Vexanthrone (2024)

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I am an artist.

I specialize in things

people don't wanna see.

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Maybe it's because...

I don't like people.

It's been... years, now, since

I've spoken to anybody, I think.

They just couldn't accept my masterpiece.

They hated it.

It wasn't designed for them to

It was designed for them to

You're not supposed to like

or dislike art, in my opinion.

But...

You know...

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I often find myself going

over the creative process,

what it means to partake

in the creative process...

And the mental effects the creative

process ultimately has on you

in the long term.

What I made

wasn't designed for the happiness of others.

It wasn't designed to be enjoyed.

It wasn't designed for

That creative process

was unlike anything else.

You could even call it otherworldly.

And the aftermath of it was...

The aftermath of it was-was...

Unexpected.

Inhumane.

Vulgar.

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Who's the one to say that

they're right and I'm wrong?

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Maybe I'm the one that's right

and the rest of them are wrong.

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I already know I'm gonna spend...

Days and nights and hours and months even.

Just to create one thing.

But

each piece of it

each piece of it will represent...

All the time.

All that time spent on it will

be represented by each piece.

And that time will then become immortal.

At least in my opinion.

Maybe that's what I'm drawn to;

The immortality of the past.

You can capture it forever

and ever and ever with this.

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I can already feel myself changing.

And I think one of the biggest

sacrifices in art is the change.

At least for me.

I don't like change.

I can think back to a point where

if I never changed

life would be perfect.

I think about the past a lot.

I think about it more than the present.

I might even think about

it more than the future.

Those were golden days.

Those were golden times.

I don't think they can

ever actually be replicated.

There's only the art that I

created to remember them by.

That never changes.

I guess you could say I

am... pretentious.

But I don't believe in

that word. I think that

It comes down to personal preference.

There is no pretentious. There's only

understanding and misunderstanding.

Or a complete lack of understanding.

If you can't understand something then...

Who are you to say if

it's pretentious or not?

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The easiest way to live life

is by creating a world of your own.

Maybe if everybody

created a world of their own

then maybe we wouldn't need

anything else.

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You just will never go back

to being who you were...

After you reach such a point.

Like I can physically feel myself

changing.

And becoming something that will never...

I don't know if that's a

good thing or a bad thing.

Is there a such thing as a good change?

I don't know.

There's good changes, yes, I guess.

But if you find yourself still

reminiscing and reflecting on the past

specifically on the better

times within the past.

Then you have to ask yourself:

Was all the change worth

it? Both the good and the bad?

Or would it have just been

better to stick where you were,

with who you were,

at the time you were.

I don't know.

I find myself being very

indecisive on everything.

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My body changes, my mind changes...

Humanity changes.

And once the changes start,

you have to roll with them.

You cannot

pull back from the changes.

You have to embrace them.

You have to utilize them.

Everything must be put to use.

Nothing can be wasted.

That's my philosophy.

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I don't agree with most things.

All aspects of life are alien to me.

For me, people are too disappointing.

They're not worth the time of day.

How will I know when it's enough?

How will I know when I've gone far enough?

Rip out their own insides

and evaluate them.

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And you no longer see the decomposition

around us because it is simply

normal.

Sometimes you get to a

point where you anticipate

the end.

I think people determine

their own failures,

You never escape the end.

I think a lot of things

consist of rot.

Then the negative side takes over

and you just hate everything you do.

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By the time I finish this, I don't

know what's gonna become of me.

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You have to accept that it's over.

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A truly foul creation.

I don't think art goes without judgment.

You always must move on.

One way or the other.

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I don't feel real.

I know I'm decomposing.

What does society know?

It's grotesque.

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I don't feel real.

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