01x10 - Chapter 10

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MARY: Three times I had written
to Mr Hayward,

and each time the letter
was returned

marked "forwarding address unknown."

There was so much that I wished
to say to him...

..but it was not to be.

No matter. I would not wallow.

I had navigated difficulty before,

and I would use my experiences

to find my place in London

and prove I could build a life here,
not only to myself, but also to...

Mama.

Here she is.
I didn't know you were...

Sorry, what are you doing here?
Your mother has come to stay.

For a short time.

Lizzie's physician advised

I come to London to see
Dr Simmons,

who is a great
authority on nervous complaints.

Well, sit!

Mr Darcy has been most insistent,

urging me to think of myself
and not hurry back to Pemberley

until I have
been properly attended to.

Now, Mary, I have
decided to forgive your actions
at Pemberley,

and to offer you my
assistance one last time.

While I am here...
..I intend to finish what I began

and find suitable matches
for all my daughters.

Oh, please, Mama, really.

Four out of five must be considered
a great triumph.

A great triumph indeed.

Mary has plenty in London
to occupy her time.

There is no better use
of Mary's time than finding a match.

Oh, please, Mother, really,

I'm very happy as I am.

I understand your shame, Mary,

in the way that you have behaved
towards me.

But nevertheless,
you cannot override

my natural kindness
and my motherly instinct.

I have arranged for you to
meet several suitors.

Is it too much to ask you
to make even

the slightest effort with just
one of these gentlemen?

Mary has made good connections.

Oh, and do good connections provide
for you for the rest of your life?

And she is welcome here.

Oh, yes, for now.
For as long as she wants.

Enter! Come in.

A visitor for Miss Bennet.

Mr Ryder is here.

Mr Ryder?

Well, show him in.
Please show him in.

Thank you.

Mr Ryder, how wonderful to see you.

Mrs Bennet, Mrs Gardiner,

Miss Bennet.

And to what do we owe the pleasure
of your visit?

Yes, excuse me dropping in
unannounced, I...

..wondered whether I might speak
with Miss Bennet.

Of course.

In private.

Miss Bennet, I'm most relieved
to see you looking so well after...

Thank you. Yeah.

I was sorry not to be able
to say goodbye to you at the Lakes.

Once I knew you were
being taken care of,

I felt it my duty to accompany

Miss Bingley back to London to see
a physician.

I understand. But I was kept informed
of your recovery.

Miss Bennet, I...

..I wanted to sincerely apologise
for what happened.

Oh, I played my own part
in proceedings.

No, no, I was entirely to blame.

I put you and Miss Bingley
in grave danger.

I'm full of regret.
Oh, really, think no more of it.

Though it did not end well...

..overall, I look back at my time
in the Lakes very fondly.

It was never my intention
to intrude on your time there,

but...I needed Mr Hayward's help.

You see...

..Lady Catherine de Bourgh
unexpectedly named me as her heir.

Oh. Yeah.

I informed Mr Hayward of my change
in fortune,

and told him...

..of my intention to propose to you
that very afternoon.

I see.

He knew what I could offer you,
and...

..he gave me his blessing.

He did? Hmm.

Miss Bennet, I wanted
to renew our conversation from
the Lakes.

Of course.

Of course, Mr Ryder, please,

um, please sit.

I've never met anyone
that makes me think like you do.

Who makes me see the world
as you do.

I've certainly never met anyone

who speaks as plainly as you,
and I admire that greatly.

It's very kind.

Although there is something of

a gulf between my ideals
and the world we live in...

..I like to think that...

..you and I could carve out
an interesting existence...

..together.

I shall now do what I should have

done weeks ago and ask...

..Miss Bennet...

..would you consider
accepting my hand in marriage?

Mr Ryder.

My answer must, of course, be...

..that I do not love you.

Could it be that you...you might
grow to love me?

Not in the way that you...
..deserve to be loved.

Your friendship has...

..has taught me so much about myself,

and for that I shall always be
grateful.

But I don't believe...

..I would ever have made you happy.

You should follow your heart.

Go to Italy and seize everything
it has to offer.

I see.

You will find happiness, Mr Ryder.

True happiness.

I do not doubt it.

It was a...

..pleasure to see you
looking so well.

Pleasure to see you looking so...

..dry.

Goodbye, Miss Bennet.

Bye.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!
Mother.

Uh, I should leave.

No. Please, stay there.
Mother!

Mr Ryder, you may go.

What have you done?

Ugh, I need some air.

Mary.

Mary!

Miss Bennet.

Mr Sparrow! Uh...

Is everything quite all right?

Oh, yes. The...the city smoke

is particularly heavy today,
and it just seems to have, uh...

SHE CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY
May I?

Thank you.

I hope they are
still serving you well.

They really are.

Tell me, what...what brings you to
London?

I graduated from Moorfields
two weeks ago.

So you're a doctor.
Just as you said you would be.

Congratulations, Mr Sparrow.

I always thought you'd end
up studying somewhere, somehow.

I would like to be a governess...

..to an older girl, perhaps.

I think I'd enjoy teaching petrology
and geology and...

Your specialisms.

Perhaps one day you could
tutor my daughter.

You have a child? She is one.

Then perhaps I will. Yes.

No, I've not really looked
too far into it as yet.

I think my mother will not approve.

If I remember rightly,
you and your mother always

had very different ideas about life,

about reading,
about the wearing of spectacles.

And about...

..potential matches.

If I may be so bold.

If you have always struggled
to please your mother,

why do you keep trying?

As long as you know what you want,

perhaps it is time to stop worrying
what she thinks.

Our happiness is in our own hands.

Absolutely. I truly believe it is.

It has been a pleasure
to see you again.

I must be getting back. Ah.

Goodbye, Mr Sparrow.

I'm very, very glad to have run
into you today.

Mary,

what on earth are you thinking?

Mother, I'm sorry to
disappoint you, again,

but I will not be marrying Mr Ryder.

Nonsense! Call him back
and tell him you were mistaken.

No, I will not do that.

Have you no consideration
for my nerves?

I've never wanted
to cause you any trouble.

Oh, you have caused me nothing
but trouble

since the day you were born.

Yes, I am aware that is so.

I am trying to help you.

I do not want you to be looked
down upon.

Looked down upon by whom?

Mary, please call Mr Ryder back

and accept his offer.
I do not love him!

Mama, I've not waited all this

time just to marry a man
I do not love.

You would have once agreed to marry
Mr Collins. Did you love him?

No, I didn't. No.

At the time I thought...

I thought I was helping our family
remain at Longbourn.

And now there is a handsome,
wealthy man willing
to overlook your shortcomings,

and you have turned him away!

Because I have changed!
Well, change back again!

Charlotte once told me

that my options were marriage
or misery.

But I have seen
many miserable marriages.

And meanwhile,

I've experienced much joy
in life on my own.

What will you do without a husband?
How will you survive?

I will work as a governess.
Outside the family?

Yes. I will take on an older pupil

and I will teach a more nuanced,

detailed education, working to

a higher level on a specific
set of...

Why do you insist on torturing me?

It has always been
my intention to please you.

I'm very sad that I have

never been able
to make you proud of me.

That I was never able to match
my sisters in your esteem.

I'm sorry.

You have no idea
what it has been like for me.

I had five daughters.
Five daughters.

All of whom I knew must marry well
in order to survive.

And there was nobody to make
that happen except me.

Your father never had to
think about it.

And he never raised
a finger to help.

In fact, any attempts I made
to discuss your futures seemed only
to rile him.

I was quite alone.

You and I always have been very
different creatures.

And it is likely we always shall be.

It doesn't seem fair that you weren't
helped in your efforts.

But...
..you did it.

We are all settled
in our different ways.

I have chosen my path

and I am happy with it.

I did not want you to
be left behind.

Goodbye, Mother.

Send our love to Lizzie.

Goodbye, Jane.

Mary, I have to say, I don't
think I've ever seen anyone

stand up to your mother as
successfully as you did.

Really? It was very impressive.

I don't mind that I'll never marry.

I'm only sad that,
um, without a home of my own

I shall never get to choose my own
wallpaper.

You can always choose some
for your room,

Mary, if you like.

Do you think I've done
the wrong thing...

..in not marrying Mr Ryder?

Not at all, Mary.

I've learnt a great deal from him.

He's a man that finds joy in life,

and there's much to be admired
about him.

But you do not love him.

No.

You love someone else.

Where has he gone?

I wish I knew.

Thank you.

Miss Bennet,

there is a visitor to see you
in the drawing room.

Miss Bingley.

Miss Bennet, I...wanted to thank you

for what you did on the mountain.

You could have left me there,
and...you didn't.

I think it is plain to see that I...

..have a great fondness for
Mr Ryder...

..and I have come to ask
that you...

..leave him alone.

Oh, Miss Bingley,

you are much better suited to
Mr Ryder than I am.

Oh, you don't mean that.
I do.

I do, Mr Ryder is...

He's a dear friend,

but he and I, we were never a match.

The truth is...

..it was always Mr Hayward for me.

But it is not to be.

Really? Tom Hayward?

Surely, he is attainable.

It seems not.

He's disappeared.

Well, well.

Perhaps I shall call
for you sometime, Miss Bennet.

Yes, we could...
We could read poetry together.

Goodbye, Miss Bennet.
Goodbye, Miss Bingley.

VOICEOVER: And so it was
that I carved out my own path.

I stayed in London
and became a governess.

Today, we're going to talk about...

Over time, I worried a little less
about the approval of others.

And though the life I had

chosen was different to
that of my sisters,

I had a wealth of experience
to be proud of.

I had found a family
I loved very much.

I was happy
in the life I had chosen,

and I knew that I was good enough.

Though one can always be just
a little happier, I suppose.

MAN SHOUTING: Miss Bennet!

Miss Bennet!

Miss Bennet!

Mr Hayward.

Mrs Gardiner said I might find you
here.

Miss Bennet, I...
Where have you been?

Yorkshire.

What do you mean, Yorkshire?

You can't just say Yorkshire!

As if Yorkshire is an entirely
reasonable explanation

for your very sudden
and somewhat lengthy disappearance!

After what you said...

I'm sorry, Mary.
Please, please let me explain.

Well, you're here now...

..Mr Hayward. Do go on.

When we were in the Lakes...

..the legal matter that
Mr Ryder asked me

to attend to was his inheriting
the fortune of
Lady Catherine de Bourgh.

And I knew quite clearly
from Ryder's incredibly

irritating behaviour
that he had a liking for you.

As I also had.

As I also have.

It is such a liking, in fact,
that when I learned

of Mr Ryder's good fortune
and his plan

to make you an offer of marriage,
I thought...

..I thought it in your best interest
that I graciously step aside.

Nevertheless, my actions
in the mountains...

You thought it in my best interests
to graciously step aside?

So your disappearance was, in fact,
you being gracious to me?

Ah! Ow! Miss...!

You and Mr Ryder between you thought
that you would just

decide on my fate
and I would just accept it?

Like I'm a...
Like I'm a...grateful cat?

If you put it like that,
it does not sound good.

Why didn't you just ask me
what I thought?

I was reading between the lines.
There were no lines!

Mr Hayward, there were no lines!

I know I will never be able to offer
you what Mr Ryder can.

I have had to work for everything

that I have and...and I thought
you deserved better than that...

..that you deserved better than me.
But now I realise...

..I will not know what you want
unless I ask.

So I must tell you,

I cannot offer you great wealth
or Italy.

But I can offer you my love

and my devotion

and my hope to build a family
one day.

Mr Hayward...

..if you had asked me what I wanted,

I would have told you I never wanted
Mr Ryder.

I have never loved Mr Ryder.

I love you.

I have only ever loved you.

I love you.

I have always loved you from

the very first time
I caught you playing

graces on your own
when you thought no-one was at home.

I have spent my life on the outside
of things,

but with you I am right
in the middle of it all.

Mary Bennet, would you do
me the very great honour
of becoming my wife?

Yes.

Yes.

Yeah.

LAUGHING: That was a yes, Mr Hayward,

in case...in case you didn't
catch it.

Mary, I think now that we have
kissed,

you could probably call me Tom.
SHE LAUGHS

Wait, what made you come back?

Oh, I received a letter

from Caroline Bingley.

What? Yes.

She wrote to me and she told me
about your conversation

and I realised
I was being ridiculous.

From Caroline Bingley?

Yes. She did something kind!

Wait, however did she find you?

She has her ways.

My only wish is that we could thank
her, but she has left London.

Oh. She's gone to Italy

in pursuit of Mr Ryder.

No? Yes!

No?

Yes.

Why not?

VOICEOVER: And so it was
that I married him.

But on my own terms, in my own time.

And I hope you'll realise
that is almost beside the point.

The point, perhaps, was just as Hill
had predicted
all that time ago...

..that I needed to get out
and see the world outside my family

so that I could find my place in it.

That is the last of them. Really?

Oh, the indigo is splendid.

It's actually Tyrian purple.

It's Tyrian? Yes. From the Greek

myth about Hercules' dog chewing
a spiny murex sea snail.

I didn't know Hercules had a dog.

Keep up, Thomas.

I am trying.

What's next?

Spring green in the drawing room.