11x12 - Into the Dark

[bunniefuu]

This is a nasty place.

You gotta be damn tough...

And damn stubborn to still be
here doing this right now.

Go home, guys.

Building this lean-to
reminds me of my family.

I miss them.

My boy is turning 12.

My last coney head.

I hated to miss his birthday.

I'll remember
this meal forever.

I've got one toe
that's super painful.

No.

I need my sleeping bag.

I'm losing all feeling.

Med check.

This has gotta be it.

Dub Paetz, the winner
of season 11 "Alone."

Oh, [bleep].

OK.

Firewood patrol.

It's harder every day
to get this damn wood, man.

I was really let down
today when I found out

that I wasn't done, man.

I thought, holy crap, dude.

They got my dad or my mom
or my sister or somebody

hidden in that helicopter,

and they're gonna
sneak around right now.

But that didn't happen.

I was like,
what the hell, dude?

Come on.

This can't be real.

I never should have
allowed myself to--

to let that sink in, that I--

I was gonna go home.

I should have just continued
on with the thought process

of do not set expectations
that you aren't sure of,

because you could be here
for a lot longer still.

And here we are.

We're here for who knows--

we still might be here
another 30-plus days.

Get back to work, dude.

You never know, man.

Whoever that is out there,
they might have kids, dude.

They're gonna miss those kids,

and they're gonna probably
want to go home for that.

All right, I think
I'm gonna go fishing.

Let me feel that sweet strike.

It's so crazy not having
the sun ever come up.

Goes to the edge of
the horizon and never pops.

What the hell is gonna happen
in permanent darkness?

I'm in a desperate situation.

I got a couple of days worth
of food left, at the most.

I'm gonna think positively.

Negativity is freaking
cancer out here.

I'll tell you, this has
been the hardest thing

I've ever done in my life.

And it's not necessarily
the survival part of it.

It's the not pushing the button
part that's been hard.

It's so easy to do.

It's just one moment
of weakness,

and you push it,
and boom, you're gone.

But it's the kind of thing
that can come back

to haunt you and regret--

and have regrets
the rest of your life.

About 30 years ago,
my dad had the opportunity

to buy a cabin on a particular
river that he loves,

that we both loved.

And he let somebody
talk him out of buying it,

and he's regretted it
for his entire life.

Dude, one little quick
decision can bring

so much haunting
and so much pain.

So that's what
that red button is.

The red button is
a dream-crushing k*ller

that's got a nice little
sugar coating on it.

And once you push it...

You get the sugar,

but you don't get the big cake
that's--that's coming

after it if you push--
push on through and wait.

T-shirt full of moose.

And that's not all of it.

That's not all of it.

Mmm.

That's good.

Every now and then you just
find a piece of jerky

that's so much better
than the rest.

All right, I'm gonna go have
a look at the fish lines.

I know I can go past
100 days on the jerky.

But once I get down
to eating only jerky,

I know that's gonna play
a major factor

in where I'm at in my mind.

My gums just bleed.

My teeth are tore up
from eating it.

So I'd really like to get
more fresh meat and fish.

My ice fishing--so far,

the results have been
really disappointing.

I'm not sure if the pike have
largely left my little zone

of the river or if
they're doing something

completely different.

But my instincts
tell me I'm missing

some opportunities there.

Let's see if there's been any
action on these fish lines.

And the only thing
different is that

I put guts on it yesterday.

So some slight chance
to be eager about.

No.

I think everybody
in the whole world

ought to do "Alone," really.

I think it would help
everyone.

It's helped me so much.

And I've loved it.

This is my thing, you know?

I'm a wild man.
I love the wilderness.

I just love the wilderness.

Out here, I've experienced

some huge windfalls of food

and also food insecurity.

There's something there,
I think.

Nope.

Empty.

And I'm thinking about
all those people

that I've seen
in conflict zones

and disaster zones that have
to live with that reality

as their life.

They don't have a button
that they can push

to be like, OK, I'm done.

I want food now.

And I think to exist
as a human in this world

and not look into that
and see if there's

something that we can do,
it's a shame of an existence.

Oh, well.

I'm gonna go get a fish
out of the food cache.

All right, guys, I want
to show you what I have.

I have a chunk of fish.

I was gonna cook this whole
thing for supper tonight.

But let me tell you,
it struck my mind

how many children tonight
won't have a meal at all.

And it breaks my heart.

And I'm gonna take the tail
section of this fish

that I would have eaten,

and instead of
cooking it tonight,

I'm gonna put it right here,

and maybe a wild animal
will come get it,

maybe a pine marten
that's been running around

or a gray jays.

They'll eat it, for sure.

But instead of eating
that tail section,

I want to raise awareness
for those children

who won't have anything
to eat tonight.

That is more important

than a piece of fish
and a warm meal.

A snowy day in the Northland.

Boy, we got a snowy day
in the Northland.

Yep.

Old lean-to behind me.

Boy, it's getting a little
better all the time.

A few small branches here.

I'll fill all that in now.

That's the plan, no?

A cup of coffee now
wouldn't hurt.

The wife's chocolate cake
and dream whip

would be all right too.

I don't know why, but that's
the only thing I really crave.

Something sweet, I guess.

Whoo-whee.

Ooh, I'll tell you.

Ooh.

First thing I gotta do is
check the rabbit snares.

The days are getting
super short,

and it'll be getting colder
and colder and colder.

This late in the game,

you spend a lot of time
in the tilt.

Right there.

I'm always looking
for fresh rabbit tracks.

Very encouraging,
what I'm seeing here.

Set a couple more rabbit
snares over this way now.

I can't let my food stock
go too low.

I'm getting hunger pangs.

I think about my wife's
chocolate cake every night.

Pretty much that's all I do,
dream of food.

But I think that's because
I'm missing her, too.

Yeah, that's pretty good.

Yeah, I'm just gonna check
the ice fishing hole.

The old net hasn't
been producing lately.

I'm well at fishing,

and she's, like,
rock solid in, like,

being able
to look after things.

But you just--you never know.

I just hope
everything's going well.

The mama whitefish,
that's what we're going after.

I really miss her.

No fish.

The water levels has dropped.

Yeah, that's not good.

No rabbits, nothing in the net.

Oh, God.

My hair froze in it.

Guys, I'm really nervous
because I've come this far.

I really want to win this.

And now, ladies and gentlemen,

it is finally time for the epic
conclusion of Trial by Fire.

The tribes are assembled.

Alliances are forming.

Give it all you've got, guys.

Five.

Ah!

Seven players remain,
and I am one of them.

A lot of broken alliances
last time.

Short Johnny came up short.

Ah!

The stakes are high.

Let's keep it tight.

Guys, I'm in the third
voting position.

Alexandra is second,
and Daryl is first.

Three!

One vote for three.

Guys, I got one vote.

At least I will not be
going home

with a big goose egg, no votes.

I got one vote,
and there's still a chance.

Three! Another vote.

That puts Timber
and Alexandra even.

I'm so nervous.

A two.

And it is Alexandra
who wins Trial by Fire!

I cannot believe this!

I cannot believe it--
it was close with Timber,

but I was right
to make alliance

and go with him, to trust him.

We gotta the end, and I won.

And just so
you guys know, in real life,

my wife's middle name
is Alexandra.

So this is who I'm
picturing this whole time

with this cool player
in the middle.

Eh-eh-eh,

so cheesy and sappy,
but I like it.

It's supposed to be morning,
late morning.

The sun scarcely comes up
at all now,

but it's light enough to see
for a few hours.

And it cannot dampen
our spirits.

So I'm gonna check
the snare lines.

I have a couple snares to check
just right close to camp

because I saw tracks
from a hare.

He came hopping through camp.

I guess he moved in
from somewhere.

Hadn't seen hare tracks
in ages.

I saw a set of hare tracks,

so I set a couple
of those yesterday.

And then just decide
how to k*ll my time the rest--

Yes!

Look at this. Look at this.

Look at this.
Look at this.

Yes.

Yes, yes, yes.

Yes.

Ha-ha!

Nailed him right here,
right close to camp.

Yeah!

Yeah.

A nice hare.

Nice, big fatty.

Yes.

Yes!

The connection that
I've shared with this land

and every form of life
that lives on it

is deeper than
words can express.

I value its life
and its meat and its innards.

Rah, rah, rah, rah.

In my mind, I'm already
sucking its lungs and heart

out of its chest
after it's boiled.

This is gonna be delicious.

This is the most pure life
that I've ever lived,

the most pure connection
with nature that

I've ever experienced
and enjoyed.

And it's because
my very life and existence

was dependent on it.

Take you back to camp.

The wild places of this world

mean the same thing to me

now that they've always meant,

but in a deeper way now,

because I've truly tasted it
for long enough

to know that
it is where I belong.

All right.

Now, Levi, Elliot,

you remember how
I taught you to do it.

You take the lower
jawbone off first,

then you take them apart.

And you use the jawbone
as a scoop

to scoop out the brains.

That's a "for sure
you gotta do it" step

because otherwise, it's hard
to get the brains out.

The back part of the brain
comes first.

You take your scooper,
and you begin--

ow, it's burning my fingers--

to scoop.

And there.

A delicious morsel of brain.

It's good.

I miss my family a lot,

but I'm really
enjoying this hare.

♪ Who wants to

♪ Live in the Arctic

♪ Well, let me tell you
something, friend ♪

♪ Ooh

♪ It's not
a nice place to live ♪

♪ In the middle of winter

Oh, now come on, pike.

Let's go, please.

♪ I'm gonna lose my mind

I really, really need
to get some food.

Pretty bold move here.

That's about all
I have left in my cache

is one part of a burbot.

Dude.

Look at that big
hunk of burbot.

The hardest job
in the world right now

is just staying alive.

Man, my hands and feet...

Cold as the damn Dickens.

I knew it was gonna get cold,
and I prepared for cold.

But this caliber of cold,

I didn't realize existed.

And it's to the point where
I'm sleeping every night

in my snow pants
with two pairs of socks.

And then I stuff my feet
inside mittens

just to keep my toes
from getting frostbite.

But it's still cold as hell.

Oh, my goodness.

I needed that.

And I've got
20 hours of darkness

in a small shelter
every night,

and it's just me.

And I get a taste of
what it feels like to really

not have any
human interaction.

And it's exactly like
solitary confinement.

You can leave this prison,
though, if you want,

but then you're
gonna be incarcerated

after you leave here

because you have to live
with the decision.

Not a very good broth, dude.

It's warm, though.

I'm running on fumes.

I wish I could just
go to sleep and, like,

be done with this day.

There's only so much sleep
my body can take.

And then it's like, OK,
you gotta be awake.

And it's a freaking
constant battle of--

of hey, Dub...

Push the button.
It'll be great.

You can go do fun things
and do stuff.

And then it's like, hey, Dub,
you push that button,

you're gonna regret it
for the rest of your life.

If I have a bunch of food
and I--and I feel secure,

then it's not--

it doesn't happen as much.

But when I'm low on food,
like I am right now,

it's like a constant loop,
and it's driving me insane.

That frightens me

because food supplies are
scarce out there.

I can't snare rabbits
that don't exist.

I can't trap all this stuff
that's not here.

I do need food coming in
because that's gonna be

the end of me
if I don't have it.

And it turns my brain
into overdrive

trying to solve it.

And there's nothing I can do
besides fish harder.

So here's what's happened.

I brought this belt right here.

It's the color
of a brook trout.

So I just cut a chunk off it,
about this much.

And here's what I've done.

This is gonna work
freaking good, you guys.

So here's my--my lure, right?

So what I've done is I make--

I pop a little hole

where I want my stitch to be,

like that.

It's a time-consuming process.

But just like that,
I've managed to secure

this 7/0 hook
onto this piece of belt

that looks exactly like
a damn fish.

It's just gonna--it's gonna,
like, dart around,

which is the perfect action
you could have

to attract pike to strike.

I guarantee we're gonna get
big fish on that.

I love it.

It's not over for Dub.

Another very comfortable
night in the tilt.

I am very blessed
for this tilt.

It worked out better
than expected, way better.

I bet the little fella
would like one.

I will do it in the backyard,
back out in the bushes.

My food supply now is good,
but it's not great.

So my main focus is
try to cache more food.

See if there's any fresh track
of anything over that way.

My strategy right now is
just go after food to cache.

If I get rabbits,
well, then that prolongs

the fish that I got.

It gives me a chance now
to catch some more,

because the weather
could turn,

and then it could be hard.

Two more snares.

A bit of rabbit--
a bit of rabbit liver

in the morning would be nice.

That would be awesome.

I worked up a sweat.

I was going too fast, man.

Slow it in.

Walking back and forth over
that hill too many times

just takes a lot of energy
to get over there.

I've been doing
a lot more exertion

that I planned to,
walking and carrying

around all the different gear.

So now I really gotta be
careful what I do,

especially this late
in the game,

because I don't want
to get hurt

and get pulled
before I'm done.

I got a rabbit!
I got a rabbit!

Oh, blessed redeemers.

Look at that.

Oh, my God.

We're gonna fix him up, see?

Well, well, well, well.

That was a total shock,
you know?

Oh, man.

Whoo-hoo!

For a while, I didn't think

there was even one left
in the world.

After such a nifty spell
with nothing,

that is a total surprise.

The snare's good.

I'm just gonna reset
the same one here again.

Oh, merciful, this is so good.

Days and days and days,
never seen a grouse

or rabbit track, or nothing.

You never know
what to expect out here.

Oh, what a beautiful rabbit.

If I win this money,
this will allow me

to get out of the fishery
earlier.

Kiki, me, and Whit, we're
gonna do some marvelous things

and enjoy some time
with, you know, the kids.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, my gosh.

Good old hot food.

Look at this.

Mmm.

Ah, so long since
I had rabbit liver.

It's, oh, so good.

Mmm.

That is so dang good.

That was a real morale booster.

It's snowing hard.

It is significantly
below freezing right now.

Cold hands. Cold hands.

So cozy.

Every night, I have no idea
how cold it been.

Hopefully it blows it
overnight,

and we get a good day
tomorrow,

and we'll be extra productive.

Boy, the snow is
really drifting.

Oh, my God.

I think it's gonna do this
until doomsday,

when we all descend
to Niflheim,

where the frozen cold
will never release us.

That was, by far,
the coldest night

I've ever had in my life.

I tossed and turned
for many, many hours.

There's gonna be a lot of snow,

a hell of a lot of snow
out there.

So to make it
even down to the--

the ice holes is gonna be
a pain in the butt.

But I'll tell you what.

I'm not joking
when I say I'm gonna be

out there fishing my a*s off.

Holy crap, look at that.

My door is--usually falls
straight to the ground.

It was one heck
of a storm last night.

I can't see where I've been.

All my trails that I've
been working are all gone.

.

Oh, my God, I just walked
away from the fire.

Feet are already [bleep].

There it is, my lure.

I'm gonna try
fishing for a little

until I can't take it anymore.

I hope I win, but I don't have

a lot of days left
to get that title.

My body does not have
the reserves

to be out here
starving to death.

This is for all the marbles.

And I'm right at
the finish line.

I know there's only one
or two people left, for sure.

A fish right now would be
the only thing

that could pull me from
the edge of the cliff I'm on,

with the whole financial future
of my life with me on it.

How are they not hitting?

It's such a good spot.

Boy, it's a cold one.

The colder I get,
the less sleep I get,

the more I start worrying
about my parents.

And there's a sheet that you
sign when you come in here,

and you check a box that says,

please notify me
of family emergencies,

please do not notify me
of family emergencies.

You check one of those boxes.

So I said, do not tell me
about family emergencies

because it's gonna
compromise my ability

to stay in the competition.

And now it's been so long,
and I'm like, oh, crap, dude.

I'm out here having
to live with that.

That goes through my head
all the time.

And there's no way anybody
could possibly understand,

when you're isolated
with no distractions

for 20-plus hours a day
in a small, little space,

where your mind goes
and what it thinks about

and the kind of stories
it can create out of thin air.

Where are the fish at?

I always tell myself, it's OK.

But what if it's not?

.

This place, man.

What do I gotta do?

Nothing on that.

Oh, we're in trouble.

So much trouble.

Breathe. It's OK.

You're gonna make it.

Five.

My heart's just
fricking pounding.

I can barely breathe.

And I can't--

dude, I can't do anything.

I can't--how can I go walk
someplace to go hunting

or to--to somewhere
where I can find food

if I can't walk up a freaking
small little hill, like--

like I'm walking up right now?

I've tried everything, man.

My body's missing--
my body's missing something.

It's missing some sort
of nutrient or something.

And it doesn't work.

I mean, I don't know--

I don't know if what's wrong
with me is, like,

gonna just go away
and I'll be normal, or if I'm,

like, permanently doing damage
to my body that I can't fix.

Like, I might be walking
around like I'm 90 year old--

90 years old forever
because of whatever it is

I'm doing to my body.

There is every single reason
in the world for me

to stop right now, to quit
and leave and feel OK about it.

But all the dreams
I've been, like, building

in my head for--for the months
that I've been here,

all get wiped out
the moment I hit that button.

I'm worried about
my--my family.

I don't know how they are.

I don't know what to do, man.

How the hell?

How do I freaking tap out?

It hurts to walk.

This is bad.

I'll never have another
chance at this kind of money.

To think of going home
without it is a bummer.

But to think of going home
to a passed-away family member

is a lot worse than that.

I think I got it.

Hey, this is Dub.

I'm officially tapping out.

It's time to go.

I'm tapping out
for so many reasons.

It's like, I'm tapping out
for my health.

I'm tapping out because
I want to see my mom,

which is--which seems insane.

It's like, three months
is not that long.

I go three months all the time
without seeing my mom.

But at least I talk to her,
and at least I know she's OK.

I mean, I know
I could do it physically.

I can--I can sit by the fire,
and I can--

I can do it.

But mentally, is it worth--

is it worth me getting out
of here with a bunch of money

and then having something wrong
with my mom or my dad

or--or them just being gone?

I mean, how the hell am
I gonna live with that

for the rest of my life?

Money comes and goes,
but family, you only get one.

And they're all I got, man.

Turns out I like people
more than I thought.

That's why I'm going home,
because--

because I want to be
by people again.

It's like, being alone
is pointless.

Why?

Making the call was just as
hard as I envisioned it being.

Yes, I'm officially
tapping out.

That's a painful batch
of words right there.

But this experience
has made me realize

that I'm capable of
a hell of a lot more

than I ever thought I was.

I've always loved nature,

and I've spent
a lot of time in it,

but I've never really
been so immersed into it.

And for once, I guess I became

part of--like, the legit part
of the ecosystem.

Like, I was in
the Arctic battle,

just like every other animal.

It's a connection that most
people could never imagine,

and I'll never forget it.

I've always thought

being alone was
the right thing for me

until I was really,
truly alone.

There's no reason for me
to put myself

in solitary confinement

because I'm afraid of the pain

that may be caused
by other people.

Some people might be bad,

but a lot of people are good.

We are made to be
social animals.

And I'm not impervious to
the laws of humanity, I guess.

And it's so much more
than that.

I get to talk to my mom.

That moment is gonna be
worth $500,000 to me.

I was thinking back
this morning,

laying in the sleeping bag,
about the phases

that I've gone through
being out here.

In the early part,

there's life's heart
beating everywhere.

There's waterfowl making
such a ruckus.

There's fish striking.

I was so content.

But as freeze-up starts
to happen,

the land got really silent.

The heartbeat of the land
itself stopped,

and everything went colorless.

And that, I realized,
is what started to wear on me

is--is that--

that silence and colorlessness
and absolute lack of life

making the isolation feel
so intense.

And the noises in your head are
so loud and deafening

that they can overwhelm you.

For me, it overwhelms me,
looks like.

You start to search inside
yourself for meaning,

for something to think of
to break up the monotony

and give you a reason
to keep thinking.

You know,
you got plans at home.

You got other life
outside there.

But you've gotta be
real careful with those,

'cause those can make you
super miserable.

Um...

Yeah.

I'm gonna check
the fish lines.

I feel like the end of my nose
is gonna get frostbite

if I don't bury it up in here.

Ugh.

It's too cold for this boy.

Telling ya.

But there's still water under
the snow on top of the ice.

It just freezes all over you,

get on the bottom
of your boots.

That was a big crack under me.

Big ice crack.

The river ice sucks.

It's dangerous, and it sucks.

You can't fish in this.

I can't.

I don't know how to.

So I'm gonna pull
all the fish stuff.

The ice continually
has me worried.

I'm walking through
big, slushy water

on top of the ice.

And even being out there
to ice fish at all

is not only risky
for falling through...

Just want to get this hook
and get out of here.

But it's risky to all my gear,

just for the amount of ice
that it clumps on me

before I come home
and go back to my shelter,

from all that slushy water.

It's kind of miserable.

So now I have to hope
for more hares.

And then I'm gonna eat
just as much jerky

as my teeth will allow me.

Yeah.

We'll go and check the rest
of our rabbit snares.

At this point in the game,

I've got a limited
food supply.

I know, at the beginning,
I had a really good chance.

But as time goes on,
I'm getting

more skeptical
in my mind because

I'm pretty sure somebody got
either a moose or a bear.

I don't want to go home,
but I don't know

how long it's gonna take
to win this.

Yeah.

You know, I've done a lot.

I've lived a lot
of vibrant life out here.

I've received everything
I've asked for out here,

except the money.

I've--I have a vision
for the future.

I know what's next
for our family,

and I'm ready to get
that life started.

I could make this go on
much longer.

But all I'd be thinking about
each day is the money

and trying to impress people
or something.

And I don't need
to prove anything.

I've--I am who I am.

And as I think about who else
might be out here,

I know that it will go
way past 100 days.

There's no chance
that either one of us

taps out for pain or hunger.

There's no chance.

So what am I doing?

I'm gonna turn this camera off.

Looking at it is
a little too much right now.

It's so hard to do.

I hoped that it wouldn't
turn on, but it turned on.

Them buttons are hot fire.

I can't do it.

Not today.

Good morning, everybody.

I'm enjoying this enough,

and I'm in good enough health.

I could easily do this to 100.

But it's just kind of
going on and on, just for--

for what?

For what now?

For money.

Today, it started
feeling pointless.

Like, why?

Unexpectedly, this thought
has pressed itself through

into my mind.

What if I go ahead
and win this money?

What'll happen to me
in my work

that I've dedicated
my life to?

Every family I meet needs
$10,000, $15,000

to emigrate
to somewhere better.

It could never reach
all of them.

This is a tough juncture.

And after I give away the last
dollar to the next person,

they may not understand
that it's gone because

it's a fortune too big
to imagine.

So would this money
create a barrier

between me
and those very people

that I would be
trying to help?

Throughout this time, my love
and value for this work

has only deepened
as my connection with life

through nature
has been strengthened.

So I don't want
all of this good

that I've gained to get lost

in the meaningless
and the suck.

And I think
I've received everything,

besides the money,
that I can possibly receive

from something like this.

I've done 83 days.

And I've succeeded

because I've finished

with the questions
that I had for God.

I know how to approach
life with my family

so much better,

since I'm at peace
with my own existence.

And I can go home, and I can
watch this with my boys

on the couch and be proud
of every moment.

I've seen God feed me
every day on this land.

So, in my heart, I know that
He will provide the money,

day by day,
so we can continue to do

this humanitarian work
that we love.

What more could I ask?

Hi, um, this is Timber,

and I'm officially
tapping out today.

83 days, you guys.

It's good.

I would've won,
by far, most seasons.

This is how I want it, guys.

This is how I want it.

You know, the--the Arctic
is not too much for me.

Um, I'm not being forced out
by anything.

I overcame the limits.

I've tested myself.

So I have to choose each day,
what's the right way?

And for tomorrow,
the right way is for me

to go be with my family.

I'm super happy.

I'm happier than
I've been in years.

I feel alive.

I feel fully alive again.

I've had a lot
of baggage with me

from experiences
in the past few years.

Um...

and I feel that I've really,
really won the battle.

I'm proud of having lived

the realest life
a man can live.

So I'll take my moose head,
put it in my house

that I'll build someday.

And it'll be awesome.

As I pack up my tools
and I pack up all my things,

the main thought
running through my head

is that I could have brought
my wife here to see this.

But I know that I'll be
seeing her soon enough at home

and that she will understand
and agree with

the reasons that I ended it.

I want my children
to see the true victory

in the immaterial things

like integrity and joy
and resilience

and the ways that I've walked
through this journey,

which I know
I can be proud of.

And I just want my children
to see those

as the real victory
rather than $500,000.

I think my case shows everyone
that if you believe

that the show is all about
k*ll big game and win,

you're wrong.

It's not.

There's so many more layers.

I k*lled big game.

I'm not the winner.

It's not a 1 plus 1 equals 2.

Survival itself is much
more complex than that.

This has been
my absolute dream life.

"Alone" is the gold standard
test of survivalists.

And I know that
I have passed the test.

In survival, it's so easy
to say you can do one thing,

and it's impossible to prove.

But if you do 83 days
on "Alone,"

you've showed that
you can do it.

Good morning,
good morning, good morning.

Bottom of me left foot feels
a bit funny today.

Almost like I have
something--you know,

if there was a little
something in your boot,

and it chafed
or something, like.

Nothing serious,
but it just feels funny.

I looked at it,
I couldn't see nothing.

So I don't know.

Have a little look at
my family, the ladies there,

God bless them.

Oh, boy, a long time.

Oh.

I miss my family and my pets.

Who wouldn't?

But you just gotta stay
mentally strong

and take it day by day.

Yep.

. What a piece of crap.

In my mind, I'm thinking,
it's day 84.

I feel good.

But, you know...

You know, I want that record.

I want--and I want
to win so bad.

I know, without a fact,
that I'll never call in.

Go home with gas in the tank
and think on that,

that I could have stayed
another day?

That'd destroy me.

So if I lose this,
I prefer to be pulled.

How's your health been?

Uh, good, really good.

I'm gonna need you to pull
that toque off

quickly, too.
- Oh, sh**t.

If the doctor said
your toes froze too much

and you gotta go,
well, it's all I could do.

Like, I can't do nothing else.

Give them a wiggle.

Yeah.

Take a nice, big, deep
breath for me, Will.

And out.

You're all good.

Emotionally,
how are you feeling?

Uh, good.

You know, like everyone else,

you're gonna miss your family

and stuff like that, you know?

But--but, you know,
Christmas is the only thing

I kind of worry about.

You know, we go so late.

But I'm here this far.

I've gone this far
and gone this long

that there's no stopping.

And long-term strategy?

Well, I don't know what
"long term" means anymore

after this late in the game.

You know what I mean?

You know, it's getting--it's
getting well up there now.

What would you say
you miss the most?

Yeah, I can't--my family.

I can't say just--
but I miss my boy,

you know, because I know
he's more sensitive,

like, in that sense, like.

But--but, you know?

Do you think your sons
would be proud of you?

Oh, my God, yes.

Yes, indeed.

Most--yeah.

I know when I sees them,
they're gonna give me

a bear hug like
you wouldn't believe.

He'd probably strangle me now.

Ah!
- Will, you won!

- I did?
- You did!

Oh, God!

Jesus.

Let me look at you.

Oh, my God!

You're so pretty.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God,
let me look at you again.

Oh, my God, you did it.

- I can't believe it.
- You did it!

Oh, my God.

I love you so much!

Oh, my God, Will.

Oh, my God,
how--how's the kids?

They're doing good.

Oh, God.

I love me tilt,
but no more tilt.

Oh, my God.

Go, go, go, go, go crawl
in me tilt.

Have a look.

I can show you me tilt.

Oh, my God.

Crawl in and lie down.

You just lived in that?

Can you fit in there?

Ah.

This is where I spent
all those nights.

After, like, day 50 or 60
or something, it was like,

oh, my God, is he, like, dying?

And then I went back,
and I looked at, like,

the last text message
that you sent,

and it said that you'll be
out here as long as it takes.

And then I was like, OK,
I just need to calm down

and stop worrying
because he's just gonna

be out there for as long
as it takes.

Oh, my God.

This is the biggest dream
that you could dream of.

And now it's
actually happening.

I mean, I couldn't be happier.

Oh, my God, you got so small.

What?

You should see my--
you should've seen my belt.

All the little holes
I had to chisel in

and keep moving them down.

The greatest adventure
of my life.

I really can't--it's unreal.

I gotta start
writing stuff down.

Oh, my God.

I was eating boiled fish
and boiled meat

now for 80-odd days.

You ever has a champion of
champions, I'm coming back, OK?

No, no, no.

I can't believe it.

To have my wife here with me
where I spent all this time,

to see where I've been,
I'm over the moon,

because that was a crucial
part of my motivation

that kept me going.

It was super special.

You just--a moment
that, like, I'll relive

in my mind time and time
and time again going forward.

My family is everything to me.

That's why I would
never quit because I knew

if I was successful, their
future is gonna be brighter.

Winning this prize,
this $500,000,

allows us to do things we
never thought possible before.

A dream of the wife's
was to move back

to her home community.

I want to make her
dream come true.

This money will allow us to be
able to bring our family back

and raise them in that
small community atmosphere

that we really think
is important.

It will also secure
the kids' education.

It's a life-changing
moment for our family.

Our future just got
way brighter.

I think staying
positive out here

played a crucial role,
especially in the latter

part of the game.

And, you know,
to survive for 84 days,

I think I even got more mental
strength than I realized.

I am resilient the way I am

just because of the way
I grew up.

I come from a community with
a lot of pride, hard workers.

So I went out with
that same kind of drive,

the same work ethic.

You always gotta find
new ways around things.

Everybody has trouble,
but how you react

and deal with it is what
really makes the difference.

I'm so happy that the skills
that I learned from my parents

and what I learned from
the Indigenous people,

all that come together
to make this successful.

You cannot come in here

and pretend to be
somebody else.

You've gotta take the tools
with the skills you got.

And I have definitely proven
that you do not have to

get big game to win "Alone."

I'm a Labradorian,
true and strong.

It's who I am.

It's in my DNA.

It's a part of me.

Nothing but good things
is gonna come from this,

not only in my community,

but in all the communities
across Labrador.

When I go back, they're
gonna be super excited.

I'm proud of my little shelter
and what I accomplished there,

and I'm really happy with
the obstacles I overcame.

It's a little sad, you know,
to walk away from it,

but I know I will be
back here again someday.

The stuff that happened here,

I'll be talking about
for the rest of my life

and sharing with others.

I'm a part of this land now.

I'm proud of it,
super proud of it.