01x07 - Susannah

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I've gotta find out why she died

alone, frightened.

You were with my daughter

an hour or two before she died.

Don't do this, Danny.

Go and comfort your ex-wife.

She's hoping you'll go with her

for the viewing.

Harriet Carr. Harry Carr.

That's not a coincidence.

Look, you've got the wrong idea

about your daughter, OK?

You've still got it, then?

Your lucky horseshoe.

I give them to my favourite girls.

The world you thought you had

in your pocket

gets taken over by the likes of me

and Christina.

Perhaps you got someone else

to k*ll Christina for you.

Perhaps I could get someone else

to k*ll you.

Don't go sticking your nose

into things that are

best left well alone.

Richard. I've been trying

to get you all day.

Well, now you have.

What the hell happened?

With what? With Ryan.

He lied to me.

Oh, Jesus, Danny.

Are you saying

this wasn't an accident?

What does Ryan say?

Nothing much. He's pretty banged up.

Danny, you need to stop this.

You need to turn yourself in.

Where are you now?

I'm heading back to the station.

Good. I'll meet you there.

Danny. Yeah?

Listen to me. No more games, OK?

All right.

You came.

What happened to you?

Oh. Nothing. Doesn't matter.

They said they'll be a few minutes,

so.

I spoke to Richard.

He said you've been making

a nuisance of yourself.

I just

I couldn't bear the thought that

someone might have done that to her.

Do you still think they did?

We're gonna do this properly, OK?

We'll say a proper

goodbyetogether.

She was such a bold wee thing.

And yet so prim and proper.

You don't remember?

I used to wonder

why your memory was so bad.

I know now.

You were never really there.

Physically maybe

but emotionally you were

..somewhere else, off in your head.

I.. I just don't recall

her being prim, that's all.

She couldn't bear to get

a tiny bit of mud on her clothes.

And blood, my God.

Blood?

She was so squeamish.

Really?

Remember that time at school?

They were dissecting worms.

She fainted. Ah.

She was very proud of that wee scar.

Just there.

Where did we go so wrong?

Don't do this, Danny.

We were a loving family.

I don't think you've ever

loved anybody. Not really.

You told me once

that you felt numb all the time.

You remember that?

And yet you were too proud,

too scared to seek help.

You know that's not my way.

Your mother. Susannah.

She was so selfish. So emotionally

cold. I'm not one of your patients.

She couldn't love you and so you-you

never learnt to love yourself.

Don't. And the pattern just repeats

itself and that's why

your relationship with Christina

was so unhealthy. Don't f*ck'

psychoanalyse me.

I can't stand it.

Well, that's always been your

problem, hasn't it?

Excuse me. We're ready.

My baby.

My baby.

How did we not know?

How did we not know what?

About the life she was leading.

About

..the darkness

that was enveloping her.

You know that scooter she rode?

How did she pay for it?

You gave her the money.

I don't think so.

You did.

You bought her that horse.

Three years too late.

She'd always wanted one.

She was 15, for God's sake. She

wanted a father, not a f*cking pony.

So you sold it and

gave her the money and

..that's what she used it for. Hm.

What?

Never mind.

I think she was good

at hiding things. Just like you.

It was right under our noses.

Right under mine, you mean.

Susannah, I didn't

My mum was dying, Daniel.

Perhaps that's one more thing

you don't remember.

Of course I remember. And my

practice, all those poor people.

In and out of lockdown,

their lives thrown up in the air,

desperate to talk to someone. I

couldn't just turn my back on them.

When she was still at home,

it was easy, I could

..go into her bedroom, I could

..read her diary, I could find out

what she was thinking, feeling.

But when they go out

into the world

I just wish she felt

she could speak to me.

And that I had the chance

to tell her that

..whatever was eating her up, it

It would pass.

Please, Daniel,

please come back inside

and let's say goodbye properly. OK.

I thought we'd time.

I should have reached out.

I should have done more.

I begged you so many times,

both of you, to make it up.

At Christmas when you were supposed

to meet up,

I pleaded with you, Daniel.

We never even spoke about it.

Well, you wouldn't answer my calls.

I even sent you that video.

What video? Oh, please, don't

pretend you didn't receive it.

Susannah, I swear I never got

a video. And I swearI sent it.

Look.

I haven't even got that app.

Yes, you do.

Oh. well, I never look at it.

Ryan sent it at Christmas.

What?

Hey, Susannah, I found her. She's

out of it. Danny didn't show up.

What are you doing, Ryan? What?

No, no.

Oh, God.

It's right therein front of you.

Hey.

Do you know where this was taken?

I've no idea. Ryan didn't say.

Did he say why he sent it?

Er, I assume he wanted me

to know that he He'd found her.

Do you recognise the other voice?

Listen.

What are you doing, Ryan?

I know her from somewhere.

What are you doing, Ryan?

Please don't play it again.

Why did you send Ryan to look for

her? Oh, Daniel. But of all people.

He was a police officer.

I thought if something had happened,

if she was in trouble,

he would help.

There's 150,000 police officers

in this country.

I would trust pretty much every

one of them before I trust him.

He was her godfather.

He was your friend.

"Was" being the operative word.

I was going to ask Richard,

but he It was Christmas

and he was with his kids.

I didn't I didn't want

to bother him. Richard? Yeah.

Didn't know you two

were on those kind of terms.

Yeah, well, you don't

know everything. Evidently.

You worked with him for more than

ten years. We never socialised.

We've been seeing each other.

You and Richard?

Yeah. Why not? He's separated,

I'm divorced.

There's no law against it. My boss.

Your ex-boss and your ex-wife.

My friend. Uh, you just said

you never socialised.

I don't owe you anything,

Daniel. And neither does he.

I'm really sorry. I've got

another viewing to get ready for.

Of course.

He was here with you.

Earlier.

Did he say anything?

He was very supportive.

About the investigation.

He said there's nothing

to investigate.

It was suicide.

You have to accept that.

I've tried. You have to. I can't!

There's no other explanation, love.

Of course there is.

Then what? Loads of things

don't add up. Like what?

Like why would someone so squeamish

that she fainted when cutting open

an earthworm decide that this

was the best way

to try and k*ll herself?

Richard said she may have taken

some kind of a tranquiliser.

It could have affected her judgment

in all sorts of ways. Yeah, yeah,

she was still capable

of cutting her left wrist.

Even though she's left-handed.

And why would she even have that

razor blade in her possession?

Women use razors.

Not classic safety razors.

Not a young woman, anyway. What

would you know about young women?

Oh

This is classic you.

You always do this.

What's that? Obsessing over the

minutia. Missing the bigger picture.

Go on, then, enlighten me.

She's gone, Daniel.

And any hope of peace we had

is gone with her.

She

Have you been listening

to a word I've said?

What the hell are you doing?

Her frenulum. It's torn.

This, this tendon here.

What about it?

It's a possible indicator.

Of wha?

That, uh, that someone may have had

their hand over her mouth.

That there may have been

some kind of struggle. No.

That somebody tried to smother her.

No Hey.

We're coming.

Richard's asking if you're here.

What should I tell him?

Tell him what you like.

He says I should stop you leaving

until he gets here.

Jackie Sowden said there was

no evidence of foul play.

The torn frenulum, it's not

mentioned in the postmortem report.

Go on, then. Do what you must.

Daniel.

Why would anybody want to k*ll her?

Are you sure you want to go there?

Maybe.