04x17 - Life is Hard, Death is Easy

[bunniefuu]

What would you do to her for two months free rent?

Two months free rent?

[Fatima]Previously on Zatima...

[Zac]You got minutes. Bring her in the back.

Baby! Wait, wait!

Why would she do this?

[Zac] Stop. Don't look at that.

Where'd you even get this?

A girl at work got me the hookup.

Just hand it to me and pass me the trash can.

The inspector's not taking the job.

-Why? -Apparently, he looked me up.

The shop is picking up in business,

but I can't keep doing this forever.

Just be honest with her, man.

You can give me something else to keep me warm...

-I'll be back to get you later. -I'll be waiting.

Wait, what?

Yeah.

Did you just say you had a heart attack, Angela?

Yeah, girl.

Which one of these chairs you want me in?

-Which chair? -Yeah, girl.

I had to make her come here.

Can you believe she wanted you to come to her place,

knowing that the doctor said she needed to walk?

[Angela] Yeah. My bad, girl.

I know you're not a mobile hairstylist.

Oh, hell, no.

What the hell is wrong with her?

[Belinda] I'm sorry, girl. I'm sorry.

I'll talk to her.

I'm going to go back in. Put your color.

-Put it on the tip. -Hey, B.

-You still here? -What?

-What is wrong with you? -I said, "You still here?"

What? What is going on?

Are you serious?

Serious about what?

Angela, you had a heart attack.

Yeah, and it was scary as hell.

-Okay. -Okay.

And you've been sitting on this? Fatima, too?

Oh, um, I see.

-Look, Belinda-- -No, no, no, no, no.

Don't come in here with no "I'm sorry,

I didn't think you wanted to know" bullshit.

Come on.

It was just a lot going on, okay?

I mean, it was really hectic, you know?

What I know is I'm not really y'all friend.

-That's what I know. -Belinda.

Especially you, b*tch.

b*tch?

b*tch. B-I-T-C-H.

-You heard me. -You know what?

You lucky I'm still even talking to your a*s.

I should have been done with you.

-For real, for real. -Oh, be done with me then,

but miss me with all this bullshit.

-I will. I will. -All right, wait, wait. Wait.

You know what? Get the f*ck out.

No, get the f*ck up.

No, sit the f*ck down.

Belinda, you cannot kick us out.

I can't?

Who's she stepping up to?

I know she ain't stepping up to me.

-I'm stepping to you. -Belinda, back up out my face.

My heart may be bad, but these hands are still good.

Angela, you better get your a*s out before I throw you out.

She just got out of the hospital.

Get off of her.

Damn, and see, you think I won't fight a pregnant b*tch.

b*tch, I will still whoop your a*s.

-Try me. Try me. -Stop. Belinda, stop.

-Get off of me. -Yeah.

* Love ain't perfect *

* But it's still working

* Ain't gotta be what we see on TV *

* But it's damn sure worth it (Uh-huh) *

* Love ain't perfect *

* But we still working *

* Don't gotta be what we see on IG *

* 'Cause we still worth it (Uh-huh) *

* Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah *

* Do-do-do-do-do-do-do-do We still working *

-Get off of me. Security. -[Fatima] You better hold her.

You ain't got no damn security.

Get me down.

B, B, stop.

Stop.

Fatima, you good?

Yeah, I'm all right.

Belinda, I'm gonna let you go, but if you don't stop,

I'm gonna dropkick your a*s.

-All right. -"All right" what?

All right, I ain't gonna fight her.

[Angela] sh*t.

[tense music]

I'm sorry about all that.

I ain't supposed to be doing all this sh*t.

-Angela. -You should get your head.

I'm good. I'm good.

Will y'all just leave? Damn.

Belinda, look.

I'm sorry.

I should have called you.

Hey, you should have been one of the first people that I called.

But you didn't.

-[Angela] I know. -All right.

Will y'all just leave? Damn.

Belinda, I should have called.

-Okay? -You think.

I just, I didn't think that...

That's the problem. You don't think.

[fighting back tears] Y'all don't think about me.

Y'all don't care about me and, to be honest,

I don't need y'all because I don't need

no fair-weather-a*s b*tches in my face.

Belinda.

No. I'm serious.

Ouch.

I'm sorry, girl. I'm not trying to...

take this out on you.

Why don't you go head over there to the, um, to the sink.

She's had her hair combed already anyway.

Belinda, I'm sorry. Okay? I should have called.

You could have been dead, Angela.

You don't think I know that?

You don't think I care?

All I can say is I'm sorry. Okay?

I just didn't think it would matter.

Of course.

You didn't think it would matter.

Y'all matter to me. Y'all are my friends.

sh*t.

I know I don't matter to y'all.

I know I'm not y'all friend for real.

Belinda. I understand.

Okay? I understand if you're done.

Now that I think about it,

honestly, I would have been done too.

But if you got a little bit of forgiveness in your heart,

maybe you can let us make it up to you.

I don't know.

Don't be like that.

Be like what? Like y'all?

You're right. Okay?

You okay?

I got recovering to do, but I'm good.

How about we go over the details tonight at the club?

Girls night out?

I don't know. [chuckles bashfully]

I really want to hang with y'all b*tches.

-Girl. -Girl.

Alright. [giggles]

Come on. Let's get you done up, b*tch.

You look... Damn, no combs in the hospital?

-See, you ain't even have to-- -Uh-uh.

Don't sit down We getting you

-straight to the wash bowl. -Okay.

Ma'am, you gonna have to get up again.

[light hip-hop music]

All right. Welcome, everybody.

Take a seat. Have a seat.

Hello, Zac.

What's up, Dr. Reid?

What are you doing here?

You're only supposed to come twice a week.

Yeah, I know that.

You mind if I sit in on this session?

Okay. Something wrong?

No. I'm good.

Oh. You just came to see my pretty face.

[chuckles] You can chill on all that.

Okay. Well, I know something's wrong.

How you figure that?

Because you came here on your own, Zac.

What's up?

[whispers] It's not really that deep.

Oh. Group.

You mind if Zac here shares what's on his mind?

Go ahead.

Thanks.

How y'all doing? So...

[chuckles awkwardly] Um...

I think I'm experiencing racism.

Mm-hmm. That's a tough one.

Yeah. And it's pissing me off.

As it should.

Yeah. Like, um... I know exactly what it is,

but I don't want to say it, if you understand.

-I think I know what you mean. -[Zac] Okay. Cool.

And it's cool.

Like, I'm dealing with it, you know, but, um...

I got my business partner working on something,

so I'm gonna get my answer real soon.

So you're not % certain that it is racism?

Come on, Dr. Reid.

You know how they do.

[Reid] Well, I know that racism exists

and that it's prevalent in our society.

[Zac] Right.

And I know that certain groups of people

experience it more than others.

Why you tap dancing around this?

Whatever happened to you obviously upset you.

Yes.

But you're not sure if it's actually happened yet.

Um... Um...

Right.

You are?

Right?

No.

You're jumping to conclusions, Zac.

How long have you been upset by this?

Since it happened earlier today.

And it's taken up your whole day, then?

Exactly.

And whatever you're doing to confirm this,

-which I hope is legal... -It is, it is. It is.

So if it is racism, what are you gonna do about it?

I don't even know yet.

Uh-huh.

But it's taken up your whole day today?

Yeah, man. What are you saying? Like...

What I'm saying, Zac...

And this is also a great lesson for this session.

Confirm the reason for rage before you deal with it.

Okay.

[Reid] Know for certain that someone is disrespecting you.

Don't just assume it.

Find out from your partner

or whomever it is that is upsetting you,

that isn't being truthful, that is doing something wrong.

Have proof and evidence.

Or better yet, just talk to them and find out their perspective.

Rather than just walking around, mad.

Exactly.

Because guess what?

They may not know they've done anything wrong.

It's true.

And if you approach them calm and rational and seeking truth,

then you're more likely to get it.

Then you can use the tools you learned here

in anger management to deal with that.

You got it?

So what you're saying is I need

to confront this dude face-to-face?

No. That's not what I said.

-I'm joking. -Oh.

-[Zac laughing] -I was about to say. I'm sorry.

-That's my guy right here, man. -I said it right.

He was nervous. He thought I was gonna jump a little.

I ain't some guy dying like that.

-Sorry about that. -All right.

No, no, no. I get what you're saying.

-[Reid] Okay. -I get it. I get it.

Good. Because that's your intuition.

And we all got it.

But you still need to be for sure that it's happened.

Otherwise, you give them a way out.

And if I go to him and ask him if he's r*cist--

You think he's gonna admit that?

No. He's gonna lie to me. He's gonna gaslight me.

Mm-hmm. You got it.

I know that, because my girl use that word all the time.

She tell me I'm doing that to her.

You gaslight me, Zac, you gaslight me.

Yeah, I heard that.

Well, that's a whole 'nother discussion.

[Zac] Mm-hmm.

But remember so often when we are treated badly,

our reactions to that treatment can outweigh the cause.

Because if he's here and you take it here,

-then he becomes the victim. -Right.

Don't give him an out.

Right.

Or just don't be like Lori with a baseball bat and hit somebody.

You're right.

-Matter of fact, where is Lori? -Lori's all right.

Uh, she graduated group.

[clears throat] But, uh...

No, that's good for her.

Yeah, she fulfilled her court order, so she's all good.

That's what's up. I'll get there.

I know you will. All right. You got it.

All right, that's good.

Uh, the next topic, who would like to share next?

[gentle music]

Fatima, how you get your, um, hair done for the shower?

Girl, I'm trying to figure it out now,

looking at this magazine.

-But, girl! -I know.

It's almost time.

Girl, I just haven't had time.

I still gotta find a dress.

I got so much to do today.

Then why are you sitting over here?

It's 'cause they feel like they gotta babysit me.

We can hear you. You ain't gotta yell.

Anyways, what time you done today?

Um, Angela's my last head for now.

Okay. Come with us.

-Really? -Yes.

Okay.

Besides, we gotta go to the mall.

-I still gotta get shoes. -Girl, you ain't ready at all.

I've been so busy.

Plus, I gotta get all this done before I take Connie

to her chemo treatment, and I gotta eat.

-sh*t. -Yeah, I will come with you,

because you could definitely use a helping hand.

What the hell?

-Girl. -Uh, Shawn?

Hey, Shawn.

-Hey, Angela. -How you doing?

I'm good. How you doing?

-I see you move on pretty fast. -Angela.

So all that sh*t you told me about how you didn't know

what love was before you met me, that was all bullshit?

Angela, don't--

Does he say that to you too, little girl?

Excuse me?

Who is this, Shawn? Let me guess.

Is this your wife?

Is this your wife, Shawn?

I'm not his wife.

Is he celibate with you too?

-Or is he dicking you down? -Ugh.

Angela.

You're making a fool of yourself.

I just got out of the hospital with a heart attack, Shawn.

-What? -Yeah.

And you didn't even text or nothing.

Wait. Wait, wait, wait.

You had a heart attack?

Yeah.

Angela, I'm sorry. I didn't know.

How would you know, Shawn?

You haven't texted or called or tried to check on me at all.

You told me to leave you alone.

That's because I thought you were alone.

-I am alone. -Then who is this b*tch?

-"b*tch"? -Yeah, b*tch.

-[Meeka] You know what? -Who is she, Shawn?

-[whispering indistinctly] -Who is she?

This is my cousin.

Your cousin?

Mm-hmm.

And you real lucky I just got my hair done.

Angela.

What's going on with you?

Did you really have a heart attack?

Yeah.

I'm sorry. I didn't know.

It's not your fault.

You didn't know. It's okay.

No, it's not okay. You're in here yelling.

That's not okay.

Sorry, Shawn.

I just, I got a lot of sh*t going on.

I just need to work it out.

I still have feelings for you, Angela, but, damn, you just,

you play too many games.

I know, Shawn, but I've had

the biggest wake-up call you can get.

Good, but, sh*t, you too late.

And it's not that I'm f*cking somebody else.

You know all men ain't the same.

Come on, Shawn.

Our auntie is waiting for us.

Excuse me.

Look, I have to go see my auntie.

It was good seeing you, Angela,

and I really do hope you feel better, okay?

Oh, okay.

Bye, Shawn.

Ooh, girl.

What was that?

[Belinda] b*tch, you ain't gonna say nothing?

What was that?

I'm in love with two men.

Are you for real?

Stop yelling. Damn.

You looking good, Connie.

Thank you.

Talk to me after all these drugs has pumped through my body.

When are you gonna do your chemo cut?

Oh, I don't know.

My hair ain't really falling out, so.

I know, but some people make it a big deal.

They make it a party, do it with others.

No, I don't really think I want nobody to go bald with me.

[Solas] I understand.

You know, many things with cancer, you know,

you can't control, but cutting your hair

is something that is seen as you can control.

-You know? -Yeah, you might be right.

There's not a lot in my life right now that I control.

Well, it looks like you're all good.

So, you want a book to read or anything?

No. I'm just gonna close my eyes.

Okay. All right.

-Doc. -Yeah?

Where's Miss Betty?

I know we pretty much got the same schedule, right?

-Miss Porter. -Yeah.

That's my girl.

She passed away, hon.

I'm sorry.

I'll check on you in an hour, okay?

Okay.

[Zac] It is not this way.

[Fatima] Yes, it is.

[Zac] Who you yellin' at? You don't even follow directions.

-[Fatima] Really? -[Zac] For real.

See?

Zac, Fatima.

-We're here. -Oh, my God.

I'm so happy to see y'all.

I told you we was coming.

Yeah, you did.

Angela and Belinda are downstairs.

For real?

We've been shopping all day for a dress for this shower, girl.

Y'all, I'm so excited for it.

-Do you have something to wear? -I do.

-I do. -[Fatima] All right.

It's just so good to see y'all.

-We here. -Zac.

She keeps saying that

like there was a chance we wasn't gonna come.

I told her we was coming, so we're here.

You did. And I'm happy y'all here.

Yo, um, Zac, grab something to sit on.

I want to tell y'all something pretty serious.

Okay.

I might die.

Connie, come on with that, yo.

Zac, I'm serious.

-That's what I'm telling y'all. -It is, Zac.

I know it's serious.

We gotta talk about that right now?

-Like... -We do.

Doctor said if the cancer has spread...

He said he'd want to put me on a...

[clears throat] a more aggressive treatment.

But if something happened to me,

my kids is gonna go to Florida.

They gonna be with my older sister.

She already said that, um, she gonna take them in.

So...

just...

-y'all do that for me. -Yeah.

-Okay. -[Connie] All right.

But bury me, bury me here.

Okay?

And...

just keep in contact with my kids.

All right?

Like, make sure they...

they come and they visit me.

Because I know my sister ain't

never gonna leave Florida, but...

keep in contact with them.

Let them know.

Let them know where they...

where I am. All right?

And then when they get old enough,

they can just...

come to visit me.

Whenever.

I know I'm asking a lot, but...

Connie...

you're not asking for a lot at all.

It's just really hard to...

[sighs] think about you not being here.

But...

[Fatima] I know. I know.

It's real.

Yeah.

We got you, though.

But, Connie,

this is the worst-case scenario, okay?

But, right now,

we're gonna help you pick up the pieces.

I'm fighting, y'all.

Good.

I'm gonna get my kids back.

I'm gonna give them a better life.

Yeah. You can definitely do that.

All right.

All right. Y'all, stop crying.

So...

Let me see. What you get?

Um... Yeah, um...

It's okay, baby. Yeah.

This is the dress that I got.

-Cute. -[Fatima] Thank you.

You can't see it. You can't see it.

Why I can't see it? It ain't your wedding dress.

Wait till after the shower.

-Let me see. -Zac, she said no.

No.

Please don't make me call

the nurses in here and get you out.

-They love me here. -Yeah, you was just crying.

Now y'all gonna just team up on me now?

-That's just what we doing now? -Tag team.

[light hip-hop music]

Here we go.

[phone ringing]

-Hello? -Yo, what up, Nate?

Nothing, man. I'm chillin'.

Having a good time.

Yo, where you at?

I'm at the strip club, man.

Man, it's dumb early, bro.

What's going on, though? What you need?

Nah, never mind, man.

Hey, ladies, ladies, pause for a minute.

Can we just pause this for a moment?

I'm gonna spend the rest of my on the next song.

-[Ashley] n*gga, please. -Ashley!

[Ashley] Call me when you got some more money.

I got... Oh, come on, girl. It's just my boy.

Tone, this better be good, man.

You done ruined the second half of my dance.

What's up? What's up, buddy?

Nate, um...

You ever did something...

Thought you got over on it,

but then, it turns out, you didn't?

Nah, man.

You know Lori would've cut me every time.

[Tony]No, man. Not like that.

Like something bad.

No, like...real bad.

Tony, what you talking about, man?

I did something.

I made a mistake. I think.

I don't know.

Tony, look, no lie,

without me even knowing what happened, I know you.

You a good dude, man.

You wouldn't purposely hurt or do anybody wrong.

Yeah, but why can't I shake it, though?

[Nathan][sighs] Man, look. Sometimes we hold

ourselves hostage to the things we've done in our past,

all right?

We hold ourselves more accountable

than even the people we wronged.

Nah, bro.

I don't think I could be forgiven for this one.

Look, so you said the key word. "Think."

Don't think. Let God do all that.

My advice to you is to k*ll the think and just ask.

Ask for forgiveness.

Let the chips fall where they may.

You know, whatever happens, I got your back.

Yeah, you right, bro.

-[Nathan]Yeah. -I appreciate you, man.

Anytime, baby. You know I got you, man.

-I love you, man. -All right, yo.

-I'll holler at you later, man. -All right, man.

I'll talk to you later. Ah! Hey, hey, hey, Tony.

Yo, what's up?

Hey, man. Send me $, man.

I'm trying to take these ladies to the VIP room.

n*gga.

You burnt the second half of my dance, man.

Why are we even still friends, B?

Because I give you good advice sometimes.

-[Nathan][laughs] -I'll holler at you later, man.

All right, I'll talk to you later.

Ladies, I got more money coming.

-Hey! -Hey, come on. Let's go.

Get back up, get back up. [laughs gleefully]

Oh, yeah.

Ooh, just... Ooh, a lot of a*s!

[unsettling music]

Hey, you.

It's you.

You the one who's been dropping that money by my door.

Yes, ma'am.

Well, thank you.

But why, son?

-Son? -Hmm?

You called me son. Don't.

Please don't call me that.

Okay.

I won't.

Is that more money?

Yes, ma'am. It's the last of it.

Oh.

This time I thought I should hand it to you and answer

whatever questions you might have for me.

-Would you like to come in? -No, no. Um.

I'm fine right here. This shouldn't take long.

Well, then, sir,

getting these envelopes been a true blessing.

But I'm confused.

And to tell you the truth, I'm a little scared.

Scared?

Yeah, it's a mean, cold world out there.

And strangers don't just go around

dropping envelopes at other folks' door.

Yeah, well, not everyone is looking for penance.

I'm sorry for what happened to your son.

Hmm.

I see you now.

Come on. Have a seat.

Come on now.

I'll grab this chair.

[light emotional music]

When they found Davante, my grandbaby,

I felt relieved.

Relieved?

Yeah, well, we had him cremated and had a little service.

But I felt relieved.

You know why?

No, ma'am.

Because [chuckles painfully] Davante,

Lord have mercy...

he had hurt so many innocent people.

Oh.

Yeah, my grandson hadn't...

he hadn't found his peace yet.

It's hard.

It's hard for me to say this out loud.

But a lot of mothers

and grandmothers will never say it.

They just can't.

But he was dangerous.

He blamed me for how I raised him.

He blamed his mama because she abandoned him.

Him and his young siblings.

And left them right here with me.

[sniffs] I felt relief putting him to rest.

And Lord knows I did everything I could for him.

Ma'am, I'm sure you did.

I sure as hell did.

I, I worked.

I made a good home for him.

But he still chose the streets.

I can't do nothing about that.

Ever since that boy could walk,

I was running behind him, trying to make him be good.

to do good.

To raise him to care.

But he didn't.

Oh, that was it.

I...

I tried.

I prayed for him.

Every Sunday.

Sowing seeds.

I... I...

To tell you the truth, I...

I ain't spoke to him or seen him in two years.

Wow. I'm sorry.

He was...

dangerous to a lot of people. He hurt a lot of people.

But when he hurt me,

that was the last straw.

So you see, I feel relieved.

For many, many reasons.

I did the same thing to my mom.

I gave her hell

until she finally sent me to live with my dad.

Unlike Davante,

I had a second chance.

I know why you came.

I know why you've been giving me this money.

But let me tell you this.

Let it go.

Don't carry that guilt.

It's a cross that you can't bear by yourself.

Give it to the Lord.

Yes, ma'am.

Can I pray for you?

Yes, please.

Dear Heavenly Father,

thank You for this young man.

I pray that You would watch over him.

Help him, Father. Help him to move forward.

Give him the peace in his heart, the same peace You gave me.

Have Your way, Lord.

Guide him, teach him, show him the way.

And give him peace.

In the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.

Amen.

Oh, no. I can't. Um...

No, you've got to take it back.

Yes, ma'am.

If you're ever, ever feeling bad,

you know where I live.

I'd love to hear from you.

I, um, I don't know if that's the best thing.

My name is Thelma.

My name's Tony.

Well, you have a blessed rest of your life.

Tony.

You too, Thelma.

-You take care of yourself, now. -Thank you.

What time are the boys coming over?

-Whenever they want. -Okay.

You sure you don't want us to come with you?

No, it's girls' night. Y'all enjoy yourselves here.

-All right. -Oh.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Zac, what is all this stuff?

sh*t.

You think Leslie could have

gotten Malachi to send us a b*mb?

sh*t.

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