

Your laugh is so cute.

I'm not admitting
to anything like that right now.

I had the best time with you.

He's really cute.
He certainly turned my head.

He just texted me,
"Actually, I kind of feel

more of a friend vibe
than a romantic vibe"

which sucks.

Ryan kind of blew it,
like, real hard.

Hello, Seattle.

I love your freckles.

- Thanks.
- You're welcome.

I hope I get to see you in Hawaii.
No pressure.

I could just change my mind
every five minutes.

Seven cities and 155 dates later...

Take one of these papers

and write
who you're bringing to Hawaii.

Is this final?

And now they're here. Finally.

What the hell is going to happen?

The boys.

Boys.

Men suck, so...

What do I miss about New York City?

I miss my daughter,
my friends and my clients.

I miss my bodega, man.

I miss walking everywhere.

I miss being pissed off
at people who are walking slow.

There's nothing in me that
misses living in New York right now.

Like, I haven't smelled human pee

the full time we've been gone.

Oh, my god.

Do you want to hear
some facts about Honolulu?

Yeah, girl. Lay it on me.

"Hawaii is the second most popular
destination for honeymoons

outside of the lower 48 states."

This one's good.
Divorce rates for men and women

are both in the single
digit percentages.

This is a place of everlasting love!

Well, that's really damn cute.

In ancient Hawaii

sexual education was actually
about the act of intercourse.

Young Hawaiians were taught skills

to make them
the best lovers possible.

And grandparents were often
the teachers of their children.

I liked everything about that
except the last sentence.

I was like... I don't understand.

Don't make it weird.

It's so weird that we're not sleeping
under the same roof this week.

- I'm going to miss you guys.
- Truly.

Are you guys excited
to see your guests?

- Yeah.
- I can't wait.

- What about you, Kesun?
- Yeah. How do you feel?

It took you a while to figure out
who you wanted to bring.

I would say that I was probably
a little bit nervous

to, like, fully invite him.

I'm looking forward to just getting
to know him a little bit better.

Like, you know?

What about you?

Yeah, I'm excited about who I chose.

Also, I'm proud of myself.

We're proud of you,
for who you chose.

- Same. I fully agree with that.
- For sure.

That was definitely, like, not easy,
and you just did something different.

- Thanks, guys.
- Totally.

I worked really hard to just

figure out how to have fun here
and ready to have fun.

Totally.

That's all I want for you.

In fact, I feel the least anxiety
I've felt this whole trip.

Don't touch me.

The guy I chose to bring to Hawaii

was the guy I had the most fun
I've had with this whole time.

And I feel like that's my lesson.

That's very cool.

I've been thinking
about this so much.

It's very safe to choose a person

that I don't really
have a future with.

I decided that

I was going to surprise myself
and not do that.

I was like, all right, what have
I learned from this experience?

Am I gonna, like, stay in this loop

of doing the same thing
over and over again

or do I choose someone

who I don't know
if I have a future with

but I could, you know?

Is this flower stupid, though?

Okay.

- So happy you're here.
- Me too.

You know what? I don't think
that I was actually conflicted

on who to invite.

I was conflicted on

what it would feel like
to be here with... with Ryan.

And I was just totally,
completely wrong.

Seattle was a rough week for us.

Our communication
was, like, just really off.

Even just having
a little miscommunication

with someone and having it...

feeling so peeved by it

he didn't do anything
that was completely outlandish.

It was such a small thing.

But even just caring about that

it was the first moment
where I was like

"Oh, sh*t, like, this could
actually be something real,"

because I have actual feelings here.

And I think
that's actually the reason

why I was so nervous
about him coming to Hawaii

and what that would imply

because you just don't know
how it's going to go

and that's always a little bit scary.

I'm excited to, like, you know,
spend a little bit more time and see

if there is something that
we're going to continue after this.

We're doing UTV driving.

It's gonna be really fun.
I'm gonna drive him.

He's, like, so much better than me,
but I'm going to drive that UTV.

It's gonna be fun.

LJ inspired our activity today

because he is a boat captain.

So we're going on a boat.

He's totally game for everything.

He's adaptable. He's fun.

He can really, really read
how I'm feeling

and that really means a lot to me.

I'm just really excited to spend
the rest of this time with LJ

and I've just been, like,
super emotional about this ending

and all the things that I've learned
about myself and other people.

And I've, like,
given little parts of myself

to all these different suitors

and it's almost like
the stakes are higher.

Like, I'm at a new stage
of letting someone in.

I can't wait to go on a boat.

Feel like Goldie Hawn in Overboard.

Go... There you go!

Holy cow, look at this!

We are straight up
in the Hawaiian jungle right now.

- This is so cool.
- This is awesome.

Take a right.

Right?

All right, don't hit anyone.

Good plan...

Oh, my god.

Everything looks so small.

I think I can see that...
That's where we started.

- This is so cool.
- Thanks for the invite.

- Thanks for having me.
- Yeah. You're so welcome.

Thanks for coming. This is so cool.

All right, which one is ours?

Hello there.

- Hey, how are you?
- Hi!

- Permission to come aboard?
- Come aboard.

Thank you.

- Can I get you a c*ck, ma'am?
- I would love one, Jack.

- I'll be right back.
- I have to make Titanic

references now since we're on a boat.

Wow, this is beautiful.
Everything is better.

- Once you're out here, right?
- Yeah.

Look at that.
That city is actually...

The seas are angry.

They really are. Look at my hair.

These are just things
you don't learn.

Like, how to iron.

Or I didn't.

Today, we are going horseback riding.

I'm excited because Jess
has never been to Hawaii

and she's never seen that

and I think it's just
gonna be super magical.

I might have got enough wrinkles out.

When I saw Jess,
I think I was just excited.

I just felt like, "Finally."

I was nervous
she wasn't going to come.

Not mad at it.

She trusted me enough
to come to Hawaii.

It's a lot of trust.
I think that's...

That was by far
the most romantic thing

that someone's ever done for me.

I need a hat.

I think I'm just gonna use this time
to really show her, like

how strong my feelings are for her.

My plan was to ask her
to be, like, my girlfriend.

But...

I think I kind of
wanna go against my gut

because I think I always rush things.

I'll still do something cute,
for sure.

I don't know what it will be yet.

Cool.

Cool...

So I'm finally getting to see Justin.

It's gonna be his birthday this week.

We got a haupia cake

which is like a coconut,
chocolate, cream pie thing.

It's really popular for birthdays.

And we're going to go to a beach.

I wanna give Justin the...
the Hawaiian experience.

I feel a little bit
of pressure, anxiety around

just wanting to show him a good time.

He's a great guy,
and that's why I invited him.

If I paid you, like,
two million dollars

would you go skiing,
like, around here?

- Sure, if there was snow.
- Or... no, mountain biking.

No, mountain biking.
Not with that. Mountain biking.

Like, from the little hill
with the green?

- Absolutely not.
- You wouldn't?

- Two thousand dollars?
- No, two million.

Probably, yeah.

- Two million?
- Two million.

- Yeah.
- Are you scared of heights?

Yeah, but it's two million dollars.
Change my life.

- Tax. With taxes, though.
- That's a million.

Okay. There you go.

- This is nice.
- Yeah, this is cool.

I don't know how big this place is.

I don't know. The biggest one.

I feel like a giant game
of, like, hide and seek or tag

- would be really fun.
- Ideal.

"Aloha." That's so cute.

This is incredible.

I rented the whole place
for us, obviously.

Where should we set up this...

Do you want to set up,
like, right underneath these

- palm trees?
- Okay.

Okay, what dinosaur would you be
if you could be any dinosaur?

I think I'd be a brontosaurus.

Velociraptor. What is a brontosaurus?

It's a big one that,
like, just eats leaves.

- I see that for you.
- Yeah. Very calm.

Velociraptor, definitely.

Because they're so f*cking smart

and they're fast and quick

and they're just, like, relentless.

All great things.

And they're like,
"They're fearless, they're mean!"

You know, like. Obviously, they
have issues. I'm sure they have, like

emotional issues or something.

- Sure they need to go to therapy.
- Same!

Therapy heals.

- This is nice.
- It's actually incredible.

Cheers.

Oh, my god.
I need to take a picture of this.

This is the coolest sh*t ever.

You're in Hawaii?

I am in Hawaii.

- That's wild.
- It is absurd that we are here.

I've been going on five million dates

- and you've been a gem about it all.
- I have. I really have.

Oh, that is mind-blowing,
not gonna lie.

- So what you're saying is...
- You're perfect.

- Exactly.
- Yeah.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

- You're also perfect.
- Thank you.

You're welcome.

- Yes.
- What?

I'm trying to figure out where I can
hold your hand. Bam. Done.

- Did we do it? Did we figure it out?
- Yeah. Yeah.

- So, we've got a lot going on here.
- Yeah. So much in this car.

- Look at the mountain.
- Yes.

- I mean, gosh damn it.
- That's beautiful.

- It is.
- That's stupid.

So pretty.

- Hi, guys.
- Hi.

Aloha, welcome.
Are you guys ready to go?

- Let's do it.
- Okay.

- You ready?
- Yep.

She's...

You're a liar!

- Cool.
- You got this.

Okay. Put your hand up here.
And are you okay if I touch you

- to help you get up?
- Please. Touch me all you want.

h*, sir. Wait, buddy.

We're doing it.

Can you believe that people...
This is how they used to get around?

I wouldn't have survived.
I wouldn't have made it.

It would have taken you ten years
to get somewhere.

I barely get on the subway.

You are the most bougie person
I've ever met.

Exactly.

- Thank you for setting this up.
- Great. Yeah, you're welcome.

Yeah. I can't say
that I've ever flown across the ocean

to meet up with someone
to get to know them better.

But I'm glad I did.

- Stick with me, kid.
- Yeah.

- Well, I'm glad you're here.
- I am, too. This is great.

I told you to just, like,
come here with, like...

no notice, and we only hung out once.

Made it work. No.

- We hung out three times.
- Three times.

That's all I needed to come out here.

I sussed you out in Colorado

and I gave you
very little information about myself.

Then I brought you all this way.

But that was
the most intriguing part.

That's why I wanted to keep
continuing on this journey

because I knew there was
so much more to you.

You gave me a little nuggets
that were so intriguing

that I'm like,
"I need to keep going."

Like, I want to know more
about this girl.

I'm pretty sure
this girl's got more nuggets.

You wanna navigate?
You wanna steer? You wanna...

- I do.
- Absolutely.

Cool.

- You got this?
- Yeah.

Wow. Look at me go.

- Now, see, that's a professional.
- That's a natural.

She can steer and drink
at the same time.

Listen, I'm busy.

Yeah, leave me alone, I'm busy.

Very busy.

- I love the captain. He's cool.
- Yeah.

I love the captain. She's cool.

Oh, yeah. It's me.

Oh, my god. You love me?

I just realized I said that.

Cut!

- Wow, LJ.
- Nope, nope.

- Up for an adventure?
- Totally.

Yes.

- All right.
- Cheers.

Cheers.

How are you feeling?

I feel really good. I'm happy.
That was so much fun.

That was so much fun.

I mean, how cool, right?
This is, what, our fourth time

seeing each other now?

- And...
- Fourth city.

- We get to do this in Hawaii. Yeah.
- Right? Yeah.

I'm so glad
I'm not mad at you anymore.

Yeah.

I didn't think I was going to meet
someone that I actually liked.

I was hopeful.

The two biggest things
that I picked up on

about you is that

you've got a confidence
to just tackle anything

and kind of be
graceful within all of it.

- That's so nice. Thank you.
- And then the other piece is

just a absolutely
genuine human being.

Like, a good person.

And I've really enjoyed being
around you and getting to spend

this time that we have and...

I think pleasantly surprised
would be an understatement.

I would agree with that.

- You're beautiful.
- Stop!

You're beautiful.

I'm looking forward to doing,
like, normal stuff.

- Let's go to the movies, Let's...
- Yeah.

- Like, go get coffee.
- I like it.

- You know? The cute stuff.
- Yeah.

What are you looking forward to?

All of those things.

Oh, my gosh. Are we gonna
be right next to each other?

Look at us.

- Look at us, being cute.
- What?

- He said, "You guys are slow."
- Yeah.

"I'm gonna go home."

- "Sorry."
- He's like, "I'm out, everyone."

I'm hungry, you know what I'm saying?

What we're not going to do
is up this hill.

We're not doing... I'm not doing it.

Me and my horse
are going to barbecue.

We are not doing that.

Holy sh*t. My horse is on a mission.

I mean, we are practically running.

sh*t.

Oh, hey...

I don't wanna run.

He almost kicked me up.

I don't wanna run...

Someone get me off this sexy beast.

Thank you.

- We did it.
- Give me a hug.

My... my sea legs.

- How was that? Did you have fun?
- I had so much fun.

That's cool.

This is really good.

You wanna try it?

- Very good. Thank you.
- Of course.

- Going into my thirties with peace.
- Yeah.

I mean, this is the place to come
into your thirties, I feel like.

I remember you telling me that
in Seattle. And then...

it completely slipped
my mind, and then...

I just keep bringing it up.

And then you told me yesterday,
and I was like, "Oh, sh*t."

That was really good.

- The ratio.
- I'm glad I eyeballed it.

You don't wanna
drink it all immediately

because then
you're gonna get shitfaced.

That being said, there's literally
nothing else to do. So...

If you want another,
we can always pour another.

Thank you.

I know you had a rough journey.

It just...
It is long but it was fine.

I knew... I knew that coming in.

I travel... I used to travel
too much. So, anyway.

- Sure.
- It's sad. So sad.

- You used to do consulting, right?
- Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Yeah. And then I wised up.

And I was like, "Do I want a family?"

Do you want kids?

Not really.

- Do you?
- Yeah.

Yeah? Wow. Okay.

I dragged a man on his 30th birthday

all the way across the country

to find out, actually,
we probably aren't compatible

on, like, our long-term goals.

Probably not, like, a future
romantic match for myself

but I get to spend
an amazing vacation

with a really cool guy in Hawaii.

And that is something
that only could have happened

if I... if I learned to be more open

with who I date
and how I date people.

It's like... No, it's like...

No, like, this is my philosophy.
It's like...

Gays, on average, make a lot
more money. And that's great.

Who do I leave it to?

One of my friends,
what they're doing is

for all their nieces and nephews

they're setting up trusts
for their education.

- Like that.
- I did that already.

- Oh, you've done that done already.
- Done that. Yeah.

Well, if you have that much money,
would you like to marry?

Will you marry me?

So, you wanna know why I picked you?

Yeah, kind of. Yeah.

- Is that a weird question to ask?
- No.

But I'm here.

And I love it.

- You're surprised?
- A hundred percent surprised.

"Hey, do you wanna go
to Hawaii with me?"

- "In a couple of days?"
- Yeah.

I selected you to come
to Hawaii with me

because your speech was so good.

It was amazing.

- Second date, words of affirmation.
- Every word landed.

I knew that I would
potentially never see you again.

So I wanted to make sure you knew
exactly how I felt at that moment

which I never do, ever.

I even told my sister that.
She's like, "That's so not you."

- I'm like, "I know."
- Really?

But I'm so glad I did. I'm so glad.

I stepped out of my comfort zone
and did it.

And I'm glad that we stayed in touch.

I didn't want to let that go.

I'm so glad we did this.

- Me, too. It's perfect.
- Yes. Totally.

I mean, I could use more ice, but...

- To a little ice?
- Cheers.

A little ice.

- Happy birthday. Happy 35th...
- You remember!

You smell clean.

- Did you shower?
- I showered today, yeah.

Today was my...
Today's my weekly shower, so...

I'm gonna refill.
Do you want another one?

Yeah.

Today was... that was like...

I think that was the most fun
I've had this entire time.

The fact that you drove that thing,
the way that you drove it

like, it just made it
ten times more fun, like...

You're... You're a damn good time
to be around. You know that?

I think...

it's cool that
we're in a place where, like

we're, like,
more comfortable with each other.

I agree. This has been...
It's been incredible.

I really genuinely do feel like
we have a friendship, too.

And I love that.
That makes me so happy. Like...

I think regardless
of what happens with this, right?

I think it's a good foundational
place to build from, for sure.

You know?

And I would... I would love
to continue to see where this goes.

I agree with that.

It's gonna be so fun, like,
to see where this takes us.

I appreciate you.

I appreciate you.

No.

Where we gonna go after this?

I think we should do Mexico.

Mexico would be cool.

Yeah.

I think most
of the transformation comes

from the example
of the girls around me.

I really look back at that time
in New Orleans

when I spoke to some of the girls

about how I felt blocked
and held back.

And I feel like since then

it's been exponentially feeling
more and more comfortable.

I... I learned
how to kind of hold myself

in the image that they see me
for everyone else.

And I'm certainly happier having met,
like, these three incredible women.

Just, like, seeing everyone.
I'm just, like, so proud of them.

Everyone has had
such a beautiful blossoming.

Kris, he's so open now.

Taking a leap of faith

to be vulnerable and,
like, this is who I am

and hoping that people

will love you the same is hard.

I do. Yeah.

We are going to have to do
some really great multitasking.

- No, I'm gonna... with this.
- Yeah.

So I feel like you're gonna be
really good at that, and I'm not.

- I agree with that statement.
- So, you should hold it.

Yeah. I mean,
I think I'm... I'm scared to...

like, fully give someone my heart.

And I think that is
a fear that I have

that... that won't be enough
for whoever the person that I pick.

If I'm honest.

I'm trying to be better at that.

This... Not sure.

Every time I go to drink this

I can't see... I can't see a thing.

It's fine. Nothing to see here.

Okay, where are the surfers?

Surfing seems very dangerous.

I... I feel like you're not wrong.

Wow, this guy's legit.

- Are you happy?
- Yes.

That's all I wanted to hear.

Being with you makes me very happy.

How cute.

I just wanna make sure
you're not bored of me yet.

No, never.

It's really pretty right here.

Yeah, you are.

Oh. My hair is huge in Hawaii.

- It looks great.
- Thanks.

Hello!

- Hi, Ryan.
- Hey, how are you?

- Good.
- It's nice to meet you.

I know. You too. Finally.

- Right.
- Look how pretty my sister is.

You guys look a lot alike.

I definitely...
I definitely see a resemblance.

- I put my eyebrows on for you, Ryan.
- I know.

- I feel... I feel special.
- This is serious.

This is really serious.

I'm honored. They look great.

Ryan, this is
your first time in Hawaii?

Yeah, it is. And it's been...

exquisite.

It's really nice.
I felt like this is...

this is the right way to do it.

He's working on his tan.

So just from the drive yesterday

I don't know if you can see.

- Can you, like, can you see in...
- Yeah, let me see.

Is that a burn or is that a tan?

It's re...
It's like, it's not a full burn.

Like, this is...
this is what color turns into, but...

It's a work...
We call it a work in progress

is what we got going right here.

Are you planning on maybe coming
to Charleston anytime soon

so I can actually meet you?

- Because that would be fun.
- Yeah, I would love to.

We were actually
talking about that yesterday.

You know. Me and my mom's, like,
one wish was that she...

you know, does find
somebody from this, so...

I mean... Clearly, I mean,
you guys are great together

and she really likes you.

I definitely need to meet you
in person before I can say anything.

Fair. I think that's fair.
I... I get that.

Okay, well, enjoy the rest
of your time there together.

It was nice to meet you.

- Bye.
- You too.

- Love you.
- Bye, love you!

I'm closing the laptop, bye.

- That was easy. She was... Yeah.
- Good.

Wanna go to the beach?

- Yes, definitely. Let's do that.
- Let's do that.

I think Ryan is someone

who I see a lot of potential in
as a partner

and as someone who really
could be in my life in a real way.

I think I didn't even actually
realize, like, how much of...

a partnership it already
felt like throughout.

You know.
We don't live in the same city

and even if I do leave New York

Austin is not somewhere that's ever
been on my radar to move and to live.

But I'm optimistic.
I think he is too.

We're both kind of like

"All right, well, now we have
to plan around travel."

I think what's been so beautiful

about this experience
is the revelations that I've had.

I have definitely realized

I'm much more guarded
than I thought I was.

The conversation about Piper
has never gotten any easier

over the years.

And she's about to turn 15.

I've let people in before

and then I found
that they resented me

for having a situation that is so...

unique.

It's made me much more selective

of who I really share
that part of my life with.

I haven't introduced her to...

someone I'm dating
in seven or eight years.

And I'm so proud of her,
and I'm so proud to be her mother.

She is one of the most
powerful people I've ever met.

I don't know.
I just have to be present and feel it

and decide when the best moment is
to talk about her

and who deserves to know about her.

It's a situation that
I'm very protective of, for sure.

I wanna make sure that...

someone's prepared to hear the story

and that I can accurately...

describe the situation and her.

Really, like, her character.

Yeah. Thank you
for sharing that, by the way.

Pleash. Thank you
for being easy to talk to

and super cool

and, you know,
not thrown off by anything.

I don't know why
that made me smile so big.

I've dated girls with kids.

You have?

- Yeah. Twice.
- Who?

- Twice?
- Yeah.

Yeah, one when I was really...
I was younger.

And then...
probably about six years ago.

She had two. There were...

two kids, 10 and 12.

And were you pretty involved?

- With the kids?
- Yeah, after a while, for sure.

Well, that's cool.
I didn't know that.

- Yeah. Fun fact. Yeah.
- Fun fact?

- Absolutely.
- Well...

I feel like
I could tell you anything.

You can. Do you wanna... Keep going.

Did you ever have a daughter
and then hid it from people?

I have not.

Look at the sky.
Look how pretty it is.

- It's so beautiful.
- With the waves.

- Gorge.
- You're gorgeous.

- Gorge-ina.
- You're so gorge-ina.

- Oh, my god.
- Oh, my god.

Oh, my god.

Can I ask you a question?

Yeah.

- What's your question?
- You ready?

I don't... I don't know. Am I ready?

- I don't know.
- Okay.

I don't wanna be
on dating apps anymore.

Should we just get off
all of our dating apps?

I mean, I have no use for them.

Likewise.

Are we getting off
the dating apps together?

I would like to get off
the dating apps together.

Okay.

- Yes?
- I think I can agree to this.

- You agree?
- I do.

Let's just do it now,
'cause I don't believe you.

- You're so hot. I don't believe you.
- You don't believe me?

- Are we really doing this now?
- Let's do it now.

- Delete account.
- There we go.

You ready? Delete.

Wow. This is...

- This is official.
- I haven't deleted Bumble...

for anyone. Deleted.

It's gone.

Okay, how do we... how do we do this?

- Delete account.
- Do it, babe.

All right.

Are you sure?

- Confirm...
- Am I sure about you?

Yes, I am.

You're sure you want to be with me?

- Yes.
- Yeah.

- Bye.
- Bye.

Your account is deleted.

- Okay. I got it.
- There we go.

- There you go.
- It's done.

- Done.
- Done and dusted.

The end is always the best part
of a romantic comedy.

Since this experience
is kind of wrapping up

I've been thinking
about this so much.

I walked into this,
thinking that there would be a catch.

Like, I'm gonna live
with these three people.

It's gonna be a challenge

or there's gonna be
something wrong at some point

and then there never was.

I would really like to
believe in that.

When it comes to a romantic partner

like, there doesn't
have to be a catch.

That's really it.
There doesn't have to be a catch.

And I have learned that.

- We're crushing this.
- You should just do everything

and I'll watch.

Yeah, put some ice in that one now.

Is there... am I missing any?

LJ is a great guy.

And to have him
be so thoughtful with my comfort

has been really, like, special to me.

If I'm free to be myself

and there's no expectations
and there's no pressure

like, the sky's the limit with me.

I think I'll see LJ again

and I think he feels open
to seeing me again.

I have no idea what to expect,
but I think he's a real cool guy.

What more could I ask for?

- Hey, guys.
- Hey. What's going on?

Hi, welcome to my private beach.

Ryan made this experience

infinitely more special for me.
He was perfect.

Thank you so much for having us.

You're very welcome.

I've been joking about
finding my husband.

Anyone can have a husband.

But I don't think
everyone has a partner.

Like a real-life partner.

I can imagine building
a partnership with Ryan.

- Yahtzee.
- There we go.

Of course, they are.

The straights are at it again.

The straights. f*cking straights!

This date is different
because Justin is a special guy.

I had a great time with him.

He's by far the most relaxed,
most candid, most up for anything.

I felt more comfortable
in this journey

than I have the whole time.

So that's nice.

- Hi!
- You all hittin'

the c*ck already?

- Hi! Aloha!
- Did you get the right time?

Going through this journey
has definitely impacted

how I will go into any relationship

and I think for the better.

Oh, my gods, Mama. You look great.

It is the fun and the beauty

of, like, falling in love
with someone.

But, like, love is work.

I want to do the work with her.

Jess is a person that I can see

like, doing life with
in the long run.

I'm sorry if there's sand.

- Oh, it's fine.
- Hi! Hi, babe.

That is not gonna stop me
from drinking a c*ck. So...

Everyone, I would like
to propose a toast.

Thank you so much
for coming to my island.

I love all of you guys so much.

But to be, like, properly sentimental

this is one of the most monumental

pivotal moments in my life.

I could not have shared it
with better people.

The three of you

like, I just bow down.

I just am obsessed with you guys

and I'm so grateful to share this
beautiful moment with all of you.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

I'm gonna do no shoes.

See? No shoes.

Oh, man.

I will say that this experience
has been very unexpected.

I remember when we
first met each other, I was like

"Oh, my god,
we're gonna have a great time"

but I didn't know it'd be this great.

And I'm so proud of all of you.

Like, just, how we've evolved
so much in ten weeks

is kind of insane.

And I think we've all
chosen to do hard things.

And... I'm just proud of you.

I'd like to say that...

Oh, f*ck.

This has been, honestly, one of the
most blissful experiences of my life.

And

I wouldn't trade
a single one of you for anything.

And I'm so happy to know you.

And to have...

three new best friends.

And thank you
for making this so special.

It's funny you mentioned bliss
because my name actually means bliss.

I've always been, like,
searching for it my whole life.

And I'm always in pursuit of it.

This process and, like,
watching you guys

has, like, taught me how to find it
for myself a little bit more

and to, like, live in the moment

and to really experience that bliss

that I've, like, been bestowed on
since I was been born.

And so, it's like...

you guys are amazing.

I love you.

So, thank you.

What do I wanna say?

I wanna say that

this journey has been a lot for me

and the more I've opened up

the more love I received.
It's so stupid.

It's not stupid, but...

Get in here.

- I love you guys.
- I love you guys so much.

I've always known it,
but I was just really scared.

But I'm trying to be less scared now.

I mean, well, now I'm gonna cry.

I hate you guys.

I'm just really grateful.

I have people in my life that...

I could never replace.

This entire experience has shown me

more layers of love and friendship.

Honestly, I wouldn't change a thing.

Not a single thing.

It's been truly such a gift.

Every single learning experience
has not been lost on me.

It's just meant so much to me.

I'll never forget it.

And hopefully somebody gets railed.